Earth Day Celebration

Victoria Shepherd Rao

Marsha Sharp, Worship Associate

17 April 2005

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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PRAYER

Excerpted from Manitongquat’s Prayer,

 in Honoring Earth: A Seventh Principle Project Worship Resource

O Humankind, are we not all brothers and sisters,

 are we not the grandchildren of the Great Mystery?

 Do we not all want to love and be loved,

 to work and to play,

 to sing and dance together?

But we live with fear.

Fear that is hate, fear that is mistrust, envy, greed, vanity.

Fear that is ambition, competition, aggression.

Fear that is loneliness, anger, bitterness, cruelty

And yet, fear is only twisted love,

love turned back on itself,

love that was denied, love that was rejected.

And love.

Love is life – creation, seed and leaf

and blossom and fruit and seed.

Love is growth and search and reach and touch and dance.

Love is life believing in itself.

And life life is the Sacred Mystery singing to itself,

dancing to its drum, telling stories, improvising, playing.

And we are all that Spirit,

Our stories tell but one cosmic story that we are love indeed.

That perfect love in me seeks the love in you.

And if our eyes could ever meet without fear

we would recognize each other and rejoice,

for love is life believing in itself. 

So may it be.

Manitongquat is a medicine man of the Wampanoag Nation. He delivered this prayer at the First Rainbow Gathering in 1971.

AFFIRMATION OF FAITH: “Wealth”

Marsha Sharp

What is the first thing that pops into your head when I say the word WEALTH? I’ll bet it had something to do with money. In our U.S. culture, when one speaks of wealth, most of us are trained to think in terms of monetary values.

The “wealth” I’m speaking about today includes not only money, but also health (both physical and mental), natural resources, friends, family-our relatively high quality of life.

As a nation, we crab about the cost of gasoline, but look at how many cars are on the road and how many cars are parked in one driveway. We grouse about the cost of health care and the lack of health care. We support one colossal weight-loss industry and yet we are probably the fattest nation in the world. Even many of our poor, when compared to the world’s poor, are wealthy.

I recently finished a fascinating book by Jared Diamond called “Collapse.” In it he relates how ancient and modern societies succeeded or collapsed. What happens when a society strips its natural resources such as forests and minerals? What happens when populations explode beyond what the society is able to support? What happens when non-native species are introduced into an eco-system that has developed over millennia? How do people survive who are so wedded to their native cultures and customs that they are unable to adopt survival skills in order to survive in a foreign land? In all of these situations, cultures and populations live on the brink and then finally fail. What all of these situations have in common are the issues of survival and quality of life.

Every day we interact with people who grew up in other cultures and are striving to have better lives than the ones they left behind. The world is truly global. All those Third World nations now have televisions and the internet and are discovering what they’ve been missing out on all these years. The world’s resources can only go so far. In order for everyone-and I mean EVERYONE-to have the standards we have, we will have to lower our First World standards in order to even begin leveling the playing field. Are we willing to do that? What are we willing to give up in order to have equity in the world? To find equity just in our own country?

I will be the first to admit I love my creature comforts. I like having a car, a warm, secure home to live in, indoor toilets, running hot and cold water IN my house, plenty of food, nice clothes, a job. What am I willing to give up? I never lived as my grandparents did as children-growing everything they ate, living hand to mouth, no retirement, outdoor plumbing, well water, making everything they wore. They, and my parents, strived to make things better for their progeny and they succeeded. Our generation strives to do the same.

But in light of all the desires and needs of the rest of the world, what will happen? Will the next two generations after ours strive to lower the standards for their offspring in order for the entire world to survive? Have we already begun to train our children not to expect more? Or have they, like us, become well-trained to indeed expect more?

And what is that “more?” Is it just monetary? I hope it includes taking care of oneself to reduce preventable health problemsincludes healthy relationships with family and friendsincludes using our resources prudentlyincludes limiting our populations. I believe it makes a difference what that “more” is.

Now, what is the first thing that pops into your head when I say the word WEALTH?

SERMON

Happy Earth Day and congratulations on your Green Sanctuary certification. Cathy has told you about the Green Sanctuary Program of the Seventh Principle Project, an affiliated organization of the UUA dedicated to helping UUs walk the talk of the association’s seventh principle, the one that calls on us to “respect the interdependent web of all existence of which we are a part.”

There is something about the phrasing of this principle that seems belabored. I like the way it is expressed for the kids better: “We care for Earth’s lifeboat.” Now that arouses some vivid imagery. Like we are all in a giant Noah’s Ark, drifting around the vast universe together. It presses the point that we are all completely dependent on our little blue green vessel. That is the truth of our existential nature that we dwell on the surface of this amazing biosphere. It is strong and steady with an amazing capacity to recycle natural materials and renew itself. The variety of life forms and the adaptability of them to their environments it is not just Darwin’s evolutionary idea, it is a profound source of human joy and awe.

One of my favorite bible lines is from the gospel of Mark. Jesus is teaching about the realm of God, or the source of all creation. He said, “The [realm] of God is as if someone would scatter seed on the ground and would sleep and rise night and day, and the seed would sprout and grow, he does not know how. The Earth produces of itself.” (Mk.4:26-28 NRSV). I love the admission of the limit to human understanding. We do not know how life comes into being (though fantastic progress has been made in understanding the mechanics of life with DNA and genome research) and we sure do not know why. When we ask these basic questions, we have to confront the limits of our human condition and the mystery which is at the center of earthly existence. Whether you believe in Creation or evolution, it is impossible to avoid mystery. In the face of the unknowable we more easily turn to a deep sense of gratitude for life, thankful for the gift of it, conscious of the grace by which we live and are sustained in this world.

Yet we hear it in the news daily, it is all bad news when it comes to the environment. Pollution is killing the life in the oceans. Scientists don’t expect the coral reefs to last past 2050. The pollution from gas emissions is warming the atmosphere and the planet, melting the glaciers, melting the polar ice caps, causing violent weather changes, including hurricanes and flooding. Wilderness is sacrificed to development. Species are losing their habitats, becoming extinct and upsetting whole ecosystems. The human population is pressing the supportive capacity of Earth. The nuclear waste from reactors is vulnerable to terrorist attacks and could poison whole regions rendering them uninhabitable for tens of thousands of years. Global free enterprise and corporate interests are given access to national markets and the rights to profitable business enterprise trump the human rights of workers to a basic living wage, growing the gap between the richest and the poorest in every nation and part of the world. Scientists can measure how and make projections on the rates at which humanity is destroying this biosphere. They have been calling out warnings for decades. Environmentalists have joined in the chorus to remind us that there is nowhere else to go. We know it even if we often deny it or ignore it.

There is no way to bail out and if we want to live, we are stuck here, together, on Earth. The nineteenth century’s most influential theologian, Friedrich Schleiermacher, had a definition of religion which aptly develops the lifeboat imagery, he said religion was about having “the consciousness of being absolutely dependent.” It is the kind of uncomfortable consciousness which would come quite easily if you were indeed cast adrift in a lifeboat on the ocean, your ship sunk, the horizon wide, no land in sight. That’d be kind of a sickening feeling, wouldn’t it? You can see yourself: trying not to panic, trying to think clearly, taking stock of your situation, the available resources, utilizing them rationally, making plans and taking steps to increase your chances of survival, and doing it all because of an indwelling hope that you will be rescued, you will be saved.

It is much more difficult to imagine the Earth as a lifeboat but this morning I want to try to do that so that we can get to a more religious perspective of our home planet, a religious perspective which includes not only a sickening, panicky feeling of total dependence on what might well be a sinking ship, but one that also includes clear thinking, and taking stock, utilizing resources rationally and making plans to take steps which will increase our chances of survival, and all because of an indwelling hope in a future for our children on Earth. We must claim this hope and we must express it in the way we live whether we are optimistic about environmental issues or not.

So happy Earth Day?! It’s sort of like turning the birthdays of middle age. Happy 43rd Birthday! Happy 57th! Happy 66th!! Well, yes it is a birthday, but happy? Earth Day is another one of those more recent holidays you may not know too much about. It always falls on April 22nd. It was founded by a US senator, Gaylord Nelson, in 1970 after almost a decade of effort. He was also a governor of Wisconsin and he wanted to somehow bring the issues of pollution and environmental degradation into the field of national politics. He envisioned a special annual day dedicated to education and agitation for environmental causes in the style of the teach-ins which occurred on college campuses to protest the Vietnam War. The first Earth Day involved some 20 million Americans across the nation. He had definitely hit onto something that mattered to people. Twenty years later some 200 million people were observing Earth Day in 141 countries and it is the most celebrated environmental event world-wide. And as our world becomes more endangered more people join in. In 2004, 500 million in 180 countries.

The awareness raising effect of Earth Day led to important legislation being passed in the US including the Environmental Protection Act, The Clean Air Act, The Clean Water Act, and the Safe Drinking Water Act. It helped established the idea that we need as a nation to protect the resources upon which we depend. Now the problems of environmental damage clearly transcend national borders and the whole world needs to act together to deal effectively with our lifeboat.

The First UN Earth Summit in Rio de Janeiro on climate change and species extinction called together heads of state to forge this global approach. The Kyoto Protocol to limit CO2 emissions is an example of such international cooperation for the sake of the planet’s health. Rejecting the Kyoto Protocol was one of the first signs of President Bush’s unwillingness to put the well being of the biosphere ahead of the interests of the Unites Sates. He said limiting emissions would limit the economic growth of the nation and that was that.

But is economic growth so vitally important? Let’s pick up on a few of Marsha’s points.

First, what is the true nature of wealth? A lot of people are asking themselves this question, in fact it is a whole societal subculture asking. In Europe, in North America, in the UK, people all over the industrialized West in fact, are taking this question to heart, What truly enriches my life? The answer is simplicity, or the Simplicity Movement. This movement is made up of people like you and me who have disposable income which we are free to spend. Simplifying is a matter of consciously questioning our assumptions about how to spend that income. Do we want more and more stuff? Do we derive satisfaction from our consumption? What is enough? What is the personal cost of working a sixty hour week? Do we need to work so long and hard for the endless gadgets, toys, fashions, and trends? The objective of simplifying is not to just stop consuming but to consume only that which brings you enjoyment and satisfaction. For many people it is taking a step off the bandwagon where the basic assumption that more is better – more income, more property, more stuff. The people who choose to simplify have decided that more time to enjoy with family and friends leads to much greater satisfaction than more income.

Enough is not a concept we relate to all that well but in a world of limited resources, it is an idea whose time has come. North American culture is much more attuned to the notion that enough is not really enough. We don’t want just enough, we want more than enough. Didn’t Jackie Kennedy say you could never be rich enough or thin enough?

I started to notice how the understanding of enough worked in India. We had some Muslims neighbors and when they were over and I was offering them refreshments, I noticed that when I would offer them more, they would not say, “No thank you,” they would say, “Enough.” I thought about this and discovered the subtle difference of perspective behind the manners. There is something beyond a sense of individual entitlement in the determination of enough, there is a consideration of the possibility of sharing with others. If this is enough for me, then I am satisfied. If there is more to be had, let it be for the satisfaction of others.

I think we need to learn what may be some new and strange skills. We need to become aware of the levels and degrees of our own satisfaction, to identify what in our lives truly has the capacity to satisfy us, and how to measure our satisfaction, to get an idea of what is enough. Think of eating dinner. How many of us keep our awareness on when exactly we feel our appetite is satisfied and how many of us allow that sufficiency to end our meal? Now you may be thinking, “If I have paid for this buffet, I am going to eat all I can!” But we all know how that can work out. We eat too much, get uncomfortably stuffed, have to take a nap. Years of this kind of overeating lead to weight problems and it is not good for our health. Now, if we eat too much at a buffet it does not deprive anyone else from eating we think. But as a principle applied to all aspects of our lifestyle, consider: recognizing sufficiency can guide us to some sense of our fair share.

Marsha talked about how her grandparents provided for themselves by growing their own food and sewing their own clothes. Not only did they meet their basic needs but in the process of doing so they became wealthy in their sense of their own capacity to produce and rely on themselves. They exercised their ingenuity and developed their skills. They depended on the land and each other. That seems to describe a lifestyle much richer in the potential for finding satisfaction and relationship than the familiar pattern of commuting, working at a job for eight or ten hours a day, going shopping and keeping up with the bills. Granted, our lifestyle is less physically demanding and more comfortable but is ease a true standard by which to judge the quality of life? I think our lives are enriched with realness in relationships and in personal challenges.

William Ellery Channing wrote these words which speak well to these issues of what adds to our quality of life:

To live content with small means,

 to seek elegance rather than luxury,

 and refinement rather than fashion,

 to be worthy, not respectable, wealthy, not rich,

 to study hard, think quietly, talk gently, act frankly,

 to listen to stars and birds, babes and sages, with open heart,

 to bear all cheerfully,

 do all bravely,

 await occasions,

 hurry never-

 in a word, to let the spiritual, unbidden and unconscious,

 grow up through the common.

 This is to be my symphony.

This brings us back to the common. Our world, Earth. A beautiful, finite biosphere. Marsha wondered what we would be willing to give up in order to have equity in the world, so that everyone could hope to have their basic needs met. She asked what we in the First World [sic] would be willing to give up? The US uses 25% of the world’s fuel and is the least willing, as a nation, to give up economic growth for the sake of Earth’s continued health. “Donald Rumsfeld said that his mission in the War Against Terror was to persuade the world that Americans must be allowed to continue their way of life.” (Arundhati Roy, “Come September” in The Impossible Will Take a Little While, pg. 239) But will the world be persuaded to live with greater hardship and scarcity for this land of plenty? I guess that’s one of the reason why this nation is spending more than twenty percent of its wealth on its military might. But might does not make right. And we know that it is immoral to continue in the lifestyle of overconsumption and waste. There is a world beyond America.

Let us be very proud of the Green Sanctuary certification of this church. May this be the beginning of a continuing trend among us to seek out ways of life that are both enriching and sustainable. It is true that the environmentalism of our day is apocalyptic and there is not too much in the news to feed our optimism that things will get much better very soon however, please remember that there is a difference between optimism and hope. “Hope is an active, determined conviction that is rooted in the spirit, chosen by the heart, and guided by the mind.” Journalist Mark Hertsgaard reminds us that: “Hope has triumphed numerous times in recent human history – think of the falls of apartheid and the Soviet Empire – and it is indispensable to humanity’s chances of creating an environmentally sustainable future.” (“The Green Dream” in The Impossible Will Take a Little While, edited by Paul Rogat Loeb, pg. 254)

So, claim hope. Try to develop your sense of what really gives you satisfaction in your lifestyle and try to discern how much is enough for you. Go on with your recycling and adopt a new green practice at regular intervals. If you do not recycle and want to begin to reduce the imprint of your lifestyle on the environment, check out the Earth’s Ten Commandments printed on the insert of your order of services to get some ideas. Support the work for a sustainable future and teach your children to worship our mother, Earth. She is beautiful, precious, fragile, mysterious in her ways, in her origin and in her destiny.

Amen.

Life Shrinks and Expands in Proportion to One's Courage

© Davidson Loehr 2005

10 April 2005

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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Prayer

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn’t serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We were born to manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

Nelson Mandela, 1994 Inaugural Speech – words taken from Marianne Williamson

HOMILY: Life Shrinks and Expands in Proportion to One’s Courage

A thousand sermons have been written on the sentiment in that saying from Anais Nin, that “Life shrinks and expands in proportion to one’s courage.” And one of our most persistent dreams in life is finding the right kind of courage needed to help our life expand in the right ways. It isn’t easy.

There are a couple Buddhist stories about this. In one, there was once a mouse who went to God to ask for a favor. “What is it?” asked God. “I am only a mouse,” came the answer, and I live in constant fear of cats. Can’t you do something about my fear?”

There was a loud “Poof!,” a puff of smoke, and the mouse was turned into a cat. For awhile, this sufficed, but before long the cat was back to ask another favor of God. “And now what?” asked the Almighty.

“I’m still afraid,” came the answer. “Perhaps I’m still not big enough. Maybe if I were a very large dog . . .”

Again the “Poof!” and the cloud of smoke, and the cat had become something that looked like a cross between an Irish Wolfhound and a Saint Bernard, weighing in at 250 pounds.

In a week, the dog was scratching at God’s door.

“Now what?” said God – who, though he had infinite power, did not have infinite patience.

“I’m still afraid. Perhaps if I were an elephant,” said the dog. “Or a lion. Yes, that’s it, a lion, the king of the jungle! Let’s try that.”

A loud “Poof!” and a cloud of smoke. And when the smoke cleared, there stood, again, a mouse – who, realizing that it was again a mouse, began squealing for God.

“It is no use,” said God, “there is nothing I can do for you, for you have the heart of a mouse, and as long as you have the heart of a mouse, you might as well be a mouse.”

I’ve been thinking about this subject because courage is in right now, as you know. Arnold Schwarzenegger has informed us that men who would rather talk, negotiate and understand than take premature action are “girly men.” By this measure, some of history’s great girly men would include Jesus and the Buddha, Martin Luther King Jr. and Nelson Mandela. Our invasion of Iraq, whatever else you say about it, involves some kind of courage. We have killed over 100,000 Iraqis, and more than 1,500 of our soldiers have died there so far, plus another 20,000 or so who have been wounded. That is some kind of courage.

But there are different kinds of courage, and not all of them are admirable. It depends on where the courage is coming from, what it is serving.

That word “courage” comes from an old French word for “heart.” You could say that life shrinks and expands in proportion to one’s heart. I would define courage as a heart’s effort to make the world in its image. So if it is a good heart, the courage can serve good ends. And if it is a bad heart, the courage – no less courageous – is likely to serve bad ends. It takes courage, after all, to strap a bomb under your shirt, board a crowded bus and kill yourself along with as many others as you can. But a heart that reduces innocent people to pawns in your own deadly chess game – that’s a bad heart, no matter how courageous.

One of the confusing things today is that some of the worst hearts, some of the voices calling for the worst kind of courage, are coming from the fundamentalist versions of our major religions. Some Israelis say God gave them their land, and reclaiming it is doing God’s will, no matter how many Arabs they kill.

Fundamentalist Muslims give their religion a bad name by urging them to kill Americans in the name of Allah. And in this country, far too many conservative ministers have preached war and justified violence, even if they haven’t gone as far as Jerry Falwell’s saying we should hunt down terrorists and blow them away in the name of the Lord. These are voices pleading for courage. But they are pleading from bad hearts, so the courage serves bad ends. And when you serve a bad heart, life expands in unhealthy, deadly ways, like a cancer.

In your own life, you can think of stands you have taken that served both good places and selfish places, can’t you? And you can remember the effects that taking those stands had – on you and your relationships. But sometimes it’s easier to see these patterns in areas where we can paint with broader strokes. So you can also tell the quality of our heart by looking at the form life is taking in our society.

Last week, I read an article by a local man, an editor at the Austin Chronicle named Michael Ventura. I know Michael; he’s spoken here at least once. I want to read you a little from the picture of America he paints. And remember, we reap what we sow; bad effects come from actions serving a bad heart. So listen to these things – some of which you probably know – and ask what kind of a heart our country seems to be serving, and if it is the kind of heart you want. All of these conditions are the direct result of the priorities we are serving. And our priorities come from the active heart of our society:

The United States is 49th in the world in literacy (the New York Times, Dec. 12, 2004).

“The U.S. and South Africa are the only two developed countries in the world that do not provide health care for all their citizens” (The European Dream, p.80). Excuse me, but since when is South Africa a “developed” country? Anyway, that’s the company we’re keeping.

Lack of health insurance coverage causes 18,000 unnecessary American deaths a year. (That’s six times the number of people killed on 9/11.) (NYT, Jan. 12, 2005.)

“U.S. childhood poverty now ranks 22nd, or second to last, among the developed nations. Only Mexico scores lower” (The European Dream, p.81). Been to Mexico lately? Does it look “developed” to you? Yet it’s the only “developed” country to score lower in childhood poverty.

Women are 70 percent more likely to die in childbirth in America than in Europe (NYT, Jan. 12, 2005).

The leading cause of death of pregnant women in this country is murder (CNN, Dec. 14, 2004).

“Of the 20 most developed countries in the world, the U.S. was dead last in the growth rate of total compensation to its workforce in the [past 25 years] (The European Dream, p.39). Yet Americans work longer hours per year than any other industrialized country, and get less vacation time.

“In a recent survey of the world’s 50 best companies, conducted by Global Finance, all but one were European” (The European Dream, p.69).

Three million six hundred thousand Americans ran out of unemployment insurance last year; (NYT, Jan. 9, 2005).

One-third of all U.S. children are born out of wedlock. One-half of all U.S. children will live in a one-parent house (CNN, Dec. 10, 2004).

“Americans are now spending more money on gambling than on movies, videos, DVDs, music, and books combined” (The European Dream, p.28). It’s the only hope many see of ever realizing the American Dream.

Forty-three percent of Americans think torture is sometimes justified, according to a PEW Poll (Associated Press, Aug. 19, 2004).

“Nearly 900,000 children were abused or neglected in 2002, the last year for which such data are available” (USA Today, Dec. 21, 2004).

http://www.austinchronicle.com/issues/dispatch/2005-01-21/cols_ventura.html

The bold actions that produced these figures took courage, skill, determination and a kind of leadership. But behind the courage, I believe that we have been serving a bad heart. We could add to the sorrow of figures like these by going down a similar list showing the number of killed, wounded and reduced to poverty in the more than one hundred countries where our country has soldiers stationed.

But I would rather tell you the second Buddhist story about courage. It’s one some of you have heard before here, because it is one of my favorites.

A notorious bandit came to the Buddha one day and informed him that he was the most fierce and brave bandit in all the world, and was going to demonstrate it by killing the Buddha. “Ah,” said the Buddha. “If you are that powerful, you can grant me two wishes before I die.”

“All right,” said the bandit, “but be quick. Time is short, and I have many more people to kill.”

The Buddha pointed to a young sapling tree growing nearby, and said “Cut off the smallest branch on that young tree.” The bandit laughed, and with one quick swipe of his sword, it was done and the tiny branch fell to the ground. The Buddha picked it up.

“Now, old fool,” said the bandit, “what is your final wish?”

The Buddha handed the tiny branch to the bandit, pointed to the tree, and said, “Now put it back on.”

Legend has it that the bandit achieved enlightenment in that instant.

Spiritual, Not Religious

Dr. Laurel Hallman

Senior Minister of First Unitarian Church of Dallas

03 April 2005

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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SERMON: SPIRITUAL, NOT RELIGIOUS

Some of you have found this church through Beliefnet.com. You took the quiz on the website to see which faith your profile resembled, and found you were closest to Unitarian Universalist, or perhaps to Secular Humanist, sometimes Quaker, in some order of the three. Then, I’ve been told, it’s true at my church, I’m sure it’s true of yours. I’ve been told-that, some of you-not knowing what Unitarian Universalist meant, moved to that website, then linked to this church’s website, and here you are.

Almost every time we have a group join our church in Dallas, someone in the group has found us through Beliefnet.com. I have to believe it is also true here.

It may interest some of you that Beliefnet.com now has a feature called “Soulmatch”, a matching service to help you meet people online with your same values, and characteristics

In the initial quiz, to introduce you to the service, you can check, among other things, what faith you would prefer your matches to have. The list starts with “Any”, and after the second on the list, shows all the usual main religions of the world. It is the second one that caught my eye. It is, “Spiritual but Not Religious”.

I know exactly what it means. I’ve heard many in my church use just that phrase to describe themselves. I expect that a large number of people check that box on Soulmatch, so your chances would be good to meet someone if you also checked it, I would think. And I also might guess that if those people who checked “Spiritual but Not Religious” met, fell in love and decided to marry, they would have a high probability of having the wedding at a Unitarian Universalist church.

Because many imagine that we are also . . . “Spiritual but Not Religious”.

I had a young man, in my first meeting with a couple planning their wedding-I had a young man tell me that they came to our church for their wedding because they didn’t like organized religion.

I chose not to explain to him that we, in fact, are an organized religion, even knowing that John Buehrens who preceded me as Sr. Minister of my church is known to have said, “You don’t have to worry about organized religion around here. We’re not that organized.”

I didn’t go into details, because I knew what he meant. I know what people mean when they say they’re spiritual but not religious. They mean that they choose not to affiliate with any religious body of beliefs, doctrines, rituals and activities, perhaps because they have found them oppressive, or perhaps because they’ve never experienced them. There are, now, many people known in church-lingo as “the unchurched”. They might say they are spiritual but not religious because they are the adult children of people who left organized religion long ago, never exposing them to any organized religion-making them wary of all of them.

People who say they are “Spiritual, but not religious” mean that they have found meaning and purpose and even a set of beliefs about life and its mysteries, outside Catholic, Jewish, Protestant Christian, or the “other” faiths on the Soulmate list. They have found them in the writings of people like Jack Kornfield, or Ram Dass, or Thich Nhat Hanh-(interestingly, each of them speaking out of a religious tradition, but not directly representing that religion-and speaking more to people outside religion altogether, than those who are churched)-or these seakers have found their spiritual path in the midst of poets like Rilke, or Rumi, or Rabindranath Tagore who speak eloquently of the life of the spirit, and give guidance about how to live that life. Some have become spiritual but not religious because they have found more truth in nature than in church.

Whatever the source of this spiritual awakening–whatever the source of their spiritual awakening-I know it can be transformative, sustaining, deeply meaningful and purposeful.

It is, as we heard in the reading earlier-the call to go within. It is the call to pay attention to what is close at hand. It is the call to notice the feelings we have in the moment, and to move beneath them, to a deeper response, a deeper connection than our usual reactions and responses in life. It is an invitation to dip into the underground river-(Ira Progoff called it,) or the singing river -( Harry Scholefield called it)-it is the call to greet life with open hands-( Henry Nouwin) suggested, telling us to move into the “inner space” of our lives.

I have a postcard I keep on my desk. I received it in 1995 from a colleague I barely know, who had heard me preach, and said the picture on the postcard reminded him of my sermon. On the postcard is a reproduction of a painting by a contemporary Italian painter, Wainer Vaccuri. The painting is titled “Deep Down”. In very clear imagery, a man is poised on his toes at the top of a cliff, like a diver on a high diving board-arms and hands pointed straight down, body bent as if he is already beginning the fall-his head is turned to the side away from us-he is looking at a figure floating above him. The figure has one outstretched arm pointing straight down. The horizon of the sea off in the distance, but about even with our diver is pale blue. But the sea into which he is about to dive is deep and dark. We know he’s diving anyway.

I keep that postcard on my desk in a plastic envelope to protect it, because it reminds me when I am tempted to scoot along the surface of things-that my call is to the depths. Not to the darkness per se though sometimes that’s what I find-but to the depths of life’s purpose and meaning. To dive in. To dive off. To dive. The man’s head is turned as if to say, “Are you sure?” And the angel, no frilly wings in sight-the angel’s posture says, “I’m sure.”

I say this because it takes courage to live the spiritual life. It takes a willingness to face reality- to stop and face reality. It takes courage to take life on life’s terms, and to dive deeply into its truths.

It takes discipline to live a spiritual life. It takes silence, and practice writing fears and hopes and yearnings and thanks and regrets and joys, and being willing to start each day anew, as if it were your first.

I will admit that once in a while when someone tells me they’re spiritual but not religious, I can sense it is a cop-out. They live in the world of shallow affirmations, and drippingly sweet words of inspiration. They live in the world of imagined joy, where tragedy never visits, and where love overcomes every difficulty-To be sure, our bookstores are chock full of books to sustain that vision.

But today I want to honor the spiritual path which has depth, meaning, discipline, and willingness to live without knowing what exactly is expected of us in the present moment, and living that moment as fully as we can anyway.

I understand that religion has failed many people who have found their spiritual path on their own. I understand that religion has failed many who put their faith in belief systems and have been broken by them. I understand that religion has bored people until they couldn’t stand it any more. And I understand that religion has excluded, restricted, ruled over many people until they said “no more” and left.

So if you get anything from today it is that I understand why people say, “I’m spiritual but not religious.” I get it.

I understand why people say it in our churches.

But lest you find yourself embarrassed because you don’t understand fully where you are, I want to add some thoughts about being religious.

One of the problems with being spiritual but not religious, (and it may be why some of you are here) One of the problems is that it’s hard to find a group to join. Some find a meditation group. Some who are spiritual but not religious will have found their way into Group Therapy, or into a 12 Step group, and it will satisfy their need for companionship along the sometimes difficult road of life-for we will gather in groups-it seems to be part of human nature-to find others like us, to find others facing the same questions and challenges we are-to celebrate our joys together. We will find groups.

Now that it’s on Soulmate, and couples are encouraged to find each other, perhaps a larger “Spiritual but not Religious” movement will begin to emerge. Because eventually some of those couples will have children, and want to raise their children in a setting which is congruent with their world view, and then they may want to get together for spiritual practice, and then they may discover that others throughout time have done similar things, and voila! they’re spiritual and religious at the same time.

Or they can come here for their religion.

If you take anything else home today from this sermon-first I will remind you that I know what it means to be spiritual but not religious. But second, I need to say that coming here is a religious act. This is a religious place. We encourage you to be spiritual and religious here.

But, you may say, this is a “dogma-free zone (we actually have little cards you can give to people when they ask about our religion-they’re linked to a UUdecide.com-one of them says on it “dogma-free zone” Doesn’t dogma define religion?

Sometimes.

But more definitive is the history of grappling with theological questions. We have that.

More definitive is a defined set of values. We have that.

Even more definitive is the institution which is dedicated to a certain path, a certain set of activities (like teaching our children, and meeting here every Sunday to sing and pray and for this brief time, order our lives together) and probably most definitive, is the extended past and future in which we honor those who have gone before, and invest ourselves in the people and events which will follow us.

Someone said to me recently, “If you want your life to have meaning, invest in an institution.”

Invest your time and resources in the structures of society which have depth and meaning and purpose beyond your individual life.

Last month, a friend of mine died. He was the husband of one of my best friends. They belong to the Unitarian Universalist Church in Bloomington, Indiana-where I was the minister for six years. Our friendship has continued over the 18 years since I was there.

My friend was 70. He was an ecologist who taught at Indiana University. He also more frequently than he liked, gave expert testimony in cases around ecological issues-usually about wetlands, his specialty.

His life was invested in the preservation of wetlands, in the students who would carry the work forward, in his Unitarian Universalist church and in his family. He sang in the choir-not always on key. He played the banjo in a string band. He first questioned, and then agreed with the building of a sanctuary for that church. More recently he questioned and then agreed with the hiring of three part-time ministers for that church. He was chair of the “Grounds” committee, and spent untold hours at the church planting, trimming, mowing, and tending the grounds of the church. . He mentored my son, in the Coming of Age program 22 years ago. And a better mentor I could not have found. My son would travel to Bloomington to see his friends during his college days in Minnesota–and he would stay with Dan and Melinda. He had a home there with them.

Dan did not claim to be spiritual or religious. He chided me frequently about my use of traditional religious language. He found his refreshment in deep sea fishing-or more specifically ‘catch and release’ deep sea fishing. He sided with Emerson and Thoreau about the power of nature to feed our souls.

In the last months of his life-far too brief a time as far as Dan’s friends were concerned-in the last months of his life-in a specific shift of theological stance, he said that he had found God in the community which surrounded and sustained him.

The choir at their rehearsal, one Wednesday not long before he died-the choir called his home and sang one of their pieces to him through the phone. He wasn’t speaking by then, but he smiled (I’m told) through the whole of the singing. The string band made regular visits to his home to the very end. Almost every Christmas card I received this year from Bloomington mentioned Dan and his illness. The church in Bloomington lost one of their pillars.

I tell you this personal story because it is my most recent experience of what it means to be religious.

It is to be spiritual within the context of a living, breathing, sustaining, historically grounded institution with babies being born, and old ones who are dying-and everything in between. It is to be spiritual within the context of pot lucks and discussion groups, Sunday School classrooms, Christmas pageants and choir practice. It is to be spiritual and to take on a mortgage for expansion, and it is to be spiritual and then burn that mortgage.

To be spiritual and religious is to show up here each week. To bring your discouraged and sometimes battered spirit to this place to be lifted up, to be challenged, to be sustained here among all these others, and to be blessed back into the world to continue your work, the investment of the time and resources of your life in things which matter.

To be spiritual and religious is to show up here each week, in this place where the two come together, where we search the inner space of our lives together. Where we, one more time, make space for hope to emerge, together. Where we are not alone in our grief. Not alone in our search. Where we are not alone.

Last week I spoke with my friend Melinda to find out how she was doing. She’s all right. She is overwhelmingly sad, but she is all right. She said the flowers are coming up.

They always had flowers blooming all around their home. Dan had, years before, torn up the lawn, to plant native plants and flowers. So I knew it would be time for their flowers.

But she added, “Last fall he kept buying bulbs. He would sit out on the deck because he was already weakened by his cancer-and point to where he wanted the bulbs to be planted by the men who had come to help. He kept saying he’d be here to see them, even though we both knew he wouldn’t.”

I remembered the poem I read earlier-and I recited part of it over the phone. We both had a good cry. Because it is about Belief-not the belief that we will be here in the spring-everything is too transient for that-but the belief that spring itself will be. With or without us. It is a belief, not in the shallows, but in the deep movements of life that renew and sustain us even when all is lost.

So… all this is to say that the next time someone speaks to you about your faith, tell them your have found the First Unitarian Universalist Church of Austin, where your spiritual life is nurtured, and where you have found a religion of inclusion, freedom, faith and hope for your life, for your family, for our future together. Tell them you are spiritual and religious, and that it has made all the difference.

Eastering

© Davidson Loehr 2005

Victoria Shepherd Rao, Ministerial Intern

27 March 2005

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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PRAYER: Victoria Shepherd Rao

May we understand redemption and self-sacrifice in life-enhancing ways.

Maybe it is not by the death on the cross that we are saved but by the death of our need to always be right, or to have the last word, to always have our own way. Perhaps we may be afraid that if we do not strive to be heard our voice will be drowned out by a thousand different noises, that if we do not stand up for ourselves, we will be overlooked by others. These are real fears.

May we redeem them for trust. May we trade our worries for ourselves for broader, more expansive concerns and by them feel the universality of human need. Need for enough food, for clean water, for shelter, for personal acknowledgement, for enough love. May we be moved by such universal needs – the needs we all share.

Our needs may be met or maybe some of our personal needs are not being met. May we have the honesty to accept ourselves just as we are and the strength of character to do what is necessary to take care of ourselves, so that we may each, in turn, care for others.

Easter is the high holiday, the day when Christians celebrate the supreme self-sacrifice of the one who called the Creator God so familiarly as “Dad.” Christians believe the whole world of possibilities changed in that sad act. Let us also seek to appreciate the unimaginable possibilities an attitude of self-sacrifice ushers into our world.

Let us recall the little parrot in the Jataka tale the children heard*. She shows us how the heart can be powerfully stubborn when it sets itself on the well-being of others. The promise which motivates the one who is self-sacrificing is not only the well-being of others but the possibility of an ultimate kind of satisfaction not with the self but within the self, the sense that there is truth in the statement, “I did everything I could.”

May we here today grow in our capacities to act and be with others in a spirit of self-sacrifice, and may we learn a new meaning for redemption, trading the confines of our self-interest for the expansive realms where concern for the well-being of all humanity, even all beings can bring meaning into our lives abundantly, hope into our outlook irrationally, and joy into our hearts unexpectedly.

* The story of “The Brave Little Parrot” is part of the Buddhist tradition of Jataka Tales, or stories of the Buddha’s previous lives. In this particular story, a parrot does everything she possibly can to put out a fire which is destroying the forest home she shares with many other creatures, regardless of the danger and the seeming hopelessness of the task. Her efforts move a god to tears and his tears become a saving and restorative shower that puts out the flames.

SERMON: Eastering

Religion is a funny thing. On the one hand, we insist that our religion is about dealing with our deepest and most important questions: matters of morals, ethics, even life and death. Nothing in the world is outside the reach of religious concerns and questions.

On the other hand, we expect all our worship services to be rated “G.” There are animated children’s cartoons more risqué than the average sermon. This makes it hard to tell the truth, if the truth is too challenging, unorthodox, or just plain disturbing. And nowhere is this more true than in Christmas and Easter sermons! I have Christian colleagues who say these are often their least favorite sermons, because there is so much pressure to offer nothing more challenging than a Hallmark card with a Happy Face on it.

I’m not a Christian. But if I were a Christian minister and this were Christmas, the first words in my Christmas sermon would be “You know there was never a virgin birth, don’t you?” And for Easter, I’d begin by saying “You know that no corpse ever walked, don’t you?”

There is a saying that the first word in religion must always be NO – NO to the nonsense, so there is room to say YES to the more profound insights of the best religions. But it’s hardest to say No to the two central myths of Christianity – that there was something supernatural about either the birth or the death of the man Jesus.

There wasn’t anything supernatural – not because I said so, but because the world isn’t built that way, either now or then. Christianity was born in the first century, couched in the first century scientific picture of the world. They believed the universe was a local affair, with three levels. It’s the view of the world you can still see by going outside on a clear day; it was one of the most intuitive and common-sense pictures of the world we’ve ever had, even if it wasn’t within a billion light years of being true.

In the middle was the earth, which was flat sort of like a big pizza. The sky above was a dome made of rock – they called it the “firmament,” and the Greeks had their strongest god, Atlas, charged with holding the heavy thing up. Good gods and angels came from up there – either above the cloud layer around Mt. Olympus, or above the higher clouds in Christianity. And below the earth was the place of fire and brimstone, as you could see by looking at what volcanoes brought up from beneath. This was the home of the bad gods and demons.

That’s the first century scientific world picture you have to have in mind to make sense of a lot in the Christian scriptures. When the gospel writers say that the heavens opened and a voice shouted down “Behold, this is my beloved son in whom I am much pleased,” it demands that old picture of the world, where the top of the sky just wasn’t that far away. Or when they say that Jesus descended into hell or ascended into heaven, you need that same ancient picture to make sense of it.

That’s the way the world has to be built in order to have gods mating with humans, corpses ascending to heaven, descending to hell or going anywhere at all. And the world isn’t built that way, either now or then.

But it takes some courage for ministers to tell the truth on Christmas Sunday, or Easter, because in the opinions of most people, Christianity is about supernaturalism.

That’s because for two thousand years there has been this awful contradiction between the religion of Jesus and the religion about Jesus. The religion of Jesus is found in the things he taught people about how to live, how to treat one another. The religion about Jesus is the magical religion of the baby and the cross, in which the teachings of the man Jesus are often completely overlooked.

The religion about Jesus has always been the religion of literalistic and fundamentalist Christianity. It is about believing a certain story that few people would even know how to believe, with the promise that if you do, you’ll be saved some day after you die. Jesus would have hated that story. But then, Jesus never heard of either Christmas or Easter. They weren’t created until long after he had died.

The religion of Jesus is not supernatural at all. It is about how you can be saved, be made more whole, here and now, and how you can help make the world more whole here and now.

The message of Jesus was a message of liberation and empowerment; the messages from the religion about Jesus are too often aimed at frightening people into obedience to agendas like hating gays or independent women, or sanctioning a war against people in Iraq that look a whole lot more like Jesus than they look like most of us. These are political and military agendas that Jesus would have seen as wrong or hateful.

And the religion of Jesus isn’t about Easter. It isn’t a noun. It’s a verb; it’s about Eastering. It’s about the miracle of new life coming from old, life out of death, right here and now. Nothing supernatural, though it feels so magical when it happens, you know? “Do you have a light?” Jesus asked; “Don’t hide it under a basket.” Have you been given a gift of life? Don’t hide that, either. Share it, give it to others. Life is about honoring that spirit of life that comes and goes as it likes, but when it comes our way it can make all the difference between feeling dead and feeling alive, you know?

Literalistic religion promises a Garden of Eden, which would be an awful place. A place where only obedient, unquestioning, uncurious people are welcome, a garden where no one is allowed to grow into their full humanity. It is not a garden at all, but a trap. It’s a trap in which your spirit can die, because living spirits, like living people, always question, always grow and change. In less than three days, the Garden of Eden would just bore you to death.

Literalistic religions say you can’t save yourself, it can’t happen now, and it can’t happen here. Liberal religions say “If not now, when? If not here, where? If not you, who?” And we answer, “New life can come to you. Here and now.”

If this were Christmas, I’d say that honest religion is a manger made ready for the birth of the sacred within our midst. The Easter Bunny doesn’t need a manger – actually, I’ve never really wanted to know how or why that rabbit lays colored eggs and foil-wrapped chocolates.

Liberal religion – and the religion of Jesus was a liberal religion, not a literal one – offers not a Garden of Eden, but a Garden of Eastering. A fertile place where new life is welcome because we trust the future more than the past.

That’s how I think of this church: as a garden of Eastering. A couple years ago, I overheard our current Board vice-president tell someone that this church was a “Do-ocracy,” where those who choose to do something give the place its character and direction. That’s a Garden of Eastering, a place giving birth to the future.

Before you leave today, we’re going to give you a gift, a symbol of this Eastering spirit, to take home as a reminder. But more about that later.

When you think about it, our annual budget is really just paying the costs of providing that Garden and the staff to tend it, but not the new life that grows in it. We never know what or where that new life will be, because it comes through you. For instance:

I’ve never seen another church with the range of high quality music we have here. Think of the weekly offerings from Brent, Bryan, John, our choir and our many guest musicians. Almost every imaginable style of music is here, from a choir singing Bach to a soloist singing a song by Joni Mitchell or the Beatles, or the wonderful music from “Pieces of East” we have this morning. There’s almost nothing we won’t try, as long as it can carry a spirit that can move us – that’s the key. And that’s why the music program is great: it’s a garden in which the Spirit can grow and flourish. That’s a garden of Eastering.

Or think back a few months and ask why we had such a super Christmas Eve pageant. Why was it so nice? Well, because Vicki Rao, our ministerial intern, took charge of it. Because a few members who had experience in set design and theater direction offered to lend their talents. Because a lot of parents drove a lot of kids to rehearsals, and four or five hundred of you came to be here for it. Eastering doesn’t have a season; it can even happen at Christmas.

Have you walked through the lovely landscaped garden we have in back? Five years ago, it was a playground filled with dangerous junk that had been condemned. Then a few members decided we deserved and needed something beautiful instead. They talked with me and the board, consulted with landscapers, researched top-quality playground equipment, had professional plans drawn, raised money, put in a lot of work, and now a condemned dump has been transformed into a place of beauty for all ages.

And this church has been designated a Natural Habitat by the State of Texas, and a Green Sanctuary by the Unitarian Universalist Association. It’s the only church in Texas with that designation. Why? Because a handful of members who were more sensitive to the grounds than the rest of us felt called to transform it, worked at it and did it. That’s how Eastering works.

Very soon, out in the foyer, we will have a huge twelve-foot long credenza, custom designed and built for us. Why? It wasn’t in the budget. But one member got so sick of the look of the foyer he decided to do something, got some others to help him, talked with me and the board, collected money, and soon there will be a new locus of beauty in our foyer, born of the imagination and care of ordinary people right here in this room. Eastering.

And our new Friday Movie Nights. Several months ago, I thought we needed more opportunities for community that had nothing to do with fundraising, and thought that well-chosen movies might be a way to do it. I solicited donations from several members, who generously contributed a total of over two thousand dollars, and we bought a projector and eight-foot screen. Then some members came forward who wanted to help, decided we should have soda and popcorn for a more complete movie experience, and put it together. We had our very first movie night two days ago, this past Friday night. The members who had put it together told me that if we ever had forty people show up for one of these, they’d call it a success. Friday night, we had eighty-five here. That’s Eastering. New life, appearing where before there had been nothing but a big room, a big garden waiting for something new to be born in it.

This summer, some of our high school kids will be taking part in a Freedom Ride organized by the UUA: a long bus ride retracing some of the steps of the freedom marches in the civil rights movements of forty and fifty years ago. Why? Because one member thought it would be neat to have some such trip, and after more heads got involved, this trip emerged, money was donated, and our kids will have a trip this summer they will never forget, to reconnect them with some terribly important parts of what it means to be an American who cares enough about freedom to make personal sacrifices for it. Eastering.

The church budget, as essential as it is, can’t create the magic that brings new life to this place. All it can do is pay for the garden and hire the staff to tend it. But whether the garden will give rise to new shoots of life – that is really up to you, to the spirit that dwells in you, that makes you aware of little things about this place that need new life, and that moves you to help with the miracle.

And if you think about it, life is like this too. You work to pay the bills, to provide a garden where Eastering might happen, and you work to create a relationship that can give life to you.

Because besides the kinds of institutional Eastering that help make this church so alive and healthy, there are those more down-to-earth, personal gifts of life and grace that come to us.

Last year, a member of this church was diagnosed with a form of pancreatic cancer. The prognosis for pancreatic cancer is usually awful. She went through tests and the ordeals of treatments. This week, she sent me an e-mail saying there are no signs whatever of any cancer cells, and her prognosis is now for a normal life of another few decades. That’s Eastering.

And just last night, I received an e-mail from Cathy Harrington I want to share with you. Many of you know that Cathy was our ministerial intern two years ago, who is now the settled minister in Ludington, Michigan. And many of you also know that last November, her 26-year-old daughter and youngest of three children was murdered in California. It was about as devastating as anything a parent can ever go through, and it devastated Cathy. Her church gave her time to heal, and even arranged all the Sunday services in December. She spent time with her family, went to Nicaragua for ten days – a place that had some magical healing powers for her. And last week, she went to San Francisco to take part in a four-day street retreat, living, eating and sleeping with some of San Francisco’s homeless people in the Tenderloin area.

Here is her Easter e-mail:

Davidson:

I just returned from a week on the streets of the Tenderloin with the Faithful Fools. I went in search of God and much to my surprise found Her.

I ran into a homeless man named Will, who I met last year. He said the Lord put it into his heart to give me a gift. It was a magnificent silver cross [that had belonged to his mother], a gift of grace that has moved me from despair to the realm of healing and wholeness. It was one of many glimpses of the divine this past week. Finally, grief has released its deadly grip on me and I am able to breathe again. I think I can actually walk through the valley [of the shadow of death now], instead of staying forever in the shadow.

Happy Easter, Cathy.

We all live in the valley of the shadow of death: that valley where death, disease and despair can rear their ugly heads at any time, without rhyme or reason. It can be scary in that valley; it’s no wonder so many people live in fear rather than trust and hope.

But there are more than shadows in this valley of life. There are also gardens: amazing gardens in which new life can and does grow. For us. Here. Now. It may not be supernatural, but it surely feels miraculous. Let us go seeking those miracles, and seeking to be part of those miracles for the world around us.

Happy Eastering!

Coming of Age – Constantly!

© Davidson Loehr

Sally Miculek

20 March 2005

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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AFFIRMATION OF FAITH:

Sally Miculek

Ten days from now, I’m going to turn 27. Most people would say that 26 isn’t really a major year, as far as growing up goes. It’s not 18, and “adulthood,” or 21. It’s not a decade change. It’s just 26. But, for me, 26 has been a big year. I’ve gone through three important life events, coming-of-age kinds of events, if you will. And their varied nature just reinforces the notion that you never know when or where some new growing up experience is going to come from.

The first event was the most recent – Sunday, January 16, of this year. With two new friends, I signed up to run a 12 mile leg on a relay team for a 50 mile ultrarun through Big Bend National Park. I’m sure many of you have completed marathons or ultramarathons, or had equivalent achievements in other sports, but I hope you will not scoff at me too much. My first 5k, or 3.1 mile race was in April of last year. By November, I was able to run six miles at a go, and that’s when I decided to sign up for the Big Bend run. I put myself on a training regimen more grueling than any exercise plan I’d ever tried before, and within eight weeks of deciding to make the run, I was ready and able to conquer this task I’d set for myself, and I had a great time doing so.

The second event was my wedding. On June 5 of last year, I met my fiance in my parents’ garden, and there we said our vows in the company of many of our friends and our families. The day was the perfect culmination of months of plans, preparations, negotiations, and stress, and I feel lucky to enter the married phase of my life with such an amazing fellow.

The first event was of a more sobering nature. As it happened, the day I was sending my wedding invitations, my OB-GYN called me. He had confirmed that, after follow-up tests, some unwanted cells had returned to my cervix after a procedure 18 months before that had been intended to eradicate the problem. Though he told me many times that this was not cancer, he did refer me to an oncologist, and that fact, coupled with the word “carcinoma,” which was used to describe the wayward, was enough for me. I am happy to report that, after a day surgery a few weeks later, and after many follow up visits throughout this year, the cells have not yet returned. Still, cancer remains a specter for me, and I cannot hear a woman say she is overdue for a routine exam without feeling obliged to tell her some part of my story and then urging her to see her doctor.

So here I am, at the end of my 26th year, embarking on a still new phase in my life. I have a new husband and a new fitness hobby that I hope to keep for a long time, and an ongoing medical concern that will forever color my attitude towards women’s health, and that I hope will never become more than a mere concern for me. As I prepare for my next birthday, I feel confident that whatever growing up experiences 27 brings, I’ll be able to handle them. I’ve got some stuff at the core of my being that I can hold onto when I need it, and that offers comfort, solace, and jubilation through all of my triumphs and challenges. First, I have a family that loves me, and that I love in return. I know I can always go to this group of people to share all of my growing up experiences, for the good or the bad. Also, I have always held the belief that I am a lucky person. To this, I owe my good fortune in having a family I love, finding a mate I love, having a good job, and being able to relish the highs in life, and recover my happiness and joy after things go wrong. No matter what challenges I face, what good or bad decisions I make, I know that I’m lucky enough to be able to come through these growing up experiences stronger. Now I ask you two questions: what have your growing up experiences been this year? I think, if you examine it, you’ll find that maybe you’ve had a more important year than you might have expected. Second, what is at your core that will help you overcome the challenges and embrace the triumphs? I think I did pretty well with the stuff at my core, and I hope that the stuff at your core is just as strong.

PRAYER:

Let us remember who we love and who loves us. for those invisible threads are the ties that bind us together, that help to weave the web of our larger and better selves.

Let us remember and honor those high ideals we have served, and which have served us. They are a part of the image of our greater selves, the image of God.

And let us remember, and draw into our hearts, those most tender mercies that help make us blessings to ourselves and others.

As we make our way through life and life makes its way through us, it is these invisible, slender threads of connection that make up our greatest strength and our most heartfelt hope.

We are not alone. We are never alone, if we can remember those few invisible and precious things that live within us.

And so let us remember who we love and who loves us. Let us remember and honor the high ideals that give us our most noble profiles. And let us remember and pass on to others those most tender mercies that help make us most fully human, and most fully divine.

If we can remember and honor just these few invisible things, these things that form the bedrock of our character, we will be all right. We will be all right.

Amen.

SERMON:

Coming of Age – Constantly!

This morning’s service is really about how to deal with change, and the role played for us by those “still, small voices” I was talking with you about last week. When we speak of change, we are usually talking about disposing of something: changing clothes, jobs, cities, partners. Change is usually a kind of “out with the old and in with the new” sort of thing. So it usually means to drop one thing and get a new thing. We speak of it as though we stay unchanged, but just change some of our accessories.

But even with that simple kind of change, we have in mind some image of ourselves, of what doesn’t change. So we change clothes because we are going to a party or a wedding, and want to be dressed right to honor the people and the occasion, because that’s the kind of person we want to be. We change what’s visible to serve what’s invisible.

In the Christian scriptures, there is this famous sentence that says, “Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” (Hebrews 11:1) “The evidence of things not seen.” Invisible stuff. Important stuff. And Roman Catholics have defined a sacrament as an outward manifestation of the Holy Spirit’s presence. That invisible holy presence is one of the most important things about us, especially when we have to go through hard changes.

With every physical change we make, there is an invisible thing that usually directs or guides the change.

Konrad Lorenz, the great Austrian who created the discipline of comparative animal behavior – humans and other animals, that is – once said that there is one time in our lives when we are so receptive to our environment that it could almost be compared with “imprinting” in young geese. That is that time in our late teens and twenties when we’re struggling to find an adult identity to replace the one assigned to us by our parents. We are so oversensitive to stimuli at that time, he said, that the music that is most powerful for us at that time usually remains the most powerful music for the rest of our lives.

And we may change a whole slew of things in this search, depending on the fads of the day. We want to mark ourselves as individuals, but we want to look like the right kind of individuals – like all those others in the group we run with.

When I was a teen-ager, boys who wanted to look a little wild combed their hair with a duck tail in back. Boy, does that ever not sound wild any more! And I’ve never understood just why we wanted the back of our head to look like a duck’s behind, anyway.

Today, young people get more dramatic changes done: piercings, tattoos, theatrical things done with their hair. Those are the visible changes. but they are driven by the invisible desire to look the part of someone trying to declare independence from an old role, looking for a new one.

Or think of people getting married, and putting wedding rings on. That’s an outward and visible sign of something inward and spiritual. Though most people who get tattoos will tell you they are also an outward and visible sign of an inward movement.

Almost all of our actions are outward signs of inward dispositions, beliefs or concerns. This is true of social movements as well as individual ones. Something like the civil rights movement or the women’s movement created a lot of outward signs: parades, protests, banners, petitions and the rest. But what gave these movements their power were the invisible and inward changes in attitude that they symbolized.

What’s the point of all this? It is to draw your attention to an irony. And that is the fact that in life, most of our visible actions are really acting out invisible inner or spiritual states that are more important.

This may sound kind of obvious, but it’s one of the most important things in religion and life. I’ve thought for a long time that the biggest reason that religious literalists seem so frightened of change, or those who are different, is because they’re stuck in the visible world, and can’t find that deeper faith that the holy spirit is present everywhere, in everyone.

I’ve had a brief, if strange, e-mail correspondence with a professor from Bob Jones University recently. At one point, I tried to engage him by raising some good scholarly questions that anyone teaching religion should know about. But his response was simply to say that we probably couldn’t communicate, because he was convinced of the absolute depravity of humankind. You know, you can’t say something like that about other people: you don’t know them. But he and many other literalists say that these are confessional statements, they know they are true by looking within. And I don’t think you can argue with that.

But my god, what a sad, miserable kind of faith! Of course we have some original sins – taking our beliefs too seriously is one of them. But we also have many original blessings that are with us still. And we tilt toward the good, not the evil. How dreary to go through life with fear driving you to such horrid beliefs that you miss the gift of so much that makes life rich and good. I think one of the ironies of people stuck in literal religions is that their only answer would be to find a better kind of religion: one with a healthier and more whole picture of our human condition.

This is the kind of thing Sally was talking about with that “stuff” at her core: that invisible center that has sustained her through some of her recent big changes. Things like knowing that your family is stuck with you and you can count on them, or counting on the fact that you’ve always been lucky enough to be able to frame changes in hopeful ways rather than frightening ways.

The supremacy of these invisible things – these still, small voices – has been seen by the greatest thinkers in all times and places. I want to introduce you, or reacquaint you, with a few of them, a few people saying the same thing in different ways.

1. Aristotle wrote, “There is a life which is higher than the measure of humanity: [we] will live it not by virtue of [our] humanity, but by virtue of something in [us] that is divine. [and] small though it be, in power and worth it is far above the rest.” All this talk of invisible powers and voices sounds kind of spooky or supernatural. But it isn’t supernatural. It’s natural, and super.

2. In the Bible, when the ancient Hebrews left Egypt and wandered through the wilderness for forty years, all the outward and visible signs were just awful. Those with the shallowest faith even wanted to return to Egyptian slavery because at least it was familiar. But they carried something with them on their wanderings, that gave them a kind of center, a center that moved with them. They called it the Ark of the Covenant. It was a box about three feet long by two feet square, and the Hebrews carried it with them everywhere. It was thought to have great power – you may remember the movie “Raiders of the Lost Ark”? That was the outward and visible thing.

But its real power came from the fact that it was a sign to them that their God was with them, that everything holy that gave them significance and purpose was with them, always, even as they wandered through the wilderness. Now don’t just think of this as an old story about people who have been dead for over thirty centuries; it is, as all good myths are, also about us, about a dimension of ourselves we usually haven’t learned to see.

3. There is a stronger version of this business of carrying your god with you, in ancient Greek mythology. It’s one I find both more profound and more useful. It comes from a little-known myth of a little-known god named Proteus. If you read Greek mythology, you won’t find many lines devoted to this god. His chief claim to fame was his ability to change shape.

Sometimes he was a tree, sometimes sea foam, or anything at all. A lot of Western thinkers have attacked this as a sign of people with no soul, no core: “protean” people. But they have missed the point. The god Proteus should be seen as the patron saint of change. Because, while he changed form quite often, he was always a god. Think about this. What was most important, most sacred, about him, had nothing to do with the form he happened to be in at the moment. He was always holy, always a god. You understand that in the language of mythology, this is a story about us, don’t you? It is a story telling us that for us too, when we change form, place, change almost everything, there is still that invisible something about us that is sacred. If there is one single truth I wish more people really believed, it is this. It’s both natural, and super.

4. And a beautiful expression of this same insight comes from the Qu’ran from the religion of Islam, where one of its most famous sayings is that Allah is closer to you than your own jugular vein. Now what can be closer to you than your own jugular vein? Only something that is an inherent part of you. God inside of you: the holy spirit as an invisible but essential part of you that goes with you wherever you go.

5. One last image comes from an old story the Greeks used to tell about Socrates. He was this wonderful and very irritating old philosopher who taught Plato, who in turn taught Aristotle. He was a stonemason by trade, and all the stories about him indicate that he was, that his face was – well, ugly. And this was in a Greek culture that idolized beauty.

Sometimes in the plays the Greeks would put on, an actor would portray Socrates – usually to make fun of him – by wearing a big mask he held up in front of his face, a mask made to look like the face of Socrates. Now the face was so ugly that people laughed, sometimes because they didn’t believe anybody could actually look like that. And when Socrates was in the audience and this happened, he used to stand up and turn around so everyone could see that yes, by golly, someone really can look like that! His heart, his soul, weren’t owned by the visible world, but by something inside of him no one but Socrates could really see.

That may have been the source of the story that compared Socrates to some common little wooden statues Greeks would make that were plain on the outside, but when you opened them they were filled with gods. How else could Socrates be so unconcerned with his looks, unless there was something inside, invisible, that was more powerful than his misshapen face? Plain on the outside, with gods inside. You see, that too is a story about us, if we’ll hear it.

Sally called it the stuff at her core. When I hear a story like Sally’s, I don’t much care what you call this invisible and holy part of you, as long as you can call it forth. Aristotle called it forth by one name, the old Greek mythmakers called it forth by another, the ancient Hebrews called it forth by still another. And for Socrates, like Proteus, it was closer to him than his own jugular vein. But can you see they were all talking about the same thing, the fact that there is something about us that is incorruptible, that is always there, always with us, and that it is the strongest ally we have as we go through the changes that life brings to us.

This invisible, natural, super thing at our core: what is it? I think it’s an ability to frame life as trustworthy, because you know you are supported by a core, anchored in a soil, deep and fertile enough to ground you as you grow through the changes life brings.

This invisible thing, this faith that believes the evidence of things not seen, that believes there is a holy spirit within us, within our core – this is what determines whether in our lives time will bless us, or will just pass; whether we’ll grow up, come of age again and again, or just get older.

You know there’s a story about this, too: about someone who never got it, who was never transformed by life, who never came of age, and whom time simply passed by. It is the story of Rip van Winkle, who fell asleep under a tree for twenty years, and woke up with nothing to show for it but a long beard. We can miss it. Life really can pass us by.

St. Paul once wrote that when he was a child he thought like a child, but when he became a man he put away childish things. That’s what we need to do when things change and we become afraid. We need to put away childish things – like believing that we’re alone, or that our meaning and purpose were tied to a certain form, job, or identity, or that there is nothing we can count on to carry us through. Those things are childish, and are not true. They are profoundly faithless.

For we are not alone. We may look plain on the outside, but we are filled with gods, filled with the holy spirit. The evidence is closer to us than our own jugular vein. You just have to have the eyes to see it, and the faith to believe it. It is not supernatural. It’s natural, and it’s super. It is the truth that can set us free. Try it, for a lifetime, and see.

Finding Your Own Voice

© Davidson Loehr 2005

Cuileann McKenzie

13 March 2005

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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AFFIRMATION OF FAITH:

Cuileann McKenzie

We participate in an unending chain of conversations. But despite all this practice talking, I think most of us have trouble finding our true voice, let alone using it. We chatter, but are we really reflected in our words? Often not. Sometimes for necessary reasons – like portraying a particular image for an employer at a conference, or not telling the bride how much you dislike her gown on her wedding day. But holding back or changing our comments to suit the expectations of another can be taken too far. Like too many of us, I have had times in my life when I’ve allowed my true voice to erode to nearly nothing, completely following another’s lead, and all the while continuing to “talk” like there was nothing wrong. It’s a costly trap, for as the voice fades so does the spirit. But I can assure you, from experience, it’s possible to get your voice back.

What about those of us who haven’t found our voices yet, or those who have been categorically dismissed as not having much of value to say? I loved working with one of these groups, high school students, particularly those in alternative education. After some classroom teaching experience, in one of my teacher’s college assignments, I asserted that we should give high school English students an opportunity to write down their personal thoughts and feelings and allow them either to keep the notes or to use a shredder at the end of the class. The intent was to give them a private and safe space to explore their minds, to vent, to ponder, to hope or pray, and through the writing process, to start to find their own unique voices. The idea was received well by the professor, but that was pre-Columbine, pre-911. Things are different now. Today, I doubt there’d be much support for such a suggestion, and I’m not sure I’d chance voicing it. In the current climate of fear, I think we’ve really lost something – without a sense of safety, voices become quieter.

When I first thought of the shredder, I identified more with students and less with adults in the trenches of career and family. But time has a way of shifting perspective. Indeed, it now seems to me that age can bring more restrictions on voice rather than fewer. Before we speak, we consider partners’ feelings, company cultures, and the little ears of children. Perhaps we’re the ones that need some paper and a shredder. Maybe instead of feeding that machine our bank statements, using it to protect our identity, we can use it to help us find one. Writing to purge the mind and heart can be seen as healthy for the spirit as well, for the Dalai Lama ritually writes his concerns down on a sheet of paper each evening and throws it into a fire. Hey, if it’s good enough for him, maybe we should all try it!

A great way not only to begin to find your voice but also practice using it can be found right here at the church. I’ve had the opportunity to be both a participant and a leader of Evensong, and I’ve benefited greatly. I tend to be reserved when it comes to discussing personal matters. That might seem odd since I’m a writer and am also up here speaking right now, but when I’m writing fiction, I get to don a mask and have great fun, and when I’m up here, I fulfill a clearly defined role and follow my script. When on my own, though, in the everyday world, I often become quite shy. In the welcoming atmosphere of Evensong, however, my reservations soon faded away.

The series of eight weekly gatherings is a wonderful place to learn not only how to speak, but how to listen. After having a week to ponder a topic, you are given the chance to set your true voice free and talk without interruptions, without questions, in an accepting atmosphere. Each person has a chance to speak, while the rest of the group silently and supportively listens. And truly listening to another person is valuable — not only is the speaker’s voice strengthened by the acceptance and validation, while listening, we learn that we’re not alone. THE PRECEDING HAS BEEN A PAID PROMOTIONAL MESSAGE FOR EVENSONG AND RELATED just kidding, I’m just a big fan! But seriously, consider joining Evensong. A new group begins on March 23, and you can sign-up in the Gallery after the service.

Of course expressing our voice is not limited to speaking or writing. People caring for those who need their help are saying so much. And expression through music is wonderful – as we hear each Sunday. Some people also show their regard for others by cooking a beautiful meal. Related to that, to the friends I met last fall in Evensong – at our holiday potluck, I swear that my store-bought frozen lasagna was not saying anything! In whatever form of communication we choose, each one of us has the potential to speak with our own unique and valuable voice. Let’s take the time to find it and then, Speak Up!

PRAYER:

Let us listen for voices that bless us, and call us toward a higher kind of humanity.

There are so many voices we do not want to hear. Voices that belittle and demean us. May we let those bitter voices go by like echoes of bad ideas.

Voices that say we can never be enough, or that we are damned, or too sinful ever to be acceptable – these are usually the voices of tormented people. Let us move out of their way, as we move toward the light.

The light has voices, but they bless us, and call us into our fullest humanity. They help us become human religiously rather than fearfully.

The voices coming from the light bless us, because they know we are children of God, children of the universe, the sons and daughters of Life’s longing for itself, and that we are precious.

Let us know that we are precious: that we are precious people called to share our gifts of life with a world that desperately needs to hear life-blessing, life-giving voices. Let us hear those voices, and let us be those voices of life and love, of challenge and encouragement.

If we must hear voices – and we must – let us listen for the good ones. And let us strive to become some of the voices of blessing, affirmation, challenge and empowerment so that we too, as we pass through life, may bless the world with our own gifts of life and of love.

Amen.

SERMON: Finding Your Own Voice

I have a kind of confession to make: I hear voices. Don’t worry; the voices I hear are a comfort to me. And striving to be in their company gives my life much of its meaning and purpose.

Cuileann spoke of finding your individual voice, and when we talked about this service, I told her I was going to use the old Greek myth of Echo and Narcissus to frame it. Now if you haven’t been coming here for long, you might think a “myth” is just an untrue story. But that’s not right. A myth is something that never happened, but always is. The good myths have insights into the human condition that seem relevant even two or three thousand years after the myth was first told. So the truths contained in myths aren’t like those in science. They’re deeper; they last a lot longer, and they’re always symbolic and metaphorical, never literal.

Little Echo was a nymph who was very pretty but couldn’t shut up. And once after talking to Zeus’s wife Hera to distract her while her husband Zeus escaped from another of his many local affairs, Hera got so angry she put a curse on Echo, and said that from then on she could never have a voice of her own, but could only repeat what others said to her. That story is the source of our word “echo.”

Now Narcissus was a beautiful young man who was unkind and indifferent to all the women who loved him. So one of the avenging goddesses put him under a curse. She decreed that he too would have the experience of deeply loving someone who would never return his love.

So Narcissus and Echo will make an interesting match. Echo sees him lying by a stream, but can’t call out to him. He, in the meantime, has seen his own reflection in the stream, fallen madly in love with it, and cries out “I love you!” “Love you” calls back little Echo. But Narcissus loved no one but himself, and gazed narcissistically at his own reflection until he finally wasted completely away. And little Echo also wasted away, with neither a love nor a voice of her own, until nothing was left of her but her voice, still repeating back whatever is said to her.

Boy, there are a lot of keen psychological insights in that story! Narcissists who, no matter how attractive they may be to others, are capable of loving only themselves. And their partners, who are only permitted to echo back whatever Narcissus says until they too waste away.

We really can lose ourselves if we never find our voice. Haven’t we all experienced this at least once? Not having a voice, playing the role of Echo to someone who really didn’t care?

The role of Echo is one with which a lot of women identify, but it isn’t always the woman who is the echo. Family counselors tell me they’ve seen it both ways, including couples where the woman is the narcissist and the man is assigned the role of echoing back whatever she says.

But however the roles are cast, it’s a plot in which nobody can win. Echo and Narcissus each had half the answer, but only half. Echo could only love others from a distance. But she couldn’t love herself, and wasted away without having a voice of her own. Narcissus could love no one but himself, and wasted away because that’s not enough.

Today we probably wouldn’t call her Echo. Maybe we’d say she’s just doing Karaoke: singing words to somebody else’s tune. But spiritual Karaoke is not satisfying, as you know if you’ve tried it. And when we see someone doing it, we always want to say “Oh, just be yourself, will you!”

But you know it isn’t that simple, either for women or for men. There can be something scary about speaking in our own voice, being known. What if it isn’t enough?

This reminds me of a short comedy skit I saw on television probably twenty years ago. It starred Rich Little, the gifted impersonator. It was sort of the opposite of the Echo and Narcissus story. He played a husband, whose wife was angry because he would never show her his true self. He kept talking to her like Humphrey Bogart. And after doing Bogey, he’d be John Wayne or Sean Connery. Finally, she got so frustrated she said if he didn’t start being himself, she’d leave. Then suddenly this whiney, wimpy, snivelling little voice came out of him. She stopped, looked, and said “Is that the real you?” “Yes,” he whined. She thought about it, then said “Do Bogey again.”

So part of finding our own voice lies in believing that we have a voice that’s worth finding, and that anybody even wants to hear it.

One of the problems is that we all have more than just one voice, and sometimes have to choose which of our voices to use. The Greeks really made it easier for us to understand that we have many voices. They had all these gods and goddesses, and Greeks understood that several of them resided within them, often giving them conflicting advice. Several years ago, I read a book by Arianna Huffington on The Greek Gods, and learned that she also grew up thinking of her competing voices as the voices of goddesses. She has said that her adult life has been a balancing act between following the voice of Demeter the mother to her two daughters, and Artemis, the ambitious and driven woman.

Maybe you think it’s odd, talking about having several voices. But everyone in this room has done it. You’re on a first date, or cruising a bar or party, and meet someone you want to impress. A woman might decide whether she wants to come across as strong Artemis, sexy Aphrodite, mother Demeter or Hera, the archetypal wife. Meanwhile, the man is choosing between being sexy Dionysus, cool and competent Apollo, tricky little Hermes, or Big Daddy Zeus.

We all hear voices. Sometimes our voice needs to be a blend of the several things that are most important to us, and we gain our integrity through integrating our different voices into complementary expressions of our core, or soul. So finding our voice is less like a discovery and more like an achievement.

It is so important for us to do this work, to find our voice and offer it to others, to our world. Because we are the only ones who can do it. And what a shame it would be if the world never got to hear our voice because we forgot about them while we were singing spiritual Karaoke. Finding and using our own best voice is how we are born into our adult roles.

Now let’s take it up a level. Once we find our voice, it’s clear that what really matters is what our voice is serving, what it represents. You know if it’s a whiney sniveling voice, nobody will want to hear it. And if we can only focus on ourselves, nobody wants to hear that, either.

One point of religion is to help us find voices worth serving with our own; to help us find ideals worth following with our lives. That’s what I meant when I said that I hear voices, that they are a comfort to me, and striving to be in their company gives my life much of its meaning and purpose.

You know some of this. In fact, you make judgments on it every week. You don’t really come here to hear me. You come because you hope I’ll be a voice for something beyond me, beyond us, for a perspective big enough to give you something to take home, something you can use in your own life. If you think back on it, I’m betting you have judged every preacher you’ve ever heard on what they served with their voice. Did their words just draw attention to themselves, or were they serving a perspective and a spirit big enough to give some life to you?

Christians say – and I do love this saying – that it isn’t so much who we are that counts, but whose we are. That’s what they mean: what are we serving? What gods are we incarnating, what spirits? Are they spirits that bless our world, or bore it, or even curse it?

Abraham Lincoln once said that we seek “the better angels of our nature.” The word “angel” means “messenger,” a messenger from the “gods.” Any Greek would understand that he means we want to serve the better gods. And like the Greeks, Lincoln knew we have many angels in our nature, both good and bad, and that they all come calling on us from time to time – as you know, too. But we should just listen for the better angels of our nature. They need to be the tune our voice is singing, if we’re to have a voice that blesses us and our world, a voice the world needs to hear.

So spiritual Karaoke is using your voice to sing someone else’s tune, like little Echo. And religion is using it to sing God’s song, to put it poetically. It’s the voice of God we’re seeking. Or if you’d like that put into other words, it’s the voice of wisdom, insight, compassion, love, and connection. That’s what the symbol “God” stands for. That’s the tune we want to sing, the tune that gives our voices the power to give life to us and to others.

Where do you find that voice? The voice that can give grounding to your own voice: the good gods, the better angels – where do you find them? From politicians? Beer ads? Movies? Soap operas? They’re all trying to sell us voices and roles to play, you know. Do you listen for the strongest voice, the loudest voice, the scariest voice? Where do you find the voice that’s most likely to be coming from those better angels of our nature?

This is like asking where do you find the voice of God, isn’t it? So where do you find this “voice of God”? Do you find it in the shouting bible-thumping preachers or the self-righteous politicians or arrogant friends who have made God so simple that they have him all locked up and want to tell you what to believe? No. No, I don’t think you ever find the voice you need in the loud and arrogant places. Listen to this wonderful poetic passage from the Hebrew scriptures:

“And behold, the Lord passed by, and a great and strong wind tore into the mountains and broke the rocks in pieces before the Lord, but the Lord was not in the wind; and after the wind an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake; and after the earthquake a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire; and after the fire a still small voice.” (1 Kings 19:11-12)

A “still, small voice.” That’s the kind of voice our better angels have, I think.

I had an experience like this that always comes to mind when I read this passage, and which you might find useful too. I have never liked public spectacles much, and have avoided almost every graduation ceremony of mine that I could. I didn’t attend the ceremony for my undergraduate degree, or for the Master’s Degree, and had no intention of going to the ceremony to get my Ph.D., either.

But a classmate told me I must go. “Why?” I asked him. He just said there was a line there that would be spoken by the president of the university, that I must hear it and would never forget it. All right, that’s pretty seductive.

So for the first time, I rented a gown and hood and bought the hat, and took part in the graduation ceremony. I was sitting right next to my classmate, and kept wondering when and what this great line was. It came near the end.

After all the undergraduate degrees and Master’s degrees had been granted, she called up onto the stage all of us who were receiving our Ph.D.’s. After some brief introductory remarks, she turned to face us, and said – this still chokes me up! – “I welcome you into the ancient and honorable community of scholars.” I’ve never heard such empowering and intimidating words in my life. We weren’t just students who finally got through the grueling degree program. No, we were now and forevermore members of an “ancient and honorable community of scholars.”

I hadn’t even realized that such a community existed. I’ve spoken with others who got their doctorates at the same university, and the line has kept its power for all of us. One woman told me that sometimes, when she’s preparing a lecture, she want sto cut corners because the class is only for freshmen.

Then she’ll hear voices. At least that one voice, reminding her of the ancient and honorable community of which she is a part. And she says it feels like Aristotle is there looking at her, saying “You don’t really intend to cut corners on this lecture, do you?” Like me, she hears voices, and those voices are a comfort to her. And striving to be in their company gives her life, as it gives mine, meaning and purpose. You realize that this is the same message religions give in their different ways. It is like saying “You are a child of God, and God loves you,” or that your soul is part of the whole universe’s soul, or that you are made of stardust.

So when you serve a transcendent ideal, can you really say it’s your voice you have found? Yes, it’s just a voice that you cared enough about to educate, to let it rub up against others who aspired to high ideals. And the ideals we serve with our lives – those ideals bless us. And people around us can tell. They may not know just what inspired us, but they know we are trying to be true to something important, something enduring, perhaps even something eternal. And it makes all the difference.

For we have heard the voices of the better angels of our nature, and they always bless us, by initiating us into that ancient and honorable community of people trying to come into their full humanity. And there is no higher or more ennobling aspiration.

I don’t mean only for us as individuals, but also for groups of people. This was what happened with black people in the Civil Rights movement of the 1950s and 1960s: they found their voice and claimed their place at the table of humanity.

It is what happened in the women’s movements of the 1960s and 1970s, and the gay rights movements since gays fought back against police harassment at the Stonewall bar in 1969.

These moments were among the miracles of the past half century: miracles, because new life was born, as new groups of people found their voices, connected those voices with timeless tunes of freedom, equality and justice, and raised their voices to bless both themselves and the world around them, whether the world was ready for that blessing or not.

Those people heard voices. Not the voices of the loud bigots around them, not the loud voices of abusive policemen, not the voices of everyone telling them to get back in their place and be little Echoes again. They heard the “still, small voice” that contained the voice of God, the voice of the better angels of their and our nature.

This is a sermon that can’t really end, because it’s a sermon about beginning to take ourselves seriously, trying to become fully human, religiously. So here’s how I want to begin. I want to begin by welcoming you, all of you, into the ancient and honorable community of people seeking their full humanity. You are all part of it, and I hope when you leave here, you hear voices too: voices that know your name, know your soul, voices that give you the power to speak, to bless yourselves and to bless your world, our world.

Perhaps nothing in all of life is more sacred than hearing those voices, and knowing how to answer them.

Women's Wisdom, Women's Work

© Victoria Shepherd Rao

Clare Tilson, Worship Assistant

06 March 2005

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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PRAYER:

From the Qur’an, Umm Salamah’s verses (Surah 33:35):

“Lo! Men who surrender unto God, and women who surrender,

and men who believe and women who believe,

and men who obey and women who obey,

and men who speak the truth and women who speak the truth,

and men who persevere, and women who persevere,

and men who are humble and women who are humble,

and men who give alms, and women who give alms,

and men who fast and women who fast,

and men who guard their modesty,

and women who guard their modesty,

and men who remember God much and women who remember –

God has prepared for them forgiveness and a vast reward.”

AFFIRMATION OF FAITH:

Women’s Work

Clare Tilson

I was watching TV with my grandfather while my grandmother scooted around cleaning. I asked him if he ever helped her and he said that THAT was Women’s Work. He didn’t just mean that being traditional was his way of life. He meant to convey that he was superior to that sort of work. Yow. This was the first time I’d heard the term, Women’s Work. Since then, the term has been redefined for me.

As a graduate student of Animal Behavior, a professor asked if I thought the traditional parenting roles taken on by men and women were influenced more by nature or nurture. I gave an answer that Gloria Steinum would have been pleased with. In short, such behavior was mostly learned. But he politely disagreed; that there must be quite a bit of hard wiring to such a behavioral pattern since it was so prevalent among animals. I chaffed at the way his logic bound me to a certain life. Ha! Now, I am immersed in the reproductive part of life where men’s and women’s roles tend to polarize. I have to say that this women’s work feels pretty hard-wired, and is the most perfect fit for who I am of anything I have ever done. And, contrary to what my grandfather thinks, life as a stay-at-home mommy is far from inferior, menial work. In fact, it is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. I bet he couldn’t do it.

But, there were other times in my life where I have done women’s work or witnessed the benefit of women’s work and wisdom.

Davidson sent me a New York Times article about cutting-edge scientists examining personality in animals. He sent the article to me because I had once told him about the personalities I had come to admire in my study animals when I was a master’s student. My study animals weren’t cats or dogs or something charismatic like that. They were moths. Big moths that I had to hold and hand-feed every day. Some were more fearful, some were gutsy fighters, and some were quicker at learning the routine. I still remember one moth in particular. She had long outlived her experimental usefulness, but I continued to feed her every day because I had grown fond of her. She was exceptionally sweet-tempered. I remember telling my advisor about my observations. He was incredulous and condescending. Whatever. I was right. Now, studying animal personalities is cutting edge.

And there are plenty of other female scientists influencing science. I remember hearing a seminar on befuddling bird hierarchies. They couldn’t figure out why one male was top bird one week and then dirt the next. Until, that is, a female researcher looked at the same data and said, the hierarchy you seek is among the female birds. Male status was a function of which female the male associated with.

So science is evolving under the influence of women’s work and wisdom.

But what about business and politics and religion? I think women have even more room to do their work in these fields. And when they do, it’ll be amazing. Won’t you just love it when business is less about greed and more about making sure that one’s success is not at the expense of our children’s world? Won’t you just love it when there are no more wars, and the most aggressive thing that happens among nations is an occasional catty remark shot across the desks at the United Nations? And won’t you just love it when God is no longer used as a tool to justify violence and intolerance, and instead used to exemplify the nurturing, accepting, forgiving way we all could live?

SERMON: Women’s Wisdom, Women’s Work

International Women’s Day – March 8th

Today I want to tip the hat to International Women’s Day, and celebrate women’s work and the contribution women’s work makes to our quality of life. Now Women’s Day is technically March 8th, this Tuesday, although for the purposes of the marches, protests, conferences, forums, art shows, performances and gatherings which typically mark the day all over the world, any convenient day in the beginning of March is acceptable. Typical of women’s ways, the actual day is less important than the fact that it suits the participants.

Let me ask some questions of you now. I have been surprised at how many folks are not familiar with the International Women’s Day. How many of you, and I am asking both men and women, have celebrated, at some time in your life, International Women’s Day? How many have never heard of it?

For myself, I was always drawn into its observance by my first cousin, who was more like my sister as I was growing up. She would always march in the Women’s Day parade in Toronto and then get together with all her close women friends for a shared meal. It was, as far as I could tell, not as much about fighting the good fight for gender equity and woman’s equality as a simple celebration of our own womanhood. Joining together to support one another as women.

Now I have spoken to the young adult group here, and not one of them had ever heard of Women’s Day. I have also spoken to two women from among the congregation. One has had a history of gathering together with an international group of women to celebrate the day and the other had spent a recent women’s day dressed in white and dancing for peace. She hadn’t the heart to celebrate this year since the invasion of Iraq.

And what about you? Work is certainly not something only women do, nor is wisdom limited to the female half of our species. But the tip of the hat is special consideration I want to give this morning to the work which we typically associate with women, no matter the age they lived in or the culture they were born into – and that can be described as the work of homemaking, the provision of food in the form of meals in the homes, and caring for others in the home, whether children, adults or elderly family members. This is not only women’s work. It must be acknowledged that men are also responsible for the provision of this work, at least paying for these services, if not executing or managing them.

But let’s see: Who here, personally, takes care of a home? Who has the responsibility of providing meals in the home? Who is actively engaged in providing care to children, or dependent adults? Is it mostly women’s hands that are raised? One more question: How many of you who have raised your hands to any of these last questions, also work outside the home?

I want observe Women’s Day because it gives us the opportunity to celebrate the worth of the work of women to the quality of life we experience and share.

International Women’s Day got its start in this country in 1908 with a march of Socialist women in NYC. They were demonstrating to call for the vote and the political and economic rights of women. Two years later at a meeting of The Socialist International in Copenhagen, the international nature of Women’s Day was established to honor the move towards women’s rights including the right to vote. In 1911 more than a million women demonstrated in European nations, not only for voting rights but for the right to hold public office, the right to vocational training, the right to work outside the home, and the right to be treated as equal workers. Now the Industrial Revolution was a fact of life, so was child labor and these demonstrations underlined the need for all workers outside the home to be treated fairly. In the same year, shortly after Women’s Day, there was a terrible fire in NYC in which 140 working girls, mostly Italian and Jewish immigrants, were killed while on the job. The timing of this tragedy so soon after the IWD highlighting of the need for including women workers’ interests, had significant impact on labor legislation in the US.

Since those early days, IWD has become a day of global celebration for the economic, political, and social achievements of women, and the societies they live in. It is a time to reflect on progress made, to call for change and to celebrate acts of courage and determination by women and men who have played extraordinary roles in the history of women’s rights. And in keeping with this, today I want to tell you the stories of two women who have uniquely expressed the synthesis between traditional women’s work, the home-making and the procurement of food, and the hard-won power which comes from breaking free of traditional women’s work enough to become educated, articulate, free-thinking problem-solvers and leaders. I offer these portraits to you as examples of the incorporation of women’s wisdom into domains far beyond the reaches of the household, into the affairs of whole peoples and states.

First, the winner of the 2004 Nobel Peace Prize, Wangari Maathai. I am sure most of you have read about her. I had, though I hadn’t bothered to pronounce her name until now, I realize. She is a Kenyan woman, born in 1940. Educated. Went to school in the West. Became a Zoology professor. She married and had three children. She divorced her husband in the 1980’s. Her former husband described her as “too educated, too strong, too successful, too stubborn and too hard to control.” Right on. Seems to me that’s just what my cousin and I celebrated on women’s day. It is interesting to note that no one would ever think of describing men as too any of these things. We admire men who are too educated, strong, successful, stubborn and hard to control.

Wangari Maathai started the work that was to lead her to Nobel recognition in the 1980’s when she became concerned with the then government of Kenya’s policy of deforestation and the negative impact it had on the soil, and the lives of women. The traditional work of women in Kenya was and is to make the meals, and keep the fires burning under the pots. But because of the deforestation, women were having to hunt farther and farther afield for their firewood. This took them away from home for longer and longer periods, leaving children and homes unattended. So Wangari Maathai not only protested the government policies, she also came up with the idea of planting trees. If the Kenyan women could plant trees close to home in their villages, they could start cultivating and harvesting their own firewood. Thus in control of their fuel, such women would not remain powerless even with autocratic husbands and village chiefs, even with ruthless presidents.

Wangari Maathai founded the Green Belt Movement. She organized women in villages to plant trees. It was found that to plant trees in groups of one thousand not only produced sustainable wood for cooking, it effectively combated soil erosion, as well as enabling women to work close to home, where their responsibilities lay. Now there are six thousand tree nurseries in Kenya, and it is estimated that the village women in the Green Belt Movement have planted between twenty to thirty million trees in Kenya. The treeplanting confronts big problems: it has slowed the desertification of the land, it preserves the habitats for wildlife, it provides sources for fuel and building materials, and with fruit trees, food for future generations. It shifts power from policy makers and enforcers to the women who want to take care of their homes and families.

Wangari Maathai, like many leaders, made huge personal sacrifices for the work she has undertaken. She was jailed for fighting the single-party state and protesting for its end. When Kenya allowed new political parties to form, she established the Mazingira Green Party. She has been beaten for her efforts. Yet when Kenyans finally did get a choice for their government in 2002, she was elected with a huge majority for her region’s seat in government and there was dancing in the street when she was appointed Deputy Minister of the Environment.

Her insight led her beyond the concerns of the traditional work of women to the larger and more complex issues of food security in the era of global free trade, with its pressures to export food as commodity and as dept repayment to the international money lending interests. Such concerns are national in scope but they reach into every home and village. And it is there that the wisdom of women leads them clearly in the priority of their work. The tee-shirts of the Kenyan Green Belt ladies reads, “as for me, I have made a choice” and that choice, once made available through the work of this leader, is about taking control of their living environment, cultivating, planting and managing trees, re-establishing kitchen gardens and indigenous crops using organic methods, wherever and whenever they can. Such are the choices of an empowered Kenyan woman, an empowered citizen.

Wangari Maathai likes to retell the old seven-day Creation story this way: If God created humans on the Tuesday instead of on the Saturday of the first week, the humans would have been dead on Wednesday because there were not all the essential survival elements in place yet. So, just to explain that abit, on the third day of creation there would have been light and sky already made and that’s it not yet the land, not yet the seas, not yet the plants or animals, none of the things without which we could not live on this Earth. Human life needs the land, the water and the plant life to survive.

The Nobel Peace prize was awarded to Wangari Maathai for her contribution to sustainable development, democracy and peace. With this award the Nobel Prize committee reveals a new understanding of how peace is constituted. Instead of trying to end armed conflict, they are acknowledging that peace on Earth now depends as much on our ability to secure our living environment so it may, in turn, sustain our lives. Wangari Maathai has a neat way to say the same thing of her work, she says, “We plant the seeds of peace.” We all do. She did it by organizing ordinary women into undertaking homemaking on a new, broader scale, not confined to the hut or house, but with a view to the common good. We cannot all be Nobel Peace prize winners but we can appreciate in her leadership how her non-traditional education and public service is intimately connected to the more traditional forms of women’s work and wisdom. Too educated, too strong, too successful, too stubborn and too hard to control for what?

Another woman I want to tell you about is Vandana Shiva. She is an Indian woman, born in 1953, in the Himalayas of North India, in a fertile valley where she grew up on the family farm. Her father was a forest conservator and her mother was a former government official. Vandana Shiva remembers that her mother taught her that there was nothing beyond the reach of a woman, and that education by itself did not make you a better human being. Vandana Shiva always loved and yearned to know more about nature. Albert Einstein was her hero and so she studied physics “to figure out a little better the patterns of nature’s laws.” Like Wangari, Vandana was privileged with an extended education. Also with studies in the West. I was surprised to learn that she studied at the University of Western Ontario, in Canada. In her work as a nuclear physicist she learned first hand about the practice of what she calls “one-eyed science”, science that looks only at the benefits or profitability of its discoveries and not at the costs.

In the early eighties, Vandana became involved with a grass roots Indian women’s initiative which succeeded in stopping commercial logging in the Himalayas. Then the Indian government asked her to do an impact analysis on mining in her home valley and her work became instrumental in shutting down mines and other polluting industries there. So, in 1982, she founded an organization in her hometown with the goal of working with local communities and social movements to promote sustainable agriculture and combat genetic engineering, water privatization, and factory farming. The independent Research Foundation for Science, Technology, and Ecology would work with such communities and movements by providing the scientific research and technological understandings needed to mount their challenges effectively in business meeting rooms and legal chambers, the places where men have traditionally made the decisions.

In 1991 she stated Navdanya, a national movement in India to protect the diversity and integrity of living resources, especially seeds. In the late nineties she initiated the international movement Diverse Women for Diversity which acknowledges the role of Third World women as seed conservators and as experts in the use of medicinal plants.

Vanadana Shiva has written many books on agri-business, the dangers of industrialized farming, and biotechnology. She is a leader in the social-justice and ecology movements. Here is a quote:

“I care deeply for people’s right to food. I devote my life to ensuring that we have sustainable agriculture . and the efficient use of scarce resources. Biotech, or genetically modified seeds, fails the sustainability test because the intellectual-property-rights system perversely treats plants and seeds as corporate inventions. What is supposed to be the farmers’ highest duty – saving seed and exchanging it with neighbors – has become a crime If enough people practice alternative forms of political organizing and present a different political message, it can add up to a sound loud enough for the deaf to hear. And the more we start taking power into our own hands, the more we shrink the power of lifeless capital to destroy life on the planet.”

Shiva still lives on her family’s farm. She is not living in a traditional family structure. She lives with her brother, sister and her grown son. When she is not flying all over the world giving lectures, she is there farming and writing. Traditional women’s work dedicated to the procurement of food but supplemented with the non-traditional work of thinking, researching, writing and problem solving.

If it is women’s wisdom and women’s work to focus on the provision of food, on the preservation of forests and soils, and the integrity of the living environment around us to sustain our lives and homes, and if it is men’s wisdom and men’s work to consider the science, and the possible use of technology, to make the decisions, and to make the rules, then Vandana Shiva’s work is an example of the way women can add the world of women’s wisdom to the playing field of “a man’s world.”

Now, you may have a garden, and I know that there are some members here who take gardening and growing food very seriously, but we are not concerned for the most part with seed conserving or planting or harvesting. We shop at HEB, or at Wheatsville coop. Our lives as women are as far removed from the productive soil as the men folk among us. Women’s work here is about getting up and getting everybody else up, dressing, feeding, dropping off, working our jobs ’til we pick up at daycare. Come home, maybe shop on the way, get dinner, deal with the homework situation, limit TV, manage the bath and bedtimes, clean up dinner, tidy up house, do laundry, make calls, attend to necessary arrangements, get ready for the next day, get to bed. It is busy and sometimes it is crazy busy. But we have managed to get ourselves here this morning for rest and worship and a meaningful message. So, what has the work of these two foreign, accomplished ladies have to say to us?

Here are my answers: Our world is made better by the work you do as homemaker and meal-maker. The quality of the lives of your partners, children, parents, is enhanced every time you knock yourself out to make things nice: good food, clean clothes, paid bills. Thank you for doing this women’s work, whether you are a woman or a man. I wanted to highlight these two ladies to inspire you.

Their work is grounded in the concerns of all women and men, the common needs we all have for food security, and the shelter of a livable environment, whether that means accessible firewood, or a functionally de-cluttered car interior.

Their work also exemplifies the wisdom of women, to work with what you’ve got, to understand the limits you labor under, to work with others building relationships which are as sustaining as food and land, and more precious in the end. In Kenya and in India women with much less social mobility and much less economic power than any of us can imagine are working together to protect and restore their lands. They are not all landowners but they know they are stakeholders just as we do. They know also that they cannot and will not turn away from their work as women, wives, mothers, daughters. And in that can anyone, can any woman be too educated, too strong, too successful, stubborn or hard to control? I don’t think so. These are good traits for the ladies, and too much of a good thing is a better thing. Much better.

About Schmidt – About Life – About Aging

© Nathan L. Stone, Ph.D., minister

27 February 2005

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

CALL TO WORSHIP

When you walked through those doors this morning – you entered a very rare world of church and religion.

A place where no thought is taboo.

A place where questions are expected… valued… and even celebrated.

A place where the most sacred things are you and this good earth.

A place where we can actually poke fun at our own religion because we know that no religion has a corner on the truth.

This, then, is my hope, my prayer, and my wish for you… and for me:

That whatever spiritual or emotional itch you may be experiencing that you will find a way to have that itch scratched by whatever happens here today in this community called First Church. And may you be surrounded by love.

May it be so.

PRAYER

Will you join with me in an attitude of prayer?

Spirit of Live… God of many, many, many names… and no name.

We pause to give thanks for a place and a people who are willing to hear and celebrate the good things in life. We pause to give thanks for a place and a people who are also willing to hear about the painful and difficult parts of our lives.

In a busy, fractured, and fearful world – may we be energized by holding hands, laughing, and dreaming big dreams.

In a busy, fractured, and fearful world – may we truly find a stillness here that will gently carry us through all of our days and nights.

In a busy, fractured, and fearful world – may we learn to go slower, to be healed of our brokenness, and to find a deep, deep love that will slowly dismiss our fears.

May we find a true harmony and serenity that knows how to accept the things we cannot change, discovers the courage to change the things we can – and the wisdom to know the difference.

This is our prayer in the name of all that is good and true and honest and beautiful.

Amen.

SERMON

I know this is a sermon about aging. And I know some of you may be saying, “I am not old!” But you will be. And, chances are – somebody you love is old. So here is a sermon dedicated to us all.

Recently I received an email story. Whoever wrote the story starts it out like this:

I have been guilty of looking at others my own age and thinking… Surely I cannot look that old. I’m sure you’ve done the same. You may enjoy this short story.

While waiting for my appointment in the reception room of a new dentist, I noticed his certificate, which bore his full name. Suddenly, I remembered that a tall, handsome boy with the same name had been in my high school class some 40 years ago. Upon seeing him, however, I quickly discarded any such thought. This balding, gray-haired man with the deeply lined face was too old to have been my classmate.

After he had examined my teeth I asked him if he had attended a local high school. “Yes,” he replied. “When did you graduate?” I asked. He answered, “In 1957.” “Why you were in my class!” I exclaimed.

He looked at me closely and then asked, “What did you teach?”

Ouch. That’s funny… not funny. The movie, “About Schmidt,” is funny… not funny. It is funny… not funny because it is about aging – which is funny… not funny.

My wife and I find ourselves having more and more conversations about our aches and pains. Recently, we even had an extended conversation (are you ready for this?) comparing – colonoscopies! That’s funny… not funny, don’t you think?

How many of you have seen “About Schmidt?” This is a movie that got my attention. If you haven’t seen it you must see it soon.

In the Los Angeles Times, Manohla Dargis writes:

“About Schmidt” opens with a 66-year-old man staring at the second hand sweeping toward the last 5 o’clock of his working life. After years as an executive in what he calls the “insurance game,” Warren Schmidt has reached the age of retirement and, like the packed boxes stacked next to him, he’s about to get junked. He’s a nowhere man at the end of his run and he might not grab your attention if not for the fact that the senior citizen with the exquisitely anguished comb-over and the potato physique is played by Jack Nicholson. (http://www.fandango.com/reviews_fullreview.asp?mv=39806)

Roger Ebert says that,

Warren Schmidt is a man without resources. He has no intellectual curiosity. May never have read a book for pleasure. Lives in a home “decorated” with sets of collector’s items accumulated by his wife, each in the display case that came with the items. On his retirement day, he is left with nothing but time on his empty hands. He has spent his entire life working at a job that could have been done by anybody, or apparently, nobody. He goes to the office to see if he can answer any questions that the new guy might have, but the new guy doesn’t. In a lifetime of work, Warren Schmidt has not accumulated even one piece of information that is needed by his replacement.

“The mass of men,” Thoreau famously observed, “lead lives of quiet desperation.” Schmidt is such a man. (http://www.suntimes.com/cgi-bin/print.cgi)

And movie critic, James Berardinelli, writes:

“About Schmidt” is an unsentimental yet effective portrait of a character struggling with the essential questions of life. Although it has moments of cynicism, this is not a cynical film. Although it contains instances of humor, it is not a comedy. And, although it contains elements of the road trip genre, it is not a road trip movie. Instead, this is an opportunity to spend two hours in the company of a fairly ordinary man who no longer understands the point of anything.

(http://www.movie-reviews.colossus.net)

And although I have never thought much about retirement the movie made me face up to my own aging. Especially in one scene where Warren Schmidt does muse on his wrinkles as the camera zooms in: the sagging skin under his chin (the inevitable gift of gravity), the hair in his ears, and the little veins in his ankles.

Speaking of hair in the ears – I declare that if all the hair in my ears would grow on top of my head I could look like Texas Governor Rick Perry. Maybe even become a televangelist.

The movie just hit too close to home. And, what’s more, I saw it on the eve of attending my 45th high school reunion in Honolulu in June. And, indeed, I kept wondering at the reunion: “Who are all these old people?”

“About Schmidt” also got to my friend, Neal Jones – a psychologist in South Carolina. He said,

Toni thought it was just ok, but it struck a deep nerve in me. Here’s this guy on the last lap of his life’s journey looking back and wondering what it was all about. He’d done everything he’s supposed to – he’s worked hard at the same company, saved, remained faithful to his wife, raised a kid. Yet the woman he met at the camper park nailed him. She could see behind his polite smile to his very soul, and she saw that he was empty, angry, lonely, and sad. That got to me. Here at mid-life I wonder what it’s all about. I’ve been a “good boy” all my life; I’ve done what I’m supposed to. Yet none of the dreams I had about my life in my twenties have come true. Have I failed, or have I just become more realistic? Am I doing what I’m “supposed” to be doing? All I know at this point is that it’s passing by mighty fast, and I still don’t know what it’s all about. (email: 01/21/03)

It is simply amazing how, all of a sudden, you’re old. They say that old is anybody who is 15 years older than you. And so I may take some comfort in finding a 79-year-old person and feeling smug about my “youth.” But at some point there are not many people 15 years older than you. I have to also realize that there’s some 49-year-old who’s looking at me and saying, “Damn, that Nathan is old!!”

Schmidt makes me wonder, “When does old happen? When does a person wake up and say, ‘Oops, I guess I’m old now!?'”

In an article entitled, “Auguries of Aging,” George Merrill shares his reflections.

I’m old now. I became old incrementally: first, at 50, when the American Association of Retired Persons notified me that I was eligible for membership and then at 65, when, at my regional Social Security Office, seated under the portrait of a cherubic, boyish looking President Bill Clinton, I applied to receive benefits. Finally, days after my last birthday, when I attended my fiftieth high school reunion, I knew the deal was clinched.

Old is a fickle word: it’s revered and feared. Americans love anything old: antiquing is a national sport and genealogies are hot. No collector wants a “senior” butter churn or a “mature” eighteenth century bed warmer. He wants it old, the older the better. The word old, like the word dead, isn’t necessarily problematic, except as it may refer to us.

The dead don’t want to be thought old, either. Obituaries are often accompanied with pictures of the deceased. Seeing only the pictures I’d think everyone died between forty and fifty. Most were upwards of sixty. For anyone sixty-five and up and not sure whether they’re old, looking at the photograph from your most recent driver’s license helps. Two things happen: the image you see never squares with the one you have in your mind’s eye, and it gets more difficult kidding yourself about age.

Am I uneasy about being an old man? Yes. I resent the diminishments and vulnerability. I’m embarrassed when my mind goes blank when reaching for people’s names. I’ve experienced my first arthritic pains: they’re like electric shocks. At doctor’s appointments, now, entering the office feels like walking the last mile. Young women regard me with respect, but not desire.

As a young clergyman, I enjoyed visiting the elderly on Manhattans’ West Side. I’d get my parishioners talking about the old days, the world of their youth. It was wonderful hearing their stories. They’d invariably interrupt their narrative to launch into what I then callously called “organ recitals.” These were detailed accounts of aches and pains in various body parts and commentaries on operations they’d undergone. My parishioners would recite names from the obituaries, asking me if I knew them. I’d grow impatient, and try to change the conversation. I was rarely successful. Age evens the score: where they were then, so I am, now.

It’s disturbing being old in our throwaway culture. (“Journeys” – Winter-Spring 2003; p.2)

The sad thing about Warren Schmidt is that he, apparently, never thought about anything beyond his small world. After his retirement and in his sense of emptiness and confusion he tries to reach outside his world by responding to a TV appeal called, “Childreach.” He decides to send them $22 a month (only 72-cents a day!) for a 6-year-old Tanzanian child named Ndugu. “Childreach” sends him a picture of Ndugu and asks Warren to write and tell the little boy about himself.

For what seems like the first time in his life Warren Schmidt tries talking about his insides – and, it is clear, he has very little to say. In 66 years Warren Schmidt seems to have never, or perhaps rarely, visited his insides. I read in some review that Warren’s soul desperately needed a squirt of oil desperately.

My brother – who works very hard – hated this movie. “Nathan,” he said, “I do not want to be like that. I don’t want to retire and realize I did not invest in anything beyond my paycheck. I do not want the end of my professional career to be a perfunctory retirement dinner and a Winnebago in my driveway. I do not want to come to the end of my professional career and try to make life worth while by sending $22 a month (only 72-cents a day!”) to “Childreach” and writing to an absentee foster child named Ndugu.

Schmidt got to him because he rarely, if ever, visits his insides.

“About Schmidt” is a haunting movie. I think it should be required viewing for all teenagers. And then we should all have to watch it every two years.

I do not want the Schmidt-syndrome to sneak up on me. So I’ve made myself a list of reminders. Things to do to avoid a Schmidt-life.

1. Remember to read… and read a lot. Read in order to live in a very big world of knowledge and insight. Read to keep your mind alert.

2. Remember to travel. Get out and beyond my little 40 acres of life. See how the rest of the world lives. Go now and find some Ndugu while I still have time and energy. Go now and find some Ndugu before I get calloused, set in my ways, and my heart becomes two sizes too small!

3. Remember to hang out with people who like to think and discuss world events and big ideas.

One of the ways I do that these days is that I have lunch once a week with a bunch of old guys. I call it “The Geezer Lunch.” I learn so much from all that geezer-wisdom.

4. Remember to cultivate friendships. I must thank Pat for pushing me in this regard. Left to my own introverted and sometimes depressive devices I’d be alone most of the time. But Pat believes in making friends, developing friends, and nurturing friendships… so that your life doesn’t become insulated and isolated. So that you don’t end up like Warren Schmidt: a wife, a Winnebago, and a daughter who lives far away and doesn’t like you very much.

5. Remember to keep an eye on your attitude. See – this is how it works. If you’re grouchy now – you’ll only get grouchier in a nursing home. If you’re a whiner now you’ll whine much, much more when you’re old-old.

The 92-year-old, petite, well-poised and proud lady, who is fully dressed each morning by eight o’clock, with her hair fashionably coifed and makeup perfectly applied, even though she is legally blind, moved to a nursing home today. Her husband of 70 years recently passed away, making the move necessary.

After many hours of waiting patiently in the lobby of the nursing home, she smiled sweetly when told her room was ready. As she maneuvered her walker to the elevator, I provided a visual description of her tiny room, including the eyelet sheets that had been hung on her window. “I love it,” she stated with the enthusiasm of an eight-year-old having just been presented with a new puppy.

“Mrs. Jones, you haven’t seen the room… just wait.” “That doesn’t have anything to do with it,” she replied. “Happiness is something you decide on ahead of time. Whether I like my room or not doesn’t depend on how the furniture is arranged… it’s how I arrange my mind. I already decided to love it. It’s a decision I make every morning when I wake up. I have a choice: I can spend the day in bed recounting the difficulty I have with the parts of my body that no longer work, or get out of bed and be thankful for the ones that do. Each day is a gift, and as long as my eyes open I’ll focus on the new day and all the happy memories I’ve stored away. (source unknown)

I’m sure there are a bunch of other things that can be done to avoid the Schmidt-syndrome but I’ll just mention one more.

6. Remember to get a dog. I saw “About Schmidt” four times and I was struck that there was no dog in his life. A dog would have taught him to get outside of himself.

I must admit that before I met Pat I had no dog in my life. (Uh, that is not a good sentence but I think you know what I mean. I hope Pat knows what I mean). But now I have Lani. And how I do love that silly girl. We rescued her. She is part Retriever and part Burmese Mountain Dog (we think). She weighs 85 pounds and is barely a year old.

Shee teaches me so very many things. When I get into one of my pity-parties and I’m pouting around wanting someone to pet me – here comes Lani to nudge my arm until I pet her. She makes me get out of myself.

And then there’s our other dog, Yellow. (She died not too long ago.) She was a thousand years old with really bad arthritis, tumors everywhere, and dying of congestive heart failure. But she never complained and her tail continued to wag even into the final visit with the Veterinarian. Yellow taught me to embrace the passage of time – to age – and to die with dignity and grace. Yellow was a kind of spiritual director for me.

I read a poem recently. A poem by Mary Oliver. It is a fine anti-Schmidt poem:

“When Death Comes”

When death comes

like the hungry bear in autumn;

when death comes and takes all the bright coins from his purse

to buy me, and snaps the purse shut;

when death comes

like the measle-pox;

when death comes

like an iceberg between the shoulder blades,

I want to step through the door full of curiosity, wondering:

what is it going to be like, that cottage of darkness?

And therefore I look upon everything

as a brotherhood and a sisterhood,

and I look upon time as no more than an idea,

and I consider eternity another possibility,

and I think of each life as a flower, as common

as a field daisy, and as singular,

and each name a comfortable music in the mouth,

tending, as all music does, toward silence,

and each body a lion of courage, and something precious to the earth.

When it’s over, I want to say: all my life

I was a bride married to amazement.

I was the bridegroom, taking the world into my arms.

When it’s over, I don’t want to wonder

if I have made of my life something particular, and real.

I don’t want to find myself sighing and frightened,

or full of argument.

I don’t want to end up simply having visited this world.

(New and Selected Poems; Beacon Press: Boston, Massachusetts; 1992; pp.10-11)

I do not want to be a visitor to life. I do not want to be Warren Schmidt.

I want to be Kathy Bates – her name is Roberta in the movie. She’s about Warren’s age. Her presence, in contrast to Schmidt’s – her presence just fills up the screen. When old age and death come I want to be Roberta : naked in a hot tub next to a frightened and bewildered Warren Schmidt. When old age and death come I want to be Roberta – who approaches life hungrily and with good cheer and who can’t stop talking about how sensuous and “orgasmic” (her word!) she is.

When old age and death come – I want to be Roberta. What about you?

Shalom. Aloha. Salaam. Namaste. Amen. Blessed Be. And I love you all.

BENEDICTION

The bene-diction: the good word as we go our ways –

Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well-prepared body… but rather to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming, “Wow! What a ride!!”

[Hug somebody if they’ll allow it. Remember that Virginia Satir used to say that we need at least 3 hugs a day just to survive. 12 in order to flourish!]

Walking the strait and narrow

Chuck Freeman 2005

February 20, 2005

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Rev. Freeman is a guest minister from the Live Oak Unitarian Univeralist Church.

Jesus’ admonition to “Walk the strait and narrow” is widely misinterpreted. It refers to taking the difficult path, not the path of conformity. It means finding your own path, not one laid out by another, and having the courage to take it.

On Tolerating Bad Religion

© Davidson Loehr 2005

13 February 2005

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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Prayer

In many ways, we know so little. Yet we guide our lives, and our actions toward others, based on the little that we know. And sometimes we do harm, because we hadn’t understood, because we hadn’t cared, because we didn’t know the right little things.

Let us try to take an honest inventory of the little things we know, and test them with both head and heart:

When we judge and condemn others, have we understood that they, no less than we, are children of God?

If we are alienated by those who love differently than we do, have we remembered that it is often a gift to the world when we can love at all?

When we see that another’s values would not feed our souls, can we also see that means that our values might not feed theirs?

If the god of understanding were watching the way we treat those with whom we disagree, would that god say that we have really understood them?

If the goddess of love were watching, would she say that we had added to the amount of love in the world, or detracted from it?

And if all the people we most admire, those with the clearest understanding or biggest hearts – if they were watching us, would we feel ashamed, or proud?

We know so little, yet must guide our lives by the little we know. We seek ways of being and living that can make us better people, partners, parents and citizens.

Let us pray that our actions may make us agents of a deeper understanding and a broader love. For the world needs those gifts, far more than it needs our little certainties.

When we can’t respect others enough, when we can’t love them enough to bless their best intentions, let us pray for the character to treat them as we might if only we could understand them better or love them more.

We offer this prayer with honest minds, open hearts, and a grateful reverence for this amazing gift of life.

Amen.

Sermon

This starts and ends with stories.

One day the devil and one of his little helpers were sitting on a cloud looking down at the humans below, when they saw a man walking down a road who stopped, picked up something from the road, put it in his pocket and walked on.

“What did he find?” asked the devil’s helper. “A piece of the truth,” chuckled the devil.

“A piece of the truth? Don’t you want to stop him?”

“Stop him? Oh no,” said the devil. “It’s only a tiny piece of truth. Before long, he’ll turn it into an orthodoxy. And then he’ll be doing my work!”

There are ways in which that story sums up the history of almost all religions. It’s like the ancient Hindu story of the blind people and the elephant, but with a vengeance. In the Hindu story, different blind people came upon different parts of an elephant. The one who had grabbed the ear said “Why, an elephant is like a big leathery leaf!” The one who had hold of the trunk said “You fool! It’s nothing at all like a leaf. It’s like a long, thick snake!” The one who had bumped into a leg said “You’re both crazy! I have a firm hold on this elephant, and it is like a strong, rough, tree trunk!” And from behind, the one who had grabbed the tail called out “You’re all idiots. Either you’ve never experienced an elephant at all, or you’re lying. It is not a large thing at all; it is like a small, stiff rope!” And so on.

Both of these stories are immediately recognizable because they’re both about the human condition and human nature, and that hasn’t hasn’t changed much over the centuries.

One of the original sins of our species is that we will never have more than a few pieces of the truth, but we always want to pretend that we have the whole truth. It gets us into most of our problems with each other, doesn’t it?

I spent several years studying theology back in graduate school. At its best, theology is the study of those deep and abiding truths that can set us free. But mostly, it is the study of how each religious thinker managed to find one tiny piece of truth, then turn it into an idol that became the enemy of honest religion, and too often the enemy of both truth and humanity.

So the question of religious toleration is a tricky one, because there is a lot that should not be tolerated, and part of the art is learning which is which. When I went on the Internet and Googled “religious toleration,” I was drawn to two fairly dramatic sites. The first was the Roman Catholic Encyclopedia. They pointed out that we only tolerate things we think are wrong but don’t want to speak out against. So we tolerate evil. No one will say: “We must show toleration towards courage or love”, for these are both traits that we don’t tolerate, but encourage.

Not surprisingly, the Catholic Church is against “freedom of belief”, which asserts the right of each person to believe what he pleases. And they quote Pope Leo XIII’s writing on this, from 1885, where he wrote: “The gravest obligation requires the acceptance and practice, not of the religion which one may choose, but of that which God prescribes and which is known by certain and indubitable marks to be the only true one.” “In the domain of science and of faith alike,” the Encyclopedia article continues, “truth is the standard, the aim, and the guide of all investigation; but love of truth and truthfulness forbid every honorable investigator to [tolerate] error or falsehood.”

In other words, for the Catholic Encyclopedia, freedom of belief is only freedom to choose the truth, and the only religious truth is, coincidentally, owned by the Catholic Church. Well, there’s that guy picking up the tiny piece of truth, and the devil watching with delight.

Then I also came on a website called biblebelievers.org. The headline read,

“The Cult of Liberty is the Recipe of Moral Breakdown”. Beneath the headline, they said the only thing conservatives can hope for is a moral reawakening of the United States.

They were encouraged by the fact that the conservatives in power are going to “dismantle the welfare state.”

“Bravo,” they wrote. Then they asked, “But what about dismantling abortion? Gay rights? Birth control pills and devices? Sex education? Dirty movies and TV? Women’s liberation? Secular humanism in the schools? These are the true plagues of American society,” they wrote, “not high taxes or welfare, and these diseases are the effect of the general breakdown of the morals of the people. And the problem is that these infections cannot be eradicated legally and logically except by some ‘principle, a principle which restricts human freedom only to those objects which are good’.” (http://www.biblebelievers.org/)

Both these websites are variations on the stories of people grabbing tiny pieces of truth, and the myth of the blind people and the elephant. And they show why the United States of America has had freedom of belief for nearly all of its history. Each of these religious groups has picked up a tiny piece of truth, smothered it in a ton of arrogance, and each has confused truth with their own small biases.

The Catholics would be embarrassed by the hateful bigotries of biblebelievers.org, even though they share many of them. And when biblebelievers.org speaks of goodness or truth, they do not mean the kind the Catholic Church has. Back when we had British colonies here, before the Revolutionary War that gave us the right to make our own laws, almost all the colonies were examples of what can happen when these tiny pieces of truth are given the power of law.

For example, the colony of Maryland published something called An Act Concerning Religion, on 21 April 1649. In that act, they said that anyone who denied that Jesus Christ was the son of God, or denied the trinity, or said anything bad about them, was to be put to death, and their properties would all be seized by the colony.

That’s what it means to say that when people find a tiny piece of truth and turn it into an orthodoxy, they are doing the devil’s work. In fact, I would say that orthodoxies are the devil’s work, because they are always that guy picking up the tiny piece of truth wrapped in reams of arrogance, then turning it all into dogma.

The truth that can set you free

Still, I’m with the biblebelievers.org and the Catholic Church when they say that we should encourage truth but not tolerate untruths masquerading as truth. And I’m with them when they say that liberals have far too often been willing to bless anything, including things that shouldn’t be blessed. Sometimes we liberals have had such open minds that some of our brains have fallen out.

But what is this truth business – especially something like the kind of truth that can set you free?

The short answer is that that’s what all great religious teachings have always been about. The best religious and philosophical thinkers have tried to help us understand what this greater truth is like, the kind that can set you free, the only kind that should really be encouraged. But few read them.

Aristotle, as the Catholic Encyclopedia noted, taught that wisdom consisted in choosing the middle road between extremes, because extremes can be either too permissive or too narrow and brutal. The best religious teachers and prophets have always known this.

In the Qu’ran of the religion of Islam, there were no obligatory doctrines about God: indeed, the Koran is highly suspicious of theological speculation, dismissing it as self-indulgent guesswork about things that nobody can possibly know or prove. (Karen Armstrong, A History of God, p. 143) The Koran teaches that God had sent messengers to every people on the face of the earth: Islamic tradition says there had been 124,000 such prophets, a symbolic number suggesting infinitude. Thus the Koran repeatedly points out that it is not bringing a message that is essentially new and that Muslims must emphasize their kinship with the older religions. (Armstrong, p.152)

And behind Christianity was the figure of the man Jesus, who would have hated Christianity. Jesus said don’t judge. He said to treat others the way you’d want to be treated. He even said to let the wheat and the weeds grow together – which sounds far more permissive than even the cult of liberty.

The Buddha taught that when we have to choose between doing the right thing and doing the compassionate thing, we should always choose the compassionate thing. Why? Because what we think of as the right thing will almost always happen to coincide with our own biases, the little bits of truth we picked up.

Taoism has an even more subtle kind of teaching. They say everything is always in movement, either coming to be or passing away, either moving from weakness to strength or from strength to weakness. So certainty is a very weak place to be, because your next move has to be down.

And Jews have such a way of taking some lesson that sounds rigid, then soaking it in such human warmth and wit that it melts into understanding and compassion.

One of their many stories about this concerned a small village, which prided itself on enforcing the strictest kind of obedience to the Law – like that 1649 Act of Religion by the Maryland colony. The village was losing so many people it was on the verge of collapse. They couldn’t understand how they could be dying when they were so right.

So one of their elders traveled to a large town nearby, to see a rabbi who was known far and wide for his wisdom. He told the rabbi their strange plight: that they were dead right but nearly dead as a village. The rabbi nodded, and said “Your sin is the sin of ignorance. You see, the Messiah is among you, and you are ignorant of this fact.” The man returned home, hardly willing to believe this. He knew everyone in the village – after all, there were fewer and fewer of them every day – and there wasn’t anybody there who could possibly be pure enough to be the Messiah. When he told the other villagers, they didn’t believe it either.

Still, the old rabbi was famous for his wisdom, and nobody wanted to say he was a fool. So they began wondering if maybe he could be right – if old Goldberg over there could possible be the Messiah, or Mrs. Robbins. Impossible! Still, just in case, they began treating everyone as though they might be the Messiah, which means they began treating them a lot better than they had been.

You can see the end of the story coming: the village flourished, because they had let go of their tiny little truthlet and found the more difficult and more full truth, and it had set them free of their certainty, and free of their smallness.

The truth worth serving, the truth that can set us free, must first set us free from our own narrowest certainties, those certainties that would shrink the world to the size of our biases and habits. That’s the irony of places like biblebelievers.org or those passages in the Catholic Encyclopedia: while willing to fight or even kill for the truth, they don’t realize that they are among its greatest enemies – and that they make the devil laugh with glee at his newest disciples.

I don’t think any church or any religion can be trusted to know the truth when they see it, because that story of the man who picked up a tiny piece of truth and made an orthodoxy out of it – that seems to be a story of human nature.

That’s why the insights of the founding thinkers of great religions are almost always the enemies of the religions founded on them. The religion about Jesus has almost nothing in common with the religion of Jesus. Of all the people who might hate Islamic fundamentalism, none would hate it more than Mohammad. The Buddha would be at least saddened to see the rank superstition that 98% of Buddhists mistake for Buddhism, and on down the line.

You don’t let Budweiser choose the drinks, or all you’ll have is beer. You don’t let Christians define truth or no one else is safe. And when the only tool you own is a hammer, everything looks like a nail. It simply takes more and better tools to serve either truth or life.

Yet behind it all, there is still this thing called truth that is still worth pursuing, and can still set us free. But today, it seems that it must first set us free from the religions that identify truth with their beliefs, from the nationalisms that identify it with their borders, and with every other example of people doing the devil’s work by beating others to death with their tiny little truthlets. Their name is legion.

One part of the truth is that none of us will ever have it all. We are all that person who picked up a tiny piece of truth. You could say both the gods and the devils are watching to see what we’ll do with it, whether we will use it to serve the demons of our lower nature or the angels of our better nature.

So another way of looking at which kinds of truth we should encourage, which kinds we should tolerate, and which kinds we should actively oppose is by asking whether the ideals we are following make us a curse or a blessing, whether our presence here has increased or decreased the amount of understanding and compassion in the world.

There is a wonderful story about this, which comes from the writings of Ralph Waldo Emerson. The Unitarians want to claim him, though he didn’t think much of them, and once called them “corpse-cold.” But I don’t care what club he belonged to; I only care whether the tiny bit of truth he picked up seems worthy of the best we can be. Here is the story he wrote:

“The Friar Bernard lamented in his cell on Mount Cenis the crimes of mankind, and rising one morning before day from his bed of moss and dry leaves, he gnawed his roots and berries, drank of the spring, and set forth to go to Rome to reform the corruption of mankind. On his way he encountered many travelers who greeted him courteously; and the cabins of the peasants and the castles of the lords supplied his few wants. When he came at last to Rome, his piety and good will easily introduced him to many families of the rich, and on the first day he saw and talked with gentle mothers with their babes at their breasts, who told him how much love they bore their children, and how they were perplexed in their daily walk lest they should fail in their duty to them. “What!” he said, “and this on rich embroidered carpets, on marble floors, with cunning sculpture, and carved wood, and rich pictures, and piles of books about you?” — “Look at our pictures, and books, they said, “and we will tell you, good Father, how we spent the last evening. These are stories of godly children and holy families and romantic sacrifices made in old or in recent times by great and not mean persons; and last evening, our family was collected, and our husbands and brothers discoursed sadly on what we could save and give in the hard times.” Then came in the men, and they said, “What cheer, brother? Does thy convent want gifts?” Then the Friar Bernard went home swiftly with other thoughts than he brought, saying, ‘This way of life is wrong, yet these Romans, whom I prayed God to destroy, are lovers, they are lovers; what can I do?'” (Emerson, “The Conservative,” in The Oxford Book of Essays, p. 181)

Here is someone who worshiped something very different from the biblebelievers.org or those who wrote the Catholic Encyclopedia. The wise old rabbi would have smiled, though the devil would not. We become what we worship. If all we will ever have are tiny pieces of the truth, let us choose very carefully what we make of them.

God

© Davidson Loehr 2005

6 February 2005

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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Prayer

Let us gather up our souls.

1. From personal interactions, let us gather up our souls:

— from relationships where we have accepted duplicity rather than integrity, let us gather them.

— from those places where we have promised to be true, but have not delivered on our promise, let us reclaim our integrity.

2. From our roles at work and in business dealing, let us gather up our souls:

— from those days when we return home grateful that we can have higher standards in our personal lives than we do at work, let us reclaim what must be ours.

— rather than playing mute and compliant roles in businesses we know to be cutting ethical corners, let us speak up, however we can, to wonder whether we can’t all do our work with more integrity, so we don’t all have to check our souls at the door.

3. And from our nation’s actions at home and abroad, let us gather up our souls, rendering to Caesar only what is Caesar’s, and keeping for our own souls what is most holy and inviolate.

— When we find high words being used to achieve low ends, let us look into our hearts and find a way to speak out.

In all that we are and do, we need to come from a place of integrity and authenticity that is only available to people who have taken care to own their own souls. It is that center from which we need to live, and which we seek.

So let us gather up our souls from all the places where they have become misplaced or dissipated, like strangers to us. Let us gather up our souls.

Amen.

SERMON: God

Let’s start simplistically, almost at cartoon level: The body politic doesn’t have elbows or kneecaps. And Lady Justice doesn’t have breasts, even though our former U.S. Attorney General spent several thousand dollars to cover them. Cupid is a myth, too. There isn’t any little baby flying around shooting people with arrows making them fall in love, even though falling in love sometimes feels almost that capricious.

You can learn a lot about the kind of creatures we are by the way we put together our myths and stories. We make everything seem human, even when it isn’t. We do it because we relate to it better if we think of it as human-like.

Look at our cartoons. We have all these cartoons with mice, cats, dogs, and an occasional goblin, and they all seem to think and talk just like we do. So they aren’t mice, cats, dogs or goblins at all.

They are projections of parts of ourselves, playing out plots familiar to us. We project those life situations out like movie projectors project images on screens in front of us. Then we study them as though they came from somewhere other than us, and we can be caught sending e-mails to people quoting a line from a cartoon character that seemed really wise. Isn’t this funny?

It’s not that we think all cartoons are wise. Most are just funny or goofy. Only a few seem wise, and we know the difference. When we cut out a cartoon and put it on our wall or refrigerator, most people can figure out why we would put it up. They see what it’s about. We are the ones who judge whether it’s useful or not. Cartoons that aren’t useful we finally just stop reading.

But most of our projections are useful. They let us back off to get a better perspective on ourselves. We do it in movies, too. And music. If you want to hear what’s on the minds of people between about 15 and 40, listen to the lyrics of popular music.

I don’t know why we do it this way. I’m reminded of a famous definition of religion by a sociologist of religion about thirty years ago, when he said religion is “the audacious attempt to conceive of the entire universe as humanly significant.” (Peter Berger) It’s audacious, but it’s just what we do in our religions, isn’t it? No matter how they do it, all our religions manage to propose some scheme for reality, and find us a special place in it.

Hindus say we are parts of the infinite and eternal powers of creation, maintenance and destruction. They made that up, but it’s a good story.

Buddhists say no, we’re not, but we can rise above the whole indifferent mess of the world and find a perspective that transcends even the gods. Taoism has its story about the coming and going of everything, the eternal flux where everything is either coming to be or passing away, and they say we can find a kind of comfort in imagining ourselves as parts of that story.

When we make stories for fun, we might call them cartoons and expect people to laugh. But when we’re really serious, when we think the stories we have made are really about the way things are, then we don’t create cartoon characters. We create gods. Those are our most serious stories, the trump suit of stories. That’s where we project our grandest ideas. Sometimes, our worst sides get projected onto our gods as well – like the times we have our gods sanction smallness, violence or hatred.

We seem to be walking projectors, casting on the wall both our insights and our shadows.

Plato once said life for most of us is like people sitting in a cave watching the shadows cast on the wall ahead of them by people and animals walking by outside. Something about that seems right, doesn’t it?

Still, we confuse ourselves with all these projections, because we can’t seem to remember that all our stories, all our religions, all our gods, came from the imaginations of some of our ancestors. Then the gods get passed down to us without that story about how they really began.

But think of Lady Justice. Well, no; let’s take a closer example. Think of Lady Liberty. You can see her standing on top of the capital building in downtown Austin. And she looks like a large woman. But we know we couldn’t take Lady Liberty out for some coffee – free-trade coffee, of course – and ask her what this “liberty” business is about. She doesn’t exist except as a projection and personification of our own dreams of justice, and our certainty that justice, at its best, is one of the ideals that all decent people must try to serve. Sometimes we need to gain independence from our projections, to gather up the ideas and ideals they are supposed to serve, and reclaim them.

I was rereading Karen Armstrong’s classic book called A History of God this week, and had forgotten how candid she is in talking about this. For those of you who don’t know who Karen Armstrong is, she is an English woman who used to be a nun, then left the order and became a religion scholar. She has said that she still lives within the discipline, but now her discipline is spending eight to twelve hours a day in London’s libraries, doing her research. She has written books on God, the Buddha, and Mohammad, among others I want to read you a few paragraphs from this book she wrote in 1993 which has become a kind of classic in religious studies. She begins by talking about growing away from the Church:

“Eventually, with regret, I left the religious life, and, once freed of the burden of failure and inadequacy, I felt my belief in God slip quietly away. He had never really impinged upon my life, though I had done my best to enable him to do so…. As an epileptic, I had flashes of vision that I knew to be a mere neurological defect: had the visions and raptures of the saints also been a mere mental quirk? Increasingly, God seemed an aberration, something that the human race had outgrown. (xviii-xix)

“Despite my years as a nun, I do not believe that my experience of God is unusual. My ideas about God were formed in childhood and did not keep abreast of my growing knowledge in other disciplines…. Since those days, we have put away childish things and have discarded the God of our first years. (xix)

It would have saved me a great deal of anxiety to hear – from eminent monotheists in all three faiths – that instead of waiting for God to descend from on high, I should deliberately create a sense of him for myself. Other rabbis, priests and Sufis would have taken me to task for assuming that God was – in any sense – a reality “out there”…. They would have told me that in an important sense God was a product of the creative imagination, like the poetry and music that I found so inspiring. A few highly respected monotheists would have told me quietly and firmly that God did not really exist – and yet that “he” was the most important reality in the world. (xx)

Karen is really telling the whole story here, but it sounds like I’m revealing secrets, telling you that the best religion scholars are quite candid about saying that of course God doesn’t exist, or course it’s a projection the way we project other stories. But they also want to say that “he” is the most important thing in our world.

The reason that “he” is in quotation marks is because what is so important isn’t God, but the high ideals we have projected onto him for safekeeping.

And what it means when someone like a Karen Armstrong grows away from God as one of the “childish things” she has put away, is that she doesn’t think the symbol God or the stories our ancestors created about him do justice to our high ideals, and she can honor them better without the projected pictures and stories of God flickering on the screen.

I want to talk with you about God, but the two most important things you need to know about God, about all the gods, are that, first, they were invented many centuries ago as vehicles to carry and guard our highest ideals. That’s why scholars say it’s the most important reality in the world. But the second thing you need to know is that the reality is not God, not any of the gods; the reality is the importance of our highest ideals.

And they don’t have to have the symbol of gods to carry them, as Karen Armstrong found, and as I suspect many of you have also found.

In the Golden Age of Greece – those centuries that produced their great playwrights, that produced poets and philosophers like Pindar, Socrates, Plato and Aristotle – they did what Karen Armstrong has done. They reclaimed their highest ideals from the myths of the Olympian gods. Neither Socrates, Plato nor Aristotle cared much about the gods, and Plato tried to write myths that would replace the Homeric myths of Zeus, Apollo and the rest of them. Plato and others believed the stories about the gods had become like cartoons. People weren’t served by worshiping them any more, and needed to reclaim the treasures the gods had been created to guard. The priests controlled the stories about the gods, and used those stories to empower themselves more than the people.

But they were not about to give up their highest ideals. Instead, they rescued them from the gods, and made them the sacred center of society during Greece’s golden age. They called them the paideia – the word just means the highest ideals of the culture. They said they were the most sacred property of their society, and that all people had a sacred duty to live, teach, and honor these high ideals, just as former ages had honored them indirectly in the form of the gods the more ancient Greeks had imagined and projected.

And the biblical prophets made the same kind of move that the Greeks were making about the same time. They began attacking the low meanings the priests were loading onto this concept of God. They rejected the distant God who demanded only sacrifice and obedience, and insisted that the test of authenticity was that religious experience be integrated successfully with daily life. (Armstrong, p. 44) They were gathering up their souls.

The prophet Amos said that the people had misunderstood the nature of their covenant with this God. The priests were saying it made them the special people, the chosen people. Amos said No, being associated with this God meant responsibility, not privilege. (Armstrong, p. 46)

What Amos was doing was what all the prophets were doing, including Jesus. They were reclaiming the high ideals as things which must be written in our hearts and lived out in our lives, not hidden in a temple to be bowed down to as we listened to bad priests misrepresenting them.

I want you to understand what this means. It means that they all saw – even if they didn’t put it this way – that God is a part of us. God is the vehicle our ancestors imagined, on which they projected our highest ideals. And the gods are only useful as long as the represent the highest ideals. When they are kidnapped for low and mean purposes, we need to reclaim our ideals from them.

Still, there’s something audacious about thinking we have the right or the authority to reclaim our highest ideals. We project them out onto Lady Justice or Lady Liberty, onto idealistic visions of America, onto God, and then it feels that they are out of our hands, entirely above us, things we could never aspire to reclaim.

Yesterday I read a story of just this sort of thing happening that is worth sharing with you. Last night in California there was a special ceremony with a lot of very old Japanese Americans, to pay tribute to some even older white Americans. The story goes back sixty years, and most Americans don’t know about it.

After the Japanese attacked Pearl Harbor at the end of 1941, a kind of racist frenzy seemed to spread through our country, and over 110,000 American citizens with Japanese ancestry were arrested and imprisoned in detainment camps until the war ended in 1945. The part few know is that several hundred white American teachers volunteered to follow them to the camps, to continue teaching their children.

Their little-known stories took center stage last night when the Japanese American National Museum in Little Tokyo honored more than 200 of the camp educators. Among them, museum staff tracked down 53; more than half were expected to attend the dinner at the Century Plaza Hotel in Los Angeles.

Glenn Kumekawa, a retired professor who was sent to a detainment camp in Utah at the age of 14 was one of them. Speaking of the teachers, he said, “They gave to us the link to the America we knew: the sense that not all Americans were racist, not all of them saw us as a threat but saw the potential we had as individuals.”

“Inside the camp, when every public indication was that we had no future, you had these teachers saying, ‘Yes, you do matter. They were the best of America,” Professor Kumekawa said. “They gave us assurance and hope by believing in us.”

When it came time to teach about U.S. democracy, teachers like Margaret Crosby Gunderson told her students at the Tule Lake camp not to give up on the Constitution; that the nation’s flawed political leadership was to blame for their unjust internment, [but that most Americans still honored the high ideals their leaders were betraying].

Another former teacher being honored was Mary Smelzer, who is now 89 years old. She is short and round with a cap of silver hair framing her face, and her memory remains sharp. As a member of the anti-war Church of the Brethren, she and her now-deceased husband, Ralph, opposed the internment. She taught math at the camps, her husband taught science.

The couple’s real goal, however, was to help people leave the camps. After six months of teaching, they set up a hostel in Chicago and later in New York through their church networks. They figure they helped resettle 1,000 Japanese Americans inland, away from the West Coast military zones.

Later in life, Mary Smeltzer went on to distribute relief aid in Vienna, join the Peace Corps in Africa, run a friendship center in Hiroshima and broker race relations in Illinois. Today she does volunteer reading with juvenile delinquents. Asked why she reached out to the internees, she replied with a laugh: “It’s just part of me. It’s just part of being a Christian, being a peace person, part of doing what I think is right.” (By Teresa Watanabe, LA Times Staff Writer, 5 February 2005)

These teachers reclaimed the high ideals they had projected onto America when America no longer honored them. That’s what Plato did with the ideals formerly projected onto the Olympian deities. It’s also what the biblical prophets did when their own ideals were higher than those their priests were giving to God, and what Karen Armstrong did with God. They gathered up their souls and owned them in a way we can’t do without that courage.

You can’t tell the story of God without telling the story of us. For the truth is that in the beginning, we created our gods in our image, or at least in the image of our highest and most life-giving ideals, like the compassion those teachers showed in the Japanese detention camps sixty years ago. And unless we remember that our highest ideals are only on loan to God as long as those who speak most loudly for him continue to serve them – unless we remember that, then we will see God’s corpse turned into a hand puppet by our worst preachers and politicians: a hand puppet to serve their agenda at the expense of our souls, and the soul of America.

It’s easy to think of other examples where we reclaim and reframe our high ideals from institutions that can not be trusted to serve them. Lawyers challenge the idea of Justice in the practice of sending mostly poor people to death row – the poor who can’t afford clever lawyers like Ken Lay and other higher-level criminals. We challenge the idea of “God’s will” and “Love” when we set up shelters for battered women. Their battering husbands often come to the shelters, accompanied by their ministers, demanding that this beaten and bloody woman be returned to the man who “loves” them because it’s “God’s will.” We know better. And we reclaim the concepts of love, respect, responsibility, and justice when we convict a Catholic priest of child abuse that has been covered up by the Church – sometimes for decades.

The history of religion, like the history of politics, is punctuated by those times when people rescued their high ideals from religions, politicians and nations that were no longer interested in serving them. When we look back, it is those people whose courageous actions we admire – just as I suspect you did when you heard the story of those teachers in the internment camps.

The story of God, like the story of America or the story of Justice, Compassion, Love and the rest of our high ideals, is a story about us. It is about whether we recognize those times when the most precious treasures we have, our highest ideals, need to be rescued from those who are violating them, no matter what kind of costumes they wear or political and judicial offices they hold. We do this so we can gather up our souls and be more whole – as people, partners, parents and citizens.

I said these things to remind myself, and hoped you might like to listen in.

Myths to Live By, Part 5

© Davidson Loehr 2005

30 January 2005

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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Prayer

Let us find gods worth serving. There are so many powerful voices calling out to us, trying to become our gods for a day, a year, or a lifetime. And so few are worthy. Let us find gods worth serving.

Let us ask, “Does this god cherish me, or manipulate me to benefit others? Does it offer understanding and compassion, or only judgment and condemnation?

We pray from a place that includes all the gods, and seeks to transcend them. For all that is human is in us, and we pray to harmonize it, and tune it in the key of decency, compassion, a quest for truth that stretches us, and a commitment to the courage demanded by this quest for truth.

We yearn to become better people, better partners, better parents and citizens. We want dearly to be a blessing to the world as we pass through it. And we want to feel blessed, to feel cherished.

These are prayers worthy of those better angels of our nature, in whose company we want to feel at home.

May we grow to become the answer to our prayers. May we grow that true, that courageous, that loving. These things we pray with honest minds, open hearts, and a grateful reverence for the gift of life.

Amen.

Sermon

Each time I revisit the ancient Greek myths, I’m more struck by how modern they are. The Greeks saw their Olympian gods as personifications of the natural and psychological forces within and around us. So you didn’t have to “believe in” them the way Western religions have always taught. Instead, you could just look within and around you, and find the powers, the voices, the passions and urges from which the gods were made. They’re still a good way of getting a different kind of understanding of who we are and why we often seem so confused about what to serve with our lives, even from day to day.

I want to talk about four Greek gods, and will start with the one you’re least likely to know about: Hephaestus, the crippled craftsman, whom the Romans called Vulcan, and whose Roman name was taken to describe the kind of person Dr. Spock was on the original Star Trek series.

Hephaestus was rejected by everyone: his father and mother rejected him and his father threw him off Mt. Olympus. He loved Athena and she rejected him. He married Aphrodite, she was never faithful to him and bore him no children, though she bore children to her other lovers.

Hephaestus threw himself into his work, lost himself in his work, and invested all of his passion in his work. He was the only god who worked, and he created many beautiful and useful things for others. But he had no passion left for his wife, no warmth left for people, no tenderness or mercy. Here too was passion that was intense without being integrated, even though it produced things of value for others.

Here is the modern man who throws himself into his work at the expense of his family and friends. Here is the surgeon – and I lived with an uncle who was one of these when I was 20 – who spends twelve to eighteen hours a day at the hospital healing others but never attends to himself or those who love him. It is a passion for work that becomes short-circuited that has lost any unifying vision of the whole person, the whole life. Here is the intense, introverted person who can not express feelings directly, and can become an emotional cripple unless he finds a way to blend his passions into the rest of his life, instead of simply turning them into work and giving them away to strangers.

There is something admirable, noble, even godly, about being able to convert personal sorrow into productive work. It’s a dramatic example of that old saw about making lemonade when life gives you lemons. So I don’t want to ridicule it. But it isn’t the highest goal we’re seeking, is it?

Part of Hephaestus’s myth has it that he made some golden maidservants – robots – to do his housework. What an insight! Hephaestus husbands and fathers can mold both wives and children into golden servants too, dehumanizing them by turning them into machines to do housework and wait on men, ignoring their own needs for love and the companionship of a human being instead of just a provider.

And for all his hard work, life can be frustrating for a Hephaestus man, because in our culture the Olympian heights of success are not filled by those who work with their hands, but by the owners, the dealmakers and investors, by those who work above ground with their wits and clear thinking to control those who earn a living through work. Hephaestus is no match for Apollo, and is still out of place in a Zeus world, as he has been for thirty or forty centuries.

Hephaestus is worth a whole series of sermons on his own, but I want to move on to another god.

Ares

Ares, whom the Romans called Mars, was the god of war, and a son whom Zeus rejected, though you might think he would prize him. But Ares, unlike Zeus, was a creature of immediate passion: he, like Poseidon, was a shadow side of Zeus. He fought spontaneously, without a clear view of the over-all war to be won, and so he was of no use to Zeus, for whom passions must be brought into the service of a clear long-range goal.

What is wrong with Ares is that it is a style of intense power but not integrated power. It is aggression cut loose from any decent or civil purpose. Ares will fight viciously for a cause without the ability to back off and judge whether or not the cause is worth it, or whether in stooping to brutal methods, he has become like the enemy he hates – the Abu Ghraib prison abuses come quickly to mind here, don’t they?

It is this lack of integration that makes Ares dangerous. A 20th Century example of Zeus rejecting Ares occurred during WWII when Eisenhower – who was even called “the Supreme Commander – relieved General Patton of command because his unpredictable verbal and physical attacks crippled the over-all war effort.

Dionysus

But if we’re going to talk about passion, we need to talk about the most passionate of all the gods: Dionysus.

Dionysus is pure passion, liberated from any need for integration. A passion so powerful it acted like a magnet in the ancient world, drawing people into Dionysian festivals of eating, drinking, and fairly uncontrolled behaviors. One Greek myth tells of a mother who, under the influence of this god, in the frenzy of a festival, killed her own son.

We have never been able to integrate this god, then or now. Instead, the overt expression of powerful passions is usually done during what you could call “time-out” periods of life, like the Mardi Gras in New Orleans, the German Oktoberfest, or some of the festivities every weekend, right in downtown Austin on Sixth Street. Thousands of people leave the more calm, rational, Apollonian lives of Monday through Friday for some mostly mild Dionysian festivals, then on Monday return to work.

This is so similar to the way the Greeks handled Dionysus it is almost eerie. The two gods who were most different were Apollo, the cool and classical one, and Dionysus, the wild and frenzied one. Even in music and the arts, we still speak of the contrast between Apollonian and Dionysian styles. In music, Classical music is sometimes called Apollonian, while Romantic music is called Dionysian.

Yet though Dionysus was pretty pure and powerful passion, he was also a favored son of Zeus’s. And in the temple of Apollo, the most famous of the Greek temples, Apollo was worshipped only nine months out of the year. The other three months were reserved for the worship of Dionysus.

Even the American religious movement known as the Shakers, who were completely Apollonian, even celibate, had periodic ceremonies where they would dance, whirl and shake to the point of exhaustion or unconsciousness. And it was these wild dances, rather than all of their other activities that gave these mostly quiet and Apollo-like people their name as “Shakers.” Dionysus is a powerful spirit, no matter how little time you spend under his spell.

Hermes

Now on to one of the most popular and powerful gods in both ancient Greece and modern America: the god called Hermes, whom the Romans called Mercury. Hermes is the messenger god. He is even the symbol of the Greek Post Offices.

Last time, I talked about Apollo, the high-level functionary who serves the wishes of the Father or Boss, and who sees people not as people but as parts of whatever scheme he needs to manipulate to reach the boss’s goals.

In pursuit of these goals, almost any means seem to be acceptable, including clever persuasion and its darker side, outright deception. In the terms of Greek mythology, these are the realms of Hermes, the messenger god. He could travel between all the realms, was the god of clear and persuasive speech, and often had trouble telling the difference between honest persuasion and dishonest persuasion, as long as it got him what he wanted.

In literature and religion, the field of hermeneutics is named after Hermes. Here too, the idea is that if we interpret great literature or religion properly, we will be finding the kind of wisdom that’s associated with the gods.

The gifts associated with Hermes are behind the brilliant orator, teacher, and preacher, but also behind crooked lawyers, deceptive advertising, and hypocritical preachers. He is clever and persuasive, but he is a trickster, and will do what he needs to get what he wants. This too is something Americans admire: Tom Sawyer, Brer Rabbit, Robin Hood and Peter Pan are modern incarnations of Hermes, but so are rascally politicians who say anything they need to say in order to get elected.

Hermes is the power of persuasion, linking high, godly ideals with action. But persuasion is the goal, not the quality of the ideals, so neither gods nor humans can trust Hermes – or any other trickster figure.

Apollo and Hermes make an effective, if dangerous, pair. Apollo doesn’t see people as people, but only parts in a scheme to serve “the father,” the boss, or “God.” He links with Hermes, who knows how to trick them by using high words to serve low aims.

And the manipulation of us masses has been a constant part of American politics for a very long time. Until recently, it was talked about quite openly, going all the way back to the 1920s. The name from that time, one of the most important Hermes figure in the art of bamboozling the masses, was Edward Bernays. Bernays had worked in Woodrow Wilson’s Committee on Public Information, the first U.S. state propaganda agency. Bernays wrote “It was the astounding success of propaganda during the (First World) war that opened the eyes of the intelligent few in all departments of life to the possibilities of regimenting the public mind.” (Noam Chomsky, p. 54 – I think it’s from his book on Manufacturing Consent, but have lost the notes and book.)

Here are more words from this most influential American who was such an influential incarnation of Hermes in the mid-20th century: “The conscious and intelligent manipulation of the organized habits and opinions of the masses is an important element in democratic society.” To carry out this essential task, “the intelligent minorities must make use of propaganda continuously and systematically,” because they alone “understand the mental processes and social patterns of the masses” and can “pull the wires which control the public mind.” This process of “engineering consent” – a phrase Bernays coined – is the very “essence of the democratic process,” he wrote shortly before he was honored for his contributions by the American Psychological Association in 1949. (Chomsky, 53) It is also the essence of the power of Hermes. And now, like then, his people are tricksters whom nobody can really trust. Their thrill and fulfillment lie in the power of persuading people – not in the quality of the things they’re persuading them of.

Another member of Woodrow Wilson’s propaganda committee, and another avatar or incarnation of Hermes, was Walter Lippman, perhaps the most influential and respected journalist in America for about fifty years. The intelligent minority, Lippman explained in essays on democracy, are a “specialized class” who are responsible for setting policy and for “the formation of a sound public opinion.” They must be free from interference by the general public, who are “ignorant and meddlesome outsiders.” The public must “be put in its place;” their function is to be “spectators of action,” not participants, apart from periodic electoral exercises when they choose among the specialized class. (Chomsky, 54) Again, Hermes would be so proud!

Hannah Arendt once described totalitarianism as the triumph of politics over truth. She was intimately familiar with both the Russian revolution of 1917, and the rise of Nazi power in Germany. She would recognize many of the patterns of contemporary America immediately.

This visit to the Greek gods can give us a new way of understanding both ourselves – especially men – and the world that men are running: namely, our world. One thing this means to me is that all the griping among political liberals about G.W. Bush is a little misdirected. As the Greeks would see, he isn’t unique; he’s just the puppet, the instrument, of the rise to power of the gods Apollo and Hermes, with Ares operating our Army and soon, perhaps, our domestic police. They are in the service of the voice they have taken to be the voice of their Zeus: the voice of the privileged class who feel entitled to money and power taken from the “ignorant and meddlesome” masses.

Our four gods now are Apollo, Hermes, Ares and an ersatz Zeus. Zeus is played by the large corporations, directing both our domestic and foreign economic policies. Nothing godly there except their power and arrogance. Apollo is all the functionaries serving these demands, including (at least) our past four presidents. Hermes is Karl Rove, Karen Hughes, the speechwriters and advertising companies who wrap the agenda in deceptive language and images, to sell it to those of us who have been put in our place as spectators of action.

And Ares invades Iraq for its oil and strategic military location, soon to be followed by Iran in the imperialistic scheme of the corporations and wealthy individuals who form the collective incarnation of our weird modern version of Zeus. But when the public is told our motives are to find “weapons of mass destruction” or the “liberation” of Iraq, while published papers by Paul Wolfowitz and Dick Cheney from 1992 say we need to invade Iraq to control their oil and military location, and when Wolfowitz gives an interview last year candidly acknowledging that the reason we invaded Iraq but not Korea was because Iraq was “swimming in oil” – then the agents of Hermes are at work, lying to America’s ignorant masses to serve the low and greedy agendas of the corporate interests that comprise their make-believe Zeus. These are the gods behind the action, not something nobler.

No one could argue that the gods America is serving in its treatment of our poor, or the citizens of other countries, have anything to do with either Jesus or the God of the Old Testament, whose prophets routinely attacked the rich and powerful on behalf of the poor.

What the Greek gods can help us understand about the biblical God whose stories are more familiar to us is that each god is only partial. Our task is coordination and integration in search of what Joseph Campbell called the lost Atlantis of the coordinated soul. It’s never done completely, for the gods represent passions and allegiances that are always shifting, always beckoning to us, and sometimes persuading us.

The art of coordinating the voices of the gods is the art of coming to our full humanity, of growing up and growing whole.

I’ll continue this theme in two weeks when we think about religious tolerance. If there are so many gods, are they all to be encouraged, or even tolerated? The Greeks didn’t think so, and neither do I. But if not, where do we find our center? What is the authority for choosing among the gods?

Those questions are more profound than answers. But live with them for a couple weeks, will you?

I said that as though we really have a choice!

Finding Our Way Through The Dark

Victoria Shepherd Rao

Hillary Hutchinson

23 January 2005

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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PRAYER:

Psalm 139 (NRSV) Excerpts: verses 1-10, 13-14, 19-24

O Lord, you have searched me and known me.

You know when I sit down and when I rise up;

you discern my thoughts from far away.

You search out my path and my lying down,

and are acquainted with all my ways.

Even before a word is on my tongue, O Lord, you know it completely.

You hem me in, behind and before, and lay your hand upon me.

Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is so high that I cannot attain it.

Where can I go from your spirit? Or where can I flee from your presence?

If I ascend to heaven, you are there; if I make my bed in Sheol [Hell], you are there.

If I take the wings of the morning and settle at the farthest limits of the sea,

even there your hand shall lead me, and your right hand shall hold me fast.

For it was you who formed my inward parts; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.

I praise you, for I am fearfully made. Wonderful are your works; that I know very well.

O that you would kill the wicked, O God, and that the bloodthirsty would depart from me-

those who speak of you maliciously, and lift themselves up against you for evil!

Do I not hate those who hate you, O Lord? And do I not loathe those who ride up against you?

I hate them with perfect hatred; I count them my enemies.

Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my thoughts.

See if there is any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

Amen.

AFFIRMATION OF FAITH:

Hillary Hutchinson

Good morning. My name is Hillary Hutchinson, and most of you know that I have been a member of this church for a very long time. June 1987 to be exact. Some of you may also know that I was raised along with my three siblings as a Unitarian. This does not mean that I find being a member of a liberal religious denomination easy, or the practice of faith automatic. I think in some ways, it has actually made it more difficult for me, as I have struggled to be a conscious human being – conscious of both my own limits and abilities, conscious of my impact on those around me, and even conscious of how my life, and my own life style choices, can impact those on the other side of the world that I do not know personally.

Today’s sermon topic is “Beyond Tolerance.” Tolerance is a word I feel is used entirely too loosely by Unitarian Universalists. What does it really mean to “tolerate” something? Are we pronouncing our acceptance of differing views? Or are we merely “putting up” with difficult, irritating, unpleasant people and situations until we can get away from them? As in, something we all recently experienced, “I’ll just have to tolerate all these weather related traffic delays since I cannot do anything about them.”

On a personal level, what do we tolerate in ourselves? Are we willing to really look hard at our own dark sides, the part of us that is racist because it is in fact a natural human reaction to people that are different from us? Can we look at ourselves directly and acknowledge our own capacity to commit evil? In one episode of Buffy the Vampire Slayer, as she prepares to kill one of her mortal enemies, he stops her cold by asking, “Does not your power come from the dark side: without vampires, there would be no need of a vampire slayer.” The vamp has a point, I think. Fear and anger provide tremendous assistance for survival. All these parts, good and bad, co-exist in us and need to be balanced.

The psychoanalyst Robert Johnson refers to this dilemma as needing to own the shadow side. Johnson’s simple definition of the dark side is socially unacceptable feelings and/or behaviors. For instance, a child makes you angry, so you hit her. It could be that her statement, “You are so stupid, Mom” actually touched a very raw nerve, and lashing out was actually a response to an internal feeling of inadequacy. In my own case, I have a tremendous fear of failure. The message tape that plays in my brain is: “You are not good enough. You will never be good enough.” I can trace this message back at least four generations in my family, to a fire and brimstone Baptist preacher forebear, whose given name ironically was, “Reasoner.” By returning to school to pursue a PhD, I am challenging myself in a way that I never have before, and am terribly afraid I will be found wanting. As if I am playing bridge, and bluffing by attempting to show more suit strength than I actually have; or think of poker, where you keep betting though you are actually holding nothing worthwhile. I am terrified that the bluff will be discovered, and I will be found wanting when the time comes to lay my cards on the table.

Given this level of insecurity, how do you think I react when someone challenges me in an academic setting? Being scared, I am as likely to be rude as to answer graciously. Or end up exploding inappropriately. Or worst of all, freezing into myself, unable to muster any defense at all, only to explode later at the grocery store checker for nothing at all related.

I want to suggest that worship, which Davidson has told us come from the old English and means, ‘worth shaping,’ can be a path for integrating the shadow side. Think again about the way a card player holds his cards close. The rules of the game can literally allow space for holding our dark idiosyncratic ways within safely prescribed boundaries. To play the cards well, a strategy invoking secrecy may be necessary. The conscious symbolic exercise, or exorcize if you will, of our own dark side, can help us manage all these aspects of our being.

Dr. Johnson suggests small, ritualized behaviors to get rid of the shadow, such as writing down a some personal bad behavior and burning it. Lighting our candles of hope and memory can be a personal ritual of purification. Lighting and then extinguishing the chalice provides a frame for the dark and the light within the context of our services. We can also use Sunday morning sermons to shape our character, giving voice to anger, resentments, fear, and frustration in a manner that increases our compassion, instead of diminishing it. By going beyond mere acknowledgement to actual integration of our dark side, we can expand and extend our compassion for both ourselves and others. The conscious creation of a whole, or healed character, be a strategy allowing the play of dark in our life but within a rational and relational set of priorities. We can choose our reactions, if not what actually happens. Or as my own grandmother would say, “It’s not the cards you’re dealt, it’s how you play them.” So, here I am, telling you once again that we are all in this game of being human together. We all have our own shadow and our own light. And that, at least, is very comforting.

SERMON: Finding Our Way Through The Dark

What are the parts of us that we would rather not see? The lazy parts, the selfish parts, the sad parts, the angry parts, the defeated parts, the weak parts, the fearful, the needy, the hurt parts. They are there but we try hard, don’t we, to hide away, so they wont bother anyone too much. I bet we could all do a little inventory and identify those antisocial and uncivilized parts as well as a natural resistance to go there. Or maybe we have lost sight of our own capacities to be wild, or undependable, or unpredictable or violent, or vindictive and doubt or deny that we are anything but well-intentioned. We might not go so far as to say we are pure goodness, but haven’t we convinced ourselves of the saintliness of someone who loved us well? It is comforting to dwell on our capacities for giving, for being enthusiastic and positive and seeing the best in others, but does this tendency serve any purpose beyond ourselves?

If others knew how lazy, angry, sullen or despondent we can be they might not want to work with us or live with us or be our friends. So we do our best to contain these difficult or ugly aspects of our being, we put them in the closet and hide them in the shadows. It is a common human experience. We all do this and we do it to get along and function the best way we can as members of families, religious communities, as members of staffs or teams or professions, as members and citizens of our society.

This morning I want to speak to these dark sides of our being and crack the closet door open and see what happens if we go ahead and look at the parts of us we would rather not see, or have lost sight of altogether. Because we might discover that it is not only the foibles of our characters that have got shoved into the shadows over the years but some great parts too which were hidden just because they were inconvenient or unwanted or threatening to others.

The wholeness of our weird and wonderful beings is something we come into the world with and which we spend a good portion of our life carving up to suit our life circumstances only to slowly reclaim as we are able and as the demands of this life ebb and free us from the constraints which we have allowed to define us. It is the older and wiser among us who have the most insight into this process. And they are the ones who are the most likely to see the paradox inherent in being human. The ones who have learned that there is a time to speak and a time to remain silent, that it is good and right to have goals and dreams to strive for and that it is also good and right to sacrifice those same goals and dreams and to let them go.

When Hillary suggested the topic of Owning Your Own Shadow in the Worship Associates meeting way back last September, I was unfamiliar with the little book she was making reference to by Robert A. Johnson. He wrote the book in 1991 with the full title, Owning Your Own Shadow: Understanding the Dark Side of the Psyche. He is a great synthetic thinker who combines sociology and comparative religion in his psychological interpretations of the human condition. How many of you have read his books? He is a Jungian analyst and he works with the notion that we all operate from both conscious and subconscious impulses and that all human beings are co-inheritors of the collective unconscious, deeply embedded symbols which speak to the human condition. Hillary wanted to share his basic message that we can maintain better control of our natural human tendencies towards violence, aggression and bigotry by acknowledging the wholeness of our individual natures, including all the nasty qualities we’ve tried to disown and giving them symbolic expression through religious ritual.

I was drawn to the topic because I have come to believe that evil, or the human capacity to do harm to others or ourselves, is inherent, as natural to our being human as the capacity to nurture and to love. And I hoped that there would be something to be gained by our recognition of this potential, if I could persuade you of its truth, whether it be a greater vigilance in the way we examine our motives, or a greater awareness of the import of every decision we make in the way we lead our lives. It seemed to me, and it still does, that we are less likely to fear evil if we can recognize it as something so close at hand. That we would be less likely to see it as the fault of another if we could see it as a possibility for ourselves.

And reading Johnson partly affirmed this hunch. Let me briefly outline the progression of his book. First, he says that the process of disowning those parts of ourselves is natural. A baby learns not to bite. A child learns slowly to control her temper. In school, kids learn to reign in their energy and sit still. Exuberant free play gets shaped into focused attention as the skills and rules of sports are acquired. The capacities of the child to bite, to lose her temper, to play wildly are still there, but they are contained. Later in life, the socially acceptable ways of behaving as a lady or a gentleman are adopted as the adolescent strives towards recognition as an adult. Then the demands and the constraints of a job identify which character traits are to be given fuller expression. In most fields and professions for instance, it is much more important to be reliable than spontaneous. It is more desirable to be careful and competent than daring and experimental. As with the child, the underlying nature of the person remains intact and complete. They have just abandoned some of their qualities in favor of others in order to participate in their culture. Johnson calls it an inexorable law that all aspects of the individual’s character endure. It is just a matter of cultivating the qualities which help us function in our world and hiding the ones which don’t.

Johnson then identifies the problems that can creep up. For instance if we try to ignore the shadowy parts of ourselves and pretend they do not exist we will resent being reminded of them and might well despise the same qualities in others, projecting onto others aspects of our own unwanted being. Johnson says that this can happen collectively and whole societies can be similarly driven by such subconscious rejection of their disowned qualities. We must believe we are freedom-loving and dedicated to the ideals of democracy so we condemn or attack societies that we accuse of tyranny and feel it is somehow righteous to impose our chosen form of governance on them. We must believe we are peaceful and peace-loving and we fail to recognize the expression of our own rejected nature in the constant stream of horror films, violent television shows, and digital war games. Can we continue to accept the lie that fighting wars is necessary to achieve the peace we love so well? What would happen if the skeleton in the nation’s closet was to be revealed? Maybe the aggression and the will to dominate could energize the rebuilding of this society?

Finally Johnson points to the healing mechanism of religious ritual to re-unify the different parts of ourselves and restore a wholeness to our being. It can do that he says by giving symbolic representation to the darker aspects of life in a context which allows for both the expression and the containment of the destructive as well as the constructive aspects of our nature. Johnson talks about the gory imagery of the Christian mass or communion ritual. The participants celebrate the eating of their savior’s flesh and the drinking of his blood. The image of the tortured man hanging on the cross is glorified as the means of their salvation. The paradox of a persecuted, dying man having the power to save all who would confess his name contains healing. Johnson says any mechanism by which two separate and divergent forces are joined together can heal. He says the joining of two people whether in a glance or in sexual union can be so healing.

Christianity is not the only religion that incorporates images of destruction to serve the purpose of integrating the dark parts of human nature. In Hinduism’s godhead, Shiva is understood to be the God of destruction in counterbalance to Brahma, the God of creation and Vishnu, the God of preservation. In this arrangement there is a full acknowledgement of the dynamic nature of existence. There are creative, sustaining and destructive forces, and they each are honored and recognized. And all the worshipers can then acknowledge such divergent forces in their own being. This is one of the reasons I have valued the Hindu Goddess Kali. She is a truly frightening warrior Goddess, depicted with severed human arms strung around her waist and severed human heads hanging from her neck. She holds a bloody knife and wags a long obnoxious tongue in the air. Yet she is worshiped as a mother, loved and supplicated by her devotees. They expect her to be as giving and loyal to them as they are to her, though they know she can be dangerous. Now, that is a depiction of integration. Loving mother and wild woman. Kali does not give license to her devotees to follow her example but she does offer them a paradox which they can use to try to find a balance between the dispirit qualities of light and dark they experience in life and in themselves.

We need to be encouraged towards integration and wholeness. As religious liberals we need to bring together the parts of our being which we may have lost connection with. But we don’t take communion, and we don’t go to confession. But confession is probably closer to our religious tendencies than worshiping gods and goddesses. And this is where we turn to the therapeutic effects of talking. Not so much in dialogue with another but out loud with the sense that we are being heard. Talking out whatever is burdening us, honestly we can come to a place of greater self understanding and hope to reclaim those parts of ourselves that have been to wretched, depressed, enraged, or frightening to own up to. We do not need a priest to mediate this confession but we do need a safe and contained place to begin to sort out the wholeness of our being.

Here is a story told by Rachel Naomi Ramen about the power of her grandfather’s blessings. When she was a little girl she went to have tea with her orthodox Jewish grandfather every week. These are her words:

After we had finished our tea my grandfather would set two candles on the table and light them. Then he would have a word with God in Hebrew. Sometimes he would speak out loud, but often he would close his eyes and be quiet. I knew then that he was talking to God in his heart. I would sit and wait patiently because the best part of the week was coming.

When Grandpa finished talking to God, he would turn towards me and say, “Come.” Then I would stand in front of him and he would rest his hands lightly on the top of my head. He would begin by thanking God for me and for making him my Grandpa. He would specifically mention my struggles during that week and tell God something about me that was true. Each week I would wait to find out what it was. If I had made mistakes during the week, he would mention my honesty in telling the truth. If I had failed, he would appreciate how hard I had tried.

These few moments were the only time in my week when I felt completely safe and at rest (pg. 23, My Grandfather’s Blessings).

I love how well this story expresses the power of acknowledging our weaknesses and connecting them to our struggles to be good. It is healing to be known in the fullness of our being and deeply reassuring to realize that our wholeness can encompass our foibles without leaving us beyond the hope of another’s love and care.

We Unitarian Universalists do not enter so fully into the language of ritual. We come together to worship and light a chalice. And the flame does reveal both the power of light and the power of transformative forces but it does not speak powerfully of the dark in our lives and I think we might need more to help us come to terms with the darkness in our world and in ourselves.

There is a symbol which could speak to the paradox of the different and opposing parts of our nature. I am sure many of you are familiar with the Chinese Yin and Yang symbol. Here it is. The circle represents the whole of existence, the cosmos. Within the cosmos, there is a duality that can be seen in all “the ten thousand things” in the world and in the forces of nature.

This duality is represented by the equal sections of black and white. These forces are opposite in nature but contain within themselves the seeds of the other as represented by these two dots (the black dot in the middle of the white field and the white dot in the middle of the black field. There is a dynamic quality to these dual forces. They both seem to be moving into the other and this is a representation of the constancy of change in the world. In this symbol there is an acknowledgement of the profound relatedness of all apparent opposites. It suggests that integration is the nature of all things and there is less need to draw together the good and bad, the active and passive, the creative and the destructive, and more need to become aware how all qualities of being find their complete expression through their relationship to their opposite, how all states are impermanent and will move, change and even completely transform with time.

I want to finish this morning with another story from Rachel Naomi Ramen. This one is about an emergency room physician named Harry and how he was surprised into recognizing a greater wholeness to his being. Like all medical and other professionals, Harry was trained to be competent and expert and was used to putting his emotions in the shadows where they could not reveal his hopes, fears and vulnerabilities to his patients.

One night he was on shift and a woman was brought in by ambulance, a very pregnant about to give birth woman. He examined her and called her OBGYN but it was just a

courtesy call. He knew it was likely too late, that he’d be delivering the baby. So the woman’s husband was brought into the emergency room and the nurses prepared quickly for the birth. Harry was pleased as he liked delivering babies. This baby came very quickly with no complications at all. Harry was then holding the newborn along his arm with her little head in his hand, and as he was using a suction bulb to remove the mucus from her mouth and nose, suddenly the little girl opened her eyes and looked right into his eyes. Harry had a moment of discovery. He realized that he was the first human being that this little girl had ever seen. He felt his heart go out to her in welcome from all people everywhere and tears came to his eyes. Later, as he reflected on this, he realized that although he had delivered hundreds of babies in his career, he had never let himself experience the meaning of what he was doing until that one birth. In a sense he felt that that was the first baby he had really delivered as both a physician and as a human being.

I want to leave you with a reassurance that life can surprise us with unanticipated opportunities to grow in the fuller expression of our own being and that far from endangering those around us with the possibility of our shadow sides, we can reveal more powerfully the depths and the truths of our shared humanity. We need to be careful and intentional in inviting the shadow parts into the light of day, but we can also trust, that to the degree that we dare to bring the wholeness of our being into the circle of light, into the company we keep, and into the consciousness with which we make our choices, to that degree we can hope to make a difference.

Embodying the paradox that light and dark coexist in us and all around us and demonstrating the power in the human capacity for honesty. As religious liberals we mostly reject the idea that humans inherit original sin but can we deny that evil is inherent to our being? Let us commit ourselves to living up to our assertion of the worth and dignity of every person with an understanding that it is by the decisions we make that we are ennobled or debased. We are all like the child in today’s story (Nicolai’s Questions, adapted from Tolstoy), asking how to be a good person. We want to be a good person but we don’t always know the best way to do that. But like the story said, if we can remember that the most important moment is now, and the most important person is the one you are with, and the most important thing to do is to do whatever you can for the one by your side, then we will be alright, regardless of the shadows and in despite the dark.

Myths to Live By, Part 4

© Davidson Loehr 2005

16 January 2005

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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Prayer

We pray that we can find a way to fit all our parts together into a coordinated whole.

We are such complex creatures. We have so many voices inside telling us what we should do or be.

One says, “Work harder; earn more; provide for your family.” Another counters, “Spend more time with your family, your partner, your friends.” One voice says “Obey authorities, serve your nation.” Another says, “Question your leaders to insure that they are serving your nation.” One voice wants us to get to know ourselves better, to go deeper into who we are and what we should do. But another voice urges us to be sociable, to look outward rather than inward, to become working parts of a larger world than just ourselves.

Socrates once said “The unexamined life is not worth living,” and we still try to examine, to know ourselves, to know our souls. But the unlived life is not worth examining! And so we are pulled outward again, to spend time and energy experiencing rather than just contemplating.

And there are many more voices than these. We each have our own personal pantheon of gods, giving us orders, as we struggle to pull them all together into a whole. Our quest is for nothing less than the lost Atlantis of the coordinated soul.

It is the quest that makes us most fully human, most nuanced. We pray for the insight, the vision, and the will to listen to the best voices, and learn to blend them all together.

It is a noble goal. Let us persist. And let us be patient with ourselves.

Amen.

SERMON:

“Myths to Live By,” Part Four: The Gods of Men and Societies

This is the third sermon I’ve done on the Greek gods and goddesses, and it’s such a rich field that each time I’ve been led to places I hadn’t expected. This morning is the first of two sermons on the Greek gods – the second one will be in two weeks, on January 30th.

This business of gods is more complex than you might think. For instance, when we talked about the Greek goddesses, I was just using them to see different archetypes of behaviors that are still familiar to most women in our culture. But we could have used them to understand the values of many families or public schools or good nursing, since these are areas often defined by women. So you find more feminine values in these areas, concerned with relationships, nurturing, treating everyone with respect regardless of their status, and so on.

When we study the male gods, we have to talk about how they define the areas of the world that men control, because it’s most areas of the world.

But first, if we’re going to talk about Greek gods, we need to take some time to understand what gods are. Different cultures have produced very different kinds of gods. The main Hindu god, Brahman, is the biggest and most abstract of all gods, I think. Brahman is a symbol for all the creative, sustaining and destructive forces in the universe. Then all the different gods the Hindus have created give form to one or more parts of these universal forces.

Yahweh, the god of the Hebrew scriptures, the bible, was created in the image of ancient Hebrew tribal chiefs, and was given the powers of tribal chiefs. So Yahweh sets the rules for behavior, promises rewards to the good and punishments for the disobedient, just like a powerful tribal chief. Biblical scholars have found that the covenant between that God and his chosen people was modeled on ancient Hittite treaties between a sovereign and his subjects, for instance. Yahweh told us what we could and couldn’t do, and those who spoke for him were always writing commandments they insisted that this God meant for us to follow – as they still are. Yahweh also had a lot of sexual hang-ups compared with the gods of the Hindus or the Greeks, and those hang-ups have tainted almost all of Western civilization – you think gods aren’t powerful?

But where Yahweh was an autocratic rule-giver who didn’t much like sex or independent women, the Greek gods could hardly forbid many behaviors, because they did about everything themselves. They were certainly much more comfortable with sex than old Yahweh was. The Greek gods were made as imaginative images of the psychological dynamics they saw within human nature. So, while the ancient Greek gods and goddesses aren’t worshiped any more, they are still worth studying because they are about us, about human nature, and that nature hasn’t changed much in the past ten thousand or hundred thousand years.

You could spend years of study just on the four gods I’m talking about this morning. These are about men, but since men control the power of states, armies and most organized religions, they also show us a picture of our world, the world of Western civilization that has half its roots deep into the soil of the ancient Greeks. It also shows us the kind of balance – or lack of it – that we have, both individually and as a society.

One more word about gods, since it’s hard for most of us to understand what gods are. The study of gods is not like a manhunt or the search for a missing person. There are no fellows, no critters, no Big Guys hiding somewhere behind a cloud or up a mountain that we’re planning to find, then sit down and talk with. That’s not what gods are. The study of gods is a discovery of the human soul in some of its most powerful and imaginative projections. We create our gods to preserve and teach our vision of who we are or aspire to be, and the powers or mysteries we see as most significant in life.

There’s a Theology 101 course in just one paragraph.

So. We’ll take two weeks for the Greek male gods. We’ll talk about four of them today, and four more in two weeks.

While most of the gods are psychological archetypes of styles we men can still find in ourselves, the three most powerful Greek gods were quite profound psychology about styles of being that apply to both men and women. I want to begin with those three gods, who were brothers. I’ll back into it.

Think of our world as having three different levels, three different realms, and three different styles of living. The first level emphasizes clear thinking, cool and impersonal rationality; it takes the long view, sets goals, and works to achieve them. You could think of bright sunlight on a clear day for this level. The job of the god at this level is to harness all of our different gods into an integrated and productive whole.

The second level is as deep as the ocean, and as turbulent. Here it is not clear thinking, but powerful emotions that rule. There is no long view, no overall plan, though both desire and rage may last a long time, and a grudge can be carried forever. There are deep feelings here that would frighten most people, but to those who live in this realm, the deep and powerful feelings are home. They are seldom, however, a comfortable home: their turbulence short-circuits nearly all efforts to put a life into order, and you are tossed about on the waves of an overwhelming sea of powerful feelings.

The third realm is in the underworld. Cool, dark, dispassionate, removed from the worlds of both the first two levels, this is the realm of the suppressed and the unconscious, of convoluted ambiguities and dark doubts. This is the underside of the bright and clear world, its other half. It is always beneath us, this underworld, though few can live in it, or would want to.

You could call this third level the realm of Hades, for that is what the ancient Greeks called it – or you could call it Hell, after the Norse goddess of the underworld. The Greek mythology is very telling here, for Hades was almost never seen, though he was always there. He had a cap of invisibility, making him an unseen presence, just as modern psychologists have shown us that the realm of the unconscious and of the shadow sides of our psyches is an unseen presence within our lives and our world. Hades people can often be found leading lives of quiet desperation, aware of the shadow sides, but unable to integrate them into a well-rounded life.

And that second level, the style of living where deep and turbulent emotions rule, you could think of as the realm of Poseidon. Like Hades, his was the realm of inner realities rather than outer ones, but here they have a terrible force. They carry grudges, they seek vengeance, and like the sea they often have a calm surface hiding a terrible power raging underneath. To take the most violent examples, think of the number of times that mass murderers have been described as calm and quiet people. And those of you who have spent time studying the Greek classics will know of the awful power, rage, and grudges carried by Poseidon. The whole book of the Odyssey was driven by Poseidon’s rage at Odysseus for killing his son Polyphemos. He pursued Odysseus for ten years, until Athena – always the protector of the great male heroes – intervened to let him go home.

Neither Hades nor Poseidon ever accomplished much that was constructive. Poseidon was as much a victim of his fury as everyone else was, because he could not escape its pull on him. So Poseidon remained mostly trapped within the depths of his feelings, as Hades remained mostly in the dark depths of his shadows and abstractions.

Both ancient myths and modern experience say that few people would want to have to live in those depths, and those who do are not people you would want to invite to a party. Both in Greek mythology and in our western cultures, which have been so heavily shaped by that mythology, we choose to live above the ground, in a world of clarity and light. That realm reigns supreme now as then. And that first level, the realm of clarity and light, was the realm of Zeus, the number one god of the Olympians. Zeus’s job was to coordinate our passions into a working and integrated whole. He was so different from Yahweh, who tried to deny or suppress our passions. Zeus embraced them – they were also gods, after all, meaning they are enduring parts of human nature and the human condition. But he wanted a clear rationality to rule the whole.

I was struck several times while working on this sermon just how much our world really does echo the old mythic realm of Mt. Olympus. The world that they and we recognize as normative, healthy and sane is the realm of Zeus’s clear-thinking, of rational behavior and a life where dark doubts and powerful emotions are kept in line through the training and education of unclouded, well-ordered minds. As individuals and as a society, we are not comfortable with introspection or deep doubts. And, since we insist that everything lies on the surface, knowing what to do is just a matter of gathering the necessary facts and then taking decisive action. This is the style of life that the Greeks exalted in their myths, and that western culture has exalted for more than 3,000 years.

Zeus was the god of lightning; his symbol was the thunderbolt. And to this day, when we dare to go against an authoritative prohibition handed down from above, we speak of “waiting for the lightning to strike.”

These first three gods – Zeus, Poseidon and Hades – show us the major parts of our psyches, all of our psyches. Women can recognize them as well as men. But I want to go back to the Alpha Male, the Main Man, the top God, Zeus, and his Number One Son.

Zeus was like the CEO of the Olympic deities, or at least tried to be. And in our own culture, CEO types operate much like Zeus. They give the orders, they have the vision, and their anger can make heads roll. But they need lesser people to get the work done. Not these highest-level gods, but slightly more subordinate ones. CEO’s don’t hire people who will go after their job. They hire people who will follow orders: brilliant functionaries. So around them, these Zeus people will assemble a string of second-in-command people. Not the ambitious kind who will be fighting them for control, but the auxiliary kind, who work toward the goals the leader has set, with the same kind of clear-thinking and dispassionate genius that the leader displays. I think of generals’ aides or presidential press secretaries here: public spokesmen whose job and whose talent is to diffuse or redirect all criticism of the boss, to dismiss doubts, to look only on the optimistic side of things, to be can-do men who act like the favorite sons of their leader. These are people acting as functionaries. They are people in the mold of the god Apollo, who was the second most important god of ancient Greece, after Zeus.

Others say of these people that they are emotionally distant, and have little real personal passion. Their ex-spouses say they are lousy lovers, technical and impersonal; that they can’t express feelings and don’t care to get into the murky depths where doubts live, or into the shadow sides of their bright optimism. Others may say that their focus and their clear vision are achieved at the cost of being stunted in other areas, and while they attract admiration, respect, or envy, these people seldom inspire love or passion. They are clear-sighted and far seeing like eagles flying high above it all, and will often sacrifice their children, their friends, and their personal lives to get power, consolidate it, and keep it.

But while people may admire or fear Apollo types, they seldom love them. The Greeks noticed this, too, and you can see it in the stories they told about Apollo. Women didn’t like him. You might think if you’re a god, that’s like even cooler than being a rap singer or a pro athlete, but it isn’t true if you’re Apollo.

One of the most famous stories about Apollo shows just how much women didn’t like him. It is the story of Cassandra, one of my favorite characters.

Apollo was trying to seduce Cassandra, who wasn’t interested in him, even though she was a mortal and he was a god. So he tried to bribe her by giving her an amazing gift. She would be able to see clearly into the future. She alone could know in advance what was going to happen. After he gave her this great gift, he tried again with her, but she wasn’t interested. She liked the gift, but not the giver. Apollo couldn’t take back the gift – this must have been some rule of godly etiquette – so he added a strange curse to it, which gave Cassandra her unique character. She would be able to see what was coming, and to tell people about it in advance – but nobody would ever believe her! Something essential is lacking in Apollo people, and women sense it immediately. I’ve had several discussions with women in this church who say that when they’re in a bar and see a guy who looks to good to be true, it gives them the willies. Apollo was the handsomest of the gods, and in his mythic days he gave women the willies, too.

We train these Apollo people in our schools, where clear-thinking and dispassionate rationality are prized, where knowledge is quantified and those who best learn the rules and have the self-control needed to play the game are the ones who get the best grades, earn the respect of their classmates, are elected class presidents, win scholarships, and go on to college, where they continue to shine. In fact, the most common image of the Good Life held out for children by their parents may be this image of an efficient, orderly and successful life where both doubts and passions are controlled or suppressed so they can not sabotage our long-range plans.

It is no surprise that Zeus’s symbolic creature was the eagle, for that far-sighted and dispassionate view is still the ideal in our world. It is still what our education trains us for, still the path that leads to success in business and politics. It is also reflected in Freud’s psychology, where sanity and health are achieved when the rational ego can control and organize the passionate and potentially destructive forces of our Id, like a well-trained rider controlling the more powerful but more primitive horse that he rides.

What we consider both reality and sanity are models of this kind of rational control, of “delayed gratification,” of working together, following the legitimate authority passed down from above. It is the world of modern commerce and competitive markets, where only the most efficient and far seeing will survive, and the others will be dictated to by those at the top. Our dominant American myths are inextricably bound up with this picture of being number one, being on top, controlling the weapons, controlling industry, and having the most clout. Apollo reminds us of America.

But there’s a human dimension that’s absolutely lacking, isn’t there? Where is warmth, compassion? We could perhaps admire or fear the kind of impersonal and objective power that our American leaders are modeling, but could anyone really love it? Something is missing. And what’s missing is essential, if we are to try and become more complete human beings.

And, since these old gods also show us what we are worshiping as a society, there is something terribly essential missing in our society now, and it feels a lot like what’s missing from Apollo. It’s all very efficient, quite powerful, but without relationship, without compassion, without warmth. You can admire or fear it, but you can’t love it. And this is what so many writers in the foreign press have been saying about America for several years now.

The goal, both in the ancient world and in our own, wasn’t to be the most powerful, angry or intimidating. The goal was learning to become a whole person and a healthy society, able to integrate all the varied voices of the many gods that are always a part of us.

When people are out of balance, it’s usually because the wrong gods are running the show. The wrong gods are running the show when a society is out of balance, too.

Joseph Campbell was the one who said that the task of modern people is the quest for the lost Atlantis of the coordinated soul. It is also the quest for the lost Atlantis of the coordinated and humane society.

Suddenly, these old Greek gods seem very modern, don’t they?

On Spiritual Practices

© Victoria Shepherd Rao

Sloan McLain

09 January 2005

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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AFFIRMATION OF FAITH:

 Sloan McLain

I know that my connection to the divine, resting in the source of all that is loving, peaceful, and mindful, is what ultimately makes life worth living. Having a daily practice that connects me to the source of my spirit – be it meditating, praying, or practicing yoga – wakes me up to life’s purpose.

So, if having a daily practice is so important to me, I have to question: Why don’t I prioritize those spiritual rituals that open my heart and give me insight into the purpose of life and my place in it?

Several years ago, when I lived in San Francisco, I tasted life with a daily practice. I did yoga every morning and meditated with prayer each evening. My life was troubled at times, but through my practice, I had the peace of mind to ride with ease the ups and downs. My practice gave me faith in the cycles of life and death and opened my heart to live mindfully. I experienced the fruits of a faithful practice, and so naturally I assumed I’d keep it up.

But in the past few years, days and weeks go by, and I suddenly realize I’ve forgotten to meditate, my yoga mat’s been sitting still, and praying hasn’t crossed my mind. Why is that? Why don’t I take more time for my spiritual practice when I’ve experienced what it can manifest, when it means so much to me? How is it that my practice falls to the bottom of my to-do lists again and again?

I have an alter in my living room where my Buddha sits on my grandmother’s Bible, my yoga mat perched nearby; and another alter in the bedroom where a box of daily intentions is surrounded by pictures, statues, rocks and writings that have helped me grow into the person I am today.

The “stuff” to assist my practice is ready and waiting, my heart wants to connect to the God I believe in, but still, my practice is inconsistent. If I’m willing and ready, what’s stopping me? Does this happen to you, too?

The reality is I’m solo-parenting my 3-year-old son while working full-time as a first-year AISD teacher to kids in poverty on top of attending school at night and on the weekends. I barely have time to eat, so where’s the time to meditate, pray, or do yoga for an hour a day? But how can I afford not to have time for what I believe is the single most important reason for my existence: to connect with the God I believe in?

I wanted to share this with you because I suspect many of you have this same struggle: you want to feed your spirit but it’s hard to find the time, and maybe it feels better to know you’re not alone. I also hope that by confessing all this to you, I’ll motivate myself to practice, even if its just 10 minutes a day. As I said earlier, I know that my connection to the divine is what ultimately gives my life purpose. If that’s my truth, and I know my spiritual practice opens this connection, I have to center myself and make time.

PRAYER:

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world.

There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

By Marianne Williamson, From: A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of A Course in Miracles

SERMON: On Spiritual Practices

There was once a beggar who sat on a box by the roadside, waiting for alms from the passersby. Year after year he sat there on his box until one day, a wise man came by. The beggar asked for some coins and the wise man looked at the beggar carefully for a long minute. Finally, the wise man asked the beggar what was inside the box. The beggar had never considered what the box he had been sitting on for so long might contain. Curious, he got up and had a look. Much to his amazement he found the rough box contained a treasure trove of gold.

I think spiritual practice is a lot like the wise man coming along and urging the old beggar to look inside. It is a way to seek out what we have always possessed.

Now, spiritual practice is nothing new to any of us.

Does anyone here pray?

Who here was taught to pray as a child?

Who has taught their children to pray in turn?

Does anyone here have an alter at home?

Who has some embarrassment with these questions?

Traditional spiritual practice is not something many of us try to make time for, though I am sure there are many here who have experimented with a few forms like yoga, chanting, or walking the labyrinth.

How many of us have learned a couple of different ways to meditate?

And how many of us actually do meditate? Any daily meditators?

As Sloan has said, it takes time to enter into a spiritual practice. And perhaps more problematical than finding the time for a daily discipline, it takes some faith. Faith that there is a connection between us and whatever is ultimate, that there is something to be gained by time spent in repose. You need to believe in the treasure hidden in the box.

But I want to propose that we do undertake spiritual practices and even incorporate them into our daily lives though maybe without fully realizing it.

Before I go any further I want to clarify what I mean by spiritual here. It is one of those nebulous words, almost automatically gets your guard up. The difference between walking down the street and seeing a sign posted, “dog found” and feeling sure you know the situation described, and seeing another sign posted saying, “God found” and having to wonder who found what.

Not to get too theological about it, when I use the word spirit, I want you to think about a horse, in the way it seems designed to run, or a child, in the way it is given to play. The quality each of these express in their being is the quality I am talking about when I say spiritual. It is a cluster of characteristics: vital energy, flowing single-minded focus, which is not forced but free in following whatever attracts, and avoiding whatever unnerves or frightens. It is the quality of being alert and alive.

So when I refer to spiritual practice I mean any practice which inspires and arouses in us this quality of vitality and sensitivity.

You can probably think of someone you know, or have known in your life who expressed this kind of natural vitality, who demonstrates exuberance, who laughs at every chance, who cries without shame, who is caring, unafraid, available to help out, never too distracted to listen. I hope you have known someone like this, someone who can give witness to the invisible forces which connect them, and all of us, to life, and to the enterprise of living it fully.

Now different people will be drawn to different practices according to their beliefs and culture, and the presence of people such as I have just described. Sometimes we need to feel our way into life-giving practices. Sometimes it can be very surprising just how sacred everyday tasks can be. For me, dog-walking was like that. It takes time every day. You have to just stop whatever you are doing and out you go. The first great gift is the break, the punctuation you have just experienced in your day. It is a kind of spaciousness from which you can gain a new perspective. Outside, you immediately reconnect with the way things are in the neighborhood: the feel of the air; the quality of the daylight; the colors of the trees. You walk, you think, you reflect, you watch the dog, delight in the dog play, in the pleasure he experiences in a good sniffing around, you greet the passersby, sometimes you talk and strangers become acquaintances. And all of this is beside the real spiritual treasure of having a dog companion who provides you constantly with a simple demonstration of unconditional love. Oh, the true spirit of a dog on his daily walk – natural, flowing, fun-loving, aimless, eager to share any pleasure. To me its like spiritual treasure on the end of a leash, dragging me along.

Yet we have to make a distinction between the connection to life or God which is both the beginning and end of all spiritual practice and the practice itself.

There was a man who was reputed to be a Zen master. He never had teachings to offer people. His practice was only to carry this large sack on his back from village to village. When he arrived at a place he would put the sack down and open it up and hand sweets out to all the children. Then he would close the sack and lift it back up onto his back and leave. Whenever anyone asked him for a teaching he would just laugh and continue on his way.

One day another Zen master decided to see if this wandering man was indeed a real master. He asked him, “What is Zen?” and the man stopped and put down his load and looked at him, saying nothing. Finally the Zen master asked, “What is the philosophy of Zen?” This time the man looked at him and then picked up his sack again and walked away. He was found to be a master after all for one who has a practice and who can let go of it as easily he can pick it up again is truly free with or without it.

When we were in India, there was an annual day-long ritual that took place in the city of Trivandrum that was for women only. The priests were the only men who attended the day. Basically, every year, each woman, homemakers all, comes out of the house to make sweets as an offering to the Goddess. Each and every woman, and we are talking tens of thousands of them, constructs her own fire and stove, brings her own pots and spoons and in the blazing sun of the midday, makes her treats. The priest come around and accept and bless the offerings on behalf of the deity and the women, after a hot day of cooking and socializing, collect their goodies to give to friends and family as prasad, or “blessed offering.”

The first year I witnessed this event as it was conducted around the temple close to where we lived. We drove by and I saw all the small fires and terra cotta stoves side by side by side. The simultaneous order and chaos of the process was deeply impressive. The second year we were there, the gathering place was around another temple and I only read and saw photographs of the happening in the newspaper. Our housekeeper had arranged to take the day off work to participate and she brought some of the sweets she had made for us the day after. I remember how incredible it seemed to me that these ladies would carry all these bags of supplies, fire wood, stove, pots and the ingredients for their sweets, and cook on open fires in the blazing sun, with humidity high and crowds on all sides. But it was a day apart from all the others, and a special day just for the ladies. When they could break away from the everyday routines of their homelives and do something different. They could chat with friends and feel good that they had made their offering. They believed their faithfulness to the Goddess would be reciprocated by the Goddess’s faithfulness to them and their prayers.

With the heat and the crowds, this spiritual practice would be sheer agony for me, as far from the solitude of a dog walk as is imaginable. But it taught me to give up evaluating the ritual practices of other people on the basis of my own spiritual inclinations.

Of course that is not to say that the practices others devise to suit their own spiritual inclinations cannot work for me or you. If there is an appeal in what someone does, why not try it out? Non-conformist religious liberals tend not to look to conventional forms of spiritual practice but we should not be blind to the ways and means of our coreligionists. I look around at First (UU) Church (of Austin) and I see folks engaged in spiritually sustaining activities of all kinds. There are the hallmarks of the Protestant tradition such as the gathering together for worship each week, listening to poetic words and music, singing and engaging with the sermon or public forum, eating together, working together, seeking together to make manifest a collective vision of spirited service. There are also alternate forms of spiritual practice being undertaken here and in the other UU congregations in the city. At First Church there is yoga, Chi Gong, folkdancing and Kundalini yoga. At Wildflower Church there is a covenant group dedicated to experimentation in spiritual practices. At Live Oak, there is a weekly silent meditation gathering.

And individually, we can witness the spiritual practices of our fellow congregation members: folks who make their bumper stickers a form of ministry; folks who ride bikes because they can and feel they ought; others who drive with nowhere to go just so they can rethink and reframe ideas (that would be Davidson); people who take listening to others as a calling to go deeper into the human condition and because they believe in the power to heal (that would be the Listening Ministry folks at First); and people who write cards to show they care. There are so many varieties of spiritual practices going on, and time is made for them all, somehow.

I had a minister in California who understood recycling to be a spiritual practice. For her, it was a sacred time and a personal discipline. It expressed her valuing of intentional living and responsible consuming. I think recycling is a spiritual practice for a lot of people for the same reasons though I don’t think too many yet understand it as such. Yet consider the amount of time you spend clearing out the paper clutter that appears daily on your desk or table. If you undertake the same chore as a positive act of redirecting resources instead of just collecting the trash, don’t you feel the transformation from time wasted to time well spent?

If we can give ourselves the freedom to feel out what does and does not feed our spirit, our inner connection to this life we all share, then we can give ourselves credit for all that we do already in the course of our daily lives to keep ourselves reminded of that which is vital and real.

Let us become ever more aware of these non-traditional forms of spiritual practice and hold them close. It is true that to adopt many traditional forms of spiritual practice means to devote ourselves and our time to the path of spiritual growth. It is also true that time is limited and we will be constrained to meet the requirements of a demanding spiritual discipline, maybe even driven to justify a pursuit with such intangible rewards as peace of mind or faith in our life’s purpose. However, we are here together now for a reason, and it is the same reason which propels others to cloister themselves in monasteries, or contort their bodies at yoga retreats all over the world where they are able to devote all their time to spiritual practice. Either way, it is about the human inclination to recognize the mysteries which connect all living creatures and to find some way, according to doctrine or not, to express that beautiful mystery authentically in the way we live and the way we love.

Finally, I want to thank Sloan for the courage she has shown in making the affirmation which began our treatment of this topic of spiritual practice and the time we make for it. She said, “I know that my connection to the.source of all that is loving, peaceful, and mindful, is what ultimately makes life worth living the single most important reason for my existence.” It is this faith, this inner knowledge of connection, however gained, which has the power to transform, heal, and provide us with insights to the purposes of our lives and the power to understand what is real and what is illusory. Like the treasure hidden under the beggar’s seat, such faith is waiting to be uncovered in every heart, to enrich every life with the quality of true spirit.