Two Parables of the Beloved Community

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Rev. Meg Barnhouse
March 1, 2020
First UU Church of Austin
4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756
www.austinuu.org

Another in our sermon series on the elements of baking. We look at bread and yeast. Rabbi Jesus told a parable about how the kingdom of heaven, or the Beloved Community is like yeast. What could that mean for us?


Chalice Lighting

At this hour, in small towns and big cities, in single rooms and ornate sanctuaries, many of our sibling Unitarian Universalist congregations are also lighting a flaming chalice. As we light our chalice today; let us remember that we are part of a great community of faith. May this dancing flame inspire us to fill our lives with the Unitarian Universalist ideals of love, justice, and truth.

Call to Worship

From THE HOUSE OF BELONGING
by David White

“This is not the age of information, forget the news and the radio and the blurred screen. This is the time of loaves and fishes: the people are hungry. We say one good word, and it can become bread for a thousand.”

Affirming Our Mission

Together we nourish souls, transform lives, and do justice to build the Beloved Community.

Moment for Beloved Community

“Dr. King’s Beloved Community is a global vision, in which all people can share in the wealth of the earth. In the Beloved Community, poverty, hunger and homelessness will not be tolerated because international standards of human decency will not allow it. Racism and all forms of discrimination, bigotry and prejudice will be replaced by an all-inclusive spirit of sisterhood and brotherhood. In the Beloved Community, international disputes will be resolved by peaceful conflict-resolution and reconciliation of adversaries, instead of military power. Love and trust will triumph over fear and hatred. Peace with justice will prevail over war and military conflict.”

– The Martin Luther King Jr. Center for Nonviolent Social Change

Meditation Reading

“[Jesus] said, ‘With what can we compare the kingdom of God, or what parable shall we use for it? It is like a grain of mustard seed, which, when sown on the ground, is the smallest of all the seeds on earth, yet when it is sown it grows up and becomes larger than all the garden plants and puts out large branches, so that the birds of the air can make nests in its shade.’ “

Again he asked, “What shall I compare the Kingdom of God to? It is like yeast that a woman took and mixed into about sixty pounds of flour until it worked all through the dough.”

Sermon

In the Jewish faith story, the Hebrew people, descendants of Abraham and Sarah, had been enslaved in Egypt for 400 years. Moses, their liberator, said to the Pharaoh, “Let my people go.” The Pharaoh was reluctant, since he’d needed the labor of the people to build his economy. Then came the plagues. The water turned to blood, and no one could drink it. Frogs infested the land, then flies. Then all the cattle got sick, then the people got boils. Hail came, then locusts. Then the skies turned dark so you couldn’t even see your hand in front of your face. The last plague was that the first born children of all the Egyptians died overnight. After that final plague the Pharaoh said he would let Moses’ people go. The Hebrew people were told to make unlevened bread, which we now know as Matzoh bread, a bread with no yeast, made only of flour, olive oil, water and salt. This was fast and simple bread to make, and a person could live on it for a short time.

You can mix grain and water together and live on the paste for a little while, but you will soon die. If, however, you give the flour and water time, if you mix it together and set it on a counter in your kitchen, after a few days it will start to bubble. I don’t know which prehistoric person saw the grain and water porridge bubbling in a bowl in the corner and thought “I’m going to bake that in the fire,” but they are the first baker of bread. Anthropologists are divided about whether the first person to see the bubbling said “I’m going to bake that,” or whether they said “I’m going to drink that.” You have the “bread before beer” scientists, and you have the “beer before bread” scientists.

If you let that flour and water paste we started with take its time, that is, if you don’t have to run away from the pursuing armies of Egypt, then you can have levened bread, and leavened, or yeasted bread can sustain your life indefinitely. Where does the yeast come from? It’s wild, it’s in the air. Yeast is a fungus that floats in the biosphere. If you give it time, it will find your flour and water and start to break down the starches in the mixture, forming sugar. This is fermentation. When the yeast breaks down the cell walls of the starch, it gives off carbon dioxide, which makes the bubbles and creates the holes you see when you tear open a loaf of yeasted bread.

Bill read a pair of parables for our meditation reading, parables attributed by the author to Rabbi Jesus. He was describing the Kingdom of Heaven, which we could translate as “the Beloved Community.”

The Beloved community is like a mustard seed, which a gardener planted. It grew and became a tree, and the birds perched in its branches. It’s like yeast that a baker took and mixed into about sicty pounds of flour until it worked all through the dough.

Something that starts small can have a large effect. Helping build the Beloved Community doesn’t have to be enormous sweeping actions, but small ones, persistent, breaking down the walls of apathy and ignorance in order to create something that will nourish souls and transform lives.

In the series Cooked, on Netflix, botanist Michael Pollan talks about bread. How it was one of humanity’s first foods, how bread (or beer) was the reason humans changed from being nomadic hunters to being farmers of wheat and other grains. To plant and have a harvest, people have to stay in one place for a period of time. Staying in one place means you will probably build dwellings that can last for at least a year. It may mean that you will have to defend your harvest from those who didn’t plant it, but who may want it for themselves. Staying in one place means that when your people die, you will probably make one place where you bury their bodies, and you may develop some rituals, ceremonies to render those burials sacred.

When you have beer and bread, thanks to the wild yeast in the air of your place, you have conviviality, feasting, you survive, and you have nourishment and intoxication. Bread is the staff of life, a metaphor for a thing you need every day. In the Cooked series, you see a boy, maybe 10 years old, in Morocco, picking up the tray on which are the loaves his mother has kneaded and shaped that morning. He takes them to the neighborhood baker, whose is the only house with an over. He bakes all day, loaves the neighborhood families bring to him. The flour comes from all over the world: Ukraine, Germany, France, because Morocco can’t grow enough grain to make the bread eaten by all of its people. Bread is the spoon that they scoop up the dinner. Bread is the plate.

My mother, who was raised in what is now Pakistan, would wash dishes muttering grumpily about the wastefulness of having to buy, store and wash plates, when in India, she’d say, the plate is the bread, and when you are finished with the meal, the plate is gone. In some cultures it is an offence to take a knife to bread. It wants to be handled, torn, to have the shape of a human action instead of a metal tool.

When you have kneaded bread, and it has become smooth and stretchy, and then it rises, it has much the same feel to your hand as a human body, as if this were a baby smooth under your hands. It feels as if it could be part of you, or you part of it.

Here is what I want you to remember. The Beloved Community is like yeast. You don’t have to change everything all at once. This is true within us and in our communities. I told you two weeks ago that when I was in seminary, the women started calling God “she.” It was like a tiny seed that grew and changed everything, giving the birds of our lived experience a place to rest. The idea was like yeast, that started bubbling and soon we were all rising. Have you ever heard or seen something that seemed small at first, but changed the way you saw things? Another thing that changed me was when I followed a suggestion that, watching TV or movies, I switched the genders of the people involved. Another seed is reversing the ethnicity of people you see. On Face Book there was a meme with a row of Asian women laughing, on their phones, having pedicures done by white women.

Tiny things can start big things in the culture. Greta Thunberg began her climate change activism sitting in front of the Swedish parliament building in August of 2018. How far have things come from there? Young climate change activists have been the yeast that levens an enormous amount of flour. And we are all rising. People, ideas, songs can be yeast, a small beginning that changes everything. When 10 percent of a group begin to talk about something, people shrug them off as fringe folks. When 20 percent talk about something, people begin to notice, and it feels like everyone is talking about it. When 30 percent of people are on the bus, talking about that idea, it feels like a movement. When you have 40 percent, you can win over the rest of the people easily. You can see that in this 2 minute video from Derek Sivers.

VIDEO

The poet said “This is not the age of information… the people are hungry. We help one another rise. We say one good word, and it can become bread for a thousand.”


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Graceful Resilience

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Rev. Chris Jimmerson
February 23, 2020
First UU Church of Austin
4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756
www.austinuu.org

Sometimes it takes grit and determination to stay resilient in times of challenge. Sometimes, though, like the trees, we need to be able to bend but not break when strong winds gust – change, but also hold onto our core selves, like when the river changes course around obstacles in its path. Always, we need each other to weather life’s challenges.


Chalice Lighting

At this hour, in small towns and big cities, in single rooms and ornate sanctuaries, many of our sibling Unitarian Universalist congregations are also lighting a flaming chalice. As we light our chalice today; let us remember that we are part of a great community of faith. May this dancing flame inspire us to fill our lives with the Unitarian Universalist ideals of love, justice, and truth.

Call to Worship

by Adrienne Rich

My heart is moved by all I cannot save:
so much has been destroyed
I have to cast my lot with those
who age after age, perversely,
with no extraordinary power,
reconstitute the world.

Affirming Our Mission

Together we nourish souls, transform lives, and do justice to build the Beloved Community.

Moment for Beloved Community

“Dr. King’s Beloved Community is a global vision, in which all people can share in the wealth of the earth. In the Beloved Community, poverty, hunger and homelessness will not be tolerated because international standards of human decency will not allow it. Racism and all forms of discrimination, bigotry and prejudice will be replaced by an all-inclusive spirit of sisterhood and brotherhood. In the Beloved Community, international disputes will be resolved by peaceful conflict-resolution and reconciliation of adversaries, instead of military power. Love and trust will triumph over fear and hatred. Peace with justice will prevail over war and military conflict.”

– The Martin Luther King Jr. Center for Nonviolent Social Change

To deepen our reflection on the meaning of Beloved Community and the challenges we still encounter for building it, each week we have been asking folks to consider something that is may be outside their realm of experience.

Kevin was 17 when he fled Honduras with his sister. After their grandmother had died, they had been left parentless, and the gang MS-13 forced them to work for it at threat for their lives.

When the gang told Kevin he would have to kill a stranger to prove his loyalty, he and his sister made the decision to flee to the United States.

He was captured at the border and placed into a shelter run by the Office of Refugee Resettlement, which is responsible for providing care for underage immigrants.

As a part of that care, he was offered psychological counseling, which he understood would be confidential.

He met with a therapist and talked about all of the things the gang had forced him to do or witness.

Little did he know, that under a new Trump administration policy, his therapist’s notes would be passed on the Immigration and Customs Enforcement, who would use it to declare him a danger to society and argue for his detainment and deportation.

He has now been in detention for over 950 days while his legal case plays out.

One has to wonder if they would have done the same to a teenager from, oh, say, Finland.

What must it be like to have a vulnerable counseling session used against you in a legal setting?

As we struggle with this, let us remember there is no need to immerse ourselves in guilt or shame. In fact, these can be counterproductive, as we need joy and community to sustain our struggle to do justice and build the beloved community.

There is beauty to be found in the struggle itself.

Meditation Reading

GRACE
by Chris Jimmerson

When she was a young girl, they told her that Grace was only available to her, a child of original sin, through the forgiveness and whim of an all-powerful God.

Then, she sat with her Grandfather as he was dying. She held his hand, as she and the ones she loved stayed with him through his great passage.

And she felt Grace arise among them.

Later, during her college years, she volunteered for the local refugee shelter. And one day she witnessed the counselor work with young children traumatized by war.

She heard the children begin to speak their truths with one another, in that language that is only fully understood by such children, and she watched the counselor put his plans aside and let the children begin to heal one another.

And she felt Grace radiate between them.

And as over and over again through her years, she witnessed this same emergence between and among people, she came to understand Grace as something we co-create, and, sometimes, something we allow to happen by simply getting out of the way.

Sermon

“Pull yourself up by your own bootstraps.”

“You’re stronger than you think.”

“What doesn’t kill us makes us stronger.”

“If at first you don’t succeed, try, try again.”

How many of you have heard one or more of these platitudes about human resilience?

The problem with them, besides the fact that they’re platitudes, is also that they center our resilience solely upon each of us as individuals. However, in reality our ability to remain resilient in difficult circumstances greatly depends on communal relationships and social support.

That’s not to say that there are not practical things we can do as individuals to build our personal resilience, and I’ll talk about some of these later.

It’s just that too often we forget that when we face challenges, we do not have to face them alone.

We have each other. We are a part of something much larger than ourselves.

As our religious education chaplain and communications coordinator, Bear Qolezcua put it in one of his wonderful Weekly Faith Connections bulletins, “These are the moments in which we are blessed to remember that we are part of the great, interdependent web of life upon which all things strum a rhythm of living and love and hope and sorrow and joy and pain and loss and newness.”

So this morning, as we consider the spiritual topic of resilience, which our religious education classes and activities have been exploring this leap year month of February, I want to start by stressing the relational, communal and social aspects of our resilience.

One group of psychologists who study resilience define it this way: “Resilience is the process of adapting well in the face of adversity, trauma, tragedy, threats or significant sources of stress .. .It means ‘bouncing back’ from difficult experiences.

However, Eric Greitens, former navy seal, humanitarian, author and ex-disgraced, shortterm Republican governor of Missouri, but hey, wisdom can come from the strangest of sources sometimes – Greitens writes that we do not really bounce back to exactly who we were before.

The parent who loses a child is forever changed.

The nineteen-year old who goes to war comes back a different person than when they left.

Greitens says that rather than bouncing back to who we were before, we move through our challenges.

He writes, “What happens to us becomes a part of us”.

Resilient people find healthy ways to integrate hard experiences into their lives.

And, especially in our most difficult situations, to do that, we most often need relationship with; we need the support of others.

As I began what was supposed to be my final year of seminary in the fall of 2014, my world had suddenly become very challenging.

My spouse, Wayne, had developed a debilitating and life-threatening illness.

I am happy to say he is doing well now, but at the time it was pretty scary.

My step-father, Ty was dying of congestive heart failure. We knew it was only a matter of time. We just did not know how much time he had left.

We were blessed that he actually lived more than a year longer than his doctors had predicted. I was so moved that he was even able to attend my ordination here at this church just a couple of months before we lost him.

On top of all that, the congregation where I was doing a part-time internship that was required as part of my final year in seminary was moving through a great deal of emotional turmoil because of abuses they had suffered at the hands of other ministers.

I began to doubt whether I would be able to complete the school year and graduate.

The seminary was a long distance program, where I could do much of the studying and work here, but then had to go to Chicago for intensive classes for several weeks three times per year.

With all that was going on, it seemed a high likelihood that I might not be able to be away at some point or that I might have to leave in the middle of classes if the worst happened in any of the situations going on back home.

I also just was not sure I was going to have the emotional stamina to push through the hard work of seminary.

My prior years at the seminary, I had served as the co-chair of the student advisory council, and the school’s president, Lee Barker, had asked me to fill a position that would serve as student representative to the faculty team and the board of trustees.

I realized that I had to call Lee to tell him I could not serve in the position. I dreaded making that call because I was afraid he would be disappointed in me.

Instead, as soon as I told him all that was going on in my life, he said, “Forget the position, you’re what matters. Let’s talk about what you need.”

He gave me such a gift of grace, because he stayed with me where I was as we continued the conversation. He didn’t try to tell me it was OK or that it would be OK because, of course, it wasn’t and he couldn’t make the promise that it would be.

He did tell me that the school would work with me to find ways around it if I had to miss class time or had trouble keeping up with readings and assignments.

He offered to be available to me if at any time I needed to talk more.

And as the school year went on, he helped me find a resilience that I could not have found by myself – a resilience that allowed me to complete that final year of seminary and graduate with my friends and classmates.

Research has found that our resilience is rooted in relationship in several ways.

Positive and supportive social relationships, such as Lee offered too me, are key to our resilience.

As the American Psychological Association puts it, “Many studies show that the primary factor in resilience is having caring and supportive relationships within and outside the family. Relationships that create love and trust, provide role models and offer encouragement and reassurance, help bolster a person’s resilience.”

So building and maintaining relationships and community are vital to our ability to weather life’s inevitable storms.

Next, finding a sense of purpose that involves altruism and working for the good of others is a second way that our resilience is rooted in social connections.

Research has found, it turns out, that when we get involved in contributing to our communities, working for social justice, trying to create a better world, we benefit ourselves, because in doing so we are exposed to different perspectives and life experiences, and we find that sense of purpose. These, in turn, help build our own personal resilience.

Finally, social safety nets increase the resilience of citizens. In countries with strong social safety nets, such as paid parental leave and universal free health care, people are healthier and express greater life satisfaction.

In turn, these seem to make folks in such countries more resilient when they encounter challenges in life.

So, paid parental leave and Medicare for all, ya’ll!

Now, while still stressing that maintaining the social relationships I’ve been discussing is vital, I do want to talk a little bit about what we can do individually to maintain and build our resiliency.

Jane McGonigal is a video game designer who a few years ago suffered a traumatic brain injury that left her with constant headaches, nausea, vertigo, memory loss and mental fogginess.

Her doctors told her that in order to heal, she had to avoid anything that triggered these symptoms – no reading, no email.nowork.no running, no writing – basically none of the activities she loved in life.

She found herself growing more and more depressed. She found herself having suicidal thoughts.

She decided to try to create a game she could play that might help her make it through.

She called the game, “Jane the Concussion Slayer” and invited her twin sister and her husband to play it with her.

The game basically just helped them identify how to battle the “bad guys” – anything that could trigger her symptoms like bright lightsand activate power ups – anything she could do to feel even just a little better like cuddling her dog for a few minutes.

Within just a few days her depression lifted. She still had symptoms of the head injury for another year, but she no longer had suicidal thoughts.

She renamed the game “SuperBetter” and shared it over the internet. She soon found herself receiving messages from around the world from people with a variety medical conditions saying that the game had helped them face their challenges with much less anxiety and depression.

She was curious how such a simple game could be so helpful, so she devoured the scientific literature and discovered what the game was doing was helping people identify simple activities that have been shown to contribute to four different types of resilience.

I want to share with you a few minutes from a Ted Talk that McGonigal presented in which she walked her audience through some very simple activities we can do even several times daily that help build these four types of resilience that she will describe.

I invite you as, in the video, she talks the people in her audience through these exercises to join in with them and do the activities too.


VIDEO

So, everybody ready? This is your first quest. Here we go. Pick one: Stand up and take three steps, or make your hands into fists, raise them over your head as high as you can for five seconds, go! All right, I like the people doing both. You are overachievers. Very good.

(Laughter)

Well done, everyone. That is worth +1 physical resilience, which means that your body can withstand more stress and heal itself faster. We know from the research that the number one thing you can do to boost your physical resilience is to not sit still. That’s all it takes. Every single second that you are not sitting still, you are actively improving the health of your heart, and your lungs and brains.

Everybody ready for your next quest? I want you to snap your fingers exactly 50 times, or count backwards from 100 by seven, like this: 100,

93 … Go!

(Snapping)

Don’t give up.

(Snapping)

Don’t let the people counting down from 100 interfere with your counting to 50.

(Snapping)

(Laughter)

Nice. Wow. That’s the first time I’ve ever seen that. Bonus physical resilience. Well done, everyone. Now that’s worth +1 mental resilience, which means you have more mental focus, more discipline, determination and willpower. We know from the scientific research that willpower actually works like a muscle. It gets stronger the more you exercise it. So tackling a tiny challenge without giving up, even one as absurd as snapping your fingers exactly 50 times or counting backwards from 100 by seven is actually a scientifically validated way to boost your willpower.

So good job. Quest number three. Pick one:

Because of the room, fate’s really determined this for you, but here are the two options. If you’re inside, find a window and look out of it. If you’re outside, find a window and look in. Or do a quick YouTube or Google image search for “baby [your favorite animal.]”

Do it on your phones, or just shout out some baby animals, and I’ll put them on the screen. So, what do we want to see? Sloth, giraffe, elephant, snake. Okay, let’s see what we got. Baby dolphin and baby llamas. Everybody look. Got that? Okay, one more. Baby elephant.

(Audience) Oh!

We’re clapping for that? That’s amazing.

(Laughter)

All right, what we’re just feeling there is plus-one emotional resilience, which means you have the ability to provoke powerful, positive emotions like curiosity or love, which we feel looking at baby animals, when you need them most.

Here’s a secret from the scientific literature for you. If you can manage to experience three positive emotions for everyone negative emotion over the course of an hour, a day, a week, you dramatically improve your health and your ability to successfully tackle any problem you’re facing. And this is called the three-to-one positive emotion ratio. It’s my favorite SuperBetter trick, so keep it up.

All right, pick one, last quest: Shake someone’s hand for six seconds, or send someone a quick thank you by text, email, Facebook or Twitter. Go!

(Chatting)

Looking good, looking good. Nice, nice. Keep it up. I love it! All right, everybody, that is +1 social resilience, which means you actually get more strength from your friends, your neighbors, your family, your community. Now, a great way to boost social resilience is gratitude. Touch is even better.

Here’s one more secret for you: Shaking someone’s hand for six seconds dramatically raises the level of oxytocin in your bloodstream, now that’s the trust hormone. That means that all of you who just shook hands are biochemically primed to like and want to help each other. This will linger during the break, so take advantage of the networking opportunities.


So just these simple activities, repeated enough, can build our resilience. And if her activities are not workable for someone because of a disability or such, finding some simple way to challenge ourselves in each of those four areas will likely still have the same effect – physical, emotional, mental, and, of course, social.

Now, have I harped on the importance of spiritual practices yet this Sunday?

No? Well, here goes. Yep, it turns out spiritual practices – meditation, prayer, gardening, gratitude journaling, etc. engaging in regular spiritual practices builds our resilience.

Here are some other activities that help us build and maintain resilience:

  • Allowing ourselves to experience joy.
  • Immersing ourselves in that which we find to be beautiful.
  • Laughter and humor.
  • The arts, music, poetry.
  • Engaging our creativity.

I think sometimes we think of resilience as always meaning being tough, having grit and determination. And that CAN be part of it.

But like those platitudes with which I started, it is not all of the story.

Sometimes resilience means allowing ourselves to feel the grief and rage and sorrow and pain of our situations without falling into immobilization, without losing joy, laughter, humor, beauty.

Sometimes, like the “flag” tree on the cover of your order of service and up on the screens, we need to muster the grace to bend but not break up against the winds of traumatic challenge or dramatic change. And my beloveds, we need each other to do so.

Sometimes we have to have the courage to ask for help.

For after all, we co-create grace in our world together. We grow stronger together.

We build our greatest resilience together.

May this place and this religious community be a wellspring of spiritual resilience so together, we may:

  • nourish souls, ours and others,
  • transform lives, in our midst and out in our world,
  • and do justice, within these walls and beyond them.

Building the Beloved Community requires just such a great spiritual resilience.

Thus, we are blessed to have each other, in this, our beloved religious community.

Amen.


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Sugar: What is enough?

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Rev. Meg Barnhouse
February 16, 2020
First UU Church of Austin
4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756
www.austinuu.org

So many beings seek sweetness. Fruits invite the bees with it, It can make a meal delightful. What happens, though, when civilizations go after sugar production without thought for ethics or balance?


Chalice Lighting

At this hour, in small towns and big cities, in single rooms and ornate sanctuaries, many of our sibling Unitarian Universalist congregations are also lighting a flaming chalice. As we light our chalice today; let us remember that we are part of a great community of faith. May this dancing flame inspire us to fill our lives with the Unitarian Universalist ideals of love, justice, and truth.

Call to Worship

The words of Hans Christian Andersen, a white Danish author best known for his fairy tales.

Just living isn’t enough,” said the butterfly, “one must have sunshine, freedom, and a little flower.”

Affirming Our Mission

Together we nourish souls, transform lives, and do justice to build the Beloved Community.

Moment for Beloved Community

“Dr. King’s Beloved Community is a global vision, in which all people can share in the wealth of the earth. In the Beloved Community, poverty, hunger and homelessness will not be tolerated because international standards of human decency will not allow it. Racism and all forms of discrimination, bigotry and prejudice will be replaced by an all-inclusive spirit of sisterhood and brotherhood. In the Beloved Community, international disputes will be resolved by peaceful conflict-resolution and reconciliation of adversaries, instead of military power. Love and trust will triumph over fear and hatred. Peace with justice will prevail over war and military conflict.”

– The Martin Luther King Jr. Center for Nonviolent Social Change

Meditation Reading

From the words of Major General Smedley Darlington Butler, a white Marine Corps officer who fought in both the Mexican Revolution and World War I. Butler was, at the time of his death the most decorated Marine in U.S. history.

I spent 33 years and 4 months in active military service … And during that period I spent most of my time as a high-class muscle man for Big Business, for Wall Street and the bankers. In short, I was a racketeer, a gangster for capitalism.

Thus, I helped make Mexico and especially Tampico safe for American oil interests in 1914. I helped make Haiti and Cuba a decent place for the National City Bank boys to collect revenues in ….

I helped purify Nicaragua for the international banking house of Brown Brothers in 1902-1912. I brought light to the Dominican Republic for American sugar interests in 1916. I helped make Honduras right for American fruit companies in 1903. In China in 1927, I helped see to it that Standard Oil went on its way unmolested.

Our boys were sent off to die with beautiful ideals painted in front of them. No one told them that dollars and cents were the real reason they were marching off to kill and die.

Sermon

My mama was a health food nut. When I was little she used to celebrate our good things with celery. She’d say “So good! Let’s have some CELERY!!” When I was four someone gave me sugar. I felt betrayed. I remember the first time I gave my two year old his first tiny bite of a chocolate kiss. He stopped. He transformed with rapture. I had a herd of boys in and out of the yard. Occasionally they would come in to the house and I introduced them to Earl Grey Tea. Not too much tea. Lots of milk. And sugar. They loved it. I felt a little guilty about the sugar. I knew it was a drug.

We’re going along in a series about some of the elements of baking. Today we’re talking about sugar. This’ll be fun, I thought. This’ll be sweet.

Sugarcane grows in Southeast Asia, and it’s been used for its sweetness since 4,000 BCE. From about 2,000 years ago in India, they were crystalizing the juice into granules. The cultivation and manufacture of cane sugar spread through the Islamic world, and there continued to be improvements in production methods. It was used as medicine in the Greek and Roman cultures.

Then I came to the headlineĀ Sugar cultivation in the New World, See also slavery in the British and French Caribbean.

UH OH

I learned about the slavery triangle. Portuguese traders took seeds and planted them on the islands of the Caribbean, and they grew well. The New World was going to be a cash machine of sugar. It was back breaking work, and the Europeans were dying from heat and malaria. Traders began buying people from the coast of Africa to come work in the cane fields, making the very expensive spice called sugar. The sugar was shipped to England. The goods from England were sold on the way to Africa to buy more people. I say “people” because when you say “buy more slaves” it sounds like these folks were born slaves, or like they are some other species, but it’s buying enslaved people is what they were doing. And shipping them, stuffed in like merchandise, to the New World. Over 11 million people were sold into the cane plantations, mostly in Brazil. Between 1502 and 1866, of the 11.2 million Africans, only 388,000 arrived in North America, while the rest arrived in Latin America and the Caribbean. These enslaved people were brought as early as the 16th and 17th centuries. The work, the heat and the malaria was killing people, so more people had to be bought and brought to the sugar companies.

The colonizing countries were making so much money on their occupied colonies where sugar was growing, that their economies depended heavily on sugar. The enslaved workers throughout the Great Britain colonies outnumbered the White plantation owners and they were always worried about uprisings. They demanded troops from the Crown to protect themselves. If the Crown hadn’t been spending so much money and so many troops protecting their sugar interests around the world that they couldn’t spend what they needed to in order to win against the American Revolutionary armies. So we may have won that war because sugar in their other colonies was distracting the Brits.

Now the work is still back breaking and we have better machinery, so sugar is inexpensive and doesn’t require slave labor any more. It’s not fun work, but people get paid some.

So with sugar’s bloody history, should we allow ourselves to enjoy it? Sugar is naturally attractive to bees, to animals and humans too. Apples, as we know, increase their sugar content to increase their appeal….then farmers helped that process keep going. But when we humans like something we try to get more and more of it, concentrate it more and more. We go after the things that make us happy : pleasure, accomplishment, friendship, love relationships, money, drugs, alcohol…. And it seems to me that we have a tendency to want to process whatever it is until it reaches its full concentration. I wonder what is enough? Sugar is one of those things that can trigger a switch (alcohol is just liquid sugar) in your mind and nothing is enough. Money does that to some people. Nothing is enough. 10 million sounds good, but once you have that, 100 million sounds better.

What we want, we want. We don’t ask ourselves often what is enough. We have the money, most among us, to have most of what we want. As long as it doesn’t cause people to be enslaved. This is where I have to tell you about how much child labor and yes, even child slavery is still involved in the chocolate trade.

The US State Department estimated that 20 years ago there were 15,000 child slaves working in the cocoa, cotton and coffee farms in the Cote D’Ivoire. Hershey, Mars and Nestle promised they would no longer use chocolate that involved child labor. But they have broken that promise. Newman’s Own chocolate keeps its promise not to use child labor, and other companies do too, but their chocolate is harder to get.

There is nothing wrong with chocolate. It’s the people who run the farms, and the people who run those people. And underneath it all, the love of money, the never-enoughness of the people at the top and their money, and the system that says you have to squeeze as much money out of your company as you possible can, and you’ll go as far as you need to go to do that.

This world is so hard on children, so hard on the powerless. We can’t possibly live in complete purity, but we can try to do what we can. Let’s keep making the world better, one step at a time. When you get weary, let someone else “hold the note” for you for a while. Do not despair, but let’s use all our privileges of health, wealth, skin color, sexuality, citizenship and education to partner with the powerless to stand by them and listen to their pain and do what can be done. That will be really sweet.


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Milk & Butter: Creativity within constraints

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Rev. Meg Barnhouse
February 9, 2020
First UU Church of Austin
4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756
www.austinuu.org

Sometimes it’s when we fail or when we are limited that our creativity is brought to the fore. Agitation can bring transformation.


Chalice Lighting

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Call to Worship

WHY I WAKE EARLY
Mary Oliver

Hello, sun in my face.
Hello, you who made the morning
and spread it over the fields
and into the faces of the tulips
and the nodding morning glories,
and into the windows of, even, the
miserable and the crotchety –
best preacher that ever was

dear star, that just happens
to be where you are in the uniiverse
to keep us from ever-darkness,
to ease us with warm touching,
to hold us in the great hands of light –
good morning, good morning, good morning.
Watch, now, how I start the day
in happiness, in kindness.

Affirming Our Mission

Together we nourish souls, transform lives, and do justice to build the Beloved Community.

Meditation Reading

by Frederick Douglass

Those who profess to favor freedom and yet depreciate agitation,
are people who want crops without ploughing the ground;
they want rain without thunder and lightning;
they want the ocean without the roar of its many waters.

The struggle may be a moral one,
or it may be a physical one,
or it may be both.
But it must be a struggle.

Power concedes nothing without a demand.
It never did and it never will.

Sermon

Today we are talking about butter, and about creativity within constraints. When you use butter you have in your hands a substance with at least a 3,000 year history. According to The Butter Journal, a hunter could have made the first batch by accident. He may have tied a sheepskin bag of milk to his horse and, after a day of jostling, discovered the transformation: Churned milk fat solidifies into butter. Farmers in Syria still take a goat skin bag, fill it with milk and start shaking.

In ancient Rome, butter was medicinal – swallowed for coughs or rubbed into aching joints. In India, Hindus have been offering Lord Krishna tins full of ghee – clarified butter – for at least 3,000 years. And in the Bible, butter is a food for celebration, first mentioned when Abraham and Sarah offer three visiting angels a feast of meat, milk and butter.

A couple of weeks ago we talked about how salt enabled humans to travel, as they could take with them salt-preserved food that didn’t spoil on the journey. Milk spoiled quickly in transport, and travelers could take butter with them more easily and get to where they were going with those concentrated calories still appetizing and available to them.

Butter is made by agitating milk. You put the milk in a container and then shake it up for a time until you get butter. So I’ve been thinking about being shaken up. Our culture doesn’t change without agitation. As you heard Fredrick Douglass say, power never yields without a demand.

We may be the same. We’ve all been faced with challenges. Thrown off our horse by a bad diagnosis, the loss of a job, the death of someone we love, some of our normal comforts removed. Or we are sent on a journey, a quest. Sometimes we know we need this, and take off traveling to new places. We have felt ourselves getting too comfortable, getting sleepy, so we do something to wake ourselves up. More often, agitation happens on its own.

One of the things that agitated my life was reading feminist theology. I was raised in a pretty traditional protestant home, where God was the daddy. When you start thinking of God as the mother, things can change. My whole theology fell apart, because I knew no mother in the world would torture and kill her son because of some construction of sin and forgiveness she herself had set up. Then as I delved into neo-pagan theology, where Gaia, the living Earth, was seen as the divinity, I read things about how you can see god in nature, dolphins, sunsets, mountains….

I knew, as someone who had been camping, that there was more to nature than that. There were the endless forests of the Appalachians, where it got cold, and when the wind whistled through your tent and the bears ate the food you had put in the tree, you could die there and the forest wouldn’t really seem to care. Or else the woods and the moon had a completely different understanding of death than I did and saw it as much less of a big deal. Mother Nature was completely comfortable with death, indifferent, you could say. Praying to her for your child’s illness to be healed felt different from praying to a loving father god. But I had done both, when my mother was dying of cancer, and they had worked similarly badly.

Now I have a theology that feels creamy and nourishing. God is Love, and there is a river of love running through the universe. Every act of love by human or other adds to this river. The river has no hands, though, so the hands of love are ours. We are the ones who make love into action, and the river strengthens us. We can bathe in this river when we need forgiveness or grace, when we feel off track or dried up. The river of love is there for us. The God of my childhood makes no sense to me. Mother nature is too indifferent, but I seek the river of love, and that makes sense to me. Finally, a sweet buttery thealogy that makes sense to me after all that agitation.

The things that shake us can change us. You all have known people who haven’t had any trouble in their lives. They have never had someone they loved die, never been grievously sick or injured, never been completely without resources, never been at the mercy of merciless people. Sometimes it is glorious experiences that shake us, but most often it is the difficult ones. That’s life. It shakes the raw milk of our characters and we become more solid, sweeter, longer lasting, more nourishing to others.

Shaking makes butter, shaking within an enclosed space.

There is a good bit of research on how creativity thrives best when given constraints. Business journals talk about it. How it can be good to be limited in some ways, geographically, in your budget, in your human resources, in time constraints. The limitations agitate, and creativity is born in the situation. Maybe a football team like Green Bay is owned by the town it’s in, not by a rich person, and they have to make do with who they have, and they do well and inspire plenty of passionate loyalty as a side effect.

Some creatives give themselves limitations to spur creativity.

Tell a story in six words. I saw one in the want ads one day “Wedding dress for sale. Never worn.” Another way to impose constraints is to set a timer, try to do a job in 30 minutes. At least get part of it done and then rest.

Most of you know that I write books, stories about my life. Those of you who have tried to write know that facing a blank page, paper or on your computer screen, can be intimidating. If you sit down with the idea that you could write about anything, just anything in the world, it’s a lot harder than if someone gives you some constraints. Writers use prompts. They might be character prompts, like you spin a wheel and get “wears his father’s fedora” and an additional one “blinks rapidly.” Then you put those together and write about that character. The guardrails give you a place to go.

There are lots of examples, and you will now begin to see them everywhere, of how constraints enhance creativity. Lots of us are now watching a show called “Next in Fashion,” where 18 designers compete to win 250,000 dollars. They aren’t just told “make something.” They must make a military inspired look, or a sportswear look, or make something completely out of denim. One of them realizes he doesn’t have enough of the material to make the pants he had in mind because he started with the top and used too much there. What’s he going to do? Make shorts? Use another kind of material? He has to make it work, and you can see his creativity sparking as he looks around in desperation.

Almost all of us have constraints. Children need constraints in order to grow up well. There used to be a stock market commercial that showed a bull out in a field by himself and the song said “To know no boundaries…” It sounded kind of awful. A bull with no boundaries is a dangerous animal. The psychologists say that to leave a child with no boundaries is the same as abandonment. We need boundaries in order to be kind, in order to be patient and generous. We need to know that we won’t be intruded upon, have our agency taken away, or have someone lean on us far more than we are able to bear. We have limitations thrust upon us, but we get to set limitations on friends and family as well. The relationships may flourish, or they may disappear as we say “You can’t talk to me like that.” Or “I’m happy for you to be in my home unless you’re drunk.” Or whatever is important to you.

Most of us don’t need artificial shake-ups. Just know that when the agitation comes, when you experience constraints, know that they may come bearing gifts. When they happen, you may just say to yourself “Making the butter, we’re just making the butter.”


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How not to break a horse

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Rev. Meg Barnhouse
February 2, 2020
First UU Church of Austin
4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756
www.austinuu.org

All Ages Service with our Annual Blessing of the Pets. There are several theories about how best to train horses and dogs. Might these theories work concerning humans as well?


Chalice Lighting

We light the fire of Truth and ask to be clear, wise, and humble enough to admit when we don’t know. We kindle the warmth of community and ask for open heartedness and patience. We are grateful to the Spirit of Life and ask to learn the secret to loving and being loved.

Call to Worship

A LITTLE PRINCESS
Frances Hodgson Burnett

How it is that animals understand things I do not know, but it is certain that they do understand. Perhaps there is a language which is not made of words, and everything in the world understands it. Perhaps there is a soul hidden in everything, and it can always speak, without even making a sound, to another soul.

Affirming Our Mission

Together we nourish souls, transform lives, and do justice to build the Beloved Community.

Meditation Reading

THE POWER OF NOW: A GUIDE TO SPIRITUAL ENLIGHTENMENT
Eckhart Tolle

Watch any plant or animal and let it teach you acceptance of what is, surrender to the Now.

Let it teach you Being.

Let it teach you integrity – which means to be one, to be yourself, to be real.

Let it teach you how to live and how to die, and how not to make living and dying into a problem.


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Salt

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Rev. Meg Barnhouse
Jamuary 26, 2020
First UU Church of Austin
4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756
www.austinuu.org

The second in the sermon series inspired by the elements of baking, we will talk about everything from the history of salt in the shaping of civilization to the Christian scriptures’ admonition to be the salt of the earth.


Chalice Lighting

We light the fire of Truth and ask to be clear, wise, and humble enough to admit when we don’t know. We kindle the warmth of community and ask for open heartedness and patience. We are grateful to the Spirit of Life and ask to learn the secret to loving and being loved.

Call to Worship

Israelmore Ayivor

Don’t be a pepper on the eyes of people; Rather be the salt on their tongue and make a difference that influences their sense of belonging to the earth.

Affirming Our Mission

Together we nourish souls, transform lives, and do justice to build the Beloved Community.

Meditation Reading

THE SWEETNESS OF SALT
Cecilia Galante

She reached for a tiny white dish on top of the stove. “Oops, and salt. I almost forgot salt.”

“Salt?” I wrinkled my nose, and then widened my eyes. “Is that your secret ingredient?”

Sophie laughed. “Salt isn’t a secret ingredient, doofus. Besides, you just add a pinch. Salt brings out all the flavors.” She paused. “It’s weird, isn’t it? How something so opposite of sweet can make things taste even better?” “How does it do that?” I asked.

“I don’t know,” Sophie answered. “It just kind of brings everything together in its own strange little way.

Sermon

A few years ago I read a book called “Glass Paper Beans.” The writer, Leah Hager Cohen, was sitting in a coffee shop drinking a glass of coffee, reading the newspaper. She found herself wondering where the coffee beans came from, and what the process was by which they came to this place. The glass, too. How is that made? And the paper…. It’s made from wood pulp, we all know, but how is the wood harvested? How is it made into paper? The book was interesting. Here, years later, I was baking baguettes, whose only ingredients are water, flour and salt, and I thought I didn’t know much about any of the elements of baking. Heat and Transformation was the first one, two weeks ago, and this past week I’ve been researching salt.

Since I was raised in the Christian church, one of the things that came to mind was Rabbi Jesus saying “you are the salt of the earth, but if the salt has lost its flavor, it is good for nothing but to be cast out and trampled underfoot.” This saying has never made sense to me because there is salt in the earth, but where there is salt in the soil nothing will grow there. Enemies used to salt the fields of the people they conquered to ruin their ability to live in that place any more. Salt of the earth doesn’t sound like a good thing. Also, salt doesn’t lose its saltiness. It’s salt. So it tastes salty. So I started reading about salt.

Where does it come from? Dry lake beds, salt flats, the ocean, and mines. In some mines, people go underground to chop it out of the eart, and in others, a well is dug, fresh water is forced down into a salt deposit, and when it comes back up it’s salty. Then they evaporate the water. Most kosher salt is sea salt. Much of our table salt comes from the wells that force water into the ancient oceans’ salt deposits.

In ancient China, the history of salt can be traced back over 6,000 years. Salt was such a valuable commodity that many battles were fought for control of the area and access to the dry lakes’ salt flats.

The first known Chinese treatise on pharmacology, the Peng-Tzao-Kan-Mu, written more than 4,700 years ago, lists over 40 different types of salt and their properties. It also describes methods of extracting it and preparing it for human consumption.

It was widely traded in pottery jars which, according to ‘The Archaeology of China’, served as a form of currency and ‘standard units of measure in the trade and distribution of salt’.

Maybe you have a pink salt lamp, or pink salt for cooking. Himalayan rock salt was first laid down more than 500 million years ago, the history of Himalayan rock salt starts with Alexander the Great in 326 BC. Alexander was recorded resting his army in the Khewra region of what is now northern Pakistan. His soldiers noticed their horses started to lick the salty rocks in the area, a small surface part of what is now known to be one of the world’s most extensive underground rock salt deposits.

Today, the Khewra salt mine in Pakistan is the second largest in the world and famous for producing culinary pink rock salt and Himalayan salt lamps. The Egyptian salt trade, especially with the Phoenicians and early Greek Empire, contributed significantly to the wealth and power of the Old and Middle kingdoms of ancient Egypt. Furthermore, the Egyptians were also one of the first cultures known to preserve their food with salt. Both meat, and particularly fish, were preserved by salting.

Salzburg, a city in Austria, translates to ‘salt city.’ It was also an important center of salt trade in ancient Europe. Today, the Hallstatt salt mine near Salzburg is still open and considered the world’s oldest operational salt mine.

In the Iron Age, the British evaporated salt by boiling seawater in small clay pots over open fires. Roman salt-making entailed boiling the seawater in large lead-lined pans. Salt was used as currency in ancient Rome, and the roots of the words “soldier” and “salary” can be traced to Latin words related to giving or receiving salt. During the Middle Ages, salt was transported along roads built especially for that purpose. One of the most famous of these roads is the Old Salt Route in Northern Germany, which ran from the salt mines to shipping ports.

Salt taxes and monopolies have led to wars and protests everywhere from China to parts of Africa. Anger over the salt tax was one of the causes of the French Revolution. In colonial India, only the British government could produce and profit from the salt production conducted by Indians living on the coast. Gandhi chose to protest this monopoly in March 1930 and marched for 23 days with his followers. When he arrived on the coast, Gandhi violated the law by boiling a chunk of salty mud. This march became known as the Salt March to Dandi, or the Salt Satyagraha. People across India began making their own salt in protest, and the march became an important milestone in the struggle for Indian independence.

Salt production also played a significant role in early America. The Massachusetts Bay Colony held the first patent to produce salt in the colonies and continued to produce it for the next 200 years. The Erie Canal was opened primarily to make salt transportation easier, Salt continues to be important to the economies of many states, including Ohio, Louisiana and Texas. Grand Saline is the saltiest town in Texas, and it has the Salt Palace to prove it. Calling the visitors’ center a palace may be stretching it, but the Northeast Texas town is literally sitting on a mountain of salt, 20,000 feet deep, left there when Texas was a sea bed. Apparently you can’t lick the court house, but you can lick city hall.

OK, so what does being the salt of the earth mean? Since one of salt’s earliest uses was to preserve food, which enabled people to travel, not as they had traveled before, to find more food, but for other reasons, to go somewhere, to visit someone, to go on a sales trip to sell the salted food, or pottery or jewelry or grain or animals or people to sell. Salt enabled travel and trade.

Old time preachers seized on this and said what Jesus meant was that people who followed him were supposed to be a force to prevent moral decay and moral corruption.

I would love for us to be a force to prevent moral decay and corruption. I don’t think I share their views of what moral decay looks like. I think it looks like people in cages, treated cruelly, for-profit prisons, pay-for-play politics, super-rich people facing a completely different justice system than the poor. That’s what looks like moral decay to me. And corruption? Most of the governments of the world run on it. So maybe that’s one meaning. The old rabbis said that every passage in the Jewish Scripture has at least 300,000 meanings, and I think the same is true of the Christian Scriptures.

I think about salt, and I think we come from the sea, there is salt in our blood, in our sweat, in our tears. If your body salt gets out of balance, you’re in trouble. In the hospital, you get a saline solution to restore your balance. Medicines are suspended in saline. You can help your cedar fever by squirting saline solution into your nostrils.

Another thing salt does is magnify the flavors of food. Your tongue has salt receptors along its sides, near your salivary glands, and close to the bitterness receptors. Sometimes you can put salt on something bitter, like coffee or grapefruit, and it occupies those taste buds so that it cuts the bitterness. A pinch of salt in cookies makes the sweetness deeper and more layered. You have to get just the right amount, though. They say, cooking pasta, that the water should be salted enough so that it tastes like the ocean. If you eat something that is less salted than you like it, it tastes bland and flat. If something is over-salted, it can be ruined. So, if you’re the salt of the earth, you have to spread that saltiness out. Too much salt of the earth on salt of the earth, it burns you. Tastes awful. How might salt “lose its savor?” By trying to stick to its own kind. Salt can’t salt salt.

Salt is essential for baking, for industry, for manufacturing, for preserving and cleansing and health. I still don’t really know what Rabbi Jesus meant, but here’s what I think today:

If we are salt of the earth we apparently need to spread out, to be about other people. If I’m sitting with you, and I’m in a good spiritual place, I’m going to be thinking “How can I enhance your flavors? How can I help you be a delight to this conversation, to yourself, to this group, to the planet?


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Spiritegrity

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Rev. Chris Jimmerson
January 19, 2020
First UU Church of Austin
4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756
www.austinuu.org

Remaining true to our whole selves, as well as our religious principles and values, is integral to practicing our faith and nourishing our spirits. Indeed, our integrity is a soul matter.


Chalice Lighting

We light the fire of Truth and ask to be clear, wise, and humble enough to admit when we don’t know. We kindle the warmth of community and ask for open heartedness and patience. We are grateful to the Spirit of Life and ask to learn the secret to loving and being loved.

Call to Worship

We, the member congregations of the Unitarian Universalist Association, covenant to affirm and promote:

  • The inherent worth and dignity of every person;
  • Justice, equity, and compassion in human relations; Acceptance of one another and encouragement to spiritual growth in our congregations;
  • A free and responsible search for truth and meaning;
  • The right of conscience and the use of the democratic process within our congregations and in society at large;
  • The goal of world community with peace, liberty, and justice for all;
  • Respect for the interdependent web of all existence of which we are a part.

Affirming Our Mission

Together we nourish souls, transform lives, and do justice to build the Beloved Community.

Meditation Reading

KITCHEN TABLE WISDOMĀ Rachel Naomi Remen

Wholeness is never lost, it is only forgotten. Integrity rarely means that we need to add something to ourselves; it is more an undoing than a doing, a freeing ourselves from beliefs we have about who we are and ways we have been persuaded to “fix” ourselves to know who we genuinely are. Even after many years of seeing, thinking, and living one way, we are able to reach past all that to claim our integrity and live in a way we may never have expected to live.

Being with peiple at such times is like waching them pat their pockets trying to remember where they have put their soul. Often in reclaiming the freedom to be who we are we remember some basic human quality, an unsusptected capacity for love or compassion or some other part of our common birthright as hman beings. What we find is allmost always a surpirse but it is also familiar like something we have put in the back of a drawer, lost long ago. Once we see we know it as our own.

Sermon

Lately, I have been remembering again the sometimes nightmarish time some of you have heard me talk about before – the earlier days of AIDS, when we had no effective treatments for HIV, nor for the many, often fatal infections associated with it.

During those times, I was working as the director of a non-profit that tried to bring clinical trials of potential treatments for HIV and these associated infections, to folks struggling with these HIV in our community.

Our purpose in expanding these studies beyond academic settings and into community clinics was twofold.

First, we wanted to get more people enrolled into them more quickly so that the science could advance more quickly. Secondly, we wanted to provide access to these potentially effective, experimental treatments, to folks for whom there were no good treatment options and who faced dire and often imminent consequences. That’s a euphemism for “they were dying”.

Our folks who were so desperate to get into one of these studies and our doctors often faced a difficult dilemma though.

Clinical research studies have inclusion criteria – a list of medical and other conditions one must meet to be included in the study. They also have exclusion criteria, which is a list of conditions that prevent a person from enrolling.

There are good reasons for these criteria involving the scientific study design, as well as patient safety concerns.

Too often however, the entry criteria for the studies were unnecessarily stringent. This was most often due to an overly cautious Food and Drug Administration, not used to dealing with so many people in such a desperate situation.

So, were our patients to bend the rules, hide parts of their medical history that might exclude them?

Were our physicians, who might suspect or even know, to have looked the other way? Would doing so risk the validity of the study results?

Would these folks and these physicians be acting with integrity if they bent these unreasonable and unjust rules?

I can tell you that they did. People were desperate. People’s live were at stake.

Eventually, this became such an issue nationwide that the entry criteria for studies began to get loosened.

The FDA also began allowing large, open access trials. These were generally just safety studies that had very flexible criteria to allow many more people to enroll.

Open access studies became a model that is still used today for cancer and other life-threatening diseases.

I particularly remember one of the physicians who provided care for some of our sickest, hospitalized folks.

So often, the drugs available for treating their life-threatening, HIV-associated infections were simply failing.

This physician kept up on all of the most recent science on treating such infections and would often know of compound treatments – mixtures of several drugs administered at once – that were showing great promise.

The problem was though, that these compounded drugs were most often not available in our area, even through clinical trials, and the pharmacist at the hospital refused to do the compounding to create them.

Understandably – the pharmacist could have lost their license by doing so and it would have quite possibly been, oh a little illegal.

So this physician would sneak down to the pharmacy at night, mix the compound treatment themself, and then take it up to their patient’s room and administer it themself, no nurses involved.

And time after time after time, though not every time, but so, so many times, their patients survived because of it.

It worked. They lived, at least for a while longer.

And yet, there were also unknown safety risks – potential interactions between such compounded drugs that could have caused possibly severe side-effects.

And it was, as I said, probably at least testing the boundaries of legality.

Was this acting with integrity? I’ve been reminded of all of this by the current, hellish situation at our border and within our immigration catastrophe that pretends to be a just system.

Immigrants and their advocates face unjust laws, unjust interpretation and administration of laws – sometimes just outright lawbreaking by a bigoted and racist administration.

Recently, the federal government tried twice to send one of our fellow Unitarian Universalists to prison simply for giving water to migrants trying to cross the desert. I’m pleased to say the Feds failed.

And so immigrants in desperate situations, sometimes at threat for their very lives, and their supporters, are choosing to defy these immigration laws in some cases.

And yet, then the administration and the forces of hate take examples of these cases and exaggerate them to paint all immigrants as criminals and law breakers.

So, is breaking a law we consider unjust acting with integrity? Who gets to decide which laws are just and which are not?

My friends, I can tell you that my perspective is that in both the cases of people with HIV and their doctors breaking the rules and the actions of immigrants and their supporters, I believe that they were acting with profound integrity.

Human lives were and are at stake.

I believe that all of these folks reached down to where a deep well of integrity resided within them, and, faced with no good choices, made the most live-giving, the most soul affirming decision available to them.

They brought pockets of wholeness into broken and morally incoherent systems that were shattering people’s lives.

This month, as a religious community, we are exploring what it means to be a people of integrity.

I wanted to start this morning by revisiting that time when the AIDS epidemic left us with such difficult choices – to lift up the immigration atrocity we are witnessing now to illustrate how sometimes living with integrity is not so easy.

I think sometimes when it comes to integrity, we can tend to take this Dudley Doright approach of “just do the right thing”, when, in fact it is much more complicated than that.

Our word, integrity, stems from the latin “integer”, meaning whole and complete.

As in mathematics, wherein an integer is a number that is not divided into fractions, integrity implies that we are not divided – our actions, speech and methods are consistent with our core self, our values, our aspirations.

And this wholeness helps us to maintain our integrity even when the ethical choices we face are complex and unclear.

This more nuanced conceptualization of integrity, I believe, has profound implications for us, both as individuals and as communities.

At the individual level, author, educator and advocate, Parker Palmer, writes that integrity comes when we get in touch with our very soul.

Now, “soul” can simply mean the essence of who we are; the person we were born to be; though for some of us it may have mystical implications also.

Parker writes of observing the birth of his first grandchild, “What I saw was clear and simple: my granddaughter arrived on earth as this kind of person, rather than that, or that, or that … we are born with a seed of selfhood that contains the spiritual DNA of our uniqueness, an encoded birthright knowledge of who we are, why we are here, and how we are related to others. We may abandon that knowledge as the years go by, but it never abandons us.”

For Parker, we can sometimes get separated from our truest self because of fear, societal pressures and the like. So, regaining our integrity means reintegrating our souls, embracing that at our core we are enough.

Now, embracing that we are enough as who we are, imperfections and all, while at the same time embracing that most of us have a desire to I grow and improve can seem like a paradox.

There are two thing that I think can help move this from Paradox to a sort of both land conceptualization.

Dr. Brene Brown, author and social science researcher, encourages us to approach other people with the assumption that they are doing the best they can with the tools they have.

I think we can offer ourselves this same grace. If I am doing the best I can with the tools I have, then my efforts at self improvement can be seen not so much as changing who I am but as learning new tools for maintaining wholeness and integrity.

I think also, we tend to think of growth as always being about adding something new. However, quite often becoming more whole involves letting go of something harmful or unearthing some part of ourselves we have lost.

Here is another really cool both and acting with integrity will nourish our souls and help us be whole … AND nourishing our souls through spiritual practices and engaging in faithful community will fortify our integrity when we face difficult situations such as I was describing earlier.

I now pause for our Sunday moment of harping on the importance of spiritual practices as promised in a sermon a couple of weeks ago.

I want to return to this idea of growth often involving unearthing something we have lost.

I think for those of us who have experienced having our identity marginalized, this can be an especially important aspect of wholeness and claiming our integrity.

Actress America Ferrera, whom you may know from the movie, “Real Women have Curves” or the TV series, “Ugly Betty” has a Ted Talk called, “My Identity is My Superpower”.

In it she speaks of dreaming of becoming an actress every since she was a nine year old girl who would dance around the den of her house.

She tells of going to her first professional audition, and being asked, “Can you read the part again but sound more hispanic?”

She describes how even after having found success, she still faced casting stereotyping and being turned down for roles because, quote “you look too latino”.

She says she even began to straighten her hair, tried to loose weight, avoided the sun so her skin would not turn so brown.

Finally, she had gotten cast in a movie with a Latinx character but was told her casting could not be announced until the white lead character got cast because the movie would sell better if the white person was announced first.

She had an epiphany. She was no longer going to change herself into something she wasn’t. She was going to reclaim her true identity and work to change the system instead. Here she is describing this altered perspective.

VIDEO

I want to close by holding up that this wholeness that is so vital to our being able to live with integrity as individuals is also crucial for us as a religious community.

Our integrity as a religious community comes alive when we get in touch with the core of our faith: when we live according to those principles we read together earlier, when our ways of being are whole, consonant with the values this church has expressed – transcendence, community, compassion, courage, transformation.

I think that do to that, we have to keep our principles and values in front of us, keep them explicit in our hearts and minds.

That’s why I support the proposed 8th principle – it takes something essential to the integrity of our faith that is implicit in our other principles and makes it explicit.

And my beloveds, we face a heavy challenge in these days in which we currently live, because we cannot be consistent with our principles and values, unless we speak out and take action against the gross human rights abuses of our current administration.

We cannot claim our integrity as a religious community unless we rise up to counter with love the emboldenment of hate groups and increased hate crimes they are committing against folks who are already marginalized.

I don’t use terms like “alt right” or “white nationalists” or even “white supremacists” because those are euphemisms that soften what is at the core of these groups.

So, to know what we are really up against, I believe we must call them what they are – hate groups, even while we must resist returning the hate.

I know none of us can do all. We cannot all participate in all the rallies and marches, make all the phone calls, sign all the petitions, do all the visits with congress critters and all the things.

We can all do what we can though. Spend one day registering folks to vote, give what we can to those who are doing the work of the revolution, make what call we can help our children understand what living with integrity in the world looks like for our faith.

And this is an election year, so what’s one thing we can all do come November?

That’s right – vote! And encourage others to vote and help get folks to the polls if you have the time and ability. Parker Palmer says that to be whole, we need trustworthy relationships and tenacious communities of support.

That’s part of why I love serving this congregation so much.

I believe you are just such a trustworthy, tenacious community of support and integrity.

Amen


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Heat and Transformation

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Rev. Meg Barnhouse
January 12, 2020
First UU Church of Austin
4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756
www.austinuu.org

The first in a sermon series inspired by the elements of baking. Sometimes transformation takes heat, it takes trouble, agitation or discomfort. We will have just finished two days of talking about our religious education program with an interim facilitator. Telling stories from the past can turn up the heat, but as in baking, the results can be something nourishing.


Chalice Lighting

We light the fire of Truth and ask to be clear, wise, and humble enough to admit when we don’t know. We kindle the warmth of community and ask for open heartedness and patience. We are grateful to the Spirit of Life and ask to learn the secret to loving and being loved.

Affirming Our Mission

Together we nourish souls, transform lives, and do justice to build the Beloved Community.

Meditation Reading

Clarissa Pinkola Estes

Ours is not the task of fixing the entire world all at once, but of stretching out to mend the parts of the world that is within our reach… One of the most calming and powerful actions you can do to intervene in a stormy world is to stand up and show your soul. Soul on deck shines like gold in dark times. The light of the soul throws sparks, sends up flares, builds signal fires,…

Sermon

HEAT AND TRANSFORMATION

One of my spiritual practices is baking bread on Fridays or Saturdays. I love the smell of the yeast starting to come alive, the feel of the dough as I knead it and braid it, and the way it makes the house smell when it is baking. Yeast and bread are an upcoming sermon. Today it’s heat. And transformation. We all “feel the heat” sometimes, and it can change us, and we’ve all seen that transformation can be for the better, for the worse, or it’s hard to tell.

In cooking and baking, you are conjuring transformation. A set of ingredients comes together and then, with the application of heat, they become something completely different. The ancient Celts talked about the cauldron of the goddess Ceridwen. When you were in trouble, when you were sick, when you died, you were in Ceridwen’s cauldron, being boiled up into something else. A lot of the time things are going well. You have your job. You have some money. Your body’s working pretty well. Then life throws in some heat. You’re in the cauldron. You’re in the heat, in the stove. How do you hold up?

When you read about stress, the consensus seems to be that people need some stress, we need to rise to a challenge. We sign ourselves up for marathons, or 5k runs. We take classes, we set ourselves songwriting challenges or start new businesses. We take on a big project like dating someone with the goal of changing them. We know that it’s going to be stressful, but we enjoy the challenge.

My dad used to teach at the Institute for the Achievement of Human Potential, casually known as the Better Baby Institute. He learned that making the surfaces babies crawled on too soft didn’t lead to as much development as letting them get scuffed up a little by crawling on burlap. Even babies need challenges. My mother wouldn’t let us have Lysol in the house, because she said that killing germs led to the deterioration of building immunities, and she thought our immune systems needed challenging. She taught second grade, and was not a scientist with any credential whatsoever, and she was not in love with house cleaning. She’d grown up in India playing with dried cow patties in the village, and thought American obsessions with cleanliness were misguided. That was possibly a self-justifying theory!

In England and Europe the new thought is that playgrounds should be slightly dangerous, that children need to learn to navigate risk and danger. If children never have to navigate risk, learn how far it is from the monkey bars to the ground, if we always run up to catch them, they won’t learn some crucial things. Intermittent challenges are called good stress. You rise to it, or you learn something, or you fail. And learn something. Failure throws you into the cauldron, with a chance for transformation.

Sometimes the challenge goes on and on. You are living with someone whose way of doing things is a continuing misery for you, and they can’t or won’t change. You are working for a boss whose way of doing and being makes your life a misery, and they can’t or won’t change. This leads to what they call chronic stress, which transforms people like being left in the oven at 350 for ten hours would affect your dinner. In chronic stress, we get left in the oven too long. Or we leave ourselves in the oven too long. We even say “I’m burned out.” “I’m crispy.”

When the pressure is on, our centeredness becomes crucial. When someone is throwing clay on a potter’s wheel, they try to slap that mound of clay right in the center of the wheel. It takes practice and skill. If the clay isn’t centered, when you put the pressure on, when the spinning starts and you press your hands into the clay and start trying to shape it into a pot, it begins to wobble wildly. You have to scrape it off the wheel and start over. Our spiritual practices, our learning from our experience, our support system are what can center us.

We’ve been talking about spiritual practices. Kelly has articles about them on the Religious Education table. Chris and Lee talked about their personal practices at the end of December. Then we all did the practice of burning the old year in the burning bowl last Sunday. It can be our spiritual practices that help us, when the heat is turned up, to be transformed in a good way rather than transformed in a destructive way.

What makes heat for transformation? Anger is heat, indicating that your boundaries have been violated. How do you work with that heat to transform your situation? Desire is heat, when you want something very much and point yourself in that direction. The need to live authentically can make enough heat to lead people to come out as gay, even though that adds to trouble in their lives, or leads people to transition in their understanding of or presentation of their gender, inviting lots of concern from people around them. The desire to live authentically can lead people out of one career into another, or from one relationship to another.

When we feel the heat, we are in the cauldron. The chance of transformation is here. What do you do? You first say to yourself: I’m feeling the heat. This is a hot situation. What next?

The best thing to do, if you can, is to take yourself away and out of the stress from time to time. That is the way to keep it from being chronic. Learn to relax. As my counseling mentor used to say, “Don’t just do something, stand there!”

Celebrate your victories. Have a birthday party even if the eviction notice is on the door.

Take things day by day. Be grateful for what’s good. Change what you can. Ask for help, not to fix everything, but for someone to sit with you in the heat, the way the wise person does with those in their sweat lodge.

I would want a smooth life for you, with no trouble and no pain. That wouldn’t be the best for you, though. May we find a way to be in the heat and come out on the other side transformed with more compassion, more heart, and more understanding.


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The Burning Bowl

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Rev. Meg Barnhouse
January 5, 2020
First UU Church of Austin
4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756
www.austinuu.org

Is it possible to let go of grudges? Is it a good idea? We take things that we want to let go of from 2019 and we give them to the Burning Bowl. Then, from a second bowl, we will draw a word which can inform our intentions for the new year.


Chalice Lighting

We light the fire of Truth and ask to be clear, wise, and humble enough to admit when we don’t know. We kindle the warmth of community and ask for open heartedness and patience. We are grateful to the Spirit of Life and ask to learn the secret to loving and being loved.

Call to Worship

By Maya Angelou

My mission in life is not merely to survive, but to thrive, and to do so with some passion, compassion, some humor, and some style.

Affirming Our Mission

Together we nourish souls, transform lives, and do justice to build the Beloved Community.

Meditation Reading

BURNING THE OLD YEAR
Naomi Shihab Nye

Letters swallow themselves in seconds.
Notes friends tied to the doorknob,
transparent scarlet paper,
sizzle like moth wings,
marry the air.

So much of any year is flammable,
lists of vegetables, partial poems.
Orange swirling flame of days,
so little is a stone.

Where there was something and suddenly isn’t,
an absence shouts, celebrates, leaves a space.
I begin again with the smallest numbers.

Quick dance, shuffle of losses and leaves,
only the things I didn’t do
crackle after the blazing dies.

Sermon Reading

By Ralph Waldo Emerson

Write it on your heart
that every day is the best day in the year.

He is rich who owns the day, and no one owns the day
who allows it to be invaded with fret and anxiety.
Finish every day and be done with it.
You have done what you could.

Some blunders and absurdities, no doubt crept in.
Forget them as soon as you can: tomorrow is a new day;
begin it well and serenely, with too high a spirit
to be cumbered with your old nonsense.

This new day is too dear,
with its hopes and invitations,
to waste a moment on the yesterdays.


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2020 Sermon Index

2020 Sermons

Sermon Topic
Author
Date
 Guidance  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
12-27-20
 2020 Christmas Pageant  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
12-20-20
 A Moving Stillness  Rev. Chris Jimmerson
12-13-20
 What’s so Funny ’bout Peace, Love, and Understanding  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
12-06-20
 Poetry as Meditation  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
11-29-20
 Healing does not equal Cure  Rev. Chris Jimmerson
11-22-20
 Falling in love with what is  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
11-15-20
 Science, Imagination, and Magic  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
11-08-20
 All Souls  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
11-01-20
 American Civil Religion  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
10-25-20
 Deep Listening  Rev. Chris Jimmerson
10-18-20
 Lessons from the Garden  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
10-11-20
 Have smaller fights  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
10-04-20
 Forgiveness  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
09-27-20
 Celebration Sunday  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
09-20-20
 Rest, Renew, Reimagine  Rev. Chris Jimmerson
09-13-20
 Be a stream and not a swamp  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
09-06-20
 Balancing Acts  Rev. Chris Jimmerson
08-30-20
 Chalice Circles: Deepening Connection  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
08-23-20
 Radicals v Respectables  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
08-16-20
 Using your Anger, Holding on to your Hope  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
08-09-20
 Question Box Sermon  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
08-02-20
 Creative Durability  Rev. Chris Jimmerson
07-26-20
 Stoic Spiritual Survival  Lee Legault
07-19-20
 Youth Service  Senior Youth Group
07-12-20
 Blessed. Be Blessed  Rev. Chris Jimmerson
07-05-20
 Big Gay Sunday  Kye Flannery
06-28-20
 Living Our Values  Rev. Chris Jimmerson
06-21-20
 The History of American Policing  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
06-14-20
 Useful Ignorance and Beginner’s Mind  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
06-07-20
 Flower Communion  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
05-31-20
 Navigating the Thresholds  Rev. Chris Jimmerson
05-24-20
 Living with Brain Trauma  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
05-17-20
 All will be well – Really?  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
05-10-20
 Punk Theology  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
05-03-20
 Prayer when no one is listening  Bear Qolezcua
04-26-20
 Liberation through letting go  Rev. Chris Jimmerson
04-19-20
 A Trip to the Underworld  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
04-12-20
 Losing My Religion  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
04-05-20
 A vision for this time  Rev. Chris Jimmerson
03-29-20
 Social Distance, not Spiritual Distance  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
03-22-20
 The Grief Bible  Bear Qolezcua
03-15-20
 Awakening Our Wisdom  Rev. Chris Jimmerson
03-08-20
 Two Parables of the Beloved Community  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
03-01-20
 Graceful Resilience  Rev. Chris Jimmerson
02-23-20
 Sugar: What is enough?  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
02-16-20
 Milk and Butter: Creativity within constraints  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
02-09-20
 How not to break a horse  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
02-02-20
 Salt  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
01-26-20
 Spiritegrity  Rev. Chris Jimmerson
01-19-20
 Heat & Transformation  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
01-12-20
 The Burning Bowl  Rev. Meg Barnhouse
01-05-20

Sermon Archives

Sermon Indexes by Year
Principal Speaker
 2020 Sermon Index Meg Barnhouse, Chris Jimmerson
 2019 Sermon Index Meg Barnhouse, Chris Jimmerson, Lee Legault
 2018 Sermon Index Meg Barnhouse, Chris Jimmerson
 2017 Sermon Index Meg Barnhouse, Chris Jimmerson, Susan Yarbrough
 2016 Sermon Index Meg Barnhouse, Chris Jimmerson, Marisol Caballero
 2015 Sermon Index Meg Barnhouse, Marison Caballero
 2014 Sermon Index Meg Barnhouse, Marisol Caballero
 2013 Sermon Index Meg Barnhouse, Marisol Caballero
 2012 Sermon Index Meg Barnhouse, Marisol Caballero
 2011 Sermon Index Meg Barnhouse, Ed Brock
 2010 Sermon Index Janet Newman, Ed Brock,
 2009 Sermon Index Janet Newman
 2008 Sermon Index Davidson Loehr, Aaron White, Brian Ferguson
 2007 Sermon Index Davidson Loehr, Jack Harris Bonham
 2006 Sermon Index Davidson Loehr, Jack Harris Bonham
 2005 Sermon Index Davidson Loehr, Jack Harris Bonham
 2004 Sermon Index Davidson Loehr, Victoria Shepherd Rao
 The Jesus Seminar Davidson Loehr
 2003 Sermon Index Davidson Loehr, Hannah Wells
 2002 Sermon Index Davidson Loehr, Cathy Herringson
 2001 Sermon Index Davidson Loehr
 2000 Sermon Index Davidson Loehr