Father-Functions

© Davidson Loehr

June 18, 2006

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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PRAYER

We give thanks for fathers. For those men who have had the character and courage to grow through the tough transition from manhood to fatherhood, we give thanks.

For our own fathers, whether or not we think they were the best fathers or not, we give thanks. We would not be here without them. And at their time, in their shoes, they almost certainly did the best they could.

We give thanks for fathers who have never met their offspring but have not forgotten them. And for those men who wanted to be fathers but could not.

We open our hearts to fathers who have lost children – to chance events, disease, accidents, to war. We open our hearts.

For all the many ways in which men grow from manhood to fatherhood, we give thanks for fathers on this Fathers’ Day.

Amen.

SERMON: Father-Functions

When I was preparing to do the Mother’s Day sermon last month, I posted an invitation on the parents’ list for mothers to join me for lunch. All together I met with or talked to about fifteen women who were eager to share their thoughts, frustrations and suggestions on motherhood. Men are different. I posted the same invitation, but only three men responded, so we had lunch together, then I checked the Internet for articles and tips on fatherhood. If you Google the word “fatherhood,” you can turn up over six million sites.

The talks with the men were very different from those with the women. The women were often concerned with losing their Self, as motherhood defined them in a job without pay, without promotions, and without much recognition from society, or from other mothers.

The men talked about duties, tasks, functions. They still worked, and still had their professional Self, so were focusing on adding to it whatever new duties were involved in fatherhood. We even discussed, and agreed, that it’s about learning new functions.

This sounds radically different from what mothers want, but it isn’t. It’s just the way men approach the subject. All, I found – and almost all the books, written advice and tips I found – are after the same thing. They all stress how hard it is, how it has to be learned, nobody will master parenting, everyone must allow themselves to fail, to feel their way through, and to forgive themselves for not being perfect. All stress the need for more and better communication between the parents, so they can grow through this transition together.

But men seem to think more in terms of tips, how-to guides, and functions. That doesn’t mean they’re unfeeling. When I asked what the best thing about fatherhood was, every father talked about the amazing relationship with his child, and every father teared up while speaking about it, as I still do when talking about my step-daughters.

The transition from manhood to fatherhood is one of the hardest men will ever face, and not all couples can make it through the tough times ahead. One study says that one of the most likely times for a marriage to fall apart is following the birth of the first baby, when almost 70 percent of couples reported a decrease in marital happiness. (Naomi Wolf, Misconceptions, p. 227) That’s also one of the several reasons that 39% of children in the US now live apart from their father. It’s hard.

And men don’t often get much credit for being good fathers, just as mothers don’t get much support from others. But for men there’s sometimes the added edge – or insult – that somehow being fathers is an optional activity. One mother told me a story about her husband, who is a devoted father, and looks forward to the days when he can take their daughter to the store to shop. What irritates him – and I suspect hurts him – is when women come up to him at the store, as they often do, saying “Looks like you got stuck baby-sitting!” When it’s your own child, it isn’t baby-sitting: it’s fathering.

But since men approach this differently, I want to frame it differently this morning. I want to talk in terms of tasks, tests, functions, and tips for fathers. And I want to say that this transformation from manhood to fatherhood is a kind of modern hero’s quest, and it fits the structure of mythic hero’s quests in almost every detail.

You’re in a wilderness, a strange new land, and you need help. You need more than the tools of a bachelor or a newlywed. And there is a fear that you can’t do this, won’t know how to slay the dragons that men must slay in their hero quests.

In mythic hero quests, heroes get help from gods, guides, mentors, and the wise people who are always a part of the stories. In the Star Wars movies, this was the role played by Yoda and Obi Wan Kenobe. In the Lord of the Rings, it was Gandalf and the elves. You need to know you’re not alone, and that you can do this. In the real world of learning to become fathers, the costumes aren’t as colorful, but there are still some special helpers and wise people. It may be your own parents, or special mentors you’ve known.

But in the Internet age, you can also pull up about six million websites just by Googling the word “fatherhood.” Almost all of the sites on fathering I checked are written by men, for men. Therapists, counselors, speakers bureaus, even a Christian man who homeschools his own seven children and speaks to your group for $1500 plus expenses, providing Bible citations as he goes.

There are sites with tips, how-to advice, one with Ten Tips for Fathers that even sells T-shirts with the tips on them. There’s a site of Tool Box Tips, and the Army has websites with tips for fathers, taken from some of the tool-box sites, telling them to take care of themselves, work with their wife to redefine their relationship as parents, to forgive themselves for not being natural or perfect at this, assuring them that they can learn everything they need to know, it’s within their reach..

Not all those who give advice are wise, just as great myths are dotted with tricksters and demons. But many of them are. And I was struck by the fact that men talk about this hero’s quest in very different ways than women authors write for mothers.

Men are being helped to “build” a new persona, one with increased communication, creating a new relationship with their partners, in a functional, step-by-step way. They want tips on what to do: tools.

And one advisor, a pediatrician who calls himself Dr. Bill, adds this very male bit of advice: “Watching a man nurture a baby really turns on a woman.” This sounds just like men talking, doesn’t it? But when I talked with the mothers, they said one of the sexiest things their husband could do was help with the baby or do the dishes. Same message, different style.

The notion of a hero’s quest came from Joseph Campbell’s 1949 book, The Hero With a Thousand Faces. A hero ventures forth from the world of common day into a region of supernatural wonder: fabulous forces are there encountered and a decisive victory is won: the hero comes back from this mysterious adventure as a larger, more deeply authentic man. (Hero, p. 30)

This comes through the hero’s trials and tests, including the important trial of slaying dragons. What are dragons? They’re symbols of his fears, his past, his present world that must be transcended in order to grow into his deeper, more heroic stature: to grow from manhood into fatherhood.

The dragons to slay are tough dragons, as we’ll see. And scary.

But he doesn’t have to do it alone. As in classic myths, there are these helpers and guides, if he’ll look for them. There are the modern Yodas, Obi Wan Kenobes, elves and Gandalfs all around. By the way, there are over nine million sites if you Google “Gandalf,” and almost fifteen million for Yoda, the wise master of the Force and teacher of Jedi knights. I’m betting the overwhelming majority of the people who visit those sites are men.

Nearly all of the modern Gandalfs, Yodas and elves I read wrote in man-talk. Tips, how-to advice, what to do next, with constant reminders that they don’t have to be perfect, or even in charge. I don’t know that a man could make it through this transition without the help of some modern Merlins.

But the effect, the change, isn’t just functional. It is building a bigger character and a bigger man; it really is a hero’s quest, and it is transformative.

So I want to take you on this adventure, a hero’s quest, through the first twelve months of fatherhood. (Much of the following is taken or adapted from www.fathersforum.com, by Dr. Bruce Linton). There are functions to learn, and also a few dragons to slay along the way.

One of our Gandalf therapists begins by telling us that when the woman becomes pregnant with their first child, “There is good news and bad news. The bad news is the relationship can never go back to the way it used to be. The good news is with time and patience your relationships as a couple can become more intimate and satisfying.”

Men don’t like to ask for directions in fathering much more than they do in driving, because we”ve all been raised to believe that we’re supposed to be in charge, and that weakness is unmanly and unsexy. We’re afraid we won’t be able to do this. But there is research that shows that whichever parent spends the most time with the baby will become more sensitive to the baby’s needs. So it’s something we can learn. And men will need to learn some of it from their wife, which means scheduling times to talk this strange new world over with their wife, so they can go through this together. That’s like talking about feelings and intimate things. Ask any man: that’s a dragon to slay, and a tough one! It’s almost never the dinner conversation we would choose.

An Obi Wan Kenobe says, “We need to know we can’t be expected to know how to do everything. Allow yourself to work as a team with your partner on this adventure as parents. Teamwork is the key to getting through this first year.” I think all the women authors on mothering would agree.

Then right off the bat in the first month, dear little Yoda says “Do not, by what you don’t know, embarrassed be.” And Obi Wan Kenobe translates it as “Give yourselves permission not to know everything.” This advice often takes the place of swordsmanship lessons in medieval hero myths. These are the tools and functions we need to hone for these tasks.

Others say during the first month, learn how to comfortably hold your baby. See that you have a comfortable rocking chair for your wife to nurse the baby in – there’s a real “guy” thing to do! Also, says Gandalf, you can help your wife by cooking suppers. And don’t be embarrassed by what you don’t know.

In the second month, continue to hold your baby as much as possible. Find time when you can be with your baby without distractions. And with your wife, the two of you together give your baby a bath. Talk about what your baby seems to need to make him comfortable getting washed. Tell your wife what you appreciate about her “mothering.” Find time when you can take the baby and she can take time just for herself.

And try to find other new dads to talk with about the transition to parenthood.

During the third month, Yoda says, “Exhausted are you. Normal it is.” New dads need to recognize how emotionally weary they have become making all the adjustments to their new life style.

“I remember,” a therapist-father confesses, “feeling when we went out as a family; it was my wife, our baby and their pack animal, me…carrying all the stuff we now needed to take with us.”

What can you do during the third month? Take a walk together as a family. See if you can have the baby in a “front pack” that is on you. And talk with your wife about each of you getting twenty minutes to yourselves in the evening. Find time to walk with the baby by yourself. Use this time to appreciate how by caring for your baby you are making a very important contribution to her life. And see if you can leave work ten or fifteen minutes early and have a cup of coffee or tea by yourself. Take care of yourself.

During the fourth month, says Obi Wan Kenobe, you start to notice that there is a change in your sexual relationship with your wife. It is very normal for this to happen. So, if your wife feels sexually withdrawn but too concerned about your baby…things are going well!

Maybe it’s easier to hear Yoda talk about this: “Intimacy must more than sex be,” he says. “For many new dads the early months of fatherhood provide a challenge to expand their feelings about intimacy. Many new dads find it difficult to talk about sexuality with their wives. “I encourage you,” says Obi Wan Kenobe, “to talk about the sexuality in your relationship with your wife. As you go through life as a parent and adult there may be many conversations you have with your wife about the changing sexuality in your relationship.”

Now in case you hadn’t noticed, this is a huge Dragon! Redefining intimacy to expand it beyond the fireworks of courtship and early marriage is one of the hardest and most mature things for men to learn. It is hard for men to talk about. It will take a platoon of Yodas, Obi Wan Kenobe”s, Gandalfs and elves, because it’s not easy. It is probably the biggest dragon out there.

And then take time to get a message and sauna, say the elves. Take a walk with a friend and let him know what you have discovered about being a father.

Another fact to know is that during the first year of parenthood it is usual for a new father to reflect on how he was raised by his own father. Sometimes this is enjoyable; sometimes, it brings up other old dragons to wrestle with.

In the fifth month, Gandalf says, “Find 5 minutes a day to talk about how the day went for your wife and you. And you might plan a video “film festival.” You might enjoy comedies about family life, right about this time.”

In the sixth month, talk with your wife about the different “styles” of parenting you experienced as children. Conclude your discussion with a commitment to work out the way you will work as a team, together, in the family you have started. Or as Yoda puts it, “Better than one are two.”

Ask your wife to talk with you about what she loves and hates about being a mother for the first six months. Share the positive and negatives you have learned about fatherhood. More talking. This often seems unnatural, growing into a new and different role.

Then the elves say to make sure you are eating well and exercising. It is important to take care of your health and exercising will reduce stress. Stay active in your baby’s care; give him a bath, put him to sleep, Notice how you feel after you have done these.

The seventh month begins with this advice from Yoda: “To yourself kind be. Forget this not!”

The therapist says to find a Sunday morning to go out to breakfast and have a leisurely time together. Then come here to church. OK, I added that last part.

Find a baby sitter so you can be alone for at least two hours a week. Make sure that both you and your wife are getting time alone. You each need time to recharge.

At eight months, Obi Wan Kenobe says, you recognize how time consuming it is to have a baby. If you’re really quick, you may have noticed this earlier. Talk with your partner about what you feel are the biggest adjustments you each have to make as parents. See what you’re doing here? You’re learning to make this new role, the fatherhood role, learn to talk and relate to your partner in her new role as mother.

And take care of yourself. Are there one or two friends that you haven’t talked with in a while? Call them up and let them know how having a young baby makes “free” time or “hanging-out” very difficult. Reassure them that you are still their friend and ask them to understand that being a father is a big adjustment.

In the ninth month, the elves say to take a look at your body in the mirror. Are you taking care of yourself?

This is a dragon to slay, too: not to lose yourself in your role as father.

A tenth month tip is to take turns “sleeping-in” to try and keep up on your rest.

During the eleventh month, you are preparing for the conclusion of the hero’s quest, when you have redefined yourself as a father, and you and your wife have redefined your relationship as both parents and lovers. You may need to make time to see if you and your wife can quit being parents for a few hours each week and be a couple again, and get the habit started.

Moving back into a “couples relationship,” is the task of the eleventh month of fatherhood. You have defined yourselves around your child’s needs and now it is important to begin to look at your relationships not just as parents but as partners too. See if you can take the lead and ask your partner how she wants the two of you to grow as a couple as you approach your first year of parenting.

See if you and your wife can find a weekly activity to do together. Something that you can continue over time and that you both look forward to.

Begin to think about you baby’s first birthday and what friends you want to be there for you!

As the twelfth month begins, plan the first birthday party, and see that your baby’s first birthday is as much a celebration for you and your wife as for him. Gandalf says the first year of fatherhood is the most profound change you have gone through as a man. There have been many changes, you, your wife, and baby have gone through over the last year.

At the end of the hero’s quest, I want to go back to Joseph Campbell. “Wherever a hero has been born,” he writes, “the place is marked and sanctified. A temple is erected there”.” For this is the place where a man became a hero by slaying the dragons of his smaller self and helped give birth to a larger soul: a soul big enough to hold the new functions, and the new love. (Hero With a Thousand Faces, p.43)

What does becoming a hero mean? It’s the task, as Campbell put it, “of making it possible for men and women to come to full human maturity through the conditions of contemporary life.” (Hero, p. 388)

The birth of a baby floods a mother and father with many new tasks, sometimes overwhelming them. The role of fatherhood seldom comes easily for a man. He must learn these new functions, build a bigger Self, learn to build a bigger kind of relationship with his partner.

But it isn’t about mechanics. It’s about building a bigger home for the spirit of life. It’s about building a soul big enough to hold the new love that grows with the birth of a child – the love that moves men to tears, even trying to talk about it.

A bachelor, a regular young married guy, couldn’t do it. Only a man who’s slain the required dragons can do this. He has become the kind of a man who can help save a new life, save a marriage, and transform our world, one father at a time.

Joseph Campbell says temples, markers are erected to mark the spot where a hero was born. And they’re present here, too. A baby just learning to walk, the mard miracle of a husband and wife who are beginning to reclaim their own relationship as lovers and partners – these are some of the markers. And people around you can feel this transformation. Like ripples in a pond, it carries the message, “Here something whole and courageous took place. Here, a father was born.”

You’re more than just men, guys; you’re heroes. Happy Father’s Day.

The Bleeding Wound of the Borderlands

© Jack Harris-Bonham

June 11, 2006<

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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PRAYER

Mystery of many names and mystery beyond all naming we come to you this morning with many things on our minds. All of us here have had a week in which we have been presented with problems that need solving.

Help us to remember that life is not a sit-com that can be digested and solved in 26 minutes. Help us Great Spirit to realize that sometimes our life’s work is but the beginning, middle or end of a problem that has been going on for 1000’s of years.

In this vain give us the strength, help us to know that we have within us the strength, to do whatever it is that needs to be done regardless of the immediate outcome. And remind each and everyone of us that there are wild cards in life, things that we would never have guessed in a million years that can, do and will affect the outcome.

Let our thinking be such that our minds are not closed around what we see to be the solution, that our vision can encompass ideas, thoughts, and solutions that may at first seem foreign and not to our liking.

Finally give us all the strength to face the impossible as simply an idea that keeps most of us from trying. For everything that we do, every idea, every lesson, every child of ours, and even ourselves, we all face death on a daily basis. Let this not be a source of futility, but rather a source of the greatest joy as we realize that what we do we do in spite of this, perhaps in the very face of death we find a meaning that transcends both life and death.

We pray this in the name of everything that is holy and that is, precisely, everything.

Amen.

Readings:

What is born will die.

What has been gathered will be dispersed,

What has been accumulated will be exhausted,

What has been built up will collapse,

And what has been high will be brought low.

(Traditional Buddhist Scripture)

God’s Dog – conversations with Coyote,

Webster Kitchell

“Nothing personal,” said Coyote, but I really don’t like your kind. I think First Woman made a mistake when she created you as a species. You humans are coming to be a real curse on the planet. Nothing personal. Some of you I like individually. I find you entertaining in a coyote sort of way. But by and large you live in a weird world in your heads. You live in a complicated set of lies, both personal and social, which you believe even when they don’t obviously work. I think you humans are a threat to us all.”

 

SERMON: The Bleeding Wound of the Borderlands

I wish I could say that this was going to uplifting. It’s a tragedy with no heroes or heroines. It’s a farce with the government wielding sledgehammers instead of rubber ones. It’s a love story of a people who will not be dominated by those who have the money. It’s a who-done-it with the surprise ending that we’ve all been at the scene of the crime, and we earned ourselves a spectators badge without even knowing it. It’s an essay on how democracy was hijacked by guys wearing Dockers who are married to soccer moms. It’s a lament that sings of lose and more lose. It’s a prairie coyote howling at the moon, sending its prayers for food and water to the great creator. And finally it’s the blues, can’t get none, ain’t none in sight, and it’s looks like a whole bunch-a-none is in our future.

I have been to the borderlands 4 times now in the past few years and every time I wonder why I go? Why do I seem willing to witness what I witness there? What is it about these hopeless and god-forsaken people that draw me to them, that find in them a source of both strength and harmony? How could I have imagined that a contract worker working for $75 a week with a wife, two daughters and a son would speak like a President and the man so elected would conduct himself as if he were the one deprived – deprived of good sense, deprived of the simple ability to speak the King’s English, deprived of his compassion – yet, this is the story of the borderlands. All Presidents of the United States have acted thusly toward her and she is really tired of it.

So I come to witness and see with my own eyes the very thing that scares me – poverty. The very word evokes a desert land of just about everything that concerns having nothing.

There is another caveat in this sermon. If you’ve got a good financial portfolio there a pretty substantial chance that you’re complicitous in the poverty that goes to make up the Borderlands. But don’t worry, too much, in a greater or lesser sense we are all complicitous. Ralph Waldo Emerson made the comment before the Civil War that those who had financial interests in the South and could not speak out against slavery had altered the Unitarian belief in the perfectibility of man. Emerson said that these invested Unitarians were less interested in the perfectibility of man and more interested in the perfectibility of their own pocketbooks. There is a sense in which this paradigm still exists today.

To understand the borderlands – to understand anything that is going on in Mexico we must take a look at the past.

The first question that we have to ask ourselves is why would a country that had an honest to goodness proletarian revolution at the beginning of the 20th Century have labor problems at the beginning of the 21st Century? They really had one of those “workers of the world unite? sort of thing so how could it have failed to secure the rights of the workers?

The Mexican Revolution started in 1910 when the dictator Porfirio Diaz was divested of his power. The revolution lasted seven years and culminated in a signing of a new Mexican constitution in 1917. Their proletarian revolution happened before the Russians. Mexico had two popular revolutionary leaders – Poncho Villa in the north and Emilio Zapata in the south. When Diaz was forced to hold elections the man who had led strikes against his dictatorship, Francisco Madero, was elected President, but neither Zapata in the south, or Villa in the north supported Madero.

Zapata and his farmer armies weren’t willing to wait for land reform and there was essentially a civil war between opposing rebel forces and one million Mexicans – ten percent of the population of Mexico at that time were killed. Zapata declared himself President in 1911 and his armies chased landowners off their property in the south. Under the guise of coming to the aid of a US sailor the United States? Army invaded Vera Cruz in 1914 and stayed there for seven months.

Villa kept crossing the US Mexican border and in 1916 General Pershing was sent into Mexico after him. A seventy-year-old Ambrose Bierce disappeared into this part of the revolution and was never heard from again, but was later lionized by Gregory Peck in the movie, Old Gringo.

Madero, the president that no one supported, was assassinated in a coup led by General Huerto. The majority of revolutionaries revolted against the government set up by General Huerto and the governor of the state of Coahila, Venustiano Carranza formed a constitutional army and instituted the majority of the rebels? social demands in a new constitution that was approved in 1917.

Then, one by one the revolutionary leaders were done away with – Carranza had Zapata ambushed, but then when Carranza was running for election as President a General Obregon felt sure he was going to be defeated by Carranza so he had Carranza killed to make sure that didn’t happen.

General Obregon turned out to be a terrific organizer and he founded the Partido Naccionalista Mexicano (the PNM), which then ruled for seventy years until Vicente Fox was elected President in the 1990’s.

As one researcher put it, “The Revolution did, eventually, lead to social and political change of significance, but one could argue that very little of the ultimate outcome was envisaged or planned by any of the revolutionary factions. Ultimately, what made the Mexican Revolution revolutionary was the way change was canalized by popular struggles. The final outcome was, one could argue, in many respects a continuation of the project of the pre-revolutionary regime of Porfirio Diaz – that is, a project to develop and modernize the country through the action of a centralized state.” The more things change the more they stay the same. To quote another researcher “post-revolutionary class structure was relatively unchanged in spite of widespread mobilization and revolution.”

Historically we’re up to date. During the seventy years that the PNM ruled the country the Maquiladora system started up. Basically Maquiladoras are assembly plants. Jobs that used to be done in the US and other countries get outsourced to Mexico. Why? Well, all you have to do is google Maquiladora and the first thing that will come up on your screen will be an ad that will guarantee you a savings of 75% on labor costs when you move your job site south of the US/Mexican border.

The first Maquiladora that appeared did so in 1965. That date just happens to coincide to the height of the labor movement in the United States. This is no coincidence.

The chief reason things have gotten worse south of the border is the North American Free Trade Agreement. This one lands right in the lap of the democrats and President Clinton. As the bumper sticker says Clinton lied and no one died, but the bumper sticker you won’t see is Clinton agreed and the wage-slaves were not freed.

On Friday two weeks ago I traveled with the American Friends Service Committee to Mexico – an organization sponsored by the Quakers. Four times a year delegates from the AFSC travel to the borderlands. These delegations are made up of anyone who wishes to go. Events are planned for the trip, but the main event is the first hand witnessing of what is taking place on the border.

The town of Piedras Negras is actually a very clean and tidy border town. I was impressed by the lack of trash and the quaint square in the middle of town with the pick stucco Catholic Church right off the square.

On the first evening, Friday night, we had dinner at the home of Juan Hernandez (I’ve changed all the names in this because workers have had reprisals brought against them when articles appear in newspapers, magazines or on-line). Juan, his wife, two daughters and a son live in a concrete block building that can be no more than 400 square feet. I believe Juan’s brother lives there, also. Juan’s wife fixed us Gordidas for dinner. We ate outside in the cooling twilight.

After dinner Juan told us that in 1999 – before NAFTA he made from 140-160 dollars a week. Now he makes – doing exactly the same job – 40-60 dollars a week. The management of the Maquiladoras used to give the workers six month to a year contracts now they give them 20-30 day contracts.

What impressed me most about Juan was his ability to articulate his problems. He said what disturbed him the most is that we were leaving a horrible legacy of bad environment and evil labor practices for our children and their children. Juan works for the CFO – the Comite Fronterizo de Obreras.

The CFO is a union that is independent from the Mexican state. During the industrialization of Mexico the leaders of the country thought it best if Unions were state run. Unfortunately, this means that the unions are not on the side of the workers, but on the side of the manufacturers and managers!

The main purpose of the CFO – the union that is organized by and for the workers – is to help the workers understand the bible of Mexican labor. This bible is a thick red book, which contains all the labor laws enacted in Mexico. Mexico actually has good labor laws, but the workers are rarely informed of their rights. Good labor laws without informed workers are meaningless.

The next day, Saturday we traveled the 84 kilometers from Piedras Negras to Cuidad Acuna. There we met with Teresa Isabella Rodriquez, a CFO organizer. She helps organize workers in the neighborhoods by helping them understand their rights under Mexican labor laws.

In the afternoon we had lunch at the offices of the CFO and met with workers from various Maquiladoras. What we learned there was astonishing. The managers of the Maquiladoras are in charge of all monies that are paid workers. So – if there is a worker who has worked in a Maquiladora for many years there is a substantial amount of money owned that worker when they are divested of their jobs. Say when the plant moves somewhere else! The managers have taken it upon themselves to see that those workers are not paid their proper monies.

One worker we met was locked in a room 2 feet by 3 feet, given water and let out to the bathroom twice a day. He is being paid, but is not allowed to work. The hope is that he will become disgusted with the treatment and quit. If a worker quits his or her job they are not entitled to get their severance monies.

Another gentleman who had worked for Delphi – a subsidiary of General Motors – for seven years was put back in the beginning class where he was originally taught how to sew seat covers. There he was told to sew, and then unsew the same seat cover all day long. He was permitted to work, but the hope is that he, too, will quit in disgust.

A gentleman known as Don Giovanni said that these tactics are worthy of the descendants of Hitler. Sighting examples of how holocaust prisoners were made to carry rocks from one pile to another, and then carry the same rocks back to the original pile, this man condemned such behavior as fascistic and torturous.

I’m thinking now of Maria Reina Sanchez. I met her on a trip to the borderlands in February of 2005. For three years, six days a week for 45 hours a week, she dipped her unprotected, naked hand in Toluene. Why? Simply to wipe the fingerprints off the instrument panels of General Motors cars. On her face she wore a paper mask – the kind you might wear if you had allergies and were mowing your grass. Toluene is a hydrocarbon of the aromatic series, obtained chiefly from coke-oven vapors and the distillation of coal tar and it is highly carcinogenic.

Not surprisingly Maria Sanchez got cancer from the prolonged exposure to the toluene. She was undergoing radiation and chemotherapy when Delphi – a subsidiary of GM – fired her for missing work. They fired her without paying her severance pay. She sued and won. She won a whopping $10,000! – enough to keep her family afloat for two years. But she is still dying of her cancers.

The vision I have of Maria Sanchez wiping fingerprints off GM instrument panels is like the scene of a crime. Criminals want their fingerprints removed so that they may avoid prosecution for their crimes. In like manner, General Motors, General Electric, Johnson Controls, Kohler, Emerson Electronic, Erika, Tenneco, Maytag, Panasonic, Black and Decker, Goodwrench Auto Body Centers and other foreign and US companies want their fingerprints removed from what’s happening to the workers just south of our borders.

Conclusion:

In the movie The Barbarian Invasion the main character, a patient in a hospital, is speaking to a Nun who works for the hospital.

“Contrary to belief, the 20th century wasn’t that bloody. It’s agreed that wars caused 100 million deaths. Add 16 million deaths for the Russian gulags. The Chinese camps we’ll never know, but say 20 million. So, 130-135 million dead. Not all that impressive. IN the 16th century the Spanish & Portuguese managed, without gas chambers and bombs, to laughter 150 million Indians in Latin America. With axes! That’s a lot of work, Sister. Even if they had church support, it was an achievement. So much so that the Dutch, English, French and later Americans followed their lead and butchered another 50 million. 200 million dead in all! The greatest massacre in history took place right here in the Americas. And not the tiniest holocaust museum.”

I have a theory why there’s no holocaust museum in the Americas for 200 million dead indigenous peoples – we aren’t through yet. The slaughter continues, but this time in a more civilized manner. We’re letting the greedy corporations of the world do all our killing for us – unless of course, time is of the essence, time is money you know. If time is of the essence, then we’ll send the troops in first to clear the way – to kill the way so that the corporations can follow.

I’ve told you some of the ways the corporations kill – they pass off their workload to the Kapos – those inmates within Nazi concentration camps who were Jews, but turned against their own kind. True, the Mexican managers of the Maquiladoras may not be literally killing their own kind, but they are torturing them with meaningless work, and playing power and mind games with people whose only concern is to put food on their tables.

And for those of you who are not buying the idea that corporations are bad, here’s what Jerry Mander in his book, In Absence of the Sacred, has to say: “Now that we see the inherent direction of corporate activity, we must abandon the idea that corporations can reform themselves, or that a new generation of executive managers can be re-educated. We must also abandon the assumption that the form of the structure is “neutral.” To ask corporate executives to behave in a morally defensible manner is absurd. Corporations, and the people within them, are not subject to moral behavior. They are following a system of logic that leads inexorably toward dominant behaviors. To ask corporations to behave otherwise is like asking an army to adopt pacifism.”

There are two lights at the end of this tunnel. The first light is a wildcard known as the Peak Oil theory put forth by people like M. King Hubbard and M. Heinberg. This theory states that oil production can be documented in a bell curve. There is the period when the well is first tapped and production soars. This is the upward movement of the bell curve. Then the production evens off and we have the top or peak of the bell. According to the Peak Oil theory when gasoline and diesel goes over $5 a gallon, then it will be too expensive to outsource jobs across borders – be it Mexico, South Korea, or China. The monies saved in labor costs will more than be made up for in transportation costs. Perhaps at that time the jobs that have been outsourced will come back into this country, perhaps not, but it looks as if the days of the unfair practices in the Maquiladoras, and perhaps the Maquiladoras themselves, are numbered. Yet, how many will be exploited and die in the meantime?

The other hope is that there are worker owned Maquiladoras in Mexico. We visited one in Piedras Negras – owned and operated by members of the CFO. It is the Maquiladora of Justice and Dignity. This Maquiladora assembles organic cotton material into t-shirts and shopping bags. They started with two sewing machines that were for home use, and then bought industrial sewing machines. They work in a space that is neither air-conditioned nor heated. There are a total of 5 workers – all women – who work there.

If you’re feeling hopeless and helpless then support this worker owned Maquiladora so they can air condition and heat their workspace. If this church feels like doing that I’d be glad to help the social action committee coordinate that funding.

There’s something else we can all do. Stop buying retail. Put your money underground. Barter with your friends. Start buying second hand. Go to garage sales. Buy used appliances – your clothes will get just as clean. A used hammer drives a nail just fine. Yes, there is the argument that if we all stopped buying retail the economy in Mexico and this country would go south, that the workers who now have poorly paying jobs would have no jobs at all. All I can say to that is the same argument was made before the Civil War – what would all those slaves do if there were no slavery. In my opinion that objection begs the question. It’s cruel. It’s meaningless.

The important thing is to be informed that such things are happening less than five hours from Austin. And after being informed it is important to act. Investigate companies that you do business with – don’t take a corporations word for anything. Corporations will always tell you the upside and never tell you the down side. They are fictitious persons who act amorally and in the end the only things that count are growth and money.

Here are other things you can do. Join a delegation from the American Friend Service Committee, go to the borderlands and become a witness for humanity. Write your Texas Senators and Congressional Representatives and suggest that there are better ways to treat people and that saving money at Wal-Mart shouldn’t include wage slavery on either side of the border.

In closing I’d like to remind you of that wonderfully terrible analogy of the world being represented at one long table. At one end of the table are the starving children of the world – hundreds of thousand dying daily. In front of them there is no food. At the other end of the table is where we sit with all the food, our obese children, and our culture of television and escapism. Who among us could sit at such a table and eat with impunity? I dare say not a one.

Inspiring Tales of Failure

© Hannah Wells

June 4, 2006

First UU Church of Austin

 4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

 www.austinuu.org

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PRAYER

Let us pray for some measure of comfort and peace for those who mourn significant losses. They are members of your church community; they are the families of lost military men and women, and they are the survivors of natural disaster.

Let us rejoice for our lives, for all that we have: a soft bed, good food to eat, a choice of what to wear each morning. The future. Let us reflect – gently, but with conviction, with courage.

Which part of us is given the most permission, the most air time, the most control? Are we living our lives the way our best self would choose? Do we know who that person is? Are we giving ourselves the right “to be fabulous?” Are we giving our best self a chance to live?

Though it is fearsome, let us listen to the nagging voices in our minds that ask us to consider new ways of living, to consider changing habits, to consider changing how we think about failure and success.

Let us love ourselves in the story we find ourselves in. We each have a story, and may we see that our mistakes are important, that failures are the means to hard-earned growth and happiness. With calm intention may we let our hard lessons become blessings.

May we keep close to our hearts the certain knowledge that the nature of our world, and of ourselves, is always to be in flux. No state of our being is ever permanent.

May we each honor the other’s response to change, and the need to make a better world. Each of us are on a different path that we have been called to take.

May compassion be our guide, for ourselves and each other, and may courage be our salvation.

AMEN.

SERMON

This feels like a homecoming. It reminds me of when I preached for the first time at the church I grew up in; First Church of Austin is my second home church, I hope that’s alright with you. And I’m so pleased that the children’s choir of Tulsa is here to hear me preach today. When I was your age, I found myself forced to sit through an entire church service – I think it was summer, no Sunday School, no RE wing to escape to. The subject of the sermon was failure, and I’ll never forget it. The main message was there’s no such thing as failure. There’s only not trying. I could grasp that, as an 11 year old, or however old I was. When we’re kids, we are asked to succeed a lot; we’re not asked to fail, but we should be. We should know that option is open to us.

What this minister was saying in his sermon is that it doesn’t matter as much what the outcome is, it matters that we are part of the process of something, that we participate, that this is more important than anything. And at a young age, this is absolutely true. I won’t Pollyanna all the way for you here, it’s true that as you get older, it does matter more and more what the outcome is. But for a youth, it’s a message of courage – just have courage, it doesn’t matter if you win or lose, it matters that you try at the things you’re drawn to, that you get to know yourself by figuring out what you’re good at, and what you’re not good at.

When I was an intern minister here for nearly a full year, one thing that helped me greatly was to know I had “permission to fail.” That was Davidson’s phrase (Davidson was my supervisor and is the Senior Minister of this church, for the many visitors who are with us today). It was perhaps the most attractive thing about this church for internship, because it seemed to turn failure on its head and take the sting out of it. It was okay to fail! In fact, it was expected. Failure didn’t seem like such a specter then, and instead of walking on egg-shells trying to do everything right, I could just be myself.

Of course Davidson was not shy about telling me when I did fail. Mostly this had to do with the first drafts of sermons. I pretty much failed all of first semester with my preaching; I just didn’t get what I was failing to do. But I finally succeeded with the sermon I delivered at the very beginning of the new year. I had an “a-ha!” experience, and I finally got it. I doubt I ever would have understood what I was doing wrong, what was missing, unless someone wasn’t kind enough to tell me how I was failing – over and over.

And now I’m a working minister delivering a sermon on the topic of failure. If I fail at a sermon on failure, is that a success? I’ll worry about that later.

What are some of your most prized failures? The failures that you learned and grew from, and never could have succeeded without? Which failures do you still need to learn from? Maybe we’ve failed to maintain our health, or spend enough time with our families. Maybe we’ve failed to nurture our creative sides. Maybe we’ve failed to reach some kind of cherished ideal.

We tend to forget, though, that ideals aren’t meant to be reached. We set high ideals to remind ourselves of what we want to be close to. But we don’t reach them.

The truth is, that, most of the time, we are off-course. The nature of the world and of us is one of imperfection.

Perhaps some of you remember when, 30 years ago, the commercial plane The Concorde, began flying across the Atlantic for the first time in less than 4 hours. Because of its phenomenal speed, the course was actually maintained by two computers, one to take course readings every few seconds, and one to correct the course when it was going off-course. A passenger touring the plane asked the pilot, “what percentage of the time is the plane off-course?” The pilot smiled, and replied, “About 99 percent of the time, sir.”

This story was taken from Rachel Remen’s collection, the woman I inevitably end up borrowing from in so many of my sermons, as Davidson taught me to do. She asks, “Might it be possible to focus ourselves on the purpose we wish to serve in the same way… [as] the Concorde? Once we stopped demanding of ourselves that we be on course all the time, we might begin to look at our mistakes differently, giving them… a frictionless response. They will not prevent us from reaching our dreams nearly so much as wanting to be right will. [my italics]

Those who have the courage to offer us honesty, to be our navigators, might even come to be seen as worthy of… gratitude… “You are off-course,” they might tell us. “Why, THANK you,” we might reply. “

She goes on to say, “Serving anything worthwhile is a commitment to a direction over time and may require us to relinquish many moment-to-moment attachments, to let go of pride, approval, recognition, or even success. This is true whether we be parents, researchers, educators, artists, or heads of state. Serving life may require a faithfulness to purpose that lasts over a lifetime. It is less a work of the ego than a choice of the soul.”

If we’re using our souls to choose a destination, it is enough to be heading in the right direction. We get in trouble when we make the ideals of the world our destination. We cannot choose a trajector – or a path to follow – under the guidance of what is outside of us. These are the questions I don’t think anyone can answer for us; we have to ask our own souls, our own spirits: We have to begin inside ourselves and ask, am I trying to succeed in becoming more human, more whole? Do I do what I love? Do I know what my gifts are, and does it offer some gifts to others?

While they don’t have to be the gifts the world wants, we do need to offer the world something; but it has to be what we are able to offer. Nobody gets all the gifts, and there’s wisdom in being delighted with the few we’ve got – loving to use them and offer what little we have to offer. Howard Thurman, a theologian, can help us figure out what this is when he said, “Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs are people who have come alive.”

Sometimes the gifts we have, though, aren’t the ones we would choose for ourselves. There are always going to be things, that, in the end, we wish we’d been better at; there are failures we regret, but there are probably some gifts we’ve been given too that we didn’t even know we gave to others.

There was a very successful businessman named George who got diagnosed with lung cancer. He was told he didn’t have much time left. He said to his therapist, “‘I have wasted my life… I have two ex-wives and five children. I support all of them but I don’t know any of them… I don’t think they’ll miss me. I’ve nothing behind me but a lot of money.'”

It turns out that the business of this man was selling a gadget of medical equipment that he invented. The therapist – who of course is Rachel Remen, this is another of her stories – had another patient who used this device, and knew that it had completely changed her life. Her name was Stephanie. Rachel asked her if she might write a letter to the dying businessman, to thank him. The woman wanted to have him over to dinner, and he came. Rachel Remen writes,

“The week after this dinner, he sat in my office shaking his head in wonder. He had expected to have dinner with this young couple, but when he had arrived, George was welcomed by Stephanie’s whole family. Her mother was there, her three brothers and sisters, several of her aunts and uncles, and a crowd of nieces, nephews, and cousins. Her husband’s parents were there, too, and many of her friends and neighbors – the whole community of people who had sustained her in the years she was an invalid. They had decorated the little house with crepe paper, and everyone had cooked. It was an extraordinary meal and a wonderful celebration.

But George told Rachel that wasn’t the most important part. George said, “‘They had really come to tell me a story; they had each played a part in it and had a different side of it to share. It took them over three hours to tell it. It was the story of Stephanie’s life. I cried most of the time. And at the very end, Stephanie came to me and said, “This is really a story about you, George. We thought you needed to know.’ And I did, I did.'”

Rachel asked, “How many of these things do you make every year, George?”… “close to ten thousand,” he said softly. “I just knew the numbers, Rachel. I had no idea what they meant.”

That kind of story asks us to measure success and failure correctly: by our effect on others, by the gifts we’ve shared, not necessarily by the world’s standards – or maybe even our own standards.

Another inspiring tale of failure is about West Point graduate Capt. Ian Fishback, a story you perhaps already know, but merits repeating. It’s a story about doing the right thing, in the face of failure on an enormous scale.

When the Abu Ghraib scandal unfolded in Spring of 2004, Fishback, from experience, knew the tortures were in accordance with interrogation procedures. According to him, those terrible things were done to prisoners on a regular basis. But as a by-the-book officer, Fishback held his tongue, that is, until Defense Secretary Donald Rumsfeld disavowed the evidence of torture before Congress, testifying that “the letter of the Geneva Conventions” had been followed in Iraq. “That,” Fishback said, “is when I had a problem.”

He told Human Rights Watch, “It is infuriating to me that officers are not lined up to accept responsibility for what happened . . . That’s basic officership, that’s what you learn at West Point. It blows my mind.”

Fishback could have chosen to stay anonymous, but instead he crafted an open letter to Sen. John McCain, accusing the top officers of contributing to murder by refusing to set clear guidelines. In the letter’s conclusion, he wrote, “If we abandon our ideals in the face of adversity and aggression, then those ideals were never really in our possession.”

What courage it took this young man to tell it like it is! To express so succinctly the exact nature of this national failure, this international humiliation and tragedy. The fact is our country is not anywhere near on course, the fact is our ideals of freedom, the democratic process, and justice have been abandoned.

One of my failures as a minister has been speaking out against the war. I don’t feel I’ve done enough of it – but I’m making progress; I did do an anti-war sermon about 5 weeks ago, and rite of passage occurred. I got yelled at after the service by an elderly couple. I mean, really yelled at. It was amazing though, my grandmother happened to be standing there and she came to my defense – she started yelling right back at them! And I shuffled away. I’d never been yelled at before like that after a sermon, so I knew I had pushed some buttons.

The truth is I’m optimistic! I don’t want to push buttons perhaps so much as urgently share the message that we can be optimistic as a country.

I’ve got a wonderful quotation of George Clooney’s. He says, “I think we’re really great at this as a country: We do dumb things, and then we fix them. Pearl Harbor: We grab all the Japanese-Americans and throw them in detention camps. Well, that’s not very sporting of us, but we fix it. In the fifties, we grab people because they read a newspaper and bring them in for investigation. Pretty dumb. Vietnam? Pretty stupid. But there seems to be a tide turning. The Democrats aren’t providing the answers, but the Republicans aren’t getting free passes on everything. You don’t get to say you’re either with us or with the enemy anymore. So I’m an optimist about the United States.”

I think Clooney may be on to something there, and I agree: We are going to rise to the challenge of this country’s failed sense of direction. We will once again orient ourselves to the North Star, to a trajectory that is noble, and we will set a course. I know we will!

When you’re told you can either succeed or fail, either way you are being challenged. Our country was built on challenge, and I think it’s one of the nameless anchors of liberal religion as well, of Unitarian Universalism. We don’t get a lot of religious direction necessarily, we each have to challenge ourselves to identify our own noble trajectories. When we find ourselves seriously off-course in life – when we are failing – that’s our opportunity to re-orient and embrace the challenge of setting a new course. It was Edwin Friedman, a brilliant family therapist, who said, “Challenge is the basic context of health and survival, of a person, of the family, of a religious organization, or even (in the course of evolution) an entire species.”

The hardest part may be deciding which challenges to pour our hearts and souls into, because we can’t do them all. The one we should pick is usually the thing we have the most fear about doing. We have to ask, what challenge is going to honor my life, my family, my community, my country, my planet?

You have permission to fail. You also have permission to succeed.

No matter how old you are, do not be afraid to do the things that make you come alive! Because what the world needs is people that have come alive.


The contents of this story are taken from the December 29, 2005 issue of Rolling Stone magazine.

 

Where Do We Go From Here?

© Davidson Loehr

May 21, 2006

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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PRAYER

Let us have the fortitude to hear the truths we need to hear, the vision to see what to do with them, and the courage to do it.

We pretend, to our own amusement, that we’re not afraid of anything, that we’re certainly not afraid of anything that’s true, and that we want to build our lives on the foundations of those truths.

In some non-threatening ways, that’s true; in others, it is not, and we find a hundred ways silently to let other people determine what we should hear and know and do.

But we can live with second-hand truths and second-order visions for so long that we live second-hand and second-order lives. And nobody wants that.

And so. Let us have the fortitude to hear the truths we need to hear, the vision to see what to do with them, and the courage to do it. Here, now, today, tomorrow, always.

Amen.

SERMON: Where do we go from here?

Three weeks ago, I was the keynote speaker for the annual district meeting of the Ballou-Channing District in Southeast Massachusetts, and was asked to talk about where we go from here. It was a one-hour speech, on where liberal religion and liberal culture are today and how they got there, some critiques of the UUA – and I’m not sure many of you would be interested in hearing all that. If you are interested, you can read the whole speech on our website. But for this morning, I want to focus on some things that might be more useful.

The reason for asking questions like where we go from here is because, like all mainline religious denominations, ours has been losing members steadily for the past half-century. Though, since we’re much smaller, we’re more vulnerable. How small are we? Well, a recent Gallup poll showed that over fifteen times as many Americans believe they have been abducted by aliens than believe they are Unitarians. That’s small – though there may be some overlap in those figures. We might want to get a task force to study those aliens’ methods.

As to where we go from here, this has answers – very different answers – at three levels.

First, we can consider the largest, broadest context, and ask “Where do we go from here as the UUA, as a small international religious movement?” Second, we can ask, more locally, “Where do we go from here as our local church in Austin?” And third, we can ask, “Where do we go from here as individual seekers in the liberal religious traditions?”

A. First, where do we go from here as the UUA, as a small international religious movement?

One answer must be, “perhaps nowhere.” Everything seems to point to a commitment to denial and a contentment with just dwindling away, not with a bang but a whimper. It’s a very real possibility.

More than half the churches in the Unitarian Universalist Association now have fewer than 100 members, so couldn’t pay a full-time salary to a minister. Yet new ministers are graduating from seminary with an average of $40,000 in educational loan debt from just the three-year seminary education, and need fulltime employment. I spent seven years in graduate school to get a Ph.D., and graduated owing only $17,500. But times and economics have changed. Today, a Ph.D. could cost students between $80,000 and $100,000. The ministry doesn’t pay well enough to cover such debts and have a decent standard of living, so very few students are likely to get PhD’s rather than just the 3-year seminary educations.

Last year, men and women were preparing for the UU ministry in 75 different institutions. That means that virtually all of our future ministers will simply be educated in Christian seminaries, learning the metaphors, symbols, and thought games of that religion rather than preparing for the post-Christian, pluralistic world we’re living in. That doesn’t look promising. Without having educational institutions that actually educate our ministers, we have no means of teaching a unique perspective, even if we could articulate one. I don’t see any way past this. How long do you think Roman Catholicism would last if 95% of their priests were educated in Buddhist schools?

Even the quarterly publication called the UU Voice – easily the most candid and self-critical of all our publications – may have to stop publishing, after forty years, because it costs $6,500 a year to publish it, and subscriptions aren’t covering it.

For these reasons and more, I think one serious answer to “Where do we go from here as the UUA, as a small international religious movement?” is, “Nowhere. From here, we just continue to fade away.”

B. Where do we go from here as a local church?

This is more hopeful. People who study churches say that, as money gets tighter, the most vulnerable churches are the mid-sized churches. Large churches that have learned to operate as well-run businesses usually have big enough budgets, not only to weather storms, but also to hire the necessary help (as staff or consultants) to react pro-actively. Small churches of under 150 that exist as “family” churches can have the “familial” cohesion to stick together, with or without a minister. But mid-sized churches no longer have the simpler “single-family” cohesion, and lack the budget of larger churches. We are at the very low edge of what’s considered the “large church” category, needing about 200 more members and $200,000 more in our budget to be in a safer place.

Another answer at the “church demographics” level is that white-haired congregations are visibly grounded in the past, as churches with younger hair colors are more likely to be invested in the future. There is much talk within the UUA of a “commitment to growth,” and all seem to mean by this a desire to attract more younger people. But younger church cultures are very different. Young people have different priorities than older people: spiritually, socially, and economically.

I think it’s fair to say that a church structured for the future will be more comfortable for people in their 30s and 40s than it will be for people in their 60s to 80s. Small churches operate a lot like social organizations, in which The Guardians define the boundaries of both thought and behavior to fit their own comfort zones. Unless they can grow past that, they’ll never be very good or very stable large churches. This is one of our challenges in this church.

C. Where do we go from here as individual seekers in the liberal religious traditions?

Here, the picture can be as intelligent, informed and optimistic as the individual seekers are.

The search for a religious center doesn’t have to start from scratch. Even a cursory study of the world’s great traditions shows us that religion does have an enduring subject matter. Its insights measure the quality of our lives and our worlds, for better and worse, whether we “believe in them” or not. Most of these truths do not seem to have changed much in recorded history. They seem to be species-specific traits and norms that most peoples of most times have recognized as inviolable, and which we also recognize as inviolable – though we seldom articulate these facts:

— Religion is a human enterprise, and a human invention. It is one of the ways in which we try to learn and practice ideals that can help us become more fully human. We can do it in god-talk or without using God-talk.

— The Way we seek is older than the gods, as Lao-tzu said.

— We want to learn how to relish the transient pleasures of life without becoming limited and defined by them, and how to nurture our life-giving circles of friends – as the Epicureans taught 2400 years ago.

— We know that neither we nor any supernatural agencies can control what life brings our way, so we should learn how to control our responses to life – as the Stoics taught.

— Most of us believe in “salvation through understanding,” as the Buddhists have taught. This is another way of saying we don’t want to check our brains outside the church door. We don’t want to check our hearts there, either.

— We need to be reminded – in the Roman Seneca’s magnificent phrase – that we are all limbs on the body of humanity, and we must learn to act accordingly.

— We know, but want to be reminded, that if only we could treat all others as our equals, our brothers and sisters, as “children of God,” that we could transform this world into a paradise – as Jesus taught in his concept of the “kingdom of God.”

All this requires boundaries a lot bigger than anyone’s comfort zone. It isn’t easy. It takes personal work. And world religions all think it’s hard – that there are hard demands, and that few are ever willing to do the work:

— Islam teaches the path as the razor edge of a sword stretched across an abyss.

— Jesus talked about the narrow way that few entered.

— Hinduism also speaks of the path as razor-edged, and has so many stories about how many lives you”d have to live, in order to get it right.

— Buddhists teach how hard it is just to wake up, to outgrow the comforting illusions of “our kind of people.” It’s at least as hard today, especially when the illusions of our kind of people provide the only clear “home” for most in liberal camps.

— And for Jews, the notion of being God’s “chosen people” meant God demanded more of them than others, not that they were special.

That personal hard work is how those traditions raise our sights to see and hear what Lincoln called “the better angels of our nature.”

Salvation by Character

Another answer to “where do we go from here?” comes from understanding religion as the search for a healthy kind of wholeness, to become a blessing to a world not made in our image. And from the start, the salvation story of most of the best prophets and sages has been the story of salvation by character. We are trying to become better people, partners, parents and citizens, and believe that doing so will make life more worth living, for ourselves and those we love. We are trying to get reconnected with a healthy kind of wholeness. This is about personal authenticity, the kind of authenticity that rejuvenates the world.

You can’t get that second-hand. You can’t get it by joining a club, a denomination or a church, or putting fish named “Jesus” or “Darwin” on your car trunk. You only get it by doing the self-examination and the personal work. The gifts of all the world’s great prophets and sages are free, but they aren’t cheap. They can cost us our artificially small identities, and the comfort that comes with them.

We have never looked back with pride on religious liberals who didn’t go forward into new and uncharted territory during a crisis of religious expression. We don’t remember the names of the vast majority of Unitarians, Methodists, Presbyterians and Baptists who stuck with “the old ways,” or got lost in their era’s religious fads. Those in the future will look back to assess us in the same way.

I consulted with some colleagues in preparing these notes, but didn’t get many promising visions from them. However, I did get a comment from the Rev. David Bumbaugh, who is Professor of Ministry at Meadville Lombard Theological School in Chicago, and it’s worth sharing:

“I believe we are confronted by three essential and inescapable questions: What do we profess? In whose behalf do we act? To whom or to what are we responsible? The first question requires that I continually seek to be as clear as I can be about the fundamental convictions that drive my actions and not settle for platitudes–either traditional responses or the seven principles. The second question drives me to broaden the scope of my concerns beyond the horizons of my comfort zone to include the lost, the marginalized, those who are least like me. If ministry is to be anything more than chaplaincy to those who can afford me, the answer to the second question – “In whose behalf do we act?” – must continually expand.”

David’s third question is the theological question, of what we are serving that transcends our own wishes, our own kind of people, our own time and place, and how we are to speak of it. Three hundred years ago, the reflexive answer would have been, “Well, religion is about God, of course!” But the world has changed. Now we are charged with trying to serve the spirit of life by once more looking not to the past but to the future, and offering a structure or style of religion that can build bridges to a bigger future rather than walls around old comfort zones.

Some have compared our times to living in The Wasteland, and that’s an interesting term. In the Middle Ages, when the Arthurian Grail Legend was born, they also described their times as the Wasteland. And what they meant by living in the Wasteland was living an inauthentic life, a second-hand life with hand-me-down beliefs and not enough information to know or even seek the truths we need. Their church and their ruler decided what information they could receive, which is one way to keep people powerless.

This is why heresy and courage are so important today. There can’t be any questions or inquiries that are forbidden.

I had breakfast and spent the morning with Norman Lear this past Friday. It was a treat because he’s been an idol of mine ever since he wrote and produced the “All in the Family” TV series 35 years ago. We talked about religion, and his concern that religion is failing us as a society. “So many devastating things are going on,” he would say, “why are all the pulpits so silent about it? Why are they all so afraid?” Bill Moyers and Bishop John Shelby Spong have all asked the same questions, and we don’t hear much from religious voices, unless you count Jerry Falwell and Pat Robertson.

But it’s not enough to indict preachers. Not many people trust the media to tell us the truths we need to hear, either. And even fewer trust politicians or preachers to tell us unpopular truths.

We live in a time of fearful truths. Global warming, peak oil, our illegal invasion of Iraq built on stories we now know to have been lies, the reduction of our civil liberties, stories of our government eavesdropping on our phone calls, important questions about what happened on 9-11 and who was really behind it, stories about how fragile our economy is, how we are no longer respected by many of our longtime friends in the world: on and on. This web of unexamined truths is the Wasteland in which we live now, and it takes uncommon courage actually to want to hear some of these truths.

Yet the only hope we have for moving forward from here is having unrestricted access to all questions, all inquiries, and the courage to hear and deal with hard truths.

I don’t mean to point fingers, or to imply that we, of course, are all courageous and don’t fear anything. That isn’t true. We each have lines past which we simply become uncomfortable. And sometimes, we wish we could keep from hearing fearful truths. This is true for every one of us.

The religious myths of Western civilization are crumbling, and though scholars have written about it for over a century, it’s uncomfortable for many people to understand that the symbol God may not be useful or even coherent any more. Or that there’s no heaven, no afterlife, no supernatural magic as we were almost all taught as children. Don’t some of these things make you uncomfortable?

Maybe the Da Vinci Code doesn’t bother you when it suggests that Jesus and Mary Magdalen were married – and, as one scholar I know adds, that they had two children before they divorced and Jesus remarried.

But other stories can make you uncomfortable. This week, for instance, a respected member of this church sent me a news story about Morgan Reynolds. Reynolds was President Bush’s Labor Department Chief Economist and the former director of the Criminal Justice Center. He gave a speech to a standing-room-only audience of over 1,000 at the University of Wisconsin two weeks ago (6 March). He’s Emeritus professor of economics from Texas A&M, and doesn’t sound like a left-wing nut case. But he said that 9-11 was an inside job, and fingered Bush, Cheney and others for the murder of nearly 3,000 Americans on 9-11, as part of their plan to transform America to a command-and-control government, restrict civil rights, wage their imperialistic war in the Middle East, and the rest of it. (A reference link to milwaukee.indymedia.org was included here, but this linked page is no longer in existence (PR 1/19/2013.)

He said he believes some government insiders will come forward soon to tell their stories, that the information had been kept so compartmentalized that few had any idea of the scope of this administration’s plans for 9-11. If this proves to be true, it might be the most fearful truth in US history, and I think it would make every single American very uncomfortable and frightened. Though we may not find out whether it is true in our lifetimes.

Do you really want to know? Or would you rather be protected from these truths, if they do turn out to be true? Who would you trust to limit your access to this knowledge? The politicians? The media? Your neighbor? Anyone?

It was only five years ago that enough old government documents became declassified, including military communications from 1940 and 1941, to show pretty conclusively that Pearl Harbor was not a surprise attack, that FDR wanted it to happen and helped it happen, sacrificing 2400 soldiers in Pearl Harbor, in order to rouse our country to enter World War II. That has made me very uncomfortable, and I can understand why the government and the media have not wanted to spread this story widely. (Robert Stinnett, Day of Deceit: the Truth About FDR and Pearl Harbor [Free Press, 2001]).

But without these truths, we have no chance of understanding what is going on and how the strings are being pulled that move our world. Who would you trust to decide what you can’t hear, can’t know, can’t discuss? Anyone?

I hope not. Because where we go from here, as individuals, as churches, and as a society, can only have a hopeful future if we have the courage to hear fearful truths, and then together to figure out how to respond to them.

We really have a proud heritage, both as Americans and as religious liberals. We stand on the shoulders of giants who have pushed people to deal with truths they didn’t want to know, to cross over past their comfort zones when they didn’t want to. We look back to them with gratitude for the courage they showed when it was their turn.

Now it’s our turn. Where we go from here will depend on the quality of our understanding and our courage. As we move into the future, we need to spend less time worshiping history and more time making it.

Now see, you came here hoping to hear a safe talk about where other people might need to go from here. And now you find out that it was about you, all along. Welcome to our church!

Anticipating Mothers Day

© Davidson Loehr

May 7, 2006

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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Prayer

Mother’s Day has been a national observance in this country on the second Sunday of May since 1914. Mothers’ Day is next Sunday, when we have our annual Coming-of-Age and Bridging Services with our youth. And so today we are anticipating Mothers’ Day.

Let us join in an attitude of prayer:

We give thanks for mothers, whether they gave birth to the children or adopted them;

For mothers who have lost a child, through miscarriage, abortion, adoption, or death, and who still feel the loss.

For those who have never had children but who miss being mothers, and who are mothers in their hearts who express their nurture in other ways;

For our own mothers, and theirs, as far back as our living memory will carry us;

And for all who have lost their mothers, and still feel that loss.

In anticipation of Mothers’ Day, let us remember all the varieties of mothers in all of our lives in gratitude and prayer.

And let us remember in prayer those other names, which we now speak aloud or in the silence of our hearts.

Amen

SERMON

This sermon came about because one of the mothers of young children in our church asked for it. At her suggestion, I arranged for a series of three lunches with a total of twelve mothers of young children, read one book I was assigned, and a long chapter in another book. Both the books and the live women brought up almost exactly the same subjects. Much of it was new to me, and some of it was almost painful to hear and read. (The books were Perfect Madness: Motherhood in the Age of Anxiety, by Judith Warner, 2005; and Naomi Wolf’s 2001 book Misconceptions, from which I read only the chapter “Calling it Fair.”)

Still, my sample – the live mothers as well as the book-mothers – is very limited. It’s only dealing with women married to men, even though there are many more kinds of motherhood. So this is a small start on a big and important subject. I’ll be mixing together the stories from live mothers and from book-mothers, which were all pretty similar, though the books went into more detail.

One of the most positive things in all the discussions was that there was almost no man-bashing. These women were grateful for their husbands’ love, care, and help. They all spoke of them as very good fathers.

One woman who couldn’t attend a lunch sent her comments by e-mail. “Having my first child,” she wrote, “filled me with a love I had never even imagined before, and it made me big enough to feel all that love. It opened me up to the whole world. And that big love is still with me. It didn’t disappear with the bottles and diapers. Many years later, it dawned on me that my own mother must feel that same love for me. (I still find comfort in this revelation.) I don’t think you have to have kids to get this “big love.” I’d like to think I would have gotten there on my own. But I do think having kids got me there a lot sooner.” The live mothers all shared this mother’s love for their children, the sense of expanded love it brought in them and a new appreciation for their own mothers.

Both the live mothers and the mothers reported on in the two books were mostly women born in the 60s and 70s. Some of them said one of the great things about growing up in an age of women’s rights with men who were sympathetic to the goals of feminism was that when they married, they felt that they married their best friends. It was an egalitarian marriage, where they were able to negotiate in a wider range of areas, both personal and professional, than their mothers or grandmothers had.

They developed a sense of Self, both in school and in their careers, that had been out of reach for most women before them.

Then the baby comes, and everything changes

One study says that one of the most likely times for a marriage to fall apart is following the birth of the first baby, when almost 70 percent of couples reported a decrease in marital happiness. (Wolf, 227)

One woman said she could remember reading in all those books how some mothers in the first six weeks never got dressed and forgot to eat. She wondered what kind of women these were? How could anyone forget to eat, not find the time to take a shower or get dressed? It sounded as if these were some slovenly, preposterous women. “Then,” she said, “I had my first child and was completely overwhelmed by it, and didn’t find the time to eat or take a shower or get dressed.” (Wolf, p. 240)

Another said, “I always imagined that I would earn a graduate degree in early childhood education and begin teaching college or open my own day care after having my own family. In reality, I quit working a few months before my daughter was born. And I have never reentered the workforce on a full-time basis since that time. I found that earning enough to pay for day care was impossible.” (Warner, 50)

Many of the live- and book-mothers reported this sense that they might lose the dreams the feminism of their youth had given them. But the notion that motherhood can undermine personal ambitions isn’t new. I have a story of it from my own family – from my namesakes.

My grandparents, Grace Davidson and Clement Loehr, met as college students at the University of Iowa, around 1905. Clement was preparing for the Presbyterian ministry, but it was unusual to find many women in college a century ago. Growing up, Grace’s siblings (who were our favorite great-uncles and great-aunts) allowed as how, while both Grace and Clement were bright and good people, Grace had the quicker mind, the richer intellect, and was more ambitious.

My younger half-sister Grace once spent a year or so researching the life of her namesake, who died when Grace was a child. She found that after the birth of Grandma Gracie’s fourth child, she had a nervous breakdown. She realized that she would never be able to pursue her own ambitions: that she was simply going to be a mother, and a minister’s wife. She had seven children in all, pretty much ran the family, and – in her 60s by the time I remember her – a hard edge. At the time, I didn’t like her. Looking back, I see her hard edge as having been honed by spending all her adult life suppressing the anger – or fury – of losing the dreams that first drove her to graduate from college, and my heart goes out to her.

Author Naomi Wolf put it this way: “The baby’s arrival acted as a crack, then a fissure, then an earthquake, that wrenched open the shiny patina of egalitarianism in the marriages of virtually every couple I knew.” (Wolf, 226)

When the husband of one of Naomi Wolf’s friends’ started taking Fridays off to help with the baby, the women celebrated him as a demi-god. To the other husbands, she began to realize, the fact that he could afford to take Fridays off meant his job wasn’t that important. To the men – these egalitarian, pro-feminist men – he was a loser. (Wolf, 227)

The mothers all said it was a 24/7 job that at times just seemed overwhelming. They had no time for themselves; they lost themselves. Nursing an average of every two hours made them sleep-deprived. They had no idea it would be this all-consuming.

I thought of this last weekend while driving through New Hampshire, following a black SUV with a personalized license plate that said KIDLIMO, and a single bumper sticker that read, “Every Mother is a Working Mother.”

Perhaps it’s not surprising to find that “Mother’s little helpers,” by a few years ago, had become drugs, especially methamphetamine, or crystal meth, which in 2002 was named the drug of choice for supermoms. (129) Nobody can do it alone – it’s hard enough for a couple. Generations ago, many people lived within extended families, where grandparents lived nearby and were available when the parents needed some parenting, comfort, or reliable babysitting. What a blessing it could have been to have some people around who loved you, had been through all this themselves, and were able and eager to help out!

One woman said an image that kept coming into her mind was of a teapot, tipped over, with the last drop hanging from its lip: “Tip me over and pour me out”. Other times she imagined herself to be a little generator with another tiny appliance plugged into her, sucking energy. And yet her own power source had been disconnected. (Wolf, 247)

Both in the books and at the three lunches, women said they had little hands all over their body all day, and by night many found they were “all touched out” and just wanted their body left alone. “Being touched related to being needed, and I was giving all I had to give to the baby. There was nothing left for Daddy.” (Judith Warner, p. 127) All of this is often a very unpleasant surprise for their husbands. It redefined sexiness in unexpected ways.

For instance, one sociological study found that “Women find men’s willingness to do their share of the housework erotic.” (Wolf, 243) When I mentioned this at one of our lunches, the response was “You bet! You want some loving? Do the dishes! Do the dishes, put away the clothes I washed, and I’ll be all over you!” For men, this is a whole new, and strange, definition of foreplay!

When I asked our mothers here what kind of gifts they wanted for Mothers’ Day, the question didn’t get an immediate response. Then one woman said, “Time! Eight hours alone! Even four hours alone!” Another said the greatest gift she received in the first year after the birth of her child came from an older woman friend, who gave her permission to stop breastfeeding, and use formula!

Another mother had given a gift to herself. When she returned to work, she reclaimed the Self she had had before motherhood, as an attractive, competent, professional woman. She kept a pair of high-heeled shoes in her car, and when she left home for work, put them on, to help enter her other persona. At night, driving home, she’d change back into her low-heel Mommy Shoes.

And you can’t talk about mothering today without mentioning the word “guilt.” All the women spoke of feeling guilty, and of “competitive mothering,” of being judged by other mothers, other women. They were expected to be perfect, and they often felt that they were struggling just to be adequate.

And some of the books on child-rearing just add to the guilt, without empowering the mothers. There are books with terrible advice in any field, but it was a little shocking to be introduced to some of the “experts” in the field of child-rearing, where the “scientific” fads change with every generation.

T. Berry Brazelton, one of the country’s leading authorities on how to care for infants over the past thirty or forty years, wrote of mothers in the highlands of Mexico, who breastfeed up to 70 to 90 times a day. He added, “That’s being “there” for the baby!” And none of this – none of the going and cooing and crawling and bonding and talking and singing and Popsicle-stick-gluing – would work, would mean a thing, he and others wrote, if it was not done with absolute joy, with “great delight and pleasure,” at each and every moment in the day.” (Warner, 71)

Is it any wonder that 70 percent of mothers surveyed in 2000 said they found motherhood “incredibly stressful”? (Warner, 71)

Earlier, Perhaps Saner, Child-rearing Models

It wasn’t always like this. In fact, never before in America – not even in the much-maligned 1950s – has motherhood been conceived in this totalizing, self-annihilating, utterly ridiculous way. (Warner, 71)

The experts of the 1960s held that mothers should set limits on their children’s behavior and on their own level of maternal enmeshment. (79)

The experts (in the 1970s) agreed that unhappy mothers produced unhappy children. (Warner, 84)

The majority opinion in the 1970s was that the key to maternal self-fulfillment was work outside the home. Some experts even opined that working mothers were better mothers than stay-at-home moms. Child psychiatrist Bruno Bettleheim, for one, said that the enforced selflessness of stay-at-home motherhood was ill-suited for educated women – or their children. (Warner, 85-86)

In the 1970s and 1980s, many mainstream baby boomer women prided themselves on breaking with the sacrificial roles that they saw their mothers having played. (Warner, 83) The 1980s were about “self-actualizing, self-fulfilled motherhood.” (Warner, 88) By 1986, a majority of all women with children under age three were in the workforce. (Warner, 89)

By the mid-1980s, mainstream women’s magazines were citing studies showing that working moms were happier, healthier, and less stressed than nonworking mothers. And then, somehow, everything changed. (Warner, 90)

Suddenly, as the 1980s turned into the 1990s, the word “guilt” was everywhere in the magazine stories on motherhood. It was guilt about working, guilt about not being there enough for the children. Working mothers were no longer heroines. They were called villains, selfish and “unnatural.” (Warner, 91)

One woman writing in a 1994 book even compared leaving a baby in a daycare center to the trauma of a child whose mother had died! (Penelope Leach, Children First) (Warner, 99) Against the long history of child-rearing ideologies in our society, this reads – to me, at least — like irresponsible, hysterical, drivel.

Though leaving children in a daycare center is a far more expensive option than most couples can afford, and getting high quality childcare workers is even harder.

And that’s because the US is “the only industrialized country without national maternity benefits, paid leave, or a coherent day care policy.” (Wolf, 230) The Family Leave Act we have lets women take off three months, but without pay. Not many families can afford to do that. You can’t talk about the pressures on parents without talking about the anti-life priorities of our economy.

And daycare is only the tip of an ugly iceberg. The women who provide daycare often do so by putting their own children in even cheaper, less adequate daycare – or leaving them behind, thousands of miles away. As Naomi Wolf put it:

Meanwhile, the children of the army of private and day care caregivers are watched by worse-paid baby-sitters, or by grandmothers, or by relatives in countries far away – in Ecuador and India, in the Caribbean and Central America and the Phillipines. (Wolf, p. 257)

I learned that if I sat in the park with our baby and chatted with an immigrant nanny who was wiping the drool of a white baby, or teaching a white toddler to share, within minutes she would show a photograph of her own children far away, whom she may not have seen for years. And her eyes would fill with tears. (Wolf, p. 258)

When it came to who would take care of the kids, capitalism happened to the women’s movement, and a real gender revolution did not. (Wolf, p. 260)

Last week, USA Today carried an article called “Till Debt Do Us Part,” about how the tensions created by debt may be the biggest single reason many marriages end. (USA Today, 29 April 2006)

And yesterday’s New York Times had a story that talked about a 38 percent increase nationally in home foreclosures in the first quarter of this year over the same period in 2005. Florida had the second-largest number of foreclosures in the nation during that period – 29,636 – behind Texas, which had 40,236. We’re Number One. (From NY Times 6 May 06, “Statistics Aside, Many Feel Pinch of Daily Costs,” by Jennifer Steinhauer.)

Once again, to repeat the quote we can’t hear enough times, the US is “the only industrialized country without national maternity benefits, paid leave, or a coherent day care policy.” (Wolf, 230)

Maybe you think we”ve just never cared about families, or that figuring out how to support them is too hard. But in fact, we did all this during World War II. And we did it quickly – almost intuitively, it seems – and well.

In order to help women join the workforce, the government provided “services – from shopping to laundry, cleaning facilities, a catering kitchen, and child care centers – in each neighborhood clustered as close together as possible and supplemented by family health and recreation facilities.” There was even a mending service for the kids’ torn clothing; and on the way home, the tired mother could pick up a nourishing hot meal, prepared and packed for her at the center, to bring home along with her children! (Naomi Wolf, Misconceptions, p. 232)

After the war, the men needed their jobs back” and this elaborate, smoothly-operating and highly successful solution to the work-family problem was simply shut down. Not even a memory remained in most history books to give women a blueprint with which to agitate for a comparable solution, nor to remind all of us that such a thing could be done. (Wolf, 232)

But we don’t have to wait sixty years to forget important facts. The current often hysterical crop of child-rearing gurus seem to have forgotten that there’s no proof that children suffered in the past because their mothers put them in playpens. There’s no proof that children suffer today because their mothers work. None of the studies conducted on the children of working mothers – in the 1950s, 1960s, 1970s, 1980s and 1990s – have ever shown that a mother’s work outside of home per se has any impact upon her child’s well-being. (The quality of care a child receives while the mother’s away, on the other hand, has a major impact on that child’s well-being, but that’s a whole other story.)

Studies have never shown that total immersion in motherhood makes mothers happy or does their children any good. On the contrary, studies have shown that mothers who are able to make a life for themselves tend to be happy and to make their children happy. The self-fulfillment they get from a well-rounded life actually makes them more emotionally available for themselves, their children, and their husbands. All of this research has been around for decades. (Warner, 133) So has research suggesting that women are happier and healthier when they follow their own needs, whether to work or to be at-home mothers. The message seems to be, if you feel that you should be a stay-at-home mother, then you probably should be. If you feel that you need to return to work, whether full or part-time, then you probably should.

It’s like the instructions in airplanes. When the oxygen mask drops down, put on your own mask first, then help others. Children need happy mothers, not obsessive ones. So do the mothers, and so do the husbands.

And so it’s the Sunday before Mothers’ Day, and we have a week to anticipate the actual day. What can we say, what can I say, to the mothers of young children in the church and elsewhere?

First, thank you. Thank you, thank you, thank you. Motherhood is harder than I knew, harder than many of us know, and because we live in the only industrialized country without national maternity benefits, paid leave, or a coherent day care policy, the weight of raising children falls on parents, and especially on mothers. So thank you.

And about the guilt. The guilt that follows you like a buzzard because there’s too much to do, and you can’t do it perfectly, the guilt that’s always with you, either in the foreground or the back of your mind – my God, you’re forgiven! You’re forgiven! Don’t accept that guilt. Every mother I know is doing about all she knows how to do, and that’s enough! You are being treated like the scapegoats of a society that will not put its money where its mouth is, a society whose behavior and economic priorities show how brutally and completely it ignores the services needed to support a healthy and happy family life in our country. And so all the failings are often dumped on you, and they can drive you crazy. Don’t let them. You’re doing the best you can, and that’s enough. You’re forgiven.

Now we have one week in which to anticipate this year’s Mothers’ Day, a week to consider the high human costs of living in “the only industrialized country without national maternity benefits, paid leave, or a coherent day care policy.”

And a week to consider what gifts we might want to offer – to our mothers, our wives, our friends with children, and to the economic priorities of our greedy country.

So much to think about. So many mothers who could use a gift. So much time. In the meantime and in anticipation of that time – Happy Mothers’ Day.

Prayer – Its Place & Purpose in Our Lives

© Jack Harris-Bonham

April 30, 2006

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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PRAYER:

Dear Father/Mother God; Dear Old Friend; Dear Mystery of many names and Mystery beyond all naming, we stand within the mystery today to discuss the very thing that we’re doing right now.

We know that there is something greater than us out there and within us. We know, we feel, we sense that there is a portion of what we partake of that is greater than anything we can bring to the table.

Some have called that something God, some Mystery, some the Divine Mother, some the Great Spirit, and some the Holy Spirit. Help us mystery beyond naming not to be thrown off by the names that you are known by. We all recognize a dog when we see one, and yet each dog we see is called by a different name. If we like dogs and have become acquainted with one that we later find out has the name of Ralph, we are not offended when that dog’s human calls it Ralph.

In the same way, let us recognize in others the ability to speak to their creator, their source of energy, their place of groundedness in whatever manner, and by whatever name that they see fit.

Let us not think that Allah, Jehovah, Yahweh, Jesus, Mohammed, Buddha, Confucius, Lao Tzu, Milerepa, Mother Earth, or Father Sky are alien beings that we have no contact with.

Help us, that which is greater than us, to surrender ourselves to the storm of spirit that comes over us in sacred moments.

Help us to give credit where credit is due, and to see that everything that we see, hear, touch, feel, taste and sense is but a portion of that great elephant that we blind earthlings grope at and philosophize about.

This we pray in the name of everything that is holy and that is, precisely, everything.

Readings:

If you bring forth what is within you, what you bring forth will save you. If you do not bring forth what is within you, what you do not bring forth will destroy you.

(Gospel of Thomas, saying #70)

Humor is a prelude to faith. Laughter is the beginning of prayer.

(Reinhold Neibuhr)

SERMON: Many Voices

Do you ever feel like someone is watching you? I mean, you’re doing something – something quite ordinary and all of a sudden you stop, you look around – you can feel someone’s eyes on you.

As the world and especially this country gets closer to George Orwell’s 1984 – ah – 1984 – if it were only 1984 – as we get closer to a society that seems to be watching us – well, that’s certainly one way to explain or understand this feeling of having someone’s eyes on you – Big Brother and the Holding Company is watching!

When I used to do the ride-a-long program in Berkeley, California back when I was attending Starr King School for the Ministry there was a sign in the Berkeley Police Department that read, “Just because you’re paranoid, doesn’t mean they’re not out to get you!”

Now, admittedly, this is a few steps past feeling like you’re being watched – this is a feeling that malevolent eyes with ill intent are watching you.

But the feeling of being watched I’m talking about isn’t akin to either one of those feelings. It’s not Big Brother and it’s not paranoia.

Do you remember when you were a child and your family was at the beach or the lake and you were down by the water’s edge playing in the sand, playing in the water – totally lost in your child’s imagination, but then you’d look up and there behind her Foster Grant’s was your mother’s gentle smile? She was watching and maybe you pointed to your sand castle and waved, or maybe you simply returned to your childish games.

This level of being watched isn’t intrusive, but as a child it seemed omnipresent. I feel that this is where a great deal of the world’s religions get the notion that GOD is in God’s heaven, and God and all the saints are in their glass bottom boat in heaven and looking down upon us.

Surely, this is what the Psalmist meant when he sang,

I lift up my eyes to the hills where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth. He will not let your foot slip – he who watches over you will not slumber; indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. The Lord watches over you – the Lord is your shade at your right hand; the sun will no harm you by day, nor the moon by night. The Lord will keep you from all harm – he will watch over your life. the Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore. (Psalm 121 NIV)

But this is not the feeling of being seen/watched that I’m talking about either.

There is a story in Hinduism; I believe it’s in the Upanishads that speaks of the soul being occupied by two birds. One is the bird of appetite. This is the bird that eats, defecates, loves, makes love, the bird that fears and flies away, or the bird that fears and fights.

The other bird’s job is to watch the bird of appetite. As far as I can figure out this “watcher bird” is the one that sees without judgment everything that we do, hears everything we say and the feeling of being watched that I’ve been talking about is somehow narratively explained to me by this concept of the “watcher bird.”

In Peter Barnes’s wonderful play, “The Ruling Class,” the main character, the 14th Earl of Gurney, named Jack, is asked by his aunt when he first realized that he was God. The 14th Earl of Gurney sees himself as God. Jack replies, “One day while I was praying I realized, I’m talking to myself.”

There’s a great deal of wisdom in this remark. For, I believe, that when we are praying, we are praying to ourselves. We, the birds of appetite, pray to our watcher birds.

The God within us – that which seems to be watching us at all times – is mostly a mute God. And we don’t have a remote control – we can’t hit the mute button and all of a sudden have the God within talking – it doesn’t work like that. But just because the God within is mostly mute does not mean that the God within is powerless. Remember there is the still small voice.

I’m going to tell you something now that you might not believe. But why should that stop me – after all you are Unitarian Universalists! Just add it to the list of things you don’t believe! You are praying right now. The Hebrew word for breath (Ruach) is also the Hebrew word for Spirit. As is the Greek word for Spirit and breath – both the same both are pneuma. According to Hebrew scriptures God breathed the breath of life into us and each time we take a breath we are echoing that moment of divine creation. After all, they don’t call it inspiration for nothing! To inspire is to inhale – to breathe in – to breathe life into.

(Frederick Buechner in his book, Wishful Thinking – a Seeker’s ABC’s -) A modern day theologian says, “We all pray whether we think of it as praying or not. The odd silence we fall into when something very beautiful is happening, or something very good, or very bad. The ah-h-h-h! that sometimes floats up out of us as out of a 4th of July crowd when the sky rocket bursts over the water.”

I’m thinking now about September the 11th – 9/11, when I was sitting with my wife, Viv, on the couch at our home. As my wife and I sat there on the couch, closer than usual, holding hands like we’d just started dating, watching the people jump to their deaths, whether we knew it or not, we were praying. Think back on that day – those events – and asked yourself was your attitude prayerful for those people facing death?

If you want proof that prayer is not exclusively tied up with words than go on a silent retreat.

Many people see in Buddhism a peace and serenity that they could not find in Christianity or Judaism. They see in the seated image of the Buddha a peace that they can bring to themselves by assuming that same position. They go to their zafu, meditation cushion, just knowing that sitting will bring them peace. And I submit to you that such logic can be mirrored by the pentetentes – the evangelical Christian zealots – found mostly in Mexico, Central and South America – who volunteer to be crucified on Easter in order to get closer to God. “What,” you say, “how can seated meditation being likened to crucifixion?”

Looking at the Buddha – the inscrutable east – looking at the Buddha one would assume that since he is stationary and in a seated position that he is at peace, but is he?

Jonathan Winters, probably the most gifted comic of our age, parks in handicapped spots wherever he goes and he does not have a handicap sticker on his car. He admits this openly. When he is stopped by someone who says, “Hey, You’re not handicapped!” His response is always “Madam/Sir, Can you see inside my mind?”

It is common knowledge that some of the world’s greatest humorists have led personally tragic lives.

Here’s an exercise that grew from the bio-energetic school of psychology and it drives home this link between the humorous and the tragic – the so-called peace of the divine grin on the Buddha and Christ hanging on the cross. Sit in a room by yourself (and please do this in an empty house unless you want those who are there to call the men in the white coats) – sit in a room and begin laughing. Oh, at first it will sound false – like a bad stage laugh – but eventually you will really be laughing, then something strange will happened – after you have laughed heartily for some time, you will begin to cry. And this crying won’t sound false at all. In fact, it may alarm you how strident and real it sounds. And while you’re there crying – ask yourself prayerfully why are you sad? Investigate your life!

The masks of comedy and tragedy are really only the two sides of a common currency – our emotions. A frown is a smile turned upside down!

But you say, “Look at the Buddha; he is immovable, like a rock, a part of nature’s serenity oozes from him.”

There has been a lot recently in the news concerning torture. A man in China was tortured by being made to lie on a soft bed and told not to move. Days of this lying on a soft bed and not moving wracked his body with excruciating pain. In the end this man admitted that he would have preferred to have been beaten.

My point is this – if you think sitting quietly doing nothing is peaceful you haven’t tried, in any extended manner, to do so.

When I attended my first seven day sesshin, meditation retreat, at the Marie Kannon Zen Center in Dallas, Texas three and one half days into the sesshin and I knew I hated each of the people on either side of me and I didn’t even know their names.

Take it from me the bird of appetite does not want the ground and focus to change. The bird of appetite wants to remain the focus. The bird of appetite wants the watcher bird to stay background. The bird of appetite is hard-pressed to let consciousness shift to the watcher bird.

In John Paul Sartre’s novel, Nausea, he says he realized how ridiculous human life was when one day from inside a French Caf he watched two people conversing on the street. The glass prevented him from hearing and their gesticulations and gestures rendered them absurd and caused him to feel sick, nauseous, hence the title, Nausea.

In Albert Camus’ novel, The Fall, the main character, John Baptiste, has his world shattered one day when he hears laughter and imagines that the derision of that laughter is directed at him. The beginning of self-consciousness can be upsetting. The world that we thought we knew has changed and watching ourselves can be very unsettling. Think of the first time you heard your recorded voice or saw home videos of yourself.

We’re afraid of the watcher bird. As the philosopher once said, “The sharp points of moral and social criticism cannot pass through others without first passing through us.”

It’s easy – it’s simpler to simply put the Watcher Bird outside ourselves, call it God, call it mystery, but don’t call it home.

(Ralph Waldo Emerson in his Divinity School Address said) But that which places God outside of us diminishes us, and that which places the divine within empowers us.

I want to empower each and every one of you here today. I want you to take back the power of prayer. I want you to realize that you are praying and part of you is listening and the part of you that is listening may, in fact, be in a very concrete manner answering all your prayers.

One who prays is called a prayer, P-R-A-Y-E-R. What one does when one prays is called prayer, P-R-A-Y-E-R. Prayer and prayer – the same thing.

I have a friend, Ken Markum. He’s a therapist. He does most of his therapy over the phone. Hey, if you can have phone sex, you can certainly have phone therapy.

Ken’s got a great metaphor that he swears is more than a metaphor. Ken says that the Holy Ghost, the Holy Spirit, – that part of us that in the Jesus’ narrative was sent to be with us – the paraclete – the defending counsel – the comforter – the advocate – Ken says the Holy Spirit is a big, black dog.

This big black dog is called the Spirit of Truth and is described in John 16:13. “When the Spirit of truth comes, he will guide you into all truth; for he will not speak on his own, but will speak whatever he hears, and he will declare to you the things that are to come.”

He will declare to you the future.

And that guide dog of truth is faithful to you. Whenever and whatever you speak the faithful guide dog will echo back to you and that echo will become your life. It is your future.

When was the last time you took a big dog on a walk? You’d better pay attention to her. She’ll drag you off after a squirrel. It’s time to judge our ability to command spirit. What does Spirit see in us? What does Spirit hear from us? What is happening in our lives that, perhaps unknown to us, Spirit is accomplishing?!

It is my opinion that this big, black dog, this Holy Spirit – the Better Angel of our nature – is in fact the Watcher Bird of the Upanishads. This big black dog is faithful to us. It listens to everything we say – it considers everything we say a command! And it carries out each of these commands to the letter.

This big black dog is listening all the time. When others are not around, when we’re by ourselves, when we’re in our car in bad traffic, taking a walk to blow off steam after a fight with the spouse or kids, the big black dog is there by our side – listening – listening.

Albert Einstein said, “The world we have created is a product of our thinking. It cannot be changed without changing our thinking.”

I submit to you today that our world is also what we say to ourselves and to change our world we must change what we say to ourselves – especially what we say to ourselves when we imagine no one is listening.

You’ve heard this a million times. Someone has a job to do, a task to take care of. They describe this task, this job and they say things like, “This is going to be hard!” or “This is impossible!” or “I’m just not capable of doing this!” “There isn’t enough time.” “This will never work, this is too difficult, out of my league, problematic, beyond me, so hard to understand.” We’ve heard it before. We’ve said it before. It’s the language of labor and our daily conversations are full of it. Start paying attention to yourselves and others – you’ll be flabbergasted how much language of labor fills our days. The Psalmist again, Draw me not away with the wicked, and with the workers of iniquity, which speak peace to their neighbors, but mischief is in their hearts. (Psalm 28:3 KJV)

Well, my friends, the big black dog is watching, the big black dog is listening and when the big black dog hears its master’s voice – your voice – it can’t wait to fulfill your commands.

I like this notion of the Holy Spirit – it’s not a very discerning spirit – but it’s eager to please.

You say your life is crap. You life will soon be crappier. The big black dog will do everything in its power to deliver an abundance of crap.

You say you hate yourself, your life – your life will become hateful – hate filled.

You say you’re tired of living? The big black dog will find a way for you to die.

And you needn’t think of this as superstition. On the ground level this is simply self-fulfilling prophesy.

Why is it, do you suppose, that the great religions of the world all echo the sentiments of the Psalmist, “Be still and know that I am God.”

For at some point in the meditation process the doer bird, the bird of appetite will grow silent – judgment will stop passing his lips, the language of labor will cease and sitting on the couch of your soul the bird of appetite and the watcher bird will stop preening and settle down in the nest together, conscious of each other, watchful without judgment.

The content of the majority of traditional prayers are prayers of request. We’re asking for something.

Because we don’t know how to pray or don’t know we are praying, what gets left out of most prayer is thanksgiving.

We put Thanksgiving off to one day a year – the third weekend in November and we combine it with a Dallas Cowboys’ football game.

Do yourself a favor – get into gratitude. Give thanks, give praise for your life and “when you are weary and you can’t sleep, just count your blessings instead of sheep.”

Prayer is not talking to some power source outside yourself, outside your being.

Prayer is also not the Bird of Appetite cheerleading the Watcher Bird through the valley of death. Self help books are mostly help yourself books and affirmations – as George Harrison sang, “By chanting the name of the Lord you’ll be free.” All these efforts are simply efforts to counter our language of strife and labor, but in the end they do not reach the source. They are cosmetic. They skim the surface much like the child’s notion of not hearing the parents (hands over ears and saying nah-nah-nah-nah).

Real prayer is consciousness directed toward the moment – this moment – right now. Prayer is power because it is only in the moment that anything can be done, thought, taught, brought up, acted upon, changed.

A Gestalt therapist would say, this kind of prayer is simply getting out of your own way and letting your life live itself. This kind of prayer is simply shifting consciousness to the watcher bird and being in the end a non-anxious presence in our own and others lives. Be passers by. The micromanagement of life is contrary to the process of life. The process happens in the moment. If you’re worried about the past, anxious about the future, you’ve just placed yourself the two places where there is no power and no life.

Be – here – now!

If you bring forth what is within you, what you bring forth will save you. If you do not bring forth what is within you, what you do not bring forth will destroy you. (Gospel of Thomas #70)

Always remembering, “Humor is a prelude to faith and laughter the beginning of prayer.”

Where Do We Go From Here? – Ballou-Channing District Meeting

© Davidson Loehr

29 April 2006

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

This address is not available on audio but the same subject was covered in a shorter sermon of the same name delivered on May 21, 2006. Audio is available on that sermon.

Ballou-Channing District keynote address

This was given on 29 April 2006 as the keynote address at the annual district meeting of the Ballou-Channing District of the Unitarian Universalist Association, and has been slightly expanded for this version.

I’ve been asked to speak to you on the question of where we go from here. For me, that also involves the question of where we are, and how we got here. And that may raise the question of why on earth anybody would care about questions like this. So I’ll start there.

These questions matter because in the UUA, we’re in a non-moving “movement” that is dying, and has been dying since before the merger of Unitarians and Universalists in 1961.

What does that mean, to say we’re dying? It means, for example, that the adult membership of the UUA has declined by more than 44% since 1970 relative to the population of the U.S. Even in real numbers, we had over 12,000 fewer members in 2000 than in 1970. Or more locally, that your Ballou-Channing District is losing around 2% of its adult members annually, while the population in this area continues to grow.

But during those thirty years, the population of the U.S. increased by over 37%, while UU adult members decreased by 7%. If adult membership had simply kept up with the U.S. population increases, there would now be 230,000 adult UUs rather than the 155,449 reported in 2000.

Another way of saying it is to note that according to the 2005 Directory of the Unitarian Universalist Association, there are 1039 UU congregations, 525 of which – more than half – have less than 100 members. Such small congregations cannot be expected to provide adequate compensation for full-time professional service, but newly fellowshipped parish ministers, with an average of $40,000 in educational loan debt, need fulltime employment.

(This information comes from the new website www.uumal.org. The “uumal” stands for “UU Ministers at Large,” and their proposal is that those entering the parish ministry would do well to have another way of making a living. They cite several UU ministers who are earning their living as lawyers or teachers, and lending their services to UU churches for little or no money. This is another measure of a dying movement, a dying profession.)

This isn’t only a problem in our churches. The reason we now have more women preparing for parish ministry than men is the same reason the Presbyterians and Methodists also do: because many men are no longer applying to seminaries, because they no longer see this as a profession in which they can earn enough to support a family, and see little chance of getting into a well-paying church even twenty years down the road. It isn’t seen as a profession with a promising future, so (especially) men aren’t choosing it. About fifty years ago, I’ve read that about 10% of Phi Beta Kappa students went into the ministry. I don’t know the figures, but suspect it would be less than 1% now. Being smarter than the average bear isn’t everything; but it’s something.

So the question of whether there is anywhere to go from here, or whether it’s just been a good ride that’s ending, is a serious question. And I don’t see a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. I think there are some clear reasons to be pessimistic, which I’ll cover later. But I do think that it can be a kind of victory even to arrive back where we started, and know the place for the first time, as T. S. Eliot put it.

So what I want to do with you during the time we have this morning is to look at how we got where we are today, try to be more clear about just where it is that we are today, then to wonder with you about where we might go from here.

There are ways in which this talk is like the first part of a Lutheran sermon, that just goes down before coming up (a little) at the end. And that’s because the history of liberal religion over the past two centuries has largely been the story of the deconstruction and dissolution of the Christian and theistic myths that had been a core part of our Western civilization. That may be a new way of framing the history of liberal religion, but I think it’s accurate and useful. The most reliable estimates I know of say that only about 21% of Americans regularly attend religious services of any kind now (Kirk Hadaway, who has written about a dozen books in this area). Four out of five Americans – no matter what the media may say – don’t see religion as important enough to make a regular part of their lives.

There are many methods of studying religion, each showing a different facet of the problem. I’m a theologian, so I want to look mostly at the birth and development of liberal theology over the past two hundred years. I see it as a Trojan Horse, containing within it the seeds of deconstruction and dissipation of the intellectual foundations Western religions – see if I can persuade you.

Let’s start with some definitions. The word “religion” is usually associated with some sort of belief in supernatural critters, even though that doesn’t fit religions like Buddhism or Taoism. But the root meaning of the word comes from the Latin religio. The “re-” means “to do again,” and the root “lig” is the same root we see in words like ligament and ligature. It means a kind of connection. Religion is the search for a kind of reconnection.

Religion is also usually linked, at least in our culture, with the word “salvation.” Again, this is commonly understood as being about living somewhere else and later. But the roots of the word are completely this-worldly. It comes from the Latin word meaning “to save,” but also the root of the word “salve.” It is a healthy kind of wholeness. Putting them together, I see the religious quest as the search for a sense of reconnection to a healthy kind of wholeness.

Now, what happened to that over the past two hundred years that affects us? This starts a bit abstractly, but I hope it feels more down to earth soon.

The Western Enlightenment of the late 18th century freed reason from its allegiance to tradition, pronounced the human mind capable of examining all subjects, and all subjects – including religion – open to our most critical questioning. This contained the seeds of the end of Western theism, in ways that would not have been destructive to Eastern religions. Why? Because Western religions have always taught their myths as though they were history, as though they were facts.

On the other hand, Hinduism’s favorite god, Krishna, has blue skin; another, the beloved lucky-charm god Ganesh, has a human body and an elephant’s head; others have four arms. These imaginative fantasy pictures tell all Hindus the gods are symbols, not meant to be taken literally. So to tell a Hindu that these stories are really myths might show them that you’ve mastered the basics of Hinduism 101.

Buddhism has no gods, and teaches that we need to wake up from the illusions within which we live – illusions we create mostly through the ways we mislead ourselves with language. In this sense, the best Buddhism was an ancient version of the 20th century language philosopher Ludwig Wittgenstein, who also said that philosophy and religion create problems rather than solving them, by bewitching us with misleading language. And once more these religions can only start making sense once you realize that, of course, their stories are myths, and were not historically true. The fundamental problems in life – as both Wittgenstein and the Buddhists would say – don’t need to be (and can’t be) solved; they need to be dissolved, through understanding them in a different and more honest way.

But in the religions that grew from the Hebrew scriptures, the myths were taught as though they were facts: Abraham talking with God, being willing to sacrifice his son, Moses escaping from Egypt, David killing Goliath, Samson pulling down the temple, Jesus as the son of God in some strange genetic sense, Jesus walking on water, turning water into wine, coming back to life and the rest of it, or the prophet and poet Mohammad passively transcribing the word of God spoken into his ear. These are also myths, not historical happenings. But Western religion has ridden the literal reading of its scriptures from the start, no matter how many of its best thinkers have objected vigorously.

The God of the Bible was given human-like attributes because it was seen as a Being – a male being who once walked in the garden with Adam. It could be pictured, as Michaelangelo did. Biblical scholars have shown that the God of the bible was modeled on a tribal chief, and that the covenant between God and his people was modeled on ancient Hittite suzerainty treaties. This is why “he” gives orders, commandments, sets behavioral boundaries, promises to protect those who serve “him” and punish outsiders and the disobedient.

Of course this god was made up by creative people, just as Krishna, Ganesh, Kali and the rest were. All these questions rose to the surface with the Enlightenment. And once you start asking these questions, they lead far beyond the reach of that religion, or any religion. American Unitarianism was born and grew to adolescence fed by these questions.

The man called the Father of Liberal Theology, a German theologian named Friedrich Schleiermacher, was a child of the Enlightenment, and argued in a 1799 book still in print today that religion was a human invention, in pursuit of the human yearning to grow to our fullest size. This move brought both religion and God down to earth, where they have stayed ever since.

All liberal theologians following Schleiermacher have been influenced by him, including Theodore Parker and Ralph Waldo Emerson. American Unitarianism began by removing the notion of supernatural divinity from the man Jesus, and speaking of God in such ways that words like Nature or Reason could often be substituted without loss, as Enlightenment thinkers (like Thomas Jefferson) did.

Why was this a Trojan Horse? Because when we see that the word “God” is about our own best guesses, not the description of a supernatural Fellow’s mandates, then the real authority for all of our religious pronouncements is revealed to be ourselves. It is like the scene in “The Wizard of Oz” where the little dog Toto pulls back the curtain revealing the Wizard to be nothing but an illusion created by the little man behind the screen. This is what the Enlightenment did to the best religious thinkers to follow it. So we can doubt or shrug off God, or anything about God, because what we are confronting is only the imaginations and assertions or concepts of other people. “God-talk” became an idiom of expression, a way of talking, about enduring questions rather than talk about a fellow called God, and the questions were primary, not the linguistic idiom. This revolution was built into the American Unitarian movement from the beginning, though its implications took a century or so to become evident.

But something else was going on in the 19th century that also gave liberal religion – perhaps especially the religion of the Unitarians – its special boldness, its genius, and its Trojan Horse quality. This was the rise of the natural sciences, which just exploded during the first 2/3 of that century. They shattered the worldview within which the God of Western religion had its only coherent home, and established the modern worldview within which the Unitarian spirit had its home.

It’s worth understanding how dramatically that earlier worldview changed, and how the Unitarians were wedded to the emerging picture of the world rather than the traditional one.

It may be hard to believe how much our picture of the world has changed since our country was founded, but in 1785, when the bone of some large animal was dug up in Virginia, Thomas Jefferson wanted Lewis and Clark to find that animal on their westward trip. Because “Such is the economy of Nature,” said Jefferson, “that no instance can be found of her ever letting one of her species become extinct.” Thomas Jefferson said that! By 1803, the Frenchman Cuvier had assembled the skeletons of 23 extinct species, which toured Europe and this country. The earth was thousands of times older than the Bible said. This culture’s primary Sacred Text was wrong, on many points.

I remember reading one quite poignant story about how the fact of extinct species struck one minister in the early 19th century. Another skeleton had been unearthed from an obviously extinct species. This minister looked down into the hole and said “But why would God see fit to destroy what he once saw fit to create?” And you can almost imagine the next question that must have occurred to him: “And if them, why not us?” If God wasn’t in charge and wasn’t watching over us, why should we care what “the word of God” said?

Religion came to a fork in the road in the early part of the 19th century. Believers could either hold to their received faith and find a way to deny or bracket the emerging sciences, or they could side with the emerging worldview, and be willing to amend or even lose their received faith. The majority chose faith over science, and many still struggle with this. But the Unitarians and other liberals – and I think this was their genius – sided instead with the new sciences. What they were saying was that we understand ourselves and our world through these emerging sciences, so we must stand there. And then it is the job of religion to revisit its traditions and messages, to see if they still have anything relevant to offer to us. Or more accurately, it is our job to find other ways to read the teachings of religion that can make sense. And then religion is only useful if we can be persuaded that it has as much coherent wisdom as our favorite psychologies, philosophies, poems and sciences.

Taking this path allowed the 19th century Unitarians and other religious liberals to gain a kind of intellectual integrity denied to those who must protect the tenets of their faith from the scalpels and blunt jackhammers of critical sciences and philosophies. It is my favorite aspect of that path, and why I can still identify myself as a Unitarian, though not as a Unitarian Universalist.

But it came at a price. Declaring all traditional religious teachings as human teachings open to our critiques removed them from the realm of the sacred. In fact, the whole category of “the sacred” itself was redefined as our own best thoughts, or our own best interpretations of ancient myths and stories. Notice that there is no necessary God in this picture.

However, though the sciences might be correct, they weren’t comforting, and most people then and now want comfort more than they want clarity. So it was still assumed, and preached, that the old God loved us, and affirmed our basic worth. But God had ceased to be a Being, and had become a concept, an idea. This was the real revolution of liberal religion: the transformation of God from a Being to a concept. And concepts don’t see, hear, care, plan or love. So when liberal preachers of 1850, or 1950, or 2006, say that of course there’s no Guy in the Sky, no Fellow, no Critter, but nevertheless it is true that God loves us, that’s wanting the smile without the Cat. And without the Cat, there is no smile. Even the best seminaries and divinity schools, in my experience, still haven’t come to terms with this in any candid way, and are still trying to save face for the old language-game. But some 19th century Christian thinkers saw this very early on.

In 1841, a man named Ludwig Feuerbach wrote another book that is still in print, still read at better seminaries and divinity schools. The book was called The Essence of Christianity, and that essence, he said, was projection. We took all of our own most admired traits, and projected them outward on the gods we had created as their temporary vehicles. Then we spent years on our knees, begging for the return from these gods we had created of enough worth and dignity to let us live with hope. So four decades after Schleiermacher, one man who had been influenced by him defined religion, not as the way we come to our human fullness, but as the bad force that separates us from ourselves. And what we needed, he said, was to translate the teachings of religion into anthropology, into the study and understanding of humans. The next 150 years would see liberal culture and religion going exactly there.

Ralph Waldo Emerson and Henry David Thoreau left Christianity and Western theism behind almost completely. The religious scripture that made them glassy-eyed wasn’t the Bible, but the Hindu Bhagavad Gita. And by the late 19th century, Unitarians and other liberals had moved not only God but also heaven down to earth, deciding that they could figure out how to build the kingdom of heaven right here, since there was no longer anywhere “up there” to imagine “going” after we died. This was the birth of the social gospel movement, which is still at the center of our “social justice” dreams.

There were powerful critiques of this naive arrogance, but liberals seemed to ignore them, then and now. After World War I, for instance, the theologian Karl Barth said something was wrong with this liberal notion that every day in every way we’re moving onward and upward in a never-ending spiral of Progress. This great, enlightened race, he noted, had just produced the worst war in human history. The truth, he said, is that we do not know how to create the ideal world. Removing the sense of transcendence from God and religion left us to our own uninspired means, and we couldn’t do it. We can shrug off gods, but can’t become gods.

This critique started the movement back to neo-orthodoxy, kind of a last-ditch attempt to save face for the old transcendent God. But it couldn’t last because in the modern world there was no soil in which such a Being could exist. The symbolic word “God” could only exist in our imaginations, not in or above our world. And this changed everything. This still hasn’t really sunk in, in our thinking and speaking about religions and enduring human questions and yearnings – much as we still speak of the sun’s “rising” each morning, centuries after we realized that the earth’s spinning and revolving account for the illusion that the sun is rising.

In the 20th century, liberal religion seemed to divide into liberal politics, and psychology. The century’s greatest Protestant theologian, Paul Tillich, translated theology into depth psychology – much as Ludwig Feuerbach had dreamed of back in 1841. Rather than the overloaded word God, Tillich spoke of our “ultimate concerns,” and said – much as Schleiermacher had – that these became for us our God. This made intuitive sense to many people. But once you can say this, you no longer need God-language at all, because you have found another way of saying it that doesn’t involve splitting your mind into mythic and modern halves. We were playing games with language when we used the word “God” in the modern world, but the games no longer required any sort of God at all.

That was the deconstruction that lived inside the Trojan Horse of 19th century liberal religious thought.

One final vision of the language game I’m trying to identify comes from the philosopher Ludwig Wittgenstein:

Imagine this game – I call it “tennis without a ball”: The players move around on a tennis court just as in tennis, and they even have rackets, but no ball. Each one reacts to his partner’s stroke as if, or more or less as if, a ball had caused his reaction. (Maneuvers.) The umpire, who must have an “eye” for the game, decides in questionable cases whether a ball has gone into the net, etc., etc. This game is obviously quite similar to tennis and yet, on the other hand, it is fundamentally different.” – For there is no “ball.”

Theology without a “theos” (god) is a lot like tennis without a ball. The talk is similar, the ecclesiastical moves are similar, there are still enough conflicting certainties to go to war over, and the costumes stay the same. And yet, on the other hand, it is a fundamentally different game! When gods die, we need a healthy suspicion of the people dressing up in their clothes; it’s like the difference between Elvis and Elvis impersonators, without the music.

By mid-20th century, both Unitarian Christianity and Christian Universalism had mostly exhausted their spirits. In 1961, most of America’s scattered little groups of Unitarians and Universalists didn’t want to (and didn’t) worship together. Where they did come together, and saw one another often, was in the important secular activity of political action during the middle part of the 20th century.

When the two moribund denominations merged in 1961 some of the most important aspects of that merger were either not seen, or were ignored:

1. Neither Unitarianism nor Universalism was by then a vibrant or even viable religion.

2. What was significant about them was not theological, but political. Both had merged, to differing degrees, with the general assumptions of America’s cultural liberals: the well-educated people who voted for liberal social policies and could be counted on to support most individual-rights causes.

There were good reasons why no one noticed that religious beliefs were no longer the center of this new merger. One of those reasons was that by 1961, American religious liberals in general were losing their voice and their attachment to the traditional theological assumptions of Christianity. The word “liberal” meant political rather than religious liberals, and cultural liberals were bored with the supernatural baggage of Christianity, as they had been for over 200 years.

But another reason religion wasn’t missed in the UUA was that, in the 1950s and 1960s, the spirit of liberal religion couldn’t compare in relevance, excitement or moral clarity with the spirit of liberal politics. For good reasons, the “salvation story” of America’s religious liberals became the salvation story of political liberalism. It was a very distinctive story, with a dark side still seldom acknowledged.

The best example of this story was probably the civil rights movement of the 1950s. After Rosa Parks wouldn’t give up her seat on the bus, many white liberals followed outraged black leaders into the civil rights movement. While the movement was mostly organized and led by black people, it’s fair to say that it would not have succeeded without the support of liberal whites. They rightfully felt virtuous for their good efforts, and a new salvation story took shape. The role of liberals would be to speak up for victim groups, to accept the gratitude of their chosen victim groups, and to feel virtuous for their efforts.

So what liberals did have – and in the 60s and 70s it seemed exciting and sufficient – was a political ideology. The 60s and 70s were heady times for political liberalism in America. Individual rights movements were in full bloom, and liberal Methodists, Unitarians, Presbyterians, Baptists, Catholics, Episcopalians, atheists, feminists, gay rights activists and civil rights activists thrilled to the feeling that we were remaking America in the image of our shared liberal ideology.

Liberal politics replaced religion as the shared center of Unitarians and Universalists in the mid-20th century, and remains their shared center today. If this is seldom mentioned, it may be because it’s just too obvious. I don’t know what percentage of adult members of UU churches are registered Democrats or Green Party, but nationally it must be ten to fifty times the number of registered Republicans. This political story has its own kind of “salvation story,” though I think not one that works any more.

I want to describe the salvation story of American secular political liberalism and official “UUism” as I have observed it for the past twenty-five or thirty years. See if it doesn’t sound familiar.

The salvation story of leftist American politics has five parts:

1. Liberals select a few token groups among the many possible: blacks, women, gays and lesbians, etc. (In Marxist terms, these are our token proletariat groups.)

2. They define these groups as “victims” (rather than, say, survivors or warriors).

3. In return, they give special attention to these token “victims” within their small circles of influence.

4. The “victims” are presumed to feel grateful for this …

5. … and the liberals feel virtuous.

This remains the salvation story of political liberalism – and ideologically-driven “anti-oppression” schemes, which remain willfully unaware of the self-serving oppression of their own schemes.

This salvation story worked pretty well in the 1950s. But the individual rights movements of the 60s and 70s began to seek identities as survivors and warriors rather than victims, and they neither wanted nor allowed white liberals to define them as victims or speak for them.

This began with the emergence of powerful and articulate spokesmen in the civil rights and Black power movements. It continued with the women’s movement, which began and remained in the voices of a handful of charismatic and articulate women. Religious liberals were welcome to follow, but they were not leading, and could get slapped upside the head for defining these warriors as victims. (For those familiar with Greek mythology, the patron goddess of the American women’s movement was Artemis. I can’t imagine anyone defining Artemis as a victim and living to tell the tale!)

Without a group of people to define as victims and speak for, the salvation story of political liberalism and “UUism” is bankrupt. This wasn’t just a problem of “UUs,” but of all cultural liberals.

What happened next was kind of amazing, in a Vaudevillian way. Liberals either needed a new salvation story – which is a lot of hard work – or another clever way to try and extend the usable life of this one. They chose the easier path, and began inventing new victim groups, whose permission they didn’t need to speak up for them. This was part of the genesis of the Political Correctness movement, which at times seemed to have a victim-du-jour for whom they felt called to speak, still feeling virtuous. You’ve seen signs of this in the UUA, as well, where it has long seemed like we”ve become like ambulance-chasers, looking for the liberal cause with the highest media coverage, so we can rush to climb on its bandwagon for a few days.

The worst of this slide into the self-righteous Political Correctness movement came when some liberals began claiming special attention as victims themselves. We are not served well by acting weak, and we discredit our proud intellectual, liberal and Unitarian heritage with that whiny move. With this move from feeling “saved” by speaking for token victims, finally to speaking as victims, the deconstruction of our little branch of the Western religious story was complete. We had gone from being children of a transcendent God to the unwept victims of an indifferent world.

I see this two-century history of Western religious liberalism as a kind of downward spiral that began in the Enlightenment. That’s a broad claim, and it may or may not seem too sweeping to you. Here’s what I mean by it. The Enlightenment and the Romantic eras both brought God and religion down to earth. The concept of God, which we could no longer coherently imagine to be a Fellow, a Being, was unmasked as the projection of our own ultimate concerns. In the late 19th century, liberals decided that they could figure out how to create the kingdom of heaven here on earth, and accepted these fantasies of creating the ideal society here on earth in place of hoping for a heaven in a place above the sky that no longer existed. Some liberals lost confidence in this fantasy after World War I, but regained it in the 1950s and 1960s with the civil rights and women’s movements. But we began losing it again in the 1970s, as it became clear that we had no real influence, money or respect in society, and didn’t have the power to change much, even if we knew how we thought it should be changed. By now, we have become even less powerful and more marginal.

Perhaps, if the ideals of 70s liberalism ever regained political and social power, UU churches would grow. But it isn’t likely. It’s more likely that that ideology is dead or dying, as we will also be if we can’t find a different center: a religious or spiritual center.

And so: where do we go from here?

This has answers – very different answers – at three levels.

First, we can consider the largest, broadest context, and ask “Where do we go from here as the UUA, as a small international religious movement?” Second, we can ask, more locally, “Where do we go from here as our local church?” And third, we can ask, “Where do we go from here as individual seekers in the liberal religious traditions?” I’ll give very brief suggestions to answers at each of these levels.

A. Where do we go from here as the UUA, as a small international religious movement?

One answer must be, “perhaps nowhere.” Everything seems to point to a commitment to denial and a contentment with just dwindling away, not with a bang but a whimper. It’s a very real possibility.

Especially on the scale of “the movement,” I think the signs point to a movement without much possibility of changing its direction. For one thing, we don’t have the possibility of educating our ministers differently, even if we knew how to. Retired UU minister Jack Mendelson has set up a new, depressing, website called “UU Ministers at Large” (www.uumal.org), cited earlier, suggesting that those preparing for the UU ministry should find another way of making a living, so they can offer “ministerial” services to UU church at little or no cost. This isn’t a solution; it’s an autopsy. We have only two “UU” seminaries, Meadville/Lombard Theological School in Chicago, and the Starr King School for the Ministry in Berkeley. While these schools have always been seen as having very different cultures, they are the only two we have that are grounded in the basic liberal culture of UU churches. And confidential talks are going on with the aim of finding a way to combine the two seminaries into just one, since we can no longer afford to maintain two separate schools. I can’t imagine what form of beast could result from the mating of Meadville and Starr King, and don’t look forward to it.

Right now, those preparing for UU ministry are doing so through seventy-five different institutions, meaning that virtually all of our ministers will be educated in Christian seminaries, learning texts, symbols, metaphors and vocabularies that must look backward in time rather than ahead to a post-Christian, wildly pluralistic world. This doesn’t look promising. Without having educational institutions that actually educate our ministers, we have no means of teaching a unique perspective, even if we could articulate one. I don’t see any way past this damning difficulty. How long do you think Roman Catholicism would last if 90% of their priests were educated in Methodist seminaries?

Another bleak prospect is overcoming the powerful culture of narcissism that is probably too deeply embedded in the UU culture to be dislodged. One measure of this is the longstanding habit of wanting to claim notable Americans that once, we insist, belonged to our club – the t-shirts we”ve all seen with a fair number of famous or pseudo-famous people who were, we think, either Unitarians or Universalists. Besides the fact that many names just don’t belong on the list, why on earth should we care whether they belonged to our club? Isn’t the point of a living religion, instead, to seek wisdom that helps us live more wisely and well? And if so, why would the search be limited to club members? Why not, instead, a list with names like The Upanishads, The Buddha, Lao Tzu, Confucius, Amos, Jesus, and other great sages and prophets from the world’s best religious and philosophical traditions? What is to be gained from waving about the names of a few well-known and (more often) barely-known dead people? Is there anything to this beyond the desperation of a completely marginalized, impotent and moribund movement trying to whimper, “Yes, we may be irrelevant, but once there people who actually amounted to something, who were (mostly tangentially, or barely) connected to earlier versions of the movements from which we’re trying to squeeze the last drops of a viable identity”? I don’t think this is overstated.

Our ministerial education isn’t grounded in the worldwide wisdom traditions, and I’m not sure there are any academic curricula equipped to teach that tradition, or produce PhD’s capable of teaching it.

And why on earth do we insist on trying to peg the wisdom we do cite to the handful of dead people who were once, we think, either Unitarians or Universalists? What is there to this beyond the same desperate narcissism? But how, and where, could we teach anything different, even if we wanted to, when virtually all of our future ministers will learn their understanding of “religion” from 70-odd Christian seminaries?

For these reasons and more, I think one serious answer to “Where do we go from here as the UUA, as a small international religious movement?” is simply, “Nowhere. From here, we just continue to dissipate into the ether of a fading nostalgia for the secular and political liberalism of the 1960s and 1970s.”

B. Where do we go from here as our local church?

I’ve heard from some Alban Institute seminars that, as money gets tighter, the most vulnerable churches are the mid-sized churches. Large churches usually have big enough budgets, not only to weather storms, but also to hire the necessary help (as staff or consultants) to react pro-actively. Small churches that exist as “family” churches can have the “familial” cohesion to stick together, with or without a full-time minister. But mid-sizes churches moving into the “Program Church” style no longer have the simpler “single-family” cohesion, and lack the budget of larger churches.

Another answer at the “church demographics” level is that white-haired congregations are visibly grounded in the past, as churches with younger hair colors are more likely to be invested in the future. There is much talk within the UUA of a “commitment to growth,” and all seem to mean by this a desire to attract more younger people. But younger church cultures are very different, and I doubt that most (not all) “older” congregations would welcome or accept the changes that younger members bring when they take over church leadership. Young people have different priorities than older people: spiritually, socially, and economically.

Here, we”ve learned some things in Austin that might be useful to others. In 2001, we began a three-year experiment with a Sunday evening worship service designed by, and to attract, 30-somethings, called Sunday Night Live! While we had the same sermon and prayer as the two morning services, nothing else was the same. The services brought in local bands, had much clapping, a lot more noise in general, and had 30-somethings taking far more active roles as Lay Leaders. The preacher was only on stage during the prayer and sermon: the 30-somethings ran the rest. These were wonderful services, and I’ll always treasure the time of working with our 30-somethings. We ultimately cancelled the service – still to the deep sadness and regret of some of our members – because attendance, which had risen to around 60-75, had dropped to under 30. What was really happening, we learned, was that younger people may have come because of SNL, but if they stayed, they transferred to the morning services, because they wanted a more traditional service – and religious education, which was not offered in the evening.

I had hoped to attract younger people into the church, and into its leadership, and that happened. I’d estimate that about three-quarters of our new members are under 40, including our outgoing board president. The “rules’ we established as changes in the church culture, which I think were needed, included the understanding that “Everyone has permission to fail, so we might as well try interesting ideas,” and “The fact that something has not been done here before is one of the strongest arguments for trying it now.”

As the younger members begin to articulate what the church now “is,” I’ve found that some (not all) older members no longer feel that the church is meeting their needs. I think it’s fair to say that a church structured for the future will be more comfortable for people in their 30s and 40s than it will be for people in their 60s to 80s – and I can think of some older Unitarian churches that would not welcome this.

And a third kind of real-world answer to where individual churches will go from here depends on their minister, the culture of the congregation, and the match in chemistry and style between minister and congregation. Healthy matches can survive, regardless of their theology or, probably, their size.

C. Where do we go from here as individual seekers in the liberal religious traditions?

Here, the picture can be as intelligent, informed and optimistic as the individual seekers are. The UUA, like most liberal religious denominations, moved from a religious to a political center during the 1960s, and that seems unlikely to provide much depth or future for either individuals or churches. But individuals can shift their centers far more easily than churches or denominations can. So here, the answer can be powerfully optimistic.

The search for a religious center doesn’t have to start from scratch. Even a cursory study of the world’s great traditions shows us that religion does have an enduring subject matter. Its insights measure the quality of our lives and our worlds, for better and worse, whether we “believe in them” or not. Most of these truths do not seem to have changed much in recorded history. They seem to be species-specific traits and norms that most peoples of most times have recognized as inviolable, and which we also recognize as inviolable – though we seldom articulate these facts:

* The Way we seek is older than the gods, as Lao-tzu said.

* We want to learn how to relish the transient pleasures of life without becoming limited and defined by them, and how to nurture our life-giving circles of friends – as the Epicureans taught.

* We know that neither we nor any supernatural agencies can control what life brings our way, so we should learn how to control our responses to life – as the Stoics taught.

* Most of us believe in “salvation through understanding,” as the Buddhists have taught.

* We need to be reminded – in the Roman Seneca’s magnificent phrase – that we are all limbs on the body of humanity, and we must learn to act accordingly.

* We know, but want to be reminded, that if only we could treat all others as our equals, our brothers and sisters, as “children of God,” that we could transform this world into a paradise – as Jesus taught in his concept of the “kingdom of God.”

And world religions all think it’s hard – that there are hard demands, and that few are ever willing to do the work:

– Islam teaches the path as the razor edge of a sword stretched across an abyss.

– Jesus talked about the narrow way that few entered.

– Hinduism also speaks of the path as razor-edged, and has so many stories about how many lives you”d have to live, in order to get it right.

– Buddhists teach how hard it is just to wake up, to outgrow the comforting illusions of “our kind of people.” It’s at least as hard today, especially when the illusions of our kind of people provide the only clear “home” for most in liberal camps.

– And for Jews, the notion of being God’s “chosen people” meant God demanded more of them than others, not that they were special.

All the enduring religions of the world have been clear that the treasures of honest religion must be earned, and make the highest demands on us. That’s how those traditions raise our sights to see and hear what Lincoln called “the better angels of our nature.”

Salvation by Character

Another answer to “where do we go from here?” comes from revisiting the definition of religion and salvation we began with: the search for a healthy kind of wholeness, to become a blessing to a world not made in our image. And from the start, the salvation story of liberal religions has been the story of salvation by character. We are trying to become better people, partners, parents and citizens, and believe that doing so will make life more worth living, for ourselves and those we love. We are trying to get reconnected with a healthy kind of wholeness. The simple gift of liberal religion is salvation by character; it is personal authenticity, the kind of authenticity that rejuvenates the world.

You can’t get that second-hand. You can’t get it by joining a club, a denomination or a church, or putting fish named “Jesus” or “Darwin” on your car trunk. You only get it by doing the self-examination and the personal work. The gifts of all the world’s liberal religions are free, but they aren’t cheap. They can cost us our artificially small identities, and the comfort that comes with them.

The qualities of character that we admire in ourselves and others aren’t a secret. We all know them. If you doubt it, think back on all the memorial services you have seen or done, and remember what we say in our eulogies, when we look for good and true things to say about someone who has died. We know exactly what has and does not have lasting worth. When we are trying to speak well of our dead, we don’t speak of their power, sexual prowess, popularity, political correctness or wealth.

When we speak about character, we value the same things humans in all times and places have cared about: honesty, integrity, responsibility, authenticity, moral courage. We love good wit, spurn malicious intellects. We admire generosity, hate greed. We praise selfless caring, recoil from co-dependence. Selfishness and narcissism may be acknowledged in a eulogy because we know we must not lie, but they are acknowledged as faults, not gifts. We never approve of those who side with the stronger against the weaker, or who use others as “things” to serve their own personal hungers or ideological agendas. We don’t regard anyone very highly who has no sense of owing something back to life.

And all of these traits point back to the one kind of salvation that noble people in all times and places have admired and eulogized: salvation by character. Not “self- esteem” or empty pride, but developing the kind of character of which we rightly can be proud. Not “feeling good” but the far harder and longer task of being good people.

We have never looked back with pride on religious liberals who didn’t go forward into new and uncharted territory during a crisis of religious expression. We admire Channing, Parker and Emerson because they took new paths. We don’t remember the names of the vast majority of Unitarians or Universalists who stuck with “the old ways,” or got lost in their era’s religious fads. Those in the future will look back to assess us in the same way.

I consulted with some colleagues in preparing these notes, but didn’t get many promising visions from them. However, I did get a comment from the Rev. David Bumbaugh, who is Professor of Ministry at Meadville Lombard Theological School in Chicago, that is worth sharing:

“I believe we are confronted by three essential and inescapable questions: What do we profess? In whose behalf do we act? To whom or to what are we responsible? The first question requires that I continually seek to be as clear as I can be about the fundamental convictions that drive my actions and not settle for platitudes–either traditional responses or the seven principles. The second question drives me to broaden the scope of my concerns beyond the horizons of my comfort zone to include the lost, the marginalized, those who are least like me. If ministry is to be anything more than chaplaincy to those who can afford me, the answer to the second question – “In whose behalf do we act?” – must continually expand.”

David’s third question is the theological question, of what we are serving that transcends our own wishes, our own kind of people, our own time and place, and how we are to speak of it. Two hundred years ago, the reflexive answer would have been, “Well, religion is about God, of course!” But the world has changed. Now we are charged with trying to serve the spirit of liberal religion by once more looking not to the past but to the future, and offering a structure or style of religion that can build bridges rather than walls, in a society where nearly 80% should be considered unchurched, and where few liberals – regardless of misleading polls and pundits – can make much sense of, or have much use for, the old deity of Western religions. Whether they are nominally Buddhist, Taoist, vaguely philosophical, or profoundly secular, they need preachers and communities that take seriously our search for that reconnection to a healthy kind of wholeness that might reconstitute the world of our spirits, our minds, and our politics.

It seems clear to me that such a religious message for a pluralistic future can only be done in ordinary language rather than the jargon of this or that religion. As Joseph Campbell said over a half century ago, propaganda for any individual religion is now not only not helpful, but is a menace. We need to know what it is we actually think we’re talking about when we step into the pulpit, and say it in plain talk rather than hiding behind slippery spiritualisms we wave about like the Catholic Church’s censer, spreading no light but only smoke.

But the argument for why religion must be done in ordinary language is another argument, for another time. In fact, every topic I’ve skimmed here could open out into whole other talks for other times.

The trap set for a speaker by inviting him to speak on where we go from here is the lure of providing stronger answers than the evidence permits, playing to what our audience might wish to hear, whether there’s anything workable in it or not. That temptation, at least, I’ve managed to resist.

I’ve tried to sketch some broad but hopefully useful patterns about where we came from, where we are and how we got here, because I think we need to see that we are in the twilight of honest and integrated liberal options within any of the Western religious traditions. And at twilight, it will do no good to wish for the return of yesterday. We must try to anticipate the next sunrise, which we cannot yet see, though we may hope to evoke or allude to it. We stand on the shoulders of some visionary and courageous people in the long history of liberal religion. In their time, when it was their turn, they looked farther ahead than others wanted to look, and helped build bridges to new worldviews that others did not want to enter. We admire and thank them for their vision and their sometimes lonely courage.

Now it’s our turn. As religious liberals enter the twenty-first century, we need to spend less time worshiping history and more time making it.

Denial is Not a River in Egypt

© Davidson Loehr

April 23, 2006

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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PRAYER:

Help us to love what we cannot understand. Help us stretch the largeness of our hearts to make up for the smallness of our comprehension.

Too often and too eagerly, we restrict our acceptance to the narrow limits of what we can understand, touching only small parts of the bigger world around us. Too often and too eagerly, we also restrict our love to our kind of people, touching only a tiny sliver of the need around us.

When the narrowness of our certainty stifles the certainty of our need for one another, we need help. We need help toward a greater understanding, but even more, we need help toward acting out of a larger heart.

And the good news is that where our heart can lead, our mind can learn to follow.

Let us seek the help we need, within and around us, to let our hearts learn to lead. For even more than the world needs understanding, it needs compassion.

Amen.

SERMON: Denial is Not a River in Egypt

I’m trying to do some very ambitious things with you this morning, so I need you to work with me. I thought that in the next thirty minutes, we might cover the nature of all human knowledge, religious and scientific certainty and denial, discrimination and bigotry, the degradation of the environment, and the nature of the kingdom of God. I’ve tried to cut this down from its original length of nine years.

As far-fetched as that sounds, those really are some of the themes that can be woven together here. So I’m talking about very broad patterns that I see, and think I can get you to see.

Here’s what I think we want in life. We want to believe we know and live out of truth rather than self-deceptions, that we stand foursquare behind justice, goodness and love, and that we, our beliefs and our actions help – in our small way – to make this a better world.

We do it by knowing what’s true and good, and trying our best to serve what is true and good.

However, built in to the very way we are built, and the very way we try to serve truth and goodness, are all of the ignorance, bigotry, discrimination, indifference to the political, social, military and environmental situations, nearly all the evil in the world – as well as all of the good – and the enduring enemy of the Kingdom of God. On the face of it, this doesn’t sound encouraging.

Here’s how it works; see if you agree. I’ll start kind of abstractly, then bring it down to earth.

When we find the truth, in any area, then we become certain. We want, we need, to feel certain about these things. And our attitude of certainty is like a kind of spirit or feeling that guides both our thoughts and actions. I don’t mean just narcissistically. I don’t mean that we each just go into a small room, decide what we like, then lurch out and foist it onto the world. We’re social animals, and we touch many more bases in deciding what is true and gaining our deep feeling of certainty about it all.

When we develop our picture of the world, which defines not only what is true and false but even what counts as reasonable or sane, it is like building a big tub around us, a big wooden barrel, with a lot of staves in it. You could think of it as a fence or as walls that define the boundaries of our world, but I have a poem later that describes it as a tub, so I want to get us imagining our world as a tub around us.

Think of the things involved that give you your most distinctive feelings of certainty. Here’s the list I made for myself; see how many other staves in this tub of reality you”d add. We get our picture of our world from:

Role models and charismatic figures. We”ve all had a few wonderfully life-giving people in our lives, and if you’re like me, you sometimes find yourself guided by what actions you think they would advise.

People we love and admire draw us toward their ideals and beliefs. We want to feel like we’re in their community, and their beliefs have a greater pull on us than the beliefs of people we didn’t really admire.

Parents and family shape the world into which we’re born, and which we take to be normative when we’re growing up – and sometimes for our whole lives. So they influence our picture of ourselves and our world – for better or for worse.

Clergy – also for better or worse – help give us our understanding of who we are and how we should live, or what sorts of “gods” we will feel beholden to.

Respected teachers and elders help shape our world. Some years back, I was talking about this in a sermon, and mentioned one of the really magical teachers I had long ago – a 9th grade English teacher named Mrs. Williamson, and talked a little about what a powerful and affirming presence her memory still was. After the sermon – which I delivered in St. Paul, Minnesota – a woman about my age came up to me and said “Did you go to May Goodrell Jr. High in Des Moines?” She was sure – and she was right – that there could only have been one such Mrs. Williamson, who she’d had a year or two after I did. The best teachers not only inform us; they also help form us.

Friends: we usually feel odd if our beliefs put us outside the circle of the people we like and admire, and will tend to stay near beliefs that leave us within a community we value.

Education forms us: not only what we learned, but also where and how we learned it. Those who learned civics during World War II probably got a very different picture of it than those who learned it during the Vietnam War.

Religious scriptures and guiding stories – even novels, movies and television stories – shape our expectations more than most of us want to realize. That can be a fairly scary thought.

And logic. We all have a sense of how our beliefs relate, and for most of us there needs to be some kind of logic connecting the things we believe. We need to feel that what we take to be true is really connected with the way the world really is.

You may think of other staves in the tub that defines your world of truth and certainty, but I suspect it would contain at least these? And when a new idea presents itself, see if you don’t find yourself almost unconsciously doing a mental checklist to see if the people you most admire would respect this new idea, if you can see a compelling logic in it, if it fits with the other things of which you’re quite certain, and so on. In a way, we try to test each new idea against our community and our world to see if it should be admitted, because each truth we hold forms a part of the tub within which we live.

This idea of a tub isn’t meant to imply that we couldn’t leave it or think thoughts that didn’t fit in it, but why would we want to? There are a lot of crazy ideas out there, after all, and we try to keep our beliefs coherent enough that they have some family resemblances with the people and ideas that ground our notion of reality. You could think of our tub as a form of life, as some philosophers call it (from Ludwig Wittgenstein), or a form of living: the way we and our people have chosen to shape and edit what we include in our world and our awareness. But the point is that the picture of the world we live in – our tub – is always much smaller than the real world is.

Now if all this is too abstract, you can also think of this as the Davy Crockett School of Certainty and Action. In Texas, we know of Davy Crockett as one of the heroes at the Alamo, and don’t much think of him as a philosopher. But he had a very simple motto that applies to nearly all of us. Davy Crockett’s famous motto was “Just be sure you’re right, then go ahead.” You’re right, and you have that necessary feeling of certainty about it. And when you’re sure you’re right, you know it’s safe to go ahead.

Two areas where you could expect to find the most compelling sense of certainty might be among religious mystics and scientists. Mystics, because once they are certain that they are in touch or in tune with God, almost nothing can shake them. And scientists, because they have to ground their beliefs in empirical data and check them with the whole host of other scientists within their discipline. This includes checking the inherent logic of a new idea, whether it fits with what they are already certain about, whether the most admired scientists would be likely to agree, and so on.

This can mean that some bright young scientist may come along with a new idea that simply can’t pass the test, and they get their feelings hurt when their brilliant idea is rejected or even laughed at. But honest science isn’t about bending the truth to fit someone’s feelings. It’s about seeking facts and coherent, persuasive logic that fits the way the real world is put together.

One of my favorite stories from science is this kind of a story, involving one of the most famous scientists in the world, and a bright, assertive young man who tried to get an idea past him that couldn’t pass muster. It’s a story that contains most of what I’m trying to talk about this morning.

It happened back in 1935, in the field of theoretical astrophysics, and involved Sir Arthur Eddington, one of the greatest mathematical minds in history. Eddington, at 52, was generally acknowledged as the world’s finest astronomer, and his book on the structure of stars was the classic in its field. The other character in the story was a very bright 24-year-old student from India named Chandrasekhar, or Chandra. He had been studying the structure of stars for only a few years, since he won Eddington’s book as a prize in a school physics contest – so you get a feel for the great distance between their levels of accomplishment in astronomy. But the young man was not shy, and had been discussing a radical new theory of his with Eddington for several months by mail. Eddington finally invited him to London, to present his paper before the prestigious Royal Astronomical Society at Cambridge. Eddington even told Chandra that he had used his influence to get extra time so the young man could present his work properly.

The day before the presentation, when a copy of the printed program was released, Chandra discovered that Eddington had placed himself on the program, following Chandra, and speaking on the same subject.

Chandra’s paper dealt with a fundamental question: What happens after a star has burned up all of its fuel? According to the prevailing theory of the day, the cooling star would collapse into a dense ball called a white dwarf. A star with the mass of the sun, for instance, would shrink to the size of the earth, at which point it would reach equilibrium. Chandrasekhar concluded, however, that the enormous gravitational forces at work in a large star (any star more than 1.4 times as massive as our sun) would cause the star to go on collapsing beyond the white dwarf stage. The star would simply keep getting smaller and smaller and denser and denser until” well, that was an interesting question, and Chandrasekhar delicately avoided it.

Then it was Eddington’s turn.

The point of his paper was that Chandra’s ideas had simply been absurd, and he proceeded to tear apart Chandrasekhar’s paper. The speech was frequently interrupted by laughter from the other scientists. Eddington couldn’t quarrel with Chandrasekhar’s logic or calculations. But he claimed that the whole theory had to be wrong simply because it led to an inevitable and outlandish conclusion. And one measure of Eddington’s brilliance was that he could see the logical implications of the paper better than Chandra could: “The star,” he said, “has to go on radiating and radiating and contracting and contracting until, I suppose, it gets down to a few kilometers radius, when gravity becomes strong enough to hold in even the radiation, and the star can at last find peace.” And no such object could possibly exist, said Eddington. A logical reduction to absurdity, he called it. And he added, in one of my favorite statements in the history of science, “I think there should be a law of nature to prevent a star from behaving in this absurd way.”

Do you see what Sir Arthur Eddington had done? He tested the new theory against a whole line of staves in his tub, against all he knew to be true, the logic demanded in science as he understood it, the style of reasoning that was necessary, even the reactions of a room full of some of the most distinguished scientists in the world, who joined him in raucously laughing down this odd new idea.

But that’s how science, or any good search for truth, works. It is no respecter of people’s feelings, just the facts as understood by those who have authority and are certain: the Davy Crocketts of their sciences.

The argument with Eddington dragged on for years, ruined any chance of Chandra’s getting a tenured teaching position in England, and finally persuaded him to give up the subject altogether. So, shortly after being hired by the University of Chicago in 1937, he put the theory in a book and stopped worrying about it, and switched his research to other and unrelated fields, where the weight of Eddington’s authority had not poisoned the well. And he had a very distinguished career.

Then, in 1983, Chandrasekhar, still at the University of Chicago, was awarded the Nobel Prize in physics, for the work he had done back in 1935, 48 years earlier. What he had discovered, that Eddington said couldn’t exist, were black holes. The greatest mind in astronomy had been wrong, and the force of his dogmatic but incorrect opinion set back research on black holes for five decades. He couldn’t quarrel with Chandra’s logic or calculations, remember: he opposed the results simply because, as he said, “I think there should be a law of nature to prevent a star from behaving in this absurd way.”

Eddington, like Casey at the bat, had struck out completely – though it took nearly half a century to find out, and the Nobel Prize wasn’t awarded to Chandra until 39 years after Eddington had died; so Eddington had spent the rest of his life certain that he was right.

The year before he won the Nobel Prize, Chandra looked back and tried to draw some conclusions from the story for an interview in the magazine Science 82. How can scientists of Eddington’s caliber be so wrong, and in such unscientific ways?

“For lack of a better word,” Chandra wrote, “there seems to be a certain arrogance toward nature which people develop. These people have had great insights and made profound discoveries. They imagine afterwards that the fact that they succeeded so triumphantly in one area means they have a special way of looking at science which must therefore be right. But science doesn’t permit that. Nature has shown over and over again that the kinds of truth which underlie nature transcend the most powerful minds.

“Take Eddington. He was a great man. He said that there must be a law of nature to prevent a star from becoming a black hole. Why should he say that? Just because he thought it was bad? Why does he assume that he has a way of deciding what the laws of nature should be? Similarly, this often-quoted statement of Einstein disapproving of quantum theory: “God does not play dice.” How does he know? I think one could say that a certain modesty toward understanding nature is a precondition to the continued pursuit of science.”

From inside a worldview or paradigm or set of biases – scientific or otherwise – we see a wall made of our certainties that gives us an island of what passes for reason and sanity in a world too big to comprehend. That’s that small world within which we know who we are and what is most true, and I’m not sure we could live without it.

But from the outside, that same wall is seen as our tub of denial: denial of the fact that the world is far bigger than our little certainties. Our tub closes the world out and shuts us up inside of our certainties. It defines what counts as true and sane for us, and also defines how woefully inadequate our little world is.

Here’s why I’ve wanted to think of our small worldview as a tub: because I have a poem to read you. It was written about twenty years before Eddington’s first disastrous meeting with Chandra, and describes what happened to Eddington, and what happens to so many of us.

It is taken from a 1916 book by Edgar Lee Masters called Spoon River Anthology. It’s a wonderful book, though an odd one. There is no story, no plot. The whole book is a collection of fictional epitaphs from the fictional town of Spoon River, in which the dead speak through their epitaphs about their lives, and life in general. One of my favorites was the epitaph of Griffy the Cooper:

“Griffy the Cooper”

from Spoon River Anthology

by Edgar Lee Masters (1916)

The cooper should know about tubs.

But I learned about life as well,

And you who loiter around these graves

Think you know life!

You think your eye sweeps about a wide horizon, perhaps,

In truth you are only looking around the interior of your tub.

You cannot lift yourself to its rim

And see the outer world of things,

And at the same time see yourself.

You are submerged in the tub of yourself-

Taboos and rules and appearances,

Are the staves of your tub.

Break them and dispel the witchcraft

Of thinking your tub is life!

And that you know life!

This is one way of understanding the human condition, the human dilemma. We live within small pictures of a universe that is sometimes infinitely larger than we can imagine. Still, those world pictures give us our sense of order, of home, of who we are and how we should live and how others should live. From the inside, we call it creating order out of chaos, and the order we impose through our world pictures, our paradigms, our biases, lets us feel at home, feel certain, even feel sane.

But from the outside, our wall of certainties looks like a wall of denial, of willful ignorance, or an unwillingness or inability to be moved enough by the vastness of it all that we can react not only with our minds, but also with our hearts. Griffy the Cooper nailed it when he said that we can’t lift ourselves to the rim of our tub and see the outer world of things, and at the same time see ourselves and feel at home.

I can’t think of any field of human knowledge that isn’t built this way: science, religion, music, art, architecture – everything, I think.

In religion, orthodoxy is the tub, heresy is the voice from one looking over the rim of the tub, trying to make a home in a bigger world. And the very bigness of that world is what threatens the adequacy and the comfort of the small world of orthodoxy.

In society, our world pictures, our tubs, tell us which kind of people and behaviors are acceptable and which are wrong. Our tub tells us what roles men and women may play, what kind of people we can and can not love, what sexes, sexual orientations or races are superior to the others, and all the rest of it. And we’re so sure we’re right, that we’re often dangerous to those who lives go beyond our understanding.

Yesterday was Earth Day, and our understanding of our environment is limited or enhanced in the same way. Is the earth here for us to plunder and have dominion over, or for us to be good stewards of, as though our lives depended on it?

A growing number of scientists are warning us that our greedy and uncaring treatment of our earth may have consequences more devastatung than we can imagine. If the arctic ice caps melt, they say Florida and New Jersey may be buried under twenty feet of water. Can we see over the rim of our complacency about using the lion’s share of the earth’s oil and energy in time to make a positive rather than a negative difference? Before our tub gets flooded? Or maybe we can’t think that far, like Eddington couldn’t.

When we reach the end of our intellectual tether, and our understanding can’t include a world bigger than our mind can fathom, almost every religion in the world agrees that it is time to turn it over to our hearts.

Buddhists say when we are faced with the choice of doing the right thing or the compassionate thing, we should do the compassionate thing. Jesus said What good does it do if you love those who love you? Even the worst of people do that. No, you should love even your enemies. And of course the irony here is that if you love your enemies, they are no longer your enemies, and you may have found, together, the power to transform the world.

No matter what religion you turn to, I think you’ll find this same advice. Poets like Edgar Lee Masters were twenty years ahead of Sir Arthur Eddington; sages and prophets like the Buddha and Jesus were aeons ahead of nearly everyone. Beyond the tub of our certainties lie the much bigger worlds that need our compassion and protection. And the ability to love beyond our understanding is the path – many believe it is the only path – toward that idyllic larger picture of the world known as the kingdom of God. The kingdom of God: the state of affairs where we simply treat all other people as our brothers and sisters, as children of God, and treat the entire earth as the handiwork of God, placed in our trust for loving care.

Even more than understanding the world, we are called on to take care of it, so that our presence might bless it rather than cursing it. That may still be the only path toward what Jesus called the kingdom of God – and a great deal more.

Doing Easter in 2006

© Davidson Loehr

April 16, 2006

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

Listen to the sermon by clicking the play button.

PRAYER:

Easter of our hearts, speak to us. Tell us once again, when we need the gift of spring, that spring is here. Tell us once more, when we need to feel new life, that new life is moving, and can move into us if we will but open our hearts.

Tell us again the timeless story of Easter, about that magical bunny that lays brightly colored eggs of spring, and offers them to all who can find them as food for the spiritual journey as we begin our own Easters.

For it is Easter in our own hearts and lives that we need. Otherwise all these ancient stories are a bore and a nuisance. We want the good news that life can conquer death here and now, in our lives, in our relationships, in our society, and in our world. Bring us the flowers and the colored eggs that deliver that message, oh Easter spirit.

For it is again Easter. And once more we gather not to hear the same stories, but to bring the same needs, and to hope there will be stories to feed them, or maybe even a gift to take home with us – a gift, like a flower of spring.

It is Easter again, and we need an Easter. So we will open our minds and hearts to the possibility of the gift of renewed life. Then come to us, our Easter friends. Come. Amen.

SERMON: Doing Easter in 2006

I have a friend who is a professor of New Testament, who tells her classes each year in early spring that the way they can tell when Easter is coming is that the media will run some new and strange stories about who Jesus really was, or suggesting a new shocking story showing that the Christian story shouldn’t be trusted, or just run weird stories about religion in general.

So last week, right on schedule, three different stories appeared. There was the verdict in the plagiarism case against Dan Brown which we’ve all been breathlessly awaiting, in which the jury decided that he did not steal illegally from other authors (who stole from an Australian religion religion scholar named Barbara Thiering) the claim that Jesus and Mary Magdalen were married, and had at least two children before Mary moved to southern France.

Then there was the National Geographic story about the newly translated Gospel of Judas, suggesting that Jesus and Judas were good buddies, and Jesus told Judas to turn him over to the authorities, so that the Christian story could play out and God, by God, was in charge of everything. I’ve read it. It’s a boring little gospel, quite late, with a strong dose of homophobia, but nothing at all to offer in understanding Jesus, Judas or anything else that happened in the first century.

Third, an author named James Tabor, in excerpts from his forthcoming book, The Jesus Dynasty, writes in breathless prose about raiding two first-century family tombs enclosed under a Jerusalem apartment complex. He suggests they may be the tombs of Jesus and his family, and wants the authorities to do DNA testing to prove it, however that would work! The authorities have declined.

Here in town, as part of keeping Austin weird, there was a special showing of the 1979 Monty Python movie “The Life of Brian,” the mocking farce about Brian, who happened to be born on Christmas in the stable next door to Jesus and spent his life being mistaken for a messiah. That played Friday night and last night, as run-ups to Easter.

And on the way to church this morning, one of our couples passed a billboard which simply said “Way to go, Jesus. Rock on, Dude!” It’s beginning to look like when the going gets weird, the weird turn pro.

So. A titillating court cast, a scandalous, goofy gospel, a cemetery raid on the tomb of some hapless first-century Jerusalem family, a farcical movie about baby Jesus’ non-messianic baby neighbor, and a billboard that may have been about Brian rather than Jesus, but which is pretty much off the charts in any case.

That’s how we do Easter in 2006.

But there’s something odd here. Can you think of other holidays that are preceded by media stories mocking them or belittling their importance? I’ve never seen Veterans’ Day preceded by programs and cover stories belittling the sacrifice of veterans or making light of the number of them dying in our current war. You can’t even imagine it. It would offend almost everyone in the country, in the world.

Could you imagine, Mother’s Day being preceded by stories making fun of mothers or motherhood, or making light of the work they do? There are the “Mommy Wars” about the best way to be a mother, but there aren’t any attacks on the idea of motherhood that I know of. If there were, there would be riots demanding the head of the publisher and boycotts of the sponsors. For that matter, can you imagine stories mocking romantic love before Valentine’s Day? Or stories in mid-June ridiculing fathers before Fathers’ Day?

We don’t do this, we don’t allow this, for holidays we really take seriously. There may be some anti-US-policy protests around the 4th of July, but the protestors would say they are doing it because they do believe in all that America can be, but not because they want to make fun of the very idea of America.

When you look at the stories behind some of our holidays, some of them stand out as decidedly different. Almost all are about real things that happen in the real world we’re living in. All but two.

Valentine’s day celebrates romantic love between couples

Mothers’ Day recognizes the work and sacrifice of mothers all over the country.

Fathers’ Day does the same for fathers.

Veterans’ Day expresses appreciation for the sacrifice of our war veterans.

Memorial Day recognizes the ultimate sacrifice of the loss of our soldiers’ lives in our various wars.

The 4th of July celebrates the gaining of independence in 1776 through the bravery and dedication of the soldiers, families and citizens of this country.

Thanksgiving is some people’s favorite holiday, because it’s always appropriate to give thanks for our blessings in life, even for the simple blessing of food – today as much as at the first Thanksgiving.

And we don’t mock those holidays. They’re about real things going on in the real world, and we genuinely value and believe in them.

Now Christmas has two unrelated stories, but only one we seem to care about, judging from our behavior. The religious story says once a baby was born of a woman who had never had sex, whose father was a god up in heaven and who would be what some people in one religion call the savior of everyone, though nobody else believes it. Judging by the advertising and decorations each Christmas, and by the kinds of presents we but and expect, almost nobody believes or cares much about the religious story.

The story we love each December, however, is the story of the real center of Christmas: Santa Claus, who travels all over the world in his sleigh pulled by eight or nine flying reindeer so he can bring presents down everyone’s chimney – even those who don’t have chimneys. He gives a lot of presents to everybody and has children sitting on his lap in every shopping mall. That’s the real story of Christmas; the story of baby Jesus has virtually no effect on the observable behavior of the overwhelming majority of Americans, regardless of religion.

Easter is also made up of two unrelated stories. The religious one is the story of a man who died and then three days later came back to life and then went up into heaven. Once again, looking at the advertising, decorations, gifts and cards we buy and send, almost nobody seems to care much about the religious story. But the other story, the real Easter story, is the story about a bunny who lays colored eggs, and about people dressing in spring colors, hunting for colored eggs, buying lots of chocolate, and taking flowers home from church, as we’ll do here today.

The very way we treat the religious stories under Christmas and Easter shows that really, in this world, we don’t believe them. They’re different kinds of holidays about a different and imaginary world. Of course, Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny also come from make-believe worlds, and we don’t believe them literally, either. But they’re better stories, and do a better job at communicating with us messages we want and need to hear. The religious story, not so much.

We’re taught that Easter is a Christian holiday, but it isn’t true. It isn’t even close. And the place where you’ll read this in the angriest prose is on a whole host of evangelical and biblical Christian websites. If you go online and consult evangelical and fundamentalist Christian sources, they are clear and unanimous that Easter is a completely pagan holiday with absolutely no relation to Jesus, dating back thousands of years to the Babylonian and Chaldean goddess Ishtar – which, they say, was pronounced “Easter.”

Ishtar was a mythological character of the Babylonian or Sumerian religion which existed thousands of years before Jesus lived. She was the goddess of spring; she had rabbits that laid eggs. The eggs symbolized a new life and the colored eggs signified a wish for a bright new year ahead. Both the rabbit and the egg are pagan symbols of sex and fertility.

Sunrise services go back to these ancient practices of welcoming the spring, too. And some say coloring eggs in bright spring colors is also an ancient practice, and related to wearing bright spring colors today.

Many Christians agree that Easter isn’t Christian, and say people obviously don’t take the Christian story as seriously as stories of spring, life, bunnies, colored eggs and flowers. They say it as though it’s a bad thing.

But it isn’t a bad thing. The story about sunrise, spring, bunnies, colored eggs, flowers and having spring in our hearts – this is the story people prefer to the one about a man who died and came back to life.

What is the Easter message? Ironically, it is very traditional; it just isn’t religious. It’s the natural and psychological story of spring coming back in our world and in our lives, a victory of life over death, spring over winter, tender flowers and colored eggs and magical fertility symbols. It looks like that’s always been the message of Easter.

Why? Because these must have been the symbols of these spring festivals from the first time rabbits and eggs became part of it. And with similar props and symbols, the messages people have heard at this season must have been very similar for thousands of years. Messages of spring, the return of life, symbols of sex and fertility, the gift of life offered free to all of us – these have been the Easter messages since before recorded history. Both preacherly sermons and personal meditations on these symbols must always have run in orbit around these themes, both as natural events outside of us, and as psychological possibilities inside of us. And these are the stories we believe: the real, the original, Easter stories. They’re older than all religions in the world. They’re the stories we’ve always loved, and it looks in 2006 like we still prefer them to the religious stories that have tried to cover them.

Why? Perhaps because the Easter stories are just better stories with more relation to the world we’re living in. We look to religions for good news, life-giving news. We’re not all that fond of getting heavy messages in church, though it’s what all religious prophets have done. But they’re seldom popular until they’re long dead. We come to church, especially on high holy days like Christmas and Easter, to hear good news. And we choose the stories that give it to us, and shrug off stories that don’t, no matter how liturgical or pontifical they pretend to be.

The Easter story has been covered by the stories of a dozen gods and goddesses, maybe more. From Ishtar to Jesus, we have covered the Easter story with all manner of gods and goddesses. But they can’t cover it, can’t match its appeal, and can’t hide it for long, neither Ishtar nor Jesus.

As a society our behavior around this holiday shows that we don’t take the religious story of Jesus very seriously, as so many evangelical websites seem to be screaming too.

And how we do Easter may be a symptom of the fact that our official religions have really lost their power to hold the imaginations of even a majority of our citizens.

After all, only a bit more than 20% of Americans regularly attend religious services of any kind. (See books and essays by Rev. Kirk Hadaway, who has written about a dozen books in this area.) The stories of religion seem to be about such important things: life after death, eternity, a god so powerful he created the whole universe, knows everything we think, and can punish or destroy anything or anybody he chose. If we believed it, these stories would occupy our thoughts nearly all the time. Just think of the amount of time we have spent thinking about AIDS or Bird Flu because we really believe that they might kill us. But perhaps we don’t believe our traditional religious stories in any deep way at all any longer, and the evidence is on display every Christmas and Easter. Perhaps these are just background stories, things we say the way the ancient Romans used to bow to Jupiter and then go about their business like he was just a statue after all.

If a Roman were to just snicker as they passed the statues, or write popular books saying the gods were quite human after all, or put on plays that made the kind of fun of Jupiter that Monty Python’s movie “The Life of Brian” makes fun of the Jesus story, then the pretense would be over, and it would be fair for one Roman to ask another what the heck they were doing pretending to care about those old gods. And eventually, of course, that happened. Now hardly anybody remembers that old Jupiter was the same god the Greeks had earlier called Zeus, because both those gods are pretty much dead, like Ishtar, Inanna, Astarte and a hundred other gods and goddesses that have come and gone. Meanwhile, and throughout all these centuries, our favorite stories, like the Easter story, remain as popular as ever. .

If we were really serious about the stories of our supposedly official religions, I don’t think the media would routinely play off of the holidays with the kind of goofy stories we’ve all become used to, or that movies like “The Life of Brian” would still be played, 27 years after it came out, as Austin’s run-up to yet another Easter.

So I do wonder if the way we treat these two holidays in particular doesn’t really show that the stories have already lost their hold on the vast majority of people in our country, and if we’re watching the very slow-motion decline and death of Christianity as a noble religious – as opposed to merely political – force.

If so, then we should try to reclaim the stories we love and their symbols, from the religions that have been piled on top of them.

And this brings us to the flower communion we celebrate here each Easter. It was created by Unitarian minister Norbert Capek for his church in Czechoslovakia in 1923, when he observed this same antipathy toward traditional religion in his members. They lived in overwhelmingly Catholic surrounding, and most of Capek’s members had no use for the practice or idea of Communion because the idea had been so badly tainted by religions they didn’t respect. Yet at its best, the idea of “communion” is that you are communing, connecting, with the powers of the universe that created us, and bunnies, eggs and flowers and everything else. And that’s a powerful kind of energy to forego communion with. So Capek created the idea of a flower communion. He asked members each to bring a flower to church on a certain day, and the church bought some extras. The children arranged the flowers in baskets during the worship service, just as our children are doing today. Then before people left, they were each given a flower – not the one they brought, but one brought by somebody else. And they knew that there was a link, a communion, between them all, and with the powers of nature that had produced both the fragile flowers, and their own fragile selves.

Capek’s flower communion caught on immediately, and it was brought to this country by his wife in 1940. Our northern churches usually celebrate it in June on the last Sunday before they close their church for the summer – many of the Eastern and northern churches still base their church year on the old academic years. Since we don’t close our church, we do the Flower Communion at Easter, where the flowers can rejoin the other symbols of spring.

Norbert Capek died in a Nazi concentration camp. But the flower communion survives him, and offers us a kind of communion that we need as much as his own church members did.

The good news about Easter is that no religion has ever been able to tame it, claim it or cover it. Because we may not need stories of this or that goddess or god, but we do need to hear that story that life is more powerful than death, that it’s beautiful, and all of nature is offering it to us for free.

The good news about the Easter story is that it seems indestructible. Cover it with stories of Ishtar, Inanna, Eoster or of Jesus and God, but the real Easter story can’t be kept down because it’s true, and because it’s written deep into our own hearts. We need a springtime in our lives, today as much as ever. We need for life to be exuberant with its gifts of new life for old, beauty, spring, sunrises and flowers. We need some of those flowers, for they carry with them the message that life will triumph, in our world and in our hearts, and that if only we can take the spirit of this Easter inside of us, it can grow there, so that we might keep Eastering on our own, so that long after the flowers have faded, their promise of the fragile and beautiful gift of life will still be alive in us, resurrected from the stories into our hearts, where they can live for another year as the good news of the Easter Story.

Many Voices

© Davidson Loehr

April 9, 2006

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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PRAYER:

Sometimes when we seem to hear too many voices in our lives, we wish they’d all go away except for just the one most comforting voice.

That seldom happens. We might be better off realizing that we aren’t made of just one solo voice. We’re a chorus of voices and wants and preferences, each speaking up at some time, the whole lot of them seldom agreeing.

And we live as part of this sea of voices, trying to find a good path through the clatter. Sometimes we can just decide and do something whether the other voices like it or not. Ideally, we can be creative enough to do it together, bringing the whole choir along. That takes great talent and great patience. But if the Buddhists are right in saying we’re more like choruses than soloists – and I think they are – then we need a home in our soul and in our world for all the voices within us. The brave, clear-thinking ones, the compassionate voices that want to do the caring thing more than the right thing, voices that need to understand, and those wishing they could love even where they can’t understand. And so many more voices within and around us, looking for a welcoming home.

In the meantime – and it seems a long meantime – we stand where we are, silently praying Oh God, Life, the Universe, let us find a home where all of us, all of us, can live together in creative compassion. Just that. Just that.

Amen.

SERMON: Many Voices

This was the first time I’d heard the Chichester Psalms. But when Brent told me about the music, and then when I read the Psalms from which Bernstein took his lyrics, I recognized one of Bernstein’s greatest and most unusual gifts as a composer. He made a space for a huge variety of voices in his greatest works. The voices don’t agree and aren’t squeezed into a forced and phony kind of harmony. Instead, they are presented as a slice of life without a simple and clear solution.

Here’s what I mean. When I read through the six Psalms from which he took the lyrics for this piece (2, 23, 100, 108, 131, 133), I wrote down the different voices and moods I found.

There is the voice of God as conqueror, sounding very triumphal. The voices of his people cover a huge spectrum, from excited, devoted and loved, to fearful, rejected, abandoned by God, and inadequate. In the next lines, they are joyful, praising God, sounding comforted and fearless. Then they are very angry – you heard this in the music, when the men’s voices came in under the calm and peaceful sound of the women’s voices.

There is also a voice of self-righteousness, eager to condemn outsiders. This is a voice speaking for a wrathful, furious, vengeful God, one that is offering dominion of the earth, granting power to break opposing nations with a rod of iron and dash them to pieces like a potter’s vessel.

And these lines are followed by voices that are thankful for God’s goodness and mercy, which are followed by despondent voices.

Then there’s a withdrawn voice saying it’s just not concerned with high and hard demands, but is satisfied to be calm, self-contained and quiet. Finally, there is the voice of simple happiness, happy to be dwelling in unity with others. You could get whiplash three times, switching moods to keep up with the many voices in just these six psalms, even though you suspect they reflect the real human condition in all times and places.

There’s a normal human tendency to want to accentuate the positive and eliminate the negative, or at least to harmonize all the voices to our own voice, our own beliefs, our own style. And that’s what most musical settings of the Psalms do.

But one of the characteristics of Leonard Bernstein’s music that’s most appealing – or troubling – was his ability to create a musical space within which many voices could co-exist without being homogenized.

He did this in West Side Story, that marvelous musical of violence, murder, love, and surprising vulgarity in the “Officer Krupke” piece sung by street gang members.

But he did it most dramatically and best in his greatest stage work, the “Mass.” The piece was commissioned by the Kennedy family for the dedication of the Kennedy Center. Rose Kennedy, JFK’s mother, hated what he wrote. Cardinal O’Connor wanted it banned as a heretical work. I saw the touring company production in Detroit around 1976, and could see why they might have hated it.

How many here have seen a stage production of the “Mass”? Here was a mass, but – with music by the 53-year-old Leonard Bernstein and lyrics by 23-year-old Steven Schwartz – it was not a Catholic mass. While it did go through the traditional parts of the mass, it contained scathing critiques of both the Church and the mass, for being irrelevant and incoherent.

Showing a wonderful knowledge of history, Bernstein included “tropes” as solos inserted into the mass, to make his critiques. In medieval times, the tropes inserted into the masses could even be to the tunes of drinking songs, so there was the precedent for bringing very secular elements in, and Bernstein exploited it brilliantly.

One soloist interrupted the “Credo in Unum Deum” to sing “I’ll believe in one God; I’ll believe in three; I’ll believe in thirty if they’ll believe in me.”

Another interrupted the priest during the Gratias Deo, to say that she once thanked God. “But now, somehow, it’s strange,” she sang, “though nothing much has really changed, I don’t sing Gloria, I don’t sing Gratias Deo. I can’t say quite when it happened, but gone is the Thank You.”

In a choral piece called “God Said,” the choir only sings the real lyrics after the priest leaves the stage. These include the chorus “And it was good, brother, and it was good, sister, and it was good, brother, and it was goddam good.” This isn’t your grandmother’s mass, unless she was one heck of an outspoken woman!

Also in that song, the lyricist Stephen Schwartz wrote these words:

“God said take charge of my zoo, I made these creatures for you. So he won’t mind if we wipe out a species or two. God said that sex should repulse unless it leads to results, and so we crowd the world full of consenting adults. God said it’s good to be meek, and so we are once a week. It may not mean a lot but oh, it’s terribly chic. God made us the boss, God gave us the cross. We turned it into a sword to spread the word of the Lord, we use his holy decrees to do whatever we please. And it was good, Yeah! And it was good, Yeah! And it was goddam good.”

Finally, the protestors torment the priest to the point that he flings the chalice down, smashing it, tears his robe off and throws it at them and leaves the stage. Then all the protestors, who have been harassing the priest throughout the Mass, fall to the stage like puppets who have had their strings cut. They really didn’t have a message, just complaints and needs, and needed the priest to play off of. A child takes the guitar and plays the Simple Song with which the Mass began, then the priest returns to the stage, in blue-jeans, takes the guitar and leads them in the song – it seems, after all, that they need to be led. Oh, maybe it will be a happy ending after all – but no. One of the protestors is disgusted by this and won’t join. He goes upstage in his fury. At the end of the Simple Song, the priest says, “The Mass is ended, go in peace.” But the lone protestor gives the priest and the audience the finger and exits. And that’s the end of the Bernstein Mass.

Many voices, given space to coexist: brought into proximity, but not harmony. Just like in real life.

You can understand why Rose Kennedy might have hated it. Leonard Bernstein gave her a masterpiece that was more than she’d bargained for. He gave her not an orthodox mass, but many voices, brought together on the same stage, to sing their very different songs in their very different passionate voices, and to be heard – perhaps even revered – but not resolved.

Cardinal O’Connor thought that was bad. Most churches would think it was bad. But not any real liberal church worth its salt, and not any Unitarian church in touch with its history.

The range of voices we have in Unitarian churches is immense. And like the voices in Bernstein’s works, they are not resolved: they’re in proximity, but not necessarily in harmony, on a huge range of topics.

A couple months ago, we learned what a wide range of opinions we have on 9-11. I believe our government either let it happen on purpose or made it happen on purpose. Some others agreed. Still others thought that was an absolutely crazy idea, that our government could do such a thing. Others were somewhere in between, and others – perhaps the majority – don’t spent time thinking about who did 9-11 or how, because there are just too many other things going on in their lives that demand and deserve more attention.

But the whole range of voices exists here, as it does throughout the country and the world. No matter what you believe about 9-11, you know there are people sitting around you who don’t agree with you. And those different beliefs aren’t going to be harmonized. They exist here in proximity but not in harmony, and that’s one of the frustrating things about liberal churches – or any honest church. We live in a world with people who sometimes disagree violently with us on really important matters, and the challenge of civilization is the challenge to learn to live together creatively.

But the different political beliefs in this room absolutely pale compared with the differing religious beliefs here! We have members for whom Jesus Christ really is the son of God, at least in deep symbolic and poetic ways. We have members for whom religion is and will always be about God, by which they mean the God of the Bible. Others have bad memories of that god, but find inspiration through stories of some of the ancient goddesses.

We have others for whom the whole idea of gods or goddesses is somewhere between useless and repulsive: people who might say we’re called to be decent people and to make the world a better place, but who do it without ever thinking about Jesus or God. We have some for whom the structures of Hinduism are their center – with its rich tapestry of stories, its rich array of so many imaginative figures symbolizing the many aspects of the creative, sustaining and destroying forces in the universe. And others who, if asked, will identify themselves as Buddhists – though not all the same kind of Buddhists. Some here believe in an afterlife, and some don’t. Some believe in reincarnation, and believe that they are not now in either their first or their last incarnation. Others think that’s just crazy, that it all starts, happens, and ends here in this life. And if you haven’t heard your own belief yet, you can add it, then add another fifty or so to cover all the permutations and combinations of beliefs sitting right here in this room, all around you, in proximity but not in harmony.

That’s the world that Leonard Bernstein kept putting in his music: that world of many differing voices in proximity but not in harmony. So I think some of Bernstein’s greatest pieces were practically written for liberal churches.

But this is not only for us. Our whole country would be better off if they had that ability to tolerate profound differences. Like they were to Rose Kennedy and Cardinal O’Connor, too many divergent opinions on important matters like religion are very upsetting to a lot of people. The truth is, most of us would be more comfortable in a world created in the image of our own beliefs. And during the past few years, we have all heard some of these strident voices insisting that America fall in line behind the one set of right beliefs – which always, coincidentally, just happen to be theirs. They want harmony in our country, and think that can only come from getting all voices to sing the same song.

They’re wrong. That would be boring music, as well as a foolish and dangerous society. We need to learn something, and Leonard Bernstein could teach it to us.

He could teach us that the real art, in music and in life, doesn’t come from trying to stamp everyone with the same cookie cutter, to make them as alike as dead interchangeable machine parts. The real art lies in the ability to create an atmosphere in which all God’s children, all the wonderful and crazy variety of Nature, can live in creative proximity.

The kind of harmony we need in life isn’t that of pretending that all opinions or all people can be made to fit the same mold. They can’t. The kind of harmony we need in life comes through the art of creating the atmosphere that lets our many differences exist together in creative proximity. It’s a much higher art than just stomping on people with cookie cutters. It takes grown-up people secure enough in their own beliefs to welcome people who don’t share their beliefs, though they share our humanity, and our need for peace, understanding, justice and compassion. And in this great mix of life, no deep harmony is possible unless we grow past the clamoring for shallow harmony, which can never exist anyway.

That’s the vision needed, and the art – to see past superficial differences of thought and belief, into that deeper and more enduring level where all God’s children got a song to sing, and it’s our collective job to provide the chorus that can cradle all these many voices in its heart and accompany them with the music of the heavens, the rhythm of justice, and the beat of the human heart – all our human hearts – trying to find our way back home together, trying to find our way back home together, and to know the place for the first time.

God's Fool

© Jack Harris-Bonham

April 2, 2006

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

PRAYER

Mystery of many names and Mystery beyond all naming, we are gathered this morning in early spring to celebrate the mystery with those that are a part of this community.

The colors this spring are so vibrant – were they also that brilliant? Is this just one more spring or is this the only spring that ever will be? Can we appreciate the beauty of the verdant meadows if, in fact, we hold all previous meadows in mind, or look to meadows not yet blossomed? Is there something profane about neglecting the miracles of the falling rain and greening meadows?

May we see with the eyes of a child, and understand with the heart of one who knows that death is not something alien to us as human beings. May our prayer echo the mourning doves cooing, may it reflect the streaming morning rays upon the newly fallen dew, may our breath be a true exchange between what the green needs and what the green is feeding us.

May we be humbled by the magnificence of the moment. Following our breath we dwell in the midst of the most high, staying with the moment we participate in the holy, refusing to go back to the past – an impossibility any way – we likewise hold ourselves back from projecting our thoughts into a future that exists only in our worried anticipations.

Resting in the arms of the NOW, we breathe easily, fully and miracle of miracles anxiety vanishes in the face of this magnificence. This is a gift that we can give ourselves; this is a gift that we can accept from ourselves. No one else can do this for us. It is our birthright.

Praise be to this Mystery. We pray this in the name of everything that is holy, and that is, precisely, everything.

Amen.

SERMON

It may seem foolish to begin writing a sermon before you know sort of what you want to say, but that is precisely how I am beginning this sermon. Hopefully, at the end of it, you will not all agree, “Yeah, he should have had something to say before he started writing – that would have been a good idea.” So, I’ve left myself open, but it occurs to me now that this is exactly what a fool would do, and I think it’s important for you to know that I am a fool. But I’m not just any old fool, I’m God’s Fool and proud of it. I’m not going to explain exactly what I think it means to be God’s fool at this point simply because I don’t know – but hopefully, as this sermon progresses I will know and so you will, perhaps we can make that discovery together.

Now I know that some of you out there will think that this is all highly organized and that this rambling about not knowing where I’m going, or how I’m going to get there is a sham – I’m acting, I’m pretending that I don’t know what I’m going to say or what my point is in saying it, but let me assure you – if, in fact, this can be seen as an assurance – I have no idea what I’m doing, but yes, I do have an inkling of why I’m doing it.

Let me explain. When I was in my writing frenzy – that is, when I wrote 30 screenplays in seven years – I had a motto that I lived and died by. I guess you could say that I still have that motto. I read it almost 20 years ago and when I read it I knew – this is my motto and I will live and die by it. I found the motto in a book entitled Das Energi by Paul Williams – not the singer songwriter, but the new age writer, Paul Williams.

Do I recommend the book, Das Energi, hey, I don’t remember anything about it save this one quote, which became and still is my motto. Are you ready? I carry my motto in my glasses case and it’s written with a typewriter – you remember the typewriter? It says, “You will receive your next assignment soon; and you will know it when you receive it. Wait quietly, and trust your source.” Do I need to repeat that? Did everybody get that? “You will receive your next assignment soon; and you will know it when you receive it. Wait quietly, and trust your source.”

Surely, you can understand the importance of such a motto for a writer of fiction. Oh, when you’re in the middle of the process and the characters have taken on a life of their own, and the story is unfolding so fast that you feel like you’re taking dictation, well, of course, the motto is forgotten for as Chang Tzu says, “When the shoe fits the foot is forgotten.” Who needs a motto for writing when one is immersed in writing, who needs encouragement when all one really needs is the energy to continue with what one is being handed.

And believe me when I tell you that there were periods – sometimes up to months – when I would be done with a project and no new project was insight. I remember I read once that a famous writer – really doesn’t matter who – was often asked what he was working on – he always replied – “I’m working on my next best seller!” He’d say this even though he was lying fallow as a harvested field and hadn’t the foggiest notion what was next on his agenda. When I read that I took it to mean that he was waiting quietly and trusting in his source.

Trust isn’t something that’s valued much any more. Top executives were asked what they valued in new employees 97% agreed that loyalty was number one while only 3% suggested that perhaps integrity was something important in a new employee. It’s often assumed that loyalty and trust go hand in hand, but when something like this comes from business employers it says to me that loyalty is 94% more important than Integrity and what or who are we trusting in when integrity has nothing to do with loyalty?

I trust in Providence. That’s a 19th Century Unitarian way of saying I trust in God. I don’t seem to be alone in this – it says something very similar right on your paper money. On the back of all your paper money it says, In God We Trust. The new ten dollar bill with its red tinged paper and flaming torch, its We The People with an empty oval on back and front that if you hold it to the light you’ll see a ghost image of Alexander Hamilton – with all that new fangled, post-modern stuff it still says, In God We Trust right on the bill. Now, I know that probably offends some of you that your money would express something that you yourself would not espouse and I can help you out there – in fact – the church can help you out.

After this sermon there will be a collection and I’m encouraging all you out there who do not trust in God to simply put that nasty, outdated slogan in the collection plate and thereby rid yourselves of the duplicity of consciousness. And you might as well throw the change in there, too, cause it says the same thing on all that pocket change – In God We Trust stamped on each one of those coins. Maybe that’s why some of you use checks, credit cards and debit accounts – you simply don’t want anybody thinking that you might trust in God.

We read in the great prophet Isaiah’s book this morning that there was a highway – a way – for fools to travel upon. And Isaiah reassured us that, that highway – that way – would be safe from danger. There is a story of a 19th Century traveler in France who once asked, “Are there any brigands – thieves – on the highways?” To which the Innkeeper answered, “Oh no, set your heart at rest on that point, why should these fellows stay on the highway when they rob much more effectively, and at their leisure, in the offices of the government?” At this point in our history as a nation the highways may be the safest place to be – after all it’s harder to hit a moving target!

I saw a fellow the other day that was walking north in south Austin. He had on a nice leather jacket, a felt hat – a fedora to be exact, his feet were shod in good hiking shoes and on his back was a pack filled with whatever he needed for his journey. And I thought, no matter what is wrong with the USA, it is still a country where a person can gather the belongings they think they might need and set out on the highway – to see America – to find what the soul and heartbeat of America looks and sounds like and if this is sounding too much like a Chevrolet commercial, then think back on that time in your life when you weren’t sure what to do next – God, I hope you’ve experienced a time like that. What did you do when you felt like that? Did you sit around and mope, or did you take to the road, get out of town, go somewhere you’ve never been before and simply let the rhythm of your own feet match the rhythm of your heart beat.

One day when I was living in Chimayo, New Mexico. If you haven’t been to Chimayo, it’s between Santa Fe and Taos. If you turn off the Taos highway in Espanola and travel toward Truchas you’ll see the cut off for Chimayo. They have a wonderful restaurant there and of course there is the Sanctuario de Chimayo.

The Sanctuario has a backroom off to the left of the altar and in that backroom there is a hole in the floor. The little room’s walls are covered with crutches and other articles of ill health, prosthetic devices and all sorts of implements that humans need when they are encumbered by sickness. You see, that hole in the floor is filled with holy dirt.

And even though thousands of visitors visit there every month the hole never is empty and the priests swear that they are not the ones filling the hole. But I’m not asking you to trust in the dirt of the Sanctuario de Chimayo I want to tell you a little story that happened to me when I lived there.

One day when my wife, Viv, was at work I decided to take a walk. We lived on the Romero compound. The entire compound was surrounded by a tall coyote fence. Joseph and Maria lived there in a ranch style home. Their son lived in a trailer and we, Viv and I, were forced to live in a one hundred year old adobe house with walls three feet thick and a charming porch and a pedestal bed that was built up from the floor. From our bedroom window you could see Los Alamos glowing in the night. I think it was the lights of Los Alamos that we were seeing, but maybe it was just glowing.

This particular day was partly cloudy and cool. I took a blanket, some water and some crackers. When I left the Romero compound Lupita, a smallish black and white shepherd-type dog, followed me. I tried several times to get her to turn around and go back, but she insisted, she wanted to go with me.

It took me almost an hour to get to the foothills behind the house, and then I decided to climb to the highest foothill I could see. These were typical New Mexican foothills with Juniper and Sagebrushes growing here and there. At one point I had to cross between two peaks of these foothills. There was a small land bridge that connected the two peaks and on either side of this narrow walkway there was a drop off of some hundred feet or so.

I was thinking about turning around and finding another way to this higher peak, when Lupita simply took off and raced across the land bridge like it was the easiest thing in the world. Well, I thought, that sure looks easy. So – I took off across the narrow strip of land with the precipice on both sides. Half way across here comes Lupita; tail wagging, happy that I should attempt to follow her, since she had been following me most of the morning. In her exuberance she was jumping up and down and bouncing off my legs. I tried to get her to stop, but my attempts at that were causing me to lose my balance, so I skirted by her and made a hasty crossing to the other side.

It occurred to me at the time that Lupita and I resembled the Fool and his dog in the Tarot deck. That card is also known as The Fool. There on the card is the little dog, mindless of the precipice that his master walks toward, wagging her tail and encouraging the fool onward. In the Mexican Tarot deck the fool, El Loco, is being bitten on the leg by his dog as he approaches the precipice.

When Lupita and I got to the top of the highest peak we sat down and shared my water. The wind had picked up and the clouds had gathered and turned rather dark. It began to drizzle. I covered myself with the blanket and Lupita ducked her head and joined me under my blanket. Together we watched as the thunderstorms roiled in over Northern New Mexico and as the storms progressed we watched several strikes of lightening that set off forest fires in the Kit Carson National Forest, which is, of course, in the Sangre de Cristos Mountains – the blood of Christ was on fire! Yes, I continued to play the fool with Lupita by my side and lightening striking all around us.

Within the writings of Marcia Eliade there is the notion of the mysterium tremendum. The mysterium tremendum expresses the idea that we can be – at one and the same time – attracted to and repulsed by the very same stimuli. This occurs often in nature. In fact, one of the examples that Eliade gives is a storm. We realize that the storm may kill us, but there is something in us which wishes to witness the storm in person, first hand. People who study tornadoes – storm chasers – know exactly what I’m talking about.

This is the same way, Eliade says, that we feel about God. We are both attracted to God and repulsed by God. The divine impulse then is to stay somewhere between the two extremes. When Moses sees the burning bush that is not consumed, he is in the midst of the mysterium tremendum.

I like being a fool because I feel that I am in good company. If you take a close look at the world’s religious sages you will find that the great majority of them were considered foolish and out of step with their culture and society. Many of these saints – not called saints at the time, but only after their deaths – many of these saints said things that greatly upset the status quo, their congregations and those in power. Some of the things that they said were so upsetting that the powers that be removed them from the living.

The Chinese sage Lao Tzu was hip to this and he told his disciples that the man who was worthy would be used up, and that they only way to live and be ignored by those who wished to use or abuse you was to be like the twisted trees that grew in the mountains.

Hui Tzu said to Chuang Tzu:

I have a big tree,

The kind they call a “stinktree.”

The trunk is so distorted,

So full of knots,

No one can get a straight plank

Out of it. The branches are so crooked

You cannot cut them up

In any way that makes sense.

There it stands beside the road.

No carpenter will even look at it.

Such is your teaching – Chuang Tzu

Big and useless.

Chuang Tzu replied:

Have you ever watched the wildcat

Crouching, watching his prey –

This way it leaps, and that way,

High and low, and at last

Lands in the trap.

But have you seen the yak?

Great as a thundercloud

He stands in his might.

Big? Sure,

But can he catch mice!”

So for your big tree. No use?

Then plant it in the wasteland

In emptiness.

Walk idly around it,

Rest under its shadow;

No axe or bill prepares its end.

No one will ever cut it down.

Useless? You should worry!

The Christian mystic Meister Eckhart said, “The eye wherein I see God is the same eye wherein God sees me.” This is significant enough for a Christian mystic to say, but it was often quoted by D.T. Suzuki in his attempts to get Westerners to understand the Buddhist idea of prajna. Prajna is translated as wisdom, but the prajna that Suzuki and Zen Buddhists are speaking about is the wisdom that we all have Buddha nature, or Buddha mind. In other words, if you wish to see the Buddha look into a mirror. For the eye wherein I see the Buddha is the same eye wherein the Buddha sees me.

Foolishness is something very sacred within many traditions. Those from our culture see the swirling dervishes of the Islamic tradition as slightly crazy and at the very least foolish. Yet, they maintain that by swirling in endless circles they reach a state in which they experience the divine. Besides, when was the last time you watched small children play? Sooner or later they will get to the point where they simply turn in circles until they fall down, or if they’re close to a hill they will climb it and roll down until they are convulsed with laughter. Are these children crazy? Are they fools? Or are they participating in their birthright as children – able to do that which seems ridiculous simply because it feels good.

No, I am not suggesting that a return to childhood would render us wise fools. That argument presented by Rousseau and the Romantics that civilization merely covers up the Eden of childhood with the layers of social sickness has been proven wrong by a generation of baby boomers. The Romantic argument that healing is merely uncovering that which society has placed upon us as children is also radically refuted in William Golding’s novel, Lord of the Flies.

Yet at the same time, the rationalism of a Thomas Hobbes? exemplified in statements like “the life of mankind is solitary, poor, nasty, brutish and short,” although opposing the Romanticism of the Enlightenment still does not approach – as rational as it is – a complete refutation of Romanticism.

Real life lies somewhere between these two extremes – somewhere between no limits and total limitation. Children are not enlightened beings because they are pre-rational and the New Age philosophies that are rampant among baby boomers are filled with these pre-rational notions of a return to the earth, and a return to our original enlightened natures.

There is an experiment that is conducted with small children. A ball is placed between the child and an adult. One half of the ball is painted green and the other half is painted red. The child is shown both sides of the ball. The green side is placed so that the child can see it, while the red side is facing the adult. The child is then asked, “What color are you looking at?” The child answers correctly that she is looking at the green side. Then, the adult asks, “What side of the ball am I looking at?” All small children will answer that the adult is also looking at the green side – even when shown the ball again and asked the same question.

The problem is not one of perception but one of not being able to place herself in your shoes. Typically, children below the age of seven are not able to take the role of the other. They are narcissistic and egocentric. It is generally only after the age of seven that they can go from egocentric to sociocentric – from me to we.

This is a huge step for children because they are going from what is known as preconventional awareness to conventional awareness. Then, somewhere around adolescence the youth goes from conventional awareness to transconventional awareness, which means that they are no longer concerned with only the happiness of their family, tribe or country, but the happiness of the entire world – the Cosmos.

The Buddhist idea of the bodhisattva is a person who has attained enlightenment -they know that their happiness, their enlightenment is inextricably tied up with the happiness and enlightenment of all sentient beings. Hence, the first vow of the Bodhisattva;

Sentient Beings are numberless, I vow to free them.

Conclusion: So what kind of fool are you? I hope you’ve come with me on this journey into the fool’s paradise. It is not a journey back in time – we are not becoming children again. Every time I hear someone say they wish they were younger I can just about bet that they do not remember the difficulties of youth. I am fantastically enamored by the fact that I am about to turn 59 years of age. I have always believed since I was in my 20’s that I would reach my stride in my 60’s.

In conclusion I want to state something that will prove beyond a shadow of a doubt that I am God’s fool. And I need to quote scripture here – and yes, I’m talking about that pesky old Bible again. There have been so many famous paintings done on this scripture, this subject that perhaps you know one of them Henri Rousseau’s The Peaceful Kingdom.

The prophet Isaiah when talking of the coming of the Messiah and the restoration of the people of Israel speaks of a time that will be like no other time before or ever again. The verse I’m talking about is in the 11th Chapter of Isaiah the 6th verse;

The wolf shall dwell with the lamb, and the leopard shall lie down with the kid; and the calf and the young lion and the fatling together; and a child shall lead them.

(Isaiah 11:6 KJV)

Now, I may be God’s fool, but I’m not a literal fool. The Bible is written mostly in metaphor. When it speaks of the wolf dwelling with the lamb, and the leopard lying down with the kid, it speaks symbolically of a time when people who prey upon others and people who are preyed upon will one day live next door to each other and actually get along. Those that destroy will live adjacent to those they would at one time have been destroyed, and they will get by famously with one another. Can you say, “A Palestinian State?”

Naturally, this sort of metaphor also applies to us, our divided selves, those parts of us that wish we would fail combating those parts of us that strive for success. In a peaceable kingdom, in a world inside ourselves that is ruled by those things high and holy, a reconciliation between opposing forces happens. If you’ve seen the Russell Crow movie, A Beautiful Mind, and you know the ending, that’s the sort of reconciliation I’m talking about. You reach that point in your inner self where the bickering between opposing forces ends and life is allowed to go on. As a recovering alcoholic of 27 years I know exactly what this feel like. The process of life is a balancing act between the negatives and the positives.

Finally all this means is that if you believe in this metaphor then you imagine a time when peace will rule the people of this world, when the disenfranchised will be brought back into the circle of community, a time when the poor will be clothed and the hungry fed, a time when life will one day take a turn that reveals that all are looking with the eyes of Buddha and all are seeing Buddha in return. And regardless of the mounting evidence to the contrary, I believe this with all my heart. And that, my friends, is what finally and utterly proves that I am, perhaps along with some of you, God’s Fool.

The wolf shall dwell with the lamb!

Being Human Religiously

© Davidson Loehr

March 19, 2006

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

Listen to the sermon by clicking the play button.

PRAYER

If we must fail, let us fail at high endeavors. Let us not fail to be mediocre when we could instead fail to be absolutely brilliant. Let us not fall short of being moderately compassionate. Let us rather fall short of being fully compassionate.

Of all our failures in life, perhaps the saddest are those in which we failed even to try and serve the highest and noblest ideals.

It is a sin to fail at low aims. Not because we failed, but because we aimed too low.

But it is not a sin to fail at very high aims, like aiming for truth, justice, compassion and character. Because even our failure puts us into the company of the saints, the company of those who also believe that rising to our full humanity and rising to our full divinity may be the same rising.

Striving after low and mean ends is a boring sin, not worthy of us. Let us have greater ambition for our failures. Let us vow never to fail at anything that wasn’t noble and proud, never to settle for lower aspirations for ourselves, our lives, our country or our world.

We will all fail at some things. But let it not be a failure of vision, a failure of aspiration. If we must fail, let us fail at high endeavors, and then let our failures bless us – for they will.

Amen.

SERMON

Today’s sermon is really prepared as a companion to the program I’ll be doing here in two weeks, “Being Human Religiously,” which is a look at the soul of what the liberal style of religion – as opposed to literal religion – has been about for more than 2500 years.

I’m also continuing to think about the idea of Spirit that I started last week with the sermon about bringing the horse in the house. That story has now been written out for the first time, and posted on our website – along with the photograph.

Last week the treatment was partly in fun. There is a spirit of life that can appear without warning and break through our boundaries like all the trickster figures in all the world’s religions, opening us to some unexpected and life-giving possibilities. And since we can find stories about it everywhere, we can call it transcendent, enduring, maybe even infinite and eternal.

But religion is about deciding to live in relation to that transcendental spirit. Religion is, as one great Hindu mystic put it, “the whole soul becoming what it believes.” (Vivekananda)

This morning, I want to think about what on earth that means, why anyone would want to do it, what we could get out of it, and how we do it. That’s a lot of area to cover; I have tried to cut the sermon down from its original length of nine days.

Many would say that being human religiously is about standing before God, and that’s one way to put it. You could also say that Well, that would depend on what sort of a god you meant; and that’s also true. If you think of the God of Western religions – at least the version that makes the world media most often – this could be a pretty unattractive idea – frightening, even.

That God so often seems to be about judging and punishing, even wiping out whole peoples who displease him. And the thought of being judged by the God who created the whole universe and has these terribly high standards and this fearful punishment – it’s no wonder so many people don’t want to go to church or take religion very seriously. A lot of what passes for religion, and for God, doesn’t deserve to be taken very seriously.

Many people think it would make a lot more sense to reverse it and try to be religious humanly, to take religion down to a human scale, to reduce it to what we understand, even what we like.

And there is a lot of that going on. God and religion are dragged down to echo and endorse what we come up with, including some of the worst of what we come up with. Then religion is used not to expand us, but to strengthen our own biases and dangerous behaviors.

Sadly, you can see this by looking at almost every single instance where religion has become combined with the power of the state, both at home and abroad. Again, it’s enough to turn people completely off on the whole subject of having anything at all to do with religion, and you can’t really blame them.

Think of the Muslim women in Iran who have been shot in the face by men for refusing to cover their faces with a veil. Or what may become several states following South Dakota’s lead, criminalizing women who get abortions, while also cutting social support programs, pre-natal care, post-natal care, and health care. It’s good to be pro-life: I think it’s even a sacred command.

But to be pro-life means to honor and be willing to pay for all the social structures and services that are needed to support, nourish and honor human life. These include sex education, because it is so much easier to take advantage of ignorance than of knowledge. They include pre-natal care, post-natal care, universal health care, day care, and a host of things that are done much better in some European countries who have a much higher notion of serving human life than we do.

The programs are expensive, and have to be provided for all, especially for those who need them the most. But without them, criminalizing abortion is little more than a vindictive policy that turns some of our poorest and most defenseless girls and women into just breeders. And that isn’t pro-life. That’s an anti-life program, wrapped in misleading religious rhetoric, and we should all be ashamed of it.

But in any country where the power of religion is combined with the power of the state, we see people dragging religion down to the lowest level of human greed and bigotry, rather than trying to be human at a level of high and loving ideals.

So let’s put it another way. If religion is about choosing to live in a commanding kind of relationship with very high ideals, why do it? What do we get out of it? Isn’t it like sailors following the North Star, even though they’ll never reach it? Why torment yourself with ideals higher than you’ll ever be able to satisfy?

Once we ask it this way, the answer is kind of surprising. I’m going to say some things this morning that may seem surprising, and you may want to check them out against your own life this week. Here’s the first one. The reason we put our lives in the service of the very highest and most demanding ideals is that it is the only way to become fully human, and we know it. We choose this route over and over, whether we care about religion or not – I’ll convince you of this. For example, let’s take a few secular professions.

Lawyers, I’ve been told, are really supposed to be committed to serve three different levels of responsibilities. First, but lowest, is the responsibility to serve their client’s wishes. Second is the responsibility to serve the law, and the quality of law. They shouldn’t act in ways that will weaken the rule of good laws. And that leads to the third and highest level of allegiance, which is to the good of society. They shouldn’t take cases that can set precedents that are likely to weaken our civil boundaries or make our world a worse place.

The popular conception of lawyers is often that they only care about doing what their client wants. And there are some like that. But I’ve never talked with any of those, and am not sure I’d enjoy it, though it could be interesting to challenge them on this. However, I have found a lot of very high idealism in the lawyers I’ve known. They believe that if they serve the highest of these ideals to the best of their ability, it is a noble profession that will make the world a better place and fulfill them both as professionals and as people. And I think they’re right.

Teachers also hope to serve different levels of ideals, but are the most fulfilled when they feel they have served the highest ideals. At the lowest and perhaps least satisfying level, they teach students to pass the tests that will rank their schools.

But good teachers also have a love, a passion, for education, learning, growing, expanding their own horizons and the horizons of their students. They love the pursuit of truth in one form or another, and give their lives to serving it, one one class at a time, one student at a time. I’ve not met many teachers of whom this wasn’t true.

If there are teachers who don’t care about anything but getting students through the tests, I can’t imagine that teaching is a very deeply fulfilling profession for them. At the highest level, teachers hope and believe that they can be positive influences in forming the character of their students, helping to make them better people, partners and citizens. I’ve had teachers who absolutely did that. So have you. And we will never, ever forget them, will we? So this too can be a noble and fulfilling profession, but only when it is striving to serve very high ideals. Nobody gets much credit for just putting in time – they don’t get much fulfillment from it, either.

Doctors have the same kind of ideals that drew them to give their lives to medicine. Not pushing pills, but serving health, being part of a profession that cares for the quality of the lives of their patients, one patient at a time.

We could go down the list with more, but the most important things in life – things like justice, truth, health and character – must always be served by holding ourselves responsible to these terribly high ideals. The higher the ideals we serve, the more gratifying we can find the act of serving them. See if this isn’t true in your own life.

And all this is true on a more personal level, too, in our personal lives rather than our jobs. All weddings, oaths of office, all professional and personal standards we make a big thing of or dress up to do, are always committing us to serve only the very highest ideals. If they weren’t, it would feel tacky, and we wouldn’t be interested.

I’ve never officiated at a wedding where the couple swore to more or less like one another for awhile till they got bored, then to split. There was a hit song in the 70s that sold millions of records, where the lyrics said “We’ll sing in the sunshine, we’ll laugh every day; we’ll sing in the sunshine, then I’ll be on my way.” I never heard it sung at a wedding.

At a wedding, couples make bold and daring promises, amazing promises. These two people who really don’t know anywhere near as much about each other as they think, stand in front of all their best friends and families and all that is holy to them. They stand there and promise to love, honor and cherish, keeping themselves faithful to the other for as long as they both shall live. Without aspiring to a commitment of that quality, it wouldn’t even be worth attending a wedding. If all they aspire to is to sing in the sunshine then be on their way, most of their friends and family would suggest they just get on their way. But nobody does that.

Without the transcendent promises that call us to become more, the whole idea of a wedding loses its magnificence of spirit, its nobility of human aspiration, its magic and its blessing.

Still, why do we do it? These aren’t even religious examples I’ve been using, but any time we do something that feels deeply important to us, we seek out the highest ideals we can find, and swear to put ourselves at their service. If that isn’t a religious commitment, I don’t know what is. But why? What do we get out of it? Why bother?

This isn’t just a rhetorical question; there’s an answer to it. Here’s the reason for being human religiously. It’s because – and see if this doesn’t ring true for you – the highest satisfaction and deepest comfort in life come from being committed to the highest and most compassionate ideals, because it is the act of commitment that transforms and blesses us. This is expressed in so many ways in different religions.

It is seeing ourselves as being beloved of God, knowing Jesus loves us, feeling engulfed in the compassion of Allah, the Buddha or Kuan Yin. Just trying to serve these things blesses us, even if we don’t do it perfectly. Because perfect ideals, and perfect gods, have forgiven us in advance for being merely human, as long as we’re trying to be the best kind of humans. This sounds all poetic and foofy, but it is absolutely true. Compassion, acceptance and forgiveness are key attributes of every god worthy of the name.

You may know Christians, as I do, for whom one of the most profoundly loving facts in their lives is the fact that they can say “Christ has accepted me just as I am.” If they hadn’t felt that, they would probably have just kept looking. It’s ironic. We can fail at trying to serve high ideals and still feel blessed by our aspirations. But if we just try to get by, get away with what we can, drag religion down to our lowest expectations so it will be easy to meet them, then when we look back on it there is no blessing for us at all.

When a Buddhist tries to see all others through the eyes of the Buddha’s or Kuan Yin’s boundless compassion, it rubs off. They also come to see themselves through the eyes of that boundless compassion; it rubs off. They have become what they tried to serve, and it transformed their lives. A Jew, Christian or Muslim who tries to serve the God of Love in honest and earnest ways, lives a far more loving and beloved life than they might otherwise. As the Hindu mystic Vivekananda put it, “Religion is – the whole soul becoming what it believes.” Not what it achieves, what it believes. We become what we most truly believe. If you believe the search for truth trumps lesser concerns, you become a person with more truth about you. The magic of serving high ideals – truth, justice, health, compassion and the rest – is that in part we become what we serve, even when we fail to serve it perfectly.

We say this to ourselves in so many ways. “At least I tried; it was worth trying; Well, I did my best”.” Think about this. There is some deep magic here, in the fact that just choosing to serve high ideals is transformative. We’ll never do it perfectly. I suspect no marriage has ever quite lived up to the poetic vows of the wedding day, and no professional ever really finished a whole career without being able to remember several times, maybe a bunch of times, that they failed, even failed pretty miserably, to live up to what mattered so much to them. But in the long run – and hopefully even in the shorter runs – we don’t condemn ourselves for the inevitable failures that come with being human. We are blessed by the ideals to which we give our lives, the compassion to which we give our hearts, the gods in whose service we enlist our souls. Think about it this week, and see if it isn’t true for you too.

It is one of the greatest miracles in life, really.

It is kind of like that picture of sailors steering their courses by following the North Star. No sailor will ever reach the North Star. It isn’t possible. But just following it changes their course completely. And when we align our hearts with the promise to love till death do us part, it changes our course as far as you can get from just wanting to sing in the sunshine then be on your way.

And it doesn’t take great wisdom; we don’t have to be saints, or like Mother Theresa or Gandhi – almost nobody can do that! We just have to try to be human in the best way we know how, try to follow that path, like steering on the North Star. Just that is transformative. And that is one of the greatest miracles in life.

I’ll tell you about a young couple I met during my first years in the ministry. They weren’t members of the church, didn’t have a church, but asked if I would marry them. They were both eighteen years old. I asked them to write their wedding vows, as I ask all couples. We don’t have to use those vows – many couples prefer more traditional vows, and sometimes what they are promising each other is really too personal to share in a public ceremony. But I want them to know what their vows are, what their promises are.

All couples find this is harder than they thought, but this young couple found it to be nearly impossible. One or the other of them phoned at least three times, asking more questions. Finally, they asked to come back in and talk about it. They were completely frustrated! “We can’t do this!” he said, and she agreed. “We don’t know enough to write anything good enough for a wedding.” In fact, they agreed, they hardly knew anything. “Well,” I said, “this does sounds serious. But you must know something. Tell me, what do you know about yourselves and what you’re bringing to this marriage?”

Between them, it started tumbling out. “We don’t know anything about the future. We don’t know what we’ll be doing for work even in two years, let alone in forty. We don’t know yet if we’ll have children, or even if we want children. We don’t know where we’ll live. We just know we love each other like the other half of our own souls, that we’ll be together for the rest of our lives, that together we can figure out anything we need to, and by God, that has to be enough!”

Yes, that’s what they decided to use for their wedding vows, and I suspect nobody who was there will ever forget it. I don’t know what happened to that young couple. He had just enlisted in the armed forces, and they were leaving in a week for some military post. But I hope they’re still together, and still know those wonderfully profound lessons they had already learned as 18-year-olds in love. High ideals bless and transform us, even if we serve them haltingly.

But when we reverse it, and drag religion down to the level of our most undeveloped parts or our greed, bigotry or the rest of it, then we’re not serving anything big enough to cherish us, or cradle us, or forgive us our sins, since we”ve not tried to forgive the sins of others, or serve them. That’s when God becomes a fearful and capriciously vicious judge and punisher. Because it isn’t God at all, but only our own smallest untutored biases, writ large. As contradictory as it sounds, we rise or shrink to the size of the ideals we serve. Just serving high ideals is transformative.

It’s all about living more wisely and well here and now, not elsewhere and later. As you’ll learn when you come to the program at the end of the month, almost all of the best religious thinkers from all religious traditions for the past 2500 years and more have tried to help us become human religiously, by orienting our lives to ideals as high, as luminous, and as beyond our reach as the North Star. When religion is taken seriously, as I think all the best styles of liberal religion have done, it is never about pie in the sky. It’s about pie here. And love here. And justice, compassion, truth and salvation by character here. It’s what Jesus meant when he said that the kingdom of heaven isn’t coming, isn’t in the future, but is within and among us. It’s here, or it’s nowhere. The magic, the miracle and the transformation are also here, or nowhere. There’s really quite a lot at stake for us.

The attraction of becoming human religiously is simple, and I think it’s powerful. Understood correctly, it is saying, “Here’s the deal. If you will believe in very high ideals, the kind that make high demands on you, and if you use your life to try and serve them, you will be blessed, accepted, and forgiven for your failings. You don’t have to earn salvation. You just have to enlist in the service of the highest ideals of truth, justice, love, health and character, and let them direct you. Even when you fail, you will be blessed for trying, and you will feel it.

The power of faith, and living that faith, can transform you, and your whole soul may become what you believe. And that may be the greatest miracle of all, now or later, here or anywhere.

I can’t guarantee to persuade you. I can only testify, which is what I’m really doing here. The rest can only happen inside of you, as you turn these things over in your heart and mind. If it happens, you might experience it as a kind of miracle. And those kinds of miracles, luckily, do happen: every day.

Oh, Go ahead: Bring the Horse in the House!

© Davidson Loehr

March 12, 2006

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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STORY: The Horse in the House

It happened in the summer of 1955, and was both logical and necessary. We lived in Colfax, Iowa, a town of about 1800, twenty miles east of Des Moines. Formerly located on Highway 6, the Interstate bypassed it when it went in in the early 1960s, kind of leaving it where it was.

But where it was – at least in 1955 – was a wonderful place, at least for a 13-year-old boy with a horse. My younger brother also had a horse, named Spooky. Spooky was white, and hot-tempered, at least to me, though my brother seemed to get along with him.

My horse was brown, with a big white line running up the back of his left hind leg, around his rump and back down his right leg. He was laid-back and cool, and his name was Louie.

The horses were our freedom. We could come home from school, throw a saddle on, and just ride, ride, anywhere. A couple times on weekends, we left on horseback to make camp for the weekend. I had a Marlin lever-action .22 caliber rifle and a saddle holster, just like I knew all real cowboys had, and would hunt big game for our vittles. OK, squirrels. Whatever. We”d make camp, cut down some saplings, or cut branches, make a corral that straddled the small creek, so the horses wouldn’t wander off. Then I’d shoot a squirrel or two, which we”d cook on a stick over an open fire, then retire to sleep using our saddles as pillows, just like in the movies. I don’t think cowboys really used saddles as pillows. It’s very uncomfortable.

When my brother Peter and I were 13 and 10, our horses were sometimes our best friends. We fed them, cleaned their stable in the barn, and rode them around the fenced pasture next to the house almost every day. I had a paper route that went from downtown straight out Main Street about two miles out past our house. Every day, summer and winter, I’d get to our house, saddle up Louie, and we”d finish the route together. We were close.

My brother Peter and I used to like to give the horses sugar cubes, which they gobbled out of our hands almost too eagerly. That was until the vet said the sugar cubes would rot their teeth and we shouldn’t do it any more. Bummer. They liked carrots and apples fine, but they also had a sweet tooth. We understood.

We were looking for a loophole in the “no sugar cubes” deal. I think we found it by chance one morning, when my brother didn’t want to finish his grape juice because it was too sweet. The words hit like a revelation straight from the gods – or at least the god Poseidon, who was also fond of horses.

After our mother left for the day, we poured some grape juice in the dog bowls on the rickety back porch. The horses loved it! But there was an unexpected bonus that made it all even better. The grape juice made their noses and tongues purple. Now that was cool! Horses with purple tongues and, in Spooky’s case, a purple nose!

The occasion giving rise to the center of this story came on one of those days when both horses were up on the back porch, drinking grape juice out of the dog bowls. When Pete took Spooky back down, he broke the wooden steps – really, it’s amazing that both horses didn’t fall straight through the porch.

Well, now Louie was stuck up there on the back porch. He wouldn’t jump down, there wasn’t any other way off the porch, and our mother would be coming home in an hour or two. This called for quick thinking, which kids mostly know they’re pretty good at. We had two friends over, who would help with the horses in return for getting to ride them. I shared my plan. Joey could take Louie’s halter, I’d go ahead to clear away the furniture, and we would lead the horse through the house and out the front door, over the new porch with its sturdy cement step. Oh yes, and Jimmy would walk behind Louie, carrying a metal bucket, just in case. Jimmy protested, but he was the littlest, so it was only fitting.

No sooner had I announced this grand and eminently logical plan than my brother jumped on Spooky and rode away as fast and as far as he could.

The plan worked beautifully. I cleared the furniture out of the way, Louie was very well-behaved, and Jimmy whined all the way through the kitchen and dining room about the sorry hand that Life had dealt him.

When we got into the living room, the television was on, and Louie stopped. His ears shot forward, his eyes got big, and I could feel him thinking “Hey – we haven’t got this out in the barn! The Big House is a whole other thing!” I saw the family camera sitting on a hall table – a Kodak Brownie Hawkeye with flash bulb attachment – and quickly took a picture of this scene.

But I wasn’t as quick as Jimmy. When he saw me going for the camera, he walked up by the horse’s shoulders, and set the bucket down.

This was not good timing. It was not good timing because when the flash bulb popped, it startled Louie. And Louie pooped on the rug.

I yelled at Jimmy – his duties had been made very clear. But he snapped back – petulantly, I thought – “I am not going down in history holding a bucket behind a horse’s butt!” It was a good point, well taken.

Still, there was the poop.

We took Louie out the front, got him back into the barn, and both Joey and Jimmy disappeared as quickly as my brother had a few minutes earlier.

I scooped the poop, but it wasn’t going to be that simple. There was a stain. Not dramatic, but noticeable. I went into the kitchen and looked under the sink, where wondrous and mysterious Chemicals are kept. And there was a big bottle of Glamorene Rug Cleaner. It was, I’m quite sure, the only time in my life I ever saw or used that product, but its name was stamped in my mind forevermore.

Luckily, I had a bucket. Of course, if it had been used in the first place, I wouldn’t have had to use it in the second place. I filled the bucket with water, dumped in a lot of Glamorene, got a brush, and scrubbed.

Glamorene Rug Cleaner was truly miraculous! Unfortunately, there was now a large wet spot, a couple feet across, which was even more noticeable than the original stain. My mother had never been accused of being a good housekeeper, though this was the first time I saw that as a good thing. I took a throw rug from the other side of the room and covered the wet spot.

She never noticed. Neither did my father. And Peter knew better than to say one single word. During the day, I’d take the rug off, covering it again before my mother came home. In two or three days, the rug was dry, and looked like its scruffy old self again. When I moved the rug back where it belonged, both parents suddenly noticed it had been moved, though I assured them it had always mostly been there.

In short, I pulled off the caper of the century. I got away with bringing Louie through the house, even though he had had that little accident in the living room. In the days to come, both my brother and I would laugh about it while we were out riding. Certain kinds of kids live for moments like that.

It was – I don’t know, maybe two or three weeks later: a long time later. I came home from some serious playing, and no sooner had the screen door shut than I heard this Mother Voice shouting “Howie! Come in here!” Every kid knows that voice, and knows what it means.

I stood a little paralyzed there by the front door, wondering – not what I’d done, but what anyone could possibly have told her about. Nothing. There was nothing. I’d either been quite good, or left no evidence. I was sure of it. I went into the kitchen, and every kid knows just what comes next. With my most innocent look, I said “Yes, Mother?”

She was not a happy woman. “What do you mean, bringing that horse in the house?”

This took really quick thinking. Could she possibly know about that? It didn’t seem likely. Pete wouldn’t dare tell. And Jimmy and Joey knew if they blabbed, they”d lose their ticket for free horse rides. And Louie didn’t talk. That’s it. She couldn’t know.

So again with the innocent kid look, I said “What horse?”

The next line was the Voice of Damnation and Doom: “I just got the pictures back from Walgreen”s!”

Poop. That horse. Louie, the cool, laid-back horse. Ah, yes.

The next moments were a bit awkward. Denial seemed out of the question. But explaining the logic of it – and especially how responsibly we brought the horse into the house, with moving the furniture and Jimmy and the bucket and all – that was a little trickier. And then there was the matter of the poop. I couldn’t really leave that out. And the Glamorene, and the wet spot – which finally cleared up the mystery of the moving throw rug. It was actually quite a complex story. And telling it did sound a bit odd, even though it was all quite logical from beginning to end.

As I stumbled through the story, I suddenly saw a gift from the gods, a shot of pure Grace: the corner of her mouth twitched. She was on the verge of laughing! Oh, Hallelujah!

Again, every kid would know what move to make next. “What’s the matter, Mom? Are you going to laugh? It’s really pretty funny, isn’t it? Huh?”

Her expression was one of those that should have been filmed. She needed to be serious – it was still Serious Parent time – but she could barely keep it in. Finally, she blurted “I have no idea what to say to you. I would feel ridiculous saying “Don’t bring that horse in the house again”!” I look back on that as about the most ideal way a parent could handle this situation – not that more than like one in a billion parents will ever have to face this situation. As for the back steps; they were rebuilt, but I don’t remember anything about it. Maybe Pete and I had our allowances docked to help pay the carpenter, but I don’t think so. I think the family absorbed Louie’s Big Day as one of those Memories we’re always trying to make – or perhaps as the sad sign of a child too far gone to save.

And that’s the story of how the horse was brought into the house, way back in the summer of 1955 when both I and my world were a lot younger and simpler.

But as logical as it is, I have learned through the years how filled with Basic Disbelief many people are. Like you. You don’t quite believe it – at least not all of it – do you?

Oh, come on. This is better than most history. Even if you don’t believe it, can’t you pretend to?

But no. No. And so, for those too cynical to accept the simple truth of a childhood memory from a half-century ago, a gift for you too. I carried that photo in my billfold for over twenty years. Louie was with me through the Army, in Germany, even through the Vietnam War. Then sometime in the mid-70s, while I was spending a weekend with my brother’s family, he picked my pocket as I slept, stole the picture, and sent it off to have it copied. At Christmas, he gave me a 16×20 print of that old photo, complete with its fading and scratches, which I then had mounted and framed. It still hangs on my office wall today.

PRAYER

There are little sparks of life around that we often miss: a special person, a twinkle in the eye of someone who just seems to very real to us.

Little lights are scattered here and there in our lives: people, places, even things that can awaken our own spirit in ways large and small, but in ways we wish for.

So often when life seems dull or we seem to be in a rut, we’ve lost sight of those sparks, or lost touch with them. Spontaneous things, unplanned fun, or contact with those people who have such a young spirit, no matter how old they are.

There is an old mystical story that says all these sparks are parts of God, and that our task is to find them, draw them to our lives, and use them to transform ourselves and our world back into an image of God.

Drawing the world back into an image of God sounds like a task far beyond anything we can do. But we do recognize those moments, people and places that make us feel more alive, that seem to make life offer more options, that open us up.

Let us start there, attending to the sources of inspiration that make us feel more alive, more thankful, more joyful. Let us claim those sources and the little sparks of life they offer, even if they offer them only to us.

The task of reconstituting the world is too big to imagine. Let us bring it down to a level we can see and feel: reconstituting one spirit at a time, one life at a time, one relationship at a time, to make them show forth more light, love, and joy.

It’s a start. A good start.

Amen

SERMON: Oh, Go ahead: Bring the Horse in the House!

There is a wonderful story from medieval Jewish mysticism about how in the beginning, God existed just as undifferentiated infinite light. But God wanted to behold himself, and so he created the world; the world is the image of God. Then God withdrew, and the world was no longer the image of God, but a fractured, separated place. But spread throughout this world, there are billions and billions of sparks from that divine light that can connect us with all that is sacred.

Our task in life is to cherish those sparks that it is our good fortune to encounter in life, and to raise and spiritualize them, so we can reconstitute the world as an image of God. Each of us, they say, encounters those persons, events and things that contain sparks that we are uniquely suited to redeem.

And our sacred task in life is to find those sparks we are lucky enough to come across, to cherish and embody them, to lift them up and spiritualize them, and by doing this to reconstitute the world so that it can once more take on the image of a God of love, justice, happiness and peace.

There are a lot of ways to describe those sparks, but when you’re around one you usually notice it.

Mostly, we seem to notice those sparks when they’re gone.

I think of the final lines from a poem written 150 years ago by Thomas Hood, called “I Remember, I Remember.” It’s looking back to a childhood when the world seemed to be whole and sacred, but looking from a present where it isn’t. The final lines of the poem say,

I remember, I remember,

The fir trees dark and high;

I used to think their slender tops

Were close against the sky:

It was a childish ignorance,

But now ’tis little joy

To know I’m farther off from heaven

Than when I was a boy.

He’s talking about heaven as though it were above the sky. But the real “heaven” he’s talking about was that state of spirit in which we were close enough to the soul of life nearly to touch it.

And when we miss that – well, missing it has produced a lot of great tragedy and poetry, including some poignant funny poems. One of my favorite of those is a great favorite of women, at least women who think that one day they might become old. You’ve probably all heard it. It was written in 1961 by an English woman named Jenny Joseph, and her original title for it was simply “Warning”:

When I am an old woman, I shall wear purple

 with a red hat that doesn’t go, and doesn’t suit me.

 And I shall spend my pension on brandy and summer gloves

 and satin candles, and say we’ve no money for butter.

I shall sit down on the pavement when I am tired

 and gobble up samples in shops and press alarm bells

 and run my stick along the public railings

 and make up for the sobriety of my youth.

I shall go out in my slippers in the rain

 and pick the flowers in other people’s gardens

 and learn to spit.

You can wear terrible shirts and grow more fat

 and eat three pounds of sausages at a go

 or only bread and pickles for a week

 and hoard pens and pencils and beer nuts and things in boxes.

But now we must have clothes that keep us dry

 and pay our rent and not swear in the street

 and set a good example for the children.

 We must have friends to dinner and read the papers.

 But maybe I ought to practice a little now?

 So people who know me are not too shocked and surprised

When suddenly I am old, and start to wear purple.

Sometimes, it seems that we lose the ability to see and save these sparks just by growing up. Thomas Hood’s poem longs for his first childhood; Jenny Joseph’s poem seems to be looking forward to her second childhood. That’s a big part of why it’s so much fun seeing the children come up for their story each Sunday: they bring that sense of wonder with them. They seem to do so easily what we grownups sometimes have trouble doing at all.

During my first year in the ministry, in 1986, I witnessed such a scene: one I’ll never forget.

It was after the third sermon I had preached there. I had written a series of children’s stories for those three weeks. They were like a serial, and were a simple story, if not a great one. It was a story about a bush that became unhappy just being a bush because all those darned birds kept taking it for granted and it didn’t have a starring role like the big trees did. The more unhappy it got, and the angrier it got at having to be a bush, the more its roots withdrew from the soil, until at last they pulled out, the wind blew, and it became a tumbleweed.

Now it roamed everywhere, but never had a home, and began feeling lonely. When the wind stopped for awhile, it found itself resting not far from a lovely little river, in a beautiful meadow. It was grateful for the rest, and to be in such a beautiful place. And soon, it put down roots and again became a bush. Now when birds came to sit in its branches, it was thankful for the company. It came to love the place, and all the other creatures in its world. And as that happened, it grew and grew, and finally became a very, very big tree. The End.

I wasn’t prepared for what happened after the service. In the foyer, a church member who was a physics professor came up to me, raging mad. He was actually red in the face, as he accused me of having done a ridiculous and shameful thing. My crime was that I had told the children a story that could not be scientifically true.

I could hardly believe it! It was ridiculous, he yelled, to say that a tumbleweed could again put down roots and become a bush. Though he didn’t know the scientific names of the plants involved, he was quite sure it couldn’t happen. And then, as though that weren’t bad enough, I had gone to absolutely stupid extremes by then telling the children that the bush could become a tree!

“It’s ridiculous!” he said, getting pretty worked up. Then he shook his finger at me and said “Do you actually believe that a bush can become a tree?”

I said Yes. Now he turned nearly purple. He was almost shouting, as he said “Well, I would like to know how in hell a bush can become a tree!”

That’s when the six-year-old boy who had been standing behind me waiting for his turn finally had all he could take. He stepped forward, looked up at the physicist, and said “It’s easy, Mister. It just has to learn how to love!”

You hear something like this, and it can be easy to feel like Peter Pan, like you never want to grow up if it means losing the ability to understand even the simplest of stories. The little boy had been waiting to tell me how much he had liked the three stories, and that he would never forget them. The man was in his fifties, with a Ph.D. in physics, yet actually seemed to think the story had been about a bush! If we must lose the ability to see even the simplest magic when we grow up,

But of course we do grow up. We have to grow up. Eventually, our parents want us to move out and get a job. And to do that – well, we have to grow up. You know, it’s one thing to have your kid bring a horse in the house once. But if every role of film you got developed had a picture of your child with another large heavy animal standing in your living room, you”d be looking for a good therapist.

There’s a famous passage from the Christian scriptures, written by St. Paul, where he says, “When I was a child I spoke as a child I understood as a child I thought as a child; but when I became a man I put away childish things.” (I Cor. 13: 11). When you think about it, it’s an odd thing to say, after Jesus had said that you can’t hope to enter the kingdom of heaven unless you’re like a child! Maybe Paul didn’t get it.

I don’t know quite what happens to us when we grow up, but something does seem to change – that change that Peter Pan was so afraid of. I remember stories on the old hippies of the 60s and 70s who had tuned in, turned on and dropped out, then growing into investment bankers and organization men and women, becoming the new incarnation of the very Establishment they had earlier hated, as they raised their own children and suffered through their teen-aged rebellions, wondering why they didn’t grow up.

Sometimes, it seems that part of growing up is losing touch with that spark, the almost magical and transformative insights of even the simplest fairy tales and stories – about a beauty that remains asleep until wakened by a loving kiss, about frogs turning into princes the same way, or tumbleweeds turning into bushes and then trees, just because they’ve learned how to love.

But without seeing the sparks within these stories, and being open to them, we really are farther off from heaven than when we were young. And the “heaven” in this story isn’t a place, you know, but that kind of life where it feels the sacred dimensions, the sparks, are right there near us, close enough to touch. That’s what we seem to lose.

Of course, growing up doesn’t have to mean just growing old, and we all know some people with both plenty of years and plenty of sparks. In fact, they are probably some of our very favorite people in the whole world. They’re some of the vessels carrying those sparks for us to find, and claim, and embody, in our own sacred task of trying to reconstitute the world so it can once again be the image of God, of all that is holy and life-giving.

When I was a graduate student, in a very arid, intellectual and sometimes impersonal graduate school, there were a few of these living sparks around, and they were absolutely magical for me.

My teacher was one of them. He was a man in his 60s who wore beads, had an earring, wore jeans, sometimes sandals, and open collars that somehow survived from the hippie movement, and shoulder-length hair, except on the top where he didn’t have much hair at all.

He looked like a walking refutation of grown-up seriousness. We became close, I had many dinners with his family, and still remember the feeling that one of the greatest living theologians was also an over-sized elf.

I had another professor who was much more sober and quiet, very grown-up. During the week, if he wasn’t teaching an advanced seminar or discussing the footnotes of footnotes, you would find John in the library, meticulously digging up even more footnotes.

Ah, but on Sunday night, after the sun went down, some of the students would gather in the lounge for an evening of playing Dungeons and Dragons. And there was John, playing the Dungeonmaster, dressed in a wonderful brownish medieval robe with hood and rope belt that his wife had made for him, his eyes twinkling like a six-year-old boy, and more excitedly alive than I ever saw him at any other time. On Sunday nights, he was just full of sparks.

And I suspect that if someone were to have asked John whether he actually believed in that ridiculous Dungeons and Dragons stuff, he might have said he actually believed that letting ourselves expand in imaginary escapades we’ll never be able to encounter in grown-up life can open up whole new and wonderful avenues for our souls to take flight.

In religious studies, you often call figures like this Trickster figures. Those are the figures that don’t follow grown-up rules, that bring spontaneity into life whether you want it or not.

Even the more official and restrained parts of the University sometimes welcomed in these Trickster figures, and there would be a quiet explosion of sparks that could just take your breath away.

The most memorable came one Christmas Eve, in the big formal service in Rockefeller Chapel. Built with the money of John D. Rockefeller, this huge stone building was over a hundred feet high inside, seated two thousand people, and seemed modeled on the magnificent cathedrals of medieval Europe. The Sunday services were so dismal it seldom drew more than fifty.

But on Christmas Eve, it was packed. Organ, huge choir, medium-sized orchestra, priests in formal robes, everybody being very sober and pious.

Then, into the middle of this great pomp, they staged a re-enactment of the old Bible story of Joseph and Mary looking for a place to stay. And slowly, from the end of the long stone aisle all the way to the front, came this year’s Joseph, and Mary – and real live donkey! A donkey! The little donkey didn’t know the story, didn’t care for the music or the costumes or much else besides the carrots Joseph would try to slip him unnoticed.

The donkey had no costume, no pretense at all, couldn’t have cared less about Christmas, and completely stole the show! Finally, when the donkey entered, there was something that was simply real. I don’t remember much else from the program that night, but the donkey, at least, was sacred, and everybody there with eyes to see could see it. There was one of those magnificent sparks, clip-clopping down the aisle: just clip-clopping and looking around.

Bringing the donkey into the temple revealed the temple in the donkey. And if even a little donkey could contain a temple, then surely we could, too. And just knowing that helps to accomplish the sacred task of reconstituting the world.

Sometimes just telling these stories is like bringing a donkey into the temple. That’s the role that stories, fairy tales, movies and some imaginative fantasy games can play for us, and it’s a role we need, if we’re going to find any of those sparks at all.

I don’t know if Mardi Gras or Burning Man or the others offer more escape than transformation. But anywhere that spirit is present, it can offer transformation, because it shows that power of life, that power that represents life unchained, that most powerful force anywhere.

How many of you have thought some version of “When I’m older and no longer afraid of what people might think, I’ll wear purple. I’ll do the harmless but outrageous things I don’t dare do now”?

What would those things be, that would let your soul take flight? Do you think perhaps it might be wise to practice them a little now, so that when you get older and have the nerve to do outrageous things that let your soul soar, people won’t be so surprised?

In the beginning, God, the divine and magical dimension of the universe, existed just as infinite light. But God wanted to behold himself, and so he created the world; the world is the image of God. Then God withdrew, and the world was no longer the image of God, but a fractured, separated place. But spread throughout this world, there are billions and billions of sparks from that divine light that can connect us with all that is sacred. And our sacred task in life is to find those sparks we are lucky enough to come across, to cherish and embody them, to lift them up and spiritualize them, and by doing this to reconstitute the world so that it can once more take on the image of a God of love, justice, joy, and peace.

My story about bringing the horse in the house may not be about much more than dealing with a problem you will never, ever have: what to do with a horse that’s stuck on your back porch before your mother comes home. That’s not a spiritual quest at all. Yet there’s something in it that still has some magic about it, a spark to it, even fifty years later, isn’t there?

Let’s not grow up without bringing with us that child’s ability to feel pure joy, to expect magic everywhere, and to find it. These sparks can come through so many different doors. They can arrive like a little donkey. They can be like a spark, or a lightning flash. Sometimes they come announced by that “still, small voice” that prophets have written about. And sometimes – you can trust me on this one – they even whinny.

Virtually the whole story is captured in this photo. At the far right, you can see the edge of the console-style television set. Louie’s alert eyes and ears speak for themselves. That’s Joey on the sofa, and Jimmy, derelict from duty, peeping over the horse’s shoulders. On the floor, you can still see the top of the metal bucket – which, like Jimmy, is about four feet from where it should have been.

What Are We Doing Here?

© Davidson Loehr

and Jack Harris-Bonham

March 5, 2006

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

Listen to the sermon by clicking the play button.

PRAYER:

Davidson Loehr

Let us not hide our lights under a basket. We meet in this room with the sculpture of a flame in the wall, with a small burning light in our chalice, and with 150 more little personal lights sitting over in the window, waiting to be lit by members and visitors. We’re surrounded by symbols that say what we’re about here is finding and sharing a certain kind of light. So let’s not hide it under a basket.

All religions say they offer a light unto the world. But nobody cares what goes on inside those churches, or what the people in the little buildings think. The rest of the world wonders if we will have some light to share with those outside of our little building.

We have so many kinds of light – even more than those 150 little lights in the window can signify. And the world needs light of many kinds in many dark areas. Who will take light to the world if we don’t?

And so this symbol of light that surrounds and cradles us. Let us take some with us when we leave. Let us not hide our lights under a basket. Light deserves more, and the world needs more. Let this be a place where we learn to light our own lights, then take them out of here to offer to our larger world, each in our own way.

Just that could change the world. Just that.

Amen.

HOMILY: SANCTUARY – A Safe Place For You, By You & Of You,

Jack R. Harris-Bonham, Ministerial Intern

I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. (Matthew 18:3 NIV)

The kingdom of God cometh not with observation: Neither shall they say, Lo here! Or, lo there! For behold, the kingdom of God is within (among) you. (Luke 17:20b-21 KJV))

 

Introduction:

Kids – and I’m speaking to all the kids here not just the ones who are from the 1st to 6th grades. There’s a whole lot more kids here than that. In the reading from the Bible that I just read Jesus says that unless you change and become like a child, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. So where is this kingdom of heaven?

The answer to that question is in the second reading – “for behold, the kingdom of heaven is within, or among you.”

Throughout history human kind has tried to represent the kingdom of heaven through the building of sanctuaries like this one. Why do you suppose there are windows way up high here in the front of our sanctuary? It’s pretty simple really.

Down through the ages we humans have been a lot more literal than we have to be. We tend to take things exactly as they are said. When we hear the words, “kingdom of heaven,” we tend to look towards the heavens – the sky. So a whole lot of cathedrals and churches tend to have light pouring in from above – from the sky.

When you enter a room you eyes tend to follow the light and so when a church, or sanctuary like this one is entered our eyes, our heads and our thoughts tend to go toward the heavens – the sky. So architects and builders of churches have given us a literal interpretation of the kingdom of heaven here on earth. They build sanctuaries that take our thoughts out of this world into the next world – the so-called kingdom of heaven.

But that’s not what Jesus meant when he talked about the kingdom of heaven. He was talking about a place that’s right here on earth – a place that’s easier to get to, if we have the mind and heart of a child.

The Zen Master, Shunryu Suzuki, once said, “In the experts mind there are few possibilities, but in beginner’s mind there are many possibilities.” When Suzuki-Roshi said “beginner’s mind” he was, in fact, talking about the mind and heart of a child.

What is it about the mind and heart of a child that helps us enter the kingdom of heaven? I mean here we are in a representation of the kingdom of God right here on this earth. We are in a sanctuary and this sanctuary is designed so that we can realize the kingdom. But the part that’s missing in most adults, the part that can help us realize the kingdom here on this earth is the imagination and wonder of a child.

In the child dedication ceremony that we do here at First Church, we say at one point in that ceremony, “Nothing is strange to the children for whom everything is new. Children do not yet know what belongs and what does not; therefore for them all things belong. Their ears are open to all music. Their eyes are open to all arts. Their minds open to all languages. Their being open to all manners. In the child’s country there are no foreigners.”

This gets at the heart of what it means to be in a sanctuary. For truly all things are holy and wonderful. It is in that spirit that we gather here in this sacred space. We gather to recognize each other as part of ourselves. We gather to have the imagination of a child’s heart and mind to see past our differences into the heart of the matter, which is that we all – each and every one of us – belong to one another.

There was a man once who wanted to learn to meditate. Meditation is like praying, but there are no words. Meditation is sitting quietly and doing nothing.

But the man didn’t know how – he didn’t know how to just sit and be quiet. Maybe you can understand this? Sometimes it’s hard to sit and be quiet. So a friend suggested that the man go to a place in his mind, in his thinking, a place where he would feel safe – a safe place.

But everywhere he thought of – the golf course, his job, his car, his home – none of these places felt safe to him, then, he remembered the way he felt in his mother’s arms. When he was a little boy and he got scared, he’d run to his mother and do this! (Hold arms up to be held.) She would take him into her arms and she would hold him tight and talk sweet to him. It didn’t matter much what his mother said, what really matter was the way she smelled – like perfume and cookies – and the way he was able to totally relax in her arms.

It’s that feeling of being safe and protected that best explains sanctuary. To be lovingly embraced by the warmth of a room full of friends.

And now I want each of you kids out there to open the special packages that were handed to you when you entered the embrace of this sanctuary. Inside you’ll find color crayons and a piece of paper. There’s going to be a number on one side of this paper. I want to invite you now to begin coloring on the side of the paper without the number – we need to be able to see that number.

Color your hearts out! Make those pieces of paper bright, bold and beautiful and hold on to them because those pieces of paper will be magically transformed at the end of the service.

HOMILY: What are we Doing Here?

Davidson Loehr

In most ways, asking what kind of religion we’re doing in this or any other liberal, non-creedal church isn’t a tricky question at all. We’re doing about the same thing that all religions try to do: help ourselves find better paths through life, and the courage to take them. And like all religions, we remind ourselves of this mission through the use of symbols and metaphors.

I think of this place in mixed metaphors. The symbol of light is our most powerful and persistent symbol, but I also think of this as a “garden of light,” where light seeds can be planted and grow, then we can take them out of here and bring our own kind of inspiration, our own kind of light, to the larger world around us.

In some ways, all of this is contained in that large symbol of the chalice with the flame in it, that Jack will be telling you more about in a few minutes. There really isn’t anything Unitarian in that symbol. It points back to a Roman Catholic priest of six hundred years ago who thought the spirit, the power of religion, symbolized by the Communion chalice, should be offered to all, not just to those approved by his church. There’s the spirit of liberal religion in one symbol: a chalice offering communion, a communion of light, to all the world, not stopping at the walls of a church or at the walls of a nation or at the walls of belief.

And that flame, that light, is what we like to think we have to offer: more light, a different and better way of seeing things, even if it is often highly unorthodox. That too is in the style of that old priest whose life and death we celebrate every time we look at the symbol of the flaming chalice. The flame has a much darker meaning, too, but I’ll let Jack tell you that.

But it’s all about sharing what we have with others outside these walls. Because until it’s been shared with others, there’s no communion. Nobody cares what Unitarians think. Nobody cares what Presbyterians busy themselves with inside their walls.

The world only cares whether our religion has filled us up enough so that there is some overflow that might share light and sustenance with those outside our little walls. That’s the “communion” the world needs from those who style ourselves “religious.” So the big light sculpted into the wall is to remind us of that high and hard calling. And the single flame that we light in our small chalice up on the stage is that same symbol, brought to life, to light.

But we also have 150 personal lights over there in the window, for you to light. And that’s like sharing the big communion cup with you, then letting you make it your own, in whatever form you give it.

Where do you take your light? Into your lives, into your families, into your jobs, into your thoughts and dreams, to let it shine there. But you know you have to take it out of this room before it can do any real work.

For many of you, the larger world you most want to share light with is your children, and they are probably the most important larger world we have. The children are the future of our families, our faith, and our world. That’s why so much of what we try to do here is meant to be of help to parents and children.

Not all of us here have children, so we try to share our light in different ways, usually through work or friendships. Artists try to bring more beauty; lawyers and lawmakers try to bring more justice; mechanics and engineers try to bring more creative efficiency; teachers and preachers try to bring more understanding, more light, more compassion. We all try to bring more of some kind of light into the parts of the larger world for which we have passion.

For me, it’s largely about finding patterns to things that make them more understandable, more useful. I love stories, and look for the plots that hold actions together. For almost all the sermons I do here, I’m looking for patterns that you can use within your lives, like the wonderful old story of Gilgamesh last week.

But I also have some passion for the world around me, because I think being an aware and responsible citizen is a civic duty that has almost sacred status. And as a veteran of the Vietnam War, I have a lot of passion for the subject of war, and a deep disgust at seeing the lives of soldiers wasted through illegal and dishonest wars. I have some interest in all sorts of things that define the larger world around us, and these too find their way into my sermons, as you know.

Three weeks ago, I preached a sermon trying to assert some patterns in that larger world outside our walls, and it was a good example of how this business of “light” works in this very bright and animated church.

As you know if you were here, it was a pretty contentious sermon, because I said during it that I thought our government was responsible for the awful attacks of 9-11. Well, it’s hard to touch such a powerful and important subject without having done some good homework, and without figuring out just how to frame it, and for what audience. And I must say none of that was done well.

But the uproar that ensued was all part of the process of offering our light out, then listening to critiques from people who don’t like that light, or don’t think it illuminates. It didn’t take long to realize that I had done it poorly and needed to do a lot more work before offering it out beyond these walls, and I did a lot of work during the past two weeks.

But this past Friday, that work had grown into a brand new essay, and a long one, about four sermon lengths, that I offered out to the Internet, and which is now posted on the first of what I suspect will be many web sites around the world, to see if it can stimulate further discussion of some of the important issues raised there (www.propeace.net).

Some of you liked the version of three weeks ago, some hated it, but it turned out to be just a “light seed” that got cut back, then grew into a very different kind of light. I’m happy with the new piece, though it has very little to do with the sermon of three weeks ago, and am happy to see it out where it will draw more comments and certainly more criticisms from that larger world beyond these walls.

I am trying to articulate the “frame” story that I believe is the plot that helps explain not only 9-11 but also our imperialism, our rapacious economy, our growing indifference to the poor, two rigged elections and much more. I think I’ve done it, so it is time to offer it out, to see what comments and critiques it will draw, and whether it can spark a good and ongoing discussion. It is bound to draw some angry criticism, no matter how many concurring sentiments it gathers, because that’s the price of sending offerings out into the larger world.

But I think informed and passionate attacks are exciting and positive, because I see that Spirit operating, and trust the process that can sort the grain from the chaff. The new title of the piece is “The New World Order Story,” and it will be posted on enough websites that I won’t post it on the church website because it isn’t a sermon, isn’t about religion, and is now really intended for an audience I might describe just as “citizens” or “Americans,” rather than just us. Like about five or six other sermons I’ve done in my six hears here, it wound up being intended for a larger audience, the one outside these walls.

But it grew here. It grew in this atmosphere where we come to seek more light – and yes, to criticize the quality of light that is sometimes offered. But this was the light garden where it grew, just as it’s the light garden where so many of your own lights grow, and are taken into so many other directions.

The faith of this liberal style of religion isn’t about all believing the same thing. That’s for religions of creeds and orthodoxies, religions that exalt a position. Liberal religion doesn’t exalt a position, but a process. It is about trusting the light, trusting people, and trusting the act of open communion. We believe that it is our job to share the light we think we have found with others outside the walls here, to make a positive difference in the world around us so that we might all find better paths through life, and the courage to take them. And we trust that people will use that light as they need to, as they see most fit, and that even if they use it in ways we wouldn’t have, I think there is a trust that it’s still a good thing to have more light in the world.

When we do it right, the light in that chalice really can symbolize light, enlightenment, illumination, and the spirit of life. When we do it wrong, that chalice light can revert to its original meaning, which Jack will tell you about shortly.

Now watching these light seeds grow can be kind of exciting, in a frustrating way, even when it’s done very awkwardly. It’s more fun when there aren’t so many birth pangs. But it is a sacred mission, this business of giving birth to more light, and taking it into the many corners of our many worlds, to try and make a positive difference, and to illuminate better paths. And that’s a good thing.

HOMILY, PART TWO: Sanctuary,

by Jack R. Harris-Bonham

Now, if the ushers will collect the beautifully colored pieces of paper. Kids just pass them down to the end of the aisle and the ushers will bring them up here.

Now, while that’s going on I want to show you something – it’s a sort of word puzzle. The older kids have an advantage here, but that’s okay – that’s how we learn by watching older kids give answers – answers that maybe we”d thought of, too, but were too scared to speak up and give.

(Hold up the sign with this on it: CH_ _ CH.) What’s missing in this word? (Wait for answers – hopefully some kid will have the right answer – if not – wing it!)

That’s right! What’s missing in “church” – U R! You see it’s like a joke, a pun, a play on words. What’s missing, what church is, wouldn’t be church, unless you are there!

I remember this hand game that I was taught when I was a kid. (Do the hand game about church.)

“Here is the church, here is the steeple. Open the doors and there are the people.” You see, without the people – there is no church. (Say while closing your hands) And it is the church, which lovingly embraces the people.

Back in the 15th Century there was a priest Jan Hus. He had a church in Prague, Czechoslovakia. Part of their church service was a meal – they shared bread and wine together. But back then the priests were supposed to speak in a foreign language, Latin, and only the priests were supposed to drink from the cup or chalice. But Jan Hus spoke the church service not in Latin, but in his native tongue, Czech and he passed the cup around and let everyone in the church drink from it. He was punished for doing that – in fact – he was burned at the stake.

In 1939 the Unitarian Service Committee that was helping people escape Nazi Germany had an artist named Hans Deutsch design them a symbol that would represent how Unitarians felt about the world. Hans Deutsch designed a chalice – like the one that Jan Hus passed to all the people, and in the middle of the chalice he put a flame – and the flame was Jan Hus as he was being burned alive at the stake. The message is clear. We Unitarians believe that the cup of knowledge, faith and love is intended for all people, and to back this statement up we put someone who died for that belief as a part of the chalice.

Now, I notice that some of you have been watching what’s happening over here. We’ve put together a giant puzzle from all the pieces that you colored and what have we made? Who can tell me?

(Wait for answers – or give clues)

That’s right! It’s the chalice. Chalice is just a fancy word for cup. The chalice or cup is a symbol for Unitarian Universalist because when we come here we are nourished, feed from a single cup or source.

So what you’ve made here today with your individual efforts is a coloring of the cup that nourishes – the symbol of our faith. Each of you work independently, but by putting together your efforts you made something larger and greater than any one of us – and that’s as good a definition of church as you’ll probably ever get.

Gilgamesh: The Oldest Religious Hero

© Davidson Loehr

February 26, 2006

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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PRAYER:

Let us seek our fullest humanity. We may be about 1/3 beast, 1/3 human and 1/3 divine, but none of the three parts is whole enough, or wise enough, to guide us.

Let us try to become integrated in every way – all our parts, all our people, are the necessary elements of our fullest humanity, and our most complete strength.

The excellence we seek is a fragile, beautiful thing. We seek the ability to live our passing lives, alive with awareness and compassion, excited by the human-scale joys that come from fully participating in the passing but precious splendor of people who have come alive to the challenges of life and the joy of living them.

As the theologian Howard Thurman has said, “Let us find what makes us come most fully alive, and go do it – because what the world most needs is people who have come alive.”

Amen.

SERMON: Gilgamesh, the Oldest Spiritual Hero

One of the ironies of religion is that we go to our faith traditions to seek what we feel are the most important truths – the truths we should guide our lives by – but what we mostly do is tell stories. Those stories can structure our lives, determine how we live, what we take to be sacred. Yet, at bottom, they’re stories. And if we change our stories, it can change our life. That’s what a conversion experience is about: changing your center to live out of a new story.

In Western religion, we’re trained to explore and interpret stories from the Bible for insights into reality, ethics, etc. In Hindu countries, they don’t use the Bible, but use the many stories in their Mahabharata and Ramayana stories, and some of the philosophical writings like the Upanishads, etc.

Like the Hindus, the ancient Greeks used lots of gods, while the Buddhists used stories without any gods at all.

But for most of us, religion is about forming the right kind of relationship with God, much as subjects form a relationship with their master. Not to care about God is seen as not caring about life, goodness, character or ethics – and, of course, our eternal future for most of those in Western religions. For this God controls eternal damnation or reward, though the terms of it are made by the priests and rulers, since this God, like all gods, isn’t really part of our world except through the stories about him.

But long before the Hebrews, long before the Greeks, over 1500 years before the Hindus, there was an earlier high civilization in Sumer, with a very different kind of story about life, the gods and immortality.

It is the epic of Gilgamesh. It was only unearthed and translated in the 19th and early 20th centuries. I don’t think you can overstate just how deeply different and disturbing it is to all Western religious thought. First, it disturbed Western thinkers because it contains the ancient story of a flood, and a couple who made an ark to survive it, told centuries before the Genesis story and generally accepted as the main source of the story of Noah and his ark.

That was in the 1870s. But by the 1890s, some scholars were making far bolder claims. They said this myth is not only older than the Bible, but also better than the Bible, that it was a mythology to which we could relate more naturally in our modern world.

So this morning, I want to introduce you to this story that’s older than all of the world’s religions, older than all their gods, and explore a little of what it’s saying, and why it may well fit our modern world better.

Ironically, even the Gilgamesh story seems to be claiming that their modern world is no longer served by the ancient world of gods and stories of immortality. Their central concern is with the reality of death, and the stories of immortality, which they finally reject as belonging to ancient times, but not their modern age.

Gilgamesh was a historical figure, from the dawn of our recorded human history. He ruled about 4600 years ago in the city of Uruk in what is now southern Iraq. He was an ancient Sumerian. He knew he was a Sumerian, but he did not know that he was ancient. In fact, he saw himself as very modern. He lived about two centuries after the Sumerians had been the first to invent writing, so they rightly felt that they were far more advanced than any people who had ever lived before them.

In the century after his death, the historical memory of this ruler was transformed into myth. At first, his story was recorded in a series of short poems. 1,000 years later, these stories were woven into an epic, and became known throughout the near East.

Thousands of fragments of this epic have been recovered, and we have about 3,000 lines of this story, which achieved its final form around 1300 BC.

The two main characters in the story are Gilgamesh, who is described as 2/3 divine and 1/3 human, and Enkidu, a kind of mirror image, who seems about 1/3 human and 2/3 animal.

Enkidu was created as a kind of wild anti-hero to Gilgamesh, as his opposite. Gilgamesh sent a woman out into the woods to tame him. Enkidu stays with her for just a week, and is transformed into someone human and urban. I know women who hear this and think doing that in a year, let alone a week, would be a miracle, though I don’t know too many men who think so.

Once he becomes more human, Enkidu challenges and fights with Gilgamesh, and it’s a draw: they’ve met their match, their shadow side, their complement. They become companions, and friends. It was through this bond with his complement that Gilgamesh first learned true friendship – and some of the modern psychological readings of that seem pretty obvious.

Together, they go to kill an evil monster that belongs to the gods, to prove themselves more powerful. And they are: together, they can defeat evil.

The great goddess Ishtar wants Gilgamesh to marry her, and promises him love and peace – she is the goddess of love, fruitfulness and war. But he isn’t interested, says her love leads only to war, and recounts many stories of how she has betrayed her lovers. She is furious, and sends the bull of heaven to kill them both. But Enkidu kills the mighty bull of heaven.

Here are men – or one man who has integrated his animal, human and divine natures – with no fear of the ancient supernatural powers. In fact, they can hold their own against them, and defeat most of them. I don’t know of another religious tradition with such a story.

Enkidu, however, dies from wounds suffered in the fights with the supernatural monsters – at least partly as retribution demanded by the gods for their destruction of the Bull of Heaven – and Gilgamesh discovers loss, grief, and death.

Gilgamesh now roams the earth wondering if it’s possible to avoid death. He finds the old Noah-type figure (Utnapishtim) who, with his wife who survived the great flood, were granted immortality.

Utnapishtim says he was warned by the gods of the flood, so he, his wife and artisans built and survived on the ark. But he says this cannot happen again, and the gods’ granting of immortality was a one-time deal, long ago but not in modern times.

Gilgamesh still wants to gain immortality. As he prepares to leave, the old Noah tells him of the plant growing at the bottom of the sea, called “the old one becomes a child,” and says if Gilgamesh uses it, he won’t grow old. Gilgamesh finds the plant and is going to use it. (This is like taking a pill to solve the problem.) But the plant falls into the water, and a snake steals it, which is why snakes can renew their skin.

You might ask, “Well, what would have happened if Gilgamesh had eaten that plant?” The answer is that then he would have to have discovered, either that the plant didn’t work or that he did something wrong, and lost his only chance at it. Because the story, remember, was written by people who knew that we don’t have immortality, and wrote an imaginative story to say that there are irreversible reasons why we don’t and can’t.

So Gilgamesh knows that he can neither get the cure or the pill, and has accepted that the quest for immortality is in vain.

Now Gilgamesh confronts reality anew. This is his conversion experience, and it changes everything. Here was his spiritual journey:

1. First, he seeks the cure for the fact that we must die – having the gods grant immortality. But that doesn’t happen any more; the gods are useless for this. And even Ushnapishtim, the last human to become immortal, is lonely and grieves for his lost son, so immortality can’t be the answer to human yearning anyway.

2. Then he wants a “pill” – a magic way, not involving the gods, to become immortal, to eat of the plant called “he who is old becomes young again.” But that also only worked once, with the snake, and isn’t available in his modern times.

3. Finally, he understands that neither gods nor natural routes can lead us beyond the fact that we’re born, we live, and we die and become part of the world of the irretrievably dead. Even kings die: even the rich, even the talented, even us.

4. What, then, does the human condition offer? What is a reality-based solution to this longing? Many things. Friendship, sex, relationships, families, children who survive us, the fact that we can memorialize friends, heroes, beloved people – and that we can aspire to become a memorable person. We can achieve things that will live on in the memory of others. We can build things. We are part of cities and states that live on and carry our passions and memories and the tales of our deeds forward.

When we integrate our animal, human and divine aspects, we have great power; we can even destroy evil. And that’s a good thing. Even when gods send the evil against us, we can destroy it. Still, we die.

The Gilgamesh story is saying that the gift of immortality, either from the gods or from a “pill,” belonged to the mythic past, not the reality-based present. Whether it once happened in stories, it doesn’t matter because it doesn’t happen now; it isn’t the reality in which we live.

How is this good news? Because it empowers us in the real world. If we enter the fantasy worlds, we’re subject to those who control the stories, but who have no real information that we don’t have: just stories.

Gods have their own rules. We need a world with human-sized rules and dependable friendship and love, not subject to the whims of gods who wouldn’t care about us. And we don’t need the gods – we can simply refuse to deal with them (Ishtar), or make perfunctory bribes to them (Shamash) without caring about them.

We can live a human-scale life. We lose good friends, we lose those we love, but can memorialize them, tell their stories, write poems, build statues. We can create families, cities, and seek to become a memorable person in the lives of others.

Like one of our own modern authors (Borges) has said, we die twice. The first time is when our body gives out. Then the second and final death comes when there is no one left to tell our story. Gilgamesh accepted the first death, but said the human condition offers us chances to postpone the second death through telling our stories, writing poems, epics, memorializing those who have mattered to us, building families, cities, and participating in the joys of this fragile, transient, precious life.

The goal of human life is not absorption into the moment like other animals, and not an immortality that would breed indifference to transient things, like the gods we have sanctioned. What is available to humans is an excellence located between the beasts and the gods, and available to neither of them. It consists of participation in life, joy, creativity and wisdom.

So the gods prove to be useless, and Gilgamesh must learn to deal with life and the world the way they really are in these modern times of 4600 years ago. This isn’t atheism, it’s growing past the time when it was useful to think in terms of gods; it’s outgrowing the gods by coming into our full humanity.

What, then, is the “divine” part of us? We don’t share the gods’ immortality, or their aloofness to human pains. Perhaps it is our imagination, our ability to gain a kind of fragile wisdom available neither to animals nor gods. Gods don’t need wisdom, animals don’t either: they are living too much in the present to need a perspective that can reach beyond the present.

And what is wisdom? Perhaps it’s dealing with the fact that we live, love and will die, in ways that can lead us to that lost Atlantis of the coordinated soul and a more integrated and authentic existence that magnifies our life force rather than dissipating it. The love of gods who don’t live within our human constraints isn’t helpful, precisely because they don’t empathize with our limitations.

What is essential about human excellence is precisely its fragility. We who live and will die nevertheless love, make friendships, build cities, find joy, create children and invest our love and lives in them. We can watch them grow, as we also grow through the stages of life. Gods can’t do that. But like the gods, our imaginations can range far beyond us: that’s the “divine” part of us. We can create things that were not there, that are tender, beautiful, precious and passing, as we also are. Gilgamesh chooses this fully human and participatory life over gods and immortality.

Nearly two thousand years later, in Homer’s Odyssey Odysseus will also choose his wife Penelope over an immortal existence with the goddess Circe. These choices of the human over the immortal are rare in world literature, and among our most courageous and hopeful stories.

After all, as Gilgamesh might have said, he was a modern man, and nostalgia for the ancient ways no longer serves us. It is time to grow up, time to grow beyond the gods and into our full humanity which is, in its way, even better than the gods.