Farewell Musings

Victoria Shepherd Rao

26 June 2005

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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PRAYER: Prayer for the End of Things

May we find peace at the end.

At the end of a conversation with a friend or a stranger, may we find peace.

At the end of a period of hard work, when we have struggled to complete a task or tried hard to find an approach to work together with others, may we find peace beyond our fatigue.

At the end of an outing, or an event we have been looking forward to, or a vacation we’ve planned endlessly for and lived through in the seeming blink of an eye, when it is time to return again to the regular rhythms and routines of our lives, may we find peace in the ordinary.

At the end of the day, when we retire to our beds, let us reflect on the fullness of our being, recounting our moments of strength and failure, and may we seek peace beyond our stories- peace for ourselves and peace for our world.

And at the end of our lived, whenever our time comes to the still, breathless place where we must let go, let us find us beyond this life.

So be it.

SERMON: Farewell Musings

First off, I want to share a few impressions of GA – the annual General Assembly of the Unitarian Universalist Association – that is taking place right now in Fort Worth, Texas. I attended for three days of the multi-day extravaganza. It is a lot like a film festival: there is so much going on – lectures, workshops, exhibitions, annual meetings, worship events – that you must decide what you want to do most, because you cannot do it all. It is a real exercise in expressing your priorities as a UU and it completely overwhelmed me at first. Then I decided: I wanted and needed to hear different UU theologies, and I did, everything from the universalism of John Murray-meets-Thomas Potter to Thandeka on the theology of land, water, food and place.

I wanted to participate in mega-church hi-tech worship with thousands of others, all singing together. I wanted to hear some award winning sermons being preached. I wanted to learn more about the credentialing process of ministers in our tradition. I wanted to get information about international liberal religious ministries and networks of interfaith ministries. And all of these things I did.

The offerings and possibilities of GA are many. I want now to encourage you all to make the pilgrimage for yourselves one year. One of the best experiences for me was to see old friends greeting one another. Possibly these friendships were built and have been sustained by the annual reunion. But to see peoples’ eyes light up, their enthusiastic waves, their running to embrace, it was such an upper! It was fun to meet with the folks from here among the crowd. There were about forty people from “our church” who went. I also met up with Hannah Wells (who is here among us today – welcome!) and I met Cathy Harrington too, both your interns before me.

It’s exciting to think that I’ll be one of the lucky ones running to greet old friends in the years to come. I treasure such a vision of belonging to the wider community of our faith, especially at such a time as this, as I prepare to take my leave from you.

This will be the last time I speak from your pulpit as your intern and I would like to take the time to address a couple of questions which have been asked of me in response to my sermons from the last few months.

These questions came from two long time church members, both former board presidents. One asked a question: What is so great about serenity? This came from a man who introduced me, the first time I met him, to the qualities of character he considered most definitive of Texan culture: resourcefulness and independence. He clearly valued these traits but he wasn’t so sure about serenity.

Serenity is like tranquility, and describes a calm or peaceful state. It is associated with serene weather – clear, fair, like a cloudless sky or a calm sea. In a person, serenity means to be free from disturbing emotions. I see serenity as a sign of an inner resourcefulness that can make some space in a person between their inner emotions and their outward demeanor. It makes the difference between being reactive and responsive: a serene person is a person who is aware of her emotions, not controlled by them; a serene person values her emotions, learns from them, but is not defined or determined by them. Then the emotions become a resource for such a person, not the source of their well-being, or lack of it.

So, what is so great about serenity? Well, maybe as someone trying to develop pastoral skills, I have been giving a sub-textual message that serenity is great – great for a minister or a chaplain, someone whose job it is to reflect others’ state of being back to them as a mirror. But then again, we come from a tradition of the ‘priesthood of all believers,’ and that means we all are called to show and demonstrate with our lives the love of God, or the benevolence and possibilities of Life. And we are all better able to do that from an inner landscape that is calm and undisturbed by stormy emotions. So serenity then is good for connecting to our own truth beyond our emotions, and for connecting with others. And I’ll own up to my bias that in life, it is connecting with others that seems great to me. It is a calling into significant, meaning-filled relationship with people, that’s what ministry means to me. So, what’s so great about serenity? It can facilitate real, deep connections between humans. That’s my answer.

The other question I wanted to deal with was a direct response to a particular remark I had made in a sermon wherein I wondered about the experience of being hit by a car and lying injured by the side of the road. I had said that I hoped I would be able to rest my cheek on the ground under me, whether it was dusty or greasy or bloody, knowing the earth as an inalienable mother, upon whom I might safely rest, trusting death as much as I have trusted life. It was this last idea that sparked the question, how? How do we learn to trust death?

Trusting death – that is perhaps a novel way to view death. We might intellectually accept the inevitability of death but chances are we’d rather not think about it if given the choice. No, we deal with it when we have to – when we are confronted by it, or stopped short in our tracks by it – and then our mix of emotions is heavy isn’t it? Shock, disbelief, anger, sadness, confusion, uncertainty, regret, anxiety, an overwhelming complex of feelings envelope us as we move along the series of events unfolding in bedrooms, hospital rooms, and funeral homes. Indeed, is there any trust there in that picture? Death is the unwanted visitor separating us from our loved ones and sometimes, from our hopes and dreams – how can we, why should we, trust it?

People of conventional faiths may trust that death is the beginning of eternal life, ‘dead in Jesus, alive forever with God,’ or that death is the transition point from one life into another as within Hinduism or Buddhism with the tenants of reincarnation. Atheists may also share a kind of faith in death as a merciful nothingness where there can be no pain because there is no thing at all. Other, even less conventional views, wonder about the after-death experiences reported by people who have actually been clinically dead but who have returned to life: the whole white-light-at-the-end-of-the-tunnel scenario; the your-whole-life-flashes-before-your-eyes; the feeling of encompassing love. Such compelling stories as these can enchant open-minded religious liberals, encouraging an understanding of death as some kind of a passage between worlds or realms of being. Elizabeth Kubler-Ross, no less, became such a believer, who, at the end of her career, twelve books after her famous 1969 book, On Death and Dying, asserted that death did not exist, but was merely “a portal” to another stage. She said, “Death is only a transformation from a physical field of energy into a psychic field of energy.” (Globe and Mail obituary, Aug.26, 2004) And so, there are many ways to trust death and our worldviews or religious views matter to our understandings. And they always have.

We can look at whole heritages surrounding the care of souls at the end of life. I refer to the ancient traditions as revealed in various ‘books of the dead.’ The ancient Egyptians were entombed with such books. Theirs were like instruction manuals to help navigate the journey from life to death. The Celtic tradition of death mid-wifery, which influenced later monastic infirmary practices around Europe at the turn of the first millennium, was a set of practices for giving active care to the dying based on the understanding that people needed coaching a the end of life in much the same way as women need coaching through the process of childbirth. In the Tibetan Book of the Dead, which has become quite popular recently in the West, there are detailed instructions for the dying and for their companions and care-givers at the end of life including many prayers to be read to the dying person during the different stages of their transition from life to death to life, to help confront especially fearful emotions, and facilitate a calm and clear state of consciousness throughout the process.

There is a collective wisdom on the universal experience of dying to be found in these traditions. Their varied cultural and religious roots do not point to different but to recurring approaches to death. And we can learn from the repeated patterns in the teachings that have helped past generations to trust death. So, let’s review the principles which emerge.

First, there is the basic idea of a good death. That would be a peaceful death and it is achieved through close attention to the actual process of death through its many stages. Kubler-Ross identified the stages of grief in the dying process, you probably know them, denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance. In hospices today, care-givers recognize the final “active dying” stage. In the Tibetan tradition, there were over forty different stages identified and each stage was met with particular sets of practices, prayers and rituals, all designed to support the dying person as well as their companions. A good death included constant care-givers so that the one at the end of life would not be alone in approaching death.

Another consistent teaching in these traditions was that it was necessary to prepare for death throughout the course of a lifetime. That the art of dying was not radically different from the art of living but brought with it some powerfully transformative opportunities to review our lives with new perspectives and to heal our souls. “Dying is nothing to fear,” echoed Kubler- Ross in our day, “It can be the most wonderful experience in your life.”

The earliest hospices in Europe, the scattered monastic infirmaries, were places where people from all walks of life, and religious traditions, went to die. They were treated with a variety of physical and what we might call psycho-spiritual techniques. Music was used extensively- in fact, there is some evidence that the West’s musical scale emerged from these institutions, medicines were used to control pain and maintain lucidity, chants were used to regulate breath through pain and discomfort, and psalms were used to give expression to the full range of the dying person’s emotions – including anger at God.

Death was consistently viewed as a sacred end-of-life transition, and it presented a unique opportunity for significant spiritual healing. The vision of the good death was in play then and it is in play still – 82% of Americans would, upon being told they had very little time to live, prefer simply to go home. They want to die in their own beds, surrounded by family, in a setting that feels natural.

But because we don’t dwell on [death], and because we haven’t thought about it, the system that has sprung up to care for the elderly and the terminally ill is neither medically nor ethically consistent. In different regions of the country – even among hospital rated the best- there are huge variations in the kind of treatment given to dying patients. It seems that the most important factor in determining whether a particular region has a high rate of medical intervention on behalf of the terminally ill – risky operations, respirators, artificial feeding – is not local religious practices but the local availability of hospital beds and the number of local doctors. (Washington Post editorial by Anne Applebaum, Mar 31, 2005)

So, how then can we learn to trust death?

Well, we can be proactive about all the practical concerns: make our wills, make sure we give legal rights to folks who understand our wishes for our end-of-life care. This congregation has a great resource for such tasks with AMBIS, the Austin Memorial and Burial Information Society, a church-affiliated consumer organization dedicated to a consumer’s right to meaningful, dignified, and affordable end-of-life choices. We can join the new movements towards at-home funerals and after-death care in the home. We can take the radical step of beginning to attend to each other, our families and friends, at the end of our lives – to sit with one another in death vigils, and attend to the profound experiences of caring for the dying, learning the lessons they can teach us about living.

We can take seriously our own spiritual pain before death’s shadow falls, asking ourselves: Is my life filled with meaning and purpose? Do I have a sense of reconciliation within myself and with others? Do I have a deep sense of connection with the people and things that matter most to me? The answers to such questions are in us, and they can guide us in seeking out the spiritual healing that will build lives worth living and set us up for a good death – a peaceful, conscious letting go- surrounded by a circle of friends, or lying by the side of a road. We can then take the courage we’ve cultivated in living fully into the end-of-life experience, whatever we conceive it to be, claiming for ourselves a good death that we can trust. “Dying is nothing to fear,” said Kubler-Ross, “It can be the most wonderful experience of your life. It all depends on how you have lived.”

But let’s face it, none of us know when we will die, it could be tomorrow, it could be tonight. So, we need to make an effort to trust, life and death, and to live in the only moment we can- in the now- in the now, and with each others’ blessings, let us endeavor to trust, as people of faith, we are called to nothing less.

Behind the Scenes

Davidson Loehr

Victoria Shepherd Rao

19 June 2005

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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Prayer

We are all the caretakers of sacred treasures. It isn’t something dramatic, not a prop from an action movie. It’s about our souls, our spirits and the spirits of others. Those are our sacred treasures.

The German poet Rilke wrote that the vision that calls us forward blesses us, even if we do not reach it. It’s like saying that if we can learn to live life in the right key, we’re blessed even if we don’t get the melody just right.

It’s saying that we need a certain kind of seriousness about life, that life deserves, demands that we take seriously the question of how we are to live our lives.

Theists would say that we must stand before God, but that God has mercy. The Romans used to say that we should always live as though all the noblest people of history were watching us, then only do those things we would do in front of that audience: very challenging, not much mercy. These sound and feel nearly impossible, and quite intimidating.

Then we remember Rilke’s insight, that these visions that call out our true names, that call us forth into lives of such high ideals, such high integrity – that if we take them seriously, these visions will bless us whether we reach them or not.

Honest religion is life-giving, even as it is intimidating. Yet there are two kinds of people in the world: those who are alive, and those who are afraid. Let us not be afraid to be alive.

Amen.

HOMILY: Spiritual Autobiography of an Intern

By Victoria Shepherd Rao

It was the end of November 2003, when I thought I better start looking for an internship. I had already graduated from a Baptist seminary five years earlier. I had also worked as a chaplain in a big teaching hospital for about a year after that. The next thing I wanted for my education in ministry was the chance to explore the role of a minister in a church. I had relatively little personal experience with such a role because of not growing up in a church.

First thing I did was to check out the Unitarian Universalist Association’s website, finding the “Internship Clearing House,” basically a list of all the congregations in the association who would be willing to host an intern for a set period of time. The list I downloaded was maybe of fifty or sixty different churches. How should I narrow this field I wondered and then I took the rational Indian approach to all things career – I looked for the best paying internships. That quickly narrowed the field to two churches, First Parish UU of Concord, or you all. I shot off email inquiries to both churches. We would be coming from India, so it hardly mattered where the church was, east coast, west coast, heart of Texas.

With the Concord church, the only other church which paid their intern $1500 stipend per month for a forty hour work week (which works out to $8.75 an hour for those of you who’ll be figuring it out anyway), there began a predictable process of emailing a contact person who sent me a list of required materials to be forwarded. But with this church, little did I know that my initial inquiry would be going straight to the head honcho. And thus began the whirlwind.

Now I was in India, where your day is their night and where your night is their day. When Texans go to bed, Indians are waking up. It is almost exactly halfway ’round the world. Which is how I came to learn very early on that Davidson is an insomniac who answers emails throughout the night. From the very first, Davidson gave me the treatment. He wanted to know where I was at spiritually, what I meant when I talked about Unitarian Universalism as a religion. If Uuism is a religion, what were its beliefs? And what was I wanting to get from an internship? Right off the bat, he made clear what it was he had to offer to an intern and that was clarity. He said, “I want interns to learn what (if anything) they really believe and then to be able to say it in ordinary language, with no jargon. “This is hard,” he warned, “and liberating.”

He told me he was a tough teacher but that his loyalty was fierce too, if you could earn it. And if I have learned anything it is that Davidson is true to his word. And I have loved that about him and that has helped me cope with his sky high standards for preaching. He introduced this bias from his second emailed note to me when he said, “Sermons are an art, a momentary intimacy, a conduit for insights, a reconnection with ultimate concerns. It’s our main art form and we should be good at it.”

Now, I probably should have turned around and run away when I heard all this but instead, I was totally snagged. In the time I had between our emails for the next ten days which followed I lived and breathed his questions. I could barely concentrate on anything else. Davidson started educating me about what he saw as liberal religion – good, honest religion that understands “all people and creatures as related and of value, not just some by some definition.” He kept up with the questions and I tried to field them as honestly as I could. But they are not easy questions to answer. Where are you at spiritually? Is there some kind of multiple choice answer to that, like you’d find in a woman’s magazine? Spiritually, where I am at is: a) saved by Jesus, or b) liberated from the church and doing okay, or c) exploring meditation and vegetarianism, or d) not sure. How would you answer such a question? Davidson invited me here in the end I think, because I had the guts to say, not sure.

For me at the time, I was pretty confused, especially after seminary, about what spirituality meant. Before I had had much contact with Christians, and the God they confessed, the spiritual dimension of an individual had to do with their character, their propensity to tell truth, to think and reflect about the consequences of their actions on others, about their propensity to see the humor in situations, to dance or clown or frown. This kind of spirit did not survive death except in the memories of others. This kind of spirit was not limited to human beings but most certainly included the individual natures of animals. This kind of spirit showed up in expressive forms. You could sense it in the observations of writers, you could see it in paintings and in faces. You could feel it in an embrace.

When I got to seminary, it was the first time in my life that I was surrounded by people who shared a belief that there was a clearly articulated plan for human existence. I knew that I did not share their basic worldview but I did believe that our beliefs are fundamental to what we are and what we can become and so I was curious and eager to be among them, to try to understand their worldview and to see how it affected them. And this openness to learning I had was described by folks at the seminary, spiritually, as “seeking.”

My academic advisor had me ask Jesus to come into my heart. I wasn’t sure what that would do but the idea of the importance of our willingness to do good and be aligned with the good in no uncertain terms made sense to me. In similar ways, I came to believe in many new spiritual possibilities at seminary. I came to believe in the power of prayer to give voice to our heart’s yearnings and to give ear to the hearts’ yearnings of others. I came to believe in the power of confession and absolution, that it is within us to be witness to the frailty and brokenness in one another and to become an agent of healing in the process, not by what we do as much as by our mere presence and the truth we treasure. I came to believe in grace, not that the Creator God answered our individual needs but that sometimes, through no effort of our own, our needs are met in the unfolding of the cosmos. I chose to focus on the universalism which emerged out of the Baptist tradition in America, understanding that however mysterious a God-force might be, surely it flowed throughout the Creation. I never believed in the ideas of a chosen people or the damned but I resonated with the idea of living in right relationship to everything else. This was the possibility I was committed to, this is still what I am seeking after.

Davidson questioned me about what I thought my religious center was. He wanted to know what ministry meant for me. Why I would do it. These particular questions came five days after our conversations began and they are still alive between us in our relationship and I hope they always will be.

Being unable to answer what my religious centre is definitively, I have at least come to a better appreciation of what Davidson means by such a term. It is about “the most authentic center of your being where your head and your heart connect.” Liberal religion is all about allowing that center to be different for each of us. The liberal religious path then is one that does not take its direction from the doctrines put forth by one branch of a church or another, but it takes its path from our seeking to understand ourselves and our connection to everything else and to live out of that, striving to express our real values in ways that serve the good.

Now, I came here this year with a whole lot of learning goals about parish ministry, about pastoral leadership and about preaching. I did not list among them ‘getting religion.’ But as I reflect back on the time here and the struggles I have had in seeking out a worthy message to each sermon I have written, I realize that the responsibility which comes with being a religious liberal is none other than the responsibility to be challenged and to develop positive, constructive and grounded (and with Davidson, defendable) understandings of what you really believe and how your beliefs can help make you a better person and the world a better place. It was this same challenge Davidson posed to me when he offered me the chance to learn here with him and all of you. And it is a challenge for everyone of us.

So, picture this, I have spent the last ten months rushing into Davidson’s office breathlessly giving voice to what I have figured must be my religious core only to have him sit back and consider my discovery for a moment and ask some pointed questions that busted my bubble every time. It has been a discouraging and disappointing process for the two of us at times. And I have struggled with what motivates me to write a sermon. But I do have some strong beliefs and whether they articulate my religious core adequately or not I will just have to see.

I believe that empathy is the highest of human capacities and that loving kindness is the highest calling. I value human ingenuity and original thinking, especially when they serve to better the world. I believe in the path of non-violence and that we can learn ways to resolve conflicts without resorting to coercion or excluding the interests of minorities or the unrepresented. I believe living things are sacred, and worthy of my care and time and protection if need be and I feel called to give voice to that sacredness in the way I live and in the opportunities I am given to minister to others.

Davidson has converted me in many respects to his thinking about the Unitarian Universalist principles, namely that they are not religious affirmations but social and political values. And I stand by them as social and political values – I am willing to affirm the inherent worth and dignity of people, the democratic model, equity in relations, the interdependent web. I don’t find it too hard to turn them into religious values either, for instance I believe in the inherent worth of all living beings, and that we gain dignity or nobility in acknowledging and serving that inherent worth in all living beings. I believe there is an interdependent web of all existence of which we are a part and that this is nowhere more true than on the surface of our planet and that every time I ignore this connectedness, and the potential impact of the lifestyle choices I make, I not only diminish myself and the significance of my beliefs, but I also commit the sin of willfully adding to the forces which threaten the continuation of the web of life.

These religious beliefs transcend the interests and needs of my own being but reflect my unique being. They call me to live according to self-transcending interests and that is why I am glad that they help me to join with a wider religious community of people like you. So, thank you. Thank you for having me here, for offering your corporate self up as a teacher. And thank you Davidson. Thank you for sticking with me. I have learned a lot about the parish ministry and my own capacities for the ministry these last ten months. In the end, as at the beginning, I am committed to serve liberal religious communities like this one where the causes of life, truth, peace and pluralism enliven and unite us, one to another.

HOMILY: Behind the Scenes

Davidson Loehr

There are so many ways to approach the question of what liberal religion is about, I wasn’t sure whether to start with the Bible, the ancient Greeks, or Batman. So I’ll start with Batman. I saw the new movie “Batman Begins” this week, and liked it. 95% of it was fast-paced techno-geek stuff, and I would have been as happy if they had left all that out. But what there was of a story was pretty good. And the movie even had a message, which they repeated three or four times so you’d be sure to get it. The message of this movie is, “It’s not who you are deep down; it’s what you do that defines you.”

That message could be the message of liberal religion, too. It isn’t about creeds, and the center of religion isn’t just thinking. It’s finally what you do that defines you.

There’s a passage in the Bible that says the same thing in fewer words: “Faith without works is dead,” it says.

And the ancient Greeks, who I like even better than Batman and the Bible, had a famous saying that broadens the picture. It’s been one of my central beliefs for over thirty years. Google lists this as coming from Confucius, though I think I first read it in Aristotle (not sure):

Plant a thought, reap a deed.

Plant a deed, reap a habit

Plant a habit, reap a character.

Plant a character, reap a destiny.

Thinking right, believing the right things, mattered a lot to the Greeks, because they saw that if you had bad or unhealthy beliefs, you would logically be led to bad or unhealthy actions, habits, character, and destiny. I believe that too. Just as – children really do what we do, not what we say. Just as – if you want to know what someone believes, you don’t have to ask them – just watch them.

Beliefs and actions and character are woven together so fine I don’t think they can be separated. That’s why I think the idea of the priesthood of all believers that we talked about last week is so important in religion. Our lives will be run by something, and if we don’t know what we believe, they will be run by things we’re not aware of. That’s one meaning of saying someone is demon-possessed. It isn’t supernatural. That kind of a demon is a deep, maybe primitive, psychological script that can run your life for years without your even being aware that you are dangling like a puppet.

I have a story about this from about fifteen years ago, when I was the theme speaker at a summer camp for about six hundred adults. I didn’t know anyone there, but since I was the most visible “official minister” type, people were coming up all week sharing all kinds of personal stories and confessions.

In mid-week, a woman in her mid-forties came up – looking quite desperate and pained, I thought – and asked if I had a few minutes. We walked over to a bench beneath a large tree and sat. She was just seething with anger, hatred, and bile. It was about her husband who had dumped her. She must have talked for five full minutes, with hateful and painful invectives you seldom hear all strung together like that. She was so raw she almost bled when she talked. When she finished, I wasn’t sure what to say, so asked “When did this happen?” “Ten years ago,” she said. That’s a demon-possession!

The goal – and this is where most Western religions have got it dead wrong, I think – is not to be pure or perfect. – God knows, we can’t do that! It’s to be integrated and authentic. To integrate your fears, shadows and demons into your personality. You may not be able to get rid of them, but if you’re aware of them it can make all the difference. So much psychotherapy is based on this idea, as is a lot of Eastern religion – especially Buddhism.

Another image I use for our religious task comes again from the Greeks. You know of the old Olympian gods: Zeus, Hera, Demeter, Artemis, Ares, Apollo, Hermes and the rest of them. They were all very different, and taken alone some of them could be very destructive. But they’re gods, meaning they’re enduring parts of who we seem to be, so you can’t wish them away. However, you can combine their energies into an integrated personality. That was Zeus’s job: to negotiate the conflicting demands of the gods and try to make the best kind of harmony. That’s our job, too.

I hate to keep quoting cartoons for authority, but this was also the point of the Batman movie. Bruce Wayne was absolutely terrified of bats, because as a boy he had fallen down a shaft and had a million bats fly around him trying to get out. All his life he was terrified of bats. In one sense, that fear led to the death of his parents. And the lesson he had to learn – from a Darth Vader kind of character played wonderfully by Liam Nieson – was not only to face his fears, but to incorporate them, to use their power instead of being abused by it.

I think this is one of the most important teachings of existential psychology and good religion, too. If we can learn what we believe, what we fear, what we love, and integrate all of those forces into a character focused on high moral and ethical aspirations, we have access to nearly all of our power.

Many years ago I read a book by Karl Menninger, founder of the Menninger Clinic, which has remained one of the most important books of my life. The title was Love Against Hate, and the message that I remember seeing as a revelation when I was 21 was that love and hate are the same energy. In love, the energy is directed outward creatively. In hate, it is turned inward destructively. That woman at the summer camp – the love for her husband had turned to hate. But the hate didn’t hurt him at all. It just ate out her own insides, and ran her life like a demonic puppeteer.

And all of this is involved in what I think religion is about here. So an internship, I believe, should be tough. Psychotherapists need to go through psychotherapy themselves so they can be aware of their own driving forces.

Chaplains who work with dying patients need to do the personal work of dealing with their own fears of death and integrating them, or they will communicate that fear to the people with whom they’re working.

And ministerial interns need to do more and harder work at trying to understand what they believe, what spirits and demons really drive them, than those who will one day trust them to have done this work.

Behind the scenes of Roman Catholicism, priests learn the sacraments, the rituals, the meaning and use of the costumes in that religion of such rich ritual traditions.

Behind the scenes in a fundamentalist church, ministers must master the creeds and particular bible passages their tradition uses. They learn many ways of saying that we are born sinful, that we can’t be trusted, that we must learn to be obedient in order to be saved, and that we can only be saved by Jesus. There was a hint of this in the story Vicki told of her seminary professor saying she should ask Jesus to come into her heart.

But behind the scenes in a Unitarian church we do a different kind of work. I think it’s harder, and a lot more empowering. It’s taking the priesthood and prophethood of all believers as seriously as we know how to take it.

And you can’t do it in your head. Real religion isn’t intellectual. It’s much more. As a wise voice coming from a very weird costume said recently, “It’s not who you are deep down; it’s what you do that defines you.”

That’s good, but there was an even wiser voice, from the German poet Rilke, who said that the spirit that calls us forward blesses us, even if we do not reach it. The spirit that calls us forward blesses us, even if we do not reach it. Think about it: that’s even better than Batman.

The Priesthood of All Believers

Davidson Loehr

Jonobie Ford, Worship Associate

12 June 2005

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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AFFIRMATION OF FAITH:

Jonobie Ford

People have used the phrase “priesthood of all believers” to represent several different ideas. Martin Luther originally used it to express the idea that the common people were as close to God as the priests were. How is it used today? I went to the true source of knowledge, Google, and found many internet explanations, almost all firmly in one of two camps: Unitarian Universalist sites say there is no chosen class of people to tell us what to believe, but that we can believe whatever we we want. Christian sites disagree on the details, but they do agree on one thing: People can’t just “believe whatever they want”!

I originally heard the phrase “priesthood of all believers” in my exploration of modern Pagan religion, where many use it to mean that anyone can perform the rituals necessary to communicate with their Gods. Even before I ever heard the phrase, the word “priesthood” was a positive one for me. I’ve always thought of priests as a very special sort of people, ones who are confident and wise in their faith, live their faith fully, and spend much of their lives in service to others. The idea of all believers being called to be priests appealed to me, because it meant I was expected to be all of those things — confident and wise in my faith, living it fully, and spending time in service to others. The importance of having a priesthood of all believers isn’t about what we can or can’t believe, but about living our lives with these priestly attributes.

In thinking about incorporating those attributes into my life, I realized that although I am growing more confident in my faith, and I hope at least some of the time I am wise, I am definitely lagging behind in service to others. It’s not that I haven’t given my money to charities that serve others, but that I’ve never given my time. And I think without giving time there are many people’s stories I want to hear and need to hear that I haven’t heard yet.

In my life, I’ve been successful partly because I have such a strong network of friends. When one of us is having problems, we give each other advice and support. Now we’re trying to give that same suppport to others who need it. Several of us recently committed to a year-long volunteer effort through an organization called Family Pathfinders. We are paired with a single mother on public assistance. She is in her early 20s, has two kids, and is without a car. Without a car, even the smallest things like getting the kids to school or daycare can be surprisingly difficult. Our job is to help her and her family become self-sufficient by using our communal knowledge and networks; to give them the advice and support we give each other. This past Thursday, we met them for the first time, and I think all of us are excited and nervous about the coming year.

Even though the phrase is quite old, I wanted to tell you a recent story about my part in the priesthood of all believers. So far I have only a beginning, but I’m looking forward to the year ahead. I’m looking forward to learning new stories, and I’m looking forward to continuing my path among the priesthood.

PRAYER:

We daily pray, and daily fear that for which we daily pray.

We daily pray that we will finally be called by our true name, recognized for our best qualities rather than the other ones. For the world seldom acknowledges us as much more than a little piece in a puzzle we are to serve but not question.

That’s what keeps the majority serving the minority – people who are convinced they are powerless, serving those who have convinced them they alone are right.

It may be demeaning and disempowering, but it is also so common it seems to be the way of the world.

And so we daily pray that something in the wind will call us by our true name – as children of God, the sons and daughters of Life’s longing for itself. And we daily fear that it might happen, and that we will then feel compelled to act as though our highest name were also our highest calling, calling us to action.

Let us welcome the prayer, but not the fear.

Amen.

SERMON: The Priesthood of All Believers

I attended a Sierra Club benefit Wednesday night down in the warehouse district, at Antone’s. Arlo Guthrie was there, looking a whole lot older than I remembered him from 35 years ago, and his daughter was performing with her band. She told a story about Arlo that has stuck with me, as I was focusing on this sermon topic.

Arlo’s one big hit was the recording of “Alice’s Restaurant.” Later, he bought a church in the town where Alice’s Restaurant was. He was sweeping the floor, when a minister from town came in. He asked what Arlo was doing there, and Arlo said “Sweeping the floor.” The minister was upset by the idea that he had bought the church, and said “What kind of a church is this?” Arlo hadn’t been prepared for that question, so he answered “It’s a bring-your-own-God church!”

That sounds kind of irreverent, but the truth is, every person brings their own gods with them, to church and wherever else we go. And that includes the priests. If a million people say they believe in God, you can bet that the more you talk to them, the more you’ll realize that they believe in about a million different gods. Many, of course, aren’t worth serving at all. Yet we serve as Shakespeare said we love: not wisely, but too well.

The idea behind Martin Luther’s notion of the priesthood of all believers was that the responsibility to find gods worth serving is the personal responsibility of each of us. The fact that priests wear fancy costumes doesn’t mean they are any closer to God than we are. Luther also defined our gods as whatever it was that we were serving with our lives, which sounds very modern, very psychological and existential.

So the challenge in this god-hunting business is identifying gods worth serving, and then serving those gods, those ideals and centers of value, rather than something less. And I want to say, with Luther, that people shouldn’t put so much trust in churches to provide them with the right gods. What you get in church are other people’s gods. People tend to assume that – perhaps since priests wear dazzling costumes or at least hold the microphone – the gods they are offering will serve you rather than them. And sometimes this is true. But not always. The history of both religion and politics – which have now been married in an unholy union again – shows that those who control the big words and wear the dazzling costumes or travel with aides and attendants too often use their costumes and entourage to dazzle us so we will serve them.

The Protestant Reformation would probably not have happened when it did, had not the pope at the time, Pope Leo X, been one of the worst popes in history. Two quotations have been associated with him. In a letter to his brother, he wrote, “Since God has given us the papacy, let us enjoy it.” The other quote attributed to him is one I first read in graduate school 25 years ago, where he wrote, “It has served us well, this myth of Christ.”

Pope Leo X still stands as a prime example of a high office filled by a person of low character, using the title and a costume to deceive and bilk the masses. He wanted to raise a lot of money to built St. Peter’s in Rome, so he sold what were called “indulgences” to his masses. This meant that, for a fee, they could buy some pre-forgiveness for their many sins, so their punishment in purgatory might be shorter and less horrendous. So it was like an insurance policy: pay now, fly later.

But it was a good racket, because fear works well with disempowered people, and helps to keep them disempowered. So Pope Leo got more creative, and began selling indulgences for their dead relatives. You don’t want your mother or grandmother being tormented beyond belief in purgatory, do you? Well, even though they’re already dead, for a fee you can save them some suffering; it’s the least you can do for them. Didn’t they love you? How can you let them down now that they’re dead and suffering and need you?

This was the practice of “selling indulgences” that angered Martin Luther, and led to the Protestant Reformation and the splitting of Christianity into over a thousand pieces now. Luther’s primary message was that we are “justified by faith, not by works.” This was a 16th century way of saying that God didn’t make junk, including us, and that schemes like the Pope’s to convince us that he knows who is saved and who is damned are the schemes of a charlatan, which we are called to expose.

So the priesthood of all believers is really one of the boldest ideas in history. It says, Don’t be dazzled by costumes and titles because they carry no religious authority at all. None at all. Many who hold those titles and wear those impressive costumes know this, as Pope Leo X did. And they use the gullibility of the masses to mislead them, to rob them, and assign them a second-class status they don’t deserve.

Such false gods are almost always served by those in costumes, official positions and power. Why? Because if you can control a society’s most powerful symbols, you can control the majority of people in the society. If your side can claim to represent God, America, Truth, Justice and Love, you will win every election – even the fair ones.

Pope Leo X provides a religious example of someone in power abusing and betraying both the people and the high ideals he is charged with serving. But it happens at least as often in politics. And three days ago (June 9, 2005) was the anniversary of one of the most dramatic and inspiring examples of an American citizen exposing a political charlatan.

On June 9, 1954, Army counsel Joseph N. Welch confronted Sen. Joseph R. McCarthy during the Senate-Army Hearings. McCarthy had just shot out a cheap personal attack on a young member of Welch’s law firm, Frederick G. Fisher as a way of getting even with Welch for questioning him. It was more than Welch was willing to abide. In one of the most famous and high moral statements in the history of American politics, Welch said, “Have you no sense of decency, sir? At long last, have you left no sense of decency?” The audience broke into spontaneous applause, and that statement by Welch broke the spell of McCarthyism. Months later, the Senate censured McCarthy. With no chance of demanding a presidential nomination, he sank much deeper into his alcoholism, and died of alcohol-related illnesses three years later, at the age of 49.

I saw that confrontation on live television as a 12-year-old boy, and without understanding the full meaning of the proceedings, I knew that Welch was a heroic figure and McCarthy was an evil man.

Senator McCarthy was one of the most powerful and most vicious men in American politics. He had terrorized the country and intimidated other senators for over three years with his self-serving hunt for Communists. It was self-serving rather than patriotic, because he manipulated facts, people, and the media not to serve America, but to draw attention to himself – and, he hoped, to get a presidential nomination. The god he served was a selfish and brutal god that sanctioned any means necessary for him to pursue his own ends.

Do you see that what Joseph Welch did shows the same kind of individual moral authority that Luther had championed as the priesthood of all believers, over four centuries earlier? In both cases, a figure with position and title had betrayed the high calling of his office, degraded high ideals and turned people into things to be used like pawns. And in both cases, a person without any comparable authority or costume exposed them as frauds and charlatans.

Connecting these two stories with current events is almost too easy, isn’t it? But we must try to see the actual standards being practiced in our world contrasted with the highest standards, so that we can find ourselves in this ongoing drama, and wonder if we are called to do anything.

Last Sunday (5 June 2005), with one media-seeking flourish of his pen, Texas governor Rick Perry took a pen and lured a television crew to the Cavalry Christian Academy in Ft. Worth, where he signed a bill prohibiting gays from marrying, and prohibiting Texas from recognizing the marriage of gays in other states. So in one immensely childish and vicious act, Rick Perry and the Cavalry Christian Academy of Ft. Worth christened the new religion of Texas Christianity.

It is so bigoted, so hateful, and so much the antithesis of everything Jesus taught, that it could be called the cult of the anti-Christ. Not only are gays vilified, but Gov. Perry even suggested that gay soldiers returning from Iraq might want to move to another state. Jesus said “Whatever you do to the least of these, you do also to me.” Rick Perry hopes whatever he can get away with doing to the least of these will advance his political career.

Then the next day, the Pope came out against what he called “trivialization of the human body.” Oddly, he did not mean the sexual abuse of children by his church’s priests, but gay marriage between two adults who love each other.

When we look back in history, we have no trouble recognizing Joseph McCarthy and Pope Leo X as men of low character who betrayed the high calling of their office. Let’s not pretend it’s any harder here. Governor Perry behaved like a cheap and sleazy politician, dragging both Christianity and the highest aspirations of Texans down to the gutter because he hopes those who live in the gutter will bring him personal gain.

And Joseph Ratzinger, now known by the title Pope Benedictus XVI, has shown the quality of his low character all his life – from his days as an eager Hitler Youth to his days as an eager Grand Inquisitor. And last Monday he reduced a religion supposedly centered on Jesus to a level so bigoted and hateful he has disgraced every Christian on earth, and all people who believe in goodness, truth and love. The rigid, brutal and top-down style that is Ratzinger’s soul was the same style of the Grand Inquisitor and the same style as Hitler’s fascism.

Both these small men were traitors to any high calling, using their office to serve personal political ambition and a repressive and vicious form of authoritarian religion designed to subjugate people rather than empower them. Where is today’s incarnation of Joseph Welch, to look them both in the eyes and say, “Have you no sense of decency, sir? At long last, have you left no sense of decency?” Where are all the citizens who need to rise up and say those words?

The priesthood of all believers says that the common people without titles or dazzling costumes are as close to God as any governor or Pope. This week, we are considerably closer.

Knowing Your Nugget

© Victoria Shepherd Rao

Cuileann McKenzie

29 May 2005

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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PRAYER:

From Singing the Living Tradition, #496

From arrogance, pompousness, and from thinking ourselves more important than we are, may some saving sense of humor liberate us. For allowing ourselves to ridicule the faith of others, may we be forgiven.

From making war and calling it peace, special privilege and calling it justice, indifference and calling it tolerance, pollution and calling it progress, may we be cured.

For telling ourselves and others that evil is inevitable while good is impossible, may we stand corrected.

God of our mixed up, tragic, aspiring, doubting, and insurgent lives, help us to be as good as in our hearts we have always wanted to be. Amen. — Harry Meserve

AFFIRMATION OF FAITH:

Cuileann McKenzie, Worship Associate

While considering Sally’s idea that knowing your nugget, your core values, is helpful to navigate the freedoms and choices that face us, I was struck by the paradox that in my life, it often has been facing choices that has helped me discover and define my nugget. Indeed it seems that choices and values are somewhat interdependent. Choices push us to contemplate values as well as the other way around.

I got my B.A. in a program titled “Rhetoric and Professional Writing” – rhetoric being given the classical definition of the “art of persuasion” rather than the contemporary, popular meaning of someone seeming to deceive. The program’s courses provided a broad foundation for a writing career in any number of areas, from writing those wonderful software manuals, to political speech writing, to advertising copywriting, and so on. However, we all were reminded, particularly in our introductory courses, that once we accepted a job, our focus would be on helping our employer get their message across convincingly, whether we agreed with the ideas or not. It all seemed too mercenary for me – like we were just “communication guns for hire.” I discovered that at my core, it was important to have personal meaning in my work – to help others and to foster independence in thinking.

With this nugget in mind, I chose to go into teaching. It was when I was completing my Bachelor of Education, that the notion of having integrity when teaching was introduced by my professors. At that point in time, preparing to teach high school nine years ago in Canada, teachers were given quite a bit of freedom and trust in developing their own teaching style and evaluation methods. We were encouraged to be creative and thoughtful, giving students many choices to suit their individual strengths, as we developed lessons and assignments. But as we all know, knowing your nugget and then consistently living by it are two different things, and there’s the rub. In the “real world” of full time teaching, it seemed that many of us, at least some of the time, followed along well-worn traditional paths simply out of default rather than thoughtful choice. It’s hard to find the energy to be creative, when you’re buried in essays that need marked and with exams coming up soon.

Now I’m writing a novel, and knowing my nugget is becoming even more important to me, as a book invites a world of criticism and comments. Along with (hopefully) some people who will like my book, I know there will be some people who won’t. In my mind, I can already hear some of the comments, and I have thought about how I’ll respond to them. My nugget seems pretty clear to me. In writing my novel, it’s been a priority to create characters who are complex and conflicts that are complicated. In short, I’m aiming for the book to reflect real life. No character is wholly good or wholly bad and everything isn’t cheerily wrapped up in a completely happy ending. Real life is messy, real people are messy, and our complicated world is something to be both examined and celebrated – that’s the nugget of truth that has guided me in writing my novel.

In the upcoming revising process, I recognize as well that working within your nugget does not mean rejecting all criticism; rather, knowing your nugget can guide you in recognizing the constructive suggestions that will strengthen what you’re putting into the world. When I start working with an agent and editor, I anticipate doing re-writes, adding or deleting sections, and I’ll make these changes eagerly as long as the writing is made stronger and the nugget of the story remains intact.

To me, at this point in my life, knowing my nugget means writing with integrity. In my life overall, I’m thankful for the role that choices and freedoms have played in helping me discover, and live by, my core values, my nugget. Likewise, I appreciate the guidance that these values will give me as I make important decisions in the future. I’m sure as my life moves on, my values and choices will continue to influence each other. As time passes, we grow, we evolve, so my nugget ten years from now might be different. Hopefully, over time it will swell with wisdom, and glow with guidance.

SERMON: Knowing Your Nugget

Victoria Shepherd Rao, Intern Minister

What does this cutesy sermon title mean? Knowing Your Nugget? When this worship topic was suggested at the winter meeting of the Worship Associates program here at this church, it was expressed as “survival skills.” This topic is one of the very few which were suggested by one member of the Worship Associates group and taken on as a writing assignment by another member in the group. Sally Dennis, a young woman who teaches for the Austin School District on the eastern side of town suggested the topic. She wanted the issues of taking on roles and responsibilities, something we all do as functioning adults living in families and working in the community, to be examined including how hard it can be to find a core self there in us, somewhere underneath all the roles. I think it is a concern many of us can relate to. Knowing our religious center is something Davidson repeats over and over again to everyone who is listening, like a mantra. The core of our being or the nugget of truth of our own unique, individual, authentic being . Is there such a thing? Is it always there waiting for us to notice? Can we recognize it, quiet down and relax enough to sense it? Or does it speak to us regularly? Is it the guiding light of your life, the key to your priorities and the source of your motivation?

You have heard Cuileann’s reflections on the possibilities which come from knowing your nugget, and I want to share a story too. It is the story about how I came to know my last dog, Shef. I first saw Shef one day as I walked along the sidewalk of the industrial neighborhood where I worked in downtown Toronto. I worked in a fancy artsy animation studio in a large renovated warehouse, but across the street from the studio there was the gated yard of a stone mason. It looked pretty rough from across the street. Corrugated steel walls, barbed wire atop. Rundown. The gate was a standard frost fence. Off to the side there was a steel shed. There was a mountain of peat moss in big square bags off to the rear, large ground moving equipment parked haphazardly. I would never have noticed any of this except one day I happened to look over and saw Shef.

He was sitting at the gate. Sitting quietly and watching the street. He was a pup, maybe four months old. He looked like a German Shepherd with a big solid body, huge upright ears, a dark face and muzzle and light brown eyes. He didn’t notice me any more than anyone else on the street but from that first moment I could not forget about him. The next day I went up to the gate to meet him. He was happy for the attention. He was chained to the shed with a bare wire, sharp ends jutting out, attaching his collar to the chain. I felt concerned for him. I started to wonder about his owner or caretaker, was it the owner of the yard?

The studio had a cafeteria at the front of the building on the second floor, overlooking the yard opposite. It was a somewhat bleak foreground view but with quite a spectacular city scape view with the CN Tower in the background. It provided me with a great vantage and I began to spy on the operation across the street. It did not take me long to learn a crew of men arrived early in the morning, parked their vehicles on the street, prepared loads and took one or two trucks out all day, returning around six o’clock. The pup was acknowledged in a minimal way. It was fed in the evening. Open a can of dog food, push back the lid, throw it over to the dog. I could not see any sign that the dog was cruelly treated and he expressed no fear when I visited with him through the gate.

Now I was working those days. I was a production coordinator for one of the preproduction departments at the animation studio. I managed the storyboards for all projects going through the studio. I had to stay “on top” of a lot of revisions but I certainly had time to watch the yard, visit with the pup, and obsess over whether I should try to improve his lot. It was clear that he was set in place to become a guard dog, alone and largely neglected for his whole life. Yet it was equally clear that he was, by nature, neither fearful nor mean. I felt my concern for him grow to enormous proportions in my life. Should I call the Humane Society? I wondered if I should try to steal the dog? Should I try to make friends with the owner and take care of the dog?

It wasn’t long before I was trespassing. I found a way in, climbing over a rear gate one afternoon, and I approached the pup from the inside of the yard. He was happy to see me, clearly excited by the prospect of some company. I sat down on the gravel and dirt beside the shed and pet him. He drank it in. I pulled out an apple and offered him a few pieces of it. He gently explored the bite-sized pieces with his nose and ate them all up. Then he lay down right beside me, and laid his head in my lap and fell asleep. This experience for me was akin to epiphany, the experience of seeing God. Webster’s defines epiphany as “a sudden, intuitive perception of reality or the essential meaning of something, often initiated by some simple commonplace occurrence.” The feeling I had was joy and at the presence of this pure being of love who had just laid himself down on me with a perfect trust. It was a perception of bliss. Unexpected, but unmistakable. I sat there and let him rest on me for a while and then I had to go. I did not want to get caught. It was painful to separate from Shef. From that first time our being together was so palpably life-giving, as if we physically nourished one another. Back in the office, the implications were confusing and they became more urgent. I asked everyone what I should do about this wonderful pup: my parents, my sisters, my friends, my coworkers. Mostly people had a hard time understanding why it mattered so much, why I was so impassioned. I could not rest until I responded to the nugget of truth which I witnessed in this creature. It reminds me of the feeling St. Augustine expressed about finally finding rest in his connection to God. I had to respond to this dog. Should I call the Humane Society and subject him to the impersonal safety of an institutional cage? Should I try to make friends with the owner and take care of the dog with his permission?

To make a long and involved story short, that is what I did. I made friends with Manual de Costa, a gentle Portuguese man who owned the yard, the trucks and the dog and I asked if I could help to take care of the dog. I am not sure what he thought about me but he agreed and gave me a key to his yard. I visited Shef before work, on my breaks, after work and on weekends. I replaced the wire with proper hardware. I fed him his dinner and started taking him out for walks. I encouraged my dog-loving coworkers who watched all of this while they were drinking their coffees and eating their lunches, to take their turn in walking Shef, buying him treats, donating old towels, etc. I kept the leash in my desk and folks from all over the studio dropped by to pick it up and take Shef out. Shef became a social butterfly and I got to know many new people at the studio. When winter came on, my father (bless his sweet soul) made Shef a wonderful two chambered, insulated doghouse. On the coldest mornings, I would take Shef cooked rolled oats and hot consume each morning. After work, we would play in the yard and walk the whole neighborhood together until my feet would be so frozen that I would could stand the pain no more. But those were very happy times. Shef and I wandered everywhere, old warehouses, parking lots the meadow hills above the rail tracks and yards. We went into the deserted exposition grounds of the Canadian National Exhibition and from there across to the parklands along the shoreline of Lake Ontario. For hours every day, we explored. I felt safe with Shef. He was eighty-five pounds full grown with an alert, intense gaze. Parting each day was still terrible. Shef knew the routine and that I would be back the next morning, but he would always bark his protest until I was out of earshot. The seasons of a full year passed with this lifestyle.

Once, Shef de Costa escaped the yard by climbing up the peat moss mountain and jumping down the ten foot wall to an adjoining parking lot. I remember a frightening search around the warehouses and on the tracks, finding him, and then beginning a slow project of convincing Manual to neuter him to curb his wondering instincts. I was amazed when he agreed. It was the beginning of Manual understanding that Shef had become my dog and when he finally gave Shef to me, he came home to stay. And that is where I’ll end my Shef story for now. I wanted to tell it to you this morning as an example of how natural and unpredictable and radical it can be to follow our bliss or the core of our truth- ‘knowing our nugget.’ The truth for me was the fact that the little pup sitting at that gate was a stellar canine, good as gold. The truth was that I could get as involved with him as I was willing to, no holds barred. The truth was that I could take care of his needs from across the street and that my heart was as thirsty as his to drink in the simple joy of reliable, trusting companionship. There was nothing better, nothing more humanizing, nothing more soul-satisfying for me to do.

Now, to switch gears, let us identify and distinguish between core values of a religious kind versus those of a social or political kind. Davidson has much to say in this area as well. He figures many Unitarian Universalists, including myself, are pretty confused about the nature of their core values. So, let’s take a look at a value we likely all share, that all people be treated with kindness and respect regardless of the religious ideas they hold. In terms of the purposes and principles this value touches on the first principle that affirms the worth and dignity of all persons, and the second principle that upholds equity and compassion in human relations, the third principle of the practice of acceptance of one another, and the fourth principle which upholds individual, free and responsible searches for truth and meaning. Now, how can we tell whether that is a religious value or a social or political value?

Let’s take a clearly religious idea to see if we can clarify the nature of our core values. Let’s say I believed the purpose of my life at the time I met Shef was to devote myself to this dog. If I was to meet you after church and reveal this to you, chances are you would not share this same orientation, you wouldn’t all of a sudden decide to follow me, but you, as a good UU, are still willing to worship with me because you want to have the freedom to hold unconventional beliefs too. We both value this freedom, maybe even more than we value the religious ideas about purpose and meaning themselves. We value the basic assumptions: that you and I can both handle experiments in thinking; that we can be trusted with trying on different worldviews; that we will not lose our grip on life; that we will not be damned to hell through our inquiry; that we will not hurt others with our thinking, but indeed, hope to make a positive difference in the world with the doing which flows out of our thinking.

The UU principles can be understood as a kind of infrastructure of affirmations to ensure that we have support from our communities regardless of the conventionality of our religious values. We make a commitment to equity and acceptance in relations with each other to pave the way for personal freedom to wonder about life. I take a path of communion with a befriended guard dog, and that is the core truth I bring to the table. You witness another religious idea that you do not necessarily buy, but you stay committed to equity and acceptance. That does start to sound like social and political values social in the concern for the well-being of all, political in the implied sharing of power by all But why? Is it because we believe the individual search for truth and meaning will result in people finding their core religious value and living it? How did Davidson say it last week, What do we serve with our time? What Gods or what high ideals do we dedicate ourselves to? What truths about life do our lives amplify? Life is good, healing is possible, prayer is transformative, love is surprising and expanding. My adventures with Shef revealed other nuggets of truth too, that people are trustworthy, that we can do a lot with small efforts, that love never faileth. Liberal religious values are served by our commitments to socially and politically empowering relationships but we also need wisdom to recognize our core religious values. We all need a North star to orient us and help us to navigate through life according to the most fundamental truths of our being. This has been the role of religion through the ages, the function of religious values.

Now I want to return to my story about Shef and take a look at the guidance I received at the time from a source of human wisdom, the I Ching. The I Ching or The Book of Changes is one of the most ancient texts of China. It is a complex book which likely emerged out of centuries of divination and oral tradition, with legendary authors, and layers of commentary revealing Taoist, Buddhist and Confucian worldviews. It was said that Confucius himself wore out three copies of the I Ching in his lifetime. I was introduced to the I Ching by a coworker friend, an older woman who was a free thinker, a martial artist, a dramatic person who understood life as a stage. She gave me The I Ching Workbook by R.L. Wing and a set of color-coded beads with which she taught me to use the book as an oracle. I did not ask her for these things, it was not for a birthday present. It was a case of pure grace. She herself used the I Ching for guidance through confusion and difficulty and I learned from her how to consult the text and how to frame questions in making an inquiry. I began to use the I Ching in the spring of 1987, not long before I started to work at the animation studio. It was that following October that I asked the question: What is the best approach to take to Shef? How much of my time do I give to him?

Now by that time I had already decided to get involved in his life, but I felt I needed guidance in determining how he should rate in terms of my priorities. Without going into a technical explanation of how answers are found in the I Ching, I want to share the answers I got to this particular question. The first was the answer the oracle gave was concerning the idea of Subordination. Subordination is a necessary condition for many people in many situations, whenever they are subject to conditions over which they have no control. Often the roles we play in family and organizations require our subordination. The time of subordination is one where it is wise for us to be content with fulfilling our role. Our capacities to plan and execute our plans must wait until circumstances change. The guidance I took from this was to continue with the role I had taken on as Shef’s caretaker within the limitations of his continuing role as guard dog for the stone mason, Manual de Costa.

The second answer the oracle gave concerned Great Power. When the oracle offers a second idea to consider, it is understood as an indicator of future developments on the subject of inquiry, so the notion of Great Power following subordination held promise. Great power is understood to be a true test of a person’s character. Wisdom dictates that the possession of great power can lead to progress and enlightenment or to chaos and evil, therefore it is important to have honorable motives and demonstrate correct behavior at such a time, always considering the demands of propriety and goodness. The promise of great power is that by bringing progress to others, you strengthen your own sense of well-being. The guidance I took here was to proceed naturally in the relationship with Shef with care and to trust the process of our growing friendship, and accepting whatever flowed from it with discernment.

As you can see, the nature of the answers and the guidance given by the I Ching is open to interpretation and is very much oriented to contemplation. Over the years, I have found that very helpful. When I get to a place which feels stuck or when I have to face a situation that confuses me, I have found consulting the I Ching, the process of retreat and ritual required, the reflection required to articulate the central question and the contemplation required to ingest the answers, to be a very comforting and reliable source of guidance. And that may be because it is in the tough personal work of framing our own questions that we have the chance to recognize our own deepest yearnings and highest calling.

More than any other ancient text, the I Ching has provided for me a sage perspective to the small troubles of my life. Like the wisdom traditions of all the world’s religions, it offers the observations and intelligence of countless generations. But the I Ching expresses some far eastern cosmologies which I want to highlight for you because they have provided for me useful variations on the western religious worldview which has a separate creator god showing up to make and control everything. There is still a divine realm, the realm of the invisible to which humanity is connected. There is the earthly realm as well where we dwell. Humanity itself becomes the connection between the two realms, complete with all the impulses and instincts of our nature, as well as the limitations and fates of our individual lives. Cosmic Order is a real possibility in this worldview. It is a matter of the harmony possible when the development of the individual matches the needs of the cosmos, or the condition of heaven and earth immediately around him or her. The Source of such cosmic order is envisioned as a well: deep, inexhaustible, a source of nourishment. The town can be moved but not the well. No, it must be returned to. The source contains and is born of the collective truth of humanity. It receives from the individual’s experience and gives to the individual’s nature. Penetrating the source of human meaning can be seen as the major theme of Chinese philosophy just as loving God can be seen as the major theme of the biblical religions. (I Ching)

Just listen to the bittersweet sentiment of a Rabbi who knows his nugget:

While I was young, when I burned with the love of God, I thought I would convert the whole world to God. But soon I realized that it would be more than enough to convert the people who lived in my town, and I made an effort for a long time, but was not successful. Then I realized that my agenda was still too ambitious, and I focused on the people in my household. But I could not convert them either. Finally, I realized: I must work on myself, if I’m really going to have something to offer God. But I didn’t even accomplish this. (From The Sun Magazine, Sunbeams, pg 48, March 2005)

In this one sad cry we hear the core religious value of love of God and the core religious value of always cleaving to the truth of the self in relation to God or to the cosmos. And religions are expressions and servants of the human quest to reach out beyond the horizon of self and self interest, no matter how badly they fail or we do. Knowing your nugget might not be easy or straightforward or even possible at times, but if we can become acquainted with the truths which connect us, as quirky individuals, to the whole enterprise of living and dying, and follow them amidst the whole mixed bag of life, and if we can keep connected, always returning to the truth, we will find guidance as we negotiate the freedoms, roles and responsibilities life presents us all with.

What is it you have to offer to God, or how is it you might serve your highest ideals, or the truth of your own authentic being? What are the epiphanies of your life? Are you ready to know your nugget? I will end with the popular mystic poet of Islam, Rumi’s advice when it comes to recognizing the religious values at the core of our being. He said:

Let yourself be silently drawn by the stronger pull of what you really love.

The Cost of Money

Davidson Loehr

Don Smith, Worship Associate

22 May 2005

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

Listen to the sermon by clicking the play button.

AFFIRMATION OF FAITH:

Don Smith

Money, according to the Oxford English Dictionary is (1) a current medium of exchange in the form of coins and banknotes, and (2) property, wealth, possessions, resources, etc. viewed as convertible into coin or banknotes or having value expressible in terms of these.

That definition describes our natural tendency to think of money in terms of what it will purchase, but I’ve come to think more and more about money in terms of what it costs. For most of us, the money we have was obtained through an exchange of our time, talent, energy, and ideas. I think it’s worthwhile to pause and take account of the exchanges we’re making; to be sure that they are fair exchanges, and that they serve us well.

When I was an architecture student living and studying in a small town in France-and being exposed, for the first time, to a totally different culture than my own-I came to an awareness of how hurried life is in our country. I was surprised to see how leisurely life can be, and how rich an experience an unhurried life can be. I remembered the carefree days of my childhood, and I made a promise to myself that I would never allow having things to take precedence over doing things; that I would not put material possessions above free time, and the enjoyment of life. How well have I done? Not so well, I’m afraid. In the end analysis, I’m very much a product of my cultutre. And my culture is one of consumption. I don’t know when, where, or how our culture became what it is, but I struggle against it daily.

I was raised by loving parents who, like most parents, wanted for my sisters and me a better life than they had had. They told us as much. By this they meant that we should have more, and work less. Having grown up on farms in depression-era America, they spent a good deal of their youth working on the farm and having little in the way of material possessions. My sisters and I were not expected to do a lot beyond the chores that we were assigned for the purpose of teaching us to be responsible. My parents didn’t talk to us about money. They didn’t want us to be burdened, as they had been in their childhood, with concerns about money. It was my grandparents who talked to us about money.

Papa Smith, my paternal grandfather, told me that as long as one spends less than one makes all is well. Like Thoreau, he chose to make do with little, allowing himself plenty of time for fishing, playing dominoes, visiting with family and friends, and reading his Bible. He spent a lot of time reading his Bible. I’d be surprised to learn that he had any money when he died.

Daddy Kennemer, my maternal grandfather, told me that if I watched my pennies my dollars would take care of themselves. He watched his pennies very carefully and had a lot of money in the bank when he died, but he didn’t enjoy life very much.

The best advice I got came from Mother Kennemer, my maternal grandmother, who always said that money is a good servant, but a poor master. You should probably write that one down. Money is a good servant, but a poor master.

For me, the daily challenge is trying to strike a balance between having the money needed to do the things I want to do, and living free from worry about money; from being enslaved by a need for money.

I enjoy my work. I have the extreme good fortune to have found a profession that suits my bifarious nature-that involves both science and art, with each informing the other. I’m thankful to be so lucky. But I would almost always be happier sitting with good friends–discussing ideas, laughing, and getting lost in the flow of time–than meeting the demands of schedules and (sometimes unreasonable) clients. On a beautiful day I’d rather be hiking along Barton Creek or working in the garden, than sitting at a desk. I’d rather practice architecture for fun than for money, and I’d wear proudly the title of dilettante if I could make my vocation and avocation one, and thereby claim every moment of my life as my own.

I don’t have children, but if I did I’d want things to be better for them than they have been for me. Just like my parents, I’d want them to work less and have more. More time to enjoy and appreciate the best things life has to offer. More time to relax with friends and family, to discuss ideas, to read great books, to express themselves through art and artful living, and fully develop their talents. More time to work on the things that build community and make life better for everyone. I’d want to teach them that life is a wonderful journey; a mystery to be experienced to the fullest. And I’d want them to understand that journeys are best when the luggage is light.

PRAYER:

Let us be grateful for all the parents in this room. They have taken on the responsibility for lives in addition to their own. They are the stewards of our collective future, and we are grateful for their work and their sacrifices.

Let us be aware of and grateful for the work and the sacrifices each of us make, as we try to steer our way through life by serving those things most worth serving. And let us have gods worth serving with our lives. Let us have meaningful work toward positive ends, so we can all feel like stewards of our collective future.

Let us work to establish relative relationships with relative ends, but absolute relationships with absolute ends, and let us learn how to tell the difference between the two. The problem with the world is seldom with its people. We are overwhelmingly good people, doing the best we know how to do. Let us remember that. The problem with the world is that far too often, we serve gods not worth serving.

Let us be more aware of the gods we are serving, and let us be sure they are worth serving with the days and years of our lives. Let us attend to the gods we are serving with our lives.

Amen.

SERMON: The Cost of Money

This is a tough topic, because you already know all the things churches are expected to say about the subject. “Love of money is the root of all evil,” “You can either serve God or money but not both,” “Don’t you be worshiping those golden calves!” – that sort of stuff.

Besides, the US economy is so bad in so many ways that many of you are working your tails off to pay the bills and get the things you want for yourselves and your families. And getting assaulted for wanting money when you come to church is too much like piling on. After all, we want to have some nice things, and most nice things cost money. So talking against money is a little like telling a fish it shouldn’t be so attached to water: it’s just too much a part of almost everything we do.

And every time I say money isn’t as important as we make it out to be, somebody tells me that if money’s not important, maybe we don’t need their pledge. And we do want your pledges. I ask and expect you to pledge 5% or more of your pre-tax income to this church or any other church you think is worth supporting. Good churches offering honest religion are about the only place in our society where we routinely question the gods we’re serving – including the god of money – and ask whether it’s worth serving. As many have said, money makes a good servant, but a bad master.

Don has already done a nice job of talking about the ways money intersects with our personal lives, so I’ll go in a different direction, bring you some thoughts about money and share a couple stories.

The stories are two of the best ever written about wanting money too much or letting work take over your life. Both stories are from the Greeks.

The first one is the most famous, and one you all know: the story of King Midas, who couldn’t get enough money. Since he was a king, he didn’t have to earn the money, but he still wished it were easier to convert the world around him into gold. So he made the famous wish that everything he touched would turn to gold. This made it tough to eat anything. But the story’s tragedy came when he touched his beloved daughter, immediately turning her into a golden statue.

Like all good myths, there are a lot of ways to go with the old Midas story. There are a lot of ways to turn people into statues, to take the life out of their lives, by acting as though their only purpose were to make money. Because then if they can’t make money, they’re useless.

I mentioned a few weeks ago that I read a report estimating that 18,000 Americans die each year because of inadequate health insurance. They haven’t got the money for the insurance, and if they can’t pay their own way, they’re not worth saving, according to our priorities. Seventy years ago, Hitler’s Nazis coined a horrible name for people like this. They were called “useless eaters.” Useless eaters. You only have a use if you can produce something, and your worth is measured by how much you can earn for others. Only 3,000 people died in the attacks on 9-11, and that has bothered us enough to spend $300 billion a year or so attacking a country that had nothing at all to do with the attacks of 9-11, but whose oil and strategic position we used 9-11 as an excuse to take. And somehow, just mentioning the 3,000 killed on 9-11 still seems to end most objections. Three thousand people is a lot. But the deaths of 18,000 Americans a year due to inadequate health care do not make the front pages. That’s coming dangerously close to treating them like useless eaters, don’t you think?

It may not feel quite like the King Midas story, but it’s closer than you think. Midas’s daughter was no longer seen as warm, loving, worth being around, because she had been converted into the lowest form of currency.

Maybe it sounds backwards to think of money as the lowest form of currency – after all, our national currency is based on the gold standard. But it’s not the currency in which human worth can really be measured. I’ve read that if you collected all the raw materials in our bodies, you’d be lucky to sell the whole pile for five bucks. We’re just not worth much money. So money can’t be the right currency for measuring human worth. Yet when we are valued and our lives are valued primarily by how much money we can make, the chief way in which we’re different from Midas’s daughter is that we’re probably worth a lot less money on the open market than a golden statue.

The Midas story doesn’t dwell too much on the other side of the equation, which is that if you want to value people primarily as people, then you probably won’t make as much money off of them. They may make more money for themselves, but you won’t be able to use them like things.

The story of Midas today isn’t often about individuals. It’s about attitudes of a whole society, like our society. The performance of our economy has been measured by how well the stock market is doing for so long it may seem that’s just how economies are always measured. But they’re not. It’s quite a drastic change from forty years ago. Then, the health of the economy was measured by how well the majority of Americans were doing. The country took pride in the fact that most people in most jobs could earn enough to buy a house and a car, on just one paycheck, and that almost anyone who wanted to go to college could afford to go without mortgaging an arm and a leg. The health of the economy was measured by how well the middle class was doing.

Now it’s measured by how much profit those who own stocks can earn every quarter. And once you do that – think about this – then people are defined in the currency of money. If workers are fired, whether you call it downsizing, rightsizing or firing, the stock prices usually go up. The money that would have gone to pay raises, health insurance and benefits for workers, workers’ pensions, that money that would have bought houses and cars and college educations for them and their children – that money is now funneled instead to other people. Not those who earned it, but those who own the stocks. We’ve lived so long in that world it might seem odd to question it. But you can value people for their humanity or for their earning potential, and when push comes to shove, one of those will shove the other.

Our challenge, and I think it’s a religious challenge, is to learn how to establish relative relationships with relative things, and absolute relationships with absolute things, and to know how to tell the difference. Which should be ranked higher: the profits of a few, or the livelihoods of many? Stock dividends, or health insurance and job security for workers? Earning more money, or having richer and more satisfying relationships?

These are religious questions because you cannot separate money from other areas of life. For example, I have read that the leading cause of divorce in our country is not having enough money, and the frustrations, guilt, blame and arguments that come from that. So one cost of valuing profits above people is that we soon diminish the humanity of most of the people around us, probably including ourselves. And that’s pretty close to a modern version of the King Midas story.

The other Greek story isn’t as well known, but it’s at least as good. It is the story about Hephaestos, whom the Romans called Vulcan. He was one of the Olympian gods – the only god who worked. But he didn’t just work. Work was his life. Work absorbed his passion, his love, his spirit. And in the ironic style of Greek wit, they had Hephaestos married to Aphrodite. Well, that’s not likely to work! She bore him no children, was never faithful to him, was never even seen with him. He had no passion left for relationships – even a relationship with the most passionate of the goddesses.

Hephaestos didn’t work to live, he lived to work. And when we live to work, it’s very hard to make room for another human being in our life. It isn’t quite like turning them to gold, but the old Greek story comes pretty close. It said that Hephaestos created golden servants to wait on him – robots.

What some interpreters have done with this is to say that this is what happens to those around people who just live to work. Without any energy or interest left for personal relationships, their mates and sometimes children are assigned roles much like the roles of golden servants: doing chores, cleaning, cooking, converting life into a series of duties. I suspect we’ve all experienced this at one time or other – or that we’ve done it.

Now this is a hard lesson to go very heavy on today when both the adults in many families must work to pay the bills, and some people have to take more than one job. This can make it feel like we’ve all been turned into robots, but it isn’t fair to throw blame around when people are doing the best they know how to do. The blame isn’t on those trying to make ends meet. The blame is on the economic priorities we as a society have adopted, that has taken so much money away from the majority of Americans that 18,000 of us die each year from inadequate health care, marriages end in divorce over the awful fights brought about by not having enough money, laws are changed and politicians and judges are bought to change the laws so those who control the money (and the politicians and media) can simply take it from those who work for it. It isn’t a healthy economy. It’s a greedy economy rewarding thieves like Kenneth Lay over fourth-grade teachers. But does anyone really want to argue that Ken Lay gave more to our society than an honest fourth-grade teacher?

Where we choose to spend money brings costs that are usually unseen. For example, there is a website you should all check out. It’s http://www.costofwar.com/. And the cost of our war in Iraq runs by as you watch, climbing hundreds and thousands of dollars each second. And you can select a city to see how much of the war’s prorated cost will come out of the incomes of that city’s residents. That’s the cost of money spent on war. In Austin, the war has cost us about half a billion dollars so far. Half a billion dollars spent there that can not be spent anywhere else. Not on education, not on health care, not on art or roads or anything else. Half a billion dollars: nearly $400 for every man, woman and child in greater metropolitan Austin (2000 census put the population at about 1.3 million). The cost of that money is measured in all the other things we can’t do with that money, and won’t be able to do for years to come.

But as a nation we aren’t valuing those things. And the things we value take value away from most of the people in our country and in the world. That isn’t just leftist rhetoric; it’s simple truth. The cost of our economic priorities is paid in devaluing the common humanity of all the common humans around us, including us. I wonder if you haven’t felt some of this in your own lives?

When we exalt profits over people, it means we don’t value people as much as we value profits. And if this doesn’t sound religious, I don’t know what is religious! It is exactly the meaning of the cry from the prophet Amos 2500 years ago that his people were “selling the poor for silver and the needy for a pair of shoes.” How different does our world sound from that? It sounds very, very different than the America I grew up in, forty and fifty years ago.

There is another dimension to the story of Hephaestos and his golden robots that is worth considering. When Hephaestos decided to devote his whole life to work, the other gods rejected his choice. Nobody followed such a silly lead, because they all saw a lot of other options. But a generation later, those in the household of Hephaestos don’t know any other way of life, any other set of choices. So they went about their work robotically, they lived to work rather than working to live, because they didn’t know there was a choice. And that too feels like it has a lot to say to us today, doesn’t it?

For me, this whole subject raises a lot of questions more profound than answers – and more frustrating, too.

Does the money we spend enrich our lives, help us have more fertile experiences, more nuanced appreciation of life, more creative engagement with others, richer relationships where we can truly know and be known? Or does our money buy distractions from human interaction? Do we spend money on distractions to avoid relationships that aren’t very rich because we don’t know how to relate to others richly?

Money can be a good servant, but it’s always a bad master. When you think of the amount of time and energy and passion you spend earning money, do you think it is more like your servant or your master?

This is dangerous territory. We have a word for people who sell themselves for money, and it isn’t a nice word. And when people are simply owned by money – I think of some of the Asian workers who are reportedly chained to their work stations, but also of people here in Austin working two jobs to make ends meet – when people’s lives are nearly defined by the need to work in order to survive, isn’t that a kind of slavery? Is that the cost of valuing profits over people? The enslavement and prostitution of our bodies, our spirits, and far too much of our lives?

I don’t have your answers. I struggle with these issues too, not always successfully. But I can offer you some questions that might be useful.

What’s the cost of the money you’re earning?

What’s the cost of the money you’re spending? What aren’t you spending it on?

Are you working to live, or living to work?

What are you serving with the days and years of your lives? Does it serve the best parts of you?

Or put it this way: If you were to die this month and in your eulogy you were defined by what you have spent the major energies of your life pursuing, would you be proud of having lived that life?

What would you like to do about it?

When You Love Someone

High School Seniors Bridging Ceremony

Victoria Shepherd Rao

Delivered by Don Smith

08 May 2005

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

Listen to the sermon by clicking the play button.

PRAYER

Earth mother, star mother,

You who are called by a thousand names,

May all remember

we are cells in your body

and dance together.

You are the grain and the loaf

that sustains us each day,

And as you are patient

with our struggles to learn

So shall we be patient

with ourselves and each other.

We are radiant light

and sacred dark -the balance-

You are: the embrace that heartens,

and the freedom beyond fear.

Within you we are born,

we grow, live and die-

You bring us around the circle to rebirth,

Within us you dance forever.

Amen.

SLT #524 Starhawk

High School Seniors Bridging Ceremony

We are now going to have one of the rare rituals our Unitarian Universalist tradition has for us. This is a Bridging Ceremony, an initiation ritual in which we will ask our High School Seniors to come up and cross over from their youth and as YRUU community members here the church and into a new territory as Young Adult Unitarian Universalists about to set the world on fire outside the confines of this particular congregation. We have a member of the Young Adult Religious Network, Lisa Fredin, to welcome them.

The Young Adult Religious Network is a long standing group of young adults, from all over the city, that meets every week here with the leadership of the Rev’d. Kathleen Ellis of Live Oak UU Church. It is part of a larger network of Young Adult Unitarian Universalist groups which meet in towns all over the continent.

This bridging is a symbolic act to re-enact a very real transition in the lives of these young people. They are moving from home and home town and taking on new identities independent of families and church communities. It is a very exciting and significant transition. As we watch them bridge, let us commit ourselves to support them, their parents and families as they test their wings. As the hymn says, wings set us free but the roots, they hold us. That support becomes especially important when new territory and identity is explored. They will each light a candle from our chalice to symbolize their new being within our wider Unitarian Universalist community.

Before we get into the bridging ritual, we will hear from our graduating seniors as they tell us about their plans for next year. And then Lisa Fredin will say a few words to introduce the Young Adult Program and extend an invitation to any interested newcomers out there.

Coming of Age Presentation

This is a special service. It is the time for giving the five eighth graders who have been participating in this years’ Coming of Age Program a chance to share their Credo Statements. The Credo Statements are statements of faith. A tough assignment for people of any age. We have asked these thirteen year olds to articulate what it is they believe about life and the way of the world, and what it is they value most in living, The understanding is that these statements are snapshots, the thinking of a moment in time. We have asked that they be honest and promised them that what they say will not be held against them. They are not committing themselves to life-long agreement, in fact, we hope the benefit of doing these statements will be largely realized in the future as the participants will read them and be able to reflect back on their earlier selves. In our liberal religious tradition, it is okay to explore ideas and ways of interpreting life and our own place in the grand scheme of it.

The Coming of Age program has been a year-long event. This has been the second year running. I have helped Carrie Evans, the Youth Assistant in preparing and sharing the once a month Sunday morning sessions where topics have ranged from values identification, liberal religion, and life choices. The program asked the youth to interview church leaders of their choice, visit another UU congregation in town and attend the worship service here. They have been asked to help with church events, to provide some service to the church, to help with a worship event, and to get involved in a social action project in the community. All the youth participated in the Christmas pageant. It is a lot of effort to ask of young people and these individuals you will now hear have shown a determination to see it through. I have appreciated their honesty and I hope you will too.

Each participant has been mentored by an adult from the congregation whom you’ll now meet as they step up to introduce themselves and their mentees in turn.

The following are the unedited credo statements from the bridging participants.

Credo Statement:

Thomas McLaren

Religion plays a somewhat small part in my life, but what I do believe in, as I have learned, is somewhat hard to define. This is a summary of my beliefs.

I believe that there is a higher power in the world. I think of this power as God. God, in my opinion, does not interfere with human life very often. I think that God is probably understanding of all religions and faiths.

Out of all the beliefs and religions of the world that I know of I think Buddhism makes the most sense. That you cannot just do good deeds and be accepted into heaven for all of eternity. You have to make yourself ready to be removed from the cycle first. To do this you have to truly be a good person, you can’t just do good deeds and not really mean it you must truly want to help people out. You have as much time as you need to do so also.

I believe in karma too. For me karma is a sort of reward system. If you do good deeds in this life then in the next one you will be rewarded. If you act badly you will be punished accordingly. Karma helps me live my life with regards to others.

I also believe that there is a negative force. This force isn’t purely negative, it just distracts from reaching your goal. This force is one of the main reasons people take so long to attain nirvana, which is the ultimate reward. There isn’t a specific name for this force it is just all the bad things in the world put together.

I do not pray, even though I believe that there is a “God”. I do not think God is active enough in human life to help out very much with my personal problems.

All in all I believe the basic structure of Buddhism but with a few sort of “twists” of my own. I believe in nirvana as I mentioned earlier and I believe in reincarnation also. I believe in the ways to attain nirvana, but I also believe in a higher power like god or something. Together this makes up the religious part of my life.

Credo Statement:

Robbie Loomis-Norris

I see life logically. What I mean by this is that I believe what I see and hear and touch and taste and smell. I rely on what I can understand it true. Even though, I also believe what people tell me if it seems like it is logical. This leads me to say that I do not believe in any kind of god or goddess or higher being. Because, like I said before, I can not see, hear, feel, taste, or smell it

I think that the “purpose of life”, is to have as much fun as you can while you can. By that I don’t mean that you should always just blow off things that are more important, but say, if you were inside and it was a wonderful day, and all you are doing is watching TV or something, then you should get outside and have fun. But when there is something that you need to do or say or some kind of responsibility that you need to fulfill, then you need to get it over with so that you can go have fun. Basically, I say that I live life to the fullest unless there is something more important to do. By “important”, I mean something that would have a bad effect to you or someone close to you. Such as a very large English paper to write before the end of the school year, If you didn’t do that then it would completely mess up your grade and it would go on your permanent record.

People are a big part of my life, that’s not very unique, but it’s true. I think one of the most needed things for humans is friends, because they help you through everything that you need help with. Well, most things anyway. They help you when you need help with big things, like family problems, and also with small things like, “hey, which page were the questions for English on?” Anything that a person would need, most of the time they will look to friends for help. Of course, that’s not all friends are good for, they have fun with you, which is why people have friends in my opinion. My friends and I have fun because, like I said earlier, fun is the basis of life. Friends are friends because they like each other and because they can have fun and laugh together. Everybody knows that things aren’t nearly as fun if there’s no one to share the fun with.

People are not originally corrupt, in my opinion, but the things that they want or have, persuade them to do things that they wouldn’t do normally. Such things like stealing from people and killing and other inhumane things like that. People do those things so that they can look good or have things that they want. Some people steal things just for the sake of having them, like money. People steal money because they want it. I think money actually controls people, because it can get them anything they want, which means that money = the world. That might be so, but still, money can of course be used for good things too, such as something to give to other people that don’t have any so that they can get things that they need to live.

LIFE, it is what everyone is “here” for. Even though I do not believe in any kind of life after death, I still think that we have a reason for being here. And my reason is that we need to live life up. We need to keep our lives, because that is all we really have.

I don’t always follow these things that I believe in, but I try to most of the time. No one knows what they really believe I think, but they can dig deep enough to live by, and this is what I dug up from inside of myself.

Credo Statement:

Edward Balaguer

I have been asked many times what I believe in. After being asked this a couple hundred times, you decide to make time to think about it. (Having to think about it for coming of age also helps you make time for it) So, after thinking about what I believe in I have come up with a rough outline of what I believe. To answer the question that has always been asked is there such thing as God? No, there is no “God” No there isn’t a person or some being who sits up in the sky deciding who gets to go to “Heaven” and who goes to “Hell”, in my belief, there is some power out there that flows among everyone and everything it is present in everything and it manifests itself differently to everyone. This Power isn’t the same for everyone. There is no book that says what’s right and what’s wrong. There is no one person who can tell you that is wrong and this other thing is right. It is the power that dictates the unexplainable, and helps explain those things that we don’t know about or those things that should never happen. Such as “miracles” a miracle is something that goes against the normal course of nature or what should happen. If you looked at something like a miracle with a scientific, or logical state of mind, you would say that those things can happen their perfectly okay but then the chances of a “miracle” occurring are very little. But besides all the odds they still happen.

I came to this conclusion by examining other religions. In the past, in my opinion, religion was a way to explain the unexplainable. To help explain the world around them, such as if lightning hits a field of food and sets it on fire, it is because you did something to anger the gods or your god. But now, after science has explained most of the things in our modern lives, there are still those very few things which we cannot explain. How something should happen but it doesn’t, how a person can get lost at sea and somehow survive, how someone with a malignant brain tumor survives for 20 years without an operation, how someone is shot in the head but makes a full recovery, how things that are thought to be impossible happen. It gives people something to believe in besides pure science, and probability, because Science alone is just cold hard numbers that have no feeling. But on the other side, religion alone is too much feeling without any fact. Science alone or Religion alone can only take you so far. You need to mix science and religion to get the best . The knowledge and fact from science, but the feeling from religion. The best of two worlds, or in the words of Albert Einstein, “Science without religion is lame, religion without science is blind.”

Credo Statement:

James Borden

When it comes to what I believe about the Universe and God, basically I believe in Darwinism, the Big Bang Theory and a kind of natural order to the Universe. It’s hard for me to believe that an entity decided to give this little gas ball (Earth) trees, water, and life. The traditional Christian view is that God created everything-but if he’s the creator, then who created him? While many people find the idea of God a source of strength and hope in their lives, I believe that God is functioning for them in the way an imaginary friend can give strength and comfort. While this is important and powerful for them, I find the same strength and comfort not in an imaginary God (“G-O-D”) but in a very real dog (“D-O-G”) Riley, who I can talk to and find strength, reflection and comfort.

I don’t believe that there is a set purpose to life. Instead I think that each person has to figure out for themselves what they want to do, how they want to live and how they will relate to others. Basically, there is no “God-given” rule about right and wrong that we can rely on to know what to do or how to live. However, humans have evolved a social system that helps us live happier, more productive lives with rules that are sometimes spelled out in laws and sometimes expressed through our culture. While the laws are available for anyone to read, the cultural ideas of right and wrong are a little harder to pin down, but they are just as important for the community. These include things like helping others in need, and telling the truth when it is helpful. The Golden Rule, “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you,” is another helpful expression of this kind of cultural rule that helps society function effectively.

So fundamentally I believe that laws of nature govern the Universe, of which we are a part, and therefore govern the cultural and written laws that we humans create and the society in which we live.

Credo Statement:

Kelley Donoghue

Statement removed at the request of the author. 1/10/2009

HOMILY: First Essays in the Art of Living

by Victoria Shepherd Rao, Intern Minister

I wanted to offer some reflections on some of what we have heard from Tom, Robbie, Edward, James, and Kelley.

There are familiar refrains in what they have chosen to talk about.

Edward has sought to find some kind of rational, comfortable balance between scientific or empirical knowledge and unexplainable revelation. Many in our congregations struggle to do the same.

James sees in life an opportunity to grow, perceiving enough of a natural orderliness in the world to trust the cultural framework we have inherited. And this is where we all live isn’t it, with hope?

Kelley gives voice to what many of us have experienced as a loss of faith in institutionalized religion. She questions any teaching that can lead to oppressive rather than liberating attitudes and ways.

Tom reveals a liberal approach to religion. He has tried on various interpretations of the human experience and decided that for him Buddhism makes the most sense. He exhibits the unselfconscious assimilation of centuries of liberalism in this, the Emersonian ideal of the individual persons capacity and God-given right to trust his own perceptions of the world as a reliable standard upon which to judge the convents of truth.

And Robbie speaks of values which many of us can relate easily to: the importance of people in our lives – family and friends, the truth that fun or enjoyment rests somewhere close to the center of life’s mysterious purpose. He shows no small insight when he identifies life as all that we can really know we have, each day, each sunny day we remember to get out to simply enjoy ourselves. This is an affirmation that is both deeply existential and spiritual.

All these statements express one of the unique spiritual gifts of our religious tradition. That is religion without the fear. No fear of institutional or eternal punishment for asking questions or having doubts. The down side of such freedom we all know is the possibility of confusion.

Here is a little story about a fish swimming along. He is burdened with a big question on his mind. But then he comes across a big fish.

“Excuse me,” said the little fish. “You are older than I, so can you tell me where to find the ocean?”

“The ocean,” said the other fish, “is the thing you are in now.”

“Oh, this? But this is water. What I am seeking is the ocean, ” said the little fish. Disappointed, he swam away to search elsewhere.

(Anthony De Mello, The Song of the Bird, pg.12-13)

This parable gives some indication of how confusing it can be to ask ourselves religious questions. And it has been difficult for these young people to tackle this credo writing assignment. But I hope they are not going to swim away disappointed. Because they may or may not recognize the significance of some very important positive things they have said to us this morning about the way the world seems to work. And so I want to briefly highlight them.

Edward has said that he believes that there is some power that flows in and among all things. This power explains the miraculous and can contain human feeling. Kelley also spoke about a force that flows through everything which everyone can feel and no one can describe. It connects everything. Holding this belief, she says, brings order to her life and eases confusion. Helps the world seem a bit less crazy.

Tom talked about some Buddhist beliefs that he has found useful. He is in the minority in this group, choosing to name the nameless, “God.” He ventures beyond the certainties of this life and takes comfort in the idea of reincarnation, the idea that we all have as much time as we need, as many lifetimes as we need, to learn the lessons we need about love and kindness. Tom says this way of understanding life, with a final goal of reaching enlightenment, helps him live his life “with regard to others.” How to live “with regard to others.” We all need to learn these lessons on living “with regard to others.” This is universal teaching.

As Robbie said, you have to dig deep into your self to come up with this stuff and these articulations show a great sensitivity to the paradox or contradiction inherent in religious ideas. They are beyond human words and understanding. Words may be used to speak of such things but they cannot contain or completely describe the ultimate truth.

But still, we know we can experience the coherence of ultimate reality and most of us do. James has said, in earlier versions of his credo anyway, that he talks to his dog, Riley, and that he has found comfort and real relationship with his dog. And such is the experience of babes in the arms of their new parents. It is the feeling of an unconditional love, a wordless embrace, a word-transcending feeling of acceptance. Such experiences are the foundation of love of God or life, the stuff of faith.

Robbie talked about the importance of his close connections to his friends, how his relationships with others enhance the experience of fun. It is something about sharing that makes it real. It reminds me of Mother Teresa’s words about love, that love can have no meaning if it remains by itself. It has got to be something which connects us to others, something which is expressed in action which connects us to others or else it is meaningless.

Words fail to signify the depth and power of such experiences of love and relatedness. But the fortunate truth is we are experiencing creatures and we don’t need words and ideas to draw the vital spiritual sustenance available to us through relationships with others. It is there, in the eyes, in the face let us always take the time to look into one another’s eyes and faces and see there communion.

But these young people have gone on a word chase and they have worked hard to find the words which express their views at this time. It is hard to call out from the wilderness between the vast expanses of childhood and adulthood, where they are now – hard to know what you think and believe, and to find the courage to share it with others, to say it out loud. I want to commend Kelley and Tom and Robbie and James and Edward. It has been a great learning challenge for all of us. Carrie and I want to thank you for sticking with it and we want to thank the mentors and all the parents for supporting us all the way.

Mark Morrison-Reed, one of the ministers at Toronto’s First Unitarian Church, and one of the first preachers of this movement to inspire me, has said that “the task of religious community is to unveil the bonds that bind each to all[that there is] a connectednessdiscovered amid the particulars of our own lives and the lives of others.” This morning you have all been called to witness to such particularities in the lives of a handful of families of this community. May the sharing of the milestones of our personal lives build the strength of the bonds of our communal life. Morrison-Reed asserts that the religious community is essential because, “Together, our vision is widened and our strength is renewed.” He was speaking about the potentiality of the religious community to act for justice in the world and that is a very important calling on the church, but what he says is also true on a personal level, for meeting the challenges of changes and transitions in our lives, in all their particular dimensions.

American Myths

© Davidson Loehr 2005

Hillary Hutchinson

May 1, 2005

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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AFFIRMATION OF FAITH:

Hillary Hutchinson

May 1st is also Labor Day, hence the topic of today’s talks.

Good morning. My name is Hillary Hutchinson, and most of you know that I have been a member of this church since 1987. This is my third Affirmation of Faith. Pretty soon you are all going to know the story of my life, like it or not!

Today’s sermon topic is “The Myth of the American Dream.” This is a scary topic for me, because it hits a little too close to home. I was raised in a family that believed very strongly that if you worked hard, acted responsibly by going to a regular job, and took your vices in moderation, you would eventually get ahead. Promotions would come, raises would come, and retirement would be possible at age 65. No one talked to me about institutional or social barriers. No one told me I would get laid off twice through no fault of my own, once with a three month old baby. No one mentioned how difficult it was going to be to save any money while putting a husband through graduate school and raising two daughters. No one told me that being female and pregnant means a lot of employers are just not going to invest in you. No one told me that, from time to time, I would actually be working two jobs to pay expenses. Finally, no one told me that I would find myself stuck in a series of dead-end jobs just to pay the childcare and the mortgage. (A mortgage, I should add, that I would not have even been possible, except that my husband and I inherited some money in 1985. It’s not like we were able to earn the down payment.)

So, we bought a 900 square foot house with one bathroom and no air conditioning in the barrios of South Austin. Counting Phred the cat who came with the house, there were five us living in this small space within two years. Through it all I came to this church, looking for answers about how to live my life.

Davidson is going to talk to you about the problems with our American myths, but I see myself as one of the lucky ones: We did in fact succeed in living principally on one income. I had a series of jobs with insurance (indeed, I stayed in some horrible jobs because we needed the health insurance benefits). The Eva St. house was a big and terrifying investment, but it did appreciate. If Jon had not died in 1997, we might now be living quite comfortably on two incomes. White, well-educated, employed, and with a solid net worth based on my own income and assets, I have been able to begin pursuing my own dreams. I no longer wonder with Langston Hughes, “What happens to a dream deferred?” I am working toward a PhD in higher education administration because despite everything, I still believe in the value of a meritocracy. I still believe in the power of education. And I want to be in a position where I can help other people access education, and learn to think critically about the current state of human affairs.

Now that I no longer have to ask myself, “Is there enough money for food and shelter until the next payday?” I find my questions are more nuanced. I am more focused on whether I am doing the right thing, (a question Spike Lee left open for interpretation in his movie of the same name). I am more interested, like Martin Buber, in whether I am in “right relationship” with my fellow human beings. I look at my beautiful daughters, and I hope that they like me as well as love me. I hope that I am doing right by them in the choices I make moment to moment. I try to honor that by treating them with respect, listening to their opinions of the world, and laughing with them about the absurdity of some of our human actions. Teenage hormones are horrible and confusing (I remember it only too well!), so some rules for living are needed for guidance. In finding my own spiritual path at this church, I crafted a golden rule to teach my daughters when searching for guidance: “if your action adds love to the world, then its probably right; if your action adds hate to the world, then it is probably wrong.” Being good Unitarian Universalists, Kate and Clare tell me this is just another way of framing Buddhist compassion.

I think there is one other important element to compassion, and that is the capacity to imagine. This is where Davidson’s discussion of great literature comes in. To act compassionately we must first be able to imagine what it feels like to be someone else on the planet. Secondly, we must be able to imagine different outcomes than the ones we may have been taught. Karen Armstrong was just in town as part of the KLRU Distinguished Speakers series, and one of her comments was, “It’s quite possible to practice bad religion just like its possible to practice bad cooking.” So, since I haven’t the time or the skill to write a great novel with morality subtly built into the text, I’ll leave you with instead with this pragmatic ethics test, compliments of the Rotary International business club. It’s a great little shorthand piece to determine the next right thing to do. Ask yourself:

Is it true?

Is it fair?

Does it foster friendship and create goodwill?

Is it beneficial to all concerned?

How you answer these questions will help you to act with integrity at the next moment of choice. And maybe if enough of us practice this kind of faith, we can create a new American dream that truly does not leave anyone behind.

PRAYER:

Let us pray that we live within stories that can make us more whole.Let us have gods worth serving, rather than the flashier idols that use us until we are used up and gone.

Let us measure our lives and our worth in the right kind of currencies – currencies of compassion rather than control, empathy rather than empire, connection rather that separation, relating with people rather than using them for our own ends.

For there is something precious in the world that wants our attention – something sacred. If only we would serve those things most precious and sacred, they would return the favor, and might bless us.

We know those things. We are moved by them and warmed by their glow in the hearts where they live.

We pray that our hearts will be among the hearts in which the tender mercies dwell. We pray that our lives and our relationships might have that glow and that warmth. And we pray that our world may be the ally of these precious but fragile forces, rather than their enemy.

For these things we pray. But not only pray, not only pray.

Amen.

SERMON: American Myths

In one of the shortest sermons ever delivered, and one of the most famous, the Buddha said “All I do is sit by the river, selling river water.”

I think it’s one of the most profound revelations of the secret of nearly all wisdom: that nothing is hidden, that we just need to be reminded of things we already knew, so that perhaps this time we will awaken, and act.

We had two fairly large memorial services here this week. Both of them filled this room. And in both of them, I said something I say at almost every memorial service. I say I wish more people came to memorial services. Because if they did, and if they heard the memories and stories people get up to tell about the person who has died, they would realize that we know exactly what is right and wrong, good and bad. We know exactly how a noble life is to be judged. Not by might, arrogance, wealth or intimidation, but by the kinds of things every religion has always preached: compassion, understanding, peace, love. We don’t really fool people. That’s the river water, and every good preacher makes their living by selling it.

So as we’re going to talk a little about the American myths this morning, I need to say that we can talk about them, but you already know what’s wrong with them, and how life would look if we were living it more wisely. That’s the river water, and all I’m going to do here is bottle some for you to take with you. So let’s begin.

Every society has basic stories that define it, and it isn’t hard to list some of the deepest myths of America. I think there are four basic myths.

First is our fascination with newness. We have been the “New World” since at least 1492, but “newness” is a central part of who we are. To Americans, it has always symbolized an improved version of what came before. They called this the New World, and named their settlements New York, New Jersey, New Hampshire, New England. When they went west two centuries later, they named a patch of desert New Mexico.

If you read studies of traditional cultures, you find that all of them would regard this idea that “new” means “improved” as completely insane. Most societies look to the wisdom of the ages, the wisdom of their elders, in a way Americans haven’t for a long time. If new means better, than old begins to mean outmoded and irrelevant. And if you don’t think old means irrelevant, ask a dozen people over seventy how they feel our society regards them. We don’t have elders to whom we routinely look for wisdom that surpasses our own.

The second part of the American story is about Success and Capitalism; and in America they are also tied to Salvation, for one of the most fundamental equations of American mythology is the simple formula that “wealth = worth.”

Our myth of success is probably the most important myth in American history. It was given its most powerful expression during the 19th century through the many stories written by Horatio Alger (1832-1898), the chief prophet of our American Success myth. Take just one of his stories, a story called “Struggling Upward or Luke Larkins’ Luck.” You have probably never heard of it. But a century ago, it sold fifty million copies in paperback and was read by millions more. That means that almost all of the adult population of the United States a hundred and thirty years ago bought or read that one little book. And Alger wrote over 134 books. I don’t think you can overstate the influence of a book read by virtually every adult in America, and don’t think we have had any book to match it since then.

Horatio Alger was a Unitarian minister in the 1860s. He was also a pedophile who took street children with him on his travels as sexual toys.

A third part of our American myth is our radical individualism. This is the country of Lone Rangers. The myth of the lone cowboy is one of our most powerful myths. We could talk about this for hours, but this is a point that hardly needs reinforcing in Texas.

The fourth part of our American myth that I want to consider is our imperialism.

From the start, the Pilgrims saw themselves as God’s chosen people, the faithful remnant come to the New Eden to create the New Jerusalem, with a mandate from God to extend the kingdom of Christ, to extend it across the whole new world, to bring civilization to this wilderness. In the 19th century, mythic heroes including Daniel Boone, Kit Carson, Mike Fink, Calamity Jane, even Custer and Buffalo Bill saw themselves as God’s agents appointed to civilize the west. Buffalo Bill believed he stood between civilization and savagery.

Officially, our imperialism goes back at least to the Monroe Doctrine of 1823, which was quickly and repeatedly interpreted to mean that we could advance our economic interests aggressively in this hemisphere, which we have done ever since.

These parts of our script have been with us for a very long time. But things have not been good for the American Dream for quite awhile, at any of these four levels.

First, our addiction to the new has been frustrated at many points. We no longer have any new frontiers, no wildernesses left to take over or move on to. Forty years ago, the TV series “Star Trek” tried to satisfy our wanderlust by defining “Space” as “the final frontier,” sending our Lone Rangers off in space ships. But the frontier metaphor had already worn thin when we settled California over a century ago. And now the last of the Star Trek programs is being cancelled, and the last installment of the “Star Wars” movies has been finished – another series of cowboys on the space frontier.

Here’s an example of how completely we have adopted an imperialistic attitude toward the rest of the world. Think about this, if you will. Fifteen years ago, we essentially kidnapped the president of another country and brought him to this country to stand trial in a drug deal which had also involved agencies of our own government connected with the Iran-Contra affairs. We arrested him after a coup attempt we supported failed to kill him.

If you Google Noriega’s name, the third entry shows a mug shot of him after we arrested him. The caption underneath reads, “Manuel Noriega, former president of Panama, rescued by American marines for incarceration in the United States.” Now think about this. If Iraqis invaded the United States, kidnapped our president and took him back to put in an Iraqi prison for causing the deaths of over 100,000 Iraqis in the past few years, how would you look at a caption of his mugshot that read, “George W. Bush, former president of the United States, rescued by Iraqi soldiers for incarceration in Iraq”? We have an attitude toward all other nations that we would find arrogant and criminal if they expressed it toward us. As almost anyone from other countries can tell you – even Canadians – this attitude is 100% American.

We have presumed the right to meddle in Middle Eastern oil pricing for eighty years, and assume that our actions must be justified because we want cheap oil. But think about this. Imagine Saudi Arabia or Russia sending troops into Kansas to regulate the price of wheat because they want cheap food. We have invaded half a dozen tiny countries in the past decade, taking armed forces there as though we had a divine right to do so. We have no such divine right. We never have.

Further, our imperialism is embarrassed by the growing awareness that we are not even the best at very many things any more, or anywhere near it. Our education is near the bottom of the industrialized countries. Our infant mortality rate is the highest in the developed world, our illiteracy rates are soaring, our cars are second-rate, we are barely in the running in televisions, stereos, and a dozen other items. Our family structures seem ineffective, and both in politics and in religion we have seen the norm moving steadily away from honesty and toward hypocrisy.

We murder fifty times as many of our fellow citizens as either the Swedes or the British do. We are a superficially religious society, but in 1989 a special edition of LIFE magazine conducted a survey showing that 70% of our citizens believed in an active spirit of evil they called the devil, and only 40% of them believed in a God. I’m betting that’s a far more honest and accurate poll than all the happy-face polls insisting that 90% of Americans “believe in God” (without ever asking people what they mean by the word ‘God’). The national mood increasingly favors not empowered citizens, but obedient ones. Well, this list can and will go on, but you can continue it on your own.

A third level of our American Dream has involved our radical individualism, which has led us into another blind alley, as our Lone Rangers have become mostly lonely rangers. There is an interesting medical syndrome that can serve as a metaphor for our predicament today. It is the syndrome in human babies known as the “failure to thrive” syndrome. It means that babies who are left alone without being picked up, held, and touched by others can die. They cannot live as isolated individuals, and neither can we. Our emphasis on individualism and our accompanying dismissal of the responsibilities we owe the larger society are way out of touch with the reality of human life, and we are paying the price for it. Psychological depression is ten times as common now as it was before WWII, and since the 1960s our dominant psychological problems have been narcissistic personality disorders. We too are failing to thrive, both as individuals and as a society.

In the fourth part of the American myth, our equation of financial success with personal value, of wealth and worth, there is really nothing new at all. The American philosopher William James spoke of Success as our “bitch goddess” a hundred years ago. But even then this was not a new observation. The ancient Hebrews worshipped the golden calf, and were scolded for it by their prophets. The prophet Amos accused his contemporaries of making people secondary to profits: of selling the poor for silver, and the needy for a pair of shoes. Jesus was clear in his own teachings that you can either worship God or money, but not both, and that it would be easier to get a rope through the eye of a needle than to get a rich man into heaven.

As individuals, we all know this. It isn’t news. And talking about it is like sitting by the river, selling river water. Most of that selling river water business has been done by our poets, artists and professional storytellers. When you look back into the first few decades of the 20th century, it is surprising just how accurately the failings of the American Dream were named, and in very famous books, all of which also became movies.

When Arthur Miller wrote Death of a Salesman in 1949, he focused on the fact that capitalism is about selling both things and people: that to be a successful salesman you must sell not only your product but also yourself. That is what his character Willie Loman did. He sold himself in pursuit of the American Dream, but on a deeper level he had put his faith in the American Dream to give his life meaning, to make him whole-or, in religious jargon, to grant him salvation. It could not do it, and Willy Loman’s suicide was the death of a lost and hopeless soul, abandoned by its god. In the end, at a funeral hardly anybody came to, his eulogy was really summed up in just two phrases: “He was the best-liked,” and “He never knew who he was.” I am reminded of Jesus’s asking what a man gained if he gained the whole world and lost his soul. Poor Willy never even gained the world.

A decade earlier, John Steinbeck wrote his powerful book The Grapes of Wrath. Steinbeck’s variation on the theme of critiquing the American Dream was different from Arthur Miller’s, but no less devastating: it is a capitalistic dream achievable by only a tiny percentage of people, he said, whose power and greed will impoverish the overwhelming majority of the rest.

This is even more true today than it was in the late 1930s. During the past dozen years, the gap between the rich and the poor has become a chasm, as we have become a two-tiered society in which the richest 10% of our people control well over 90% of our wealth, a proportion more lopsided than at any time in the history of this nation. The salvation offered by the American Dream is increasingly a salvation available only to the priests and priestesses of capitalism, carried on the backs of an immense number of the masses.

At the end of his book, Steinbeck offered his solution in a form so graphic and powerful it may always fill theaters with sobbing, as it did when I saw it. Here are poor and desperate people who were merely used as dupes by those few who controlled the American Dream, who have been driven against the wall with nothing and no one to care for them but each other. And so the final scene has a young mother whose baby was born dead, now offering her milk to a starving man: a man she did not even know, except to know him as another human being in need.

Here is the “milk of human kindness” in its most elemental and heart-wrenching form. Steinbeck is saying that the kind of salvation we most dearly need cannot come from the American Dream or from economic success. It comes only from reaching out to the strangers around us and offering them what we have to share. This is river water. Every religion has sold it.

And a decade before John Steinbeck, F. Scott Fitzgerald offered an even more fundamental criticism of this American Dream in his book The Great Gatsby, which many have called the greatest American novel of the 20th century. As Steinbeck saw that the salvation held out by the American Dream is an illusion for all but a very few, Fitzgerald saw that even for the very few, it is still an illusion, for it can not save anyone.

Gatsby had it all, and he had nothing of value because he had lost his soul: he had lost his integrity, his authenticity. That is the reward for worshiping false idols, as it has always been. That is the reward for spending a human life in the service of values and ideals that cannot grant life. As Arthur Miller’s Death of a Salesman ended with a death and a funeral, as Grapes of Wrath ended after the death of both a baby and the dream that the baby had symbolized, so The Great Gatsby ended with a death and a funeral – a funeral to which nobody came.

The novelist Leo Tolstoy wrote a short story called “Two Old Men” about salvation, about wholeness, about where the sacred dimension of life is to be found, about the way in which life is given its most enduring meaning. Tolstoy’s story is not well known, but it is full of river water.

In this story, two old men decide to go on a pilgrimage to worship God at Jerusalem. On the way they meet a poor family near starvation. One of the old men goes on to the Holy Land the next morning, the other stays to do what he can to help the family. Emergency help becomes long-term aid, as he stays with them for months. He helps them plant crops, cooks meals for them, and spends all his money buying them what they need. Finally, months later, the family has recovered and the old man, his money gone, returns home.

The first man, now back from the Holy Land, swears he saw the other man in Jerusalem, surrounded by a halo-like glow and crowds of admirers. The second man, whose money and energy were spent helping the poor family and who never made it to Jerusalem, just changed the subject. The first old man, you could say, visited the Holy Land as a tourist; the second man had become holy. The first sought the sacred as a separate thing, the second reached out to others, gave of himself, and turned the place in which he found himself into holy ground.

This is like the last scene in The Grapes of Wrath: someone reaching out to offer the milk of human kindness to a stranger. Like the two old men in Tolstoy’s story, Steinbeck’s characters found nothing at the end of their journey but people like themselves: alone and in need, with little to share but their humanity. And so they reached out and turned a small spot on this earth into a momentary shrine where kindness overflowed and strangers were nourished. Jesus could not have said it any more clearly, nor could the prophet Amos, nor Mohammad.

This has been the message of the best prophets in all times: that we are the agents of salvation on this earth. And the measure of the gods we serve, the measure of our own spirits, is the measure to which we have overflowed, have reached out to strangers outside of our family, outside of our religion, outside of our race, to share with them the milk of our own human kindness.

This is the river water that is sold by every religion on earth that’s worthy of the name. It isn’t news. You don’t really come here to learn this; you come here to be reminded of it. Perhaps what we come to church for is not the river water. Perhaps, instead, we come to church hoping once more to learn how to be thirsty for it.

Growing Up and Finding Ourselves

Youth Service

Reflections from Megan Blau, Patrick McVeety-Mill and Karen Farmer

Worship Leader: Davidson Loehr

24 April 2005

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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INTRODUCTION:

Like most churches, we have struggled with learning how to understand and structure “youth services” so they are enjoyable for both adults and our youth. In the past, there were youth services at which attendance would drop below fifty. Adults were not attracted to them, and the youth dreaded doing them.

A couple years ago, I decided the failure was mine, not theirs. We changed the structure of the service to one in which the youth work with me and our intern to plan the service, where the intern and I have the responsibility for approving all parts of the service and arranging their order.

We also changed the philosophy of the service, and I think this change has made most of the difference. When I meet with our youth, I explain that once they are standing in front of the congregation, the rules change. It is no longer about them; it is always about the people sitting in front of them. Whatever they offer must be a gift to people of all ages. And to do that, their offerings need to feed the minds and souls of all the people there. Our congregation wants to see how teenagers wrestle with the questions that make us most human. It’s a serious assignment, and we treat it as such.

At first, this news seems to shock our kids, who can easily – like adults – slip into thinking it’s a time to do their own thing, and that it’s about them rather than the congregation.

They submit drafts of their statements to the intern and me, and we make suggestions as to how they could be strengthened and made more effective. In return, I try to remember they are teenagers rather than graduate students, and keep criticisms pretty gentle.

I then write a homily to weave their reflections into a message that can bring out their strengths and help others see how they relate to the existential questions of everyone in the room.

We still need to do more work in helping them speak loudly, clearly and slowly – when we get nervous, we often speak fast and softly. But we think the general philosophy and approach have solved nearly all the problems with which we’ve struggled in the past, so offer this service as a model for others to consider.

— Davidson Loehr

REFLECTION #1,

by Megan Blau

I am not a gardener. Plants wilt after a few days in my house, I have managed to kill cacti and Aloe Vera plants, I have a brown thumb. So last year, when I acquired four plants for a science project, I feared for their lives. Yet, after well over a year, they are not only alive but thriving. And when, during last month’s hail storm (which I’m sure you all remember), all their pretty yellow flowers were broken off, I was kind of upset, but I realized that while I was not a gardener, I did enjoy it a little. I found a small piece of myself, and it was nice. I know that’s not surprising; at my current age it’s hardly uncommon to be finding yourself.

But what about later? Growing up is usually thought of as a process throughout your childhood and teenage years, but I doubt any of you would tell me we just hit 21 and stagnate. So what is growing up? A physical, mental, or emotional thing? Sure, but these things are changing all our lives, not just in childhood, for better or worse. I want to keep growing up throughout my whole life, no matter what it means. I don’t want to get complacent in the imagined knowledge that I know everything. I would like to keep discovering myself, no matter who I may find. I don’t know much about plants, I’m not very good with them, and yet I was able, though all I did was leave them outside and water them every few days, to make them live and flower. And there is a very definite satisfaction in knowing that I was part of something like that.

This experience has also left me with the knowledge that I may be able to do something even if I don’t think I’ll be good at it. There’s just no way of knowing beforehand, and an attitude of self-doubt tends to be a self-fulfilling prophecy. Though the hail broke off their flowers, the plants remained green and healthy, and already have a few buds. If I can keep this in mind most of the time, then maybe I’ll be able to blossom, too.

REFLECTION #2,

by Patrick McVeety-Mill

Growing up is a difficult process that we all must go through. It stretches from the second you are born to your last moment of life. This is against what some people believe, that as soon as you become an ‘adult’ you’re done growing up and can rest for the rest of your life, we all grow up at various times in our life and each bit of growing gets us closer to know what it’s all about. Right now, our seniors are selecting which college they will go to for the next few years of their life. This can greatly effect what happens to them past here.

It is the decisions that take place growing up that will effect and change our lives and get us closer to finding ourselves. Getting married, having kids, getting promoted, getting fired. The list of experiences goes on for quite some time.

I found that my first time really growing up was right here in this very church taking part in the coming of age program. I got to talk about how I felt about things, I felt like I was older, like I had stepped up a notch on the course of my life. I had to sit and think about what I believed, what I wanted in life, and what I had to do to get there. The decisions I made will change what’s going to happen from here on out. I feel that they serve an important purpose in our life. Growing up, learning, finding your true self, all of this is so important, and I know that I’ll have to think about what I do before I get to it. It’s quite the experience.

Even other creatures have places and times where they grow up, like dragons. Yes, dragons, just stick with me for a second. They must go through steps that will set the course for the rest of their lives. They breath their first fire, soar into the heavens, and let out their first, blood chilling roar. Each of these effects them, will they be the terrible dragon that destroys cities and eats knights for breakfast or the gentle one that sits in the forest and helps lost travelers.

The same thing happens with us. I recently had to choose between two high schools, a fine arts and a liberal arts and science one. This may effect how the rest of my life goes. I’m having different experiences, meeting different people, and taking different classes than if I made the other choice. Several years from now, I might be a completely different person because of this decision. Who knows? All we can do is wait and see.

If one is lucky enough to choose between two or more well paying jobs after college, each one will lead them down another path. Or what to do if someone (or thing) close to you has passed on, what you do next can change the path of your life. Life is like a giant board game. We shape ourselves with every move of the piece, every roll of the die. Draw a card: you’re fired! What now? Stick with unemployment, angry and depressed, or go out and find a new job. Or maybe you’re happy about it!

Each part of growing up has a different effect on everyone that can lead to finding oneself in the end. The end to this board game is different for everyone. Where you finally stop growing and find your true self is all a matter of the decisions we make. Thank you.

REFLECTION #3,

by Karen Farmer

Preface: When I was about 5, my father was working off the gulf coast, counting birds on small islands for a nature conservancy group. One day, he decided to take me with him to one of these islands, and I was deeply impressed by the birds. I had no idea that this day would change the girl I have become. My father and the birds inspired such an awe at their power, beauty and independence, that I came to admire and often expect these same qualities in the people around me, as well as myself. I would like to tell you about that day.

That morning we jumped in the motorboat. It doesn’t matter which morning, for I was young enough then that each morning seemed the same, and the color of the sky and the worth of the day still meant little. The thick sea air engulfed us and then dumped us onto the dock of Green Island, an island that to me, never fit in the real world and never needed to. It just floated as a point in an endless desert of anonymous shifting water. Here, I stomped over the dock to wait for my father as he carried the day’s lunch and a pair of binoculars, to meet me and grasp my hand. I carried the look of my father’s steps, confident and firm, while his distracted eyes urged me to be silent.

Among the whisping ghosts of birds, we climbed the ladder to the blind, a wooden creature, a shack on stilts, and sat inside, the slats crisscrossing to make little windows that framed the chaotic, asymmetrical and beautiful movement of the shorebirds. They yelled like mad to each other, the sounds of their clicks and claps lost in the cacophony, individuals, calling to her chicks or calling his mate. My father treated them like human beings, admiring their cascading wedding plumage, their striking color, their sound. And my father carried these memories. This was his job.

He was paid to count them, to learn them and to understand them. I heard the sounds of birds come out of his mouth so many times it seemed that he spoke like the birds even when he spoke to me. In my mind, they both chattered in the same esoteric language I admired but could never touch. Without thought, I carried their sound. I preened my feathers, learned to dive and fly in the gulf wind, and tried to speak with the paradoxical complexity and simplicity of their vital and pointed speech. I did these things so my father would see me that way, wanting him to watch me and to speak to me. I wanted to carry their language so I could learn the only language my father ever knew, the language of their confidence, their dress, their dance.

Like me, each bird danced for another, sky pointing, their paired dipping beaks and necks, making careful interpretive inkblots on a backdrop of smooth blue. In their excitement, they ruffled their wedding plumage, accentuating the curving vines of their necks, ruffling brilliant feathers, carrying a few away by the violent wind. Feathers whipped around and around the island, performing pirouettes like stumbling children, falling everywhere and settling cool in the shade of a restless Mesquite. Sometimes, their wide wings carried them in the wind as well, dipping and swooping low into the brush to nudge a chick or high in the air to spot a fish in the shallow gulf. As a birdwatcher, my father followed their eyes with his eyes with weighty black binoculars, his body rigid and insistent. In the mornings, he just watched, observing color and size, and carried silent imprints of the day in his mind. Not permitted to speak, I squirmed and tossed around in the blind, restless from waiting. I did not yet know why I liked being there, as the sun beat mad looping patterns of heat into my skin and cells which carried the boredom heavily, making me wild.

In the sparse shade, we stopped to eat lunch. And here, chin on my knees, between bites of a ham and cheese sandwich, crust strewn across the ground, I felt that the ants must be more free. I imagined them sleeping under a dark virgin sky, lit with the cold light of crisp stars. I imagined them sitting back in little restaurants the size of leaves and chatting about their tans and the feast of crust, retrieved earlier at lunch.

The birds were like Greek gods, bickering about space and food as a hobby, as they watched and flew, like creators, proud and contented, over their kingdom. Every bird carried its young to maturity with lazy, comfortable guidance. The only limit was space; they used every inch. Feathered shoulders almost touched and every thorny branch provided a place to land. And yet these shorebirds didn’t ever care about birds of any other species. Great Egrets defended their territory against other Great Egrets, making threatening gestures with their long white necks, but a Roseate Spoonbill was virtually invisible to them. Each one seemed to carry the isolation of city people, with apartments like tiny, stacked houses, separate and easily overlooked by other tenants.

In the afternoon, after lunch, I ran down to the beach and sifted through the seaweed, soggy and ripe with salt, on the shore. Plovers and Sanderlings wandered here as outcasts, tiny gray birds, with short pointed beaks and plump bodies. They seemed like regional deities on such an island. Rushing in and out in a childish, passionate, giddy play, they carried the routine of water, a simple in and out of tides, with no need to watch or to observe. I’d never been one of these birds; I’d never loved one. I could only watch them as a child, fascinated but detached, eyes wide and distracted from the cool stick in my hand and the foaming seaweed.

Meanwhile, as shadows fell across the island, my father watched as the birds came back from fishing and flight, to roost, and he counted them. Hurrying back up the trail, I again sat next to him in the blind, sun soaked and windblown, to watch the last of the settling birds. Their concave wings curved into a feathered embrace, into the relative harmony of sleep. Their chicks, awkward with newness, closed large eyes in a woven stick nest in the undergrowth. I marked our footsteps in the rich dirt and then sand as we reach the dock, little feet and big making a two-part rhythm on the wet wood. We carried our trash and belongings in a hush, for the noises of the birds negated our own. Even as night came, those creatures chattered on and it made me wonder what they were talking about.

Stepping back on the boat was the hardest part. The way it swayed in the shallow water as I put a foot in made it seem like it didn’t want me back. The feeling was mutual. But as a chore, as a ritual, I stepped in, one foot and then the other, balancing and glancing back at the island. My father joined me and started the motor, cutting the shallow, salty gulf and then the Intercostal Waterway, slicing the sea in half. Streaming towards shore, I carried the smell that is so recognizable there, so unique. I’ve always thought it comes from the smell of birds, millions of birds living close, the smell of salt, crystallized on everything, and the strange smell of rot, taking the seaweed, the fish, and the birds. Off the boat and home, everything seemed so grounded. Just the grackles eating scattered dog food in the driveway. Just the ants following the same line in the dirt. No restaurants the size of leaves. No sleeping under the stars.

Away from that place, the idea coats me like a filter on a camera, not inventing color, but intensifying it, all reds and greens and blues saturated and brilliant. Something happened within me on that day that changed me. Now, in my heart, everyone is a bird. Because every bird is different, there must be, it seems, one match for every human; one that tends to cock its head, one that sings a complex tune. My father is the Great Blue Heron, an intelligent and lanky shorebird, dressed in lovely blues and whites and blacks. And I am the Green Jay, a solitary, timid bird of the woods, who wears tropical blues and greens.

Now, I carry that day everywhere. I carry the washed out bleach of the sun, the harsh sea wind, the screeching cry that birds make like humans, yelling at the summit of a mountain, yelling for something undefined, yelling for defiance and beauty and power. And whenever I’m alone, I carry my father’s voice, whispering their names in the morning heat; I carry the taste of the shadows, delicate and crucial under a great speckled egg.

SERMON: Growing Up and Finding Ourselves

It’s hard enough to have to read an original piece you write about yourself in front of a lot of people. But I made it harder for our three high school students, by saying I wanted them to write something that could be a gift to you, because standing up here on this stage is always about serving the people sitting in the pews.

In working with these students, I was reminded of Kahlil Gibran’s poem on children, where he said “Your children are not your children. They are the sons and daughters of Life’s longing for itself.” All children are the sons and daughters of Life’s longing for itself. They come with their own personalities, their own styles, just as we did. And they seek ways to find a home in life, to serve it, to serve this grand sense of a Life that longs for itself – just as we do.

I see these annual youth services as a chance for the grown-ups to look into both our future and our past. Our children struggle with the same questions and challenges that we once did. And hearing from them as we have this morning can remind us how much like them we are, how much like us they are. We are also manifestations of Life’s longing for itself, and we also look for ways to find the dynamic and creative powers of life in and around us, to become a part of them, a part of this vast and transcendent Life that cradles us all.

You can see this in all three of their statements. Megan began with an innate sense of honor for Life, and a reluctance to take on responsibility for it because she had decided she had a brown thumb. Well, if you don’t think you can care for life well, you won’t want to.

It reminded me of something I read this week in Tikkun magazine. On the surface, it has nothing at all to do with Megan’s piece, but you’ll see the connection. These were two articles by women who are working to reframe the abortion debate, to get it out of the “individual rights” and “a woman’s right to choose” boundaries that aren’t likely to work any more. They are looking for a framework that is more honest, more accurate, and they write that choosing life or choosing abortion aren’t primarily choices about the new life. They’re choices about whether we feel that we can do honor and justice to the new life.

For instance, during Bill Clinton’s very liberal presidency, abortion rates in the U.S. fell by nearly 17%. Yet during George W. Bush’s very conservative presidency, abortion rates have risen by over 14%. Why? Because young women and young couples are embedded in our national economy. When the economy is better, they believe they can serve and honor life, so they have fewer abortions. When the economy is unfair, when it beggars most workers, people don’t feel that they can do justice to life, so they get more abortions. Abortion is about the economy and a deep respect for the sanctity of life, not about a hatred of life.

And there were seeds of this way of thinking in Megan’s piece. When she felt she couldn’t serve life, she didn’t want to take it on. When she began to believe she could, then she did. And that sense of life’s sanctity, and the conditions that need to exist before we encourage it – that sense seems to lie deep within us, and to be trustworthy.

Megan was talking about plants, not babies. And her point was about gaining faith in her abilities, faith that can give her more courage to engage more fully. But its implications are far-reaching. Her piece could inspire a whole book of sermons.

Patrick has a very different style from Megan. If he were a Hindu, I’d say his path is the path of Jnana Yoga, the path of trying to relate ourselves to life through understanding it more fully. You heard him working to figure it out, to understand how the choices we make have far-reaching effects, how they’re connected to life.

He also brought in another wonderful dimension: the dimension of mythology as a source for creative understanding of ourselves and our options. There are good dragons and bad dragons, and some of the difference comes from their choices. The good ones sit in the woods to help lost travelers; the bad ones just eat them. And as it is with dragons, so it is with us. How will the decisions Patrick makes help direct his life toward helping others rather than devouring them? How will ours? Is there ever a time in our lives when we aren’t trying to sort things out like Patrick is?

This is really what myths are for: religions, too. It’s also what good stories, movies and comics are for, because they are our modern forms of myth-making. We create the dragons, princes and princesses, the action heroes; we create sages like Yoda in “Star Wars,” as imaginative projections of our own strong sense of duty, courage, whimsy or wisdom. We create our dragons in much the same way as we create our deities. The distance between gods and dragons isn’t as far as you might think.

Gods and demons come from the world where dragons also live. And we often miss the point, miss mining them for the insights they offer into ourselves and our own lives. Patrick’s reflections could also be the inspiration for a whole host of sermons.

And think about Karen’s piece. While she isn’t referring to mythology – except in noting that the birds bickered like Greek gods – her poetic sense has described our world as a mythic stage on which life’s grandness struts in all its many forms. She studied the birds the way Patrick looks at dragons and Megan sees some plants surviving a hail storm, reading them like tea leaves, for insights into the deep structures of life, including hers.

Karen kept the magic of the associations she made a dozen years ago, the patterns she saw in birds and people, the wondrous variety and vitality of life in all its forms. Whenever these moments of revelation happen, they become part of our sacred foundation, and are always as present to us as they were at the moment of the revelation.

All three of these teen-agers have sensed something of the awe-inspiring magical powers of life. They are all trying to find places within life, to serve it, to honor and do justice to the spirit of life in the world around them, and the spirit of life within them. They’re grappling with the same deep callings, sensitivities, and needs that we are, aren’t they?

And let’s take it into another area beyond this room and this time. Here are three people who are part of our future, trying to relate themselves and their decisions to causes and ideals that best serve the wonder and creativity of life. What if those considerations are taken into the way we look at our world? What if we ask whether our economy serves life or stifles and batters it, both here and abroad? And what if we said the only choices we could be proud of making were choices that honored those life-giving forces rather than the choices that devoured them like a dragon devouring knights? What if we looked at our international policies of war from this perspective?

You may say, “Oh no, religion can’t consider any of those things. It’s not about the outside world; it’s only about personal things that stay inside of our individual souls!” But not one of these three kids was talking only about themselves. They were talking about how they can most creatively and proudly interact with all the world around them to honor the kind of life forces they are already aware of.

What if we encouraged our children to bring those considerations into every single decision they made in their lives? To encourage only economic policies that empower and enrich the greatest number of people? To sanction only wars that are absolutely necessary, and never to sanction wars undertaken to seize another nation’s assets, or use it as a launching pad for yet another war on its neighbor? And to insist that the pictures of the dead and wounded from our wars are always kept before our eyes by the media, so that we can see and feel the cost of our wars, so we might weep together? What if we encouraged our children to think of every decision, large and small, as one that must be kept in harmony with these fragile and miraculous forces of life they are all learning to honor, trying to serve?

They are the sons and daughters of Life’s longing for itself. What if we encouraged them to insure that their life paths and life decisions also honored Life’s longing for itself?

Friday night about eight people came to our monthly movie night, and one of the movies we saw was a 45-minute film by Canadian scientist David Suzuki, on the interrelatedness of ourselves with all life on earth (“Suzuki Speaks”). At one point, he showed a film clip of his teen-aged daughter addressing an international assembly, assailing the adults gathered there for not having made choices that served life. Afterwards, he said some adults came up to her to admit their failures, and said they were counting on her generation to fix things. She responded in two ways. First, she said “So that’s your excuse for not doing anything?” And then she asked how her generation was to do any better, when the adults had been their role models.

These awarenesses of life and our responsibilities to become responsible parts of it – these awarenesses start very early in our lives. They are the questions whose pursuit makes us most human. You have heard them in the reflections of all three of the teenagers who shared their reflections with you.

We hold these youth services once a year because we say we want to honor our children. But it might be worth our while to listen to them. They are reminding us of the great idealism we once had about life, remember?

Remember when you first discovered that you could actually serve life, and that doing so not only helped plants blossom, but also helped you blossom? Remember that?

Remember when you were awed by the implications of the choices you could make, how they would affect your life, and how you wanted to become like the good dragons rather than the bad ones?

Remember when you entered so easily and often into the world of birds and bunnies, horses and dogs, when you marveled at the great variety of life, when you affirmed your own style, your own gifts, and knew for a fact that you were a precious part of life – just as everything else was? Remember that?

Then do you remember how you looked forward to a whole life ahead of you, looked forward to being a bigger part of life, or serving it, of loving it, and of blossoming?

Remember? Do you remember?

Earth Day Celebration

Victoria Shepherd Rao

Marsha Sharp, Worship Associate

17 April 2005

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

Listen to the sermon by clicking the play button.

PRAYER

Excerpted from Manitongquat’s Prayer,

 in Honoring Earth: A Seventh Principle Project Worship Resource

O Humankind, are we not all brothers and sisters,

 are we not the grandchildren of the Great Mystery?

 Do we not all want to love and be loved,

 to work and to play,

 to sing and dance together?

But we live with fear.

Fear that is hate, fear that is mistrust, envy, greed, vanity.

Fear that is ambition, competition, aggression.

Fear that is loneliness, anger, bitterness, cruelty

And yet, fear is only twisted love,

love turned back on itself,

love that was denied, love that was rejected.

And love.

Love is life – creation, seed and leaf

and blossom and fruit and seed.

Love is growth and search and reach and touch and dance.

Love is life believing in itself.

And life life is the Sacred Mystery singing to itself,

dancing to its drum, telling stories, improvising, playing.

And we are all that Spirit,

Our stories tell but one cosmic story that we are love indeed.

That perfect love in me seeks the love in you.

And if our eyes could ever meet without fear

we would recognize each other and rejoice,

for love is life believing in itself. 

So may it be.

Manitongquat is a medicine man of the Wampanoag Nation. He delivered this prayer at the First Rainbow Gathering in 1971.

AFFIRMATION OF FAITH: “Wealth”

Marsha Sharp

What is the first thing that pops into your head when I say the word WEALTH? I’ll bet it had something to do with money. In our U.S. culture, when one speaks of wealth, most of us are trained to think in terms of monetary values.

The “wealth” I’m speaking about today includes not only money, but also health (both physical and mental), natural resources, friends, family-our relatively high quality of life.

As a nation, we crab about the cost of gasoline, but look at how many cars are on the road and how many cars are parked in one driveway. We grouse about the cost of health care and the lack of health care. We support one colossal weight-loss industry and yet we are probably the fattest nation in the world. Even many of our poor, when compared to the world’s poor, are wealthy.

I recently finished a fascinating book by Jared Diamond called “Collapse.” In it he relates how ancient and modern societies succeeded or collapsed. What happens when a society strips its natural resources such as forests and minerals? What happens when populations explode beyond what the society is able to support? What happens when non-native species are introduced into an eco-system that has developed over millennia? How do people survive who are so wedded to their native cultures and customs that they are unable to adopt survival skills in order to survive in a foreign land? In all of these situations, cultures and populations live on the brink and then finally fail. What all of these situations have in common are the issues of survival and quality of life.

Every day we interact with people who grew up in other cultures and are striving to have better lives than the ones they left behind. The world is truly global. All those Third World nations now have televisions and the internet and are discovering what they’ve been missing out on all these years. The world’s resources can only go so far. In order for everyone-and I mean EVERYONE-to have the standards we have, we will have to lower our First World standards in order to even begin leveling the playing field. Are we willing to do that? What are we willing to give up in order to have equity in the world? To find equity just in our own country?

I will be the first to admit I love my creature comforts. I like having a car, a warm, secure home to live in, indoor toilets, running hot and cold water IN my house, plenty of food, nice clothes, a job. What am I willing to give up? I never lived as my grandparents did as children-growing everything they ate, living hand to mouth, no retirement, outdoor plumbing, well water, making everything they wore. They, and my parents, strived to make things better for their progeny and they succeeded. Our generation strives to do the same.

But in light of all the desires and needs of the rest of the world, what will happen? Will the next two generations after ours strive to lower the standards for their offspring in order for the entire world to survive? Have we already begun to train our children not to expect more? Or have they, like us, become well-trained to indeed expect more?

And what is that “more?” Is it just monetary? I hope it includes taking care of oneself to reduce preventable health problemsincludes healthy relationships with family and friendsincludes using our resources prudentlyincludes limiting our populations. I believe it makes a difference what that “more” is.

Now, what is the first thing that pops into your head when I say the word WEALTH?

SERMON

Happy Earth Day and congratulations on your Green Sanctuary certification. Cathy has told you about the Green Sanctuary Program of the Seventh Principle Project, an affiliated organization of the UUA dedicated to helping UUs walk the talk of the association’s seventh principle, the one that calls on us to “respect the interdependent web of all existence of which we are a part.”

There is something about the phrasing of this principle that seems belabored. I like the way it is expressed for the kids better: “We care for Earth’s lifeboat.” Now that arouses some vivid imagery. Like we are all in a giant Noah’s Ark, drifting around the vast universe together. It presses the point that we are all completely dependent on our little blue green vessel. That is the truth of our existential nature that we dwell on the surface of this amazing biosphere. It is strong and steady with an amazing capacity to recycle natural materials and renew itself. The variety of life forms and the adaptability of them to their environments it is not just Darwin’s evolutionary idea, it is a profound source of human joy and awe.

One of my favorite bible lines is from the gospel of Mark. Jesus is teaching about the realm of God, or the source of all creation. He said, “The [realm] of God is as if someone would scatter seed on the ground and would sleep and rise night and day, and the seed would sprout and grow, he does not know how. The Earth produces of itself.” (Mk.4:26-28 NRSV). I love the admission of the limit to human understanding. We do not know how life comes into being (though fantastic progress has been made in understanding the mechanics of life with DNA and genome research) and we sure do not know why. When we ask these basic questions, we have to confront the limits of our human condition and the mystery which is at the center of earthly existence. Whether you believe in Creation or evolution, it is impossible to avoid mystery. In the face of the unknowable we more easily turn to a deep sense of gratitude for life, thankful for the gift of it, conscious of the grace by which we live and are sustained in this world.

Yet we hear it in the news daily, it is all bad news when it comes to the environment. Pollution is killing the life in the oceans. Scientists don’t expect the coral reefs to last past 2050. The pollution from gas emissions is warming the atmosphere and the planet, melting the glaciers, melting the polar ice caps, causing violent weather changes, including hurricanes and flooding. Wilderness is sacrificed to development. Species are losing their habitats, becoming extinct and upsetting whole ecosystems. The human population is pressing the supportive capacity of Earth. The nuclear waste from reactors is vulnerable to terrorist attacks and could poison whole regions rendering them uninhabitable for tens of thousands of years. Global free enterprise and corporate interests are given access to national markets and the rights to profitable business enterprise trump the human rights of workers to a basic living wage, growing the gap between the richest and the poorest in every nation and part of the world. Scientists can measure how and make projections on the rates at which humanity is destroying this biosphere. They have been calling out warnings for decades. Environmentalists have joined in the chorus to remind us that there is nowhere else to go. We know it even if we often deny it or ignore it.

There is no way to bail out and if we want to live, we are stuck here, together, on Earth. The nineteenth century’s most influential theologian, Friedrich Schleiermacher, had a definition of religion which aptly develops the lifeboat imagery, he said religion was about having “the consciousness of being absolutely dependent.” It is the kind of uncomfortable consciousness which would come quite easily if you were indeed cast adrift in a lifeboat on the ocean, your ship sunk, the horizon wide, no land in sight. That’d be kind of a sickening feeling, wouldn’t it? You can see yourself: trying not to panic, trying to think clearly, taking stock of your situation, the available resources, utilizing them rationally, making plans and taking steps to increase your chances of survival, and doing it all because of an indwelling hope that you will be rescued, you will be saved.

It is much more difficult to imagine the Earth as a lifeboat but this morning I want to try to do that so that we can get to a more religious perspective of our home planet, a religious perspective which includes not only a sickening, panicky feeling of total dependence on what might well be a sinking ship, but one that also includes clear thinking, and taking stock, utilizing resources rationally and making plans to take steps which will increase our chances of survival, and all because of an indwelling hope in a future for our children on Earth. We must claim this hope and we must express it in the way we live whether we are optimistic about environmental issues or not.

So happy Earth Day?! It’s sort of like turning the birthdays of middle age. Happy 43rd Birthday! Happy 57th! Happy 66th!! Well, yes it is a birthday, but happy? Earth Day is another one of those more recent holidays you may not know too much about. It always falls on April 22nd. It was founded by a US senator, Gaylord Nelson, in 1970 after almost a decade of effort. He was also a governor of Wisconsin and he wanted to somehow bring the issues of pollution and environmental degradation into the field of national politics. He envisioned a special annual day dedicated to education and agitation for environmental causes in the style of the teach-ins which occurred on college campuses to protest the Vietnam War. The first Earth Day involved some 20 million Americans across the nation. He had definitely hit onto something that mattered to people. Twenty years later some 200 million people were observing Earth Day in 141 countries and it is the most celebrated environmental event world-wide. And as our world becomes more endangered more people join in. In 2004, 500 million in 180 countries.

The awareness raising effect of Earth Day led to important legislation being passed in the US including the Environmental Protection Act, The Clean Air Act, The Clean Water Act, and the Safe Drinking Water Act. It helped established the idea that we need as a nation to protect the resources upon which we depend. Now the problems of environmental damage clearly transcend national borders and the whole world needs to act together to deal effectively with our lifeboat.

The First UN Earth Summit in Rio de Janeiro on climate change and species extinction called together heads of state to forge this global approach. The Kyoto Protocol to limit CO2 emissions is an example of such international cooperation for the sake of the planet’s health. Rejecting the Kyoto Protocol was one of the first signs of President Bush’s unwillingness to put the well being of the biosphere ahead of the interests of the Unites Sates. He said limiting emissions would limit the economic growth of the nation and that was that.

But is economic growth so vitally important? Let’s pick up on a few of Marsha’s points.

First, what is the true nature of wealth? A lot of people are asking themselves this question, in fact it is a whole societal subculture asking. In Europe, in North America, in the UK, people all over the industrialized West in fact, are taking this question to heart, What truly enriches my life? The answer is simplicity, or the Simplicity Movement. This movement is made up of people like you and me who have disposable income which we are free to spend. Simplifying is a matter of consciously questioning our assumptions about how to spend that income. Do we want more and more stuff? Do we derive satisfaction from our consumption? What is enough? What is the personal cost of working a sixty hour week? Do we need to work so long and hard for the endless gadgets, toys, fashions, and trends? The objective of simplifying is not to just stop consuming but to consume only that which brings you enjoyment and satisfaction. For many people it is taking a step off the bandwagon where the basic assumption that more is better – more income, more property, more stuff. The people who choose to simplify have decided that more time to enjoy with family and friends leads to much greater satisfaction than more income.

Enough is not a concept we relate to all that well but in a world of limited resources, it is an idea whose time has come. North American culture is much more attuned to the notion that enough is not really enough. We don’t want just enough, we want more than enough. Didn’t Jackie Kennedy say you could never be rich enough or thin enough?

I started to notice how the understanding of enough worked in India. We had some Muslims neighbors and when they were over and I was offering them refreshments, I noticed that when I would offer them more, they would not say, “No thank you,” they would say, “Enough.” I thought about this and discovered the subtle difference of perspective behind the manners. There is something beyond a sense of individual entitlement in the determination of enough, there is a consideration of the possibility of sharing with others. If this is enough for me, then I am satisfied. If there is more to be had, let it be for the satisfaction of others.

I think we need to learn what may be some new and strange skills. We need to become aware of the levels and degrees of our own satisfaction, to identify what in our lives truly has the capacity to satisfy us, and how to measure our satisfaction, to get an idea of what is enough. Think of eating dinner. How many of us keep our awareness on when exactly we feel our appetite is satisfied and how many of us allow that sufficiency to end our meal? Now you may be thinking, “If I have paid for this buffet, I am going to eat all I can!” But we all know how that can work out. We eat too much, get uncomfortably stuffed, have to take a nap. Years of this kind of overeating lead to weight problems and it is not good for our health. Now, if we eat too much at a buffet it does not deprive anyone else from eating we think. But as a principle applied to all aspects of our lifestyle, consider: recognizing sufficiency can guide us to some sense of our fair share.

Marsha talked about how her grandparents provided for themselves by growing their own food and sewing their own clothes. Not only did they meet their basic needs but in the process of doing so they became wealthy in their sense of their own capacity to produce and rely on themselves. They exercised their ingenuity and developed their skills. They depended on the land and each other. That seems to describe a lifestyle much richer in the potential for finding satisfaction and relationship than the familiar pattern of commuting, working at a job for eight or ten hours a day, going shopping and keeping up with the bills. Granted, our lifestyle is less physically demanding and more comfortable but is ease a true standard by which to judge the quality of life? I think our lives are enriched with realness in relationships and in personal challenges.

William Ellery Channing wrote these words which speak well to these issues of what adds to our quality of life:

To live content with small means,

 to seek elegance rather than luxury,

 and refinement rather than fashion,

 to be worthy, not respectable, wealthy, not rich,

 to study hard, think quietly, talk gently, act frankly,

 to listen to stars and birds, babes and sages, with open heart,

 to bear all cheerfully,

 do all bravely,

 await occasions,

 hurry never-

 in a word, to let the spiritual, unbidden and unconscious,

 grow up through the common.

 This is to be my symphony.

This brings us back to the common. Our world, Earth. A beautiful, finite biosphere. Marsha wondered what we would be willing to give up in order to have equity in the world, so that everyone could hope to have their basic needs met. She asked what we in the First World [sic] would be willing to give up? The US uses 25% of the world’s fuel and is the least willing, as a nation, to give up economic growth for the sake of Earth’s continued health. “Donald Rumsfeld said that his mission in the War Against Terror was to persuade the world that Americans must be allowed to continue their way of life.” (Arundhati Roy, “Come September” in The Impossible Will Take a Little While, pg. 239) But will the world be persuaded to live with greater hardship and scarcity for this land of plenty? I guess that’s one of the reason why this nation is spending more than twenty percent of its wealth on its military might. But might does not make right. And we know that it is immoral to continue in the lifestyle of overconsumption and waste. There is a world beyond America.

Let us be very proud of the Green Sanctuary certification of this church. May this be the beginning of a continuing trend among us to seek out ways of life that are both enriching and sustainable. It is true that the environmentalism of our day is apocalyptic and there is not too much in the news to feed our optimism that things will get much better very soon however, please remember that there is a difference between optimism and hope. “Hope is an active, determined conviction that is rooted in the spirit, chosen by the heart, and guided by the mind.” Journalist Mark Hertsgaard reminds us that: “Hope has triumphed numerous times in recent human history – think of the falls of apartheid and the Soviet Empire – and it is indispensable to humanity’s chances of creating an environmentally sustainable future.” (“The Green Dream” in The Impossible Will Take a Little While, edited by Paul Rogat Loeb, pg. 254)

So, claim hope. Try to develop your sense of what really gives you satisfaction in your lifestyle and try to discern how much is enough for you. Go on with your recycling and adopt a new green practice at regular intervals. If you do not recycle and want to begin to reduce the imprint of your lifestyle on the environment, check out the Earth’s Ten Commandments printed on the insert of your order of services to get some ideas. Support the work for a sustainable future and teach your children to worship our mother, Earth. She is beautiful, precious, fragile, mysterious in her ways, in her origin and in her destiny.

Amen.

Life Shrinks and Expands in Proportion to One's Courage

© Davidson Loehr 2005

10 April 2005

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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Prayer

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn’t serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We were born to manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

Nelson Mandela, 1994 Inaugural Speech – words taken from Marianne Williamson

HOMILY: Life Shrinks and Expands in Proportion to One’s Courage

A thousand sermons have been written on the sentiment in that saying from Anais Nin, that “Life shrinks and expands in proportion to one’s courage.” And one of our most persistent dreams in life is finding the right kind of courage needed to help our life expand in the right ways. It isn’t easy.

There are a couple Buddhist stories about this. In one, there was once a mouse who went to God to ask for a favor. “What is it?” asked God. “I am only a mouse,” came the answer, and I live in constant fear of cats. Can’t you do something about my fear?”

There was a loud “Poof!,” a puff of smoke, and the mouse was turned into a cat. For awhile, this sufficed, but before long the cat was back to ask another favor of God. “And now what?” asked the Almighty.

“I’m still afraid,” came the answer. “Perhaps I’m still not big enough. Maybe if I were a very large dog . . .”

Again the “Poof!” and the cloud of smoke, and the cat had become something that looked like a cross between an Irish Wolfhound and a Saint Bernard, weighing in at 250 pounds.

In a week, the dog was scratching at God’s door.

“Now what?” said God – who, though he had infinite power, did not have infinite patience.

“I’m still afraid. Perhaps if I were an elephant,” said the dog. “Or a lion. Yes, that’s it, a lion, the king of the jungle! Let’s try that.”

A loud “Poof!” and a cloud of smoke. And when the smoke cleared, there stood, again, a mouse – who, realizing that it was again a mouse, began squealing for God.

“It is no use,” said God, “there is nothing I can do for you, for you have the heart of a mouse, and as long as you have the heart of a mouse, you might as well be a mouse.”

I’ve been thinking about this subject because courage is in right now, as you know. Arnold Schwarzenegger has informed us that men who would rather talk, negotiate and understand than take premature action are “girly men.” By this measure, some of history’s great girly men would include Jesus and the Buddha, Martin Luther King Jr. and Nelson Mandela. Our invasion of Iraq, whatever else you say about it, involves some kind of courage. We have killed over 100,000 Iraqis, and more than 1,500 of our soldiers have died there so far, plus another 20,000 or so who have been wounded. That is some kind of courage.

But there are different kinds of courage, and not all of them are admirable. It depends on where the courage is coming from, what it is serving.

That word “courage” comes from an old French word for “heart.” You could say that life shrinks and expands in proportion to one’s heart. I would define courage as a heart’s effort to make the world in its image. So if it is a good heart, the courage can serve good ends. And if it is a bad heart, the courage – no less courageous – is likely to serve bad ends. It takes courage, after all, to strap a bomb under your shirt, board a crowded bus and kill yourself along with as many others as you can. But a heart that reduces innocent people to pawns in your own deadly chess game – that’s a bad heart, no matter how courageous.

One of the confusing things today is that some of the worst hearts, some of the voices calling for the worst kind of courage, are coming from the fundamentalist versions of our major religions. Some Israelis say God gave them their land, and reclaiming it is doing God’s will, no matter how many Arabs they kill.

Fundamentalist Muslims give their religion a bad name by urging them to kill Americans in the name of Allah. And in this country, far too many conservative ministers have preached war and justified violence, even if they haven’t gone as far as Jerry Falwell’s saying we should hunt down terrorists and blow them away in the name of the Lord. These are voices pleading for courage. But they are pleading from bad hearts, so the courage serves bad ends. And when you serve a bad heart, life expands in unhealthy, deadly ways, like a cancer.

In your own life, you can think of stands you have taken that served both good places and selfish places, can’t you? And you can remember the effects that taking those stands had – on you and your relationships. But sometimes it’s easier to see these patterns in areas where we can paint with broader strokes. So you can also tell the quality of our heart by looking at the form life is taking in our society.

Last week, I read an article by a local man, an editor at the Austin Chronicle named Michael Ventura. I know Michael; he’s spoken here at least once. I want to read you a little from the picture of America he paints. And remember, we reap what we sow; bad effects come from actions serving a bad heart. So listen to these things – some of which you probably know – and ask what kind of a heart our country seems to be serving, and if it is the kind of heart you want. All of these conditions are the direct result of the priorities we are serving. And our priorities come from the active heart of our society:

The United States is 49th in the world in literacy (the New York Times, Dec. 12, 2004).

“The U.S. and South Africa are the only two developed countries in the world that do not provide health care for all their citizens” (The European Dream, p.80). Excuse me, but since when is South Africa a “developed” country? Anyway, that’s the company we’re keeping.

Lack of health insurance coverage causes 18,000 unnecessary American deaths a year. (That’s six times the number of people killed on 9/11.) (NYT, Jan. 12, 2005.)

“U.S. childhood poverty now ranks 22nd, or second to last, among the developed nations. Only Mexico scores lower” (The European Dream, p.81). Been to Mexico lately? Does it look “developed” to you? Yet it’s the only “developed” country to score lower in childhood poverty.

Women are 70 percent more likely to die in childbirth in America than in Europe (NYT, Jan. 12, 2005).

The leading cause of death of pregnant women in this country is murder (CNN, Dec. 14, 2004).

“Of the 20 most developed countries in the world, the U.S. was dead last in the growth rate of total compensation to its workforce in the [past 25 years] (The European Dream, p.39). Yet Americans work longer hours per year than any other industrialized country, and get less vacation time.

“In a recent survey of the world’s 50 best companies, conducted by Global Finance, all but one were European” (The European Dream, p.69).

Three million six hundred thousand Americans ran out of unemployment insurance last year; (NYT, Jan. 9, 2005).

One-third of all U.S. children are born out of wedlock. One-half of all U.S. children will live in a one-parent house (CNN, Dec. 10, 2004).

“Americans are now spending more money on gambling than on movies, videos, DVDs, music, and books combined” (The European Dream, p.28). It’s the only hope many see of ever realizing the American Dream.

Forty-three percent of Americans think torture is sometimes justified, according to a PEW Poll (Associated Press, Aug. 19, 2004).

“Nearly 900,000 children were abused or neglected in 2002, the last year for which such data are available” (USA Today, Dec. 21, 2004).

http://www.austinchronicle.com/issues/dispatch/2005-01-21/cols_ventura.html

The bold actions that produced these figures took courage, skill, determination and a kind of leadership. But behind the courage, I believe that we have been serving a bad heart. We could add to the sorrow of figures like these by going down a similar list showing the number of killed, wounded and reduced to poverty in the more than one hundred countries where our country has soldiers stationed.

But I would rather tell you the second Buddhist story about courage. It’s one some of you have heard before here, because it is one of my favorites.

A notorious bandit came to the Buddha one day and informed him that he was the most fierce and brave bandit in all the world, and was going to demonstrate it by killing the Buddha. “Ah,” said the Buddha. “If you are that powerful, you can grant me two wishes before I die.”

“All right,” said the bandit, “but be quick. Time is short, and I have many more people to kill.”

The Buddha pointed to a young sapling tree growing nearby, and said “Cut off the smallest branch on that young tree.” The bandit laughed, and with one quick swipe of his sword, it was done and the tiny branch fell to the ground. The Buddha picked it up.

“Now, old fool,” said the bandit, “what is your final wish?”

The Buddha handed the tiny branch to the bandit, pointed to the tree, and said, “Now put it back on.”

Legend has it that the bandit achieved enlightenment in that instant.

Spiritual, Not Religious

Dr. Laurel Hallman

Senior Minister of First Unitarian Church of Dallas

03 April 2005

First UU Church of Austin

4700 Grover Ave., Austin, TX 78756

www.austinuu.org

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SERMON: SPIRITUAL, NOT RELIGIOUS

Some of you have found this church through Beliefnet.com. You took the quiz on the website to see which faith your profile resembled, and found you were closest to Unitarian Universalist, or perhaps to Secular Humanist, sometimes Quaker, in some order of the three. Then, I’ve been told, it’s true at my church, I’m sure it’s true of yours. I’ve been told-that, some of you-not knowing what Unitarian Universalist meant, moved to that website, then linked to this church’s website, and here you are.

Almost every time we have a group join our church in Dallas, someone in the group has found us through Beliefnet.com. I have to believe it is also true here.

It may interest some of you that Beliefnet.com now has a feature called “Soulmatch”, a matching service to help you meet people online with your same values, and characteristics

In the initial quiz, to introduce you to the service, you can check, among other things, what faith you would prefer your matches to have. The list starts with “Any”, and after the second on the list, shows all the usual main religions of the world. It is the second one that caught my eye. It is, “Spiritual but Not Religious”.

I know exactly what it means. I’ve heard many in my church use just that phrase to describe themselves. I expect that a large number of people check that box on Soulmatch, so your chances would be good to meet someone if you also checked it, I would think. And I also might guess that if those people who checked “Spiritual but Not Religious” met, fell in love and decided to marry, they would have a high probability of having the wedding at a Unitarian Universalist church.

Because many imagine that we are also . . . “Spiritual but Not Religious”.

I had a young man, in my first meeting with a couple planning their wedding-I had a young man tell me that they came to our church for their wedding because they didn’t like organized religion.

I chose not to explain to him that we, in fact, are an organized religion, even knowing that John Buehrens who preceded me as Sr. Minister of my church is known to have said, “You don’t have to worry about organized religion around here. We’re not that organized.”

I didn’t go into details, because I knew what he meant. I know what people mean when they say they’re spiritual but not religious. They mean that they choose not to affiliate with any religious body of beliefs, doctrines, rituals and activities, perhaps because they have found them oppressive, or perhaps because they’ve never experienced them. There are, now, many people known in church-lingo as “the unchurched”. They might say they are spiritual but not religious because they are the adult children of people who left organized religion long ago, never exposing them to any organized religion-making them wary of all of them.

People who say they are “Spiritual, but not religious” mean that they have found meaning and purpose and even a set of beliefs about life and its mysteries, outside Catholic, Jewish, Protestant Christian, or the “other” faiths on the Soulmate list. They have found them in the writings of people like Jack Kornfield, or Ram Dass, or Thich Nhat Hanh-(interestingly, each of them speaking out of a religious tradition, but not directly representing that religion-and speaking more to people outside religion altogether, than those who are churched)-or these seakers have found their spiritual path in the midst of poets like Rilke, or Rumi, or Rabindranath Tagore who speak eloquently of the life of the spirit, and give guidance about how to live that life. Some have become spiritual but not religious because they have found more truth in nature than in church.

Whatever the source of this spiritual awakening–whatever the source of their spiritual awakening-I know it can be transformative, sustaining, deeply meaningful and purposeful.

It is, as we heard in the reading earlier-the call to go within. It is the call to pay attention to what is close at hand. It is the call to notice the feelings we have in the moment, and to move beneath them, to a deeper response, a deeper connection than our usual reactions and responses in life. It is an invitation to dip into the underground river-(Ira Progoff called it,) or the singing river -( Harry Scholefield called it)-it is the call to greet life with open hands-( Henry Nouwin) suggested, telling us to move into the “inner space” of our lives.

I have a postcard I keep on my desk. I received it in 1995 from a colleague I barely know, who had heard me preach, and said the picture on the postcard reminded him of my sermon. On the postcard is a reproduction of a painting by a contemporary Italian painter, Wainer Vaccuri. The painting is titled “Deep Down”. In very clear imagery, a man is poised on his toes at the top of a cliff, like a diver on a high diving board-arms and hands pointed straight down, body bent as if he is already beginning the fall-his head is turned to the side away from us-he is looking at a figure floating above him. The figure has one outstretched arm pointing straight down. The horizon of the sea off in the distance, but about even with our diver is pale blue. But the sea into which he is about to dive is deep and dark. We know he’s diving anyway.

I keep that postcard on my desk in a plastic envelope to protect it, because it reminds me when I am tempted to scoot along the surface of things-that my call is to the depths. Not to the darkness per se though sometimes that’s what I find-but to the depths of life’s purpose and meaning. To dive in. To dive off. To dive. The man’s head is turned as if to say, “Are you sure?” And the angel, no frilly wings in sight-the angel’s posture says, “I’m sure.”

I say this because it takes courage to live the spiritual life. It takes a willingness to face reality- to stop and face reality. It takes courage to take life on life’s terms, and to dive deeply into its truths.

It takes discipline to live a spiritual life. It takes silence, and practice writing fears and hopes and yearnings and thanks and regrets and joys, and being willing to start each day anew, as if it were your first.

I will admit that once in a while when someone tells me they’re spiritual but not religious, I can sense it is a cop-out. They live in the world of shallow affirmations, and drippingly sweet words of inspiration. They live in the world of imagined joy, where tragedy never visits, and where love overcomes every difficulty-To be sure, our bookstores are chock full of books to sustain that vision.

But today I want to honor the spiritual path which has depth, meaning, discipline, and willingness to live without knowing what exactly is expected of us in the present moment, and living that moment as fully as we can anyway.

I understand that religion has failed many people who have found their spiritual path on their own. I understand that religion has failed many who put their faith in belief systems and have been broken by them. I understand that religion has bored people until they couldn’t stand it any more. And I understand that religion has excluded, restricted, ruled over many people until they said “no more” and left.

So if you get anything from today it is that I understand why people say, “I’m spiritual but not religious.” I get it.

I understand why people say it in our churches.

But lest you find yourself embarrassed because you don’t understand fully where you are, I want to add some thoughts about being religious.

One of the problems with being spiritual but not religious, (and it may be why some of you are here) One of the problems is that it’s hard to find a group to join. Some find a meditation group. Some who are spiritual but not religious will have found their way into Group Therapy, or into a 12 Step group, and it will satisfy their need for companionship along the sometimes difficult road of life-for we will gather in groups-it seems to be part of human nature-to find others like us, to find others facing the same questions and challenges we are-to celebrate our joys together. We will find groups.

Now that it’s on Soulmate, and couples are encouraged to find each other, perhaps a larger “Spiritual but not Religious” movement will begin to emerge. Because eventually some of those couples will have children, and want to raise their children in a setting which is congruent with their world view, and then they may want to get together for spiritual practice, and then they may discover that others throughout time have done similar things, and voila! they’re spiritual and religious at the same time.

Or they can come here for their religion.

If you take anything else home today from this sermon-first I will remind you that I know what it means to be spiritual but not religious. But second, I need to say that coming here is a religious act. This is a religious place. We encourage you to be spiritual and religious here.

But, you may say, this is a “dogma-free zone (we actually have little cards you can give to people when they ask about our religion-they’re linked to a UUdecide.com-one of them says on it “dogma-free zone” Doesn’t dogma define religion?

Sometimes.

But more definitive is the history of grappling with theological questions. We have that.

More definitive is a defined set of values. We have that.

Even more definitive is the institution which is dedicated to a certain path, a certain set of activities (like teaching our children, and meeting here every Sunday to sing and pray and for this brief time, order our lives together) and probably most definitive, is the extended past and future in which we honor those who have gone before, and invest ourselves in the people and events which will follow us.

Someone said to me recently, “If you want your life to have meaning, invest in an institution.”

Invest your time and resources in the structures of society which have depth and meaning and purpose beyond your individual life.

Last month, a friend of mine died. He was the husband of one of my best friends. They belong to the Unitarian Universalist Church in Bloomington, Indiana-where I was the minister for six years. Our friendship has continued over the 18 years since I was there.

My friend was 70. He was an ecologist who taught at Indiana University. He also more frequently than he liked, gave expert testimony in cases around ecological issues-usually about wetlands, his specialty.

His life was invested in the preservation of wetlands, in the students who would carry the work forward, in his Unitarian Universalist church and in his family. He sang in the choir-not always on key. He played the banjo in a string band. He first questioned, and then agreed with the building of a sanctuary for that church. More recently he questioned and then agreed with the hiring of three part-time ministers for that church. He was chair of the “Grounds” committee, and spent untold hours at the church planting, trimming, mowing, and tending the grounds of the church. . He mentored my son, in the Coming of Age program 22 years ago. And a better mentor I could not have found. My son would travel to Bloomington to see his friends during his college days in Minnesota–and he would stay with Dan and Melinda. He had a home there with them.

Dan did not claim to be spiritual or religious. He chided me frequently about my use of traditional religious language. He found his refreshment in deep sea fishing-or more specifically ‘catch and release’ deep sea fishing. He sided with Emerson and Thoreau about the power of nature to feed our souls.

In the last months of his life-far too brief a time as far as Dan’s friends were concerned-in the last months of his life-in a specific shift of theological stance, he said that he had found God in the community which surrounded and sustained him.

The choir at their rehearsal, one Wednesday not long before he died-the choir called his home and sang one of their pieces to him through the phone. He wasn’t speaking by then, but he smiled (I’m told) through the whole of the singing. The string band made regular visits to his home to the very end. Almost every Christmas card I received this year from Bloomington mentioned Dan and his illness. The church in Bloomington lost one of their pillars.

I tell you this personal story because it is my most recent experience of what it means to be religious.

It is to be spiritual within the context of a living, breathing, sustaining, historically grounded institution with babies being born, and old ones who are dying-and everything in between. It is to be spiritual within the context of pot lucks and discussion groups, Sunday School classrooms, Christmas pageants and choir practice. It is to be spiritual and to take on a mortgage for expansion, and it is to be spiritual and then burn that mortgage.

To be spiritual and religious is to show up here each week. To bring your discouraged and sometimes battered spirit to this place to be lifted up, to be challenged, to be sustained here among all these others, and to be blessed back into the world to continue your work, the investment of the time and resources of your life in things which matter.

To be spiritual and religious is to show up here each week, in this place where the two come together, where we search the inner space of our lives together. Where we, one more time, make space for hope to emerge, together. Where we are not alone in our grief. Not alone in our search. Where we are not alone.

Last week I spoke with my friend Melinda to find out how she was doing. She’s all right. She is overwhelmingly sad, but she is all right. She said the flowers are coming up.

They always had flowers blooming all around their home. Dan had, years before, torn up the lawn, to plant native plants and flowers. So I knew it would be time for their flowers.

But she added, “Last fall he kept buying bulbs. He would sit out on the deck because he was already weakened by his cancer-and point to where he wanted the bulbs to be planted by the men who had come to help. He kept saying he’d be here to see them, even though we both knew he wouldn’t.”

I remembered the poem I read earlier-and I recited part of it over the phone. We both had a good cry. Because it is about Belief-not the belief that we will be here in the spring-everything is too transient for that-but the belief that spring itself will be. With or without us. It is a belief, not in the shallows, but in the deep movements of life that renew and sustain us even when all is lost.

So… all this is to say that the next time someone speaks to you about your faith, tell them your have found the First Unitarian Universalist Church of Austin, where your spiritual life is nurtured, and where you have found a religion of inclusion, freedom, faith and hope for your life, for your family, for our future together. Tell them you are spiritual and religious, and that it has made all the difference.