Being Safe

Rev. Marisol Caballero
July 26, 2015

In many liberal activist circles, we hear the term “creating safe space” casually thrown about. Is “safe space” truly ever possible or is the notion a popular fiction of progressive rhetoric? Is being safe what will ultimately transform our world?


Call to Worship 
by Angela Herrera

Don’t leave your broken heart at the door;
bring it to the altar of life.
Don’t leave your anger behind;
it has high standards and the world needs vision.
Bring them with you, and your joy
and your passion.
Bring your loving,
and your courage
and your conviction.
Bring your need for healing,
and your power to heal
There is work to do
and you have all that you need to do it
right here in this room.

Sermon: “Being Safe”

I’ll never forget a story that Meg once told me about how she tried to explain male privilege to a man who, despite her best efforts, still didn’t get it. She said, “Women live with various levels of fear 100% of the time. Men don’t have to.” I had never heard it put that way before and had never even considered it in those terms, but yes! I don’t walk around looking over my shoulder, in a constant state of panic, but it’s nonetheless true. I think that, in our heart of hearts, it’s true for most women. I think that a certain level of naivete can be expected from those women who don’t carry around a healthy dose of such fear. History and experience have taught us this. The annual statistics of rape and sexual assault in this country, alone, are staggering- and that’s only counting the women who muster the courage and, more importantly have the support systems in place, to come forward and report these crimes. Margaret Atwood once said, “Men are afraid that women will laugh at them. Women are afraid that men will kill them.”

Understanding how tenuous safety is for women, I was shocked when I heard the term used in a starkly different manner by a young Latina activist at the National Latina Institute for Reproductive Health’s Summit in D.C. this past spring. At the outset of the lobbying workshop, the day before we would lobby on Capital Hill, two presenters made their apologies, “Lunch ran long and we have a ton of material to cover, but everything we are going to cover and more is included in your binders for your perusal on your own time before we get to the Hill tomorrow. That being said, we are going to go quickly to cover as much material as we can in the time we have.” Midway through the session, a young woman raised her hand and interrupted, “I need to say that I am feeling very unsafe right now…” “Can you tell me more about what you mean?” asked one of the presenters, patiently. (I’m learning that patience and a high threshold for foolishness are skills required of professional activist/lobbyists.) “Yeah, you are presenting a lot of information very, very quickly – too quickly for my brain to process it all. I feel like this format isn’t providing a safe space for every learning style. My learning style isn’t being respected and I just needed to say something about that.”

The presenters reiterated their earlier disclaimer about time constraints, apologized, and attempted to slow down the presentation. As a result, less material was covered than originally hoped for and there was less time for questions. The workshop had been high-jacked in the name of safety.

I have been engaged in liberation movements and have run in activist circles for many, many years now, and have heard the phrase “safe space” used ad nauseam. In the late 90’s, the term was so refreshing. When facilitators of dialogue, professors, and organizers introduced a conversation as intentional “safe space,” it meant that bigotry and disrespect would not be tolerated. That historically marginalized identities would be celebrated and openly acknowledged. Slowly, over time, I have watched this prevalent term morph into a perversion of what it once was.

Curious by its mis-usage by a young woman of color (a first for me), I approached the woman during the break and told her that I was curious about her use of the word “unsafe.” Did she truly feel her safety was threatened? Did she feel like the presenters’ admitted lack of adequate time was somehow an affront to her, personally? Did she truly have the expectation that all learning styles and speeds would be catered to in every setting, at all times? She was defensive in her response, as expected. I was hoping that her defensiveness signaled that she simply hadn’t given enough careful consideration to her word choice. Who knows?

This interaction disturbed me. Obviously, it did. Here I stand, talking about it, months later. It didn’t just annoy me, it disturbed me. I saw it as a symptom of a quickly-spreading illness among progressives that conflates comfort with safety and upholds conflict avoidance as a virtue of doing social justice organizing and education. The sheer entitlement that is presumed by using the term “safety” or “safe space” is enough to get my suspicious side-eye out on anyone who uses it. Though I understand the continued need for and will continue to advocate for spaces and occasions for historically marginalized people and communities to know that they are in the presence of allies, think the mutation of the understanding of “safety” and “safe space” point to deeper, more systemic problems within progressive organizing and get in the way of true growth and hopes of peace.

In the early 70’s, when Paul Simon penned, “American Tune,” he identified the time as “the age’s most uncertain hour.” Little did her know that uncertainty, war, and violent hatred of difference would not be questions that only his generation would have to grapple with.

I had the pleasure of meeting Rev. Osagyefo Sekou at the UU Association’s General Assembly this year. His talk had me on my feet and his humor at a mutual friend’s cookout gave equal levels of profound insight. Sekou, as he’s called, is a Baptist minister from the St. Louis area (and hails from my alma mater, Union Theological Seminary! Woot, woot!) who has become a leading prophetic voice in the Black Lives Matter movement from the ground in Ferguson. He was recently interviewed in Yes!Magazine about how the nature of this movement has some on the outside, looking in a bit squeamish:

“Martin Luther King ain’t coming back. Get over it,” said Rev. Sekou “It won’t look like the civil rights movement. It’s angry. It’s profane. If you’re more concerned about young people using profanity than about the profane conditions they live in, there’s something wrong with you.” He notes how the leadership in this new civil rights movement is different, “Now the leadership that is emerging are the folks who have been in the street, who have been tear-gassed. The leadership is black, poor, queer, women. It presents in a different way. It’s a revolutionary aesthetic. It’s black women, queer women, single mothers, poor black boys with records, kids with tattoos on their faces who sag their pants.” When asked about the lack of ethnic diversity in most churches and how that affects this movement, he quotes Chris Crass, one of Unitarian Universalism’s baddest (I mean that in the best possible way!) white, anti-racist writers and organizers, “Chris Crass says that the task of white churches is not about how many people of color they have. It’s what blow are they striking at white supremacy.”

On Thursday, I was asked to give an opening prayer at a silent march and vigil for Sandra Bland, the black woman killed in police custody this past week, right here in Texas. I was pleased to see several of you turn out for the last-minute event. Before we began marching, the organizer announced to the crowd that we would be marching in a particular order, “Black people in the front, Latinos behind them, all other varieties of brown bodies behind them, and behind them – everybody else.” She made the crowd repeat this to make sure it was clear. I was standing next to a member of our congregation who has shown up to stand against injustice many-a-time. They asked if I had seen “what just happened.” “They just segregated the march!” “It’s great!,” I said. “What?” “That’s what allyship is about. It’s about listening for and not presuming how to be of help, about knowing when to lead and when to follow.” “Fair enough.” I was so moved by how this short exchange could move someone from discomfort, from possibly feeling hurt and excluded, to considering a different narrative; from considering that, “okay, maybe it’s not about me.”

We live in a world where, increasingly, those who are afforded unearned privileges, have unwittingly grown accustomed to an expectation of personal physical and emotional comfort. We saw this in the confusion around the name of this new civil rights movement. Many white people, and those people of color who felt a bit tasked with caring for the comfort of white people, didn’t like the movement being called, “Black Lives Matter.” “Why not, “all lives matter?” they asked and sometimes demanded. Saw a great twitter post that summed up “why not,” “What is the impulse behind changing Black Lives Matter to All Lives Matter? Do you crash strangers’ funerals, screaming I TOO HAVE FELT LOSS? Do you run through a cancer fundraiser going THERE ARE OTHER DISEASES TOO?”

Let’s stop expecting personal “safety” in our justice work. This expectation is the ultimate expression of unchecked privilege – which is not to say that those who catch themselves with their ganglia hanging loose are bad people or even bad allies, it’s just to say that when we realize that we can survive getting it stomped on, we may realize that is was us who dangled it all out before the world, in the first place. Friedman, of Friedman’s Fables, once wrote that, “all organisms that lack self-regulation will be perpetually invading the space of their neighbors.”

The notion of “brave space,” as an alternative to the expectation of “safe space” is creeping its way into activist communities. It presumes that learning requires levels of risk, vulnerability, and personal transformation. In truth, courage is what we need. After all, if safety is to be conflated with personal comfort, how can any group or individual ever be responsible for the personal comfort of another? “Agreeing to disagree,” is usually a means of avoiding such growth and learning from one another. Instead, we should venture into conflict and controversy with civil, yet challenging discourse, taking responsibility for both the intention and the impact of our words, understanding that these may sometimes be incongruent.


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Sanctuary

Rev. Chris Jimmerson
July 19, 2015

First UU has become a sanctuary church for an immigrant facing deportation to a country where her life would be in danger should she be returned to it. We will explore the tradition and the current state of the sanctuary movement. How might it transform her and our religious community?


Call to Worship

Rev. Marilyn Chilcote from “The Public Sanctuary Movement, An Historic Basis of Hope: Oral Histories”

Sanctuary was a loving and mutual relationship. It’s much more than us giving to them. They gave to us a sense of what it means to be a people of faith. Everybody predicted our churches were going to lose members over this. Our churches grew because people started coming back, looking for a place where faithfulness meant something.


Reading

Rev. Robert McKenzie from “The Public Sanctuary Movement, An Historic Basis of Hope: Oral Histories”

It was in every way a conversion experience. I mean, awakening me to the true issues of the gospel.

I read the bible very differently than I used to. I see the world very differently. I read the bible, and I see God’s concern for the poor…

That was the same purpose for which we were struggling in EI Salvador, for justice and a better world, an equitable distribution of the world’s goods and equitable opportunities for life in this world. And those are the controlling ideas as I read a scripture. I used to read other stuff. Now I read this stuff. And I get impatient with speculation, with non concrete flirtation of ideas. I just don’t have any time for that. It used to be very big in my agenda, you know, sort of the abstract theological reflection.

Now, all of that means nothing much to me, and the concrete, hands on, dealing with people, entering their anguish, dealing with their poverty, with their hopes and their expectations, all of that now means everything as I read scripture, as I deal with the community of faith, as I engage myself with the world ….

Then also the whole business of listening to people whose life experience are so deep. It’s just come to me that people who are struggling with life and death issues are people to be listened to, are people who have an uncommon wisdom, are people who ought to be setting the agenda. It’s that kind of solidarity with the poor. I’m not there to minister to them. They minister to me.


Sermon

Ingrid and Omar, a young couple from EI Salvador, came to the United States right out of college. They decided to make the treacherous journey after witnessing several of their fellow students being shot down in an attack on their campus due to student protests in which they had also participated. Omar remembers lying on the ground as the shots whizzed by overhead and the bodies of his friends fell all around him.

Ingrid was pregnant.

They knew they had to escape. Omar came first, traveling much of the way strapped to the bottom of a pick up truck. Ingrid came later, seven months pregnant and hiding in the trunk of car. They came with only a few pieces of clothing and Omar’s violin. They came because their lives and the new life Ingrid carried with her were at stake.

And despite the threat of persecution and even death in their country of origin, our government refused to grant them asylum and would have deported them, had not St. John’s Presbyterian Church in Berkeley, California offered them sanctuary.

That was in 1982. A small number of churches were beginning to form what would become a much larger church sanctuary movement for Central America refugees fleeing human rights violations, even death squads, in their home countries.

And today, over 30 years later, we find ourselves in a situation that is eerily reminiscent of that time. And, once again, a handful of churches, including this one, are offering sanctuary to refugees from many of these same countries.

As most of you know, last month, we began providing sanctuary for Sulma Franco, a woman from Guatemala who had been a leader in Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual and transgender rights activism. She fled her country and fears going back because LGBT persons in Guatemala are routinely murdered or physically abused. The Guatemalan government does nothing to protect them, implicitly supporting these abuses. Any yet, like with Ingrid and Omar in the 1980s, our own government has refused Sulma’s request for asylum. It has failed to offer her refuge, so First Unitarian Universalist Church of Austin has.

In doing so, we assumed the mantle of “prophetic church”, along with a tradition and set of responsibilities that go with it.

Now, we’ve been using that term, “prophetic” a lot lately, and a number of folks have come up to me and asked some version of, “What does that mean?”

I think we can get hung up with the word “prophetic” because many of us learned that it has to do with predicting the future. And indeed, the biblical prophets in our Judeo-Christian tradition were described as conveying messages they had received from God about what the future would be like – and it was pretty often a terribly bleak future because the people and their leaders had been behaving quite badly and their God was preparing to throw a rather ill-tempered fit about it.

The ancient prophets though were also offering a critique of the injustices they were witnessing – a vision of how their world could be made better. It is this meaning of prophetic that we use today to describe a church that is bold enough to confront the injustices of its time, creating beloved community both in its midst and out in its world.

Likewise, the church providing sanctuary as both a safe-haven for victims of injustice and as prophetic witness against larger systemic injustices also goes all the way back to those ancient times. We stand in a long history and tradition regarding this meaning of prophetic church.

In the ancient Israelite culture of the Hebrew Bible, their tabernacles, and later the temples and even entire towns could serve as refuge for a person accused of a crime, particularly if what they had done had been an accident.

You see, the laws of the time contained a system of retributive justice – what we often hear described as, “a life for a life, an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth, an arm for an arm, etc.” Now, this system of retribution applied whether the offense was intentional or not. So, if you accidently poked your neighbor’s eye out while wagging your finger in their face for forgetting to recycle, they could turn around and poke your eye out for being overly sanctimonious.

A bigger problem though was that the ancient Israelites were even more tribal and cliquish than we are now, so if my brother dropped his axe and accidently cut off your third cousin’s left foot, then someone from your tribe could cut off my brothers foot, but then I could take retribution by cutting off their foot and pretty soon our tribes would be at battle, hacking off body parts right and left, like some Monte Python sketch.

That didn’t seem very just in the long run and was a real impediment to passing on the gene pool, so the availability of sanctuary served to help interrupt this chain of events.

It also provided those wrongfully accused of a crime a means to escape immediate and harsh retribution and a refuge from which injustices could be critiqued.

During the early decades of Christianity, house churches sometimes offered a safe haven from oppression under the Roman Empire. In the middle ages, churches in England were legally recognized as temporary sanctuaries, where persons accused of wrongdoing could gain time to allow for their case to be made.

During the Protestant Reformation, reform churches and the cities in which they were located, such as John Calvin’s Geneva, sometimes provided refuge for protestant exiles from the Catholic church – though not always, as our Unitarian forbearer Michael Servetus found out when John Calvin arranged for him to be burnt at the stake, greatly irritating the Catholics, who wanted to do it themselves.

In the U.S., churches provided sanctuary along the Underground Railroad for slaves fleeing the South to seek freedom. Later, churches sometimes provided shelter for women’s and civil rights leaders.

It was in the early 1970’s though, that our sanctuary movement in its current form really took root. Responding to the prolonged, casualty heavy Vietnam War, peace activists and clergy in San Diego and Berkeley, CA, offered church sanctuary to soldiers agonizing over whether to return to the war. This combination of providing safe haven to people in desperate need and at the same time issuing a public declaration against unjust governmental policy and actions became the foundation upon which the immigration sanctuary movement would arise.

As Eileen Purcell, an early activist in the sanctuary movement puts it, “What distinguished sanctuary … was the educational and decision-making process that engaged entire faith communities and led to a corporate and public declaration of sanctuary.”

In the mid-1970s, religious organizations like Church World Services, Catholic Charities and Lutheran Immigration and Refugee Services, with the support of the U.S. government, began assisting refuges escaping abuse in Chile and Argentina, but then in the 1980s and 90s, civil war and political turmoil broke out in Nicaragua, EI Salvador and Guatemala. Our government was often involved in supporting, sometimes covertly, the forces that were inflecting wide-scale human rights abuses in these countries. Because of this, the government refused to establish the legal framework regarding human rights conditions in these countries that would have allowed refugees pouring out of them to receive asylum and argued instead that they were coming for economic reasons. Sound familiar?

The church sanctuary movement arose to again both provide much needed support for folks like Ingrid and Omar and to shine a light on the injustices being perpetrated both here in the U.S. and in these Central American countries.

People from across different denominations, classes, political parties and races came together in this fight often both working in the sanctuary movement in the U.S. and traveling to Central America at their own personal risk to bear witness.

Our own Unitarian Universalist Service Committee (or UUSC), our congregations and our religious movement as a whole were intensely involved in these efforts, and we sent delegations to Central America. The UUSC provided education and advocacy, as well as a study guide on how to become a sanctuary church.

The government responded by infiltrating sanctuary churches with paid informants. One pastor recalls answering the door one morning to find someone who said they said they were there to repair the phone lines. A few minutes later, he answered another knock at the door, only to find another uniformed man, who also claimed to be from the phone company.

Both of them were government informants in disguise, who had somehow gotten their wires crossed. Awkward. And pardon the terrible pun.

Eventually the government charged a group of clergy and lay leaders in Texas and Tucson, AZ with a number of counts, including harboring and transporting illegal aliens. In the Tucson trial though, the government blocked the defense from making any mention of conditions in Central America, refugee stories, applicable international treaties, the U.S. Refugee Act of 1980, religious convictions or U.S. Foreign Policy. The resultant “kangaroo court”, while obtaining some convictions, backfired against the government in the court of public opinion. Those convicted received suspended sentence or a very short period of house arrest.

Eventually, in a negotiated settlement of a legal case called American Baptist Churches versus Thornburgh, the government agreed to reopen previously denied asylum cases and to accept new applications from those who had been afraid to apply before. Later, Congress passed legislation providing temporary protected status, allowing many more refugees from these countries to avoid deportation and to obtain work permits.

Today, a new sanctuary movement has arisen out of this history and tradition – responding to the needs of people fleeing these same countries and calling attention once again to our government’s mistreatment of these refugees. It is a movement that is again pointing out the U.S. role in creating such terrible conditions in their countries of origin in the first place – this time due at least in part to our failed war on drugs and the activities of our multinational corporations.

This sanctuary movement is the prophetic legacy into which First Unitarian Universalist Church of Austin has stepped.

It’s important that you know this about legacy, because your board of Trustees will soon be engaging the congregation in a discussion about whether we want to become a sanctuary church for the longer term.

Under our system of governance, called policy-based governance, the board works with the congregation to establish the church’s values, mission and ends. The ends are kind of the goals we will pursue in order to live out our values and mission. Our senior minister, Meg, then determines the means, or the things that we will do and the ways in which we will pursue those goals. The board also sets limitations for the senior minister, specifying what she may not do in trying to achieve our ends, mainly things that are illegal, unethical or just plain mean and un-ministerial-like.

So when the question of offering sanctuary in this one case came up, doing so was a means for pursuing our ends. Likewise it didn’t seem to involve going up against any of those limitations. So Meg, after consultation with the board, decided to seize the prophetic moment and offer sanctuary to Sulma.

By contrast, the larger decision about whether to become a sanctuary beyond this individual case, potentially involves a redefinition of our ends or at least a redistribution of our priorities within them. As such, Meg and the board believe that it deserves a larger, congregational discussion.

In that discussion, you will have to consider the costs and risks associated with becoming a sanctuary church longer-term. You have heard something of the potential risks today. We have already experienced something of the potential costs in terms of resources and ministerial, staff and volunteer time needed to support providing sanctuary.

So too though, will you consider the potential for transformation. Certainly, we hope that providing sanctuary will be transformative for those who come among us. Sulma has told me that she feels a sense of safety and protection here, as well as a renewed sense of hope, knowing that there is an entire community behind her. Our wish is also that publicly declaring ourselves a sanctuary church will contribute to changes for the better in our immigration system and in our role in the world.

I hope though, you will also consider the potential for transformation within the church itself. I have already sensed in the church a more tangible sense of common purpose, a renewed commitment and passion for our mission.

I’ll close by letting you know that your response to welcoming Sulma among us has already made a big difference for me personally. Just before Sulma moved on campus, I was having a pretty tough time of it. As many of you know, my stepdad had died only a few months before. In the time since, my spouse Wayne had been battling some pretty serious health challenges, and his insurance company was refusing to pay for a procedure he badly needed: the evils of our still for profit healthcare system – but that’s another sermon.

Then, I got a call that my mom was also in the hospital. Both Wayne and Mom are doing much better now, but that was a real low point.

I’m a humanist to the extent that I have an overall faith in the ultimate goodness of humanity.

I’m a theist to the extent that I normally have a sense of connection to something much larger than myself and yet that I am a part of and hold a part of within me.

I have to admit though, at that point, I was loosing that faith in humanity. That connection to something larger than myself seemed far away and in danger of slipping completely out of reach.

And then we put out an email announcement with a list of items we needed folks to donate in order to make a welcoming home for Sulma. That evening, I went to bed exhausted, without checking to see who might have responded.

I got up the next morning to an email inbox full of new messages from church members offering to help. We had several offers for every single item we had listed. We had offers of things that we hadn’t even thought about. People wrote me to say, “I don’t have any of that stuff, but let me know what you need and I’ll go out and buy it.”

Then, we put out another message saying that we needed a bed for Sulma. Almost immediately, two email messages appeared in my inbox at the same time. One of them said, “I have a very nice queen-sized mattress but I don’t have box springs to go with it. The other said, “I have queen sized box springs but no mattress.”

Now, I’m a dyed in the wool Unitarian, but I could have sworn something I’m not allowed to call the Holy Spirit was moving through my email inbox about then.

This church’s outpouring of generosity and compassion renewed my faith and reconnected me with that wonderful and sustaining sense of being a part of something so much larger than myself.

I think that’s what truly living out a shared mission can do for a religious community. I think that’s the transformative potential of putting on that ancient mantle of prophetic church.

Not that I have much of an opinion about which way I hope our discussions may go.


Benediction

May you go forth today carrying with you a sense of awe and wonder that makes transcendence in our world seem possible.

May you carry with you the sense of beloved community we share here, so that you may create more of it in your world.

May you freely give and receive compassion.

May you know the courage to live honestly and vulnerably, seeing all of life’s beauty.

May possibilities for transformation be ever present before you.

May the congregation say, “Amen” and “Blessed be.” Go in peace.


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There is no Present like the Time

Rev. Marisol Caballero
July 12, 2015

The dying give us many lessons and infinite wisdom about living. Rev. Marisol brings stories from film, literature, and her experience as a chaplain in reflecting on this topic.


Call to Worship
By Jane Maudlin

For our community gathered here, for the spirit that called us together and drew us to this place:

We give thanks this day.

For moments we have shared with others; for times when we have reached out across barriers of distance and fear; for times when others have reached out to us; for moments when we have discovered another along our path:

We give thanks this day.

For this community of celebration and growth, introspection and solitude, and for those moments of “that peace which passes all understanding”:

We give thanks this day.

For our gathering together out of distant places; for our weaving together out of many separate selves this hour of celebration and worship:

We give thanks this day.


Reading: A Night in the Hospital Room,
by Vanessa Rush Southern

A couple of years ago, I flew to Michigan in the midst of December snowstorms and holiday preparations to be with my aunt Nancy. I had spent almost all the summers of my life with Nancy from age nine onward, over time she became another mother to me. She was an aunt by marriage, but made room for me as if I were her own. Before long I was leaving home the day after school got out and spending the whole summer with her and my uncle and my two cousins, returning home just in time for the next year to begin.

This time, however, I was headed to see her under the worst of circumstances. She was at the end of a long struggle with cancer she would not survive. When I arrived she was in particularly rough shape. The pain management team at the hospital had not quite gotten her symptoms under control, so she was sick to her stomach and in pain. I offered to stay the night.

Nancy and I had become somewhat distant in the few years before I came to the hospital. She and my uncle had divorced, and somehow keeping me close must have felt awkward to her. Her phone calls became more infrequent, and uncertain how to convince her I could love them both, I had let the space grow between us.

However, here I was in her hospital room and there were things to be done, most of them reminiscent of so much of what she had done for me over the years when I caught a summer cold or stomach virus.

I was returning the favor. I held her hair when she got sick. I pressed cold compresses to her hot forehead. I said what soothing words I could think to say.

For the first few hours that night it was all we could do just to keep up with her discomfort. Then at some point in the night a nurse changed the dosage levels of some medication, and the worst of Nancy’s symptoms quieted. I could see her body relax and take it easy for a stretch. All of a sudden, in the darkest part of the night, the room was quiet and her spirits perked up.

Not knowing how long this would last, I took the opportunity to tell my aunt what I needed her to know.

I thanked her for all the summers together and the idyllic times we had- Parcheesi late into the night, old movies with all of us curled up like a pile of puppies on the couch. I thanked her for welcoming me with her characteristic show of delight every time I entered a room. And I said what I really needed her to know: I thanked her for loving a girl she really didn’t have to love; I let her know that who she was and how she loved me shaped who I have become.

This aunt, you should know, wasn’t given to maudlin shows of emotion. She ritually ended every summer with a kiss and turning her back with an, “I’ll see you soon.” She hated goodbyes, and she knew and I knew without saying so that this was one. I knew she didn’t want to have this conversation, but she listened. When I was finished, she said, as if she were confused by the whole exchange, “How could I not love you? I loved you the moment I first saw you.”

As a child, if you are lucky, you always know you are loved, but perhaps you wonder too if you will ever lose it. How conditional is it? Do your parents love you because they have to? How lovable are you, really? So, you try to please the adults around you, behave, look cute, clean up, read the cues.

To be loved without reason, without argument or proof or hard work; to have someone powerless not to love you is almost miraculous. What a gift to imagine that two people are bound to love each other, no matter what, irrevocably, like a body pulled and held to the ground by Earth’s gravity. A life can stand forever on the knowledge it was loved like that, even just once.


Sermon

I’m not a huge fan of romantic comedies. Of all the movie genres, rom-coms are the most easily predictable, which bores me senseless. Not to mention, they are also sappy, cheesy, and super hetero-normative, for the most part. I know that fans of these movies don’t watch them for the writing or the acting, but to retreat into a simple story that doesn’t require much of them, having spent an exhausting day filled with people and obligations making all sorts of demands on them. Strange thing is, though, in real life, what happens next is usually not as predictable. On my refrigerator at home, I have a lovely magnet that was a thank-you gift from one of our recent high school grads that quotes Allen Saunders, “Life is what happens while we are making other plans.” It’s so true. That lesson smacks me in the face often and hard because if there is any truth to zodiac personality types, I am a true-to-form Virgo control freak of a life planner. I try to hide it well, but I have had an idealistic fantasy about where I’ll be and what I’ll be doing 5, 10, and even 50 years hence for as long as I can remember. Some of it has come to pass, more than I ever truly thought would, if I’m honest, but almost none of it in the way I imagined it would.

I have no idea if there is an age, please reassure me later if yes, at which hyper-planners such as myself calm down a bit and go with the flow; let go of expectation. But, my time as a chaplain taught me that those who know that they are dying, not always, but often have so much to teach the living about this sort of stuff.

Oftentimes, a chaplain becomes a sort of reverse midwife. The role of a chaplain when ministering to a person who has neared the end of their life is to hold a space for the dying to be able to speak openly and say the things that need to be said to someone who isn’t going to shut it down. Loved ones, avoiding their grief, will say things like, “Oh don’t talk like that Dad, you’re going to be alright just like you were last time.” It is a tremendous gift to be able to be the one to say, “Yes, you’re dying. What is that like for you?” Amazingly though, what I have learned is that, as cliche as it may sound, the truth is that I have often been given tremendous gifts in return. These parting gifts have come in the form of wisdom about life that the living would benefit from implementing before they find themselves in a similar place of reflection.

For those who are aware that their earthly days are numbered, it is said that there are five things that they need to say, in some way, before they die. These are: Thank you, I love you, I’m sorry, please forgive me, and good-bye. This makes good sense. Of course, gratitude would be up at the top of such a list, as would sorrow and regret. If a stock-taking of any life is happening, every life will contain opportunities for both. An acknowledgement of both would surely help to wrap things up neatly.

Knowing that forgiveness has been extended before death, or at least making it known that forgiveness is desired is as important as assuring others that they are loved. Very few of us reach death without having known grief, ourselves, so saying a proper goodbye to loved ones becomes extremely important if the dying person is at all able to offer that closure.

I really loved Jim Burson. He was a member here longer than I’ve been alive and he died this past year. I went to see him less than a couple of weeks before he did and we had a nice, long talk. He struggled to catch his breath, but that didn’t stop him reminiscing with me about his years with this church, his theologies, or his ongoing concern for and curiosity about present-day struggles against injustice. We chatted until he was thoroughly wiped out from the strain of it all, but he made it clear he would go on talking for hours, if he could. I asked him how often he would like for me to come visit him. IfOh, about every two weeks,” he replied. “You would like a visit from me in two weeks’ time?” I clarified. He and I both knew then and there that he would not be alive in two weeks’ time. He looked me straight in the eye and said, “Yes. I would like that.” He was saying goodbye. He was doing so in a way that retained his dignity and was in line with his personality. He wasn’t one for a fuss to be made on his account. Without taking no for an answer, he had me help him out of his chair so that he could give me a hug while standing. He was so exhausted, he nearly fell back into his chair if not for my help. He had the gentility, or the nerve – however you choose to see it – to apologize for not walking me to the front door.

Jim had lots left to do. He had no death wish. Even in his eighties, he expressed wanting more time, but life had other plans.

As a chaplain in San Francisco, I met a man I’ll call “Bob” on my first overnight on-call shift. I was called to bring communion to a Catholic patient. That’s all I knew: Catholic and wanted to take communion. I mentioned to the nurse that the Eucharistic ministers would make their rounds the following morning, but I was told that wouldn’t do, the patient wanted communion now. I was irritated. I shimmied out of my pajamas in the on-call room and headed upstairs. That visit changed my life and my understanding of chaplaincy.

Upon arrival, I noticed that the skin-and-bones patient had a tracheotomy, a hole in his throat, and a big sign above the bed that read, “NPO” an abbreviation of the Latin, nil per os, meaning nothing by the mouth. How was he going to take communion, I thought? I introduced myself and found that he communicated by scribbling notes on a legal pad. We chatted some and I found out that he was a huge fan of Thomas Merton, Trappist monk, writer, and pacifist, he was a gay, hugely liberal and largely mystical Catholic, and that he had lived a life filled with progressive activism.

I was nervous. I had never given communion before and had to wing it. In the elevator I had found a passage from the gospel of Matthew to read. I asked him how he was hoping to take communion and he pointed to me and wrote, “I want YOU to take it on my behalf.” Now, I am very deliberate not to take Christian communion. I feel it is inauthentic and disrespectful for me to. After all, I was known in seminary for saying, “I love Jesus, but I just don’t want to eat him.” But, this wasn’t about me, so I ate the wafer and drank the juice and felt completely spiritually nourished. He then wrote, “I feel as if I have taken it quite bodily. Thank you.”

I got to know Bob quite well over the next twelve months. He remains one of the kindest, most compassionate souls I have ever met. In our last conversation, we spoke our good byes very openly and hugged. He wrote, “I’m dying.” I said, “I know. How does it feel?” He wrote, “I’m scared.” I said, “What scares you most about it?” “I’ve never done it before,” he wrote. “But, I’ve always wanted to be a saint.” He looked up and managed a smile at me. “I get the feeling you aren’t talking about the politics of the Roman Catholic canonization process, are you?” He mouthed a big, “NO,” and wrote, I have worked to do all I can for justice down here. I am excited to know all that I can do from up there.”

As a hospice chaplain, I had the pleasure of meeting an elderly woman I’ll call “Alice.” Alice was very elegant and joyful, despite the pain of her advancing cancer. I looked forward to our regular visits, even though I knew every story she told and re-told by heart. She would tear up when talking about the husband who had been deceased for fifty years. She spoke of her regrets and gave my amazing advice that served to boost my personal gratitude in unexpected amounts. Once, when she was speaking about the depths of depression to which she sunk in her grief, she told me about her love of quilting and attributed her healing from the brink to despair to sitting and quilting every night for at least a year. “You can just about solve all of the problems of the world with a needle and thread” she said.

I had no idea what Alice meant by that at the time, but I remember how it felt to hear. It felt like she knew that she wasn’t much longer for this world and had just imparted onto me the summation of her wisdom in one simple phrase. Of course the repetitive act of sewing didn’t take her grief away. Here she was, fifty years later, shedding tears for her love. Alice was reminding me that we are stronger beings than we know, that spending time alone with debilitating grief is the only real way to ever the other side again, and that calm and focused creativity can being about peacefulness.

I always say that I have the coolest job in the world right now – and I do, but being a chaplain is a pretty sweet gig, too. Imagine getting paid to sit and listen to amazing, sometime scandalously shocking stories and priceless nuggets of wisdom and get paid to do it! Above all, the most important gift that the dying impart on the living is not some obvious, yet true version of, “seize the day!” or “life is short,” but the notion of letting go of the best laid plans, as they say, because this life requires it of us. Yes, let’s use this precious gift of time, this life wisely, but what doing so requires of us is flexibility, fortitude, and the faith that no matter how much the reigns of our own destinies slip out of our imagined grip, all will be well. That healing, peace, and even happiness may be found in the direst of circumstances – not because of some half-baked theology that causes people to say such things as, “everything happens for a reason,” and, If God never gives you more than you can handle in a day.” The gaping holes in this thinking are apparent in the face of tragedy, stark injustice, and disease.

Not all of us get the heartbreaking-yet-glorious privilege of sitting at the bedside of the dying. Not all of us are afforded the opportunity to receive the spoken or silent wisdom that can land upon those with one foot in this world and one foot beyond that great mystery of death. But, for those of us that receive that great present of such time, let’s share their message, by living it in the time we have.


Benediction
– Kenneth Collier

I do not know where we go when we die;
And I do not know what the soul is
Or what death is or when or why.
What I know is that
The song once sung cannot be unsung,
And the life once lived cannot be unlived,
And the love once loved cannot be unloved.


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Independence and Interdependence

Rev. Chris Jimmerson
July 5, 2015

The beginning of our Declaration of Independence lays out a set of values to which we aspire but have not always fulfilled. As our “Standing on the Side of Love” campaign and the recent Supreme Court decision establishing marriage equality demonstrate, our Unitarian and Universalist religious traditions have always been and continue to be intertwined with our social mores and our political system. Celebrate equality and contemplate our nation’s progress with Rev. Chris Jimmerson in “Independence and Interdependence.”


So, all three of your ministers here at First UU Austin were in Portland, Oregon week before last, including last Sunday, to attend the annual Unitarian Universalist General Assembly.

As the first of us to be back in the pulpit, I thought I should start by asking, “Anything very significant happen while we were out?”

Oh yeah, the whole Supreme Court legalizing same sex marriage across the country thing happened.

And let me tell you, there was some celebrating going on in Portland (and that was in addition to their annual nude bicycling festival).

When the news came out, it electrified the atmosphere where thousands of Unitarian Universalists from across the country had gathered for our assembly, and I think rightly so. I think we can rightly claim that, though small in number, we have long been strong advocates for LGBT persons, culminating in our Standing on the Side of Love advocacy campaign, which has publicly and vocally supported marriage equality.

Love won, we were a part of making it happen, and that is certainly worth celebrating.

Once again this year, a theme that emerged repeatedly at general Assembly was how storytelling can both help us work for social change and nourish our own spirits. Telling our own stories and hearing those of others, sharing our stories, can be such a powerful way of reaching across borders and lines of otherness, raising social consciousness and creating religious experence.

So, in the light of all this, 1’d like to shift a little from what had planned for this Sunday and share with you a part of my own marriage equality story. I call it, “The New X-Files: Chris and Wayne Got Married.”

Wayne and I have been together 24 years now, and several years back, we decided to get legally married. Back then, only a small handful of states in the U.S. recognized same sex marriage. We decided to go to Vancouver, Canada instead because, well, it’s a fun place.

I was fairly new to lay leadership here at First UU Church of Austin, and my call to ministry was then a very faint voice only beginning to emerge (or actually reemerge, but more on that later). Having left the Southern Baptist religion of my childhood far behind and embraced a very rationalistic, science-based worldview, I was, at the time, struggling with how or even whether I could find a way to redefine and re-embrace terms like God, even metaphorically.

On the Friday we were supposed to start our trip to Canada, Wayne got a call that his sister, who we have since lost, was in the hospital with heart failure. We decided to go ahead and go to the airport not knowing whether we would get on the plane or have to cancel our flights. Wayne was on and off his cell phone the whole time we were making our way their. As we got to the airport, he got a call. She had stabilized.

We boarded our plane and started on our journey to get married. Surely, nothing could stop us now.

We made a connecting flight in Denver, but shortly after taking off for Vancouver, the smell of something electrical burning filled the plane and it started getting very hot in the cabin.

The pilot came over the P.A. system and told us that the plane was going to return to the Denver airport due to an electrical malfunction in the air-conditioning and heating system.

In other words, it was on fire or at least about to be.

A young woman named Tiffany, who was sitting in the seat between us, gave me a very worried look, and downed the vodka-seven she had just ordered.

And then, the pilot came back on and announced that we were going to make an emergency landing in Cheyenne, Wyoming instead. By now, it had gotten so hot in the cabin that a woman near the front of the plane had passed out and fallen into the aisle way.

I thought, “So, I was right along. There is no God, and we’re never going to get married. Instead, we’re about to die in a fiery crash in some cornfield in Wyoming.”

I’m not even sure there are cornfields in Wyoming but that was the vivid image that sprang into my mind.

We started a very bumpy and very scary descent. Tiffany asked if I would hold her hand. I did. She gripped my hand so hard that the pain at least temporarily knocked me out of my existential crisis.

As we neared the ground, Tiffany noticed that her cell phone had a signal, so she let go of my hand and dialed her fiance.

“We’re making an emergency landing. I think the plane is on fire and I’m not sure if we are going to make it. I’m living a nightmare! This is Tiffany, call me later.”

We landed. The plane was bigger than the hangar at the airport. They pulled up some metal stairs to the exit door and hurried us off of it, asking us to please pick up any rolling bags as we went past the woman still sprawled across the aisle way. She was OK – they got her out safely too.

There was a bar in the little tiny airport hangar. It was still open.

“There is a great and merciful God, and she provides comfort in our times of great difficulty.” I thought.

Eventually, they gave us our luggage, loaded us in buses and took us back to Denver, where we would board a new flight to Vancouver very early the next morning.

Now, we were faced with a new challenge. The marriage-licensing agents in Canada closed at noon on Saturdays, so we were going to have to rush to make it to one on time to get our license, so that the person who would marry us on Sunday could sign it and make it legal.

Our flight to Vancouver was uneventful, and we rushed through the airport, trying to make it through customs, get our luggage and pick up a rental car in time to get to the closest licensing agent.

We hit customs, only to find that there was a large group of rather heavy-set men with grey hair and full grey beards wearing a variety of red and white outfits or tee shirts with Christmas themes. Apparently, we had arrived in Vancouver just in time for the people who play Santa Clause each Christmas annual convention. Most of them were accompanied by plump, rosy cheeked, Mrs. Clauses, one of whom was wearing a tee-shirt with red lettering that said, “biker chick,” while her Santa’s shirt asked, “Naughty or Nice?”

Wayne gave me a look that said, “If there is a God or some kind of divine presence in the universe, it has a sick sense of humor.”

We made it through customs, grabbed our luggage and a rental car and made it to a licensing location with just barely enough time left. I parked the car, threw a coin in the meter, and we practically sprinted to the place.

We both signed where required on the paperwork, and then all that was left was to fill out the rest of the required information and pay the fee. We agreed that Wayne would do that part; while I would make sure there was enough time on the meter for us to have lunch nearby. I went back outside and walked over to the car.

And then unexpectedly, as I was glancing at my watch to see how much time I would need to add to the meter, my eyes suddenly filled with tears. I couldn’t stop it. I was so overwhelmed with joy.

As we were having lunch later, Wayne started telling me about how he had looked up at the clock as they were finishing the paperwork. “We’re really going to get married,” he had said out loud, his eyes filling with tears.

I asked him what time that had been.

It was the exact same moment as when I had experienced the exact same thing.

Perhaps the divine exists in an interconnectedness that is so much more complex and vast and powerful than we can fully understand. Maybe the divine is what happens when we love each other beyond our ability to express it in words.

The next day, in a beautiful historic home on the Vancouver bay, a wonderful woman conducted our wedding service for us. An adorable dog named Marley broke into the room and sat right beside us, our little best man with a squeaky toy in his mouth, which he occasionally chomped down on, causing it to punctuate key elements of the ceremony with a loud squeak followed by lots of laughter.

It was perfect, and beautiful and it still fills my soul with an indescribable joy to remember it.

I think that like our struggle to go get married, in the larger struggle for marriage equality, and indeed, any social justice movement, we have to keep at the journey. We have to know that the struggle for justice itself has inherit value. It is worth it, even though sometimes we will lose people who were on the journey with us. We have to keep going, even when it seems like this world upon which we travel in life is burning, and we are not sure we will ever get to the destination.

And sometimes the absurdities in life will throw Santa Clause conventions in our path that will slow us down. So too though, will we find comfort in our connections with each other. We will cry together, and we will laugh together when angels like Marley bring joy into our lives.

Yesterday was Independence Day, and it feels like the words in that Declaration of Independence, the values expressed all those years ago have come one step closer to actually being realized – that all of us are created equal, endowed with certain inalienable rights.

Wayne and I, as well as married, same sex couples across the country, are now legally protected in the same way that any other married couple would be. We can’t be thrown out of the hospital room if one of us gets sick. We now have the same inheritance rights as other married couples. We have the same benefits, such as access to one another’s social security after the loss of one of the spouses.

Perhaps more importantly, for me, it feels like we have made a giant step forward toward being recognized as full citizens, as full human beings.

And yet, my friends, there is still much to be done. In 28 states, it is still legal to fire someone simply for being gay, lesbian, bisexual or transgendered. Trans-lives and their rights and dignity are still under assault, both figuratively and literally.

If Wayne and I were to drive less than hour in most any direction from here, stop at a restaurant and, while there, publicly display the same affection toward one another any married, heterosexual couple might, we would likely be placing ourselves in danger.

While we have been celebrating the Supreme Court decision on marriage equality, eight African American churches in the South have been burned down, police have assaulted and killed more unarmed African Americans, including two children run over during a high speed chase through a residential African American neighborhood.

So our work is not done. We have to find ways to sustain it, and I think our successes with marriage equality contain the seeds of how we may do so.

When I was only five years old, I told my mother I was going to be a minister when I grew up. I used to record sermons on the little cassette tape recorder my parents had given me. Later though, after rejecting the religion of my childhood, I no longer had a context within which to imagine a call to the ministry. I have since realized that the non-profit and theatre work I did most of my adult life was a way of trying to construct a secular ministry of sorts.

It wasn’t until I found this church, and this religion, that I was able to rediscover that call. A church and a religion that, unlike the one I had left those many years ago, recognizes the inherent worth and dignity of all people. A church and a religion where a gay man can offer what gifts he may have to its ministry, and those gifts will be accepted in a spirit of love.

This church and this religion gave me back my calling in life. Reimagined, this church and this religion gave me God back.

And in doing so, it transformed my life.

And I want ours to be a faith that is transformative for so many other people, especially those who still suffer oppressions and need a church that will welcome them with open arms and a great love for all of humanity. Folks like a young African American woman that I met at General Assembly.

Our wonderful youth group had put together an Action of Immediate Witness – a call for Unitarian Universalist support of the Black Lives Matter movement. Such actions require debate and a vote by the delegates attending the assembly.

We had a long and at times painful debate with a group of us standing in solidarity with the youth and representatives from the Black Lives Matter movement to pass the action of immediate witness worded as they had presented it. A number of amendments to the wording had been offered that in our view would have watered it down to make it more comfortable for white people.

In the end, it passed overwhelming with only minor amendments.

As we stood together, chanting, “black lives matter,” I noticed that the young woman was crying.

I hadn’t really met her, though we had been standing together in a group of folks throughout the debate, but I put my hand on her shoulder to try to provide some comfort. She threw both of her arms around me, pulled me into a hug, and holding onto me started really weeping. I placed an arm around her.

She said, “I was so scared they weren’t going to pass it.” And suddenly, I found myself placing my other arm around her and crying now myself, saying, “I was scared too.”

And though I had not known it until that moment, I had been afraid – afraid because had it had not passed, my religion would have so greatly disappointed, so greatly hurt our youth, our allies from Black Lives Matter. It would have so greatly fallen short of the religion I believe we can be.

It would have hurt and disappointed me.

I had reached out to minster to her, and instead, by being so authentic with a total stranger, by opening a space where I could get in touch with my own vulnerability, she had ministered to me.

And I think maybe it starts there – two strangers, standing in that great big assembly hall, holding each other and telling each other our truths, our fears, being fully human with each other.

I think this is the love that we can cultivate in this church and this religion by sharing our fears, our stories, our fragilities that make us human and let us see each other as human. I think this is the love that we then carry outward into our world and that transforms itself into justice – just as it did with marriage equality and the standing on the side of love campaign.

So, may our well-deserved and much-needed celebration also renew our commitment to standing on the side of love for all people. May it rekindle and refuel a burning fire for doing justice.

Amen

Benediction

Transcendence – To connect with wonder and awe at the unity of life

Community – To connect with joy, sorrow, and service with those whose lives we touch

Compassion – To treat ourselves and others with love

Courage – To live lives of honesty, vulnerability, and beauty

Transformation – To pursue the growth that changes our lives and heals our world

These are the religious values this church has expressed and that underlie our mission that we say together every Sunday.

May you carry these values with you into your daily lives and live them out in a world that so badly needs you right now.

Many, many blessings upon you.

May the congregation say, “Amen” and “Blessed Be.”


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On the dancefloor

Carolina Trevino
June 28, 2015

Looking at mystical poetry, we’ll explore how to keep our spirits alive in the modern world. Carolina Trevino is a Christian educator for children and youth at Central Presbyterian Church. She received her Master of Divinity from Union Theological Seminary in New York City (Rev. Mari’s neighbor and classmate in NYC). She grew up in Austin and enjoys walking around Lady Bird Lake, perfecting her chili recipe, practicing Spanish, and will eventually fulfill her lifelong desire to learn the fiddle. Carolina is excited to be preaching at First UU for the first time!


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Father Sky, Mother Earth

Rev. Meg Barnhouse
June 21, 2015

In honor of Father’s Day, we’ll talk about this Sun holiday, the Summer Solstice. What is celebrated on this day? How does it relate to fatherhood and the balance of male and female in everything?


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Juneteenth

Rev. Meg Barnhouse
June 14,  2015

We observe the 150th anniversary of Juneteenth. The Emancipation Proclamation of 1863 was not enforced in Texas until two years after it was made. Many enslaved men and women hadn’t heard that the government had declared them free. Juneteenth is the celebration of that good news.


I long to know what the US would be like if it had never been legal to capture, import and own other people. Agriculture would have developed differently. The distribution of wealth amongst us would be different. Most of us carry the psychological scars of it. I grew up for a time, during the early 1960’s, in North Carolina. I was taught about the institution of slavery. “Most people were kind to their slaves,” they said. “After emancipation, many slaves chose to stay with their masters. They didn’t want to leave them.” “Lincoln freed the slaves with the Emancipation Proclamation.” I always pictured this proclamation being read aloud and great rejoicing going up from the people. Joyous Black faces and emotional White faces of people saying “So long, it’s been great having you.” I didn’t really think about it that much. I had the privilege of not thinking about slavery much.

I remember the first time I heard the phrased “enslaved men and women.” It woke something up in me. Instead of calling people “slaves,” as if this were the kind of human they were, a category, easily made into an abstraction, these were women and men who had been enslaved. I supposed what it says is that I’m not “a slave” now, but the process of being enslaved would make me one. That is what happened to the men and women in that time. They were enslaved. I don’t like to say the word “slaves” any more. It doesn’t tell the story. Juneteenth celebrations in Austin are next Saturday. A parade, a gathering in the park, beauty contests and barbeque. Regular Texans celebrating. It’s a holiday here and in OK. Other states have Juneteenth celebrations too, but it’s not a holiday there.

The celebrations commemorate the beginning of the enforcement of the Emancipation Proclamation in Texas. See, the EP didn’t free that many people. Lincoln wanted to free the enslaved men and women gradually, granting financial compensation to the people who had been allowed to think of them as property. The EP was punitive in nature. After the Battle of Antietam, in MD, in Sept. of 1862, where 22,717 young men slaughtered one another in a corn field, Lincoln wrote in his proclamation that, as of Jan 1 of 1863, all enslaved men and women in states still in rebellion against the Union would be freed. Not those enslaved in Union states. Not if any Confederate states repented and rejoined the Union. Needless to say, no one in the rebellious states recognized the authority of Lincoln’s proclamation, so life continued as usual, only with war added, for the enslaved men and women of the South.

The war ended, I always thought, with Lee’s surrender at Appomattox in April 1865. Not really. He surrendered his armies, but there were other Confederate armies still fighting in the West. The spread of slavery across the Mississippi had been resisted. Kansas was in turmoil when about ready to join the US in the 1850’s (ten years before Appaomattox), as “free soil” folks skirmished with pro slavery forces that thought people should be able to bring “their property” with them when they came to farm. Non slave owners weren’t so much horrified, it seems, by the moral cesspool of slavery, as horrified that others would buy up all the good land and work it with people they’d already paid for, so didn’t have to pay. Horace Greeley of the NYTimes, (son of Horace Greeley, the first President of the American Unitarian Association, coined the phrase “Bleeding Kansas.” John Brown, who believed that armed raids were the way to overthrow slavery, was funded and armed by northern abolitionists, among them Ralph Waldo Emerson and his friends. I’m not sure how they felt when the arms they had bought were used by John Brown’s followers to kill five members of a pro slavery farming family in Kansas.

After Lee’s surrender, Union troops supported the enslaved families as they began living in freedom. There were few Union troops in the west, though. Texas had sent 70,000 troops to the war. Kirby Smith surrendered on May 26 (officially signed June 2). The last battle of the American Civil War was the Battle of Palmito Ranch in Texas on May 12 and 13. The last significant Confederate active force to surrender was the Confederate allied Cherokee Brigadier General Stand Watie and his Indian soldiers on June 23. You remember that the Cherokee and other First Nations were slaveholders.

So it wasn’t as if the enslaved people in Texas labored ignorant of the freedom of all others, for two years. No one was free until Appomattox. When General Granger and his 2,000 men sailed into Galveston, the war was still in its last gasps. General Granger began Order No. 3 with the following statement informing slaves of their new status as freed Americans: “The people of Texas are informed that in accordance with a Proclamation from the Executive of the United States, all slaves are free. This involves an absolute equality of rights and rights of property between former masters and slaves, and the connection heretofore existing between them becomes that between employer and free laborer.” Federal troops did not arrive in Texas to restore order until June 19, 1865, when Union Maj. Gen. Gordon Granger and 2,000 Union soldiers arrived on Galveston Island to take possession of the state and enforce the new freedoms of former slaves. The Texas holiday Juneteenth commemorates this date. The Stars and Stripes were not raised over Austin until June 25.

We celebrate the freedom of those who were enslaved and were freed. No one helped them. Some freed folks were given land formerly held by plantation owners, but Pres. Andrew Jackson gave that back to the plantation owners after a few years.

It’s land that is the basis of wealth. When there are laws against Black folks owning land, their families, for generations, will not be able to prosper. White settlers were given land, and, with it, the chance to make some wealth. Not all were able to do that, but many were. White folks were able to buy houses wherever they wanted to and it is only recently that Black homeowners have been able to buy in the suburbs.

The brave of old, given a sudden gift of freedom, were sometimes able to make good choices and strike good luck, even though most were not helped, and were, in fact, opposed at every turn by separate but equal schools with old text books and holes in the roof, by Jim Crow laws denying them access to the culture, by racist violence to keep them in their places. My friends, we all know that this is still going on. Let us be the ones to offer help. Let us be the ones who stand against this systematic burdening of the poor and people of color in our midst. It is time for things to be fair.


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The boy who drew cats

Rev. Meg Barnhouse
June 7, 2015

Rev. Meg continues her fairy tale sermon series with a classic Japanese story, “The Boy Who Drew Cats.” How can we know what will make a difference? How do we know which efforts are large and which are small? How are the things which bring you joy used for the good of the whole?


Call to Worship
by Howard Thurman

“Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”

Reading
A Letter to Agnes DeMille from Martha Graham

There is a vitality, a life force, a quickening
that is translated through you into action,
and because there is only one of you in all time,
this expression is unique.
If you block it,
it will never exist through any other medium and be lost.
The world will not have it.
It is not your business to determine how good it is;
nor how valuable it is;
nor how it compares with other expressions.
It is your business to keep it yours, clearly and directly,
to keep the channel open.
You do not even have to believe in yourself or your work.
You have to keep open and aware directly
of the urges that motivate you.
Keep the channel open.
No artist is pleased.
There is no satisfaction whatever at any time.
There is only a queer, divine dissatisfaction;
a blessed unrest that keeps us marching
and makes us more alive than the others.

Sermon

In the story of the boy who drew cats, he was pushed out of conventional places because of his difference, his passion. “You don’t fit here at the farm,” his family said. “Let’s take you to study with the monks.” It didn’t work out with the monks either. He didn’t want to study religion. He wanted to draw cats. He drew them in the margins of the scrolls from which they were supposed to be reading. He drew them in the dust while they were chanting. Eventually he had to leave, because he just didn’t fit there. The last piece of advice the monk gave him was to avoid large places, stick to small ones.

Maybe you have had the experience of being different from the people around you, of not fitting in. Some families, churches, towns, countries, have ways of pushing away the people who don’t fit. Somehow the enforcers of the system, from the church ladies who give you the stink eye when you don’t dress properly to kids who beat up other kids who seem weird to them to government death squads, all along the spectrum of enforcement, you can almost always tell when you don’t fit in a place, when everyone would be a lot more comfortable if you left. I hope none of you has ever felt that, but it’s a vain hope. Most of you have felt it ,at one time or another. It’s often a mistake to toss out the different ones, though. When everyone is too much the same, new ideas don’t happen and the society stagnates. Assumptions remain unchallenged. The potato famine happened because people were planting one type of potato, and it was susceptible to the blight that killed nearly the whole crop. It’s smarter to plan lots of different kinds of grain, potatoes, apples, etc. so if some get a disease, you don’t lose them all. Nature is nature, and humans aren’t the exception. In small native tribes the grandmothers keep track of who is related to whom, to keep people who are too closely related from marrying. First born kids are more likely to achieve highly in our culture. Out of the first 23 astronauts, 21 were first born. Second borns are more creative, with less horror of making mistakes. If you look at the biographies of great inventors, you’ll find most of them were second, third, seventh children. A culture needs the creative people. Austin’s creative class is what makes it so attractive, yet all of the musicians who give Austin its soul are no longer able to afford to live here, according to a new survey. Cherishing diversity is smart, but it’s hard for a culture that’s based on power and money.

The boy in our story is small, and he has an all-consuming passion. Most of us know someone who had a passion for playing the guitar, or for writing, or the piano or for dancing or painting, and they are drawn to doing it whether it’s a good time or not, whether people approve of the activity or not, whether they get paid well for it or not. Some of us are lucky enough to have a passion for something we can make a living doing, something people enjoy and approve of. That’s lovely. Most of us, even if it’s not all-consuming, have something we do that makes us come alive. Theologian Howard Thurman said, as you heard in our Call to Worship: “Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.

The boy is too ashamed that his difference, his passion, as gotten him tossed out of the second place, and he doesn’t want to go home. He takes to the road, and wanders closer and closer to the epicenter of the Goblin Rat King’s domain.

The Goblin Rat King is a destructive force, haunting the countryside, wreaking havoc and destruction, taking whatever it wants, spreading terror. We have forces like this in our world. He is an inner reality and an outer one. Most of us have a big fear inside, a Goblin Rat King, a big fear, or a terrible memory, a bad decision we made in the past, that keeps us trembling and limited. There are terrible Rat Kings out in the world. Sometimes it’s us, trying to spread our system of government or make things good for the shareholders of our corporations. Sometimes it’s a terror group, calling themselves a religious purge or freedom fighters. Almost everyone who spreads terror thinks they are doing it for the good of the whole. Make society safe for the “nice” people, making life hard for the “bad” people.

Often, though, the “nice” people are the rich people and the bad people are the poor folks, queer folks, mouthy folks always yapping about their rights, acting like they should have access to education, to health care, to food and clean water.

We try to separate the “nice” from the “bad” parts of ourselves as well, and we can be brutal in our inner enforcements. Our whole culture is based on overpowering, overcoming, controlling through will, through might, through force. We want to change the world, and we make great efforts. I even hear people changing Theodore Parker’s great saying about the arc of the universe bending toward justice. They say “we’ll bend that arc of the universe!”

In the Eastern tradition which is the context for this story, one good way of doing is by not-doing. The Tao Te Ching says when you’re grilling a fish and you poke it too much, you ruin it. When you rule a country and you interfere too much, try to control too much, you mess things up. Maybe you can just do what you do, be who you are, and the cats you drew will take care of the big bad obstacle while you’re asleep, curled up into a small space. You don’t have to arrive on the scene like the Avengers (not that there’s anything wrong with the Avengers) and clean up the place with might, speed and power. Maybe you can do a lot of good with your art, with your passion, with just doing what you do and not trying to force anyone to do anything. Maybe outer and inner demons can be conquered by our doing what it is our passion to do: gardening, writing, helping, offering hospitality, cooking, building, conversation.

Recent events here at our church have me thinking hard. The church has been asked to step into the ancient tradition of offering sanctuary to a refugee. In this ancient tradition, no place but a church has the privilege of being a sanctuary. Tradition holds that soldiers will not come into a house of worship and drag someone out. Our government adheres to that tradition, so far. The woman to whom we have offered sanctuary was pushed out of her home country because of her passion for helping other LGBT folks. She has had a hard time finding a welcoming sanctuary because she identifies as “queer,” and her partner identifies as “trans.” I The UU church and our partners at St. Andrews Presbyterian are the two churches standing up for her. A person with a passion will find her way, like a seed haunted by the sun, finding its way past rocks and grit to break through to the surface. (- St. Exupery) A church with a passion for art and justice will find its way.

I’ve been thinking a lot about shelter since we volunteered to give sanctuary to our new friend, the LGBT activist seeking sanctuary from Guatemala. I hear the Stones song in my head, and I wonder what it means “War, children, it’s just a shot away.” The Civil War started with one shot, from a Citadel cadet at Ft. Sumter. World War One started with a shot, an anarchist, armed by a government official, got lucky and ended up close enough to Archduke Ferdinand’s carriage to shoot him and his beloved wife.

When things are unstable, out of balance, it only takes a small thing to tip everything over into chaos. Might it make sense, then, for enough small things to tip in back into balance? Love, children, it’s just a kiss away. The bards Mick Jagger and Keith Richards seem to think that a small thing can make a big difference.

The boy in our story had the experience of his art conquering the big mean rat hurting the whole countryside. He lived in that temple the rest of his days, becoming a great artist. May our passion, our difference, be the way Nature comes through us, uniquely, in order to heal itself. May we be open to letting our demons be conquered through art rather than by power.


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Whistling with a Shoe Full of Slush

Rev. Marisol Caballero
May 31, 2015

Summer has arrived and we welcome it. Our annual flower communion service celebrates stubborn hope and new life despite all odds. We’ll be “Whistling with a Shoe Full of Slush.”


Opening Words
By Thomas Rhodes

We come in a variety of colors, shapes, and sizes.
Some of us grow in bunches.
Some of us grow alone.
Some of us are cupped inward,
And some of us spread ourselves out wide.
Some of us are old and dried and tougher than we appear.
Some of us are still in bud.
Some of us grow low to the ground, And some of us stretch toward the sun.
Some of us feel like weeds, sometimes.
Some of us carry seeds, sometimes. Some of us are prickly, sometimes.
Some of us smell.
And all of us are beautiful.
What a bouquet of people we are!

Reading

The Duck of Enlightenment
by Kathleen McTigue

One spring afternoon I went home a little early so I could claim an hour of study time before my children got home. As I opened the door, I was greeted by both cats, which was a little odd because they don’t usually condescend to notice our coming and going unless it’s dinner time. One of them promptly bolted out the open door while the other wrapped himself persistently around my legs. As I stood puzzling over this behavior, at the edge of my vision, I caught a sudden motion in the family room where there should be no motion in an empty house. With the hair rising on the back of my neck I slowly moved into the house and rounded the corner of the room, and then I saw it. There was a duck in the family room. A wild brown duck — a live duck. In the family room.

My brain actually stopped completely for a couple of heartbeats. What should the brain do, after all, with so utterly unexpected a sight? I stood there in the doorway and said out loud, “There is a duck in the family room,” as though it would help me believe it. None of the windows were open. The doors were properly closed. The duck huddled in the far corner of the room next to a clutter of books and DVD’s, radiating the hope that if she kept perfectly still I wouldn’t see her. Carefully I caught her up- a small duck, female, her heart tapping frantically against my hands- and carried her outside. I looked at her, full of wonder at this little visitation. Then I opened my hands. She leaped into the air in a great arc of liberation and beat her wings in a straight line of escape all the way to the horizon.

I went back to investigate the breach of household security, and within a few minutes the mystery was explained. A trail of ashes spilled from the fireplace, and here and there on the wall and against the ceiling I saw soot in little feather-shaped impressions where the duck had thrown herself up toward the light. It all made sense then, how a duck could come to be standing in the middle of my house. But I felt lucky that for a space of a few breaths, my linear, deductive mind had been shocked into silence. When something tumbles us into that state of wonder, the unexpected quiet in our heads is like a window flung open on the world. Instead of the routine, predictable story we live each day, there is something new under the sun and, surprised out of our minds for a moment, we actually see. Startled awake, we receive what’s in front of us: simple, astonishing, unedited.

Afterward, basking in the dazzlement of my visitor, it occurred to me that it really shouldn’t require a duck in the family room to awaken my wonder. Isn’t the same lovely little duck just as wondrous, just as worthy of my awe and my open and grateful heart, when she is out in the woods where she belongs? The real miracle is not that her frightened heart beat against my hands for a moment but that her heart beats at all — that her heart beats, that my hands can hold, that my eyes can see.

Introduction to Flower Communion

The Unitarian Universalist Flower Communion service which we are about to celebrate was originated in 1923 by Rev. Dr. Norbert Capek [pronounced Chah-Peck], founder of the modern Unitarian movement in Czechoslovakia. On the last Sunday before the summer recess of the Unitarian church in Prague, all the children and adults participated in this colorful ritual, which gives concrete expression to the humanity-affirming principles of our liberal faith. When the Nazis took control of Prague in 1940, they found Capek’s gospel of the inherent worth and beauty of every human person to be — as Nazi court records show — “… too dangerous to the Reich [for him] to be allowed to live.” Capek was sent to Dachau, where he was killed the next year during a Nazi “medical experiment.” This gentle man suffered a cruel death, but his message of human hope and decency lives on through his Flower Communion, which is widely celebrated today. It is a noble and meaning-filled ritual we arc about to recreate. This service includes the original prayers of Capek to help us remember the principles and dreams for which he died.

Consecration of Flowers
by Norbert Capek

Infinite Spirit of Life, we ask thy blessing on these, thy messengers offellowship and love. May they remind us, amid diversities of knowledge and of gifts, to be one in desire and affection, and devotion to thy holy will. May they also remind us of the value of comradeship, of doing and sharing alike. May we cherish friendship as one of thy most precious gifts. May we not let awareness of another’s talents discourage us, or sully our relationship, but may we realize that, whatever we can do, great or small, the efforts of all of us are needed to do thy work in this world.

Homily 
“Whistling With a Shoe Full of Slush”
It Could Be Worse

A long time ago, there was a family that lived happily in a small, quiet house in Poland. One day they learned that the grandparents were coming to live with them. The child was very excited about this, and so were the parents. But the parents worried because their house was very small. They knew that when the grandparents arrived, the house would become crowded and much noisier.

The farmer went to ask the rabbi what to do. The rabbi says, “Let them come.”

So the grandparents move in. They have a lot of furniture, which goes in the living room, where they sleep, and in some other rooms, too. It is crowded and noisy in the house so the farmer goes back to the rabbi: “I did what you said, Rabbi. Now my in-laws are here. And it is really crowded in the house.”

The rabbi thinks for moment. Then he asks, “Do you have chickens?”

“0f course I have chickens,” says the farmer.

“Bring them into the house,” says the rabbi.

The farmer is confused, but he knows the rabbi is very wise. So he goes home, and brings all the chickens to live inside the house with the family. But, it is no less crowded and noisy. In fact, it is worse, with the clucking, and pecking, and flapping of wings.

The farmer goes back to the rabbi. “I did what you said, Rabbi. Now with my in-laws and the chickens, too, it is really crowded in the house.”

The rabbi thinks for moment. Then he asks, “Do you have any goats?”

“0f course I have goats,” says the farmer.

“Bring them into the house,” says the rabbi.

The farmer is confused, but he knows the rabbi is very wise. He brings all the goats from the barn to live inside the house. It is no less crowded and noisy. In fact, it is much worse, with the chickens clucking and flapping their wings, and the goats baa-ing and butting their heads against the walls and one another.

The next day, the farmer goes back to the rabbi. “I did what you said, Rabbi. Now my in-laws have no place to sleep because the chickens have taken their bed. The goats are sticking their heads into everything and making a lot of noise.”

The rabbi thinks. He looks very puzzled. Then he says, “Aha! You must have some sheep.”

“0f course I have sheep,” says the farmer.

“Bring them into the house,” says the rabbi.

The farmer knows the rabbi is very wise. So he brings the sheep inside. It is no less crowded and noisy. In fact, it is much, much worse. The chickens are clucking and flapping their wings, the goats are baa-ing and butting their heads. The sheep are baa-ing, too, and one sat on the farmer’s eyeglasses and broke them. The house is loud and crazy and it is starting to smell like a barn.

Completely exasperated, the farmer goes back to the rabbi. “Rabbi,” he says, “I have followed your advice. I have done everything you said. Now my in-laws have no place to sleep because the chickens are laying eggs in their bed. The goats are baa-ing and butting their heads, and the sheep are breaking things. The house smells like a barn.”

The rabbi frowned. He closed his eyes and thought for a long time. Finally he said, “This is what you do. Take the sheep back to the barn. Take the goats back to the barn. Take the chickens back to their Coop.”

The farmer ran home and did exactly as the rabbi had told him. As he took the animals out of the house, his child and wife and in-laws began to tidy up the rooms. By the time the last chicken was settled in her coop, the house looked quite nice. And, it was quiet. All the family agreed their home was the most spacious, peaceful, and comfortable home anywhere.

When I hear this story, I think it would be easy to assume that the lesson it’s trying to teach us is not to complain about our lives, no matter how inconvenient, but I don’t think that’s the point at all.

Dissatisfaction is part of being human. We will always have reasons to complain if someone is ready to hear them. It’s much harder to look for joy and for possibilities.

A while back, I started thinking about today and how it has been a year since our last Flower Communion celebration, a time when we celebrate the return of Springtime — of new life and new beginnings. Flowers are blooming on our cactus and baby birds are popping their tiny heads out of nests. City swimming pools and snow cone stands have opened up, in anticipation of all of the kids who are one grade older, this week or last!

These are all exciting things definitely worth celebrating, but as is human nature, I couldn’t help but think about all that’s happened in the past year. It has been a doozy: all the sad and awful things that have happened in the world, in our country, in Texas, all the loved ones who have died from this very church community… It makes a small house full of barn animals seem like a Zen retreat! I looked up “quotes about Springtime” to try and find some inspiration for today’s celebration and found this one by Doug Larson, “Spring is when you feel like whistling even with a shoe full of slush.”

That seemed perfect. Although spring here in Austin has meant torrential rains and not the slushy mess that it did for the northeast, but we are still a-whistlin’. We can think of so many disappointments, stresses, and tragedies to weigh down our proverbial slushy shoes, and yet we whistle on. We whistle to the tune of forward-thinking, of taking a stand when we know that something is wrong, of inspiring others to do the same. We lift our heads and whistle about hope for tomorrow and resolve for today.

We whistle because life has beauty beyond despair and joy beyond grief. We don’t whistle to forget that our shoes are filled with slush or to ignore the discomfort of it all. We whistle so that we don’t get stuck in hopelessness and grief and disappointment. We whistle because there is still so much for us to do, because being together is wonderful, because flowers are still blooming, because so many reasons…

A much-loved Mexican folk song, Cielito Lindo, sings, “Ay, ay, ay, ay Canta y no llores. Porque cantando se alegran, Cielito Lindo, los corazones.” Which roughly means, “La, la, la, la Sing and cry no more. Because singing gladdens the heart, my pretty darling.”

Whistle on. There is so much room in this tiny house. Let’s celebrate the hope of spring.

Flower Communion

It is time now for us to share in the Flower Communion. I ask that as you each in turn approach the communion vase you do so quietly–reverently–with a sense of how important it is for each of us to address our world and one another with gentleness, justice, and love. I ask that you select a flower — different from the one you brought — that particularly appeals to you. As you take your chosen flower — noting its particular shape and beauty — please remember to handle it carefully. It is a gift that someone else has brought to you. It represents that person’s unique humanity, and therefore deserves your kindest touch. Let us share quietly in this Unitarian Universalist ritual of oneness and love.


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Goldilocks and Elijah

Rev. Meg Barnhouse
May 24, 2015

Next in our sermon series on fairy tales, Rev. Meg explores the story of “Goldilocks and the Three Bears.” What does this story say about sharing? Manners? Entitlement? Home invasion? How welcoming are we called to be? Are we Goldilocks or are we the bears? And what does all of this have to do with Elijah of the Old Testament?


I was raised by a father who trusted the government. I was a teenager when Watergate happened, and I remember him saying “The President would not do something like this without a good reason. You can bet he knows more than we do about secret things, and I’m sure his reason for doing this was related to something we’re just not in a position to know.” My mother did not trust the government. She had grown up in India, and told us that you had to leave gifts for the mail man or he would “lose” your mail. Talking to the police one afternoon, she asked them “how late are you open?”

“Lady, this is the police station,” they said. “We’re always open.” She loved studying the American Revolution, though. In ninth grade had a history teacher from Great Britain who told us the Boston Massacre was when scared 17 year old British boys got hurt by angry Colonials who put big rocks into snowballs and were lobbing them at the British boys. Who opened fire. My mother was hopping mad about that one. I think she called the school, even though she was a teacher and generally disapproved of parents complaining to the school about teachers.

My father’s three other siblings were politically more radical. My Aunt Ruth, the Episcopal priest who taught in Dallas at Perkins Seminary, refused to put her social security number on anything. Not at a doctor’s office, not on a loan application, never. She gave me dire warnings about doing it. The other sister, Aunt Dorothy, lived in Nicaragua for a while after the Sandinistas took power, working as a Spanish-German translator. My dad shook his head over both of them and said they had been duped by the Communists.

I had college professors who’d been duped by the Communists as well, and they taught us about how the US government had supported certain corporations playing Goldilocks in South and Central America. Once they started lining it out for us, it was hard not to see corruption everywhere. We were taught about the origin of the term “Banana Republic.” It’s a contemptuous term for a country where the government is a puppet dictatorship set up for the enrichment of the dictator and the companies for whom he works. The United Fruit Company was frequently accused of bribing government officials in Central and South America in exchange for their support of the giant banana plantations. They were accused of exploiting their workers, paying negligible taxes to the governments of those countries, and working ruthlessly to suppress land rights for the people who farmed the land of those countries.

Latin American journalists sometimes referred to the company as el pulpo (“the octopus”), and its exploitation of workers was used by the communist activists to illustrate the concept of capitalist imperialism. Senator, then Secretary of State John Foster Dulles, in the Eisenhower administration, was a stern anti-Communist. The more you learn, though, the more his motives seem cloudy/complex/corrupt. His law firm, Sullivan & Cromwell, negotiated the land giveaways to the United Fruit Company in Guatemala and Honduras. His brother, Allen Dulles also did legal work for UF and sat on its board of directors. Allen Dulles became the head of the CIA under Eisenhower. Both Dulles brothers were on the UF payroll for 38 years. Conflict of interest? Henry Cabot Lodge, who was US Ambassador to the UN, owned a big chunk of UF stock; Ed Whitman, the UF public relations man, was married to Ann Whitman, Eisenhower’s personal secretary.

Cohen, Rich (2012). The Fish that Ate the Whale. New York: Farrar, Straus & Giroux. p. 186.

The company claimed that they needed large tracts of extra land that they didn’t plan bananas on just in case of hurricanes or blight. Through close involvement with the government, they managed to keep the government from distributing land to farmers who wanted a share of the banana business. This creation or augmentation of government corruption, encouraging service to US interests, led to writer O. Henry coining the term “Banana Republic.” The United Fruit Company dominated regional transportation networks through its International Railways of Central America. UFCO branched out in 1913 by creating the Tropical Radio and Telegraph Company. They improved ports, built schools for people who worked for them. They discouraged the building of highways in order to support the railroads.

In 1954, the democratically elected Guatemalan government was toppled by U.S.-backed forces armed, trained and organized by the U.S. Central Intelligence Agency. (see Operation PBSUCCESS).

UFCO (the only corporation at the time to have a CIA code name, was the largest Guatemalan landowner and employer, and the newly overthrown government’s land reform included the expropriation of 40% of UFCO land.

We don’t have time this morning to go over all of the instances in which our government has destabilized other countries, whether trying to do something good or making those places safe for US business interests.

The US has been Goldilocks in many bears’ homes, grabbing what we want, breaking things here and there, then bribing the bear governments to make it legal for Goldilocks to keep coming in and taking whatever she wants. We have not been very good guests. In looking after the interests of the shareholders of some corporations, we have destabilized the homes and homelands of many people around the world.

Goldilocks is the story of a bad guest, who takes and breaks and doesn’t observe boundaries.

Here is the story I’d like to pair with Goldilocks, the story of a great guest.

From The Folk Literature of the Kurdistani Jews: An Anthology. Yona Sabar. (New Haven and London: Yale University Press, ©1982), 153-54.
http://www.yale.edu/yup

Once upon a time there lived a husband and wife who were very poor and had nothing at all in their house. The wife, who was pregnant, gave birth to a son at ten o’clock at night, but she had nothing with which to wrap the tender babe. The poor father groaned and cried, “We have no clothes, not even some wool, to cover the babe, and he may die by morning.”

Suddenly a man appeared, stood at the entrance to the room, and said, “Peace be upon you! Do you have some straw to lend me? My wife has just given birth, and we have nothing to lay the child on. He may die of the cold.” The couple replied, “We are very poor, but we do have some straw. If you want it, please take it.”

The man took his cloak, (the Hebrew word is tallit, “prayer shawl” or “cloak”) filled it with straw, thanked the couple, and went off. As he stepped outside he threw the straw down next to the door, but the couple did not notice. After the stranger had left, the husband said to his wife, “Look how rich we are! There are people who do not have even straw, and we are rich compared with them.”

In the morning the husband got up, went outside, and found there many silver and gold dinars. He called his wife and said to her, “Look how much silver and gold we have behind the door!” They realized then that the man who came at night to ask for straw was none other than the prophet Elijah, of blessed memory, and that the straw had turned into silver and gold.

The husband went to the marketplace and bought the necessities for his home, and the rest of the money he hid away in a vessel, saying to his wife, “Let us flee from this town, for its people are wicked and jealous. If they learn that we have become rich, they will slay us.”

So they fled to a town where no one knew them, and there they asked, “Is it possible to build here a fine, good house?” A man replied, “I have such a fine, good house. If you like it, well and good; if not, do not buy it.”

The couple decided to buy the house. In the evening they went to look at it. As they walked through the rooms, they noticed a bulge in one of the walls. The wife touched it with her finger, and behold, the stone moved from its place and revealed an opening in the wall full of silver and gold. The husband said to his wife, “Look, God has granted us even more than before.”

The next day the couple were about to talk to the landlord, but he said to them, “I am the same man to whom you gave straw, and I changed it into gold. That gold was the good luck of your son. This house is your own good luck, and the bulge in the wall is your wife’s good luck. May you live in happiness and good fortune. please know that I, the prophet Elijah, am blessing you.” Having finished his statement, the prophet Elijah ascended in flight to heaven. We have been asked to provide sanctuary for a guest.

There is nothing like a genuine call to ministry to snap things back into focus. By now you will have heard that we have been offered the opportunity to take a Guatemalan LGGBT activist in and provide her with sanctuary until her deportation order is lifted. She is eligible for a U-Visa, since she has been helpful to police here in prosecuting a crime. Her lawyer missed a paperwork deadline, so she spent seven months in detention before her partner (also undocumented, and a trans-person) could raise the money for the required 15,000.00 bond.

She must appear for deportation by June 11. The police must document her help in order for her deportation order to be rescinded, but that might take as much as 90 days, after the Juke 11 deadline. I’m giving you my best interpretation of the story as I currently understand it, as of this writing.

The request for sanctuary was brought to us suddenly. The Board of Trustees had a rich and soul-searching discussion, the sense of which, at the end can be summed up quoting one Board member. “If we don’t do this, then what DO we do?”

As Presbyterian colleague, Jim Rigby said to me as we talked about this situation, it is hard to be prepared fully when the “prophetic moment” presents itself, the moment when you are asked to walk your talk. “Your church said ‘yes,’ and then figured out how to do it. That makes you a prophetic church. Other churches say ‘Let’s figure out how to do this’ before they say ‘yes.’ That makes them traditional churches.

Much more will be communicated, and a conversation will begin among us about whether we want to just do this once or become a Sanctuary Church like so many UU, Methodist, Presbyterian, Roman Catholic and Quaker congregations did during the ’80’s. Please research “The Sanctuary Movement,” if you’d like to know more. This is a well-educated, smart and delightful civil rights activist we have a chance to support. Although we surely are not of one mind about immigration issues, we can step up and protect this one new friend.


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Youth Service – Expressions of the Soul

The Youth of First UU Austin
May 17, 2015

We honor our graduating seniors and incoming freshman with our annual Bridging Ceremony. Join Rev. Mari Caballero and our talented and insightful youth group for “Expressions of the Soul.” They’ll lead us in pondering the various ways by which we convey our soul’s deepest aspects in our lives.


Text of this sermon is not available. You may listen to the homilies of three of our graduating seniors; Ana Runnels, Mary Emma Gary, and Kate Windsor by clicking the play button.


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Inhospitality to Strangers

Rev. Chris Jimmerson
May 10, 2015

On this Mother’s Day, not far from here, hundreds of immigrant mothers are being held in a detention facility, separated from their children and loved ones. Just a little farther away, immigrant women and their children — some as young as three — are also being held in detention, many of them for months at a time. How do we view this ethically and religiously, especially through the lens of our religious values and our mission? Join Rev. Chris Jimmerson as we examine “Inhospitality to Strangers.”


Sermon

“Do not neglect to show hospitality to strangers, for thereby some have entertained angels unawares.” Hebrews Chapter 13, Verse 2.

This morning, I want to recall a story some of you may have heard me tell before – a story from several years ago when I was working for a non-profit that provides immigration legal services called American Gateways. It’s the story of an asylum seeker who I will call Mykel, though that is not his real name. Mykel fled his home country with a family member because they were being persecuted, even receiving death threats, due to their religious beliefs.

When they arrived in the US, they immediately contacted immigration officials and asked for asylum.

Immigration officials immediately locked them up in an immigrant detention center.

That’s where we first Mykel, at the T. Don Hutto immigrant detention facility in Taylor, Texas.

He was two years old at the time. He turned three during the 7 months he and his mother were held in this facility, which at the time was used to imprison entire immigrant families.

Just after Mykel turned three, we represented them before the San Antonio immigration court, and the judge granted them asylum.

We did not get to celebrate though. The attorney for Immigrations and Customs Enforcement (or ICE) promptly appealed the judge’s decision.

They locked shackles on Mykel’s mother’s wrists and ankles, as he sobbed in terror, not understanding what they were doing to his mom, and took them back to the prison for immigrants.

Mykel’s mom refused to give up and accept being deported, so we decided to try something different.

A few days later, we had a conference call with that ICE attorney, and all of the sudden, he decided to withdraw the appeal and admitted that their request for asylum was likely valid.

We think part of his change of heart might have had something to do with the call he had gotten from a national reporter earlier that day.

How that reporter found about Mykel’s story, and how she got that attorney’s direct office phone number remains shrouded in mystery.

Several years later, Mykel was living in a large city on the east coast, where his mother had gotten a good job. He had become very proficient with English and was doing well in school.

We know this, because Mykel’ s mom sent American Gateways a letter with an update on how they were doing. “

Enclosed with the letter was a photograph of a bright, smiling Mykel. Paper clipped to the photograph was a check for a thousand dollars, a contribution to, as Mykel’ s mom put it, help the organization help others like her Mykel.

“Thereby some have entertained angels unawares.”

Today is Mother’s Day. And while we celebrate the many terrific moms in this congregation and beyond it, as the reading you heard earlier describes, there are folks who are also hurting for a variety of reasons on this Mother’s Day.

I am painfully aware of my own mom and how she must be hurting because it is the first Mother’s Day since we lost my step dad, Ty.

I wanted to start with Mykel’ s story today, because it was one that was a part of a public relations and legal battle that a broad coalition of human rights advocates fought several years ago to force ICE to discontinue family detention at T. Don Hutto.

And they did. We won that one.

On this Mother’s Day though, the victory has turned out to be short lived. We have not only come full circle, it has gotten much worse now.

Today, hundreds of immigrant women and their children, some of them infants, are spending Mother’s Day imprisoned in a detention facility in Karnes City, about an hour southeast of San Antonio. Many of these women and children have been held there for eight months or more. Many of them, like Mykel and his mom, fled persecution and death threats in their home country, only to be re-traumatized when they came to the U.S. seeking asylum, asking for our help.

As if that’s not enough, a little over an hour to the southwest of San Antonio in Dilley, Texas, ICE has just opened another detention facility, which will eventually imprison up to 2,400 immigrants, most of whom will also be women and children. Just last Saturday, several members of this church participated in a rally to protest this facility and call for and end to all immigrant family detention.

The T. Don Hutto Center now houses up to 400 immigrant women, again many of them asylum seekers, who will be spending this Mother’s Day separated from their children and families. It’s hard for me to even imagine which would be worse – being separated from your children or knowing that they will be locked up with you for some unknown period of time.

People who come to the U.S. and ask for asylum have done nothing illegal- in fact, what is illegal according to U.S. law and international human rights treaties is this prolonged detention of asylum seekers while their cases are processed.

And even in the vast majority of instances where immigrants have come for other reasons, such as harsh economic conditions in their countries of origin, they have at most committed an immigration law misdemeanor, the equivalent of getting a traffic ticket. I wonder what would happen if they started holding white people in prison for eight months while their speeding ticket cases got processed.

Excellent research shows that supervised, community-based alternatives to immigrant detention work extremely well. Immigrants comply with the law, showing up for their immigration court and other appointments. These alternatives are also far less expensive than the over 2 billion in U.S. tax dollars we are spending each year on immigration detention.

Yet, for-profit prison companies, like the GEO Group and Corrections Corporation of America, who run Karnes City and Dilley respectively, have discovered that the millions they spend on lobbying at the local, state and federal level to make sure the United States remains the prison capital of the world has been a great investlnent in light of the billions in our tax dollars they rake in every year. Their efforts have resulted in a U.S. incarceration rate nearly 5 times greater than most other countries. They have successfully lobbied, for instance, for congress to require that over 34,000 immigrants Inust be imprisoned at any given time. They were also involved in ICE declaring that the women and children in Karnes and Dilley are national security threats.

Strange how often the people we label as dangerous felons and national security threats happen to have brown and black skin, isn’t it?

Felicia Kongable, one of several of our church members who visit immigrant women and children in local detention facilities, described the following to me about the Karnes City Facility:

– Women who have risked everything to follow their maternal instincts and get their children out of life-threatening situations only to find themselves locked up with up to three other women and all of their children in a room about the size of my office here at the church.

– Infants not being allowed to crawl past the doorway of such rooms.

– Water that tastes like salt and chlorine

– Food that the children do not like and that does not provide proper nutrition for them at this important developmental stage.

– Mothers having to spend the tiny amount they earn doing work for the prison to buy their kids other food from the commissary and bottled water at $1.75 per bottle.

– When many of the women went on a hunger strike to protest their prolonged confinement, they made sure their children still ate. Still, the guards told them, if you don’t eat, we’ll say that it proves you are an unfit mother and we’ll take your children away from you.

– Children depressed. Children distraught over seeing their mothers treated like criminals, subjected to numerous cell counts throughout the day.

– An interior courtyard surround on all four sides by two story building walls as the only outside area for children, where they cannot even see trees or the horizon.

– Children talking about committing suicide by jumping off the second story balcony.

And in fact, Felicia and the others I talked with for this sermon told me of so many horrors that these women and their children had experienced, first in their home countries and then at the hands of our government and these private prison contractors, that I cannot possibly fit them all in one sermon. Even worse, immigration official are denying most asylum cases and issuing deportation orders for entire families, despite the fact that these families are clearly facing severe threats and possible murder if returned to their home countries.

I wish I could let these immigrants speak for themselves today also. They have shown such great courage. I can share with you, with their permission, the words of one of them wrote down.

“My name is Bobbie (not his real name-I changed it) and I am eleven years old. I have been threatened and taunted because I have a language problem. Children at school have teased me, bullied me, hit me and taken my money.

At times I would come home from school with my clothes torn and dirty and I would be so depressed that I didn’t want to leave the house and never wanted to go back to school.

These schoolmates are part of a gang who were also extorting money from my mother. Even the neighbors (believed to be members of the same gang) threatened to harm me and my family. They have said they would kill me because they think I am a homosexual. When my sister tried to defend me, she too became the target of mistreatment and threats.

As children with a woman alone, there is no one to protect us. If I have to go back, we believe that the gangs will follow through on their threats and harm us – because they can. The police are either unwilling or unable to assist us and so we are defenseless in our country.”

When Bobbie’s mother brought him and his sister here to ask for asylum, we locked them up in the Karnes City detention center, despite the fact that they had been issued an initial finding of a credible fear of being harmed or killed if they return to their home country.

“Do not neglect to show hospitality to strangers, for thereby some have entertained angels unawares.”

And yet we do the opposite. We bind the angels, and we clip their wings and far too often we toss them back into a torturous hell on earth.

When I was a kid in school, we were taught about episodes in U.S. history that had come to be thought of as stains on the soul of the nation.

– The slaughter and subjugation of natives.
– Slavery, of course.
– Jim Crowe.
– Lynching.
– Imperialism
– McCarthyism
– The Japanese internment camps.

And in our time, I fear that the polluting of our national soul is escalating, a cancer spreading through our very core. The disproportionate execution of black lives by law enforcement, a criminal justice and corrections system gone wild and these modern day internment camps imposed upon immigrant women and their children, these are all just different manifestations of that same cancer – a cancer rooted in racist and classist systems that in turn support an excessively unequal distribution of wealth and power.

But on this Mother’s Day, in this, our time, I think we have a choice. After all, we are still living in our time.

And we can rise up together, a chorus of voices crying out in harmony, “This is not the history we will allow to be written. This is not the story we will allow to be told about our time.”

This will not continue in our name. This will not be done with our taxes.

This makes a mockery of the values we were taught are at the core of our nation.

This violates the principals that we affirm and promote as Unitarian Universalists.

We have a different vision – a vision of beloved community wherein all people are enabled to live lives of dignity, where we act from a spirit that there is enough for each of us rather than out of a culture of scarcity.

We have a vision of offering hospitality to strangers, treating them as if they might well be angels among us.

Now, I know that challenges like these can seem so huge and overwhelming. It is easy to loose hope. It easy to feel that one person cannot possibly make a difference.

I will tell you there is hope. We have won against family detention before. A federal district judge has recently issued a preliminary ruling that immigrant family detention must stop. The final ruling is in less than 30 days, and no doubt the private prison contractors and the forces that fear the stranger will be working hard to appeal or find other ways around this ruling. So now is the time to make our voices heard.

At the social action table today after the service, you can meet a representative of Grassroots Leadership, one of our partners fighting against family detention, and get information about how you can get involved in their efforts, as well as those of many of our other partners. While you’re there, be sure to find out about the immigration action group “Inside Amigos” we are forming right here at the church.

From participating in campaigns to call for an end to family detention, to visiting these women and children, to supporting their legal costs, to providing backpacks with supplies for the kids if they do get released, our many al1d varying efforts all added together really can make a difference.

On this Mother’s Day, in this, our time, in the history that is yet to be written, we have never had a greater opportunity, never been called more to nourish souls, transform lives and do justice. May this be so. May this be the story that we write together. See you at the social action table.

Benediction

Now, as we go out into our world;
May the covenant that binds us together dwell in your heart and nourish your days,
May the mission that we share inspire your thoughts and light your way,
May the spirit of this beloved community go with you until next we are gathered again.


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Choosing to Bless the World

Meg Barnhouse
May 5, 2015

The poem “Choosing to Bless the World” by Rebecca Parker is the subject of this Sunday’s sermon. “Your gifts – whatever you discover them to be – can be used to bless or curse the world… What will you do with your life’s gifts?”


Sermon:

Rebecca Parker, who recently retired as President of the UU seminary in Berkeley wrote a beautiful poem that is the text of my sermon this morning. It’s titled “Choosing to Bless the World.” Just the title would have set my people off, the people of my childhood religion. “Hate the world,” is what their Scripture says in one place, and they take that seriously. “Worldly” is a word used for someone who likes this place too much, who knows fine wines or good clothes.

In a newsletter I just got from a spiritual teacher I’ve learned from in the past, she’s now saying that you need to realize everything is an illusion. I just don’t know how that helps. How is it good to live in this live with the people on this planet and spend that life trying to rise above, trying to believe that none of it’s real?

 

CHOOSING TO BLESS THE WORLD
by Rebecca Parker

PART ONE

Your gifts-whatever you discover them to be-
can be used to bless or curse the world.

The mind’s power,
The strength of the hands,
The reaches of the heart,
The gift of speaking, listening, imagining, seeing, waiting

Any of these can serve to feed the hungry,
Bind up wounds,
Welcome the stranger,
Praise what is sacred,
Do the work of justice
Or offer love.

Any of these can draw down the prison door,
Hoard bread,
Abandon the poor,
Obscure what is holy,
Comply with injustice
Or withhold love.

You must answer this question:
What will you do with your gifts?

Choose to bless the world.

 

Many of us have spent the last week thinking and feeling about Baltimore, about more evidence of the brutality of some law enforcement officers toward people of color. We’ve heard the voices asking why it took destruction of property to bring the nation’s attention to the protests, when the peaceful protests have been ongoing but ignored. We’ve wondered why it took a video from South Carolina of an officer shooting an unarmed man in the back as he was running away, then planting evidence at the scene to make us white folks acknowledge that sometimes the police officer will lie about what happened. My heart is broken over and over as another unarmed black man is given an unofficial death sentence for a petty crime, or for no crime at all. I feel rage.

What are we to do? Do we despise people and hate this world? Do we sneer at our neighbors who dance and have drinks on the patio in this beautiful weather as if nothing bad were happening? They have forgotten about the girls living in captivity with Boko Haram. They aren’t thinking about the filth pouring into our ground water. They aren’t aware of the helpless victims of the earthquake in Nepal.

No, we don’t sneer at our neighbors. In fact, we join them on the patio for drinks and we dance under the trees in our Texas spring. There is ugliness in the world, and beauty too. It has always been this way.

 

PART TWO

The choice to bless the world can take you into solitude
To search for the sources of power and grace;
Native wisdom, healing, and liberation.

More, the choice will draw you into community,
The endeavor shared,
The heritage passed on,
The companionship of struggle,
The importance of keeping faith,
The life of ritual and praise,
The comfort of human friendship,
The company of earth
The chorus of life welcoming you.

None of us alone can save the world.
Together-that is another possibility waiting.

 

We choose to bless the world here at First UU with an endeavor shared. Our mission is our endeavor. We ask as a community how to bless the world. We choose to bless the world with “a heritage passed on.” We teach our history, the wisdom and bravery of our forbearers, the justice they accomplished. We live ritual and praise. Those rituals help us save the world. We light candles, we sing together, we teach the children or support those who do. We bid one another goodbye when the time comes.

We have had a lot of loss in this congregation this year. We’ve lost people who are very dear to us. We gather in community so that our grief can be shared, so that our memories can be shared as well, so that we can tell stories together.

We remind one another that love does not die with death. We keep loving the people we loved, even though they are physically gone. We sit out in the spring evenings and enjoy the life of our town, our friends, enjoy the parts of our bodies that work well, because it would be wrong to give up enjoyment to grief, to give up living to fight the powers. Yet we do gather to fight the powers of injustice. We share that struggle as well. It’s a good thing, too, since one voice raised for gun safety, one voice raised for fairness for immigrants? one voice raised for more accountability in policing is not heard the way a gathered voice is heard.

When we become “the yellow shirts,” as some people call us, when we go talk to legislators or stand witness at detention centers or repair someone’s home or shelter homeless men in the winter, our presence is felt. And we can have joy in doing those things when we do them together. We can have fun.

 

PART THREE

The choice to bless the world is more than an act of will,
A moving forward into the world
With the Intention to do good.
It is an act of recognition, a confession of surprise, a grateful acknowledgment
That in the midst of a broken world
Unspeakable beauty, grace and mystery abide.

There is an embrace of kindness that encompasses all life, even yours.

 

We have all had experiences of the embrace of kindness. I am hoping that we can practice kindness as energetically as we practice being right: about grammar, history and politics. We are so right. It’s fun to be right. Let’s see if we can feel the embrace of kindness encompass all life. Even ours. But that kindness is for all beings, and it demands a guardian attitude sometimes, sometimes a witnessing to what is right, a standing with those who are wronged, a “benevolent rage.”

 

PART FOUR

And while there is injustice, anesthetization, or evil
There moves
A holy disturbance,
A benevolent rage,
A revolutionary love,
Protesting, urging, insisting
That which is sacred will not be defiled.
Those who bless the world live their life as a gesture of thanks
For this beauty
And this rage.

 

We are grateful for the beauty and the rage.

My faith (and I may be wrong) leads me to live here in the world, to turn my attention to loving it, to living in the body, not transcending it, not wandering through as if it were all an illusion. Wanting to make it better while we are here. I think we UUs are called to bless the world. Ours is not an other worldly faith, it is a this-worldly faith. Most people use the word “bless” to mean send good wishes. The I Ching says to bless means to help. The Hebrew for blessing “bareich” means to draw God down into a thing, a person or a situation, to expand it with the Holy, to saturate it with the Divine.

This world can break your heart. Time will break your body. We can choose to bless and not to curse with all the powers left to us.

We can bless the world by praying, by saying blessings, by loving, by working to make things better, by writing checks, depending on our time of life, and on our temperament, and on the calling of our soul. We will take a little time to bless the person to our right, then our left. Think good thoughts, wish good things, pray for them by holding them in light or wrapping them in sacred dark or however you do it.

Let me close with part of a poem by Marge Piercy:

 

THE ART OF BLESSING THE DAY (excerpt)
by Marge Piercy

But the discipline of blessings is to taste
each moment, the bitter, the sour, the sweet
and the salty, and be glad for what does not
hurt. The art is in compressing attention
to each little and big blossom of the tree
of life, to let the tongue sing each fruit,
its savor, its aroma and its use.

Attention is love, what we must give
children, mothers, fathers, pets,
our friends, the news, the woes of others.
What we want to change we curse and then
pick up a tool. Bless whatever you can
with eyes and hands and tongue. If you
can’t bless it, get ready to make it new.

 


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The impossible Task

Rev. Meg Barnhouse
April 26, 2015

Second in our fairy tale sermon series, “Rumpelstiltskin” tells the story of a girl asked to spin straw into gold. She meets a trickster who solves her problem, but at what price? Rev. Meg recalls the tale of “The Impossible Task.”


Rumpelstiltskin

Once there was a miller who was poor, but who had a beautiful daughter. Now it happened that he had to go and speak to the king, and in order to make himself appear important he said to him, “I have a daughter who can spin straw into gold.”

The king said to the miller, “That is an art which pleases me well, if your daughter is as clever as you say, bring her tomorrow to my palace, and I will put her to the test.”

And when the girl was brought to him he took her into a room which was quite full of straw, gave her a spinning-wheel and a reel, and said, “Now set to work, and if by tomorrow morning early you have not spun this straw into gold during the night, you must die.”

Thereupon he himself locked up the room, and left her in it alone. So there sat the poor miller’s daughter, and for the life of her could not tell what to do, she had no idea how straw could be spun into gold, and she grew more and more frightened, until at last she began to weep.

But all at once the door opened, and in came a little man, and said, “Good evening, mistress miller, why are you crying so?”

“Alas,” answered the girl, “I have to spin straw into gold, and I do not know how to do it.”

“What will you give me,” said the manikin, “if I do it for you?”

“My necklace,” said the girl.

The little man took the necklace, seated himself in front of the wheel, and whirr, whirr, whirr, three turns, and the reel was full, then he put another on, and whirr, whirr, whirr, three times round, and the second was full too. And so it went on until the morning, when all the straw was spun, and all the reels were full of gold.

By daybreak the king was already there, and when he saw the gold he was astonished and delighted, but his heart became only more greedy. He had the miller’s daughter taken into another room full of straw, which was much larger, and commanded her to spin that also in one night if she valued her life. The girl knew not how to help herself, and was crying, when the door opened again, and the little man appeared, and said, “What will you give me if I spin that straw into gold for you?”

“The ring on my finger,” answered the girl.

The little man took the ring, again began to turn the wheel, and by morning had spun all the straw into glittering gold.

The king rejoiced beyond measure at the sight, but still he had not gold enough, and he had the miller’s daughter taken into a still larger room full of straw, and said, “You must spin this, too, in the course of this night, but if you succeed, you shall be my wife.”

Even if she be a miller’s daughter, thought he, I could not find a richer wife in the whole world.

When the girl was alone the manikin came again for the third time, and said, “What will you give me if I spin the straw for you this time also?”

“I have nothing left that I could give,” answered the girl.

“Then promise me, if you should become queen, to give me your first child.”

Who knows whether that will ever happen, thought the miller’s daughter, and, not knowing how else to help herself in this strait, she promised the manikin what he wanted, and for that he once more spun the straw into gold.

And when the king came in the morning, and found all as he had wished, he took her in marriage, and the pretty miller’s daughter became a queen.

A year after, she brought a beautiful child into the world, and she never gave a thought to the manikin. But suddenly he came into her room, and said, “Now give me what you promised.”

The queen was horror-struck, and offered the manikin all the riches of the kingdom if he would leave her the child. But the manikin said, “No, something alive is dearer to me than all the treasures in the world.”

Then the queen began to lament and cry, so that the manikin pitied her.

“I will give you three days, time,” said he, “if by that time you find out my name, then shall you keep your child.”

So the queen thought the whole night of all the names that she had ever heard, and she sent a messenger over the country to inquire, far and wide, for any other names that there might be. When the manikin came the next day, she began with Caspar, Melchior, Balthazar, and said all the names she knew, one after another, but to every one the little man said, “That is not my name.”

On the second day she had inquiries made in the neighborhood as to the names of the people there, and she repeated to the manikin the most uncommon and curious. Perhaps your name is Shortribs, or Sheepshanks, or Laceleg, but he always answered, “That is not my name.”

On the third day the messenger came back again, and said, “I have not been able to find a single new name, but as I came to a high mountain at the end of the forest, where the fox and the hare bid each other good night, there I saw a little house, and before the house a fire was burning, and round about the fire quite a ridiculous little man was jumping, he hopped upon one leg, and shouted –

‘Today I bake, tomorrow brew, the next I’ll have the young queen’s child. Ha, glad am I that no one knew that Rumpelstiltskin I am styled.'”

You may imagine how glad the queen was when she heard the name. And when soon afterwards the little man came in, and asked, “Now, mistress queen, what is my name?”

At first she said, “Is your name Conrad?”

“No.”

“Is your name Harry?”

“No.”

“Perhaps your name is Rumpelstiltskin?”

“The devil has told you that! The devil has told you that,” cried the little man, and in his anger he plunged his right foot so deep into the earth that his whole leg went in, and then in rage he pulled at his left leg so hard with both hands that he tore himself in two.


Sermon

When I was in my twenties I studied dream interpretation with a Jungian analyst who had retired from CT to the mountains near Asheville, NC. She had an enormous Bernese Mountain dog named Rigi who would lean against your knee while you talked. I would bring my dreams to her and she would teach me using my own material. We were discussing the meaning of a dream, and I’d come up with two or three things it could have meant to my life. She was nodding. “Well, is it this one or this other one, do you think?” I asked her. Meg, it’s not usually either/or, she said. It’s often both/and. Or, yes, all.

Here is a young woman who finds herself in trouble because her father bragged – lied – about how gifted she was. “She can spin straw into gold,” he told the king, and she said nothing. Not a peep. Was she intimidated? Scared of her father? Didn’t want to embarrass him? Did she hope that somehow she could figure it out? Did she like that description of herself? The king puts her in the room, not with a sweet “See what you can do, missy,” but “If you don’t make this happen, you’ll die.” Shut into the room full of straw, and tried a couple of spins and realized she couldn’t figure it out.

Sandra Cisneros writes about being in the south of France as a penniless grad student, being invited for dinner by another Latino couple who were going to serve Mexican food. Her hosts assumed she could make tortillas because she was Mexican. Her mother was born in Chicago, and her mother’s people were country folk who made flour tortillas. Her father’s people were middle class from Mexico City, and they went to the corner store for corn tortillas. She had never made one in her life. They tossed corn flour at her and told her to go for it. She thought of that poor girl in the roomful of straw. Then she figured it out. They weren’t pretty, but they tasted ok, her first tortillas.

The Impossible Task is a trope that appears in tales of every culture. The labors of Hercules, Cinderella having to separate spilled peas and lentils before she can go to the ball, Lucy and Ethel at the candy factory.

Our girl broke straw and wept, more and more desperate. No little birds came fluttering in, like they did with Cinderella. She hadn’t helped some ants who came to save the day. She had no kindly fairy godmother who would help her for free.

Her desperation calls out to a little gremlin who appears at her side and offers to help. He asks what she’ll give him to do the job. She gives him her necklace. He spins all of the straw in to lustrous, gleaming gold. The king is pleased. Her father is pleased. How delicious! She gets to keep her life. Does she come clean? No. She lets herself get locked into a larger room with more straw. Straw is good, and it has its uses, but it’s not gold, surely, and the king wanted more gold. Daddy wasn’t willing to rescue his special child, and so she found herself in tears again, faced with an impossible task. The little man comes back, takes her ring this time, and spins the straw into gold. The king and the girl’s dad are so happy! She’s so miserable!

This is a familiar situation to so many of us, especially when we’re young. Over our heads, expectations seeming to force us into taking on more than we can do. We accomplish seemly impossible things, pull them out somehow, with the help of some inspiration, some little bit of magic, some superhuman leap. We write the paper, we pull the all-nighter, we take care of our parent’s emotional needs even though we are only a kid, we close the deal.

It’s a triumph. But it costs. I’m not saying that calling upon that little bit of magic, that superhuman effort, is bad. I’m not saying it’s good. As my teaching analyst would have said, “Meg, it’s a just-so story.” It’s just so. She keeps going. With the final impossible task she is offered the life of her dreams. The stakes have been raised. You will be queen. If there is a child from this marriage, you will give it to me.

She doesn’t know whether the king will marry her, or if she’ll have a child, so she finds herself making a promise. She makes a vow, but doesn’t have all the information. He accomplishes this last impossible task, and the king marries her. He’s so happy about all that gold. She has a child, and loves that child with the power of a parent to love a child. Did she ever think about the little magic man? Who knows? One day, though, he appeared. He said he was there to claim his prize. She offers him necklaces and rings beyond measure, but he wants this love of her life, heart of her heart.

How do you get out of such a bargain? It’s like all the Appalachian Jack tales where Jack has made a deal with the devil to sell his soul. Desperate people do desperate things. When you’re backed into a corner you might marry someone you shouldn’t marry, you might do a crime if you think it will get you out of your mess, you might borrow money from a payday lender, or sell your soul to the devil. Robert Johnson, the blues man, was supposed to have done that. I found an article in a Fantasy magazine about how to cheat the devil if you’d sold your soul and you wanted it back. This little man was a kindly magic man, I think. He gave the queen three days to do the research and find out his name. If she could tell him his name in three days, she could keep her child. I don’t know why he gave her three days. He was within his rights to claim the child right away, but this is how the story goes. The queen is part of us, and the little magic man is part of us. So is the king, and the straw, and the gold. This is a story about naming, about finding your power. She sends her researchers throughout the kingdom to find her answer. As you heard in the story for all ages, for the next two nights the little magic man comes to her to find out if she’s learned his name. She cannot guess it. The third day, though, she’s gotten her answer from one of her hunters, who heard the little man gloating while dancing around his house. She pretends not to know it, but then she nails it!

He gets so mad that he stamps his foot so hard the earth swallows him up and he is never seen again.

Some scholars say this is a story that arose out of the anxiety created by the Industrial Revolution. Girls were leaving their families and working for the first time. They were making gold for the factory owners and they had their own money for the first time. Maybe folks were worried that it would hurt the children. Maybe that it would give the girls too much power. In a Patriarchal culture, independence in females has always caused anxiety.

Or it could be a story about growing up, figuring something out. I think this is a story of the beginning of a journey of the soul. The beginning of a journey from the desperate need to please, the willingness to submit to the expectations of others, at great cost to oneself. The queen has made the journey from scared young woman trying to please everyone to claiming her woman hood, and using all the resources as her command to protect her child and save her own life. She did it by tackling a task that was too much for her: transforming everyday ordinary material into something of value. She needed help doing it, and that help cost her. Lots of us face this. We throw ourselves at a goal, dig deep and make it happen. We get through school, we write books while we take care of our young children. We start businesses, we navigate relationships while working while raising families, we create art which doesn’t bring in any money to speak of, yet in stubbornness we continue and somehow, with help, we make it happen. Much is stripped away from us. We owe people. We get addicted to work or to adrenaline, we constantly balance pleasing others and finding our own authentic work. Our task is to name the beings we owe. Once we name them, they lose much of their power over us. The power of naming is strong in world tales. “The Tao which can be named is not the Tao,” says the Scripture of Taoism. Knowing the name of God is so powerful, the Jewish faith asks that one says “The Lord,” even when the letters of the name of God are there in the Scripture. Salespeople say your name over and over to try to influence you.

I was doing impossible things and realized that the name of the magic helping me was adrenaline. I was an adrenaline junkie and it was costing me. Pride is another little gremlin. I resisted the thought that I was just a human woman. I don’t know why that felt embarrassing to me. When I was a therapist, a young therapist, people would come to me saying “We’ve been through six therapists already. You are our last hope.” That used to hook me. I would work harder on people’s marriages than they did. I’d work harder on a teenager’s health than anyone else in the family would. Finally I realized what it was costing me. Then I became wiser. When people would say “We’ve been through six therapists, and you’re our last hope,” I would say “If six therapists haven’t been able to help you, I probably wont be able to either.” “Just try, ok?” “Ok, I’ll just try.” That was much better.

What is the name of the little bit of magic you use to do impossible things? It’s not bad, it’s not good, but it’s good to know what it’s costing you.

And this whole story takes an ordinary experience and gives it shine and value, it teaches us. If it sticks with you, wrestle with it for a while. If not, let it go and wait for the next one.


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Concepts of the Divine

Rev. Chris Jimmerson
April 25, 2015

Rev. Chris Jimmerson joined by our First UU seminary students deliver homilies on the language of reverence in the first our “We Gather” alternative services. Chris asked each of our three seminarians to offer a short homily on this question: “What does the concept of the divine mean to you?”


Chris Jimmerson’s Homily

Several years ago, Unitarian Universalists began to have a discussion around what we called “a language of reverence”, a religious language that acknowledges our sense of awe and wonder over this spectacular world and universe in which find ourselves. And despite our differing beliefs, and though there is still some debate about the use of such language in our religious communities, this language of reverence has over time seeped into our vernacular.

If you’ve been hanging out with Unitarian Universalists for any time though, have you noticed what we do when we use such language? We go like this:
“God – whatever that means to you. Including nothing at all.”
“Holy – but if you really don’t like that term it’s OK, and we all understand why you might not and would prefer to think of it as, maybe, a sense of wholeness. Perhaps”

Now, the equivocations are understandable. Some of us come out of religious backgrounds that wounded us and within which such terms were wielded like weapons. Others may associate such terms with superstition and a belief in the supernatural they do not hold.

I got to wondering though, what if we could truly reclaim the language of reverence for ourselves? What if we could stop equivocating and just accept that each of us, humanist or theist, Buddhist or earth-centered naturalist – or any other of our many worldviews -just allow each of us to embrace such terms in ways that have meaning and power within our own ways of making sense of our world and our lives.

So, as an experiment, I asked each of our three seminarians to offer a short homily today on this question: “What does the concept of the divine mean to you?”

And yes, “absolutely nothing” was an allowable answer as long as they could follow it with something like, “This is what I think is ultimate – something I am a part of but that is larger than myself.”

Then, I realized that if I was going to ask them to answer such a question, I was going to have to do so also.

“Well, hells bells,” as my grandmother used to say when encountered with something perplexing or difficult.

I realized I can’t define or describe the divine. Rather, it’s an experience I have in this world and in this reality.

It is an experience I have sometimes had while hiking in nature and suddenly having a sense of my smallness in the vastness of things and yet also transcendence because of being a part of that life and creation.

It is an experience I have had when walking down the streets of a bustling city amidst throngs of humanity and suddenly feeling this overwhelming sense of oneness and connection with all of humanity.

And, hells bells, that brings me back to an experience that happened with grandma.

I go back to this story a lot because it is still the strongest of this type of experience that I have ever had.

I was very close with my maternal grandparents. They took care of me and helped raise me after my parents divorced when I was still very young. Later, they welcomed my spouse Wayne into our family with open, loving arms. They wanted him to be at all of our family gatherings and life events, including when the time came that we lost first my grandfather and then my grandmother.

Of course, they knew that we were in a loving, committed, romantic relationship. Grandma used to call us, “Her boys”. Still, we never explicitly discussed the true nature of relationship with them. Grandpa was a Deacon in the First Baptist Church of Groves, TX, after all, a small town in southeast Texas. We learned later that we could have.

Wayne and I were visiting my grandmother in the hospital for what we all knew could be one of the last times. She had congestive heart failure and told her doctors that she only wanted to be kept out of pain – no more treatments; no more resuscitations. We’d had a good long visit, and we went to her bedside to say our goodbyes, she took us both by the hand, looked me right in the eyes and said, “Take care of each other”.

That room filled with love. The love held us. It was like a loving presence was supporting us and comforting us within our connections with each other and all that was and ever will be.

For me, when we get a glimpse of the true depth and expansiveness, the wondrous beauty, of our shared existence, the love that’s possible within the complex, fragile, ever changing web of all existence of which we are part, as we did in that hospital room, the only words I have with enough symbolic power to point toward such experiences are words like “Divine”.

Still, as the Buddhists might say, even then, they are like a finger pointing at the moon, but they are not the moon.

And I’m OK with that. For me, leaving some mystery is a part of it, and so the language of reverence is what best helps me recapture at least something of that sense of awe and wonder – that power to be found within love and human connectedness, this spectacular world and universe within which we find ourselves.

Amen.

Nell Newton – Homily on understanding the divine

Here was the class exercise: turn to a partner and tell that person about your understanding of God. We’re in seminary, so this kind of thing is expected. I turned to my new friend Lyn and we looked at each other. “You go first” “No, you…” Politeness trying to buy time. Why is it that we balk at talking about something so essential?

Lyn jumped in “For me, God is Love. That’s all.” I nodded.

“For me, God is the way that the stars and grass and I are all becoming all at once. The air we are breathing together is God and the way that I’m coming to see how very little separation there is between us, and that all of us are co-creating the universe together. My holy scripture is DNA and I have no real words for what God is but I know it when I stop maintaining this sense of separate self and just breathe…” I paused, terrified that I would now be escorted out of the building for having spoken some heresy. It’s a liberal seminary, but still… I wasn’t quite sure that my sense of the divine was appropriate or safe.

We blinked at each other. Lyn finally said, “Wow… I wish I could talk about my god like that. Now my god feels a little simple.” I grunted “Well, I wish I could have as clear and succinct an understanding as your god. Then we laughed and hugged and agreed that our gods were good enough for who we are. And that is good. And both of our gods were present at that moment. And this moment. And this moment.

There are technical terms for the differences between our understandings of the divine: Kataphatic and Apophatic.

Lyn’s understanding is Kataphatic:
– is a positive way of describing what god is.
– Kataphatic theology and prayer can be summed up by the way it states how god is like something: “God is Love”, “God is relationship”, or “God is good.”
– God can be understood, known, described. That’s positive.

My babbling felt dangerous and useless because my understanding of the divine is Apophatic – which isn’t really negative, but it doesn’t fit into words.
– Apophatic prayer has no content.
– God cannot be known through any analogy or imagery.
– There is no noun or verb or adjective that works.
– So one simply rests with the unknowability, the uncertainty.
– In the Hebrew “Elohim”, a word for the holy, it is plural, but it’s not a noun for a thing- it’s a verb about process. It roughly translates to “We are becoming” or “that which is becoming”. That’s pretty close to my understanding of the divine.

A couple of weeks ago I told Lyn that I had found the correct terms for our theologies. We laughed at how we had both felt so self-conscious talking about our understanding of the holy.

How we each felt that we were inadequate or insufficient to the task. But we weren’t. And how we had found something truly holy in sharing.


Meditation – Drops of God
Tess Baumberger

God, God is water sleeping
in high-piled clouds.
She is gentle drink of rain,
pooling lake, rounding pond,
angry flooding river.
She is frothy horse-maned geyser.
She is glacier on mountains and polar ice cap,
and breath-taking crystalline ideas of snowflakes.
She is frost-dance on trees.
And we, we are drops of God,
her tears of joy or sorrow,
ice crystals
and raindrops
in the ocean of her.

God, God is air wallowing
all about us,
She is thin blue atmosphere embracing
our planet, gentle breeze.
She is wind and fearsome gale
centrifugal force of tornado and hurricane,
flurry of dust storm.
She is breath, spirit, life.
She is thought, intellect, vision and voice.
And we, we are breaths of God,
steady and soft,
changeable and destructive.
We are her laughter and her sighs,
atomic movements,
(sardines schooling)
in the firmament of her.

God, God is fire burning,
day and night.
She is sting of passion,
blinking candle,
heat that cooks our food.
She is fury forest fire
and flow of lava which destroys and creates, transforms.
She is home fire and house fire.
She is giving light of sun and
solemn mirror-face of moon,
and tiny hopes of stars.
And we, we are little licking flames
flickering in her heart,
in the conflagratory furnace of her.

God, God is power of earth,
in and under us.
She is steady, staying,
fertile loam, body, matter, tree.
She is crumbling limestone and shifting sand,
multi-colored marble.
She is rugged boulder and water-smoothed agate,
she is gold and diamond, gemstone.
She is tectonic plates and their motion,
mountains rising over us,
rumble-snap of earthquake,
tantrum of volcano.
She is turning of our day,
root of being.
And we, we are pebbles
and sand grains,
and tiny landmarks,
in the endless terrain of her.
God, God is journal of time marching
through eternity.
She is waking of seasons, phases of moon,
movements of stars.
She is grandmother, mother, daughter.
She is transcending spiral of ages
whose every turn encompasses the rest,
history a mere babe balanced on her hip.
She is spinning of universes
and ancestress of infinence.
She is memory, she is presence, she is dream.
And we, we are brief instants,
intersections, nanoseconds,
flashing gold-hoped moments in the eons of her.
God, God is.
And we, we are.


That Which Holds All
Nancy Shaffer

Because she wanted everyone to feel included
in her prayer,
she said right at the beginning
several names for the Holy:
Spirit , she said, Holy One, Mystery, God.

But then thinking these weren’t enough ways of addressing
that which cannot fully be addressed, she added
particularities, saying,
Spirit of Life, Spirit of Love,
Ancient Holy One, Mystery We Will Not Ever Fully Know,
Gracious God, and also Spirit of this Earth,
God of Sarah, Gaia, Thou.

And then, tongue loosened, she fell to naming
superlatives as well: Most Creative One,
Greatest Source, Closest Hope –
even though superlatives for the Sacred seemed to her
probably redundant, but then she couldn’t stop:

One who Made the Stars, she said, although she knew
technically a number of those present didn’t believe
the stars had been made by anyone or thing
but just luckily happened.

One Who Is an Entire Ocean of Compassion,
she said, and no one laughed.
That Which Has Been Present Since Before the Beginning,
she said, and the room was silent.

Then, although she hadn’t imagined it this way,
others began to offer names.

Peace, said one.
One My Mother Knew, said another.
Ancestor, said a third.
Wind.
Rain.
Breath, said one near the back.
Refuge.
That Which Holds All.
A child said, Water.
Someone said, Kuan Yin.
Then: Womb.
Witness.
Great Kindness.
Great Eagle.
Eternal Stillness.

And then, there wasn’t any need to say the things
she’d thought would be important to say,
and everyone sat hushed, until someone said

Amen.


Note
Additional homilies delivered by Susan Yarbrough and Erin Walter will be added as they become available.


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