A World of Pure Imagination

Rev. Marisol Caballero
March 30, 2014

The way we speak about our beliefs is powerful. Language can either serve to connect or distance us from others, based on our emotional associations with the words chosen by others. We will explore the possibility of religious language as limitless metaphor and poetry.


 

Yesterday, I learned the happy fact that a group pugs is called a grumble. My soon-to-be in-laws are a pug-owning family, so there is a constant grumble underfoot in the kitchen during every major holiday. Being a lover of words and their multiple meanings, I searched out other nouns to describe congregations of animals. Among the best were: a flamboyance of flamingos, a murder of crows, a memory of elephants, a business of ferrets, an unkindness of ravens, a prickle of hedgehogs, and a piteousness of doves. As cute and hilarious as these are, they all make some sense, don’t they? Each collective noun describes either the behavior or an attribute of the animal. I remembered that a colleague’s wife had once named our meeting of a group of ministers a “cackle of ministers.” That’s pretty accurate.

It delights me to think that each of these spot-on collective nouns originated in someone’s imagination and the terms stuck. Among new terms accepted into the Oxford Dictionary are cyberespionage, selfie, and mochaccino. Last week, I was called out by our high school youth for trying to coin the term, “sing-along-ability” when giving them guidance on hymn selection for their upcoming youth-led service.

As many of us do, I love playing with words and giving them new meaning. I am a fool for a good pun. For example, this past couple of weeks, I’ve been under the weather and when the doctor told me that it was caused by a virus, my fiance declared that I had “gone viral.” I can assure you that I have stretched the mileage considerably on that joke.

But, as much as I enjoy entertaining nuanced definitions of familiar words, I can say with some confidence that I am in good company in admitting that I have had some squeamishness around words such as: God, faith, prayer, salvation and sin. Many in this room, no doubt, have come to Unitarian Universalism from other faith traditions who use these terms in specific ways, and many of the ways that they are commonly used have left still, bleeding, gaping wounds on many. That pain, those memories and the suspicion of those who will wield such words as weapons, are real.

Although, in her attempt to find a happy medium between head and heart, my mother did cart us around occasionally between the Catholic Church and every flavor of Protestant Christianity available in Odessa, TX, I had been exposed to Unitarian Universalism early enough that my family’s “church hopping” did not rock my UU foundation. For the most part, I was sure that we would always return to our tiny UU fellowship, where we didn’t have to turn our brains off. At least that is how I saw it, as an inquisitive child. I would have made a terrible “Handmaiden,” too. At our little fellowship, we talked a ton about the beliefs of others’ religions. We learned that, as UU’s, we drew value and wisdom from each. We even had a beautiful mural on the wall, with portraits of prophetic men and women throughout the ages, including Jesus and Mahatma Gandhi, though we didn’t really talk much about the value of Jesus’ teachings.

In West Texas, I experienced some of the worst expressions of Christianity: a P.E. coach telling me that I worshiped the devil in 5th grade, a 7th grade classmate began her six-year attempt at attempting to persuade me to attend her church with her because she was genuinely worried about my soul not making it to Heaven, and, at age seventeen, the rage-filled screams of a disgusted call-center co-worker when she found out that I am gay and she had been sitting next to me for weeks. And, I have heard stories from others that my own seem like a walk in the park.

I, like the many who find their way to UUism, wanted to distinguish myself as much as possible from the Christianity that I had known, that I found myself often explaining my faith by talking about all that UU’s don’t believe in and lacking a clear vocabulary to explain what it is that we actually do believe. I could speak to shared ideals and point to the Principles and Sources, but failed miserably at sharing descriptions of how this faith moves my spirit.

Blogger, John Halstead, touches on this an article published this week entitled, “The Baby is the Bathwater: Why I haven’t joined the Unitarian Church,” “William Ellery Channing, the father of Unitarianism in America, wrote in 1820 that Unitarians had sacrificed “imagination and poetic enthusiasm” to “the rational and critical power”. Emerson bemoaned the lack of enthusiasm in Unitarianism. Theodore Parker decried the absence of a “deep internal feeling of piety”: “Most powerfully preaching to the Understanding, the Conscience, and the Will, the cry was ever, ‘Duty, Duty! Work, Work!’ They failed to address with equal power the Soul, and did not also shout, ‘Joy, Joy! Delight, Delight!'” Orestes Brownson, a Transcendentalist who converted to Catholicism, wrote of Unitarians, that they “had pronounced the everlasting ‘No.’ Were they never to be able to pronounce the everlasting ‘Yes’?” And Unitarian minister, John Trevor, a generation later, regretted the absence of “enthusiasm and personal abandonment” in Unitarianism: “It is the last word of the Old Gospel, sifted small through the riddle of the Intellect; not the first word of the New Gospel, bursting up irresistibly from the Spirit.” These were all men who had great respect for Unitarianism and its ambition to advance social justice, but who found it lacking in something essential.”

In other words, we are great at walking the talk, but we improve on our ability, as Unitarian Universalists, to talk the walk. We need language adequate enough to express and sustain our experience of our transcendent spiritual experiences. In 2002, the then-President of our Unitarian Universalist Association of Congregations, Rev. Bill Sinkford, preached a controversial sermon, “the Language of Reverence,” in which he pointed out that our Seven Principles does not contain one traditionally religious language, but rather focuses on lifting up our shared ethical ideals. He posed the question if this language, while beautiful in its aspirations, was sufficient; if it was “up to the spiritual task [of nurturing and describing “the reality of our religious experience”] and whether we need to expand our lexicon.” Sinkford says, “We believe that our religious theological pluralism is good- it certainly distinguishes us from most of the religious world. But our religious breadth can work against our religious depth.”

In an effort to strengthen the depth of the way we speak about this faith we love, Jeanne Harrison Nieuwejaar explores this topic in her book, “Fluent in Faith: A Unitarian Universalist Embrace of Religious Language.” In it, she acknowledges that, In some congregations, worship and community life may be rich with the lexicon of God, prayer, salvation, and sin. In other congregations, although the hymns and anthems may be replete with words like holy, grace, and soul, it is only in the music that this vocabulary is used. For many, it seems easier to sing these sentiments than to say them. We allow a broader margin for metaphor and poetry in our singing than in our speaking. And, in still other congregations and families, these words may not be merely absent, but shunned.”

Further on, Harrison Nieuwejaar names what I later discovered as I entered St. Edward’s University’s Religious Studies Department and then again when I left Texas to attend a liberal Christian seminary in New York City- there is value in common vocabulary, yes, even in traditionally Judeo-Christian words. If we, as the heady UUs we can be, can relax into our imaginations and consider meanings of such traditional religious words that exist outside of the narrowness of our exposure to fundamentalism, we may avoid our own, flip-side version of fundamentalism and enjoy a greater openness to the spirit.

She says, “even as I urge us to use religious language more broadly, I caution that we must hold these words lightly, using them to point and suggest, not to define. These words will serve us best if we allow them to be elastic, perhaps not meaning precisely to me what they mean to you, or to your Jewish neighbor, or to your Lutheran in-laws, but pointing in the same direction, capturing the essence of a shared experience, a shared longing for a deeper spiritual life. We need to go bravely into the tangle of words, wrestle with them, find which of the traditional words can become useful to us and identify which new words are needed.”

Once, as I was leaving a guest preaching gig at a small lay-led congregation here in Central Texas, a woman from the worship committee ran out after me and said that she was glad that I had spoken about prayer, as she finds that most of the staunchly Secular Humanist congregation has very negative attitudes about such things and she has learned not to bring them up. She asked me for advice on what she could say the next time someone from her church is upset that she adds the language of prayer to the service. I told her to simply introduce the language of prayer to those who dismiss it as nonsense as poetic device. God is a word that can have a concrete understanding, as with the image of a guy in the clouds with a white beard who passes judgment on humanity, but god, with a lower case “g,” can be a metaphorical, nuanced, admittedly limited word that does not correspond to any object, but may correspond to every living thing, or a feeling, or a peace that surpasses all understanding… This word can mean a mountain of layers of meaning and depth that, when we begin to release our defensiveness around it and other religious “trigger” words like it, we may find that we have more in common with members of other faith traditions than we thought.

Muslims, for example, have ninety-nine words in Arabic for Allah. Among them are attributes, such as: The Just, The Awakener, The All-Forgiving, and The Protecting Friend. It is said that there are actually one hundred, but that the last is yet unknown.

Harrison Nieuwejaar asserts that, for UUs, “God has been put in a box and has lost its rich metaphorical meaning. We need to open that box and let an expansive breeze of ideas and images and associations again infuse this language. We need to reclaim textured meanings, but we have a strong cultural tide to row against, a double tide of fundamentalism and atheism. The fundamental views- both theistic and atheistic- are the ones that get the most airtime and thus become accepted as the shared cultural understanding of God.”

When boxed in, words like God, prayer, sin, and salvation can seemingly serve to keep us safe from those whose narrow views of what such words can mean and tuck us away from the memories of such encounters. But, is adopting our own brand of fundamentalism, an “us/them” fervor, helping us to heal and grow and fully enjoy our spirituality to the fullest?

Also, when we restrict the meaning of language of reverence, as Sinkford coined, are we missing the opportunity to build connections with our neighbors through a common vocabulary?

This conversation was all the rage in UU circles in the middle of last decade, but I don’t believe it has yet become passe, as the character of Unitarian Universalism, by and large was to distance ourselves as much as possible from “God language” throughout most of the twentieth century. That just means that we have at least a century’s worth of baggage to now sift through. We have embraced the fallacy that a certain group of people who we love to point fingers at, have sole ownership of this language of reverence, that such language only speaks of the implausible, that we embrace science over myth. We speak as if there exists no awe, mystery, or transcendence in the natural world, as if we never have cause to connect with one another through clumsy, yet movingly authentic attempts at describing the indescribable.

Each of these terms, alone, could be its own sermon. And, indeed, I have spent some time in past sermons teasing out a few of them, but what I would invite us all to do is to fumble around a bit, as awkward and uncomfortable as it might be, with using traditionally religious words to speak of our religious experience. We will try this together. We have before us the expanse of our imaginations’ poetry as well as the infinite possibilities to which the limitations of spoken language restrict us.

I will leave you with the words of the late Rev. Forrest Church, “God is not God’s name. God is our name for that which is greater than all and yet present in each.”


 

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Balance/Equinox

Rev. Meg Barnhouse
March 23, 2014

How do we keep our balance as life around us swirls? Is balance something to be desired, or should we just enjoy the roller coaster ride?

 


Sermon:

BALANCE

The Equinox is a time of balance in the earth’s year. The nights and days are of equal length. It is the still point in the great ebb and flow of light into dark and dark into light again. The light and the dark are among the first things created, according to the Hebrew scriptures. They are both good. They continue today, millions of years later, in the same pattern as when they began. Ancient people noticed four special sun events: the two solstices: the first day of summer, when the days are longest and the nights are shortest, and the first day of winter, the winter solstice, when the nights are longest and the days are shortest, and the two equinoxes, when night and day are the same length.

These four sun holidays are symbolized by a four-armed cross within a circle, called a solar cross. It looks like a wheel, and that is no accident. The turning of the seasons is the turning of the wheel. The wheel of the year turns, IIspring to summer, autumn to winter, and from winter round to spring. II The light and dark are in balance for a day. A moment. The turning of the wheel is continuous, and has been so from the beginning of time. The first turn of the wheel WAS the beginning of time. The first day, the first night, and the wheel has been steady ever since.

The equinox is about the balance of light and dark. Things that are not alive can balance in stillness. Things that are alive must balance in the midst of movement. In the midst of the movement of our lives, we look for a moving balance. A living balance.

Many of us are seeking balance in our lives. We try to balance acceptance and action, sternness and sweetness, talking and listening, taking care of ourselves and taking care of others, confronting things that bother us and ignoring them, trusting and worrying. I get frustrated when we have an idea of balance that has to do with stillness or steadiness or equal parts of this and that. Balance does not mean stasis. I learned in martial arts training that you need to spring into action from a place of balance, otherwise you fall over. You need to accept attack from a place of balance, otherwise you fall over. This is true physically, emotionally, and spiritually. Sometimes I am good at balance, and other times. I am horrible at it. Hey, maybe that could count as a kind of balance…. No?

We all know that balance is a temporary thing. So many things take our balance away. Being rejected, being chewed out, doing something wrong, losing financial stability, failures, loss, change. Finding ways of regaining a moving balance makes us more able to take what life brings.

STANCE

Your stance in life is how you approach life, how you let life approach you .. Are you going to have an adversarial stance toward life? Are you going to act as if everyone out to get you? That your luck is bad, you don’t believe compliments, people can’t be trusted, things are likely not to work out, you’re going to have to work harder than anyone else for things to work out for you?

Are you going to have a fixed, open stance, where you stand all open and vulnerable, not taking care of yourself, allowing others to decide your fate? What happens, happens… you can’t control anything. You don’t try to make anything happen for yourself…. Your mind is open, but you don’t close it on anything, you say “I have my truth and you have your truth” which kind of makes there be no truth.

Where you are trying to be all things to all people. “I can do that!” “I can be what you want me to be” “I can tolerate any behavior you choose.” This makes you easy to knock over.

Too narrow a stance might mean you have a small range of things that are acceptable to you. You have a picture of how things should be, and you don’t handle it well if they don’t turn out that way. It could be that you cannot let yourself make a mistake, so your perfectionism limits you.

Another factor in being physically and emotionally hard to knock over is to lower your center of gravity. When you have soft knees (assuming your knees can still do that) you can sink the center of your body a little closer to the ground. This is one of the things that makes you grounded and more stable. Emotionally, having your center of gravity low might be this; that you are willing to make a mistake, that you are willing to let other people talk, that you seek to understand others before you seek to have them understand you. That you might start a sentence with the words: “I could be wrong.”

We all only balance momentarily. Since we are alive, we are always losing our balance and coming back to it. No one is perfectly balanced all the time. Some people balance carefully, others more gracefully and freely.

One image of balance within movement I love is that of a pot on a wheel…. As we rest in that stillpoint within, we have a better chance of finding our balance in our shifting and frenzied lives. We can become clear about where to hold on and where to let go. When to feast and when to be frugal,when to speak and when to be quiet. When to come close and when to keep a distance. And we can find our balance. For a while. Until the wheel turns again.


 

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Celtic Christianity/Redemption

Rev. Meg Barnhouse
March 16, 2014

What might redemption be? What are some of the views of the world’s religions about it? In honor of St. Patrick’s Day, we’ll look at how the Celts saw it differently from the more common Roman Christianity.


 

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The Second Commandment

Rev. Meg Barnhouse
March 9, 2014

The second commandment says humans make a mistake when they make idols, or when they worship something other than the One Spirit. What might be some of the idols of our culture? Physical beauty? Youth? Capitalism?


 

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Heard it through the grapevine

Rev. Meg Barnhouse
March 2, 2014

Is gossip always a bad thing, or can it be community-building? What does it indicate about our state of mind? Could it have to do with learning social intelligence?


 

Sermon: Gossip (Heard it Through the Grapevine)

So did you know that John Mayer’s been dating Katie Perry. He doesn’t have such a good track record in his dating relationships. None of them seems to work very long, and now there are rumors that he and Katy are having troubles. She seems to be doing fine, though. She just helped deliver a baby for a friend of hers in her friend’s apartment, so you can add delivering babies to her resume now.

The Oscars are tonight. I have a friend who is a Buddhist monk in Katmandu who loves to watch the Oscars. He can tell you which movie won Best Picture in 1987, who won best actress in 1995. Do you know that Brad Pitt has never won an Oscar? It looks like the red carpet is going to be soaked, with all this rain they’ve been having. What do you think Julia Roberts is going to wear?

Joan Didion says: “We tell ourselves stories in order to live… we look for the sermon in the suicide, for the social or moral lesson in the murder of five. We interpret what we see, select the most workable of the multiple choices, We live entirely, especially if we are writers, by the imposition of a narrative line upon disparate images, by the ideas with which we have learned to freeze the shifting phantasmagoria which is our actual experience.”
-Joan Didion, The White Album

My whole life I’ve heard that people shouldn’t gossip, that it’s trashy behavior. My father told me that the highest quality people talk about ideas, the middle quality people talk about events, and the lowest talk about other people. Byron Katie, who advocates falling in love with what is, would say “human beings gossip. We just do, that’s who we are. You’re living on earth, sweetheart, make yourself at home.”

Research on gossip is beginning to show that humans are fascinated by one another’s lives for evolutionary reasons.

In a Harvard U Press book called Gossip, Grooming, and the Evolution of Language, Robin Dunbar says that gossip within our group, for humans, is a social bonding practice somewhat like grooming is for other primates. In the context of evolution, those who know what is going on make it and those who are oblivious don’t. The current theory is that our ancestors lived in small groups, and the people got to know one another in a face-to-face long-term way. You would want to know who would make fair exchanges with you and who would short-change you, who would give good value to a group and who would try to take a free ride, taking more than giving, who would come through for you in a crunch, who you could trust with your family’s safety? You would need to know about the temperament, past behavior and predictability of those in your group. This kind of social intelligence increased the odds of you and your family doing well.

People who pay close attention to others develop the capacity for determining and understanding the interpersonal connections between people insofar as their emotional intelligence will allow them. Some people are particularly talented at reading emotional cues, anticipating the inner thoughts and feelings of other people, a skill that is sometimes called mind reading… Stephen Johnson, in his bookEverything Bad Is Good for You: How Today’s Popular Culture Is Actually Making Us Smarter, says that watching reality shows is one way kids learn to see a social network as a series of points connected by lines of affiliation. “When we watch most reality shows, we are implicitly building these social network maps in our heads, a map not so much of plotlines as of attitudes: Nick has a thing for Amy, but Amy may just be using Nick; Bill and Kwame have a competitive friendship”. If they can see a social network, they are better suiting to building one for themselves.

Gossip can function as a training tool in the lives of groups. Every group has an unwritten contract: here are the things you do, the things you talk about, the things you let yourself notice. Here are the things we don’t talk about, the things we don’t notice, the things we never do. When someone breaks those unwritten rules, gossip can be a way of socially isolating that person, making them understand that they have broken the norms of the group, and giving them a chance to become better citizens. Sometimes gossip within groups helps to maintain the group’s mythos about itself, the group story. Everyone in this family is successful and sane, goes the myth in one family. Aunt Louise’s kids are messed up and she’s on tranquilizers because she married outside her faith. The last words are italicized, whispered. In this piece of gossip you get taught that it’s expected that we will not be messed up, and that we should marry other Methodists.

One book, Hierarchy in the Forest: The Evolution of Egalitarian Behavior. By Christopher Boehme, suggests that small groups of foragers were like teams in that the individuals did best when their group did best. Having some people who were over-dominant undermined the team, and gossip might have evolved as one way of leveling among the people. People would have a fascination with those who had the most power, and the visceral deliciousness of something bad happening to that person might have been a way of making the team more egalitarian. That guy who won the Nobel? Sleeping with his secretary, who also did all his writing for him. That child raising expert? His kids are in jail.

Gossip has been shown to:

1. Strengthen relationships between friends and work colleagues

2. Reinforce shared values –
We tell stories in order to live. We make sense out of what happens in life by telling stories. We figure out who we are, who we want to be… you have cautionary tales, you have success stories. You find out about the karma fairy. What happens to people when they get divorced? What is the way alcoholism works? What are some good ways to raise kids? What does it mean when you get a twitch that won’t go away? What might that mean?

3. Offer increased feelings of “connectedness” and community spirit.

4. Assist in controlling the poor behavior of others, particularly in an office situation

5. Offers a sense of status by being included in the “gossip circle”
Gossip can even help ward off grumpiness. Half an hour over coffee listening to the dilemmas of a third party can be enough to make you realize that things aren’t quite so bad in your own backyard after all. The feeling of belonging that comes from being in on the gossip circle gives us a feeling of belonging that boosts our self esteem and increases our sense of wellbeing. Gossiping about the lives of people who seem to have it all reinforces the idea that fate can deal a bad hand to anyone, despite beauty, money, and fame. Even Taylor Swift has trouble choosing a man. Even Martin Sheen has a son like Charlie. Turns out gossip can be bonding, it can be a teaching tool, it can be an enforcement tool for group norms. Bad gossip seems to be when a person uses it to undermine the group…when it’s hurting the community. Good gossip helps the community. In that it’s like any life skill. Be a good team player, be good for the community, and it’s positive.

So gossip well, and remember, Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson from Twilight? They never did get married. She said he was too controlling.


 

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Toward Becoming

Rev. Marisol Caballero
February 23, 2014

Not much happens in February. It’s still pretty cold, but there are signs of spring beginning. This is an ideal time to consider all that is to come in what seems like an in-between time and to notice beauty in unexpected places.


 

Call to Worship 
by Gordon B. McKeeman

We summon ourselves from the demands and delights of the daily round:
from the dirty dishes and unwaxed floors;
from unmowed grass, and untrimmed bushes;
from all incompleteness and not-yet-startedness;
from the unholy and unresolved.

We summon ourselves to attend to our vision of peace and justice;
of cleanliness and health;
of delight and devotion;
of the lovely and the holy;
of who we are and what we can do.

We summon the power oftradition and the exhilaration of newness, the wisdom of the ages and the knowing of the very young.

We summon beauty, eloquence, poetry, and music to be the bearers of our dreams.

We would open our eyes, our ears, our minds, our hearts to the amplest dimensions of life.

We rejoice in manifold promises and possibilities.

Reading: “The God’s in My Closet,”
by Terri Dennehy Pahucki

I find them everywhere – in the sunrise, in my toddler’s giggle, in age-old traditions, in the courageous surrender of a friend on the brink of death. Pieces and particles of gods, even whole gods- examined, collected, and eventually stuffed into the back of my closet. Some of them I’ve had for years, hand-me-down heirlooms I may have outgrown but can’t bear to give away. Others I’ve meticulously stitched by hand from an eclectic assortment of fabrics. In fact, I’ve got a closet full of gods that I try on for size when I need one. Some I save for special occasions: the God that Sustains through Funerals; the God of Family Get-Togethers. Others appear when I least expectthem: God the Savior; God the Jokester. I am in awe of the God of Nature and mystified by the God of Time. I’m struggling with the God of Relationships, and grateful for the God of Second Chances.

Amidst my menagerie, there is one god that appears most often, one who refuses to remain in the closet, hidden among the dusty refuse. This is the God of Questions, the God of Human Longing- a god as familiar as my worn-out jeans and as intimate as my own skin. Inevitably, this god arrives just as I’ve begun to sink back into my easy chair and, with one swift blow, knocks me into the world of the living. For I have done more than wear my gods on the outside; I have also swallowed them like a holy wafer and made them part of myself. And they have begun to echo in the still small miracle of my voice – in my questions, in my searching, and in my longing for the discovery of life and all its gods.

Prayer 
by Leaf Seligman

Loving God, We pause in the stillness to rest for a moment, to quiet ourselves so that we can feel what stirs within us. Each breath draws us closer to the pulse of life and with each exhalation we make room for something new. May we find in this gathering the comfort of those who care. May we encounter patience along our growing edges and compassion in our most tender spots. Here may we find the inspiration and encouragement we need to face our challenges and nurture ourselves. And in the presence of suffering across the globe may we redouble our efforts to practice kindness where we are, with the hope that the light of our actions travels like the light of faraway stars. May our gestures of compassion and generosity seed possibility. May we walk humbly with one another, choosing reconciliation over resentment as we try to live right-sized. When life presses in and shifts us off balance, when pain assails us, when frustration mounts, may the rhythm of our breath steady us and bring us back to a place of gratitude.

Sermon “Toward Becoming”

Sermons, like people, have so many ways of coming into this world and living among us. This one had a birth so unusual that I would like to tell you its story.

One of the many reasons that being a Sunday school teacher or youth group advisor is one of the most fun and rewarding ministries to get involved with at this church, is that we have begun holding monthly happy hour gatherings to help grow our friendships and strengthen the bonds between volunteers. It was while chomping on pizza and sipping on wine that I received an urgent text message from Vickie Valadez, our Communication Coordinator. It turns out that she was at home, finalizing the last edits of the February newsletter, when she realized that today’s sermon title and synopsis were not included in this month’s submissions. She needed the information right away.

I said out loud, perplexed, “but I don’t preach in February … “as I checked my calendar, which was then followed by an, “Oh … I don’t preach in March. I am scheduled to preach in February.” Now, I’m not sure how other ministers do it. I wouldn’t be surprised if there are others for whom coming up with sermon topics is second nature. But, for me, choosing a topic and writing a sermon means a way of being in the world. I must be deliberate in remaining open to inspiration. My eyes, ears, mind, and heart must be poised for the Spirit to glide over and land on one of my outstretched branches. Sometimes I sit like this for weeks before I realize success.

I realized that I would not have such a luxury this time. So, in an effort to force the Muse, I did what any other minister might do in a similar situation- I asked table full of pizza-weighted, beer-soaked Sunday school teachers what I should preach on at the end of February!

Luckily, I was sitting across the table from Conner, whose talent is currently employed in religious exploration with three and four year olds, said, “talk about love.”

“Well, it’ll be the end of February. Valentine’s will be over. Everyone’ll already be all “loved” out.” (Disclaimer: I don’t actually believe that this congregation’s capacity for love is that limited. I just wanted to explore other possible themes.)

“Well, hmmm. What else happens in February?” Conner thought out loud. “I don’t know,” he said. “February is sort of the armpit month of the year. Nobody looks forward to February.”

“What do you mean?”

“Well, in the fall you have school starting and leaves turning. Pretty soon it’ll be the holidays- Thanksgiving, followed by Christmas. Then in January, there’s the New Year and the excitement that comes with that. Then, the next things people are going to look forward to is Springtime and things warming up, everything in bloom … So, February stinks. It’s the armpit month of the year. Everyone wants to get it done with. Maybe that’s why it’s so short.”

“I can honestly say that I never thought of it like that.”

“Yeah, so you should talk about all that is to come, finding beauty in unexpected places, since this is a time that there’s so much that isn’t so beautiful.”

And sometimes, the Spirit just plops down across from you, drinking craft beer and eating good pizza! These are the people we have teaching our littlest UU’s, folks!

I’m not sure I’m ready to call this month the “armpit month ofthe year” yet, but I understood where Conner was coming from, especially since I, and maybe many of you can relate, have been in a funky mood lately. I have no reason to feel grumpy, but I do. I love my job. It keeps me plenty busy! I love my fiance and I’m loving the process of wedding planning. I have great friends, I adore living in Austin, and I’m in good health. No complaints. No real reason to feel anything but contentment. Deep down I do, but I’ve been unusually grumpy.

So, maybe it’s true. Maybe this time of year is one that we naturally would rather skip through. I am sure that those in the colder regions of our country would be happy to rush into spring, at this point! Perhaps it is easier to expect to see examples of beauty and goodness when there is contentment in the now. Searching for Beauty; holding out our expectant branches, hoping to feel the sudden lightweightiness of its Truth, is hard when we’re grumpy, especially when there is a true heavy burden of another sort of truth weighing our thoughts down.

A couple of years ago, my Erin and I went on a pilgrimage of sorts, to Big Bend. We stopped in the tiny ghost town of Terlingua, at a house whose sign beside the dirt road beckoned us to come in and view its “art gallery.” Inside, we found a few paintings by various local artists along the walls, and bought some candles labeled “tranquility” from the woman inside. I noticed a stack of small bumper stickers that read, “Push me Toward Becoming in Terlingua, TX” and was moved to buy one.

It seemed like a prayer. “Push me Toward Becoming in Terlingua, TX.” Though I have heard many verbs used in prayers (guide, remind, teach, hold), I had never before heard one so bold as “push.” I stopped Erin in her browsing to show her what I’d found. She liked it, too, and wondered aloud about what it would mean to be pushed “toward becoming.” Becoming what, more fully human? A better person? Or, it could just mean “becoming.” We are never fully finished. We are always becoming.

We bought the candles and the bumper sticker, which I had resolved to stick on my new bike helmet back at home, and we set off. As we backed out, Erin noticed a small sign above the door to the house. It read, “Becoming.” The gallery’s name was “Becoming.” We had a great laugh, but somehow the bumper sticker’s prayerful message didn’t seem any less poignant. Maybe we an~ not so unlike the bare tree branches of February. Maybe we are in need of being pushed toward becoming, too, even if we’re a bit grumpy.

I like the idea of always being in formation, of never fully arriving. I can imagine that, for some, this idea would bring discontentment with the present self, as we are future focused in a quest “toward becoming.” But, surprisingly, I think that the notion that we can be hoping, striving, working at becoming would allow for a greater sense of peace with the self in the present moment- a forgiveness of all that we have not been and are not; a release of hypercritical self-judgment because we can let go of the expectation of perfection.

If we pray to be pushed toward becoming, we might be awakened to the understanding that there is beauty in not only having already become, but more so in the becoming. Beauty dwells in the in-betweens, the unfinished, unpolished, imperfect, even in the armpit of our calendar.

I spent some time researching various thoughts on beauty, what it actually is, and how it can be located and perceived. Here are some of the opinions I ran across:

Everything has beauty, but not everyone sees it.
– Confucius

Never lose an opportunity of seeing anything beautiful for beauty is God’s handwriting.
– Ralph Waldo Emerson

Beauty is whatever gives joy.
– Edna St. Vincent Millay

Beauty is one of the rare things which does not lead to doubt of God.
– Jean Anouilh

Yesterday we obeyed kings and bent our necks before emperors. But today we kneel only to truth follow only beau~ and obey only love.
– Khalil Gibran

Everybody needs beauty as well as bread, places to play in and pray in, where nature may heal and give strength to body and soul.
– John Muir

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and it may be necessary from time to time to give a stupid or misinformed beholder a black eye.
– Miss Piggy, The Muppets

Yes, beauty is subjective. But, I do like the idea of waking ourselves up to it and helping our soul point it out to our eyes, or perhaps the other way around, once in a while. Sometimes we do need a push.

While in Africa earlier this year, I noticed that, in Tanzania, it is popular to decorate a car or van’s windows and windshield with American corporate logos and words in English. Other than a connection to the west, these decals have no apparent context. We saw Nike and Apple computer logos, as well as one windshield that read, “iPod,” in enormous letters. By far, though, our favorite was an overcrowded bus that drove past us, with the giant phrase, “Thanks God,” on its windshield. Something may have been lost in translation. It didn’t say, “Thanks be to God,” or “Thanks [comma] God.” Just, “Thanks God.” This was almost as funny as the church sign further down that highway that told us that we were passing the “Church of the End Times Message.”

Even so, “Thanks God” became not only our inside joke for the remainder of the trip, but also our shorthand for describing our awe and gratitude for moments of discovering immense beauty and kindness. Since returning home, there have been many unexpected moments when a noteworthy sunset, a lingering hummingbird, the smile of a stranger, or an extended hug will provoke a “Thanks God.” Thanks, Tanzania.

If moving toward becoming requires creating inviting branches of our eyes, ears, minds and hearts for Beauty to perch upon, how do we successfully extend such an invitation, in order to seek our Beauty? Outside of what TV, movies, and magazines tell us about it, how will we recognize the truly beautiful about this world? How will we know it when we see it, so that we can properly cherish it? And, how can we then embody Beauty, ourselves?

In her essay, “What Shall We Do With All This Beauty?” Rebecca Ann Parker agrees with James Baldwin when she says that, “the greatest challenge in our lives is the challenge presented to us by the beauty of life, by what beauty asks of us, and by what we must do to keep faith with the beauty that has nourished our lives.” We are living in an age in which the best of ourselves is being asked of us by this beautiful, ailing world. What a mighty gift! Parker encourages us to not be daunted in our “becoming” by saying, “I believe that in rising to the occasion of what is asked of us now, we will discover a depth of strength and a richness of love and courage that we did not know we could claim or achieve. I believe that in rising to the challenge of our times we will wade into the mystery of life to a depth we did not know was available to us:’

In her beautiful, “Benediction,” Parker includes words upon which I could probably hang the entirety of my personal theology and hope:

“The choice to bless the world is more than an act of will
a moving forward into the world
with the intention to do good.
It is an act of recognition,
A confession of surprise,
A grateful acknowledgement
That in the midst of a broken world
Unspeakable beauty, grace and mystery abide.
There is an embrace of kindness,
That encompasses all life,
Even yours.
And while there is injustice,
Anesthetization, or evil
There moves a holy disturbance,
A benevolent rage,
A revolutionary love
Protesting, urging, insisting
That which is sacred will not be defiled.
Those who bless the world live their life
as a gesture of thanks
for this beauty
and this rage.”

Maybe, just maybe, the cure for the February funk isn’t the hope of March or April, after all.


 

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A Sudden Flame, an Extraordinary Journey

Rev. Meg Barnhouse
December 22, 2013

Solstice is the night, holy to the ancients, where we wait in darkness for the return of the light. What kinds of things spark in us to lift us from a place of unseeing, a place of uncertainty?


 

In cultures all across the northern hemisphere, the human race is performing rituals to honor the longest night of the year, rituals to call the light back, lighting candles, bringing greenery indoors. During the darkening time, in the early fall, we have had days of repentance from the Jewish tradition, we have had the days of the dead in the Christian tradition, we have the dance with the dead on Hallowe’en in the pagan tradition. We have watched the dark grow long, we have felt the cold gather in. The light has been narrowing, shortening, getting pale and chill. On this Solstice night, last night the sacred dark will be at its deepest. Some say the dark is a time for stillness but for many of us, this is the liveliest time of the year. In our particular climate, some of us hibernate in the stifling heat and we come to life in the cooler winters. The heat slows us down around here, school is out, we do less, our brains slow down.. I don’t know how you are, what your body’s rhythm is. It has one, and it’s good to pay attention to what it is. Are you feeling the strain of activity at this time of year? Maybe you need stillness in the dark months. Maybe you are humming in the cool weather, getting your house decorated, buying and sending presents, planning meals, having parties, invigorated. Our winters here are not somber and gray. We have sun and esperanza flowers, so ceremonies that talk about the bleakness of winter don’t ring true here.

Maybe it’s your spirit that’s bleak, though. Maybe you are tired, working, giving exams, taking exams, too much shopping, too many expectations, too little money, too much trying to be perfect and lovely and strong. Solstice tells us is that the wheel is going to turn. Things will change. The cool weather comes, and it goes. The light comes, and then it goes, then it comes again. The wheel turns.

Sing
Her name cannot be spoken, Her face is not forgotten
Her power is to open, Her promise won’t be broken
All seeds She deeply buries, She weaves the thread of seasons
Her secret, darkness carries, She loves beyond all reason
All sleeping seeds She strengthens,
The rainbow is Her token
Now winter’s power awakens, In love all chains are broken
She changes everything She touches
And everything She touches changes
We are Changers, Everything we touch can change
Change is, Touch is, Touch is, Change is
Change us, Touch us, Touch us, Change us

IT is ridiculous to call the spirit by a pronoun. “She” is as wrong as “he,” as wrong as “it” or “them.” As we continue to sing it throughout the sermon, use whichever one is comfortable for you. I will use She, as that is how we sing this in my village.

What I want to say to you today is that you can count on a change. If you are feeling lost, numb, confused — it’s temporary. There will be a spark that will signal the turning of the wheel.

“If you have your ears open,” says novelist Frederick Buechner, “if you have your eyes open, every once in a while some word in even the most unpromising sermon will flame out, some scrap of prayer or anthem, some moment of silence even, the sudden glimpse of somebody you love sitting there near you, or of some stranger whose face without warning touches your heart, [these moments] will flame out, and these are the moments that. .. in the depths of whatever our dimness and sadness and lostness are, send us off on an extraordinary journey for which there are no sure maps and whose end we will never fully know until we get there.”

If you are content, if you have things figured out, under control, it’s temporary. There will be a falling apart, a darkening, a time for growing your roots, a time for not knowing what’s going on, a time for learning everything all over again. The human learning pattern is a spiral. We come around to the same place over and over and we say “Am I here again? I never thought I would be having to learn this again, having to figure this out again, yet here I am!” You are in the same place, but you are farther along than before. You know things you didn’t know before. You have experience you didn’t have before. In nature, darkness is necessary for life. There are processes in the trees that need darkness to happen. We are using “darkness” here, not to talk about evil or wrong, but to talk about the necessary and inevitable times when we can’t easily see what’s around us, when it’s perilous to move quickly, when we can’t be certain what to do. What this time of year tells us is that it’s into the darkest time that the light is born.

It’s born in the form of a spark, in the form of a Divine Child, it’s born in an unexpected way, helped along by unexpected things. It’s in danger from the moment of its birth, yet it escapes to grow and flourish. That is the story of the divine Christ child, and it’s the story of many other divine heroes throughout the ages. A human whispers “yes” and the light is born.

How do we whisper “yes” so the light can be born? How do we invite it? How do we open to it so that our confusion can be lit with a dawning clarity, so our lost-ness can be guided by a light through the trees, so our despair can be pierced by love?

Sing
Everything lost is found again, In a new form, in a new way
Everything hurt is healed again, In a new time, in a new day
Bright as a flower and strong as a tree
With our love and with our will
Breaking our chains so we can be free
O Great Spirit, turn the wheel.
She changes everything She touches
And everything She touches changes
We are Changers, Everything we touch can change
Change is, Touch is, Touch is, Change is
Change us, Touch us, Touch us, Change us

What if this were a turning point for you? What might the Spirit touch to turn the wheel? Your fears?

If you could surrender those your heart might be changed. Touch our fears.

What about your resentments? If you can surrender your resentments the wheel might turn. Touch our resentments.

Your expectations of how things should be? Your feeling that you should do things a certain way, just right, and that there is no room for mistakes? Touch our expectations.

Sing
She changes everything She touches
And everything She touches changes
We are Changers, Everything we touch can change
Change is, Touch is, Touch is, Change is
Change us, Touch us, Touch us, Change us

The first Sunday in January you will be invited to come up to put your own individual wishes, prayers and elements in need of transformation into the fire. We will have our Burning Bowl service on Sunday the 5th.

Ritual is a way to open our eyes, our ears, our hearts. Coming together to worship is a way to open, singing, laughing, listening, eating together all are ways to open to the spark, to have a word

“flame out, some scrap of prayer or anthem, some moment of silence even, the sudden glimpse of somebody you love sitting there near you, or of some stranger whose face without warning touches your heart, [these moments] will flame out, and these are the moments that… in the depths of whatever our dimness and sadness and lostness are, send us off on an extraordinary journey for which there are no sure maps and whose end we will never fully know until we get there. “

May it be so for each one of us, as the light is born.

Song Kore’s song.
Adapted from chant by Laura Liebling and Starhawk

She changes everything She touches
And everything She touches changes
Her name cannot be spoken, Her face is not forgotten
Her power is to open, Her promise won’t be broken
All seeds She deeply buries,
She weaves the thread of seasons
Her secret, darkness carries,
She loves beyond all reason
All sleeping seeds She strengthens, The rainbow is Her token
Now winter’s power awakens, In love all chains are broken
She changes everything She touches
And everything She touches changes
Everything lost is found again, In a new form, in a new way
Everything hurt is healed again, In a new time, in a new day
Bright as a flower and strong as a tree
With our love and with our rage
Breaking our chains so we can be free
With our love and with our rage
We are, Changers, Everything we touch can change
Change is, Touch is, Touch is, Change is
Change us, Touch us, Touch us, Change us
bad diang
There is a woman who weaves the night sky
See how She spins, see Her fingers fly
She is within us, beginning to end
She is our Mother, our sister, our friend

What can spark us into a new journey? Breaking Bad “I’m awake!”


 

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A UU Faith Story: John Murray

Rev. Meg Barnhouse
December 8, 2013

Rev. John Murray brought Universalism to the New World. How did he get from an English debtor’s prison to being chaplain in General Washington’s army?


 

Reading
John Murray

Go out into the highways and by-ways of America, your new country. Give the people, blanketed with a decaying and crumbling Calvinism, something of your new vision. You may possess only a small light but uncover it, let it shine, use it in order to bring more light and understanding to the hearts and minds of men and women. Give them, not Hell, but hope and courage. Do not push them deeper into their theological despair. but preach the kindness and everlasting love of God.

Sermon: A UU faith story: John Murray

One of the six sources UUism draws from is the prophetic deeds of men and women throughout history and in our time. We could study the life of Nelson Mandela to see what spiritual depth looks like, to see courage and persistence in the face of violence and injustice. ,This morning I’m going to tell you about John Murray, who came to the New World in 1770, a defeated man, trying to start over again in a land where he could disappear. He was 29 years old, a widower. His wife Eliza and their one-year-old baby died in England, and medical bills had crushed him, landing him in debtor’s prison. John was a deeply religious man, raised by strict religious parents. His father would quiz him when he was 7, 8, and 9 years old, asking him questions about the sermon they had heard that morning. If he couldn’t answer the questions he would get caned or have his ears boxed. Most sermons back then were about hell, as people back then took its threat very seriously.

Unfortunately, you still can hear a good many sermons preached by people who believe in hell. We are surrounded by people steeped in that belief, preachers who will use a funeral service to warn the grieving family and friends that they won’t see their loved one again if they don’t repent and believe in just the right way, so they will end up in heaven. Our UU children, along with the Presbyterian, Methodist and other more progressive denominations’ kids, hear from classmates at school about how they are doomed to eternal torment for not being the right kind of Christian. We call our movement Unitarian Universalism because we believe in Universal salvation. That means we believe a loving God would not send anyone to hell. I think a belief in hell makes people dissociated – holding two deeply rooted opposite thoughts in their minds at the same time, not really able to look at either of them, not able to be a whole and integrated person because of that. I heard a songwriter from Lubbock on NPR years ago. He said “We learned two things in Sunday School. One, God loves you and he’ll send you straight to hell. Two, sex is dirty and dangerous and you should save it for the one you love.” We prosecute parents who burn their children even once for disobeying. Do we believe we are more moral than God? Would anyone you know send one of their children to hell for eternity for any kind of misbehavior, much less for having the wrong thoughts or beliefs? No! Are we better parents than God is? To hold in your mind that God is love and that he will send you to hell requires a twisting of good sense and a good heart. To believe that we should be one way as humans, but worship a God who behaves in a less moral way doesn’t make sense. It would build your understanding on a deep fear and mistrust, and it would make you abandon trust in your own sense, which, after all, cannot understand how love and torture should go together.

People have been thinking this over, fighting about it, for a long time. In the second century, before all the Christian doctrines had been decided by church councils convened by Emperor Constantine, a theologian named Origen of Alexandria taught that humans were born, not in a state of sin and separation from God, but in a state of primal blessedness. Here is what I think is corollary to that premise: If people are born innocent, with free will, then all you have to do is teach them. You don’t have to beat the sin out of them, they don’t have to be changed, they don’t have to be born again into right relationship with God, they are there already. Humanity is not fallen, evil, the world is not wicked in itself, the creation is not jinxed, marred, doomed until it is made whole by some cataclysmic event still to come. This world is good and the people in it are good. People did not discuss these things calmly in those days, and he ended up in his old age being fettered in an iron collar and stretched on the rack for his beliefs, dying for his “heresy.”

John Murray was never put on the rack. He lost everything, though, because he was converted to Universalism in England. He had been a lay preacher and Bible scholar with the Irish Methodists, and he loved good preaching. He visited every church in London, which is how he heard James Relly, a Universalist preacher. The idea that God was loving and that everyone would be saved in the end appealed to him and to his wife Eliza. Their friends begged them to come back to normal church. Their families cried. His business dried up. When he ended up bereaved, in prison, bailed out by Eliza’s brother, he just wanted to disappear, never preach again, never talk theology again, start all over with no history where no one knew him and he didn’t have to face either looks or words of loving concern or a self-righteous “I told you so.” He booked passage on the Hand In Hand, which was sailing for New York. The captain landed in Philadelphia instead, due to a miscalculation. Lots of the passengers got off. They sailed again for New York, but ran aground on a sand spit off the coast of New Jersey, at Good Luck Point.

Asked by the Captain to row ashore to look for food and water, came to a clearing in the pines and saw a large house and a trim looking church made of rough sawed lumber. A tall farmer stood in front of the house cleaning fish. The following dialogue is imagined in the collected stories for UU children called “UU and Me.”

“Welcome” called out the farmer. “My name is Thomas Potter.”

“And I am John Murray, from the ship Hand in Hand.”

“Yes,” said Thomas, “I saw your ship in the bay, stuck on the sand bar, she is.”

“May I buy your fish to take back to the ship’s crew?” asked John.

“You can have them for the taking, and gladly:” answered Thomas, “and please come back to spend the night with my wife and me. I will tell you all about this little church and why it is here.”

John gratefully carried the fish to the sailors, and then returned to Thomas’ home for the night.

“Come, my friend, sit in front of our fire, this chilly fall evening,” said Thomas. “I’m so glad you have come. You may be the very person I’ve been waiting for.”

Potter told Murray that he had often heard the Bible read, and had thought a lot about God, coming up with ideas that made sense to him. He built the little church hoping for a preacher who would teach about things that made sense to him.

“Today, when I saw your ship in the bay,” he said to Murray, “a voice inside me seemed to say, “There, Potter, in that ship may be the preacher you have been so long expecting.”

John said quickly,” I am not a preacher.”

“But,” said Thomas Potter, leaning forward, “can you say that you have never preached?”

“I have preached,” answered John slowly,” and I believe, as you do, in a loving God.”

“I knew it! I knew it!” shouted Thomas.” You are the preacher for whom I have waited for so long! You’ve got to preach in my church on Sunday!”

“No,” replied John firmly. “I never want to preach again. Tomorrow, as soon as the wind changes, I will be on my way!”

After John went to bed, he couldn’t sleep. He wrote later that he thought to himself as he tossed and turned,” I just want to get away from everything…if I preach I know there will be trouble. Why start all of that over again? “By Saturday night the wind had still not changed, and John finally agreed to preach the next morning. Thomas Potter was happy. And so, on Sunday morning September 30, 1770, the first Universalist sermon was delivered in America. Thomas Potter, a Universalist before he even heard John Murray, heard a preacher talking about love instead of an angry God and a fiery hell.

I would say that John Murray is the patron saint of people who are stuck. Our life runs aground, and the way we get it going again is by doing what we were born to do. Circumstances may conspire like border collies nipping at your heels, driving you to the place where you realize what you need to do. May we all find a guide like Thomas Potter, who will give us the push we need in the right direction.

The Revolutionary War came, and John Murray worked as a chaplain to the troops, under the orders of General George Washington. When the war was over, and the new US was founded, in 1779, John Murray organized the first Universalist church in America in Gloucester, Mass. After many years, he fell in love again and married. He and his wife, Judith Sergeant, had a daughter. He was right about having trouble. In Massachusetts, it was argued that Universalists should not be allowed to serve on juries or to testify in court “because no one who did not believe in eternal punishment could be trusted with such serious responsibilities. One Sunday in Boston, Murray was in the middle of his sermon when a large rock sailed through the large stained-glass window behind him, narrowly missing his head. “Murray, never at a loss for words, held up the rock to the congregation’s view, weighed it in his hand, and pronounced, “This argument is solid, and weighty, but it is neither rational nor convincing.” Our job as Universalists is to live in this hell-haunted place and hold out the idea that a loving God would not torture anyone for mistakes or even for really bad behavior. People can make a hell for themselves or one another right here, but God doesn’t make one for us.

Let love continue. If we agree in love, there is no disagreement that can do us any injury; but if we do not, no other agreement can do us any good. Let us keep a secret guard against the enemy that sows discord among us. Let us endeavor to keep the unity of spirit in the bonds of peace.
Hosea Ballou

(Owen-Towle, The Gospel of Universalism, Introduction, p.v). (Scott, These Live Tomorrow, pp.25-26)


 

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Join what move?

Marisol Caballero
October 6, 2013

The Unitarian Universalist Association has sold their historic Boston headquarters at 25 Beacon St. and has opted to move to the more modern, practical, and spacious digs of 24 Farnsworth. This decision to move has sparked little ambivalence, as UUs across the country either love the idea, believing that we are now able to truly walk our talk, denominationally; or are convinced that nothing must be sacred anymore, that the UUA Board of Trustees has sold us out. What does this move truly mean for us, here at First UU Church of Austin, and what does it mean for UUs everywhere?


 

Welcome words

By David C. Pohl

We come to this time and this place: To rediscover the wondrous gift of free religious community; To renew our faith in the Holiness, goodness, and beauty of life;

To reaffirm the way of the open mind and full heart; To rekindle the flame of memory and hope;

And to reclaim the vision of an earth made fair, with all her people one.


 

Story for all ages:

“The Farmer’s Legacy”

Once there was a farmer. He was very old and ill and knew he would soon die.

He had lived a good life and his only regret was that his three children fought all the time. None of them seemed interested in taking care of the large farm the old man had established. They were rather lazy. The farm was big enough for several farmhouses and produced enough food to easily provide for any families his children might someday start. The only reason the old farmer had worked so hard his entire life was to leave a legacy to his children so their life would be easier. Now that his life was near its end, he wanted to find some way to help them see what a precious thing it is to be able to work your own land and provide for your family. So he did.

One winter day, the old farmer called his children to his sick bed. “My children, I have accumulated great wealth.”

“Where is this great wealth?”, they asked.

“You have never seen it. It exists out, deep in the fields. That is where you will find your legacy.” A short time later, the farmer died.

His children grieved, because they loved their father. Their sadness brought them together and they stopped fighting. One day, they decided to go looking for their legacy.

“He said it is deep in the fields. It must be buried.”

So they dug and dug for days. They dug until they had dug up almost all the farmland, but they found nothing. One sibling said, “We have dug up all this land, but we haven’t found our legacy. We must have missed it and I am too tired to keep digging. Still, it is spring and time to plant crops. Since we have already dug up the earth, we might as well plant this field.” So they did.

Fall came and after harvesting their crops, they set to digging again, looking for their legacy. They dug and dug for days. They dug until, once again, they had dug up almost all the farmland, butthey found nothing. One sibling said, “We have dug up all this land, but we haven’t found our legacy. We must have missed it and I am too tired to keep digging. Still, it is spring and time to plant crops. Since we have already dug up the earth, we might as well plant as we did last year.” So they did.

Yet again, fall came and they harvested their crops. This year’s harvest was even bigger than the year’s before. After the harvest, they dug for their legacy and, not finding it again, decided to plant their crops. This continued for a few years. During that time, they got married and started families and they lived comfortable lives off the money from selling their crops. They grew strong from working in the fields and no longer were lazy. They were healthy and happy.

One spring/they all three realized that the rich land ofthe farm and being able to provide for themselves and their families was the true legacy their father left them.

They stopped digging for treasure and started working the farm, happy that their father had been wise enough to leave them this great gift. They decided that they would all share the land and take good care of it, so they could leave it to their children someday.

And so they did.


 

Reading

“Coming Home”
by Mary Oliver

When we’re driving, in the dark,
on the long road
to Provincetown, which lies empty
for miles, when we’re weary,
when the buildings
and the scrub pines lose
their familiar look,
I imagine us rising
from the speeding car,
I imagine us seeing
everything from another place – the top
of one of the pale dunes
or the deep and nameless
fields of the sea-
and what we see is the world
that cannot cherish us
but which we cherish,
and what we see is our life moving like that,
along the dark edges
of everything – the headlights
like lanterns
sweeping the blackness –
believing in a thousand
fragile and unprovable things,
looking out for sorrow,
slowing down for happiness,
making all the right turns
right down to the thumping
barriers to the sea,
the swirling waves,
the narrow streets, the houses,
the past, the future,
the doorway that belongs
to you and me.


 

Prayer/Meditation

By Amanda Poppei

This is the home that love made.
It is full of the love that the founders felt, when they planned out these walls and raised these beams above us.

This is the home that love made.
It is full of the love of all who have worshipped here; those who have celebrated and grieved here; the babies dedicated, couples married, and family members mourned here.

This is the home that love made.
It is full of the love of our children, as they learn and laugh together, and our youth, as they grow into their own sense of purpose and meaning.

This is the home that love made.
It is full ofthe love ofthe staff who have served it, full oftheir hopes for this congregation, their hard work and their acts of dedication.

This is the home that love made.
It is full of the love of the choir, the love made so clear in the voices Sunday morning.

This is the home that love made.
It is full of our love, the love of this community, despite our disagreements, the love that holds us together as a This is the home that love made. Can you feel May the love be with us always.

Amen.


 

Sermon

“Join What Move?”

So, I’ve just flown in from three weeks in Africa. I’ll spare you the jokes about my arms being tired, because in truth, jetlag seems to be serious business. All of me is tired. If I begin to speak gibberish, I’m counting on you all to remain calm and find me a pillow and a soft place to fall. Despite my fatigue, I can’t recall ever being happier to see all of your faces! Here’s what it took to get home from the tiny, rural Zambian village my Erin and I stayed in, visiting friends, for the last week on the Mother Continent:

Our hosts escorted us on a ten-minute hike to the roadside, where we attempted, for one hour, to flag down a ride. Yes, that’s right, we hitchhiked, which in Zambia, is also understood as hailing a cab because, if you drive a car, you make money on the side by giving people rides. After stiff negotiations, Erin and I scored a ride in the seatless back of a newspaper delivery van for ten-hour drive into the capital city for the night. The next morning, we headed to the airport in a more official version of a taxi and boarded a several-hour flight to Johannesburg, where we caught a ten-point-something-hour flight to Istanbul, and another ten-hour flight to John F. Kennedy airport in New York City. At JFK, we were so ecstatic to have reached the US after so much travel, that we gorged ourselves on familiar foods, found our gate, and more exhausted than ever before, fell asleep without realizing it and woke up 20 minutes after the plane departed. What later became known as “THE most expensive nap EVER,” led to our returning to Austin at midnight on the third day of near-continuous travel.

Turning the key in our front door was miraculous. This was my first trip outside the US, and no one had warned me that the quality of reading materials or the size of the movie selection on the plane matters not in such circumstances. The endless hours, lack of movement, and Turkish flight attendants who will appear out of nowhere to tell you to close the window shade if you so much as peak at sunshine from the darkness of the cabin all provoke a type of desperation in which dreams of growing closer and closer to a final destination called, “Home” are all that keep you from pulling out fists full of hair, your own or anyone else’s.

“Home” became this mythical place of safe familiarity, like the thought of returning to the womb. I closed my eyes, trying to block our yet another romantic comedy and a swift kick to the back of my chair, while picturing hugging my pets again, and simple pleasures, like cold, filtered water from the fridge and the vanilla and honey scented hand soap I have in our bathroom. I imagined habitual moments, like doing dishes and driving the car, as if they were events for which I had bought tickets for months ahead of time, and was eagerly awaiting. The thought of “Home” was the golden calf upon which this new faith was being built. It was the ideal upon which I was clinging to, its history and distant memory the only thing keeping me sane as I faced each dragging future hour.

The trip to Africa, itself, was the experience of my life, from which I can bet you’ll hear stories for many years, but what is relevant today, is the idea of wanting to preserve a memory of “Home” that can be returned to.

It isn’t long after becoming a Unitarian Universalist or growing up as a Unitarian Universalist, that someone learns that the headquarters of our Association of congregations, as well as a great deal of our denominational history, is in Boston, Massachusetts. And, typically, alongside that bit of understanding, comes the knowledge of the famous address: 25 Beacon Street. The first time I visited Boston and 25 Beacon St at age twenty-three, I felt as if I had arrived at the Motherland. The two old buildings, sitting right next to the Massachusetts State House, gave me goose bumps, as I thought about all of those who had passed through their doors and all that had happened within those walls that had helped to form this free faith that I love so much.

John Marsh characterized 25 Beacon St. as, “More than an office building, it has been our axis mundi, the imaginary center of our world, the portal between every day and mystical, the destination of religious pilgrimages and the repository for holy relics: including the writing desk of Thomas Starr King and a lock of hair of William Ellery Channing’s … there was another 25 Beacon Street before this one. When the American Unitarian Association moved into the first 25 Beacon Street headquarters in 1886 it was on the other side ofthe State House. When they moved the headquarters in 1927 they had enough pull with the Massachusetts legislature that a bill was passed to allow them to take their address with them: confusing people looking for nearby buildings for generations to follow. Its being out of normal numerical sequence adding to its allure as a portal into the extraordinary, like Platform 9 and 3/4 in Harry Potter’s Wizarding World.” We love our family home.

But today, October 6th, is what is to be known as, “Join the Move Sunday,” in which all UU congregations have been encouraged to talk about, garner support for, or at least rally together in coming to terms with, the upcoming move away from and selling of our denominational headquarters at 25 Beacon St. The reasons for this move are practical and sound and quite visionary, but human emotions are not always so tidy, and many UU’s, including myself, are experiencing pangs of sadness at the selling of our “family home.”

Anyone vaguely familiar with New England real estate is aware that the UUA has been sitting on a property goldmine in 25 Beacon for some time. Our denomination and many of its programs took a major hit during the recession and so, it’s no secret that the denomination could use the financial security that selling this historic property will bring. But, above the lure of cashing in on this investment we, as a denomination are faced with the wonderful dilemma that we are quickly outgrowing our current digs! A year ago, USA Today reported that UUism is growing quickly, especially in the South, while most other faith traditions have declining membership.We are experiencing the same problem here at First UU Church of Austin, where we’ve had well over 100 new members join in the past year and have dropped our attrition rate by 50% in the past two years! We, too, have struggled recently to find room on our campus to house the staff and programs required to sustain a dynamic community this size. In an effort to better serve the needs of current UU congregations as well as to better embody our principles as a liberal religious movement, the decision was made, by our UUA president and Board of Trustees, to purchase three floors of a large brick warehouse building at 24 Farnsworth St., located 1 mile away from Beacon Hill, but a world away from that neighborhood’s “old money” character.

Also, the new building will offer opportunities to become more welcoming, as the space will be more accommodating to groups of visitors and will finally allow our headquarters to become accessible to people of all physical abilities. The new space’s open floor plan will allow for greater collaboration between staff departments and the building’s structure will reduce the headquarters’ carbon footprint by as much as possible, by employing sustainable building practices.

Rob Malia, Director of Human Resources for the UUA and New Headquarters Design Team Lead promises that, “The new headquarters will honor our past while looking to the future, ensuring that we have the best tools and most collaborative space possible to serve you and your congregations.” As planned, the museum-quality, interactive, “Heritage and Vision Center” at 24 Farnsworth St., will help the visitor to:

  • Root [them]selves in a rich history while looking forward to the future;
  • Have a presence and a reach that is local, regional, national, and global; Deepen the dynamic relationship among the headquarters, congregations, and partner organizations; and
  •  Share our story in the larger context of cultural movements.

Listening to this here in Texas, many of us may wonder what all the hoopla is about and why we should care. As a member congregation of this association, the headquarters are our headquarters as much as anyone else’s and what happens in Boston is our business, too. The historic, beloved sites are our roots and a part of our story as much as anyone else’s. Also, as I mentioned before, it is no secret that we find ourselves facing a similar situation. Our ultimate decision to stay and build or to sell and move mayor may not mirror the one that our movement’s headquarters has made. Let’s pay attention.

UUA Executive Vice President Kathleen Montgomery recently reflected: “I dearly love 25 Beacon Street and rarely come into the building (as I have almost every day for thirty years) without reveling in the memories it contains and its stately elegance. Almost every room in it is embedded with stories that remind me of the people who have been in them, ones I know and care about and others who were gone long before my time. Lots of laughter, some tears, marriages in the chapel, endless meetings, important decisions, scheming and planning and watching change happen, watching the Association grow, build on the past, and become more clear about its mission.

Best memory: the era when the Massachusetts State House struggled with the issue of marriage equality and we hung huge signs facing the State House that said things like, “Civil Marriage is a Civil Right.” The demonstrators and the politicians couldn’t miss them.

I love all the memories and get sentimental thinking about them (well, okay, I get sentimental pretty easily). But you know what? It’s time to move on. That belief didn’t come easily or quickly to me but I grew into it with certainty.

We need a different kind of space that fits the time we find ourselves in. We need to unburden ourselves of buildings that are about the past and not about the present and the future. We need to acknowledge that bearing the enormous cost of bringing Beacon Hill buildings into the 20th century, forget the 21 st, would be foolish.

So we’ll take our memories with us as we move on-no one and no building can take them away. They’re ours. They’ll always be ours. Now it’s time to move to a new, fresh, innovative space and create new memories.”

Ultimately, this is the difficult decision that our elected President and Board of Trustees made on our behalf in order to better live into our shared Principles and Purposes. It was decided that the future of Unitarian Universalism should be more concerned with future development than enshrining the heroes and accomplishments of our past. I encourage you to consider searching, “Join the Move” online, learning more about, and donating to the efforts.

As this Movement and this congregation, in particular, continues to grow in the fertile ground of Austin, Texas, we will, no doubt look to this move with a curious mind, asking the questions, “What is the essence of this church community?,” “What will it mean for us to live more fully into our church’s mission?,” “Where might our children find evidence of our legacy, and how might they go about continuing its work?,” and, “How does our location and building reflect all of this?” Though these questions involve change, no matter how they are answered, and change is rough, I am excited to be a part of this community at such a time! For, as Rev. Lewis B. Fisher once said a century ago, “Universalists are often asked to tell where they stand. The only true answer … is that we do not stand at all, we move.”


 

Benediction

Be ours a religion which, like sunshine, goes everywhere; its temple, all space; its shrine, the good heart; its creed, all truth; its ritual, works of love; its profession of faith, divine living.

– Theodore Parker


 

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Bedrock values at the heart of humanism

Rev. Meg Barnhouse
September 29, 2013

One of the sources from which Unitarian Universalism draws are “Humanist teachings that counsel us to heed the guidance of reason and the results of science, and warn us against idolatries of the mind and spirit.” We are believers in clarity of mind without making our reason into something we worship.


 

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Not so good at Mindfulness

Rev. Meg Barnhouse
September 22, 2013

The sixth element of the Buddhist eight-fold path is “right mindfulness.” Do you have to give up multitasking? Do you have to do the dishes meditatively?


 

This is a sermon about knowing what you are doing. It’s a spiritual path I call “Present-Mindedness.” Its rules are simple: Show up. Pay Attention. Breathe. The seventh element in the eight-fold path of Buddhism is “Right Mindfulness”

I have spent a long time fighting mindfulness because I read that we fight mindfulness with eating, drinking, sex, activity and company. You have just named quite a few of the main blessings of life. Reading that, filtering it through my puritan nature or my natural either/or thinking leads me to decide — “yikes, I have to either give those things up or give up on being mindful.” Not true. I also have resisted mindfulness because it sounds too hard, just doing one thing at a time. I fear that I would never get anything written if I didn’t think and write in my head while I did other things.

I read about mindfulness, and some of it sounds like this:

“Usually, the cognitive process begins with an impression induced by perception, or by a thought, but then it does not stay with the mere impression. Instead, we almost always conceptualize sense impressions and thoughts immediately. We interpret them and set them in relation to other thoughts and experiences, which naturally go beyond the facticity of the original impression. The mind then posits concepts, joins concepts into constructs, and weaves those constructs into complex interpretative schemes. All this happens only half consciously, and as a result we often see things obscured. Right mindfulness is anchored in clear perception and it penetrates impressions without getting carried away.”

I have had some time to unpack this, which is one of the things you pay me for, so let me do that. All they are saying is that things happen to us. Then we have thoughts about the things that happen, which mayor may not be accurate. Those thoughts give us feelings. Those feelings can hurt us or others, and they may have very little to do with what happened. Try to just be aware of what happens. Then watch the thoughts you have about what happens.

A simple example might be that, as you are leaving church today, you wave to someone in the parking lot. They turn their back and do not return your wave. That’s the thing that happened. You begin to have thoughts about the thing that happened. “They don’t like me. ” “I offended them somehow.” “I hurt their feelings.” Those thoughts lead to feelings. Shame, anger, hurt. They don’t like me because …. Then you list the things about you people have not liked in the past, or things you don’t like about yourself. You are your own worst critic, if you are like most of us. Then you start having a conversation in your head with them. “1 can’t believe you were offended by that. Grow up! You are just too sensitive for this world. On second thought, you’re probably right, I’m a loser. I open my mouth and who knows what will come out? I should just keep quiet.” You can scald yourself inside with those conversations. When you see that person again, you have feelings about them that they don’t know about. You feel defensive, angry, and distant. You have decided you two have a personality conflict.

Here is what really happened. You waved at them, and they had the thought that you were probably waving at someone behind them, and they didn’t want to look like a fool waving back at you when you were not even waving at them. How stupid would THAT feel? So they just turned and avoided looking like a geek.

One of my teachers, Byron Katie, tells this somewhat earthy story:

“Once, as I walked into the ladies room at a restaurant near my home, a woman came out of the single stall. We smiled at each other, and, as I closed the door, she began to sing and wash her hands. What a lovely voice!” I thought. Then, as I heard her leave, I noticed that the toilet seat was dripping wet. ‘How could anyone be so rude?’ I thought. ‘And how did she manage to pee all over the seat? Was she standing on it?’ Then it came to me that she was a man – a transvestite, singing falsetto in the women’s restroom. It crossed my mind to go after her (him) and let him know what a mess he’d made. As I cleaned the toilet seat, I thought about everything I’d say to him. Then I flushed the toilet. The water shot up out of the bowl and flooded the seat.”

What this spiritual practice of present-mindedness asks us to try is to be aware of when we are having feelings about our thoughts about things– not to stop doing it, not to control our thoughts, but to be aware of what we are doing. Katie’s teaching invites you to ask yourself: “is it true, that that person who didn’t wave to me has been offended? Do I know for sure that it’s true?” The next question is “Can you think of one healthy, sane reason to hang onto that thought?”

Once I was misquoted in the paper. My first thought is “Oh goodness, I sound like an idiot.” It was a story about the billboards about a “ministry” that claimed to be able to take people who are gay and change them into heterosexuals. They said I said the billboards were deceitful and wicked. Which I did. Then they said I said something like “There are some hints that homosexual lifestyle would have been frowned upon by the people 2,000 years ago, but we wink at everything else they thought was wrong.” Which I did not. Only and idiot would say that. So for a while that afternoon, after I read that, I had the thought. “Everyone in town is going to think I’m cavalier about morality. They are going to think Unitarian Universalists have no sense of right and wrong.” Then I got a grip. Only the people who read that article will wonder if I’m an idiot, and the ones who know me will know I’m not.” While I was having the thought that everyone thought I was an amoral nincompoop, I shouted at the dog. Then I thought. “OH, this is my chance to practice. Breathe. I’m having thoughts, then feelings about those thoughts, and they are making me suffer, and I don’t know for sure that my thoughts are true. I will take what action I can, make a plan for the future, and let the rest go.” I wrote a letter to the editor and planned not to talk to that reporter again.

Show up Pay attention. Breathe. Present-mindedness. This simple practice can have big consequences. The University of Massachusetts gives mindfulness training as part of its Stress Reduction Program. The literature for the program says mindfulness practice can help you move toward greater balance, control and participation in your life. They list these benefits:

  • Lasting decreases in physical and psychological symptoms
  • An increased ability to relax
  • Reductions in pain levels and an enhanced ability to cope with pain that may not go away
  • Greater energy and enthusiasm for life
  • Improved self-esteem
  • An ability to cope more effectively with both short and long-term stressful situations.

They describe the opposite of mindfulness: “a loss of awareness resulting in forgetfulness, separation from self, and a sense of living mechanically. “

I like how they say it’s not something you have to learn from scratch. Everyone has had experiences of being 100% there with the experience you are having, without interpreting or layering it with your own accretions. I watched a documentary last week about people who put on flying suits and jump off of mountains. They say they do it because it really puts you in the present moment.

They say: “Fortunately, mindfulness is not something that you have to “get” or acquire. It is already within you – a deep internal resource available and patiently waiting to be released and used in the service of learning, growing, and healing.”

“Already within you” sounds like the way Rabbi Jesus described the Kingdom of God. It’s within you, he said, the size of a mustard seed, the smallest of all seeds, yet it grows into a large bush that can shelter birds in its shade. A tiny practice of showing up, paying attention, and breathing, can have far-reaching effects.

So I sit with the feeling that the whole town thinks I’m an amoral nincompoop. I notice the pain of it. I ask myself if it’s true. I accept this bad feeling. It’s here. I may as well. It will eventually go away.

Mindfulness teacher Jon Kabot Zinn says “Acceptance offers a way to navigate life’s ups and downs – what Zorba the Greek called “the full catastrophe” – with grace, a sense of humor, and perhaps some understanding of the big picture, what I like to think of as wisdom”

Try this for yourself. This is also the great assertion of the Buddha: “don’t put anyone else’s head on top of your own.” Test, test, and know for yourself. Only embrace that which you know, from the depths of blood and marrow, to be true.


 

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Life of Pi

Rev. Meg Barnhouse
August 18, 2013

In this book, a young Indian boy is shipwrecked, and ends up in a small lifeboat with a tiger. What might the tiger be in his life? What might it be in ours?


 

Life of Pi is a rich story, gorged with beauty, horrific suffering, philosophical pondering, compelling mysteries, intellectual challenge. The story, told to the writer by the adult Pi in his home in Canada, is about a sixteen year old boy named after a public swimming pool in France, Piscine Molitor Patel. Tormented by classmates who call him “pissing,” he takes the nickname Pi, “And so, in that Greek letter that looks like a shack with a corrugated tin roof, in that elusive, irrational number with which scientists try to understand the universe, I found refuge.”

Pi is a religious Hindu boy, but while the family is on vacation in the hill country, he is drawn to a Christian chapel. The priest is there, and they have conversations. Pi is outraged at how un god-like Jesus is, from his doubts to his hunger to his suffering to actually consenting to die. When he asks the priest why a god would do that, the priest answers “love.” After three days of talking, Pi asks to be a Christian, and the priest says “you already are, in your heart.”

A year later, in his hometown, he meets a Muslim baker, a Sufi mystic who speaks, enraptured, about “The Beloved.” Pi begins to study the Koran with him and becomes a Muslim. On his next birthday he tells his parents he wants a Muslim prayer rug and he wants to be baptized as a Christian. Both of them are modem Indians, secular and sensible. They get him a prayer rug but they don’t like it. On a walk one day, the whole family is confronted by the Sufi teacher, a Christian priest and the Hindu pandit.

“Your son has gone Muslim” he says.

“He is a good Christian boy,” the priest says. “We hope to have him in our choir soon.”

“You are mistaken. He’s a good Muslim boy. He comes without fail to Friday prayers, and his knowledge of the Holy Qu’ran is coming along nicely.” They have a vigorous debate there in the street in front of Pi’s horrified parents. This, he says, was his introduction to interfaith dialogue.

“He must choose,” they conclude.

“But I just want to love God,” Pi says. He tells a story about Lord Krishna dancing with the milkmaids; he makes himself so abundant that he can dance with each of them at the same time. As soon as one imagines she is his only partner, though, he vanishes. His parents allow him to be all three.

One of his school teachers, Mr. Kumar, is an atheist. Pi recognizes him with respect and calls him a brother believer. “Like me,” he says, “they go as far as reason will carry them — and then they leap. ” The agnostics are the ones he cannot relate to. “Doubt is useful or a while …. But we must move on. To choose doubt as a philosophy of life is akin to choosing immobility as a mode of transportation. “

Pi describes his preferred stance in the world as “an intellect confounded, and yet a trusting sense of presence and of ultimate purpose. Why look at life with a “dry, yeastless factuality. – God is the better story.” Why not love God? It’s a better story.

Pi’s family owns a zoo. He grows up with a pride oflions for his alarm clock, with peacocks, tigers and monkeys all around. He learns how dangerous their wildness is, how much animals are creatures of habit and routine, territory, and hierarchy. This knowledge is life-saving later on.

They decide to sell the zoo to a Canadian company, pack up all the animals and take a Japanese freighter toward Canada. One night in the middle of the Pacific, the ship sinks in a storm. Fast. Pi is on a life boat. On it with him are a zebra, who has broken its leg leaping onto the boat, an orangutan, a hyena and an adult Bengal tiger named Richard Parker who climbs into the boat from the sea during the storm. Over the next several chapters the hyena eats the zebra and the orangutan. The tiger kills the hyena.

Pi needs to get rid of the tiger, but how? Maybe he could just not feed the tiger, and just outlive him? No. A hungry tiger would be worse to have in the boat with you. Pi spends the night in a panic, his body shaking. “Fear is life’s only true opponent.” He says,” Only fear can defeat life.”

p.134 “You might think I lost all hope at that point. I did. As a result I perked up and felt much better. We see that in sports all the time, don’t we? The tennis challenger starts strong but soon loses confidence in his playing. The champion racks up the games. But in the final set, when the challenger has nothing left to lose, he becomes relaxed again, insouciant, daring. Suddenly he’s playing like the devil and the champion must work hard to get those last points. So it was with me.”

The next morning it comes to him. He must tame the tiger. That’s the only plan that will work. “It was not a question of him or me, but him and me.”

“But there’s more to it. I will come clean. I will tell you a secret. Part of me was glad about Richard Parker. A part of me did not want Richard Parker to die at all, because if he died I would be left alone with despair, a foe even more formidable than a tiger. “

Establishing Alpha-Omega relationships with major lifeboat pests, “he says, “is not covered in the life boat survival manual. “

Pi sets about training the tiger, marking territory, using the tiger’s weak sea legs to make him seasick while Pi blows on a whistle, making the tiger associate feeling weak and sick with Pi’s mighty roaring. Pi feeds Richard Parker and gathers fresh water for him. They go blind together from the lack of good food. Nearly dead, they wash up on the shore of Mexico together, whereupon the tiger bounds off into the jungle without a backward glance, leaving Pi to Mexican medical personnel and officials from the Japanese shipping line.

He tells two officials from the shipping line the amazing stories of his seven months in the boat. They say it’s hard to believe that he was in the boat with a full grown tiger for seven months and lived.

We’re just being reasonable,” they say.

Pi replies, “So am I! I applied my reason at every moment. Reason is excellent for getting food, clothing and shelter. Reason is the very best tool kit. Nothing beats reason for keeping tigers away. But be excessively reasonable and you risk throwing out the universe with the bathwater.”

The Japanese shipping officials insist Pi tell them “what really happened.” He insists that they just want another story. As soon as you put the experience of a life into language it becomes a story. Do they just want a story without animals?

Yes, without animals, they say.

He tells a horrific story where his mother, a brutish chef, a Taiwanese sailor and he are in the life boat. After a few days the chef kills the sailor, then Pi’s mother. Pi kills the chef and is alone in the boat.

After telling both stories, he asks the Japanese officials of the shipping company which was the better story. The one with the animals, they answered. Pi said “Thank you. And so it goes with God.”

They draw the parallels. If the zebra is the sailor, the awful chef is the hyena, the orangutan must be Pi’s mother. Then Pi himself is the tiger.

I think life is at times like being shipwrecked. We drift along for a time, powerless.

There is a tiger in the boat. Maybe it’s our wild side, our need to mess things up, our fear, our addiction. Maybe the tiger in the boat is loneliness, the sense of being invisible. Maybe anger is what threatens to destroy you, yet if you kill it, you also kill a piece of yourself that keeps you alive.

So you drift, and from the story of Pi we see someone drifting, filled with a sense of belonging to the Divine, released by letting go and believing he will be okay, having the will to live until he dies, feeling that will be okay too.

How is this a story of Unitarian Universalist spirituality? We are spiritually free to be Muslim, Christian and Hindu, even though others may say we have to choose. Weare free to be atheists or to tell our own story of what it is that we worship. Anyone who puts an experience with Mystery into words – really, any experience into words— is telling a story. Why not choose the best story for you? The one that holds the most layers of truth? Your idea of God may be of a powerful being who holds the whole universe in her hand, or of a suffering loving being who understands what it is to be human, who even holds the experience of real death in his heart. Your idea may be of one flame from which all other candles are lit. Your idea may be of a force of love or truth or justice that flows through the world, or for you, the earth itself is alive and that is what makes your soul blossom like a rose and gives you the power to tame the tiger.


 

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The Oversoul

Rev. Meg Barnhouse
August 11, 2013

So much of UU conversation has been about what we don’t believe. Let’s talk about one thing handed down to us by Emerson and the Transcendentalists – that there is one soul for all things.


 

I remember a class in Seminary where I sat stunned as the professor laid out my whole hard-won system of beliefs on the blackboard, listing the tenets of Mystical Pietism. I thought I had put that thing together over years of high school and college, late-night conversations, wrestling with what I’d been taught as a child, setting some of it aside, honing other pieces of it until they fit what I could live with, what made sense to me. Later, after most of that had fallen apart and I had walked out of its wreckage into what felt like a freer, more truthful philosophy, I was shocked again to read the tenets of Transcendentalism and find that there, laid out, was a list of my whole hard-won system of beliefs. Again.

I’ll read you the list in a few minutes, and you can see whether you are Unitarian Universalist in the Emersonian tradition. First let me tell you a little bit about him. His father was a Unitarian minister who died when Emerson was 8. Several of his brothers and sisters died in childhood, and two more brothers died of tuberculosis as young men. He fell in love with a very young woman, Ellen Tucker, whom he met in Concord MA on Christmas Day in 1827. They married two years later. He was 27 and she was 18. His mother moved to Boston with them so she could take care of Ellen, who was already sick with TB. Emerson was working as a minister, and his faith took one more blow when Ellen died, at 20. He wrote in his journal a year later that he had gone to visit Ellen at her grave and opened the coffin. She was due to inherit a large sum of money when she turned 21, but never made it that far. Waldo (as he preferred to be called) sued the family and was awarded her portion of the inheritance, which gave him an income equivalent to the one he was paid yearly as a minister.

He traveled, wrote, read, and supported his friends who gathered around Concord in what became almost a “genius cluster,” with the Alcotts, Nathaniel Hawthorne, Henry David Thoreau and Margaret Fuller visiting, walking with him, talking intensely about the Eastern philosophies of Hinduism and Buddhism, just coming into the American consciousness, about the abolition of slavery and women’s suffrage. Their association enriched all of them. He married another woman named Lydia, whom he renamed Lydian, and she took care of everyone.

Too much had happened for Waldo to be comfortable believing in the traditional picture of a God who was a personality, in charge of everything. He and the skeptics around him struggled with the ageold conundrum: if God is God, he is not good. If he is good, he is not God.

If the belief that God was a personality, and that this personality was all-powerful was the root of the problem set before him by the skeptics, then perhaps it would be good to let go of that view of God. What do you go on? Not just scripture. There were lots of scriptures from lots of religions – how do you claim one is the truth? The Christian scriptures were being used to justify slavery and to keep women from taking their place beside men as their equals.

Do you go on other people’s instructions to you? No. You had to attend to your own experiences. Personal experience was something he felt you had to trust – your experiences and those of others.

Why are there some moments in life glow with meaning and with power? Some conversations have a depth and quality others do not, some people who seemed to be centered in something that others know nothing about. How do most people know what’s right and wrong, and why do we feel bad when we do something wrong? What can explain the feeling about the Divine that humans have in every time and culture? What feels true? What felt true to Waldo about God was that God was immanent, meaning nearby in life. “As close to me as my jugular vein,” as the Koran says. It made sense to him that God was in the world, in Nature, and that you could learn about the Divine by learning about Nature. He discounted the miracles in the scriptures, saying they had nothing to do with the blowing clover or the falling rain, that they were “Monster,” unnatural, and unworthy of the Divinity.

Emerson said a human being is a stream whose source is hidden, whose being is pouring in from somewhere else. As the earth lies in the soft arms of the atmosphere, every particular person is contained in the Over-soul, the Unity within which we are all made one with all other. There is a common heart. All sincere conversation is its worship, all right action is submission to it. It is that force that makes us feel enlarged by doing good and diminished by doing wrong.

Within each person is the soul of the whole; the wise silence; the universal beauty, to which every part and particle is equally related; the eternal ONE. And this deep power in which we exist, and whose beatitude is all accessible to us. When it breathes through our intellect, it is genius; when it breathes through our will, it is virtue; when it flows through our affection, it is love

Emerson was not alone in describing a new way to see God. Samuel Reed, another minister of that time in Boston, a huge influence on Emerson, called for a religion that sees God in everything.

Emerson wrote in the mid-1800’s that each person makes her own religion, his own God. What is God? “The most elevated conception of character that can be formed in the mind. It is the individual’s own soul carried out to perfection.” He called this the “oversoul.”

Emerson opened up the thinking of his time to the possibility that there is only one Soul, the soul of all things. That is God. Soul is in all things, in us, and the One soul makes itself manifest through our lives, our actions, our voices when they are creative, when they are useful, when they advance the cause of life and of love, truth and beauty. Could this be a way to think about a Higher Power for those of us who feel a need to think that way? Some among us are satisfied with the God or power or force they don’t believe in, or the one they do believe in. Others want to talk about it, not to make creeds or pronouncements, but to honor experiences we have had where we were loved or guided or lifted by something outside of ourselves. What do we call it? How do we talk about it without having to submit to doctrines and oppressive authority? The Oversoul, the One, the Source, maybe those are some ways for us to name this unnamable thing that we feel. See if this list captures some of your beliefs.

Basic Tenets of American Transcendentalism:

This list must not be considered to be a creed common to all transcendentalists. It is merely a grouping of certain important concepts shared by many of them.

  • The human soul is part of the Oversoul or universal spirit

 

  • Therefore, every individual is to be respected because everyone has a portion of that Oversoul or life force. (God).

 

  • This Oversoul or Life Force or God can be found everywhere, a deep power in which we exist.

 

  • The divine can be found in both nature and human nature

 

  • Jesus also had part of the Oversoul – so he was divine as everyone is divine –

 

  • The miracles of the Bible are not to be regarded as important as the whole world is a miracle and the smallest creature is one.

 

  • More important than a concern about the afterlife, should be a concern for this life – Emerson: “the one thing in the world of value is the active soul.”

 

  • Death is never to be feared, for at death the soul merely passes to the Oversoul.

 

  • Emphasis should be placed on the here and now. “Give me one world at a time.” – Thoreau

 

  • Evil is merely an absence of good and not a force in its own right. Light is more powerful than darkness because one ray of light penetrates the dark.

 

  • One must have faith in intuition and experience, for no church or creed can communicate truth.

 

  • The unity of life and universe must be realized. There is a relationship, an interconnectedness between all things.

 

Are you a Transcendentalist? Do you desire to respect the Divine element in yourself, others and the rest of Nature? Might you believe that transformation comes through expanding our awareness of the Divine in all aspects of your life? Does it make sense to you that to be truly human, we need to live in community with others? I think I’m a Transcendentalist, which places me squarely in the middle of Unitarian Universalist tradition. If you are a Christian, you are squarely in the middle of UU tradition as well. If you are more of a Humanist, you are also squarely in the middle of UU tradition. The stream of thought, yearning, conversation and action in which we stand is a very large one. It feels good to have so much gone before and imagine all of those who will come after us in this faith.


 

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Defense against the dark arts

Rev. Meg Barnhouse
August 4, 2013

We’re afraid of all the wrong things.


 

Sermon

In October of second grade we lived through the Cuban Missile Crisis. The teachers at the Mulberry Street Elementary School drill us on getting under our desks, crouching down on our knees, putting our hands over our heads. That was how we were to weather a nuclear missile attack. I was scared. At night I would listen in fear to every plane that flew overhead. I waited for the engines to sputter like they did in the movies when a plane dropped a bomb. I waited for the whistling sound of the bomb falling on Statesville, NC. Sometimes I pictured the bottom land where I rode horses burned and black. I saw myself wandering the streets not able to find my mama or my sister. Even then I knew dying wasn’t the worst of it. Children spend a lot of time being scared.

I was scared of bees, too. I’ve spoken about the time I opened the door of my mother’s station wagon while she was on the highway, ready to jump out because there was a bee buzzing against the window by my face.

Fear can serve a purpose – it moves us out of situations that might be dangerous. It spurs us to protect ourselves, keep deadlines, use discipline in our behavior. It can make us stupid, though. “Fear is the mind-killer,” goes the quotation from Frank Herbert’s Dune. ” rest of the quote: ” I must not fear. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.”

Some people like to be scared. Horror movies where scary men threaten beautiful women. Those movies wouldn’t work if the scary guy was threatening middle aged men, or ordinary looking people, or dogs. I’m not sure why we love to see beautiful people screaming. The news. Awful things happen. Horrors occur. Goodness happens, and humans help one another, but many factors go in to what stories are chosen for the news. I majored in political science, more particularly in the media at Duke, and we learned that one of journalism’s credos is “If it bleeds, it leads.” Good news just doesn’t sell papers, or generate clicks on the web site. Stations in the northeast run stories about how awful things are in the Southeast. Stations in the south run stories about how awful things are in the northern cities. Stories are most likely to be covered if the news people are there already, which is why the coasts figure prominently. News people love stories about themselves, so when the President doesn’t let the photographers follow him onto the golf course, you will have a couple of days worth of stories about that.

The stock central character in a lot of scary news stories is the black man. You see men of color being perp walked into the police station, you see their mug shots. When white collar criminals bring the world’s economy to the brink of collapse, none of them is photographed with their wrists cuffed, none of them is shown trying to escape police. Sometimes they are not prosecuted at all. This is a complex issue, but I want to point out how dangerous it is for black men, who can’t take a run at night, who get pulled out of their cars and rousted even a few days ago when their car is a police-issue black SUV and they are a New York City Police Chief, and who are in danger of being shot by law enforcement. The incident occurred as the NYPD is under fire for record numbers of pedestrians being stopped and frisked, the majority of them black or Hispanic. Some 145,098 people were stopped by the NYPD in the first quarter of this year.

Now we black men and we families of black men have to be worried that we will be shot by neighborhood watch people with guns. Our stereotypes can be deadly.

Another scary character is “the government.” I know a woman who says the government has wave machines that send waves over crowded places to lower the electromagnetic vibrations of the people so they will be angrier, more fearful, thus more easily controlled. She’s very nice, but that’s nuts. No government I’ve known has been that sneaky or well organized. Some people say that the media are keeping us scared so we won’t look at the corporate culture that eats up our family lives by making us work harder and harder, our culture that plagues middle class families with consumer debt because our minds are controlled to work more, work more, to buy more, buy more. I think that is giving the media too much credit for organization and malice.

People make money on our fears of someone breaking into our houses, even though we are much more likely to be hurt by the other people locked into those houses with us. They make money on our fear of identity theft, and it happens, but we’re more likely to ruin our own credit and good name than someone else is.

All of us have fears. Some of them serve their purpose, but some of them get stuck, and they are changing our chemistry, shortening our lives without doing us any good. Sometimes they make the thing we’re scared of worse. I raised two children on not very much money, so I got scared of bills. I just stopped opening them. That did not make them go away. In fact, that fear of opening mail cost me money.

Some practical suggestions on how to be brave. Some coaches suggest you keep an imaginary room in your mind where you keep outfits that will help you. You go in there and put on the accountant’s suit, and do your bills. You put on the fencer’s uniform and mask and go into the business meeting. You put on your wizard’s robes and sit down to write your book.

A less fanciful suggestion is made by (oddly) Merlin, in The Once and Future King. You heard me tell the children. Learn more about it. If you get a bad diagnosis, learn all you can about it. If you have to go through bankruptcy, learn all you can about it. If you are afraid of a certain kind of people, learn what you can about some individuals in that group. Some people are scary, but you can’t tell the scary ones by what group they’re in.

The best thing for being sad,” replied Merlin, beginning to puff and blow, “is to learn something. That’s the only thing that never fails. You may grow old and trembling in your anatomies, you may lie awake at night listening to the disorder of your veins, you may miss your only love, you may see the world about you devastated by evil lunatics, or know your honour trampled in the sewers of baser minds. There is only one thing for it then – to learn. Learn why the world wags and what wags it. That is the only thing which the mind can never exhaust, never alienate, never be tortured by, never fear or distrust, and never dream of regretting. Learning is the only thing for you. Look what a lot of things there are to learn.”

Many people are afraid of terrorists in our country, and we should definitely defend ourselves against terrorism, but when you learn a little about it, you learn that:

You are 8 times more likely to be killed by a police officer than by a terrorist

You are 8 times more likely to die from accidental electrocution than from a terrorist attack

You are 6 times more likely to die from hot weather than from a terrorist attack

Number of persons killed on American soil so far this year by terrorists: 3.

Number of persons killed on American soil so far this year by toddlers: 5.

We are scared of our children being gunned down at school, or being killed in a terrorist attack. Horribly, it happens. But learn more. We lose 5 children a day in the US in abuse-related deaths. We are scared to walk at night in our neighborhoods, scared to hike in the woods alone. We are scared to die by the hand of someone breaking into our home and murdering us.

We are scared to be killed by ricin or anthrax. So know this: We will be more likely be killed by driving too fast or eating too much fat or sitting on the couch night after night, resolving to exercise rather than actually exercising.

Here is what I am thinking. We’re scared of the wrong things. We lock our car doors and take our kids home to where the guns are. We tell them all about being wary of strangers, and we forget to tell them about protecting themselves from uncles and cousins. We don’t let our neighbors into our lives and shut ourselves off so there is no one to turn to when we’re in trouble. We are scared of people who are different from us, we don’t want to know them, we worry that they want to rob or rape us, we’re also worried that lunging to lock the car door will hurt their feelings.

Isolation is greatly to be feared, but our fears keep us alone. Ignorance is greatly to be feared, but our fears keep us at home, associating only with folks of our same nationality, class and color. Rigidity is greatly to be feared, but our fears keep us from bending, growing, changing in a supple way. Missing life is greatly to be feared, but our fears lock us down into a narrowness of experience that sucks the marrow from our bones and leaves us dried up husks in nice brick homes with satisfactory retirement funds. Looking like a fool is greatly to be feared, but our fears make us keep silent when we should speak up and talk to much when we should be quiet. Yeah, we are scared of all the wrong things.

If you find yourself afraid of something, get to know it. check out its reality. Do some research.

Get to know yourself. Don’t ignore the violence in your own heart. Or in your own home.

Take the anti-racism course here in the fall. Increase your cultural competency. Practice seeing individuals rather than members of a group.

Encourage people not to be afraid. Even being afraid of Cancer doesn’t help. Many people overestimate their odds of getting it, and studies show that the greater a person’s fear is, the less likely they are to go to the doctor for timely diagnosis and treatment..

Take a small action to make things better. Most of you are doing that already. If you want a way to do it, talk to me or to Jack, our Social Concerns chair, and we will try to set you up. Refuse to be afraid. Refuse to be afraid.

Take a small action to make things better. Most of you are doing that already Refuse to stay afraid. Refuse to stay afraid.

Fearing Paris
by Marsha Truman Cooper

Suppose that what you fear
could be trapped
and held in Paris.
Then you would have
the courage to go
everywhere in the world.

All the directions of the compass
open to you,
except the degrees east or west
of true north
that lead to Paris.

Still, you wouldn’t dare
put your toes
smack dab on the city limit line.
You’re not really willing
to stand on a mountainside,
miles away,
and watch the Paris lights
come up at night.

Just to be on the safe side
you decide to stay completely
out of France.
But then the danger
seems too close
even to those boundaries,
and you feel
the timid part of you
covering the whole globe again.

You need the kind of friend
who learns your secret and says,
“See Paris First.”


 

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Amazing Grace

Rev. Meg Barnhouse
June 16, 2013

The sermon topic is “salvation.” What does the word mean? Is it something we want? How do we get it? We have yielded the ground on words like this to the more traditionally religious communities, but we really can go there. It will be okay.


 

Last fall this church held an auction, and one of my contributions was that people could bid to request a certain topic for a sermon. One person won the bid, and then another person paid that as well for his request. “God the Huntress” was one “auction sermon,” and I preached that last February. This one is “Salvation.” What would a UU view of salvation be?

Most sermons start with questions. What does “salvation” mean? What are the views of the religions in which Unitarian Universalism has its roots? Are we being saved from something? Saved for something? Are we broken, in need of some kind of fixing or are we good the way we are?

I’ll start with the word. When it is translated from the Hebrew, the language of the Jewish scriptures, it has the connotation “to keep alive,” “to redeem,” “to deliver.” In Greek, the language of the Christian scriptures, its root is “sozo” which means to save, to rescue, to deliver, to protect. “Sozo” is also translated in the New Testament with the words to heal, preserve, save, do well, and to make whole.

There is a range of meanings in the word “salvation,” from being delivered from something, kept safe, rescued, or healed. It has to do with the endpoint of the soul, with a state of being that is clean and free and peaceful.

Even though the word from the auction question comes out of the Jewish and Christian traditions, I would like to range farther afield into a more ancient religion to see what it was its adherents were trying for. I suppose the most ancient religions are the earth-based ones that Christian scholars call “fertility cults.” You find yourself in this great world and you have to feed your children, which are formed somewhat miraculously inside your bodies. Well, the female ones, anyway. Of course, matters of how to stay alive will be at the forefront of your thinking. Sometimes the berries are thick and sometimes they don’t grow. Sometimes your children are healthy and other times they are in trouble. Is it something you did? Can you do the things that will make everything good? Are there spirits or gods involved who want certain things? Do they need to be reminded to make things grow? Do they need to be appeased to make your childbirth go well, to give the hunters luck with the hunt? In this system, keeping the gods awake and appeased so that things happen well would be what was most desired. Salvation would have to do with being in favor with the earth and the sky so that your life is sweet and your children live.

In the middle east, Judaism was stirring between two and three thousand years BCE. Its main teaching was that there was one God, and that the best way to look at things was not as an endless cycle, the view of earth-based religion, but as a timeline with a beginning, a middle and an end. The primary relationship was not between the people and the Earth, it was between the people and the God. A person was called to be righteous, doing what the God said to do, but as the religion developed though the time of slaver, through the Exodus from Egypt, and the time as the people of Israel, Salvation was seen, not as an individual matter as much as it was that the people of Israel were to be redeemed as a whole. What redemption meant in that context was that they were free from oppressive rule, that they were keeping the Torah, the commandments, living righteously and pleasing to God. In the Jewish Scriptures, you are righteous even when you fall. The righteous person can sin, can fall, can disobey, but the righteous get up again and keep their faces turned toward God. Hope continues for the salvation of the people, and for the healing of the world.

In the earliest Hindu Scriptures, the Vedas, which come from about the time of the Exodus, the beginning of the Jews as a people, the main concern is for doing things in the right ways that would appease the gods so life would be good. Later on, in the Upanishads, the concern becomes more about how to attain eternal peace, how to get enlightenment. The earliest Upanishads were being written around the time that Buddhism was beginning, around 500 BCE. Both Hinduism at that time, and the new offshoot, Buddhism, were concerned less with how to make sacrifices to the gods and more about how to understand reality and the self in order to let go of the rollercoaster of happiness and suffering. How to come into peace. That peace would be the understanding of salvation from the Hindu and Buddhist point of view (and I want you to know I am painting with a very broad brush). Salvation is getting to the point where you are no longer weighed down by either good karma or bad karma. Karma is the energy generated by actions. You are born the last time and then escape from the endless wheel of rebirth. Some sects of Buddhism believe that you can be helped along the way by borrowing some of the good karma of the saints, or bodhisattvas. Others teach that you are on your own, doing good deeds to build merit for a better reincarnation each lifetime until you achieve release from the endless round of rebirth is salvation.

For most segments of Christianity, salvation means being rescued from the punishment due you for your individual sins. This is the system of thought I know the most about, having spent my childhood in a Christian family and studying for the ministry for three years at Princeton Seminary. Some Christianities teach that humans are born in sin. Presbyterians, Lutherans, Episcopalians believe this. The action of God is necessary to lift you into salvation, which basically means you get to go to a place called Heaven when you die. Methodists believe that humans are born good, and that they can choose to do good or bad things. Even if you aren’t born in sin, you still choose to do bad things, and you need forgiveness. The teaching of most Christianities is that salvation comes from understanding that the death of Jesus the savior atones for your sins, as he took our punishment on himself to save us. So your sins are paid for. Forgiven. Paid for?

My father is a Presbyterian minister who has studied the Bible long enough to come to believe in Universal salvation. That God doesn’t send anyone to hell. That makes him a Universalist. He says “look, your sins can’t be both forgiven and paid for. If I owe you ten thousand dollars, and she pays you on my behalf, then my debt is paid for. If you say that you will forgive my debt and it no longer has to be paid, then it’s forgiven. Either one or the other, but not both.” He preaches that Jesus died, not , our sins, but he died because some people killed him. God forgives us with or without that, and also forgives those people for killing him. In that view, salvation comes from God’s forgiveness. You aren’t rescued from the consequences of your actions, no one teaches that. You are rescued from any kind of eternal separation from God because of your actions.

For Islam, the most recent religion we’re looking at (if we count Unitarian Universalism as starting back in the third century with the Arians “heresy) salvation has to do with going to heaven. You get to heaven if you believe in God (Allah) and in his message, Islam. If you just believe in God and not in Islam, your fate is in God’s hands. There is no heaven for people who don’t believe in God.

For Unitarian Universalists there is no danger of hell. People can create hellish lives for themselves and for one another, but it’s here in this life that hell is felt. If there is no hell, there is nothing from which to be delivered, except for our own guilt and regret over promises broken and damage done. Grace consists in forgiving one another, and in forgiving ourselves. Grace can be a realization, an insight that frees our thinking and feeling. It can be another person allowing us a fresh start, not holding our actions against us. Grace can be a touch from a book, a piece of music, a view on the hiking trail, a line from a movie that puts something into a new perspective. It can happen when someone else cleans up a mess you made. It can happen when someone decides that you are more than the mistake you made. Sin is, in Buddhist language “out-of-joint-ness,” in Christian language “missing the mark.” Both concepts have to do with something not fitting, not in harmony, not working the way it should. Unitarian Universalists have a sense of sin when we break promises, when we do not act out of our better selves, when we drink bottled water, or, worse, toss our empty water bottles in the trash. We have a sense of sin when we drive gas-guzzling cars or judge someone for something we’re supposed to tolerate. Sometimes we do things that are worse — – when we are abusing substances, being cruel to family, willfully turning our thoughts away from things we know we should be paying attention to. How do we get made whole from those things? How do we forgive ourselves, which is often the hardest step? Salvation, for us, means being made whole. It’s a process having to do with getting better and better at doing what we say we’re going to do. With our chosen spiritual practice, we get more stable, more emotionally disciplined, more sturdily rooted. With practice in compassionate and loving relationships, we get better at both giving and receiving love and compassion. We ask forgiveness for what we do wrong, and we make amends the best we can. What is salvation, wholeness after death? No one knows. Read “the Green After.”

Today I have too many friends who are dying. Sometimes at a Unitarian Universalist memorial service I feel dissatisfied-and I’m the preacher in charge. I think: What is going on that I can’t figure out how to preach my view of resurrection?

I know that people would want to hear it; I’m not worried about offending or confusing anyone; and I treasure the ability to speak the plain truth as I see it. The plain truth is no one knows for sure what happens when we die. That’s not a very stirring thing to proclaim at a funeral, though, honest as it is. We all have some kind of belief about it, even if that belief is that there is nothing after we die.

The reason I haven’t preached it yet is because when I call to mind my belief about the afterlife, it comes to me as a color.

At a camping weekend with friends, we were nestled in a clearing on a mountainside. Most of the folks were around the campfire, talking or dozing. Our chef was in the cooking tent, grilling and gossiping with his fiancŽe and a couple of others. I love those people, and they love me. Being surrounded by love is one fine way to spend your time. I wandered off to the hammock, and lay there looking up at the sky through early April leaves.

I was soaked with light, the blue of the sky, the green of young leaves, the sun shining through them like stained glass. I thought, “When I die, I want to have my ashes buried under this tree, so that for one spring after another my body can be part of this particular green.” I could feel my life flowing through the cells of a leaf, feel the leaf opening to the warmth and the light, feel myself part of that green, and I was happy.

If that is my afterlife, I will be deeply happy.

The hope of that afterlife doesn’t take any leap of faith. I know it can happen. The minerals and the water in my body can be soaked up through the roots of that tree. A part of my body will be unfurling, green in the sun.

My soul may be somewhere else. Sometimes I think my soul will float in an ocean of love. Will I recognize old friends, family, who have gone on ahead? I don’t know. I think I will know they are there. I will know this: there is not now nor was there ever any separation between us. I will know that they were with me as strongly when I was alive as when I’m part of the leaves.

The green of a new leaf, lit from behind with the spring sun-that color stays inside me, a glowing place of peace, the certainty of remaining part of life. During a memorial service I see that green, I feel that peace. It’s hard to preach a color, but I’m going to think of a way.


 

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